At college, when people ask us how we met, how will we answer them? The short story is, we grew up together. But that’s more Josh’s and my story. High school sweethearts? That’s Peter and Gen’s story. So what’s ours, then?
I suppose I’ll say it all started with a love letter.
Always and Forever, Lara Jean by Jenny Han
*sigh* Thank you Jenny Han. This book is just the perfect conclusion for this lovely and amazing series and I know that Lara Jean’s story will always stay with me 💕💕
i. no matter where you are - us the duo /ii. lucky - jason mraz (ft. colbie caillat) / iii. she’s a riot - the jungle giants / iv. mountain & the sea - ingrid michaelson / v. going back in time - artisan guns / vi. according to you - orianthi / vii. soldier - ingrid michaelson / viii. ho hey - the lumineers
I was in a good mood when I woke up, and wanted to make some yummy pancakes. At first I thought of being lazy and having cereal instead, but then I thought of the pancakes my grandmother used to make, and I became determined. I had never made pancakes from scratch on my own before, and didn’t know how. I googled an easy pancake recipe, and followed the instructions.
or tried to.
ive never followed any cooking instructions, so finding all the ingredients took some time. Measuring was especially painful. The whole process of putting flour into a cup, making sure it filled the whole cup, and then dumping it into a larger bowl was about as uncoordinated as a preteen trying to juggle.
Eventually I did it. I got all the ingredients into a bowl and whisked them. But the whisk was too small - I chose the wrong one - and the batter was thick and I didn’t understand why or how to fix it. I felt like I was doing it all wrong.
But then I said whatever, it’s fine, it’s your very first batch of non-aunt-jamima-purely-made-from-scratch pancakes, you’ll get better.
But then I reminded myself of the fact that I am 18 years old and have never really cooked at all, let alone made pancakes from scratch.
I kept going back and forth between these two feelings - feeling useless, and feeling like a work in progress - until I made the first pancake. It was thick, like a brick, slightly undercooked, not round at all
And tasted like rotting corpse.
Well, not rotting yet. Maybe just corpse. It tasted bland and sandpapery and not like the lovey yummy pancakes my grandmother used to make. I almost started to cry, when my mom walked in. She took one look at me, and walked the other direction to the laptop to pay some bills. I asked her if she wanted a pancake and she bluntly said no. I realized that i missed one of the ingredients - sugar. I added some into the batter with high hopes that the pancakes will get better.
The very last pancake of the batter turned out to be very small, so I thought it would be perfect for mom to just try if she wasn’t hungry. I perked up - they have to have gotten better with the sugar, and I was starting to get the hang of making them not as thick, and cooking them well.
I put moms pancake on a seperate teeny tiny plate, took a deep breath, and walked over to her with a big smile. I sat down next to her on the couch offering her the plate with both hands, and a childlike grin.
she looked at me and said ‘what are you doing’
I was so shook I just repeated my question: do you want a pancake? she asked why
I had just handed her the plate before the first tear streaked down my cheek.
this story may sound really dumb to anyone that reads it, but I put effort into almost everything I do, and i have high hopes. I also have a very strong sense of what is right and wrong, which leads me to be really harsh on myself. What I was really hoping was that mom would take the pancake and just say thank you. I knew it tasted bad, she probably knew too because I’d never cooked anything from scratch alone before.
help! I knew I was bi when I fell in love with this girl and I told her I liked her in the form of a mix cd not long before she moved to Oregon Ive been penpals with her for a while she doesn't like me, and when she said she did it was only because she hadnt dated in a while and felt lonely Well in the last letter she sent she said that the song "Garden City Movement Move On" Quote: purely because of aesthetic. What does that mean?? I imagine us in love & married one day, will she ever love me?
Firstly, I love that you gave her a mix cd to express your love?? That’s so 90′s and I love it??
I’m not really able to give you the meaning of the song she gave you, I think that depends on her and what your relationship to her is. Based on the title alone, though… She might be asking you to move on from wanting a romantic relationship with her.
It’s really crappy that she told you she liked you only because she was lonely. But that’s a part of life. Sometimes we say things that we don’t really mean because of something else going on. Does that make it acceptable? No. But it does make it understandable.
