its so easy to forget that they had a relationship for like 5 years or something

anonymous asked:

so vld is confirmed to run for 8 seasons right? if that's the case and say sheith will be end game, at what point in the series would you want them to be canon?

hmm thats tricky. i know a lot of people would probably prefer it sooner than later, but i would much rather have relationships that werent rushed or forced. also, i dont think either of them is in a good headspace for it right now. keith in particular with his abandonment issues and constantly “afraid that he’s gonna say or do something wrong and he’s gonna lose shiro” isn’t ready for a relationship. His immediate readiness to sacrifice everything for shiro without even questioning it is admirable, but i dont think shiro would ever want that. obviously shiro would still risk a lot for keith, still does things like trying to fight off everyone at the marmora base for his sake. but id argue bom proves that before shiro, keith had nobody (aside from his dad, who he already lost)And even after bonding with team voltron, he still doesnt think any of that matters if he loses shiro. 

also, if we still go by the fact that keith’s worst fear is feelings, i think it’ll be a while before he’s ready to confront them. particularly if doing so runs the risk of losing his friendship with shiro. 

Of course, we also know that keith is somewhat touch averse despite this craving for some kind of intimacy (you can see it in the way he immediately tenses up and then slowly relaxes anytime he’s hugged with the exception of shiro). In a way, this problem also extends to shiro. shiro, who thinks that the galra have twisted and warped him into a weapon, who feels that he can’t even trust his own body or memories, who struggles with this notion that he is both unworthy as a paladin and a leader. If you look at kuro and crystal venom, shiro’s worst fear seems to be turning into exactly what the galra tried to make him. and then he finds out that zarkon was the previous black paladin, that black saw the same fire in zarkon she saw in him, and all that fear and doubt is compounded. so i could imagine shiro would be very hesitant about having a partner now, not to mention how any physical contact he experienced during that year in prison always resulted in pain. ironically, the first gentle touch he receives on earth isn’t only human, but also galran. the fact that keith reaches out to him again outside the shack without hesitation is also notable, especially compared to when shiro holds out his galra hand to lance. 

you see lance’s hand stop and it flinches away, and he stares at shiro sadly before offering a smile and reaching back. just to be clear, i dont think there’s anything wrong about lance doing this. it shows he’s empathetic and its really crashing down on him what kind of hell shiro’s been through. and you see how choked up keith looks when he first sees shiro after all this time. but when he’s actually in front of shiro? he stays calm and grounding, tries his best to reach out and act like nothing’s changed. keith never hesitates, never shies away from shiro’s touch or startles from it the way he does around others. and after his time in space prison, i think shiro needs that honestly. Still, that doesn’t change the fact that shiro seems to hold people more at arm’s length after kerberos. With keith their easy, casual intimacy with one another certainly helps, but i imagine a romantic relationship would still be a big adjustment after everything they’ve both been through. 

ideally i could see them working up to something like flirting or dating around seasons 5-6. of course, then you also have to ask: what would cannon sheith look like? becuase honestly, i think the answer is: not very different. They already seem to be pretty open about their affection, and we already know shiro is keith’s most important person. I can see them maybe holding hands occasionally or being more into hugs. maybe going on “space dates” every now and again on more lowkey missions like the space mall. but voltron is also a sci-fi adventure, so romance wont be the focus. It’s also a matter of what they can and can’t get away with in terms of censorship (which is really shitty, i know) but thankfully staff already said netflix seems to allow for more opportunity with representation. and this is the same studio who said they wanted to make it expressly clear that korra and asami were together. im thinking the most romantic voltron will get though is like pining, the exchange of little physical reassurances (hugs, shoulder touches, pats on the back, ect), and a mutual confession. maybe a kiss good luck or goodbye during a really emotional scene. 

anyway, season 3 will be a lot of background info and flashbacks i think, which we really need. i feel like the direction of their relationship will end up depending on whatever they had going prekerberos, especially if either of them had feelings for the other that they never confronted before voltron. i think everyone would take some time off from their relationships for season 7 and most of 8 though, you know, put stuff on hold while they gear up for the final battle. a big emotional farewell before the last fight would be really good though. 

and see now, the thing about relationships that i think a lot of people forget when it comes to “cannon ships” for an action adventure series like this is that…well…if a ship becomes cannon at some point, it doesnt mean that they’ll stay together for the rest of the show. sometimes it happens fast and burns out, or people break up and make up a lot, or they try to work things out but just drift apart. so i think id much rather it happen later than sooner because, with show like this, i think that gives them a better chance of staying together? like, the thought of keith being in a relationship with allura and then shiro or vice versa seems to be treated like something impossible, but relationships dont work out and partners deicide to see other people all the time? its even possible keith will have the occasional one episode romantic interest that’s never revisited, like the mer-alien that kissed lance. so anyway, im not too worried if it takes them a bit longer to get together. 

Recently, I’ve seen a lot of posts taking stabs at Xena for taking the ‘subtext’ way out of LGBTQ+ representation during its six-year run. I would totally be on board with that if the show stopped at, say, season 3 or 4. But it didn’t.

The first few seasons showed our heroines in an unusually intimate friendship because that’s what the writers originally had intended Xena and Gabrielle to be, based off the Hercules and Iolaus mold. But their relationship seemed to grow beyond the writers. It developed a life of its own, and the writers began shifting their angle from 'intimate, saving friendship’ to 'lovers and soul mates.’

After season 6, I struggle to think who can call it subtext. Yes, it’s true that they never took the Ron Burgundy route and had Gabrielle scream out, “Xena and I had sex and now we are in looooove!”, but let’s face it, would that be in character? For either of them? By this stage in the game, the way I saw it, it didn’t need to be defined because it was pretty explicitly laid out after six years of following them around.

For instance, we’ll take the reincarnation episodes. Sure, the first stunt they pulled had Xena and Gabrielle getting romantically together while Xena was reincarnated into a man’s body. Technically gay because we tend to think of them as we knew them best: both women. But by the last reincarnation episode, 'Soul Possession’, we see Ares swap Xena and Joxer’s bodies so that she’s a woman again, more palatable to his taste. And what happens at the end of this episode? Xena and Gabrielle are still together. There’s nothing subtexty about Xena with her arm around now-red-headed wife Gabrielle saying, “I liked ya better blonde, but I can go with this!” Or let’s look at the Rheingold trilogy. They pulled the Disney, true love’s kiss can break Gabrielle’s sleeping curse move, but the trick was, only Gabrielle’s soul mate could walk through the flaming prison that kept her away from harm. Xena walked right through it and kissed Gabrielle- not on the forehead, not on the cheek, but on the lips- and, in true Sleeping Beauty fashion, Gabrielle was awakened. 

The Rheingold trilogy really opened the doors for our leading ladies’ sexualities. Xena was shown first manipulating Odin into believing she loved him, and then doing the same for the Rhine-Maiden. We’ve seen Xena’s varied past, explicitly shown with Borias and Ares, for instance, and heavily implied with Lao Ma and M'Lila, but, with the exception of Gabrielle, this may be the first episode we’ve seen Xena openly flirtatious and sexual with two sexes in the span of 43 minutes. Gabrielle, whose sexual history had been decidedly hetero for the first few seasons, had been gaining quite an array of romantic interests in the last few. It became a joke of the fandom that “everybody loves Gabrielle.” In the Rheingold trilogy, we see another woman take interest in Gabrielle: Brunhilda. The two develop a reliance upon each other until Brunhilda declares her love for our battling bard. And let’s also keep in mind that during all this, she was also dealing with Beowulf’s well-meant but badly-timed advances.

Gabrielle’s sexuality had also been explored with Aphrodite, let’s keep in mind. The goddess of love had always had a weakness for Gabrielle, and in season six’s 'The God You Know’, she essentially makes out with her, much to Gabrielle’s surprise. 

Of course, there’s the episode 'You Are Here’, one of the crackiest, strangest and most fantastic episodes in Xena history. We see defensive Xena telling the stage manager to “watch his hands” while giving Gabrielle a mic and we see, as love is restored with Aphrodite’s godhood, pink hearts falling all over our heroines as they gaze into each other’s eyes and smile. What’s drawn some heat is the end of the episode, where the reporter asks them for the hundredth time what the true history of their relationship is. Xena asks, “should we tell him?”, which is, of course, not a question you’d ask if you had nothing going on between you and your friend. But as she launches into her explanation, the camera “cuts out”. I don’t think this was the writers opting out. I think this was the writers having a laugh with the image of a straight man puzzled by their relationship to end an episode that was nothing short of ridiculous.

The most damning of all evidence is 'When Fates Collide.’ Basically AU fanfiction of itself, the episode explores what would have happened if Xena and Caesar had ruled together. Spoilers: Caesar is still a dick. Gabrielle is a playwright in this universe, and her play is being shown as entertainment in the Roman court. Xena automatically feels an attraction toward this work and to its creator. After the play is shown, they share this exchange:

Xena: “In the third act, you had your hero throw himself over the
cliff with no fear of dying– all for her. Do you really believe
that kind of love exists?”

Gabrielle: “That’s what we all dream about, isn’t it? Someone who
looks so deeply into our soul that– they’d find something worth
dying for.”

