I had to get this out of my head or I wouldn’t be able to move on today. True fact, I am a terrible sucker for doomed romances. The ones that are so passionately, emotionally charged that when they’re bad, they’re a carwreck, but when they’re good it’s like being on the greatest high ever.
brokeback mountain!au where charles xavier — jack twist,
erik lehnsherr — ennis del mar
tell you what, we coulda had a good life together! fuckin’ real good life! Had us a place of our own. but you didn’t want it, erik! so what we got now is brokeback mountain! everything’s built on that! that’s all we got, boy, fuckin’ all.
That part near the end of brokeback mountain where jack watches ennis drive away right after their argument and it’s contrasted with jack watching ennis ride away on brokeback mountain all those years ago and it’s a visceral and gutting reminder of what could have been but it isn’t it wasn’t and it never will be
“The loneliest people are the kindest. The saddest people smile the brightest. The most damaged people are the wisest. All because they do not wish to see anyone else suffer the way they do.” - Anonymous