Grey’s Anatomy: The Time Warp ↳
I’ve seen a lot of surgery residents come and go in my time and they’re all addicted to surgery. It comes before food, before sleep. It becomes the most important thing, the only thing. What they don’t know is that living on that high can eat them alive. Some make it through–they come out on the other side. They survive with their sanity intact. They become better doctors and stronger people. I didn’t. I broke it. I didn’t kill anybody and I give thanks for that every day. But I hurt people. And I scared the hell out of myself.
“I don’t have a sexuality. I don’t feel like I’m female or male. I don’t belong to the gay or straight society, if there is such a thing… I feel like I’m capable of falling in love with other people… I’m just sexual!… [Gay, straight, bisexual,] I don’t feel like I belong to any of those. So I’m not going to put myself in that camp, or under that title. I don’t feel one thing or the other, I don’t feel man, I don’t feel woman – that’s where the androgyny comes from. I probably feel more feminine than I do masculine… but if people want to hold me up as a gay role model, absolutely, I’m proud to be that, but I don’t feel the need to say that I’m gay to do it.”
“I had this memory game when I was a kid. A bunch of cards face down, in rows. Each card has a picture. You turn one over, look at it, then you turn it back over. Then you have to try and remember where its matching card was. Sometimes, you have no idea, and other times it shows us exactly what we need to see. The cards seem completely out of order and random but you keep turning them over and the more cards you see, you get a sense of how everything fits together.”