We see Caesar becoming bitter and jealous as he watches the women interact, and later on we hear Alti taunting Xena with, “I saw the way you looked at her tonight during the play. Wouldn’t Caesar give anything to have you look at him that way?”

As the plot goes on, Caesar has Gabrielle wrongly imprisoned, and Alti shows Xena what her true life really was. And as Caesar is about to crucify Gabrielle, she admits her connection with Xena, despite knowing nothing of her former life: "Xena– Xena– when I thought I was going to die– it all became so clear. My life is empty– despite my success. I write about love, but I’ve never felt it before. I will never forget you.“

Alti is sent to kill Gabrielle, and shows us foreshadowing of the Xena finale: "your story will end with your playwright unable to save her fallen angel.”

As they are recaptured, another exchange is had:

G: “Xena– when I’m with you– this emptiness that I have felt my entire life– is gone. You have to tell me what’s going on.”

X: “Caesar changed our fate– giving us this godforsaken world.”

G: “There must be something that I can do.”

X: “No– what you can do is get out of here alive. I have to go
through this alone.”

G: “I can’t let you die.”

X: “Some things are worth dying for. Isn’t that what your play
was about? Being prepared to sacrifice all for love?”

G: “For love.”

X: “In the other world, my destiny was linked to Caesar– and
that cross– and I hated them both– but now I realize that–
everything happens precisely as it should– precisely. …I’ll love you forever.”

It boggles my mind that people claim that is simply subtext. This is the quintessential Xena/Gabrielle episode in my mind, because it shows that no matter how fate is changed or manipulated, these ladies will always find each other because they are meant to be. And of course, we have, in A Friend in Need, Gabrielle’s tearful pleading that Xena is “all that matters to her”, Xena introducing Gabrielle as “her soul mate”, and Xena teaching Gabrielle the pinch while saying, “if I only had 30 seconds to live, this is how I’d want to live them- by staring into your eyes.”

In my opinion, the writers of Xena did not choose the easy way out. Seasons 5 and 6 blast through any and all subtexty vibes. They raise a child together, Xena has a poem written for Gabrielle by SAPPHO OF ALL PEOPLE, they are married in reincarnated forms, they are shown through all lands and fates as soul mates and two people who are madly in love. The intensity of their relationship defies explicit terms like 'girlfriends’ that the wider audience would comprehend, and after six seasons of watching these ladies grow and love, who needs that label, anyway? My grief with the writers is in episodes like 'Antony and Cleopatra’ where, I’ll admit, they made Xena treat Gabrielle like shit because of a guy. But for some reason, that blunder can almost be absolved by the beauty of the story they’ve put forth through six seasons, beauty that most shows nearly twenty years later are still afraid to put forth because of societal norms. 

Could Xena: Warrior Princess be told as a more explicit LGBTQ+ love story? Absolutely. But the show was never just a love story, even if it revolved around the relationship between its two protagonists. The show is about perseverance, overcoming odds, redemption and the power of forgiveness- both from others and from yourself. Xena is a powerful character behind a powerful story whose life was shaped by the love and unconditional support, understanding and forgiveness of Gabrielle. Their story moved at a pace that was realistic for the damage in Xena’s heart and the confusion surrounding Gabrielle’s character development. Their love proved to defy time and death, over and over and over again. 

Sad Song-Michael Clifford

I heard this song and knew I had to put it in something…gotta love We The Kings…This is the Mikey version of the 4/4 where management makes you pr date one of the guys….so ya….enjoy!

You were in desperate need of new guitar picks. You were hopeless at being able to keep anything, honestly if your head wasn’t attached to your body you might loose it. You headed to your favorite music store, to get some new picks and see what new guitars they had. You were eyeing this Yamaha acoustic guitar, when you heard a familiar melody. Someone was playing on one of the pianos. It was “Sad Song” by We The Kings, one of your favorites…actually one you used to listen to quite often after you broke up with someone very special to you. Whoever was playing was good. Really good. You decided to find this mystery player. You headed to where the pianos, where a boy with longer blond hair in a red flannel shirt was playing. You were standing behind him, so you couldn’t see his face. But when he started singing, you instantly knew who this boy was.

“You and I, We’re like fireworks and symphonies exploding in the sky.

With you, I’m alive, Like all the missing pieces of my heart, they finally collide.

So stop time right here in the moonlight, ‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes.”

He sang in a deep, raspy voice. Then he proceeded to sing the chorus.

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song. I’m just a sad song…”

He continued to play, and the sight of this boy who used to mean so much of you pulled at your heart. He hadn’t noticed you were there, so it made it easy for you to join in on the next part.

“With you I fall. It’s like I’m leaving all my past in silhouettes upon the wall.

With you I’m a beautiful mess. It’s like we’re standing hand in hand with all our fears upon the edge.

So stop time right here in the moonlight, ‘Cause I don’t ever wanna close my eyes.”

He didn’t stop playing, and you saw him smile even before he looked at you. He knew your voice just as well as you knew his, and would recognize it anywhere. You finished the rest of the song together.

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song.

You’re the perfect melody, The only harmony I wanna hear.

You’re my favorite part of me,

With you standing next to me, I’ve got nothing to fear.”

“Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.”

“Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.”

“Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song.

Without you, I feel broke. Like I’m half of a whole.

Without you, I’ve got no hand to hold.

Without you, I feel torn. Like a sail in a storm.

Without you, I’m just a sad song. I’m just a sad song…”

Despite the years apart, you still knew each other well, especially when it came to music. This was probably the best cover the two of you had ever done together. When you finished, there was applause filling the shop.

“Looks like the audience loves us Y/n” The blond boy said.

“They always have Michael” You smiled.

“How’ve you been? It’s been what?”

“Too long. I’m doing good. I’m guessing you are too, from the way your band has took off”

“Yes. It’s been amazing,”

“How are the guys?”

“They’re great. They’d love to see you…I’d like to spend some time with you too…”

“Michael-”

“Just dinner or something?”

“Sorry…I just can't…”

“Y/n…”

“Look Michael. It took me a long time to get over you…I understand why we had to break things off, I mean you had so many people expecting things from you, and management thought I’d be a distraction…but that doesn’t mean that years later, you can just walk into my life again Michael”

“I’m sorry…” Michael said, a pained expression on his face.

“I know Mikey” You said, tears in your eyes. “Take care of yourself ok?”

Before you could turn to go, he pulled your arm to bring you into a tight embrace. You stayed like that for awhile, wrapped in his arms. It felt so nice, brought back so many good memories. But then you pulled away, kissing his cheek.

“Bye Mikey”

“Bye Y/n”

Then you left the store, refusing to loo back. So much for the guitar picks.

…..

Later when you got home, you opened twitter, needing a distraction so you wouldn’t dwell on what just happened.

However the internet was cruel.

As soon as you opened the app you saw that you had gotten over 100 new followers. You were flattered, but knew something had to be up. Sure enough, all over your feed there was a video of you and Michael singing. There were even pictures of you guys hugging and you kissing his cheek. Of course this was all the 5sos fam was talking about.

Who is she?

Oh my gosh its Y/n! Remember when they used to date?

So cute!

Think they’re back together?

These were some of many comments you read. Weird how some fans literally knew everything, you just hoped they were just really old fans who were there from the beginning.

So that was why so many people were following you, and why you were tagged by all these people.

So much for forgetting what happened. You turned off your phone and decided to call it a night, even if it was only 8. You didn’t want to deal with anything now.

…..

The next morning you were woken up by the sound of your phone ringing. You weren’t able to resist last night, and scrolled though everything everyone was saying about you, luckily mostly nice things.

“Hello?” You said groggily. You looked at the clock. 7:30. Who calls so early?

“Miss Y/n?”

“Yes…who is this?”

“My name is Joan. I’m part of the 5sos management?”

This woke you up.

“What? Um…what do you guys want with me?”

“We’d like you to come down and meet with us. We’ll send you the address. Be here in one hour. Believe me, you should come” Then she hung up.

What the hell? Sure enough you received a text message with an address seconds later.

Feeling as though you had no choice, you quickly got dressed and headed down to meet with that goddamn management that you still couldn’t bring yourself to particularly like.

…..

The address was one of those fancy hotels that held a lot of business meetings. Sure enough, the room given to you was a conference room. There was a lady already there, who you were assuming was Joan, and another man you didn’t recognize. Of course management would change, maybe this was a good thing.

“Y/n. So glad you could make it. I’m Joan.” Joan said, standing up to shake your hand then leading you to the table.

“Hello. My name is Mark.” The man shook your hand.

“Hi…so what is this about?” You asked.

“All will be explained in just a bit Y/n. We’re waiting on one more person” Mark smiled.

“Yes and in the meantime, tell us about your former relationship with Michael?” Joan asked calmly, as if she was asking about the weather and not something very personal.

“Me and Michael? Um…we dated for about a year. Then his band started to take off. And people not to different from you thought it would be a good idea for us to break things off. End of story”

Before they could answer, the door burst open and Michael came running in.

“Sorry I’m late! I was-Y/n? What are you doing here?”

