advance apologies if these aren’t the droids you were looking for. if you’d like a more specific rec list, feel free to let me know, but these are some of my very, very favorites and so utterly cherished. most of them have a dark, gritty sort of edge as that’s my most favorite flavor.
i haven’t listed the warnings, but please do make note of them when reading.
Yes (1.8k, R – a deftly worded love story that tells of jensen not being an autistic man, but of being a man who has autism. jared is his live-in nurse. very, very carefully told, with such grace and so many little details that make this whole thing thoroughly moving. and burning hot.)
Evolution (3.5k, NC-17 – it’s the end of the world and jared knocks on jensen’s door. zombie fic. charming, harrowing, and aggressively arousing. this one’s a toughie to push past once you near the halfway mark, but it’s worth it to keep going. the dirty happens after the heartbreak.)
A Delicate Balance (3.2k NC-17 – jensen is a psychiatric hospital patient who’s in love with his imaginary friend. unbelievably gorgeous and so uniquely written. it’s also told from jared’s POV. 50% horror, 50% porn, 100% beautiful.)
Sad Song (400 words, R – jared’s a coma patient and jensen’s the guy who adores him, physically. jared doesn’t say no, but he can’t say yes either. ultimate creep factor, and a very skewed ‘love’. an instant all-time favorite for me. jared POV again.)
Changing Life (4.6k, NC-17 – there’s a very prominent theme here and it took making this list for me to realize it. like the previous two, it’s also jared POV, he’s also again at jensen’s mercy, and there’s no way to summarize this one without ruining the magic of it. true horror-romance at its best. this one is best read without knowledge of the warnings, if you’re comfortable doing so.)
Cemetery Dreams (2.4k, NC-17 – ghoul!jared and cheerleader!jensen. a glorious take on a high school AU. so cutely creepy, from beginning to end. the language, the plot, everything about this one.)
All Your Love and Your Longing Behind (19k, NC-17 – A/B/O world. teen!alpha!jared is in love with his omega stepdad, jensen. pining, porny, infidelity, mpreg, and so fast paced and witty and every tiny little beautiful thing.)
Keep It Professional (1k, NC-17 – jenny is mr. padalecki’s new assistant and this is some solid fucking office porn, with bonus genderplay and crossdressing kink. when jared makes the discovery of what’s what, that’s it. that’s the moment.)
i do hope this is helpful! let me know if i can assist you further ♥ ♥ ♥