its so easy to forget that they had a relationship for like 5 years or something

anonymous asked:

so vld is confirmed to run for 8 seasons right? if that's the case and say sheith will be end game, at what point in the series would you want them to be canon?

hmm thats tricky. i know a lot of people would probably prefer it sooner than later, but i would much rather have relationships that werent rushed or forced. also, i dont think either of them is in a good headspace for it right now. keith in particular with his abandonment issues and constantly “afraid that he’s gonna say or do something wrong and he’s gonna lose shiro” isn’t ready for a relationship. His immediate readiness to sacrifice everything for shiro without even questioning it is admirable, but i dont think shiro would ever want that. obviously shiro would still risk a lot for keith, still does things like trying to fight off everyone at the marmora base for his sake. but id argue bom proves that before shiro, keith had nobody (aside from his dad, who he already lost)And even after bonding with team voltron, he still doesnt think any of that matters if he loses shiro. 

also, if we still go by the fact that keith’s worst fear is feelings, i think it’ll be a while before he’s ready to confront them. particularly if doing so runs the risk of losing his friendship with shiro. 

Of course, we also know that keith is somewhat touch averse despite this craving for some kind of intimacy (you can see it in the way he immediately tenses up and then slowly relaxes anytime he’s hugged with the exception of shiro). In a way, this problem also extends to shiro. shiro, who thinks that the galra have twisted and warped him into a weapon, who feels that he can’t even trust his own body or memories, who struggles with this notion that he is both unworthy as a paladin and a leader. If you look at kuro and crystal venom, shiro’s worst fear seems to be turning into exactly what the galra tried to make him. and then he finds out that zarkon was the previous black paladin, that black saw the same fire in zarkon she saw in him, and all that fear and doubt is compounded. so i could imagine shiro would be very hesitant about having a partner now, not to mention how any physical contact he experienced during that year in prison always resulted in pain. ironically, the first gentle touch he receives on earth isn’t only human, but also galran. the fact that keith reaches out to him again outside the shack without hesitation is also notable, especially compared to when shiro holds out his galra hand to lance. 

you see lance’s hand stop and it flinches away, and he stares at shiro sadly before offering a smile and reaching back. just to be clear, i dont think there’s anything wrong about lance doing this. it shows he’s empathetic and its really crashing down on him what kind of hell shiro’s been through. and you see how choked up keith looks when he first sees shiro after all this time. but when he’s actually in front of shiro? he stays calm and grounding, tries his best to reach out and act like nothing’s changed. keith never hesitates, never shies away from shiro’s touch or startles from it the way he does around others. and after his time in space prison, i think shiro needs that honestly. Still, that doesn’t change the fact that shiro seems to hold people more at arm’s length after kerberos. With keith their easy, casual intimacy with one another certainly helps, but i imagine a romantic relationship would still be a big adjustment after everything they’ve both been through. 

ideally i could see them working up to something like flirting or dating around seasons 5-6. of course, then you also have to ask: what would cannon sheith look like? becuase honestly, i think the answer is: not very different. They already seem to be pretty open about their affection, and we already know shiro is keith’s most important person. I can see them maybe holding hands occasionally or being more into hugs. maybe going on “space dates” every now and again on more lowkey missions like the space mall. but voltron is also a sci-fi adventure, so romance wont be the focus. It’s also a matter of what they can and can’t get away with in terms of censorship (which is really shitty, i know) but thankfully staff already said netflix seems to allow for more opportunity with representation. and this is the same studio who said they wanted to make it expressly clear that korra and asami were together. im thinking the most romantic voltron will get though is like pining, the exchange of little physical reassurances (hugs, shoulder touches, pats on the back, ect), and a mutual confession. maybe a kiss good luck or goodbye during a really emotional scene. 

anyway, season 3 will be a lot of background info and flashbacks i think, which we really need. i feel like the direction of their relationship will end up depending on whatever they had going prekerberos, especially if either of them had feelings for the other that they never confronted before voltron. i think everyone would take some time off from their relationships for season 7 and most of 8 though, you know, put stuff on hold while they gear up for the final battle. a big emotional farewell before the last fight would be really good though. 

and see now, the thing about relationships that i think a lot of people forget when it comes to “cannon ships” for an action adventure series like this is that…well…if a ship becomes cannon at some point, it doesnt mean that they’ll stay together for the rest of the show. sometimes it happens fast and burns out, or people break up and make up a lot, or they try to work things out but just drift apart. so i think id much rather it happen later than sooner because, with show like this, i think that gives them a better chance of staying together? like, the thought of keith being in a relationship with allura and then shiro or vice versa seems to be treated like something impossible, but relationships dont work out and partners deicide to see other people all the time? its even possible keith will have the occasional one episode romantic interest that’s never revisited, like the mer-alien that kissed lance. so anyway, im not too worried if it takes them a bit longer to get together. 


Warning: Angsty (Good Angst I Hope), Nudity Mentioned, Smut (?), Curse Words (Duh)

And Shout-Out to my Beta Reader, total blessing :) - @ sxblxme   

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Recently, I’ve seen a lot of posts taking stabs at Xena for taking the ‘subtext’ way out of LGBTQ+ representation during its six-year run. I would totally be on board with that if the show stopped at, say, season 3 or 4. But it didn’t.

The first few seasons showed our heroines in an unusually intimate friendship because that’s what the writers originally had intended Xena and Gabrielle to be, based off the Hercules and Iolaus mold. But their relationship seemed to grow beyond the writers. It developed a life of its own, and the writers began shifting their angle from 'intimate, saving friendship’ to 'lovers and soul mates.’

After season 6, I struggle to think who can call it subtext. Yes, it’s true that they never took the Ron Burgundy route and had Gabrielle scream out, “Xena and I had sex and now we are in looooove!”, but let’s face it, would that be in character? For either of them? By this stage in the game, the way I saw it, it didn’t need to be defined because it was pretty explicitly laid out after six years of following them around.

For instance, we’ll take the reincarnation episodes. Sure, the first stunt they pulled had Xena and Gabrielle getting romantically together while Xena was reincarnated into a man’s body. Technically gay because we tend to think of them as we knew them best: both women. But by the last reincarnation episode, 'Soul Possession’, we see Ares swap Xena and Joxer’s bodies so that she’s a woman again, more palatable to his taste. And what happens at the end of this episode? Xena and Gabrielle are still together. There’s nothing subtexty about Xena with her arm around now-red-headed wife Gabrielle saying, “I liked ya better blonde, but I can go with this!” Or let’s look at the Rheingold trilogy. They pulled the Disney, true love’s kiss can break Gabrielle’s sleeping curse move, but the trick was, only Gabrielle’s soul mate could walk through the flaming prison that kept her away from harm. Xena walked right through it and kissed Gabrielle- not on the forehead, not on the cheek, but on the lips- and, in true Sleeping Beauty fashion, Gabrielle was awakened. 

The Rheingold trilogy really opened the doors for our leading ladies’ sexualities. Xena was shown first manipulating Odin into believing she loved him, and then doing the same for the Rhine-Maiden. We’ve seen Xena’s varied past, explicitly shown with Borias and Ares, for instance, and heavily implied with Lao Ma and M'Lila, but, with the exception of Gabrielle, this may be the first episode we’ve seen Xena openly flirtatious and sexual with two sexes in the span of 43 minutes. Gabrielle, whose sexual history had been decidedly hetero for the first few seasons, had been gaining quite an array of romantic interests in the last few. It became a joke of the fandom that “everybody loves Gabrielle.” In the Rheingold trilogy, we see another woman take interest in Gabrielle: Brunhilda. The two develop a reliance upon each other until Brunhilda declares her love for our battling bard. And let’s also keep in mind that during all this, she was also dealing with Beowulf’s well-meant but badly-timed advances.

Gabrielle’s sexuality had also been explored with Aphrodite, let’s keep in mind. The goddess of love had always had a weakness for Gabrielle, and in season six’s 'The God You Know’, she essentially makes out with her, much to Gabrielle’s surprise. 

Of course, there’s the episode 'You Are Here’, one of the crackiest, strangest and most fantastic episodes in Xena history. We see defensive Xena telling the stage manager to “watch his hands” while giving Gabrielle a mic and we see, as love is restored with Aphrodite’s godhood, pink hearts falling all over our heroines as they gaze into each other’s eyes and smile. What’s drawn some heat is the end of the episode, where the reporter asks them for the hundredth time what the true history of their relationship is. Xena asks, “should we tell him?”, which is, of course, not a question you’d ask if you had nothing going on between you and your friend. But as she launches into her explanation, the camera “cuts out”. I don’t think this was the writers opting out. I think this was the writers having a laugh with the image of a straight man puzzled by their relationship to end an episode that was nothing short of ridiculous.

The most damning of all evidence is 'When Fates Collide.’ Basically AU fanfiction of itself, the episode explores what would have happened if Xena and Caesar had ruled together. Spoilers: Caesar is still a dick. Gabrielle is a playwright in this universe, and her play is being shown as entertainment in the Roman court. Xena automatically feels an attraction toward this work and to its creator. After the play is shown, they share this exchange:

Xena: “In the third act, you had your hero throw himself over the
cliff with no fear of dying– all for her. Do you really believe
that kind of love exists?”

Gabrielle: “That’s what we all dream about, isn’t it? Someone who
looks so deeply into our soul that– they’d find something worth
dying for.”

We see Caesar becoming bitter and jealous as he watches the women interact, and later on we hear Alti taunting Xena with, “I saw the way you looked at her tonight during the play. Wouldn’t Caesar give anything to have you look at him that way?”

As the plot goes on, Caesar has Gabrielle wrongly imprisoned, and Alti shows Xena what her true life really was. And as Caesar is about to crucify Gabrielle, she admits her connection with Xena, despite knowing nothing of her former life: "Xena– Xena– when I thought I was going to die– it all became so clear. My life is empty– despite my success. I write about love, but I’ve never felt it before. I will never forget you.“

Alti is sent to kill Gabrielle, and shows us foreshadowing of the Xena finale: "your story will end with your playwright unable to save her fallen angel.”

As they are recaptured, another exchange is had:

G: “Xena– when I’m with you– this emptiness that I have felt my entire life– is gone. You have to tell me what’s going on.”