“That’s what I’m waiting to find out”

“Michael. Finally. Aright now that we have the both of you together, I’ll get straight to the point. We want the both of you to date”

“Isn’t that our decision” You said while Michael said “Woah”

“For PR purposes of course. We don’t expect you guys to be in a committed relationship based off our request. Listen it will be great for the  both of you. You both used to date before, so news of you guys getting back together will be huge. Already, those pictures from yesterday are all over the place. It will give you both some positive attention. Y/n, you are releasing an album soon are you not? This could give you the perfect opportunity to  gets some publicity-”

“Wait, you’re trying to bribe her? That’s ridiculous! I mean she’d-” Michael practically yelled, but you interrupted him.

“Might just agree. I’m not as famous as you Mikey, and my music is going well, but any attention is kind of needed right now…”

“Very good Y/n-” You also cut Joan off

“Of course I would need to know what exactly this whole “PR relationship” entitle? What do you expect us to do?“

"Everything will be set up of course. Paparazzi sent to the restaurant, they take a few photos. Then of course you guys post some things on social media, make it seem as though you guys are dating. That’s really all there is to it” Mark said.

“So do we have an agreement?” Joan added

You looked at Michael.

“You’re not actually considering this are you?” Michael asked you, completely frazzled.

“Well you wanted to do dinner right? And how bad could it be? I really need this Mikey…”

Michael sighed. “Fine. For you.”

You gave him a hug and he held you tightly.

“Alright. We’ll let you guys know the time and place of your guy’s 'first date’” Joan smiled, seeming pleased.

…..

“Laser tag?” You asked Michael. When they said date, you expected dinner, maybe even a movie, but laser tag? That was the last thing you’d think of

“They may have gave me a say into what we do…” Michael grinned

“You don’t say?” You laughed

“Alright, ready for some fun?” Michael asked while buckling you into one of those heavy jackets.

“I don’t know, ready to get your ass kicked?” You teased

“You wish” Michael said, giving you a wink.

Several hours later, he had two games on you. You couldn’t believe this. And of course, Michael didn’t let you forget it.

“Not so easy to beat am I?” Michael laughed.

“Whatever Mikey…fuck you”

“Why so salty?”

“Shut up. You won, got it. End of story, may we move on?”

“Well I won, so I get a prize don’t I?”

“Prize? What on earth could you-”

You were interrupted when he suddenly smashed his lips against yours, wrapping his arms around your waist to pull you close to him as he continued to kiss you so tenderly and passionately…

“That” He said when you both had pulled away. “I think that’s reward enough. I’m starved, you want some pizza?”

You just smiled, grabbing his hand, as you headed towards the food court.

______________ 

Author’s Note: That was long and ended terribly, I’m sorry. Nevertheless hope you liked it!! -Lydia

1. Choices

pairing: Jaebum x Mark x Reader

genre: smutty smut and a touch of angst

word count: 4.2k

kinks: rough!JB, Daddy/Master kink, threesome, slight denial kink

synopsis: A wet rainy day leads to secrets being spilled, and challenges being proposed.


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anonymous asked:

I LOVE YOUR HEADCANONS TELL ME ABOUT TRANS REID TELL ME ABOUT AUTISTIC REID

AAAAAAAAA THIS IS THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE

trans reid:

1. gender has never felt like Anything to reid. it was never a Part of him. he never felt “like a man”. he Knew, Objectively, that he was a boy (since he had Boy Parts) but, like. it wasn’t like he felt like a boy in any meaningful way.

2. he was 12 when he realized he Wasnt a boy. he just wasnt.

3. gender doesnt really play a big role in his life. he asked jj once how being a woman felt. she was quiet for a long time. 

4. he knows that being a Man is different for morgan and hotch and that being a woman is different for kate and JJ and tara. he knows theres no right way to be a man. but he isn’t one. Objectively speaking.

5. he’s 23 when he first hears the word “agender”. the syllables take root in his heart like a tree. afterwards, he can’t stop thinking about how much sense it makes.

6. he doesnt usually get dysphoric. sometimes he does. (its mostly social. his body isn’t Male. its just His.) he asks jj to call him by they/them pronouns sometimes. he knows she gets it. wont make a big deal out of it. garcia knows too. morgan. emily. but jj Gets it the best, knows how to make him feel safe.

7. at one point, he tried literally every set of pronouns he could think of. ze. hir. none of them felt his. 

8. sometimes he wishes he was a little more androgynous, grows his hair out. realizes that it only makes his face look more bony. more angular. sharper. he cuts it short again and finds a hairstyle that compliments his face. softens his eyes. Dr. Spencer Reid. They. Them. He. Him.

(when he comes out to JJ as bi she comes out right back to him. then he comes out as agender and demisexual. JJ says, “is this a competition?” but there’s a glimmer in her eyes and he knows shes trying not to cry. she hugs him and he wants to cry too. sometimes he feels like he doesn’t deserve her.)


autistic reid:

1. he fucking hates most clothes. finding clothes that are appropriate for work but dont make him want to Die from sensory Issues is Hard. cue weird clothing choices. mostly its scratchy fabrics. he can’t Take them. garcia introduces him to soft cardigans and he isn’t sure how he missed them all his life

2. he’s used to being dismissed when he speaks. it still hurts. statistics have been his special interest for as long as he remembers and Maybe he is a little bit obnoxious sometimes but honestly, its only relevant with what they do. he wishes his team was interested in what he has to say more often.

3. gideon didnt want him on the field, originally. he has a tendency of just Shutting Down when he’s overstimmed. gideon was afraid of that happening in field.

4. he grew out his hair party because long hair is easier to stim with

5. he also stims by swaying

6. he doesnt notice it himself but he’s constantly hugging himself, comforting himself, calming himself down. being shut down and ridiculed and mocked and bullied his whole life taught him to survive.

7. parts of his body are completely numb while other parts are super sensitive. this makes it hard for him to find clothes that feel Okay. this also makes it easy for him to hurt himself accidentally.

8. he carries a weighted blanket and several stim Toys (though he’d never admit that or call them toys) in his bag

9. he will have a meltdown if you take his bag. it’s like his safety blanket. dont take it. it’s happened before. morgan cried for an hour afterwards. it took a long time for reid to trust him again. 

10. sometimes, after a bad case or a long day, reid finds an empty office and sits down underneath the desk, with his legs against his chest and his back against the wall, if possible. sometimes he has to move the desk  to be able to do this. he shuts down the lights and calms down. hotch knows he’s there and tells the cleaning staff not to go in until he knows reid’s left. 

11. there’s a lot of food he just Can’t eat because the texture makes him feel sick. on cases he either doesnt want to test his luck or forgets to eat altogether. cue running on coffee. his mother says its all the coffee and shes not wrong, he guesses, but really, it would help if his body didn’t hate most convenient food items.

12. reid studied human behavior for years and he thinks hes mastered it now. you couldnt tell he learned everything from a book. he doesnt really even get startled any more when someone breaks his script. he’s so good at faking it. he wasn’t always. but this job has really perfected his acting skills. 

13. he’s still thrown off, sometimes, by his team mates joking. he doesn’t get all of it. he doesn’t get pop culture. he reads and he reads and he reads and he reads and he reads and twirls a pencil the whole time or taps on something or bounces his leg and jj sits with him, usually, watches him flip through a book after a book and never get satisfied. it’s an unspoken kind of a relationship. it’s soft. 

14. he gets so angry sometimes. by the way people Like Him are treated. by the way He is still treated. he gets so mad. sometimes he screams out loud. sometimes it embarrasses him. sometimes it doesnt. “good”, he thinks. “be scared of me”.

15. morgan carries an extra blanket with him. he has white noise tracks saved on his phone for reid specifically. he has an extra pair of expensive headphones, the noise cancelling kind. and he always gives his softest, most worn out t-shirts to reid. and reid’s eyes always light up. 

fic: You’re Being Quite ‘Shellfish’

“This was my sorry-I-killed-Alberta blowjob, just so you know,” he whispers into Phil’s ear, nonchalance lacing his tone-

Or, the story with shrimp-killers, a passive-agressive Phil Lester™, and anthropomorphism at its finest.

1k/ fluff, humor (I tried, really), slight angst and smut, domestic!phan

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Things I've Learned Playing The Last Of Us

I recently played TLOU for the first time. After months of saving up $300 and running to the GameStop to get the PS4 and the game. It has been the best thing i’ve ever put 9 hours into, and I would do it over and over. As the credits rolled through, I found myself speechless. But turning off the TV with a new appreciation and a new understanding of a human mind. Here’s some of the things I learned from those 9 hours:

1. A daughters love.
That watch must have been hundreds, we all really know she doesn’t sell hardcore drugs. She has been saving for months or maybe a year to get the watch for her dad. It was beautiful to watch that.

2. Some people, just don’t care.
To be able to shoot a little girl from her fathers arms, with intention to kill both of them, is cruel and there is no heart in that body. This is something I saw throughout the game, people who tried to hurt Ellie, the man that instructed the solider to shoot Sarah, the solider that shot Sarah..

3. Some nightmares never leave.
20 years later, he has nightmares of his daughter.

4. An apocalypse changes people.
I guess when your loved ones have suffered, died, become infected, etc. You loose hope, a lot of it.

