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carcsass asked:

all the crayon asks

Bubble Gum: Gender? Female!

Almond: Hair color? red/ginger

Aquamarine: Eye color? blue grey


Asparagus: Birthday? February 17th


Cerise: First name? Savanna


Dandelion: Middle name? Elizabeth


Leather Jacket: Long or short hair? on me or someone else? if on someone else i dont really care on me long for sure


Pink Sherbert: Short or tall? tall


Lavender: Braces? no thank god


Manatee: Smoker or non smoker? on and off but ive been off for awhile now lol


Mountain Meadow: Drank or still drink alcohol? drank.


Wisteria: Ever done drugs? meh not really?


Emerald: Favorite thing about yourself? i can make people laugh


Black Shadows: Something you’re allergic to? theres a medication im allergic to that i dont remember the name of lol


Denim: Any diseases? nope


Raw Umber: Sexual orientation? straight af


Misty Moss: Kissed anyone other than family? ye


Outer Space: Had sex? nope


Shadow: Name of crush? aaaaaaaayyyyyyytristanyyyyyyylmao


Smashed Pumpkin: Why you like the person you do? what’s not to like tbh like he’s funny and cute and sweet a n d talented annd cheesy as hell idk man hes just great


Magic Mint: Number of people you dated? 2 or 3


Steel Teal: Longest time you’ve dated someone? year and a half


Thistle: Number of best friends? 4


Eggplant: Number of siblings? nil


Fuchsia: Number of pets? 13 outdoor cats


Plum: Still live with parent(s)? sadly


Razzmic Berry: Name of your mother? connie


Sonic Silver: Name of your father? robert


Sea Serpent: Both parents still alive? yep


Eucalyptus: Country you live in? The U.s


Salmon: Place you wish to live or visit? Scotland


Winter Sky: Number of days missed from school this year? s i gh


Mystic Maroon: Met anyone famous? yep


Dark Venetian Red: Dream job? something in music


Radical Red: Aesthetic? watching the sunrise over the ocean tbh


Malachite: Something you love? music musicmusicmusic


Moonstone: Something you love the smell of? coconut and almond and vanilla ugh
Bittersweet: Favorite music artist? metallica slipknot and pearl jam


Lemon Glacier: Favorite album? atm Lamb Of Gods new album


Inchworm: Favorite song? Embers by LoG

Mellow Yellow: Favorite TV show? meh i dont watch tv much

Wild Blue Yonder: Favorite movie? aLL the marvel and lotr


Blue Bell: Favorite restaurant? this mexican place in my hometown


Medium Orange: Favorite fruit? hmm apples or grapes idk man i love all fruits tbh


Mulberry: Favorite vegetable? hmm idk man i love all veggies p much


Canary: Favorite class in school? History


Periwinkle: Favorite website? ugh this trashsite


Black: Favorite season? late summer


Ruby: Favorite holiday? its a holiday whenever my favorite bands release new music


Midnight: Favorite day of the week? friday


Maximum Purple: Favorite time of day? hmm varies


Permanent Geranium Lake: Favorite flower? lilies


Sea Green: Favorite animal? wolf


Timberwolf: Movie theater or Netflix? y not both


Blizzard Blue: Buying music or downloading from YouTube? if i had more money i would buy everything tbh

thanks bae!!

Not sure what to title this, I’m more just typing sentences that stick together in my brain. Or I guess its not my just my brain anymore huh? Fuck that takes awhile to get used to. Anyway, figured the point of a blog is to vent right? Thats the whole point. First time Ive done somethin like this.

Name’s James. Here for my brothers and sisters. Dont really care about much else. Heard my girlfriend Jenna came around here but left. Shame. Id have like to had her company.

Brothers name is Nikolyth and I got two sisters here: Vashira and Silfire. Only Silfire is biological, and I dont know her all that well or for that long, but I know shes more than competent. Ive been around with Nicko and Vash for almost as long as Ive been alive. We stayed together when we were freed, and have taken care of each other ever since. 

Of the three of us, I take the harder jobs if I can. Try and spare Nicko and Vash from the worst of it. Course recently the factory and farmin jobs have dried up and weve gone to the cities. Easier to find money there. Nickos the one that does the finances but I keep up. Both of us can gamble and deal but I prefer to keep him outta places like that. Things can get dangerous. Its sure fuckin satisfying to see the looks on the older guys faces when they lose to us, but folks like that can get violent when they lose to a kid, specially a blonde one who could blend right into the suburbs if he wanted to. Still, hes got talent. Blows me away sometimes. 

Its nice to see him again. Im here because he and Vash popped over. I kept my ear to the ground after he dissapeared. Cant quite remember how I found them but here I am. Been here since…well I cant quite remember, but I know its only been a few months. Mostly been staying inside. Usually been out for work and dealing with Nickos boyfriend. But Im starting to think this site might be okay.

Thats all for now.

James

anonymous asked:

I'm turning my feelings off. I just needed someone to know.

at the end of the day thats your choice hun.  i did that and for some time it works, you stop having to deal with all the pain for a little bit atleast for me and for awhile i removed my true self from society. but eventually its gonna hit you back in the face really hard and atleast for me i had never felt so alone. i hardly cry theres times i want to and i cannot. i feel no remorse and very little empathy for other people. ive done exactly what your going to do and it turned out really ugly for me but i understand the desire to do it. i just want you to know it lead me down a path of anger, hate, loneliness, and even for some time Satan worship. but that’s just my advice for you if you absouluty need to just turn off. then i know nobody will stop you but if there’s anything in you that can keep going grab onto it and don’t let go. im always here if you need me.