its too big to talk to school

Paulie wants to get fucking mad about z’s student athlete comment when its fucking true as a person whose in school student athletes are privileged AF and Paulie is too fucking high cocky big headed ass pussy ass boi. I’m tired of these white men over sexualizing women just wanted to cuddle up with her and touch all over her when she was quite and shy but now that she starts talking more u want to put her up on the block.

Originally posted by legendloveita


I’m about to be a senior in high school and my friends are tripping because I’ve never dated. I tell them that I have my whole life where I can find open minded boys who actually like me, but they still get mad. All my life I’ve been made fun of for being dark. In middle school boys would call me gorilla. When I started high school I started using makeup, those same boys would compliment me saying “ your pretty, but too dark”. I’ve never met a boy that accepts me, or that is not obsessed with their ‘hoes’. I know good men exist out there but i’m starting to give up. All the boys that hit me up always wanna do the nasty because I have a big butt. Its really annoying and I hope my love life changes. I want someone who actually talks about real life situations and actually has ambition. Someone who isn’t afraid to be seen with his gf who happens to be dark.

Incident with Ashton’s Microphone

Okay so ever since I came on tumblr and went through my 5sos tag all I’ve been seeing is people going ape shit because Ashton’s microphone was “turned off”. But can we sit back down and be actually think what could have happened like a technical problem or problem with wiring or maybe the batteries in the mic ran out cause that happens all the time (I work with my school’s technical crew and I handle sound I know what I’m talking about) even when we do a sound check they work and we get to the performance they stop working. IM NOT HATING ANYONE WHOSE GONE AND LASHED OUT CAUSE IF THE MIC WAS PURPOSEFULLY TURNED OFF THEN I WOULD BE HELLA MAD TOO.. All I’m trying to say is that its A LOT of pressure running a show this big even when I handle sound at school it a lot of pressure cause your not just handling one person’s mic, your handle so many other little things and MISTAKES HAPPEN THINGS GO WRONG and when we are in the middle of a performance we can’t necessarily get up change the mic or the batteries or trouble shoot whatever the problem may be. So I’m not hating anyone…All i’m trying to say is that lets sit back and think through what could have happened and do you think John (their sound guy) would have purposefully turned Ash’s mic off? So lets be calm about the situation its a mistake it happened…BUT IF IT WAS PURPOSEFULLY TURNED OFF (which i don’t think the case is however) THEN A BIG FUCK YOU TO THE PERSON WHOSE BEHIND IT. 

I know I might get hate for this but I’ve been handling sound at events for 5 years I know when stuff like this happens, I know half way through mics turn off and to everyone else it looks like the mic was purposefully turned off but 95% of the time its not the case cause when a mic turns off or the batteries run out and there’s any kind of a problem with it no one can hear the person in their in-ears not even the sound people and rest of the tech support crew, so lets be kind and appreciative to their team who most likely tried to resolve the problem but couldn’t don’t let their efforts go unnoticed cause we are really important people when it comes to running shows, we handle all the lights, sound and backstage so yeah…Sorry about the rant…


anonymous asked:

Oh my God I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable!! If it makes you feel better I definitely meant the sentiment more than you are literally the mom. Kind of like that on really chill teacher who ALL the kids trust, love, and respect1/2

So all the kids hang out in their classroom and just talk whenever they can. Like that teacher is the school “mom”? And that’s more how I meant Fandom mom. If that makes any sense. Again I’m so so sorry. I didn’t want to make you uncomfortable :(

AHHHHH NO NO DON’T WORRY i know exactly what you meant!! i know your intent wasn’t to make me feel uncomfortable or anything, so no worries, i’m not blaming your nor do i have any ill feelings towards you about it.

it’s just that being called mom is??? really weird??? it sorta feels like i’m responsible for everyone who calls me that (and a friend of mine in a similar situation expressed the same thing to me), and i can barely take care of my own life, haha. 

plus, i have absolutely no intention of having children/adopting, which is part of it. which is, again, just me having a weird reaction. it’s absolutely not your fault!! 