5. PUNCHING A CLICKER IS INEFFECTIVE TRY A MELEE WEAPON!
You have no idea how many times I still tried punching…

6. There is no mercy.
14. She’s 14. Lost her parents, lost her best friend, lost Marlene, shes infected.. she looses herself. She’s 14, yet taking a beating from the world.

7. The jury’s still out, but you can’t deny the view though.
Yeah, I just got the shit scared out of me, I almost got eaten, I have a bite on my arm, but the view is beautiful.

8. Things change in seconds, for the most interesting and odd people.
Tess? The woman that kicks ass and kicks ass, yeah.. she’s bitten. She’s gonna die. Just like that. Yeah, that hurt.

9. It’s pretty easy to hide your love.
We saw the way Joel was with Tess, we saw the way Tess was with Joel. We watched his world change when she died and we saw him almost break in front of Ellie talking about her. We saw him scream at Bill for talking about her too. He didn’t see it enough.

10. You love the people you hate.
He stole Bills engine, and he hated his guts. But Bill cared for him, he still considered him a partner, and he stuttered pointing out his bites and could barely read that note. He couldn’t handle it, because he still loved, even though he hated.

11. Sometimes, you just need a friend.
Sam hasn’t smiled like that in weeks. Now he’s laughing, glittering, both of them radiating with happiness as they throw berries in the air and try and catch them. Something so simple, yet something so not simple.

12. You gotta go with your gut. No time to argue.
She jumped off that bridge and went with her
gut. They made it.

13. The best things, go wrong at some point.
A camp, one made in the idea of raising children. So well put together and organized. How did it go wrong? How could it go wrong?

14. When you don’t have a purpose, what’s worth living for?
He shot himself because his little brother was dead. He couldn’t live knowing he was alone, so he didn’t live.

15. A brothers love has no end.
He never wanted to see his goddamned face again, yet he let him in without hesitation and gave him a hug.

16. People think stupid things sometimes.
Did Joel really think passing Ellie off to Tommy was a good idea? He formed a relationship with this little girl and now he would just pass her on and leave? That’s stupid.

17. We all have that one person.
Everyone you have ever loved or cared for can either die or leave you, but you’ll still have that one person at the end of the day. The one that doesn’t leave (no matter how much they try to).

18. You don’t let that one person go.
Not now, not ever.

19. Football.
If you mess up your fourth down, you give your ball to the other team and it’s called a turnover. If you clear the ten yards then your back at first down. Man, it’s confusing.

20. You’ll do anything for that one person.
Impaled by rebar, bleeding out everywhere, barely able to walk and see, practically the smallest step from death. She stitches him up and risks her life (and hunger) to get him food.

21. They’ll do the same back.
Killing dozens of men after sitting up for the first time since being impaled… if that’s not love, what is?

22. People are crazy.
The way David placed his hands on Ellie and called her special made my skin crawl and I was disgusted. The way they slaughter people. The way that man called Ellie “Davids Newest Pet.”

23. A fathers love.
The way he pulled her away and made her know it was only him. The way he held her and called her baby girl, shushing her and saying “it’s okay.” over and over till she believed it.

24. Healing is the hardest part.
After Winter, we got to see first hand.. Ellie actually, broken. She was dazed out and in another world, obviously still struggling.

25. It’s the little things.
The whole atmosphere lit up when Ellie saw those giraffes, after a brutal winter and depressing chapter, we lived through a child’s eyes that moment. Watching her forget about all that happened, just for a minute. I remember watching Joel and Ellie pet the giraffe with big eyes and sitting there for minutes at the ledge, crying because I felt it. Then she remembered what happened, and I cried more because the moment was over.

26. It’s got its ups and downs, can’t deny the view though. Almost taken over by a perverted man. Just went through a traumatic winter. But you can’t deny the view

27. Well no matter how hard you try, guess you can’t escape your past.
No explanation needed.

28. Sometimes, being selfish is a good thing.
He killed, just so he wouldn’t have to loose another daughter. Because he loved her, and he wouldn’t let her go.

29. Love.
He’ll damn the world and rip away the cure and kill every person that tries to stop him. But if he can be with her, and be her father, than so be it.

30. You keep finding something to fight for.
No matter what.

31. I’m excited to have children of my own.
This game has made me want to be a mother, even more. Seeing Ellie grow in her character.. was beautiful. By the end of the game, I know I had a swollen heart over this little girl. And by the credits, I wanted a daughter.

32. It was worth it.
I could’ve spent that $300 on something else, maybe some cool outfits from a boutique.. but i’m glad I spent it on this. And I would do it all over again.

Thank you, Naughty Dog.

“And then there’s you” - blurb

(a/n: based on the lyrics of snakeships ft zayn - cruel)

LUKE

Luke is a pretty sensitive guy. He finds it pretty easy to hide his inner emotions from people. “And then theres you..” Luke can’t hide from you. No matter how hard he tries you always know. With everything thats going on in the world today it’s hard for everyone not to get a little upset. It had hit Luke hard when there was a shooting in a city the band were performing in a few weeks back. He couldn’t believe that in such a short amount of time lives can change and loved ones can be gone in the blink of an eye. Luke made a vow that day to you and his family that he will do everything in his power to make you proud and show you how much he appreciates you all and loves you all for being so support of his lifestyle.

MICHAEL

“And then there’s you..” Being away from you and on tour is a nightmare Michael lives most days. Despite Michaels pleads, you have work commitments at home and just can’t find the time to travel with him. But when he comes back or you take time off work to spend time with each other its right back to where you left off. He’ll watch you take your dress off and think about all the times he’s sat in his bunk and thought of you, your body, your voice, your smell, everything that makes him fall in love with you more and more each day. Your body especially hurts him. To him, your body is a fucking temple and its a temple he wants to explore over and over until he knows the full ins and outs of it.

ASHTON

It hasn’t been easy for Ashton. Since the band started out, as the oldest member he has always been protrayed as the Dad of the band. And not in the sexual way. He’s always felt like there’s an extra responsibility he always has. Ashton has always had an extra responsiblity, towards his mother and siblings. I guess thats why he probably finds it hard to open up to anyone, after watching his mum heart broken when his dad left, having to raise 3 kids alone, its not easy. Thats why Ashton grew up faster than other kids his age. “And then there’s you..” When Ashton first met you, his guard was up. After getting to know you for a good 6 months he realised that it was only you. There was no one else. When Ashton was with you he didn’t feel responsible anymore. He felt like he could live out his childhood with you and everything was ok and was good. After years of not having a serious relationship Ashton realised that he was saving all his love for you and finally he had found something good.

CALUM

You and Calum would go to numerous parties. You would go with friends while he’s away and he would go whilst on tour and to keep up appearances. There would always be that prick at the party that would try it on with you and you’d have to figure out how to let him down gently without making a scene even though you want nothing more than someone to whack them right in the face. There would always be that gorgeous model or actress at the party that would give Calum sultry looks from across the room. “And then there’s you…” The one that Calum can’t wait to get home to. To come home and just be with you. When Calum is with you he forgets about everything thats troubling him and just enjoys your company. And lets face it, the sex would be incredible.

#104: Song Preference: Somebody To You By the Vamps

Authors Note: You can find the song HERE

Ashton: I’ve got your photograph. But baby I need more than that. I need to know your lips. Nothing ever mattered to me more than this.

You couldn’t help but stare at Ashton, the way his smile made your heart flutter. Or the way he animatedly talked with his hands, or the way his perfect lips formed your name. It was mesmerizing, and all you could think of was how much you desired his lips on yours. You wanted to feel what it was like to kiss him, the idea keeping you up for a long time. You had stared at his pictures on your phone late at night, admiring and wondering what it would be like to just kiss him. You two were still in the very early stages of your relationship. You two were exclusive it seemed, but neither of you had made a move to be remotely physical. He would hold you hand, or put his hand on the small of your back to reassure you that he was there, but other than that nothing had happened. Of course, there were times where the two of you were close. Suddenly looking at each other and realizing just how close your faces were, or times where you would be cuddling, and rolling around to brush noses, or even to nuzzle into a shoulder. But every time you seemed to get close enough to kiss, something would interrupt the two of you. Or one of you would pull away shyly, unsure if it was okay to keep going. But now, you craved his very lips. You wanted to taste your name, you wanted to feel the softness as they were pressed against yours. You often wondered if he felt the same way about you. Did he want to feel your lips, taste the berry chapstick that you so often wore? You rolled over restlessly looking out the window and staring at the bleak sky. Your phone lit up, illuminating the darkened room. You grabbed it, seeing Ashton’s name flit across the screen. You unlocked your phone, opening his message and smiling at your phone. “I can’t sleep. And I think its because you’re on my mind.” It read, and your heart fluttered. “I feel the same way. I can’t sleep. Probably because the thought of you is keeping me awake.” You confessed, holding your breath and sending it. Almost immediately Ashton replied, making your heart hammer. “I don’t know if its because I just crave to see you, or even just to feel you near me. I don’t know if I’m jumping to conclusions or I’m pushing anything, but I really want to kiss you.” He said, making your eyes grow wide. You couldn’t help but smile and roll into your pillow, smiling like an idiot. “Its not too far. Not at all. I want to kiss you too. Badly.” You said, biting your lip. It took a little while for Ashton to reply but your phone lit up once more. “Now I really won’t be able to sleep. I have no idea why this desire is so strong now. I’ve always wanted to kiss you, but right now I really, really want to.” His text made you blush, but you grinned like an idiot, rolling into your pillow to muffle your squeals of excitement and joy. The night continued with texts going back and forth, all surrounding the concept that the desire for some physical contact was incredibly noticeable. Falling asleep with your phone on your chest, your dreams were oriented around Ashton, until you woke up to the bright light of the near noon sunlight shining on your face. You picked your phone up off of the mattress beside you, reading the missed messages from Ashton. You quickly texted him a good morning text, before beginning to get ready for the day. You stayed at home that day, mindlessly puttering around the house doing odd things that had been building up and needed to be done. It wasn’t until around seven that night you heard a knock on your door. You were puzzled because you weren’t expecting anybody to come over, but you made your way to the door. You opened it, your eyes growing wide as you saw Ashton standing there, leaning against the doorframe looking devilishly handsome. “Why hello,” He said, pushing himself off of the frame, and before you could even say a greeting he grabbed the back of your head and pulled you in for a kiss. His lips were just as you imagined, and you were knocked breathless at the intensity of the kiss. Your knees went weak, making Ashton wrap his free arm around you waist as you wound your arms around his neck. You broke apart, flushed and smiling as he stared down at you. “God damn.” He said, laughing. “I could do that all night,” He said. “Why don’t you?” You questioned. He grinned, bending down again, pushing you into the house, and shutting the door with his foot, never breaking the kiss.