Now, down to the meat of the question…
Do we know that she won’t ever, ever, EVER, be into you in the way you’re into her? No, I can’t tell the future and she might one day fall in love with you. But that day is not today, and today she is saying she’s not interested. It sucks to love someone and not have them love you back, but, again, that’s a part of life.
You need to respect and accept the fact that she’s not into you today. Beyond that is up to you.
The way I see it, you have two options.
Option 1: The Clean Break
If you don’t feel like you can handle being friends with her while you still have these feelings for her, tell her that (in a way that’s not blaming her for her feelings, but just state the fact that you don’t think it’s fair to either of you to keep going as friends while you feel this way) and move on to fully get over her.
Clean breaks get all the pain out of the way at once.
They can also be really hard depending on how long you’ve been friends with her, and how much history you have. All of that doesn’t just go away. It should be easier for you, though, because she’s moved away.
Option 2: The “Let’s Be Friends”
If you want to still be friends, pen pals, etc, that’s fine. Just don’t do so with the expectation that it’ll win you points and get her to like you. That’s not fair to her and gives her the impression that you’re her friend because you want to be her friend, when in reality you’re only being her ‘friend’ to try and get her to like you. Don’t be that guy.
One of three things can happen when you try this:
You stay hung up on her forever, never able to have another healthy relationship because maybe one day she’ll love you. See: Ted with Robin in How I Met Your Mother.
You end up having a friend break up, fed up with her not loving you and you end the friendship with more heartache for both parties and a totally irreparable split. See: every ‘friendzoned’ dude ever.
You actually do accomplish to fully get over her and are able to have a lasting, healthy friendship, you find another wonderful woman to date and marry and your friend is your maid of honor and everyone lives happily ever after. See: Joey with Rachel on Friends after they tried to date and it super didn’t work out.
I’m gonna be honest with you, outcomes 1 and 2 happen far more regularly. Also I’m sorry for the sitcom references, they’re what I’ve got.
It’s entirely up to you. Either way will be difficult in different ways. You need to take honest stock of your feelings and whether or not it’ll be healthy for you to continue trying to be friends with her.
I know it’s a cliche, but there are plenty of fish in the sea! I know the lesbian/bisexual sea is somewhat… limited. But there are still others out there. Please don’t stay hung up on this girl when there’s another one out there for you to love who will love you back!
PS: Sorry this was so long, I had a lot of thoughts on this topic!
So, quite honestly, this is probably incredibly ambitious but i need something to do to keep my mind off other stuff lol.
I’m going to see Dodie Clark aka Doddleoddle aka cutest human bean on earth in OCTOBER and i am so incredibly excited its ridiculous
anywho. I think we all know Dodies done SO SO SO much for us, between traveling around everywhere, writing and performing her music, etc etc etc, and we all love her very much.
well id like to do something for her too. Ive seen this done for people before, but i dont think anyones done it for dodie, and id like to put a bit of a twist on it.
I’d like to make a book. Id like it to include art, quotes, messages, etc, etc, etc, anything you guys want. I’ll print it and put it together, and hopefully get the chance to give it to her????? that would be amazing.
I’m going to tag some artists who’s art i saw in the ‘dodie clark art’ tag (under the cut), as well as some dodie-related blogs i follow, so sorry if im annoying you or anything lol.
if you are interested, please please message me. you can contact me here on tumblr, my email firstname.lastname@example.org, or on my kik which is “jordanbeebe.” (with the period lol)
please please please reblog this, and tag people who you think might be interested! we can all contribute, even if its something as small as a short message you’d like to add. (keep in mind if i dont get enough people, i wont be able to do it, so please spread the word!!)
if this happens, ill need all the submissions by about October 10th, but ill post more info in the next day or two. thanks you!!!!!!!!!!
Losing weight is no where near easy. In your mind its pretty much right next to impossible. But it’s not! Self motivate yourself! Look up inspirational quotes get your mind going on the idea. After working for so long and making it a habit. It actually becomes pretty fun. I use dancing as my workout technique and it does its job. Ive lost 120 pounds in a year in a half. If I could do it you can to!!!