X: “Caesar changed our fate– giving us this godforsaken world.”

G: “There must be something that I can do.”

X: “No– what you can do is get out of here alive. I have to go
through this alone.”

G: “I can’t let you die.”

X: “Some things are worth dying for. Isn’t that what your play
was about? Being prepared to sacrifice all for love?”

G: “For love.”

X: “In the other world, my destiny was linked to Caesar– and
that cross– and I hated them both– but now I realize that–
everything happens precisely as it should– precisely. …I’ll love you forever.”

It boggles my mind that people claim that is simply subtext. This is the quintessential Xena/Gabrielle episode in my mind, because it shows that no matter how fate is changed or manipulated, these ladies will always find each other because they are meant to be. And of course, we have, in A Friend in Need, Gabrielle’s tearful pleading that Xena is “all that matters to her”, Xena introducing Gabrielle as “her soul mate”, and Xena teaching Gabrielle the pinch while saying, “if I only had 30 seconds to live, this is how I’d want to live them- by staring into your eyes.”

In my opinion, the writers of Xena did not choose the easy way out. Seasons 5 and 6 blast through any and all subtexty vibes. They raise a child together, Xena has a poem written for Gabrielle by SAPPHO OF ALL PEOPLE, they are married in reincarnated forms, they are shown through all lands and fates as soul mates and two people who are madly in love. The intensity of their relationship defies explicit terms like 'girlfriends’ that the wider audience would comprehend, and after six seasons of watching these ladies grow and love, who needs that label, anyway? My grief with the writers is in episodes like 'Antony and Cleopatra’ where, I’ll admit, they made Xena treat Gabrielle like shit because of a guy. But for some reason, that blunder can almost be absolved by the beauty of the story they’ve put forth through six seasons, beauty that most shows nearly twenty years later are still afraid to put forth because of societal norms. 

Could Xena: Warrior Princess be told as a more explicit LGBTQ+ love story? Absolutely. But the show was never just a love story, even if it revolved around the relationship between its two protagonists. The show is about perseverance, overcoming odds, redemption and the power of forgiveness- both from others and from yourself. Xena is a powerful character behind a powerful story whose life was shaped by the love and unconditional support, understanding and forgiveness of Gabrielle. Their story moved at a pace that was realistic for the damage in Xena’s heart and the confusion surrounding Gabrielle’s character development. Their love proved to defy time and death, over and over and over again. 

Sad Song-Michael Clifford

I heard this song and knew I had to put it in something…gotta love We The Kings…This is the Mikey version of the 4/4 where management makes you pr date one of the guys….so ya….enjoy!

You were in desperate need of new guitar picks. You were hopeless at being able to keep anything, honestly if your head wasn’t attached to your body you might loose it. You headed to your favorite music store, to get some new picks and see what new guitars they had. You were eyeing this Yamaha acoustic guitar, when you heard a familiar melody. Someone was playing on one of the pianos. It was “Sad Song” by We The Kings, one of your favorites…actually one you used to listen to quite often after you broke up with someone very special to you. Whoever was playing was good. Really good. You decided to find this mystery player. You headed to where the pianos, where a boy with longer blond hair in a red flannel shirt was playing. You were standing behind him, so you couldn’t see his face. But when he started singing, you instantly knew who this boy was.

“You and I, We’re like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky.

With you, I’m alive, Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.

So stop time right here in the moonlight, ‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes.”

He sang in a deep, raspy voice. Then he proceeded to sing the chorus.

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song. I’m just a sad song…”

He continued to play, and the sight of this boy who used to mean so much of you pulled at your heart. He hadn’t noticed you were there, so it made it easy for you to join in on the next part.

“With you I fall. It’s like I’m leaving all my past in silhouettes upon the wall.

With you I’m a beautiful mess. It’s like we’re standing hand in hand with all our fears upon the edge.

So stop time right here in the moonlight, ‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes.”

He didn’t stop playing, and you saw him smile even before he looked at you. He knew your voice just as well as you knew his, and would recognize it anywhere. You finished the rest of the song together.

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song.

You’re the perfect melody, The only harmony I wanna hear.

You’re my favorite part of me,

With you standing next to me, I’ve got nothing to fear.”

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.”

“Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.”

“Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song.

Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song. I’m just a sad song…”

Despite the years apart, you still knew each other well, especially when it came to music. This was probably the best cover the two of you had ever done together. When you finished, there was applause filling the shop.

“Looks like the audience loves us Y/n” The blond boy said.

“They always have Michael” You smiled.

“How’ve you been? It’s been what?”

“Too long. I’m doing good. I’m guessing you are too, from the way your band has took off”

“Yes. It’s been amazing,”

“How are the guys?”

“They’re great. They’d love to see you…I’d like to spend some time with you too…”


“Just dinner or something?”

“Sorry…I just can't…”


“Look Michael. It took me a long time to get over you…I understand why we had to break things off, I mean you had so many people expecting things from you, and management thought I’d be a distraction…but that doesn’t mean that years later, you can just walk into my life again Michael”

“I’m sorry…” Michael said, a pained expression on his face.

“I know Mikey” You said, tears in your eyes. “Take care of yourself ok?”

Before you could turn to go, he pulled your arm to bring you into a tight embrace. You stayed like that for awhile, wrapped in his arms. It felt so nice, brought back so many good memories. But then you pulled away, kissing his cheek.

“Bye Mikey”

“Bye Y/n”

Then you left the store, refusing to loo back. So much for the guitar picks.


Later when you got home, you opened twitter, needing a distraction so you wouldn’t dwell on what just happened.

However the internet was cruel.

As soon as you opened the app you saw that you had gotten over 100 new followers. You were flattered, but knew something had to be up. Sure enough, all over your feed there was a video of you and Michael singing. There were even pictures of you guys hugging and you kissing his cheek. Of course this was all the 5sos fam was talking about.

Who is she?

Oh my gosh its Y/n! Remember when they used to date?

So cute!

Think they’re back together?

These were some of many comments you read. Weird how some fans literally knew everything, you just hoped they were just really old fans who were there from the beginning.

So that was why so many people were following you, and why you were tagged by all these people.

So much for forgetting what happened. You turned off your phone and decided to call it a night, even if it was only 8. You didn’t want to deal with anything now.


The next morning you were woken up by the sound of your phone ringing. You weren’t able to resist last night, and scrolled though everything everyone was saying about you, luckily mostly nice things.

“Hello?” You said groggily. You looked at the clock. 7:30. Who calls so early?

“Miss Y/n?”

“Yes…who is this?”

“My name is Joan. I’m part of the 5sos management?”

This woke you up.

“What? Um…what do you guys want with me?”

“We’d like you to come down and meet with us. We’ll send you the address. Be here in one hour. Believe me, you should come” Then she hung up.

What the hell? Sure enough you received a text message with an address seconds later.

Feeling as though you had no choice, you quickly got dressed and headed down to meet with that goddamn management that you still couldn’t bring yourself to particularly like.


The address was one of those fancy hotels that held a lot of business meetings. Sure enough, the room given to you was a conference room. There was a lady already there, who you were assuming was Joan, and another man you didn’t recognize. Of course management would change, maybe this was a good thing.

“Y/n. So glad you could make it. I’m Joan.” Joan said, standing up to shake your hand then leading you to the table.

“Hello. My name is Mark.” The man shook your hand.

“Hi…so what is this about?” You asked.

“All will be explained in just a bit Y/n. We’re waiting on one more person” Mark smiled.

“Yes and in the meantime, tell us about your former relationship with Michael?” Joan asked calmly, as if she was asking about the weather and not something very personal.

“Me and Michael? Um…we dated for about a year. Then his band started to take off. And people not to different from you thought it would be a good idea for us to break things off. End of story”

Before they could answer, the door burst open and Michael came running in.

“Sorry I’m late! I was-Y/n? What are you doing here?”

“That’s what I’m waiting to find out”

“Michael. Finally. Aright now that we have the both of you together, I’ll get straight to the point. We want the both of you to date”

“Isn’t that our decision” You said while Michael said “Woah”

“For PR purposes of course. We don’t expect you guys to be in a committed relationship based off our request. Listen it will be great for the  both of you. You both used to date before, so news of you guys getting back together will be huge. Already, those pictures from yesterday are all over the place. It will give you both some positive attention. Y/n, you are releasing an album soon are you not? This could give you the perfect opportunity to  gets some publicity-”

“Wait, you’re trying to bribe her? That’s ridiculous! I mean she’d-” Michael practically yelled, but you interrupted him.

“Might just agree. I’m not as famous as you Mikey, and my music is going well, but any attention is kind of needed right now…”

“Very good Y/n-” You also cut Joan off

“Of course I would need to know what exactly this whole “PR relationship” entitle? What do you expect us to do?“

"Everything will be set up of course. Paparazzi sent to the restaurant, they take a few photos. Then of course you guys post some things on social media, make it seem as though you guys are dating. That’s really all there is to it” Mark said.

“So do we have an agreement?” Joan added

You looked at Michael.

“You’re not actually considering this are you?” Michael asked you, completely frazzled.

“Well you wanted to do dinner right? And how bad could it be? I really need this Mikey…”

Michael sighed. “Fine. For you.”

You gave him a hug and he held you tightly.

“Alright. We’ll let you guys know the time and place of your guy’s 'first date’” Joan smiled, seeming pleased.


“Laser tag?” You asked Michael. When they said date, you expected dinner, maybe even a movie, but laser tag? That was the last thing you’d think of

“They may have gave me a say into what we do…” Michael grinned

“You don’t say?” You laughed

“Alright, ready for some fun?” Michael asked while buckling you into one of those heavy jackets.

“I don’t know, ready to get your ass kicked?” You teased

“You wish” Michael said, giving you a wink.

Several hours later, he had two games on you. You couldn’t believe this. And of course, Michael didn’t let you forget it.

“Not so easy to beat am I?” Michael laughed.

“Whatever Mikey…fuck you”

“Why so salty?”

“Shut up. You won, got it. End of story, may we move on?”

“Well I won, so I get a prize don’t I?”