Calum: Look at me now, I’m falling. I can’t even talk, still stuttering.

It felt like someone had punched Calum in the stomach, and had made him fall to the ground. It was as if his entire world was crumbling, piece by piece, shattering into a million tiny pieces that could never be put back together. The news of your death had brought Calum to his knees, a pain and grief stricken scream making its way out of his chest, out into the cold and lonely world. Your daughter screamed as she crumbled to the ground beside her shaking father, her body convulsing with grief as the thought of growing into a woman without her mother beside her hit her with a hard reality. Calum felt as if he was falling - falling into an oblivion of endless pain. It would never end, and he would never be whole again. He grabbed as his daughter, pulling her against his shaking body trying to calm her down as best as he could. But despite everything, he couldn’t talk and when he tried to his stuttered. She clung to his breaking body with a fierce sorrow. Calum was almost scared to look at his daughter because she looked so similar to you. Everyday it would remind him of your beauty, and your grace. The image of your laughing face fell across his mind, catapulting him into another round of shoulder shaking sobs. Every time he tried to say your daughters name only a pain stricken sound would fall from his lips, and she would just nod her head against his chest, acknowledging the effort. In that moment, Calum realized that he would never be whole again. He would never have his entire heart, and that half of his body, mind and spirit had left with you. For some reason, Calum tried to rationalize your death. Maybe you were needed somewhere else? Maybe this was payment for all the wrong things he had done in his life? Maybe it was just to make him miserable. Things were going so well with the band and life, that fate shook its head and laughed at both of you. Maybe that was it. Maybe it was some sick cosmic joke to never allow Calum to be happy. He would give anything to hug you one more time, and just to tell you how much he loved you. It had been less than an hour and the weight of the loss was suffocating. He almost forgot that your daughter was going through the exact same thing, and she too must feel like she was falling. He stroked her hair, trying to reassure her. But how does he reassure her when he was just as broken? The fear she must be experiencing by not only losing her mother, but seeing her father in shambles, and crying like a four year old boy? Calum didn’t care that he was a mess, because there was no way he was able to put himself back together. He took a deep breath, trying to calm his breathing once more so he could formulate some words. But he couldn’t stop stuttering, maybe it was because his teeth were chattering so badly, or maybe it was because his brain turned to mush and that he was unable to form a word, let alone a sentence. But nonetheless, your daughter kept saying “I know,” over and over again. It was if the roles were reversed. His daughter comforting a grown man, easing him through the pain. It should be the other way, because he was after all her father. He was the one that put a bandaid on her cuts, and helped her when she was in trouble. But with every thought of his daughter, you were in the picture, not far behind. You were watching, or being a part of the situation. Would he ever be able to think of something without you being there? He never wanted to forget you, but it would become his own personal hell and form of torture. Knowing that everyday he would think of you, but one day the memories would get a little fuzzier until he wouldn’t be able to remember the sound of your voice, or the way you looked when you were laughing or smiling. And with that singular thought it brought a new wave of tears and grief, and once more Calum was falling, unable to catch himself. All he could do was cling to your daughter in an efforts to ease some of the pain that he knew would never go away.

Luke: I used to wanna be. Living like there’s only me. But now I spend my time. Thinking ‘bout a way to get you off my mind.

For as long as Luke could remember he had always been single. The boys of the band had dated, and had girlfriends. He was always envious of their relationships but quite frankly he was solo. He didn’t mind the single life. Of course, he wasn’t all that pure. He had his fun, and he certainly took advantage of the hoards of girls that were throwing themselves at him. But he would simply spend the night with them, and not give them a second glance. It was easy, and the boys always told him that he would get sick of that lifestyle and that he would want a woman one day. But he never thought he would find a girl that would satisfy what he wanted. He wasn’t even sure what he wanted. He was used to thinking only on his own terms, but then there was one day where his entire world was flipped upside down. Maybe it was because you showed such little interest in him, and that you couldn’t be bothered with what he was, or it was your sheer beauty. But either way, Luke was intrigued and it kept him awake at night. He couldn’t look any other woman, because your face would in his vision. He couldn’t touch another woman because he wondered what your flushed skin felt like underneath his calloused finger tips, or what the soft sound of your breathing sounded like at night when you lay next to him. He had met you as a friend of Michaels. You had run up to Michael and given him the biggest hug imaginable, wrapping your legs around his waist as he picked you up. You smiled so brightly it was if your world had come home. But Michael dismissed any romantic notions between the two of you. Both of your parents were friends, and you two had grown up together. You two were more siblings than friends, and you had simply said hi to everyone as if they were normal guys that were friends with your friend. You weren’t starstruck considering this was the first time you had met the band in full since they had grown to be the pop-rock sensation that they were today. You had talked animatedly do Michael, and Luke wanted nothing more than to talk to you. He tried relentlessly to talk to you, to get you to fall into his embrace for one night. But you wouldn’t have it, and that just spurred Luke on further. Now, he didn’t even want you for one night, he wanted you beside him all the time. He was enthralled by your beauty, and normalcy. It was something so refreshing and unique about you. You took no shit from the boys, even when Calum playfully pulled the famous card to try and get out of something. But having to leave the beautiful city you resided in because of tour scheduling, Luke felt so compelled to ask you out, but one he was worried about rejection, and two he was worried about Michael’s reaction. He was like an older brother to you, and Luke wasn’t sure if it was wise to disrupt that dynamic, or even if Michael would approve of Luke with you, because of his reputation. Leaving the city, and leaving you, Luke was unable to shake you off of his mind. Everywhere he looked he wanted to see you. Confronting his feelings, he confided in Calum to which he laughed. “I knew it!” He exclaimed, laughing some more. “You are smitten! We knew it! This would happen eventually!” He said, slapping his knee. “What would happen?” Michael asked walking into the room. “That Luke would fall in love,” Calum teased. Luke grew nervous, and antsy. “With who?” He said, smiling at Luke. “(Y/N)” Calum said before Luke could stop him. Michael paused, before laughing. “You’re fucking kidding me right?” He said, and Luke couldn’t tell if he was angry or not. “No I’m not,” He said quietly. “Good luck man,” He said, sitting down. “Why do you say that?” Luke questioned. “She’s something else Luke. I don’t care, just don’t fuck with her. She’s a strong woman. If you can handle her, or even get her to like you back, then she’s all yours.” He said. And so it became Luke’s mission to make you see him in a romantic lens. He began texting you casually, and skying with you when Michael skyped you.  Eventually you and Luke began skyping on your own before Luke flew out to see you. It took a very long time for you to ease into something with Luke, but no matter what, every other person paled in comparison to you. You were hard to win over, but eventually Luke won your heart.    

Michael: And then you caught my eye. Giving me the feeling of a lightening strike.