the biggest thing i think is that i don’t wanna come off as intimidating/scary, or like i’m this Big Important Figure in the Fandom. accepting a title like that sort of feels like i’m being put on this Fandom Pedestal where it seems like i have a lot of power/influence/etc when i’m really just a regular ol’ blogger. newer people may feel intimidated by that and will refuse to talk to me b/c they feel like i won’t talk to them or i won’t notice them (or, worse, that they’re beneath my notice, which is absolutely not true at all)

i’ve already had a few people say that they find me intimidating/scary b/c my presence in the fandom is fairly wide spread, and i don’t wanna perpetuate that (intentionally or otherwise) by sort of accepting that kind of title. and it feels like i’d be isolating new people who don’t know all the all the Ins and Outs of the Fandom. kind of like Fandom Gatekeeping?? which is a thing that does tend to happen, and it’s something in particular that i really dislike

i don’t wanna feel like i’m the ringleader of some clique that feels too much like the Popular Kids Table in Highschool. i sorta just wanna relax and exchange ideas with everyone in the fandom who wants to talk to me, be it my friends or people i’ve never met before. i want to feel approachable!! 

i say this mostly b/c i’ve seen this sort of thing happen in online communities before, and it always made me feel like an outsider or left out of the group, b/c i wasn’t part of the “In-Crowd.” it was really isolating and awful, and i absolutely hated that feeling. i don’t wanna make anyone else feel like that!!

i’m just a person who likes to post art and headcanons and i like to exchange ideas with people. occasionally i’ll write fics, or a ten page meta about Bakugou’s character development, or why i think he doesn’t wear socks. whatever happens to catch my attention at the time. i don’t view myself as more or less important than anyone else in the fandom. i don’t wanna feel like i’m in some sort of fandom hierarchy, is all. i just wanna relax and have fun

if y’all wanna perceive me as the fandom mom (or aunt, or friend, or mom friend; i’ve gotten several suggestions for this), then go ahead!! that’s your own perception of me and i’m not about to change it. but i’m just like everyone else in the fandom; i enjoy talking about a series that i love and producing content for it, and looking at the amazing content everyone else makes. 

just call me Sai!! that’s who i view myself as. just Sai. just a person who likes to post and draw and write silly things on the internet. my ideas and the things i create are no more or less important than anyone else’s. 

again, i know you didn’t have any intentions of making me feel uncomfortable!!! you were just expressing what you thought, is all. i just feel like this is a thing that could easily go in a direction that i don’t like, despite the kind sentiment behind it 

anyway, i hope what i said makes sense!! again, this isn’t your fault, and i’m not blaming you at all. i just have… weird feelings about situations like this. it’s all me dude, so no worries. 

and thanks for the concern!!!

you know what else has been really bothering me today!!!! the fact that so much of our time as women is eaten away by being forced to care about our looks!!! and I’m not talking abt like putting makeup on everyday because I am 100% here for that but I mean that once we hit like middle school the time we could be spending growing as individuals and discovering our passions and dreams are spent thinking if our hips are “too big” or how “ugly” our noses are LIKE ITS COMPLETE DISGUSTING BULLSHIT

i meant to say something about this once i got to 300 followers but i just looked over and realized i was already past that milestone so i. think now that i have “a number that loosely resembles pi” followers i should go for it anyway

thats bizarre!!! i know theres probably a couple of pornbots in there but overall thats a lot of people. its about 3x bigger than my high school’s symphonic band, which is how i measure things for some reason. back in the day i was satisfied with the idea that 11 followers was the max potential this blog would ever get to, because thats so many different human beings with their own individual lives and feelings.. thats enough to throw a party. now i guess its going to be a really big party. 

i know its not an astronomic number of people but something i dont talk about too much is that i have very bad social anxiety to the extent where sometimes im afraid of being with even my best friends one on one, & getting to hang out with this community has been a big help to me , even if im awkward with it at best. i kind of want to do something to celebrate this but i don’t know what just yet (feel free to send in suggestions)! everyone here means a lot to me .. thank you so much

I’ve said this on a few other social medias but I wanna document it here too bc i’m really proud of myself. I’ve been hella depressed lately (when am i not tho). today I forced myself to eat a good breakfast and go to school. I came home and ended up completing half of this week’s homework. on top of all that, I went on a bike ride. I haven’t been able to do these things without extreme resistance for months. It wasn’t easy but somehow I still did it. today was a good day.