“Prize? What on earth could you-”

You were interrupted when he suddenly smashed his lips against yours, wrapping his arms around your waist to pull you close to him as he continued to kiss you so tenderly and passionately…

“That” He said when you both had pulled away. “I think that’s reward enough. I’m starved, you want some pizza?”

You just smiled, grabbing his hand, as you headed towards the food court.


Author’s Note: That was long and ended terribly, I’m sorry. Nevertheless hope you liked it!! -Lydia

Meant To Be (part 4)

A/N: Guys it’s been sooo long and I really am sorry for haven’t posted anything - I have my reasons, but I promise I’ll do my best in the future. Tell me if you liked it!
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Originally posted by imaginesofthings

Sirius Black

The dinner continued in silence. Y/N hasn’t told anything, her jaws moved so slowly that was almost annoying, and she only looked at the others when she said good night and went to their room with Lily. When the two girls turned right and disappeared, the three of the boys gave me a puzzled look; their facial expression told me everything. I acted like haven’t noticed their faces and kept eating, but I casted a quick glance from the corner of my eyes once more and I met each of their gazes.

‘What?’ I asked after a heavy sigh since I’ve already known they will keep asking me until I tell them why I was left earlier. But this wasn’t the part of the plan – unfortunately, so I had to repeat myself to don’t say anything more than what was necessary.

‘So when will you tell us?’ James asked in an easy manner.

‘There’s nothing to tell you.’ as soon as the lie left my mouth I realized this was the second time I lied to them. My first one was just a small thing before the start of the winter break that I’ll travel home just like them. But they got to know the truth when arrived back to Hogwarts and they didn’t mind it; since I had the chance to finally speak with Y/N.

I used to ask Remus about her when I saw they get along really well, and he told me just the same things I observed during the winter break. Maybe I was asking too many times and they noticed my interest in Y/N but the three of them forgot it soon because of James and his trying to get Lily. Until this year when Lily started to talk more and more with Prongs so the fact that I might feel something for Y/N came up again. And when I told my jerk friends that Y/N and I finally talked and even spent the whole winter break together, they teased me every day about it.

After I tried to prove there was nothing I didn’t tell them, they looked at each other meaningfully and talked with their eyes something that they don’t believe me and will definitely gave me another opportunity to talk about what happened and why I went to the forest.

‘You’re welcome for the saving, by the way.’ Remus said in a sarcastic tone and stood up, so did James and Peter.

‘Are you comin’ or not?’ said Prongs, waiting for me next to the table. I remembered they planned something for this night but totally forget about it in the afternoon in the forest. I was walking near the Black Lake and just thinking about Y/N and my family. Just about Y/N at first but when my thoughts started to wander, I somehow ended up thinking about her as my girlfriend. My real girlfriend I’ve never had, not just my pathetic relationships. I couldn’t help but liked these thoughts pretty much until my horrible mother and the whole family popped into my mind. They’d be terrified if got to know the truth that I feel something for a muggleborn girl. And this almost killed me inside that my family wants to ruin my life at this level. It’s not like I even cared about them but that was simply horrible to think about it.

I wanted to forget about everything I was thinking about in the forest, so I stood up and followed James to our room to talk about the prank they planned against Severus Snape – who else, of course. Playing with Snivellus was one of the best things we could do when felt bored and even if I wasn’t in the right mood for it, I told my friends I’ll come with them just to not to be alone.

We’ve easily found Snape on the Marauder’s Map; he was walking on the 7th floor corridor when suddenly stopped on its left side.

‘What is he doing there?’ Peter asked, most from himself than from us.

‘It’s time to figure this out!’ James shouted in an excited manner and almost ran away from the room without thinking or even without bring his invisible cloak.

‘James, could you please act like someone who’s up to nothing bad?’ Remus sighed heavily and whispered to James as careful as always. He was just like our mother when we were doing something bad but he never missed one of these events.

‘Shut up, Moomy.’

We all laughed - except Remus - on that nickname James used so many times on him. This one fitted so well on the werewolf. He whispered something like “Screw you” but I didn’t really listen as I saw Snape in the near distance. He was standing next to the Troll Tapestry and looked pretty focused. Prongs and I almost jumped into the scene but Remus grabbed our shoulder and pulled us back.

‘Wait, I think I know what he is up to. And I want to know if the door appears to him.’

‘What door?’ the three of us asked Remus but he hasn’t got time to answer because Snape stopped and looked into our direction. We were squatting behind a huge statue that almost hid us and we could be invisible if didn’t speak too loud.

‘Who’s there?’ Snape approached us. ‘Show yourself!’

A door appeared opposite the Troll Tapestry without any previous sign and when Snape noticed it too, he turned back, grabbed the doorknob and disappeared.

We went back to our room and Remus told us everything about the Room of Requirement, something Unplottable that our map couldn’t show; that’s why we didn’t know about its exist before. But Moony has read about it in some old book – of course.

The next day James told Lily and Y/N about everything we saw, just because he wanted to prove to Lily about Snape bad actions. Lily didn’t pay too much attention to the whole thing since she hasn’t spoken with Snape too much already, but Y/N seemed pretty interested.

‘Sounds like something we should probably look at.’ she winked at me with that irresistible smile that always brought butterflies into my stomach. I hated that I loved it so much. But she convinced me of course, so we decided to go back there and try to find out what room Snape needed.

I sneaked out after curfew and met with Y/N in the common room.

‘So Moony told me the door will only appear when we’re in a very great need for something. Do you need anything?’ I asked half-smiling.

‘Well, I’d like to have a huge hamburger.” she laughed but I didn’t understand what she was talking about.

“Is this some woman thing? Something like a dildo?’ she suddenly burst into laughter so I realized I might said something dumb.

‘No… it’s…’ she almost couldn’t breathe. ‘It’s not like a dildo, Sirius. It’s a muggle food, actually.’

Oh. That was awkward. I fell silence for a long moment then started to laugh too on myself.

‘Okay, so it’s not a big thing then.’ I finally could speak while Y/N was still smiling at me. On the other hand, her smile made me feel calm and less stupid, because it was not a despising smile, more than a very happy one.

‘You know, you are funny sometimes. I love this about you.’ she said and the butterflies came back again.

‘Thanks.’ was the only thing I managed to say. I felt so stupid for being such an idiot and for couldn’t control my emotions around Y/N. I was completely distracted by her beautifulness, and when the word “love” left her mouth I couldn’t help but got so stunned that I was unable to move for a moment or think what to do next. It looked like she noticed it so started to laugh again.

‘Sirius? Cat got your tongue?’ but before I could lost even more in her smile, I heard a noise and the door appeared just how we saw earlier. ‘Wow, how did you…’

And then, I understood why the room showed its entrance for me.

‘Y/N, please, come with me. We need to talk.’

anonymous asked:

Hey Beautiful, hope u r having a nice day. U r genuinely my fav blog, not only bcz of fic rec but also for being u a Louie like me :) Have u bookmarked since forever 😘Well,can u pls recommend me or ask the fic writers to pen more "established relationship" fics ? My absolute fav is "Been Together Since Way Back When" by alivingfire, this is soo bloody good,the plot &everything. Can we request writers for more such fics? No "will they/wont they", no cheating, just struggles of normal life.

Thank you a lot for your kind words and sorry to let you wait with this request !

i agree, I need more normal-established-relationship fics ! I tried to find you some more, without too much angst or drama,  and you can also look at my Married+kids fic rec.

- Been Together Since Way Back When  : Louis Tomlinson is a law student with a simple but effective four step plan: 1. Finish law school. 2. Get hired somewhere awesome. 3. Marry his best friend and boyfriend of two years, Harry. 4. Live happily ever after. Harry Styles doesn’t know what he wants to do with his life, where he wants to go, who he wants to be, or if he even wants the college degree he’s almost completed.  All he does know is who he’ll be with forever, as long as Louis wants to keep him around. Or: the painfully realistic college au where everyone’s poor, lovesick, tired of school, terrified of the future, and still having the greatest times of their lives. (95k)

- on a thousand miles and more : That’s why, after Granada, they decide to stick to the places they went to together.  Retrospectively, maybe that’s when it becomes less of a holiday and more of a pilgrimage. Louis thinks he’s beginning to understand what they’re searching for. It’s something akin to closure, but not closure exactly. Something more tenuous than that. More difficult to put into words.  Something like the first exhalation you take after a particularly horrendous nightmare and you think god, it wasn’t real, it wasn’t real, it wasn’t real.   Except that, in their case, it was.“[Harry and Louis go back to the places that made them who they are.] (12k)

- this crown of thorns : If there’s one thing Harry is sure of, it’s that he doesn’t want to forget a single thing about Louis. (5k)

- Under the lights tonight : Harry’s an A-list supermodel, Louis’s his make-up artist boyfriend. They’re something of a dream team. (20k)

- spice up your life : After a conversation with his Uni friends, Harry worries that his relationship with Louis has lost it’s spark. (aka: an incredibly silly modern day love story ft. awkward boners, grumpy neighbours and Cosmopolitan sex tips.) (9.5k)

- it’s easy being with you, sacred simplicity  : high school sweethearts to uni sweethearts, harry is a baseball player for Michigan University, and louis is his nanny boyfriend (8k)

- Rated R  : Louis gifts Harry with a surprise sex tape, and it accidentally makes its way into Harry’s family Christmas party. Ridiculousness ensues. (7.6k)

- You fill up my senses : A moment in time. Harry and Louis’ Valentine’s through the years. The first tasted of champagne bubbles, blankets and freshly cut grass.The second looked like lace, candlelight and tanned skin.The third sounded like miles apart, longing, and love in musical form.The fourth smelled of care, understanding, and years of special moments.The fifth felt like trust, a gentle caress, and ties of their own choosing. (5k)

- Rainbowish :  A guy shouts, looking at the sky and they hear, “Almost!”
 Louis laughs over Harry’s mouth. “We almost lost it.” He engages into Louis’ arms, gently laying his head on his boyfriend.  Harry can feel the last rays of sun beating against his dark glasses, and how the wind surrounds the clouds leaving room to extraordinary events. Different atmospheres are also part of what he feels. The noise of the birds, and the rocks slipping off the mountains. Even the small ladybug that is on Louis’ pants.  “It’s more about what you feel,” Harry says, “than what I can see.”  “I can try to explain it to you,” he says, rubbing his hands together.  “I want the credits when you become a famous composer or writer,” Harry says, smiling and L True Love’s Gold ouis nods playfully, biting his lower lip.
or: Harry is blind and Louis explains a sunset to him for the first time.