Love was something you dismissed. You were a pessimist to be honest. You didn’t believe in the capabilities of love, nor the potential to find ‘the one.’ It was all some Hollywood hoax that was heavily over vamped to compel everyone to believe that eventually they would find the person that completed them. You didn’t believe that it was possible, and you certainly didn’t believe that it would ever happen to you. You watched your parents fight time and time again, you watched you friends fall in and out of relationships, and you had your own experiences with heartbreak. So, after years of hurt, and watching people around you be broken down, you decided that there was no such thing as love. And you were content to say that. It was all false. When your friend urged you to go on a blind date with one of her boyfriends friends, you were skeptical. You didn’t want to date, let alone to meet a stranger and explain your pessimistic view on the whole notion of love. She begged, pleaded and grovelled saying that you two would be perfect for each other and that if you didn’t she would unfriend you. You agreed, with much protesting and voicing your distain to the entire situation. The night of you got ready, feeling oddly compelled to look at least presentable. You wore your favourite outfit, saying it was more of a confidence booster and moral kick than to impress this mystery man. But as you arrived fashionably late at the restaurant that your friend had said to meet at, you felt jittery. When you saw him, at least who you assumed to be him, your heart gave a little thud that was heavier than normal. He looked up, and smiled, his blue hair catching the soft glow of the lights above you. “You must be (Y/N),” He said, standing up and outstretching his hand. “Hi, yes. You must be Michael,” You said, shaking his hand and feeling a shock shoot through your fingertips. Michael came around, and like a proper gentlemen pulled you your chair for you. You sat down, incredibly nervous. It had felt like a bolt of lighting had struck you and you suddenly felt frazzled. “I have to admit,” Michael began. “I don’t usually do blind dates, and I was fully prepared to see a man walk through that door and just say ‘jokes on you.’ It would be something that my buddy would do.” He said laughing. You couldn’t help but laugh as well, his laughter becoming contagious. “Well I must admit, I’m not a man in case you haven’t noticed.” You said, trying to play along. “I noticed,” He said laughing, relieving you. The conversation flowed easily and with a gentle flow. It was nice, actually. It scared you though. You weren’t supposed to feel this way, and you most certainly weren’t supposed to feel all jittery and light when he kissed you. But despite everything, when he gently kissed you at the end of the date, you couldn’t help but bite your lip and try to calm your racing heart. “I’d really like to see you again,” Michael said. And before you could help yourself you were giving him your number, and eagerly awaiting his text. You weren’t supposed to feel like this. You were supposed to be indifferent, and you were to be in control. But he had the upper hand. He had kissed you, and he had asked for your number. He had walked you to your apartment, and he had basically swept you off your feet. He had flipped your world upside-down and you were uncomfortable. You were out of your comfort zone, and basically going against everything you stood for and believed in love. You shut your door, dialling your friends number and waiting for her to pick up. When she did, the first thing to fall from your lips was an insult. “You’re an asshole.” You said, falling onto your couch. “Why?” She asked, but you could hear the satisfaction in her voice. “Because I’m giddy. And I want to see him again. And I’m not supposed to want to. I’m supposed to be in control, and I’m not. And I like him. And I don’t want to. And its your fault.” You said in a huff. You were genuinely upset, and you hated yourself for this. “Let it be (Y/N). See what happens. If you get scared, tell him. But if things are going well, let them happen. You don’t have to rush. You don’t have to label it. You don’t have to do anything that you’re not comfortable with.” She reassured you. “Fine.” You said, still huffy. “Tell me all about it.” She said, as you launched into the details of your date. When you finally hung up, you had a text message from Michael, asking if you would want to grab a coffee in the morning. You surprised yourself by agreeing, taking tiny baby steps in the new world.

anonymous asked:

Dean being openly bisexual in the canon verse. Sometimes he pick up women in bars and sometimes he would pick guys up. He is okay with it, he loves women, loves their soft skin, their breasts and their cunts. But he also loves to suck guys off, open them up carefully, loves to pin guys in the bed and fuck them senseless. He just enjoys sex and loves to make his sexual partner achieve ecstasy. (Part 1)

John is not happy about that fact, but he got used to it since the first time he caught Dean fucking one guy when Dean was fifteen years old. Everything goes the same, except Dean spends way too much time thinking wrecking a angel of the Lord. He always knew he was fucked up but not in that level. The first time he had the chance to have sex with Cas was after the failed attempt with Chastity at the brothel. (Part 2)

After that they got in a relationship slash friends with benefits kind of thing. They are trying stop the apocalypse, but when have the chance Dean will suck Cas off or Cas will suck him off. Cas enjoys being rimmed a lot too. If they are not too busy and they get rid of Sam, Dean is able to fuck Cas. After they stop the apocalypse and Sam is in the pit, Dean asks Cas out and decide to proper date him. Is not easy, Cas is busy with Heaven’s business, but they manage. (Part 3)

Cas sometimes will pop up and help him with hunt, or they’ll go out (Dean likes to hold hands with him, even thought he will never admit it.)Is not that everything goes smoothly, never goes with the Winchesters, but Dean is happy and in love and it sucks that the world needs to be saved again. But he has his brother and boyfriend. But then he founds out about Cas working with Crowley. Dean is furious and hurt and everything is just worse with Cas becoming God. (Part 4)

Dean was hurt yes, but Castiel’s death was a hard thing for him. Cas was his best friend, his lover and now he was gone. Or so he thought until he find him again, just so he would lost him because Cas was trying to fix his wrongs. Dealing with Cas while crazy wasn’t easy, was unnerving and Dean just wanted him out of it. Them come purgatory and his seek for Cas. Dean was never happier than when he hugged Cas again when found him. (Part 5)

That night or day, Dean never knew, they made love. And was the first time Dean thought something cheesy as “make love.” But it was it, they were both a mess and so broken, Dean was careful, touching and kissing Cas all the time, moving inside of him with small and sweet moviments, afraid it was a dream and he would wake up soon. Dean knew they should talk, but was nice pretend everything was fine. (Part 6)

Seeing Cas again after he was out of purgatory hurts, Dean couldn’t stop blame himself, was all his fault, he should get Cas out of there. Then after rescuing Kevin from Crowley, Dean had enough, of Cas lies, enough of him not being enough, of the love he felt. They broke up, for real this time. Between the “I need you. I love you”, Cas running away, Cas back at the bunker, the fall of the angels and Cas becoming a human, Dean’s feelings never changed once (part 7 I think)

Dean still loved him, he still loved him when he had to kick him out, he still loved him when he found Cas working at the Gas-N-Sip, Dean definitely still loved Cas when he rode him in the back of Impala after the failed date. He loved him and it didn’t stopped. It was something that went through Dean’s mind when he was dying, he was proud of him and Sammy and he loved Castiel. (Part 8)

Is not that Dean’s time as demon he forget about Cas, quite the oppressed. The amount of times he would pick a random guy to fuck just because he had a eye color that reminded him of Cas’ eyes was amazing. But he could ignore the feeling, he was just too angry and bloodthirsty to really think about it. But once he was human again was different. Cas was there and was walking away again. (Part 9 maybe?)

Dean wouldn’t let him, not this time. So when he pulled Cas and crashed their lips together, murmuring about how much he loved and missed him, he knew was the right choice. They were both fucked up, with lots of issues they need to work on. But Dean loved Cas. And Cas loved him. And was one start. (The end) [it’s 2 am and I felt like it before I went to sleep. sorry was way too long]

I love how this basically changes nothing in canon, it just adds an explicit sexual relationship and it all works and its all so good! I like this alternate canon!

The Rantings of an Irrational Fangirl

This rant is so long it’s been helpfully divided into sections for easy browsing!

Japril

They’ve been casually hanging out in my peripheral since season 8. It’s not that I don’t love them, I do. Its just my tunnel vision and manly incapacity to multitask means my focus has been on Merder, Crowen and now Omelia ever since they’ve been together.

At the end of season 11, I was a bit disappointed in April for going back to war a second time. For all the reasons I think it’s wrong of Jackson to serve her an ultimatum, I think it’s more selfish of April to see only her need to heal. They could have done that together, helped each other through. Instead, April found the satisfaction of helping those in need where she could fulfill the nurturing maternal instinct whilst Jackson got on with life- something the majority of people have to do after such tragedy.

So starting season 12 I was leaning towards Jackson’s side. However, what I overlooked is that Sarah Drew is a fantastic actress and can make me feel the need to desperately protect April Kepner. She came back, she said sorry, she had that beautiful hair, those heart-breaking looks, and after episode 5 I was basically watching a high speed tennis rally- didn’t know where to look, who to support…

Episode 6 told me everything I needed to feel and it’s the main reason I enjoyed the episode. It doesn’t even take my 5-year-old nephew to figure out that the impossible hope April had for that adorable kid (amazing little actor by the way) was a direct metaphor for the hope she had for her marriage.

Throughout the episode you saw Jackson begin to realise he needs April more than he thinks. He survived without her as she escaped to the other side of the world and the stubborn part of him probably thinks he doesn’t need her… But he does. To be better at life, he does.

That hug at the end was LIFE ITSELF. I have had the misfortune of having one of those hugs. The way it was acted- ugh, I just wanted to kiss them both with a lot of love- it was superb. It’s that tension that you’ve been building up, frustration stored over months (whether related to the person or not), any hate, any love, any emotion full-stop basically… It all dissolves when you feel the familiar sense of security in those arms. I repeat, that hug was LIFE ITSELF.

Big kudos to Sarah and Jesse for the Japril storyline. They made me miss Omelia 0.1% less.

Maggie (and Richard)

I was about 5 minutes into episode 6 and tweeted something along the lines of “does anyone else sometimes forget that Richard is Maggie’s father”. Let’s be honest, we had those couple of scenes near the beginning of season 11 and we’ve basically not heard from them since.

Maggie is turning into a potential favourite. (I desperately want it to stay as Amelia but I’ll explain that later.) Maggie is consistently good at her job and doesn’t feel the need to have a song and dance about it, meanwhile her personal life is just… Well, for me, her storyline is the most relatable. Any character who can play a UTI storyline so adorably can surely not be hated by anyone.

