ive lost my ability to even

jennyspring  asked:

this might be random but i was going through the rebelcaptain tag, my current obsesssion... and since you offered... do you know of good rebelcaptain fics especialy among the newer ones? i mean i was up to date with everything then exam period started and i did not have enough time to find new ones :(

Mehehehe these dorks have ruined my life, let me tell you. I pretty much spend all my time reading everything on ao3 (why can’t I read a “real” book for once?), so here are the ones I have bookmarked for later rereading, because they’re awesome and you should all read them if you haven’t already. I debated how to categorise them, but realised that they’re all basically AU because I can’t handle the canon yet, so I put them under faves, finished and unfinished stories. If you’re not a crazy person with too much free time (like me) you should at least try and take the time to read the faves, because oh man are they amazing. So without further ado, long list is long:

Faves

Under the Cover of Darkness (unfinished, T)
Holy shit my bros, I don’t know what we did to deserve this, but I’m gonna take it. If you ever read an Imperial undercover AU, let it be this one. Fuck.

floating, sinking (unfinished, unrated)
Save me, this is such excellent writing. It’s basically post-R1 running through EP IV. (Bonus: if you’re also a Bodhi fan like myself, this is almost required reading, the author gets his voice and character just perfectly. Well, they do that with everyone, really.)

Against the odds (finished,  T)
I have lost my ability to can. This fic did not help me find it.

Finished

In another life (T)
Why would you even write this, seriously, fuck you. Don’t read if canon makes you cry. On second thought, actually do read this and try and deal with your feelings afterwards.

Worst Kept Secret In The Rebellion (T-E, series)
Jyn and Cassian are married rebels and it’s awesome.

you were my new home (T)
Extends upon the time Jyn and Cassian spend looking for Saw together, and stamps on my heart in the process.

long way home (G-E, series)
I’m not convinced that the author isn’t trying to murder me with greatness.

Arm’s length (M)
Because angst!fluff is a genre.

Clean shaven (G)
This is really cute though. Also check out the other rebelcaptain stories by this author.

let’s give ‘em something to talk about (T)
Save me from these dorks, I beg you.

Flower Petals On My Pillow (T)
The tattoo parlor and flowershop modern AU you have all been waiting for.

i don’t care if heaven won’t take me back (E)
Jyn does what Jyn wants and the world is all the better for it.

run to me in the rising dawn (unrated)
Jyn’s separation anxiety is going to murder all three of my feelings one of these days.

in the spaces (T-E, series)
This whole thing keeps wrenching my heart apart. Send help. Be prepared to need ice-cream after this.

The Genre Does Not Support This (T)
K2 continues to be his ridiculous self.

A million more deaths (M)
They are, ahem, blowing off steam?

Statistical Likelihood (G)
Prepare to be highly amused and then CRY A LOT.

hold your child as tight as you can (G)
Baaabbbyyyy.

Unfinished

Captains, Rebels & Survivors (T)
The castaways!fic we never knew we needed but definitely did.

pretty scars. (M)
It’s a modern AU with computernerds and complicated feelings, what more could you ask for?

Color my cheeks (E)
This was evidently supposed to be a oneshot sex-pollen thing, but turned into a multichapter thing that I am in love with. It’s sex with confused feelings, basically.

deep inside this ancient heart (T)
Any pregnancy fic for this ship has my immediate approval, and this one happens to be a modern AU as well, soooo…

Cassian Andor’s Guide to Cohabitation (G, series)
If you want to feel happy after being murdered by R1, this is a good contender.

The Words Would Only Rhyme (T)
A Jyn-and-Cassian-are-both-imprisoned-on-Wobani AU that’s in the early stages, but looking really, really good. Also Jyn has visions, and I can totally get on board that train.

Cryptography (T)
Read this now, please.

cut out in little stars (M)
This looks like it’s gonna be reeeaaal good. And it also has the Fake Marriage tag, so there.

Chasing My Own Dreams (T)
Slightly angsty pregnancy fic you should all be reading right now.

the-rogue-of-space  asked:

if you're not busy, could you give advice for where to start in animation, program-wise? one of my goals for the year was to try animating and i'm so lost. where do i even start? i figured asking someone in the business would help.

not at all ! 

Program wise i’d start with something free or cheap , the old version of pap , pencil and theres even personal learning editions of toonboom. ( ive never tried those but why not ! ) . If not you could try flash or photoshops animation options if you happen to have photoshop.

The key thing to look for in these programs is ABILITY TO FLIP. When you see traditional animators animating they always flip paper back and forth , this is so their eye measures proportions , spacing , and details between the pictures. they dont draw it automatically. This is key in really getting your animation skills. When I animate in toonboom i use the F and G keys to flip back and forth between my drawings so I can mimic the same thing :) . Find out what program works for you , have fun and play around.

To the animation side of things , look into getting ’ animators survival kit ’ . Its a really great guidebook to animation. There are also DVD lectures of it and even apps ! just check out the website.  This book will show you about the principles of animation which you need to know first before jumping into anything too nuts. You can read up on the principles of animation here 

The really important thing to realize is you need to practice these principles first ! Which is why the very first animation assignments you get in school is the pendulum swing or a bouncing ball. Once you get a good idea of them its way easier to really UNDERSTAND what goes behind animation..this is the start of a great journey ! Now you can analyze animation and go , wow i really like what they did here with that timing…it really makes the action pop. WOW that was awesome squash and stretch and it made the character so flexible !

theres tons that goes on in animation that you’ll start to see , its a lot at first , but its so amazing to learn :) . And thats not to say you cant just jump right out of the gate making your characters sing and dance but…THATS HARD STUFF…if you slow down and take things step by step it will become more of a lasting skill within you. If you ever need some ideas on what to do theres a great list here when you’re ready to start :)

every time i try playing drums again im reminded how ive lost most of my ability  to keep time, or hold onto a beat, in school band i have to count continuously and never take my eyes off the conductor even during a like 30 bar rest

i. Phantom pain, according to the internet, is a pain that feels like it’s coming from a body part that’s no longer there.

ii. I feel where the bone ends, where it swallows to nothingness, where it could have been flesh and skin, but instead, there is only air or space or a filthy reminder that once, I was with you, and now, I lost you. I feel where you used to be, where you used to occupy me. I feel the place you planted your kisses on, I feel it with me, even if it’s not there.

iii. You are my phantom pain. You are the pain I feel from a part that’s no longer with me. After everything, you still have the ability to hurt me.

iv. I think there will always be a part of you in me.