Update (last update on July 15th 2017)

- Dance Me (to the End of Love)  : You would think that it’s a simple process - you meet, you fall in love, you get married. But when you add one lawyer and one overly-competitive high school teacher to that equation, it’s no longer a straight line from beginning to end. Or the story of how a simple proposal becomes a competition where no one loses in the end. (19k)

- True Love’s Gold  : Gemma starts responding to every single one of Harry’s texts—regardless of subject—with i don’t care, talk to louis. Liam lets Harry complain to him for hours on Skype, pretending he’s not doing other things while Harry whines about his problems. Niall thinks the whole thing is hilarious, texting Harry links to articles titled So, you want your man to propose? and 15 ways to get him ready for the aisle! and follows each of these up with page upon page of laughing emojis. Harry tries everything, literally everything he can think of short of grabbing Louis by tattooed forearm and yelling, “PROPOSE TO ME BEFORE I COMBUST.” Or, it takes a village to arrange a proposal, but that doesn’t mean it’s going to go as planned. (27k)

- Fire and Ice : Harry really wants to come at the same time as Louis. Or, four times they misfire and the one time they get it right. (10k)

- For Better and For Worse  : (Based on the prompt: “1.Harry and Louis have been together for 5 years and they’ve been getting questions when they would be getting married and start a family. Bur harry doesnt have the time. They were arguing one morning when Harry had enough and left for work. He’s a doctor and works at the a&e there is a call that there has been a bad car crash and that there is more than one patient coming in. Harry does his job good and works on the first patient and everything goes great until his next patient is Louis.”)  (12k)

- Have Me And Hold Me : Or, a wedding day AU in which Louis will let nothing stand in the way of a perfect day - especially a little rain. (6k)

- One of Many  : Harry and Louis celebrate an anniversary ❤ (3.6k)

Good Girl - Part 6

Summary: Werewolf!Reader Story. Readers a young doctor and uses her skills to keep her condition hidden, until she transfers to the Enterprise and tries to deceive a certain grumpy Doctor

Bones x Reader

Wordcount: 1680

A/N: This ones a long one, so grab the popcorn. We get a bit into the stuff that reader knows about herself - memory as a wolf, when things started, how things have changed now. 

This fiction is set in AOS

Warnings: Mention of Sex (again), Language, slight Body Horror, Blood


Hours melted into days, days became weeks and weeks finally culminated into months.
You had balanced your time with Leonard, your work and your ongoing venture to execute medical experiments on yourself. Your time with Leonard just consisted of hours in the medbay sometimes, making sure that you always were supplied with enough coffee. Bent over an operation table you had assisted him in saving a life after an away mission that had run particularly haywire. Bent over his office table you both had let off steam later that night, a short encounter of which you remembered the heat and the smell of paper and how his strong hands felt on your hips as they grabbed you - the both of you reminding each other that you were alive in a world were death loomed in every corner.
You had cut back on the sedatives and tried to compensate with more sport - which meant that any time you had for socializing with the rest of the crew was cut short in favor of gym time. Running seemed to soothe the animal within and you were proud of your effort to contribute to this mission.
Sometimes you even wished you could tell someone, anyone, Len - but you wouldn’t.

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anonymous asked:

Hello Jane! :D How are you? <3 I love the reblog you did on the rant, because it's exactly what I think the default of AoS is , more and more!, when twists and action lead the story it's not good. I saw they have already begun filming s5... and here I thought they would actually take those long months to work their story and their storytelling... another wishful thinkng from me ^^' Anyway, I didn't forget about you! ;) *HUGS* you very much and a lot of love too <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3 (Laurent)

(In reference to this post.)

Hey, Laurent! <3

I’m doing okay, but I have really only been pretending to be around for the past few weeks because my computer is on the fritz and I’ve been having to use my tablet, which kind of feels like using a spoon to eat a hamburger. I also had a bit of a fall (actually, more of a slide that went very badly) and I’m mostly fine, but sitting down at my tablet is not so fun while I’m healing. So, I’m a little further behind on things than I would like to be, but I’m hoping things will get better soon. 

Anyway, probably more than you wanted to know.

As for season 5: I, too, had hoped that they would spend more time working on the writing, but they are also part of an industry and they probably have to shoot at a certain time so they can use the sound stages and what not. I don’t know that much about the TV industry, but I do know that it’s very complex, and there are a lot of factors we aren’t thinking about.

What I hope, though, is that they learn from the mistakes of last year, especially from FitzSimmons. They got a lot of blowback from the proposal they promised and didn’t deliver. 

Something I don’t really get, though, is that they have to understand how tired we are of FitzSimmons not really being FitzSimmons, right? While I like how the characters have developed, I think they’re continuing to make a mistake by separating them over and over and over again. It’s exhausting. At last year’s SDCC, we were promised we would see the “FitzSimmons of old” and they were barely in the same room. I am just dying for FitzSimmons to be together, work together to solve problems, and help each other to get through things. That’s the couple we fell in love with. I think one of the biggest draws to FitzSimmons is that they make a great team! They are complementary equals! They are putting in all these twists and turns, but instead of being entralled by them. we are forging on despite them. That’s not a good place to be in.

My very big wish for season 5 is FitzSimmons vs. the world, trying to heal from the past while they save the future. I think that would not only make a great story, but it would be a great way to wrap up the story they’ve had over four seasons. I mean, they started out as co-dependent and inseparable, then gained independence as they were separated, and what was really cool about season 4 was they were coming back together in a way where they still had their independence. Jemma was doing her thing, Fitz was doing his, and neither of them would have been capable of doing any of that in season 1. 

But, we’re still missing the final step: interdependence. We know they are better together. We know that they were naive and had to learn a lot of things on their own in order to grow into the people they needed to be. What would be really satisfying is if they return to being just as in sync and unified as they used to be, but much more capable of handling things on their own when necessary. We saw this a little in season 4, but that was just the beginnings of it. Before when they were separated, there was this underlying anxiety of them not knowing who they were without the other person. Now that they know who they are, it’s much more about choosing to be together even though they know it’s going to hurt sometimes. 

See, in season 1, their friendship was easy. They kind of fell together because they fit together. But, when Fitz got hurt and lost himself, Jemma did not understand what he needed or how to help him. And that wasn’t her fault! How are you supposed to know how to help your best friend regain his intellectual capacity when the foundation of your relationship was your intellectual equality? When it was your equality in general? They didn’t know how to relate to each other when they weren’t the same, but, they eventually learned how. 

I think the really cool thing about season 2 was that they discovered they had more in common than just being smart. They also had a shared worldview and shared values, and they both discovered just how much they were willing to sacrifice for the greater good. I also think that when the easy part of their friendship was stripped away, they realized that they had a deep affection for each other that went beyond the superficial. Jemma wanted her best friend back, then learned the hard way that the Fitz she lost would never come back again. Then she learned that the new Fitz, while different on the surface, still had everything she really loved about him. In a way, she was able to compare the old Fitz with the new Fitz and discover who Fitz really was beneath all that. Fitz, on the other hand, loved his best friend, felt unworthy of and rejected by his best friend, and got to the point where he had to decide if he was willing to sacrifice any chance of a romantic relationship to keep her in his life. And I mean, I don’t think that he ever thought he had any chance of having his feelings returned, but he had to choose to allow her back into his life even though he would have to give up his dream of what they could be and accept what Jemma needed them to be. That’s what I loved about season 2. They went back to square one, but they rebuilt their relationship along the way so it was stronger and based on things that wouldn’t change with circumstance.

So, after season 2 was about them learning to choose each other, season 3 was figuring out of they would still choose each other when it hurt. They really messed this up by creating a love triangle (TWIST!!), making it so Jemma couldn’t choose, then killing off the other contender so she never had to make a choice. The whole time, Fitz was choosing her above all else! Where was their equality then? So, let’s just skip that part. Let’s go on despite the twists.

What we had over the course of season 3 was obstacles and Fitz and Jemma individually deciding to overcome those obstacles to grow closer. This might sound a lot like season 2, because really, it was not done as well as it could have been. But there is a distinction: in season 2, they were figuring out if they really wanted to be together; in season 3, they knew they wanted to be together, but they were figuring out if they were willing to pay the cost of being together. What I really loved about the singularity scene was that they actually came out and said, we know it was easy before, and we know that if we keep our boundaries, it will continue to be easy. We know that breaking barriers will come with a cost, and we are willing to pay that cost for the potential of what we can be together. That’s pretty amazing.

You could say that season 4 was season 2 in reverse. In season 2 they were fractured, were brought together by the job, and decided to stay together romantically. In season 4, they were together romantically, got separated by the job, and ended up fractured. In both seasons, they’re trying to figure out what their relationship is like after everything changes; it’s just that the changes in season 2 are VERY different than the changes in season 4. And, in season 4, we have characters who have grown and developed as a result of things in season 2. BUT, the end of season 4 is a lot like the beginning of season 2: a villain took Fitz away from Jemma in a way that makes Fitz feel broken and unworthy of Jemma, while Jemma struggles to reach him.

Cool, huh? We have some chiasmus going on here, a 1 2 3 2 1 structure. 

SO, in order to complete that structure, season 5 will have to mirror season 1 in the way season 4 mirrored season 2. We will have to end up with FitzSimmons being this inseparable, psychically linked duo in order that reminds us of the people we met in the beginning in order to reach a really satisfying conclusion. But, they will have to be better. They will have to have learned from all the things they went through to get this far.

See, BECAUSE of the pain of season 2, Jemma knows that the best way to help Fitz is to stick with him. She also knows him on a much deeper level and has learned how to talk to him and fight for him when she has to. So, she is in basically the same place, but she will not have the same outcome because she is not the same person. 