She is caught between two very stubborn women at home, she’s conflicted about DeLuca, she’s got Richard as a father, her parents are divorcing, she’s a mentally unstable drunk… I mean, realistically I just think Kelly is adorkable and delivers lines like “it doesn’t burn when I pee anymore” and “I can’t have sex with you” perfectly!

I don’t know whether they’re actively avoiding repeating the estranged father relationship storyline (as we saw with Meredith and both Thatcher and Richard) but considering how well Kelly handles the comedic aspect of her role, I’d like to see more of Maggie’s dramatic side to even it out.

Meredith

This lady deserves a section for herself. Firstly she’s a widow raising three children (whether these children are figments of her imagination is yet to be determined, although rumours of sightings in season 11 have been heard). Granted, she has help from many people including day/night/any care but with a full-time job… She’s a hero basically.

She was even heroic enough to teach the idiotic resident a lesson or two whilst taking her husband off life support. Derek dying was MAJOR. We all know this. I’ve not sobbed or ugly cried like that for years. It was DISGUSTING. End of season 11 gave Omelia some hope, the family love fest in the finale made me happy, summer hiatus came, and I learned to get over the loss of Derek. It all felt final and ready for a fresh start, new life… “turn the soil” I think Ellen said.

So why in the hell drag it up again?! They promised a lighter season, a romantic comedy vibe, and that lasted for all of 2 episodes before babies were dying in handsome men’s arms and awkward AF dinner parties were being held. Penny can fuck right off, the storyline is pointless in my opinion.

I’m also not buying into the comparison between Meredith coming in as an intern and Penny coming in as a resident that Richard made in last night’s episode. None of that is the same Webber, shush your face. You had an affair and were worried about the past coming to haunt you? Meredith’s HUSBAND DIED. It’s not the same. Shush.

Callie, Callie, Callie. Still to this day, my favourite scene of Grey’s Anatomy (which is ridiculously hard to pick) is Meredith and Callie getting drunk and singing the vagina song. As with life, new and exciting relationships come along and people drift apart. I can’t help but feel Callie and Meredith’s beef is going to be rather toxic with Penny in the mix. That friendship group of season 11 has potentially served it’s purpose?

To end Meredith’s section, I present ALEX FREAKING KAREV. Season 1, Meredith throws him against a locker and says “And for the record, you smell like crap.” Season 12, they sit in a chapel in silence, hoping for divine intervention. Gizzie and Mertina were so obvious and easy to fall in love with but little did we know Merlex was on the back burner. For me, all their friendship scenes are so simple, so supportive and so… real. They always have been. She’s his big sister and he’s her big brother. It works both ways- it just works.

Omelia

Finally, the main reason for my rant: Owen and Amelia. Whilst the ridiculously pointless Penny storyline grinds on, it’s taking away screentime from more important things- like Omelia. I know this is biased as an Omelia shipper, but come on, 3 out of 6 episodes so far have had NOTHING.

If I weren’t shoulder-deep into the fanfiction world, I would think little of their relationship given the amount of time being dedicated to them from the writers. The first two episodes held so much hope and I was even willing to let episode 3 slide because of the wonderful Jolex screentime that week, but my patience is now wearing thin.

My issue with lack of screentime for couples is that it detracts from their individual characters. This is why Maggie has been creeping forward- they’ve satisfied both Maggie as an individual character and MaLuca as a couple. For Amelia, I’ve spent most my time when she’s on screen wishing her to randomly bump into Owen and smile at him. ANYTHING. The lack of development between them is a mistake I think because if anything happens now, to people not reading fanfiction or shipping them like a freight train, it’s going to look forced, unnatural and too sudden.

I’m looking forward to the next two episodes because I have a feeling a lot of shit is going to go down between Owen and Riggs (is that his name? Also, that accent… LOL.) All Kevin and Caterina scenes tend to be acted beautifully and I genuinely think they deserve a lot more than they’re getting so I expect it from the next two episodes. It goes for them as individuals and as a couple. Caterina in 12x05 and the consequent Omelia scene… They make my heart sing and bleed at the same time and I want more of it.

In summary:

Get Japril to hug every episode until they get their shit together, let’s see more Maggie drama, stop wasting valuable screentime with the Penny storyline and transfer her to some mediocre low-level trauma centre in Ohio already, comfirm the rumours that Meredith actually has children, make sure Alex always knows where Meredith is and GIVE OMELIA SOME FREAKING SCREENTIME.


RANT OVER.

Why is Super Junior popular.
  • Please ignore any typos!!!!!!
  • I see a lot of people confused and mention SJ with the over hyped groups... but they can't be anymore wrong.
  • SJ is a group with one of the best vocals in all Kpop... no it's not about KRY only... But about the fact that all members can sing and hit high notes. There used to be members who can't but after 5 years trainging and 8 years in the industry they can sing really well.
  • They might be not the best dance group... but you have to admit they usually have dances which just seem simple... but when you try to learn it it's much harder. And they even make their singers dance who can't really dance.
  • There are members who are not exceptionally good at singing or dancing... So they are good at other things you don't find this many MCs, DJs, actors and musical actors in one group. Wait they are also really good at instruments and have members who play more than one perfectly.
  • There is no member who won't be good at at least 2 things. This makes them multitalented.
  • Composing and writing lyrics? Are you kidding... half of the group has God given talent. They could easily make a full album by theirselves. And no those won't be shitty songs.
  • They not only had to train more than other groups and had to suffer. They also debuted with the thought they'll be replaced soon. But guess what they still gave all in what they have and from the very first variety show they acted like idiots and they were entertaining from the very start.
  • Not gonna get into all the other hardships they had to endure at the start of their career. Which probs would have made any other group disband.
  • They had to wait 4 i mean 4 years for their succces, none of the other currently succesful SM groups had to wait that long for "the song"
  • And they STILL stayed who they are... They are still humble, dorks and lovely... they never forget where they came from.
  • Yes there are rich members... one of them is probs the riches idol ever if we only see their background. BUT most of the members came from really poor families. Not just one or two... more than that.
  • And they never forgot these... None of them are actually self centered some might seem like they are but their first thought is their family and Super Junior.
  • They are not only entertaining and talented... they have the closest bond you can ever imagine they are real family.
  • And guess what the only time Shinhwa ever compared anyone to theirselves... it was Super Junior. And i'm so proud of that. The best of best sees Super Junior just like their fans do.
  • Their fans... of course we are horrible and have idiots just like every other fandom. BUT the members always tell us when we do something wrong, they are the ones who appologize. Which makes us want to act better just for them. They also give us food all the time. They come to their shops and interract with fans.
  • My korean teacher said it's quite easy to meet with Super Junior the streets. Even though they are popular they still act like people.
  • Plus they handle their saesangs the best.
  • They are real performers if you have ever seen a Super Show you know what i'm talking about. You can not compare it to other concerts easily. They always give in EVERYTHING... but at the same time they don't stop being humans, and even if they don't want to their fans can see when they are tired or hurt. But they still dance perfectly.
  • Super Junior never tries to take advantage of their fans love.
  • But we talk about the biggest trolls ever... and they raised us to be trolls just like them.
  • Our relationship is special.
  • And you can't find it at every corner in kpop.
  • Super Junior is one of the few groups who deserve EVERY recognition they get from the very star to not the end... because that word does not exist in our vocabulary it's an AND.
Submitted to me.

Hey, english is not my first language, so please bear with me. i just want your opinion on the things i heard, this’s like really important to me. So I live in Thailand and when 1d came here, my friend was following them around. As you all know, louis and zayn went clubbing every night while they were here. Im not talking about zayn and the cheating rumor, this’s about louis.


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Cursed Child Theories

We have one week to go until we find out what happens. ONE. WEEK.

In the old days, the build up to a Harry Potter release inspired a mixture of excitement and fear. If you were any sort of fan, you spent the weeks before a new discussing theories. No chat room or fan site was safe from the Potter fandom. We occupied the shit out of the internet. People remember the shipping wars but they forget the shitshow that was ‘Is Harry a Horcrux?’ and ‘What’s up with the veil in the Department of Mysteries?’

With Cursed Child hitting in a week’s time, the fandom is quiet. Why? Because we have no idea what’s going on. We’ve been given the title of the play, a poster and a blurb. We know the play is about Harry and Albus. We know both father and son are going to face some sort of dark threat, but we don’t know what it is. We have nothing to go on. 

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Cherry's Pick of Ten: Richard and Asbel Moments

Hoping to change things up just a little bit! Since today is the final day of Richass Week and because I so rarely really allow myself to earnestly gush about things I love (especially ships), I decided to treat myself today and talk at length about one of my OTPs. (And you all should, too! If you want.)

So…here I present you with “Cherry’s Pick of Ten Memorable(?!) Richard and Asbel Moments”. (aka “Ten Things I’m Gonna Talk About Anyway”.) These are NOT a top ten list… Why? Because there are just so many scenes and little things I like about Tales of Graces that I’d never be able to decide on just ten or rank them at all. So these are ten for the moment! In (more or less) chronological order:

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anonymous asked:

Salaam aleikum I'm a muslim, well i'm actually a very bad muslim.. I really need your advice. I have done so many messed up things. The sins i have done are so many. I have had sex and i drunk alcohol on parties, i smoked weed for like a half year.. I really hate myself for doing all that.. I didn't listend to allah but to saytaan.. Since it's 2016 i haven't smoked weed but i still drunk alcohol.. I thought i would make a new good start but i failed again.. Pls help me be a better muslim

Walaikum Assalaam,

The temptation will be there but you have to suppress your desire for the sake of Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala. Keep striving and never give up. Keep yourself busy and do productive things that will benefit you in the hereafter. Make dua and ask Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala for help. Cry and beg to Him that He give you strength to fight with your desire and help you abstain from sin. Avoid all the circumstances that trigger your feeling and strengthen your relationship with Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala.