And, because of the pain of season 2, Fitz knows just how to push Jemma away and how it makes everything worse. He understands that Jemma loves him, even if he doesn’t always understand why. And, in the end, I think he was right when he said they had crossed the point of no return. I think he won’t be able to sacrifice the hope of their romantic relationship, (Notice that it was healthy for him to give up that hope before and healthy for him to refuse to give it up now.) 

And, again, they both know that there is a cost and that they are willing to pay that cost.

Anyway, that was a huge rant that only slightly related to what you were talking about, but that’s basically what I’m hoping for in season 5. I want another pod dropped in the ocean that actually brings FitzSimmons closer together. It would be so great. It would be fantastic storytelling. But the thing about this show is that I always see the potential of where they could go with things, and then they do the twists and turns thing that cheapens the story and deprives us of the payoff we’ve been waiting for.

BUT, they said from the beginning that they have a 5-season plan for this show, and with their move to Fridays, it looks like this is all we’re going to get. The pressure will be on for them to wrap everything up in a satisfying way, and they know that and can plan for that. And, they know that we are really, really invested in a FitzSimmons wedding, which helps.

So, honestly, I think we’re in a situation where we can hope for the best, but we should definitely plan for the worst. Keeping your expectations low is really important as we head into this upcoming season. Take everything the creators say with a mountain of salt and prepare for gaps that fan fiction will need to fill.

I don’t like being the person who has to say those kinds of things, but here we are.

Anyway, Laurent, I hope all my incoherent rambling was helpful. There is hope! There is also risk. Tread carefully. We are getting some morsels of things here and there, but it will probably be a while until we get anything substantial, so we should just enjoy this ignorant bliss while we can!   

Weekly Recap May 27-June 3


Another week has gone by and our Gundam Wing community has created some amazing content for you to bask in! 

Thank you for all your submissions! We have also tried to go through AO3 to find more published content but it’s easy for things to fall between the cracks so please continue submitting your links - we don’t want anyone’s work to be forgotten! You can submit anything gundam wing related. We want to see any and everything you’ve created.

Beneath the cut you’ll find links and information about the wonderful content created by our super creative peers. If anything piques your curiosity please give it a go. Don’t forget to comment, like, and reblog! Support and encouragement mean the worlds to creators. It helps keep them motivated and inspired.

Thank you all for being awesome and I hope you’re looking forward to next week’s update!

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11 Questions tag

I got tagged by the sweet @lthyl​ (THANK YOUUUUU!) for this, that’s a very funny one! 

Rules: answer the questions given to you by the tagger, and write 11 questions of your own. then tag 11 people!

  • what superpower would you like to have?

I have like this deep wish since I’m a kid: to be able to summon a dead person and talk with them about theories or to borrow them their intelligence. Like, I would die to talk with Einstein, Beethoven, Nietzsche, or anyone not famous ! To be able to use their intelligence to understand the world in another way, you know? That’s a weird thing, no? 

  • chose a super hero (or heroine) you relate the most to.

I don’t relate to a lot of super, more to vilains… tend to be stuck in a moral world with the good and the bad things. I feel closer to the Joker. I rarely take things seriously and spend most of my time thinking society moral is a burden. Vilains seems more free, even if they tend to be locked into patterns because of dark pasts… There’s something more pure about vilains in my opinion (like the Joker!). But now that I’m thinking about it, maybe a anti hero like the Bourbon Kid would do. 

  • if you could have the name of a flower, what would it be?

Narcisseae! From the flower itself, the name, to the myth, I just love it! 

  • describe the last dream you had (this is gonna be fun eheh)

Ehhhhhhhh… I can’t remember the last one clearly (last one was was with Yoongi.I’m pretty sure I was cheating on my ex with him… And that’s really exciting!). 

But I often have one, where I’m at my mother place, in the garden and there is a fence in the back of the garden that no one shall cross because there’s a beast (black panther, or something like this) living here and attacking everyone. Of course, I’m at the fence too scared to cross, and I see my sister, on the other side of the fence, running happily, I scream for her to come back because the beast is lurking (i can’t see it but I know it) and she just don’t hear me because she’s too far, so I end up going on the other side to pick her up and that’s when the beast appears, running to me, ignoting my sister, coming out for me! I love this nightmare, even if it always makes me afraid, I don’t know why but I love it. 

  • which are your top 5 movies right now?

THAT’S TOO HARD, I LOVE SO MANY MOVIES (I watch at least one each day, if not more!)

- Elle by Paul Verhoeven, that’s a strange one honestly psychologic thriller French and Dutch.

- Interstellar by Christopher Nolan, honestly because of Matthew McConaughey (and goddammit this voice of his!)

- In the Mood For Love & 2046 by Wong Kar Wai (Those are two, but it’s a combo, the first one is my favourite, those are the only love story in movie I like deeply…)

- Time of Kim Ki Duk, GREAT ONE! 

- O’Brother by Ethan & Joel Cohen, don’t ask just watch it! 

  • do you read manga/watch anime? Any rec?

I read a lot of mangas, but don’t watch animes! My rec: 

- Homunculus by Hideo Yamamoto ;  I find it very deep…  “ Trepanation is the procedure of drilling a hole in the skull. It is said to increase the blood circulation and improve pressure inside the skull. It is also said to bring out a person’s sixth sense, the ability to use ESP, see ghosts, move objects with one’s mind.”

- Basilisk by Masaki Segawa ;  The story takes place in the year 1614. Two ninja clans, Tsubagakure of the Iga and Manjidani of Kouga, battle each other to determine which grandson of Tokugawa Ieyasu will become the next shogun. The deadly competition between 10 elite ninja from each clan unleashes a centuries-old hatred that threatens to destroy all hope for peace between them.

- Lesson Of The Evil by Eiji Karasuyama & Yûsuke Kishi ; made after the movie of the same name (must watch because Hideaki Itô is sexy as HELL) it tells the story of a teacher who’s a sociopath and… Well he does what sociopath are good at. 

- A Girl On The Shore by Inio Asano; erotic one and very touching! It is about the two junior high school students who enter into a casual sex relationship.

  • what’s your favorite thing about/in your room?

I love my room. Every single part of it. From the colorful tinsels, to the old world map, to the books sitting everywhere, the old silky couch, the erotic pictures, the old posters, the mosquito net over the bed (very princess like, I know!) and the constellations I made with phosphorescent stars. It’s dark and comfy.

  • if you could have only a single kind of drink for the rest of your life, what would that be?

I don’t think I’ll survive this honestly… I want to be able to drink everything. I don’t like restrictions… But mint tea or coffee. Or plain water. Or coke, I can’t deciiiiiide! But if I had to take one last drink before I’ll die: Jack Daniels. 

  • do you play any instrument?

No, I’m to lazy to learn. And I find it quite boring. I love listening not playing. 

  • favorite weather?

A light rain and south wind on a not too hot day. 

  • (and the most important of them all) team Ironman or team Captain America?

TCH! IRONMAN! (I kinda hate Captain America so that’s an easy one!)

My questions to @lonely-kitten-named-bambi @jnghobi @oppamansae @rapmonluv @bebitojoonie 

1. You’re on a island with an idol: who ist it? And what is the first thing you tell him/her?

2. You have three last word to say to someone, then you die, what will they be (don’t tell us who it’s adress to unless you really want to)? 

3. You accidently drink a strange cocktail in an underground bar and become a man, what is the first thing you do? (hehe)

4. You’re locked in a basement with a vampire, a werewolf, an ancient god and a demon, they all offer to turn you into one of their kind, what do you pick? 

5. You are given the chance to change one thing in your life, what is it? 

6. A strange man or woman comes to you and offer you one thing amongst : 5000$ cash, an invite to a party where all your bias and bias wrecker will be, a job in any country you want, an immortal pet (like a leopard or lion or wolf, you decide!) to which you’ll be mentally connected to or a very old book with strange writting in it. What do you pick, why? 

7. What is your favourite thing in your life? 

8. You find a Death Note, and L calls you (or, is it Light? you can’t be too sure!) asking you to give it to him, what will you do?

9. You come back to your place and find out that there’s been a robbery, what is the first thing you’re looking for?

10. Oops, there’s a breach in the fourth dimension (time) you are attracted in it. It will have terrible consequences so God let you decide where (when) you’ll end up. What period would you like to go to? 

11. You have the worst day of your life. You can’t sleep, you’re too anxious to do anything, your guardian angel appears and offer to give you ONE thing that will make you forget about this day, what is this thing?

Our Song (Chapter 4)

Tokyo Ghoul Idol AU

Summary: Hinami is a normal college student leading a normal, happy life. Ayato is an idol drowning in fame and fortune who suffers from sleepless nights and unforgettable nightmares. They meet through a variety show that gives Hinami the chance to sing with him. Initially bitter that she wasn’t given the chance to sing with her bias, Kaneki, Hinami starts to warm up to Ayato and sees the real person beyond the sexy bad boy he appears to be onstage.(Relationships: Ayahina + Kirishima family)

A/N: As of now, this is the chapter I am the most insecure about. I had it written some time back already– I finished half of this even before I started Chapter 3. I hope it’s fine. Not too much Ayahina here, but the Kirishimas’ plot starts here I guess. Please do reblog this if you enjoyed it!
Also, follower count hit a big milestone (and then dropped, probably because of a certain reason) so here’s thanking everyone for following me and my blog! ♡

Index: Masterpost | Information sheet | Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | Chapter 4 | Chapter 5 | Chapter 6

Chapter 4: Alone

Ayato wakes up early from a nightmare. Yomo confronts him about texting Hinami. A little later, Ayato and Touka share a short conversation which makes him think about what had happened in the past. 

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anonymous asked:



trans reid:

1. gender has never felt like Anything to reid. it was never a Part of him. he never felt “like a man”. he Knew, Objectively, that he was a boy (since he had Boy Parts) but, like. it wasn’t like he felt like a boy in any meaningful way.

2. he was 12 when he realized he Wasnt a boy. he just wasnt.

3. gender doesnt really play a big role in his life. he asked jj once how being a woman felt. she was quiet for a long time. 

4. he knows that being a Man is different for morgan and hotch and that being a woman is different for kate and JJ and tara. he knows theres no right way to be a man. but he isn’t one. Objectively speaking.

5. he’s 23 when he first hears the word “agender”. the syllables take root in his heart like a tree. afterwards, he can’t stop thinking about how much sense it makes.

6. he doesnt usually get dysphoric. sometimes he does. (its mostly social. his body isn’t Male. its just His.) he asks jj to call him by they/them pronouns sometimes. he knows she gets it. wont make a big deal out of it. garcia knows too. morgan. emily. but jj Gets it the best, knows how to make him feel safe.

7. at one point, he tried literally every set of pronouns he could think of. ze. hir. none of them felt his. 

8. sometimes he wishes he was a little more androgynous, grows his hair out. realizes that it only makes his face look more bony. more angular. sharper. he cuts it short again and finds a hairstyle that compliments his face. softens his eyes. Dr. Spencer Reid. They. Them. He. Him.

(when he comes out to JJ as bi she comes out right back to him. then he comes out as agender and demisexual. JJ says, “is this a competition?” but there’s a glimmer in her eyes and he knows shes trying not to cry. she hugs him and he wants to cry too. sometimes he feels like he doesn’t deserve her.)

autistic reid:

1. he fucking hates most clothes. finding clothes that are appropriate for work but dont make him want to Die from sensory Issues is Hard. cue weird clothing choices. mostly its scratchy fabrics. he can’t Take them. garcia introduces him to soft cardigans and he isn’t sure how he missed them all his life

2. he’s used to being dismissed when he speaks. it still hurts. statistics have been his special interest for as long as he remembers and Maybe he is a little bit obnoxious sometimes but honestly, its only relevant with what they do. he wishes his team was interested in what he has to say more often.

3. gideon didnt want him on the field, originally. he has a tendency of just Shutting Down when he’s overstimmed. gideon was afraid of that happening in field.

4. he grew out his hair party because long hair is easier to stim with

5. he also stims by swaying

6. he doesnt notice it himself but he’s constantly hugging himself, comforting himself, calming himself down. being shut down and ridiculed and mocked and bullied his whole life taught him to survive.

7. parts of his body are completely numb while other parts are super sensitive. this makes it hard for him to find clothes that feel Okay. this also makes it easy for him to hurt himself accidentally.

8. he carries a weighted blanket and several stim Toys (though he’d never admit that or call them toys) in his bag

9. he will have a meltdown if you take his bag. it’s like his safety blanket. dont take it. it’s happened before. morgan cried for an hour afterwards. it took a long time for reid to trust him again. 

10. sometimes, after a bad case or a long day, reid finds an empty office and sits down underneath the desk, with his legs against his chest and his back against the wall, if possible. sometimes he has to move the desk  to be able to do this. he shuts down the lights and calms down. hotch knows he’s there and tells the cleaning staff not to go in until he knows reid’s left. 

11. there’s a lot of food he just Can’t eat because the texture makes him feel sick. on cases he either doesnt want to test his luck or forgets to eat altogether. cue running on coffee. his mother says its all the coffee and shes not wrong, he guesses, but really, it would help if his body didn’t hate most convenient food items.

12. reid studied human behavior for years and he thinks hes mastered it now. you couldnt tell he learned everything from a book. he doesnt really even get startled any more when someone breaks his script. he’s so good at faking it. he wasn’t always. but this job has really perfected his acting skills. 

13. he’s still thrown off, sometimes, by his team mates joking. he doesn’t get all of it. he doesn’t get pop culture. he reads and he reads and he reads and he reads and he reads and twirls a pencil the whole time or taps on something or bounces his leg and jj sits with him, usually, watches him flip through a book after a book and never get satisfied. it’s an unspoken kind of a relationship. it’s soft. 

14. he gets so angry sometimes. by the way people Like Him are treated. by the way He is still treated. he gets so mad. sometimes he screams out loud. sometimes it embarrasses him. sometimes it doesnt. “good”, he thinks. “be scared of me”.

15. morgan carries an extra blanket with him. he has white noise tracks saved on his phone for reid specifically. he has an extra pair of expensive headphones, the noise cancelling kind. and he always gives his softest, most worn out t-shirts to reid. and reid’s eyes always light up. 

Things I've Learned Playing The Last Of Us

I recently played TLOU for the first time. After months of saving up $300 and running to the GameStop to get the PS4 and the game. It has been the best thing i’ve ever put 9 hours into, and I would do it over and over. As the credits rolled through, I found myself speechless. But turning off the TV with a new appreciation and a new understanding of a human mind. Here’s some of the things I learned from those 9 hours:

1. A daughters love.
That watch must have been hundreds, we all really know she doesn’t sell hardcore drugs. She has been saving for months or maybe a year to get the watch for her dad. It was beautiful to watch that.

2. Some people, just don’t care.
To be able to shoot a little girl from her fathers arms, with intention to kill both of them, is cruel and there is no heart in that body. This is something I saw throughout the game, people who tried to hurt Ellie, the man that instructed the solider to shoot Sarah, the solider that shot Sarah..

3. Some nightmares never leave.
20 years later, he has nightmares of his daughter.

4. An apocalypse changes people.
I guess when your loved ones have suffered, died, become infected, etc. You loose hope, a lot of it.

You have no idea how many times I still tried punching…

6. There is no mercy.
14. She’s 14. Lost her parents, lost her best friend, lost Marlene, shes infected.. she looses herself. She’s 14, yet taking a beating from the world.

7. The jury’s still out, but you can’t deny the view though.
Yeah, I just got the shit scared out of me, I almost got eaten, I have a bite on my arm, but the view is beautiful.

8. Things change in seconds, for the most interesting and odd people.
Tess? The woman that kicks ass and kicks ass, yeah.. she’s bitten. She’s gonna die. Just like that. Yeah, that hurt.

9. It’s pretty easy to hide your love.
We saw the way Joel was with Tess, we saw the way Tess was with Joel. We watched his world change when she died and we saw him almost break in front of Ellie talking about her. We saw him scream at Bill for talking about her too. He didn’t see it enough.

10. You love the people you hate.
He stole Bills engine, and he hated his guts. But Bill cared for him, he still considered him a partner, and he stuttered pointing out his bites and could barely read that note. He couldn’t handle it, because he still loved, even though he hated.

11. Sometimes, you just need a friend.
Sam hasn’t smiled like that in weeks. Now he’s laughing, glittering, both of them radiating with happiness as they throw berries in the air and try and catch them. Something so simple, yet something so not simple.

12. You gotta go with your gut. No time to argue.
She jumped off that bridge and went with her
gut. They made it.

13. The best things, go wrong at some point.
A camp, one made in the idea of raising children. So well put together and organized. How did it go wrong? How could it go wrong?

14. When you don’t have a purpose, what’s worth living for?
He shot himself because his little brother was dead. He couldn’t live knowing he was alone, so he didn’t live.

15. A brothers love has no end.
He never wanted to see his goddamned face again, yet he let him in without hesitation and gave him a hug.

16. People think stupid things sometimes.
Did Joel really think passing Ellie off to Tommy was a good idea? He formed a relationship with this little girl and now he would just pass her on and leave? That’s stupid.

17. We all have that one person.
Everyone you have ever loved or cared for can either die or leave you, but you’ll still have that one person at the end of the day. The one that doesn’t leave (no matter how much they try to).

18. You don’t let that one person go.
Not now, not ever.

19. Football.
If you mess up your fourth down, you give your ball to the other team and it’s called a turnover. If you clear the ten yards then your back at first down. Man, it’s confusing.

20. You’ll do anything for that one person.
Impaled by rebar, bleeding out everywhere, barely able to walk and see, practically the smallest step from death. She stitches him up and risks her life (and hunger) to get him food.

21. They’ll do the same back.
Killing dozens of men after sitting up for the first time since being impaled… if that’s not love, what is?

22. People are crazy.
The way David placed his hands on Ellie and called her special made my skin crawl and I was disgusted. The way they slaughter people. The way that man called Ellie “Davids Newest Pet.”

23. A fathers love.
The way he pulled her away and made her know it was only him. The way he held her and called her baby girl, shushing her and saying “it’s okay.” over and over till she believed it.

24. Healing is the hardest part.
After Winter, we got to see first hand.. Ellie actually, broken. She was dazed out and in another world, obviously still struggling.

25. It’s the little things.
The whole atmosphere lit up when Ellie saw those giraffes, after a brutal winter and depressing chapter, we lived through a child’s eyes that moment. Watching her forget about all that happened, just for a minute. I remember watching Joel and Ellie pet the giraffe with big eyes and sitting there for minutes at the ledge, crying because I felt it. Then she remembered what happened, and I cried more because the moment was over.

26. It’s got its ups and downs, can’t deny the view though. Almost taken over by a perverted man. Just went through a traumatic winter. But you can’t deny the view

27. Well no matter how hard you try, guess you can’t escape your past.
No explanation needed.

28. Sometimes, being selfish is a good thing.
He killed, just so he wouldn’t have to loose another daughter. Because he loved her, and he wouldn’t let her go.

29. Love.
He’ll damn the world and rip away the cure and kill every person that tries to stop him. But if he can be with her, and be her father, than so be it.

30. You keep finding something to fight for.
No matter what.

31. I’m excited to have children of my own.
This game has made me want to be a mother, even more. Seeing Ellie grow in her character.. was beautiful. By the end of the game, I know I had a swollen heart over this little girl. And by the credits, I wanted a daughter.

32. It was worth it.
I could’ve spent that $300 on something else, maybe some cool outfits from a boutique.. but i’m glad I spent it on this. And I would do it all over again.

Thank you, Naughty Dog.

fic: You’re Being Quite ‘Shellfish’

“This was my sorry-I-killed-Alberta blowjob, just so you know,” he whispers into Phil’s ear, nonchalance lacing his tone-

Or, the story with shrimp-killers, a passive-agressive Phil Lester™, and anthropomorphism at its finest.

1k/ fluff, humor (I tried, really), slight angst and smut, domestic!phan

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#104: Song Preference: Somebody To You By the Vamps

Authors Note: You can find the song HERE

Ashton: I’ve got your photograph. But baby I need more than that. I need to know your lips. Nothing ever mattered to me more than this.

You couldn’t help but stare at Ashton, the way his smile made your heart flutter. Or the way he animatedly talked with his hands, or the way his perfect lips formed your name. It was mesmerizing, and all you could think of was how much you desired his lips on yours. You wanted to feel what it was like to kiss him, the idea keeping you up for a long time. You had stared at his pictures on your phone late at night, admiring and wondering what it would be like to just kiss him. You two were still in the very early stages of your relationship. You two were exclusive it seemed, but neither of you had made a move to be remotely physical. He would hold you hand, or put his hand on the small of your back to reassure you that he was there, but other than that nothing had happened. Of course, there were times where the two of you were close. Suddenly looking at each other and realizing just how close your faces were, or times where you would be cuddling, and rolling around to brush noses, or even to nuzzle into a shoulder. But every time you seemed to get close enough to kiss, something would interrupt the two of you. Or one of you would pull away shyly, unsure if it was okay to keep going. But now, you craved his very lips. You wanted to taste your name, you wanted to feel the softness as they were pressed against yours. You often wondered if he felt the same way about you. Did he want to feel your lips, taste the berry chapstick that you so often wore? You rolled over restlessly looking out the window and staring at the bleak sky. Your phone lit up, illuminating the darkened room. You grabbed it, seeing Ashton’s name flit across the screen. You unlocked your phone, opening his message and smiling at your phone. “I can’t sleep. And I think its because you’re on my mind.” It read, and your heart fluttered. “I feel the same way. I can’t sleep. Probably because the thought of you is keeping me awake.” You confessed, holding your breath and sending it. Almost immediately Ashton replied, making your heart hammer. “I don’t know if its because I just crave to see you, or even just to feel you near me. I don’t know if I’m jumping to conclusions or I’m pushing anything, but I really want to kiss you.” He said, making your eyes grow wide. You couldn’t help but smile and roll into your pillow, smiling like an idiot. “Its not too far. Not at all. I want to kiss you too. Badly.” You said, biting your lip. It took a little while for Ashton to reply but your phone lit up once more. “Now I really won’t be able to sleep. I have no idea why this desire is so strong now. I’ve always wanted to kiss you, but right now I really, really want to.” His text made you blush, but you grinned like an idiot, rolling into your pillow to muffle your squeals of excitement and joy. The night continued with texts going back and forth, all surrounding the concept that the desire for some physical contact was incredibly noticeable. Falling asleep with your phone on your chest, your dreams were oriented around Ashton, until you woke up to the bright light of the near noon sunlight shining on your face. You picked your phone up off of the mattress beside you, reading the missed messages from Ashton. You quickly texted him a good morning text, before beginning to get ready for the day. You stayed at home that day, mindlessly puttering around the house doing odd things that had been building up and needed to be done. It wasn’t until around seven that night you heard a knock on your door. You were puzzled because you weren’t expecting anybody to come over, but you made your way to the door. You opened it, your eyes growing wide as you saw Ashton standing there, leaning against the doorframe looking devilishly handsome. “Why hello,” He said, pushing himself off of the frame, and before you could even say a greeting he grabbed the back of your head and pulled you in for a kiss. His lips were just as you imagined, and you were knocked breathless at the intensity of the kiss. Your knees went weak, making Ashton wrap his free arm around you waist as you wound your arms around his neck. You broke apart, flushed and smiling as he stared down at you. “God damn.” He said, laughing. “I could do that all night,” He said. “Why don’t you?” You questioned. He grinned, bending down again, pushing you into the house, and shutting the door with his foot, never breaking the kiss.

Calum: Look at me now, I’m falling. I can’t even talk, still stuttering.

It felt like someone had punched Calum in the stomach, and had made him fall to the ground. It was as if his entire world was crumbling, piece by piece, shattering into a million tiny pieces that could never be put back together. The news of your death had brought Calum to his knees, a pain and grief stricken scream making its way out of his chest, out into the cold and lonely world. Your daughter screamed as she crumbled to the ground beside her shaking father, her body convulsing with grief as the thought of growing into a woman without her mother beside her hit her with a hard reality. Calum felt as if he was falling - falling into an oblivion of endless pain. It would never end, and he would never be whole again. He grabbed as his daughter, pulling her against his shaking body trying to calm her down as best as he could. But despite everything, he couldn’t talk and when he tried to his stuttered. She clung to his breaking body with a fierce sorrow. Calum was almost scared to look at his daughter because she looked so similar to you. Everyday it would remind him of your beauty, and your grace. The image of your laughing face fell across his mind, catapulting him into another round of shoulder shaking sobs. Every time he tried to say your daughters name only a pain stricken sound would fall from his lips, and she would just nod her head against his chest, acknowledging the effort. In that moment, Calum realized that he would never be whole again. He would never have his entire heart, and that half of his body, mind and spirit had left with you. For some reason, Calum tried to rationalize your death. Maybe you were needed somewhere else? Maybe this was payment for all the wrong things he had done in his life? Maybe it was just to make him miserable. Things were going so well with the band and life, that fate shook its head and laughed at both of you. Maybe that was it. Maybe it was some sick cosmic joke to never allow Calum to be happy. He would give anything to hug you one more time, and just to tell you how much he loved you. It had been less than an hour and the weight of the loss was suffocating. He almost forgot that your daughter was going through the exact same thing, and she too must feel like she was falling. He stroked her hair, trying to reassure her. But how does he reassure her when he was just as broken? The fear she must be experiencing by not only losing her mother, but seeing her father in shambles, and crying like a four year old boy? Calum didn’t care that he was a mess, because there was no way he was able to put himself back together. He took a deep breath, trying to calm his breathing once more so he could formulate some words. But he couldn’t stop stuttering, maybe it was because his teeth were chattering so badly, or maybe it was because his brain turned to mush and that he was unable to form a word, let alone a sentence. But nonetheless, your daughter kept saying “I know,” over and over again. It was if the roles were reversed. His daughter comforting a grown man, easing him through the pain. It should be the other way, because he was after all her father. He was the one that put a bandaid on her cuts, and helped her when she was in trouble. But with every thought of his daughter, you were in the picture, not far behind. You were watching, or being a part of the situation. Would he ever be able to think of something without you being there? He never wanted to forget you, but it would become his own personal hell and form of torture. Knowing that everyday he would think of you, but one day the memories would get a little fuzzier until he wouldn’t be able to remember the sound of your voice, or the way you looked when you were laughing or smiling. And with that singular thought it brought a new wave of tears and grief, and once more Calum was falling, unable to catch himself. All he could do was cling to your daughter in an efforts to ease some of the pain that he knew would never go away.

Luke: I used to wanna be. Living like there’s only me. But now I spend my time. Thinking ‘bout a way to get you off my mind.

For as long as Luke could remember he had always been single. The boys of the band had dated, and had girlfriends. He was always envious of their relationships but quite frankly he was solo. He didn’t mind the single life. Of course, he wasn’t all that pure. He had his fun, and he certainly took advantage of the hoards of girls that were throwing themselves at him. But he would simply spend the night with them, and not give them a second glance. It was easy, and the boys always told him that he would get sick of that lifestyle and that he would want a woman one day. But he never thought he would find a girl that would satisfy what he wanted. He wasn’t even sure what he wanted. He was used to thinking only on his own terms, but then there was one day where his entire world was flipped upside down. Maybe it was because you showed such little interest in him, and that you couldn’t be bothered with what he was, or it was your sheer beauty. But either way, Luke was intrigued and it kept him awake at night. He couldn’t look any other woman, because your face would in his vision. He couldn’t touch another woman because he wondered what your flushed skin felt like underneath his calloused finger tips, or what the soft sound of your breathing sounded like at night when you lay next to him. He had met you as a friend of Michaels. You had run up to Michael and given him the biggest hug imaginable, wrapping your legs around his waist as he picked you up. You smiled so brightly it was if your world had come home. But Michael dismissed any romantic notions between the two of you. Both of your parents were friends, and you two had grown up together. You two were more siblings than friends, and you had simply said hi to everyone as if they were normal guys that were friends with your friend. You weren’t starstruck considering this was the first time you had met the band in full since they had grown to be the pop-rock sensation that they were today. You had talked animatedly do Michael, and Luke wanted nothing more than to talk to you. He tried relentlessly to talk to you, to get you to fall into his embrace for one night. But you wouldn’t have it, and that just spurred Luke on further. Now, he didn’t even want you for one night, he wanted you beside him all the time. He was enthralled by your beauty, and normalcy. It was something so refreshing and unique about you. You took no shit from the boys, even when Calum playfully pulled the famous card to try and get out of something. But having to leave the beautiful city you resided in because of tour scheduling, Luke felt so compelled to ask you out, but one he was worried about rejection, and two he was worried about Michael’s reaction. He was like an older brother to you, and Luke wasn’t sure if it was wise to disrupt that dynamic, or even if Michael would approve of Luke with you, because of his reputation. Leaving the city, and leaving you, Luke was unable to shake you off of his mind. Everywhere he looked he wanted to see you. Confronting his feelings, he confided in Calum to which he laughed. “I knew it!” He exclaimed, laughing some more. “You are smitten! We knew it! This would happen eventually!” He said, slapping his knee. “What would happen?” Michael asked walking into the room. “That Luke would fall in love,” Calum teased. Luke grew nervous, and antsy. “With who?” He said, smiling at Luke. “(Y/N)” Calum said before Luke could stop him. Michael paused, before laughing. “You’re fucking kidding me right?” He said, and Luke couldn’t tell if he was angry or not. “No I’m not,” He said quietly. “Good luck man,” He said, sitting down. “Why do you say that?” Luke questioned. “She’s something else Luke. I don’t care, just don’t fuck with her. She’s a strong woman. If you can handle her, or even get her to like you back, then she’s all yours.” He said. And so it became Luke’s mission to make you see him in a romantic lens. He began texting you casually, and skying with you when Michael skyped you.  Eventually you and Luke began skyping on your own before Luke flew out to see you. It took a very long time for you to ease into something with Luke, but no matter what, every other person paled in comparison to you. You were hard to win over, but eventually Luke won your heart.    

Michael: And then you caught my eye. Giving me the feeling of a lightening strike.

Love was something you dismissed. You were a pessimist to be honest. You didn’t believe in the capabilities of love, nor the potential to find ‘the one.’ It was all some Hollywood hoax that was heavily over vamped to compel everyone to believe that eventually they would find the person that completed them. You didn’t believe that it was possible, and you certainly didn’t believe that it would ever happen to you. You watched your parents fight time and time again, you watched you friends fall in and out of relationships, and you had your own experiences with heartbreak. So, after years of hurt, and watching people around you be broken down, you decided that there was no such thing as love. And you were content to say that. It was all false. When your friend urged you to go on a blind date with one of her boyfriends friends, you were skeptical. You didn’t want to date, let alone to meet a stranger and explain your pessimistic view on the whole notion of love. She begged, pleaded and grovelled saying that you two would be perfect for each other and that if you didn’t she would unfriend you. You agreed, with much protesting and voicing your distain to the entire situation. The night of you got ready, feeling oddly compelled to look at least presentable. You wore your favourite outfit, saying it was more of a confidence booster and moral kick than to impress this mystery man. But as you arrived fashionably late at the restaurant that your friend had said to meet at, you felt jittery. When you saw him, at least who you assumed to be him, your heart gave a little thud that was heavier than normal. He looked up, and smiled, his blue hair catching the soft glow of the lights above you. “You must be (Y/N),” He said, standing up and outstretching his hand. “Hi, yes. You must be Michael,” You said, shaking his hand and feeling a shock shoot through your fingertips. Michael came around, and like a proper gentlemen pulled you your chair for you. You sat down, incredibly nervous. It had felt like a bolt of lighting had struck you and you suddenly felt frazzled. “I have to admit,” Michael began. “I don’t usually do blind dates, and I was fully prepared to see a man walk through that door and just say ‘jokes on you.’ It would be something that my buddy would do.” He said laughing. You couldn’t help but laugh as well, his laughter becoming contagious. “Well I must admit, I’m not a man in case you haven’t noticed.” You said, trying to play along. “I noticed,” He said laughing, relieving you. The conversation flowed easily and with a gentle flow. It was nice, actually. It scared you though. You weren’t supposed to feel this way, and you most certainly weren’t supposed to feel all jittery and light when he kissed you. But despite everything, when he gently kissed you at the end of the date, you couldn’t help but bite your lip and try to calm your racing heart. “I’d really like to see you again,” Michael said. And before you could help yourself you were giving him your number, and eagerly awaiting his text. You weren’t supposed to feel like this. You were supposed to be indifferent, and you were to be in control. But he had the upper hand. He had kissed you, and he had asked for your number. He had walked you to your apartment, and he had basically swept you off your feet. He had flipped your world upside-down and you were uncomfortable. You were out of your comfort zone, and basically going against everything you stood for and believed in love. You shut your door, dialling your friends number and waiting for her to pick up. When she did, the first thing to fall from your lips was an insult. “You’re an asshole.” You said, falling onto your couch. “Why?” She asked, but you could hear the satisfaction in her voice. “Because I’m giddy. And I want to see him again. And I’m not supposed to want to. I’m supposed to be in control, and I’m not. And I like him. And I don’t want to. And its your fault.” You said in a huff. You were genuinely upset, and you hated yourself for this. “Let it be (Y/N). See what happens. If you get scared, tell him. But if things are going well, let them happen. You don’t have to rush. You don’t have to label it. You don’t have to do anything that you’re not comfortable with.” She reassured you. “Fine.” You said, still huffy. “Tell me all about it.” She said, as you launched into the details of your date. When you finally hung up, you had a text message from Michael, asking if you would want to grab a coffee in the morning. You surprised yourself by agreeing, taking tiny baby steps in the new world.

“And then there’s you” - blurb

(a/n: based on the lyrics of snakeships ft zayn - cruel)


Luke is a pretty sensitive guy. He finds it pretty easy to hide his inner emotions from people. “And then theres you..” Luke can’t hide from you. No matter how hard he tries you always know. With everything thats going on in the world today it’s hard for everyone not to get a little upset. It had hit Luke hard when there was a shooting in a city the band were performing in a few weeks back. He couldn’t believe that in such a short amount of time lives can change and loved ones can be gone in the blink of an eye. Luke made a vow that day to you and his family that he will do everything in his power to make you proud and show you how much he appreciates you all and loves you all for being so support of his lifestyle.


“And then there’s you..” Being away from you and on tour is a nightmare Michael lives most days. Despite Michaels pleads, you have work commitments at home and just can’t find the time to travel with him. But when he comes back or you take time off work to spend time with each other its right back to where you left off. He’ll watch you take your dress off and think about all the times he’s sat in his bunk and thought of you, your body, your voice, your smell, everything that makes him fall in love with you more and more each day. Your body especially hurts him. To him, your body is a fucking temple and its a temple he wants to explore over and over until he knows the full ins and outs of it.


It hasn’t been easy for Ashton. Since the band started out, as the oldest member he has always been protrayed as the Dad of the band. And not in the sexual way. He’s always felt like there’s an extra responsibility he always has. Ashton has always had an extra responsiblity, towards his mother and siblings. I guess thats why he probably finds it hard to open up to anyone, after watching his mum heart broken when his dad left, having to raise 3 kids alone, its not easy. Thats why Ashton grew up faster than other kids his age. “And then there’s you..” When Ashton first met you, his guard was up. After getting to know you for a good 6 months he realised that it was only you. There was no one else. When Ashton was with you he didn’t feel responsible anymore. He felt like he could live out his childhood with you and everything was ok and was good. After years of not having a serious relationship Ashton realised that he was saving all his love for you and finally he had found something good.


You and Calum would go to numerous parties. You would go with friends while he’s away and he would go whilst on tour and to keep up appearances. There would always be that prick at the party that would try it on with you and you’d have to figure out how to let him down gently without making a scene even though you want nothing more than someone to whack them right in the face. There would always be that gorgeous model or actress at the party that would give Calum sultry looks from across the room. “And then there’s you…” The one that Calum can’t wait to get home to. To come home and just be with you. When Calum is with you he forgets about everything thats troubling him and just enjoys your company. And lets face it, the sex would be incredible.

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Hey, english is not my first language, so please bear with me. i just want your opinion on the things i heard, this’s like really important to me. So I live in Thailand and when 1d came here, my friend was following them around. As you all know, louis and zayn went clubbing every night while they were here. Im not talking about zayn and the cheating rumor, this’s about louis.

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anonymous asked:

Dean being openly bisexual in the canon verse. Sometimes he pick up women in bars and sometimes he would pick guys up. He is okay with it, he loves women, loves their soft skin, their breasts and their cunts. But he also loves to suck guys off, open them up carefully, loves to pin guys in the bed and fuck them senseless. He just enjoys sex and loves to make his sexual partner achieve ecstasy. (Part 1)

John is not happy about that fact, but he got used to it since the first time he caught Dean fucking one guy when Dean was fifteen years old. Everything goes the same, except Dean spends way too much time thinking wrecking a angel of the Lord. He always knew he was fucked up but not in that level. The first time he had the chance to have sex with Cas was after the failed attempt with Chastity at the brothel. (Part 2)

After that they got in a relationship slash friends with benefits kind of thing. They are trying stop the apocalypse, but when have the chance Dean will suck Cas off or Cas will suck him off. Cas enjoys being rimmed a lot too. If they are not too busy and they get rid of Sam, Dean is able to fuck Cas. After they stop the apocalypse and Sam is in the pit, Dean asks Cas out and decide to proper date him. Is not easy, Cas is busy with Heaven’s business, but they manage. (Part 3)

Cas sometimes will pop up and help him with hunt, or they’ll go out (Dean likes to hold hands with him, even thought he will never admit it.)Is not that everything goes smoothly, never goes with the Winchesters, but Dean is happy and in love and it sucks that the world needs to be saved again. But he has his brother and boyfriend. But then he founds out about Cas working with Crowley. Dean is furious and hurt and everything is just worse with Cas becoming God. (Part 4)

Dean was hurt yes, but Castiel’s death was a hard thing for him. Cas was his best friend, his lover and now he was gone. Or so he thought until he find him again, just so he would lost him because Cas was trying to fix his wrongs. Dealing with Cas while crazy wasn’t easy, was unnerving and Dean just wanted him out of it. Them come purgatory and his seek for Cas. Dean was never happier than when he hugged Cas again when found him. (Part 5)

That night or day, Dean never knew, they made love. And was the first time Dean thought something cheesy as “make love.” But it was it, they were both a mess and so broken, Dean was careful, touching and kissing Cas all the time, moving inside of him with small and sweet moviments, afraid it was a dream and he would wake up soon. Dean knew they should talk, but was nice pretend everything was fine. (Part 6)

Seeing Cas again after he was out of purgatory hurts, Dean couldn’t stop blame himself, was all his fault, he should get Cas out of there. Then after rescuing Kevin from Crowley, Dean had enough, of Cas lies, enough of him not being enough, of the love he felt. They broke up, for real this time. Between the “I need you. I love you”, Cas running away, Cas back at the bunker, the fall of the angels and Cas becoming a human, Dean’s feelings never changed once (part 7 I think)

Dean still loved him, he still loved him when he had to kick him out, he still loved him when he found Cas working at the Gas-N-Sip, Dean definitely still loved Cas when he rode him in the back of Impala after the failed date. He loved him and it didn’t stopped. It was something that went through Dean’s mind when he was dying, he was proud of him and Sammy and he loved Castiel. (Part 8)

Is not that Dean’s time as demon he forget about Cas, quite the oppressed. The amount of times he would pick a random guy to fuck just because he had a eye color that reminded him of Cas’ eyes was amazing. But he could ignore the feeling, he was just too angry and bloodthirsty to really think about it. But once he was human again was different. Cas was there and was walking away again. (Part 9 maybe?)

Dean wouldn’t let him, not this time. So when he pulled Cas and crashed their lips together, murmuring about how much he loved and missed him, he knew was the right choice. They were both fucked up, with lots of issues they need to work on. But Dean loved Cas. And Cas loved him. And was one start. (The end) [it’s 2 am and I felt like it before I went to sleep. sorry was way too long]

I love how this basically changes nothing in canon, it just adds an explicit sexual relationship and it all works and its all so good! I like this alternate canon!