The more you go against the self, the more light will be put in the heart.

Shaykh Hamza Yusuf

First of all find out what are the triggers and avoid being in those circumstances. Secondly fast if you are having problem in controlling desires or eat less. Thirdly temptation will always be there, throughout our life. But we have to abstain from the temptation. When you think about the desires and it gives you joy. The first thing you have to do is to repel that thought, before it becomes an action. Try to distract yourself, do something read books, talk to your family or anything that may help you to get distracted from the thought. If you keep thinking about it, it will become a stronger desire and it may happen you may end in doing sin.

Following are some tips that will help you to reduce sin in shaa Allah

1.      Fix your prayers.

Indeed, prayer prohibits immorality and wrongdoing, and the remembrance of Allah is greater. And Allah knows that which you do. (Surat Al-`Ankabūt 29:45)

2.      Being God conscious, always keep in mind that whatever we do, we have to be accountable to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and He’s watching us all the time.

3.      When you get tempted to do sin think of the death because it is the cutter of delights.

The Messenger of Allah (Peace be upon him) said:“Remember often the destroyer and cutter off of delights, which is death.” (Sunnan Trimidhi:2229)

4.    Have friends that remind you of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala not those whose company makes you forget Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

5.    Strive to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala. When our connection is stronger with Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala it will be easy for us to fight with the desires.

6.    When you get tempted think of the following things:

·         Allah is watching you

·         Angels are recording your deeds

·         Punishment of the grave

·         You have to answer on the day of Judgement

Here are some tips to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala that will help you in shaa Allah.

1.If we want to get closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala, we have to fulfill our obligatory duties and follows the command of Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and his messenger (peace be upon him) wholeheartedly.

2.Being God conscious, always keep in mind that whatever we do, we have to be accountable to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala and He’s watching us all the time.

3.Whenever we do a good work, always make the intention that you are doing this to please Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

4.Be thankful to Allah Subhanahu wa ta’ala in every situation and be happy with the Allah decree.

5.Try to do dhikr all the time, it will make us closer to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala.

Following are some dhikr that we can do all the time:

1.  Asthaghfirullah

2.  Subhaanallah

3. Alhamdulillah

4. Allahu Akbar

5. Laa ilaaha illallah

6. LA HAWLA WA LA QUWWATA ILLA BILLAH-HIL ALIYYIL ADHEEM

7. Asthaghfirullah-halladhee Laa ilaaha illa-huwal Hayyul Qayyuumu Wa athoobu Ilay

Or Asthaghfirullah

8. SUB-HAAN’ALLAAHi WA BI-HAM’DIHI SUB-HAAN’ALLAH-IL ADHEEM

Or SUB-HAAN’ALLAAHi WA BI-HAM’DIHI

9. Subhāna-llāhi, wa-l-hamdu li-llāhi, wa lā ilāha illā-llāhu, wa-llāhu akbar. Wa lā hawla wa lā quwwata illā bi-llāhi-l-aliyyi-l-azīm

10. Lā ilāha illā-llāhu waḥdahu lā sharīka lahu lahu-l-mulku wa lahu-l-ḥamdu yuhyi wa yumītu wa huwa ḥayyu-llā yamūtu abadan abada, ḏū-l-jalāli wa-l-ikrām, biyadihi-l-khayr, wa huwa alā kulli Shay-in qadīr

Or

Laa ilaaha illal-laahu wahdahu laa shareeka lahu, lahul-mulku wa lahul-hamdu wa huwa ‘alaa kulli shay-in qadeer

We should also recite much of durood e Ibrahim which is the durood that is recited towards the end of Salaah.

Or the shortest durood is: Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallim

6. Dua and Repentence:

Almighty Allah says in the Qur’an: “When my servants ask you concerning me, (tell them) I am indeed close (to them). I listen to the prayer of every suppliant when he calls on me.“ [2:186]

The place of Dua is so high in front of Allah, that the Prophet (Sallallahu Alayhi Wasallim) has said: ”Nothing is more honourable to Allah the Most High than Dua.”[Sahih al-Jami` no.5268].

Allah loves repentance & loves those who turn to him in sincere repentance:

Truly Allah loves those who turn [to Him] in repentance… (Qur’an 2:222)

Narrated ‘Ubaadah that the Messenger of Allah said, “Whoever seeks forgiveness for the believing men and believing women, Allah will write for him a good deed for EACH believing man and believing woman.” (Tabarrani)

Subhanallah this deed can be done in EVERY dua and can you imagine how many rewards can be gained for each and every Muslim you make dua for from Adam alayhis ‘salam until now and the last Muslim on earth. This is the easiest way to earn rewards that go into the billions and the more you make these dua’s then the more your good deed account will get filled!

Ask Allah for the help and try to do dhikr all the time, it will help you in shaa Allah. Recite Astaghfirullah, Durood Shareef and kalma as often you can. Desire will always be there, nafs and shaitan is our enemy and this battle will continue till our last breath. On our shortcomings we should repent to Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala sincerely. He is the most forgiving and merciful.

I hope it will be helpful. May Allah guide us to the straight path.

Ameen

anonymous asked:

So I'm reading Uncanny Avengers and I realized that I don't remember you ever doing a meta on the history of Wanda's relationship with Simon Williams. If you have, can you post a link. But, if you haven't can you please do one ? :) Thanks !

This has spoilers for UA at the end, but everything is in chronological order so they’re easy to avoid. It also ended up being long (2000+ words) and more focused on Vision than I intended.

I’ll start off with an explanation of who Simon is because he’s not in the movies and a lot of people aren’t familiar with him. Simon Williams is a superhero, a former weapons designer, and the star of a bunch of terrible movies. He has red eyes, and he’s made of ions, which means he can’t exactly die but he keeps dying anyway. His on-again, off-again romance with Wanda is… very physical. It’s based largely on this sexual chemistry they have. I like Simon, but his relationship with Wanda is plagued with sexism, without having the excuse of having begun in the 60′s.

Simon is introduced in Avengers Vol. 1 #9. He’s sent by Baron Zemo to infiltrate the Avengers, but he turns on Zemo, helps the Avengers, and dies because of it. Years later, when Vision is first introduced, it’s revealed that Vision’s brain was based off of Simon’s brain patterns that had been recorded before his death. How much Vision is actually like Simon and whether or not he is his own person is an important question in Vision’s stories for a long time. Early on in their relationship, Wanda suggests Vision go by the name Simon, which is extremely awkward in hindsight.

It turns out that Simon is not dead but comatose and unable to be revived, and Simon’s evil brother Eric shows up to offer Vision the chance to have his brain patterns put into Simon’s comatose body. (Actually, his real plan was to put Vision in Steve’ s body because comics are ridiculous and, again, hindsight is hilarious.) Vision rejects the offer to get a human body, and unlike Eric, he considers himself to be his own person and not Simon Williams. 

The problems come when Simon starts coming back to life over and over. Simon is briefly resurrected a couple of times before being revived by Gerry Conway in the 70’s, and this causes all kinds of issues for Vision. Simon’s resurrection makes him feel “conspicuously artificial.” He is not the real man, but the copy. The self-confidence Vision has built up over the years is stripped away by being reminded that his brain came from a real human and that real human is an Avenger who likes Wanda quite a bit. Cue a lot of Vision angst.

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Mixtape

Pairing: Y/N and Calum Hood

899 words

“So… Where are we going again?” You ask. The sun falling from the sky, painting it beautiful pastels as you drive down the road.

“That’s a surprise,” calum adjusts his hand on the wheel and turns to get something from the backseat, “I made something for you.”

The wheel turns when he lets it go to grab the item from the backseat. Panic rushes through you when the car begins to drift, and as impulse you grab the steering wheel.

“Calum what the fuck?” You laugh. He sits back up, face tinted red from leaning down into the backseat. His hand returns to the wheel and the other holds a square cd.

“You made me a mixtape?” You take the cd from his hands. For Y/N is printed in his handwriting on the cover.

“I guess you could say that” he shrugs, “put it in” Your eyebrows furrow, but you oblige. The first song that plays is not what you expect. Well, with calum it’s mostly unpredictable, but the song is a soft tune. Nothing you’ve heard before, or at least you thought you haven’t. Calum looks over at you expectantly, hoping you’d know his song.

“I thought you might not remember this song,” his hand covers yours on your lap, “it’s the song that played in the diner where we had our first date.” His attention is back on the road, but you continue to stare at his profile. Surprised at how he had remembered a little song that played at the diner over three years ago.

“Yeah, I know we heard a lot of songs that night but this one stood out to me. I think because I was thinking to myself ‘wow she’s beautiful how the hell did I score a date with her’,” you giggle softly, “you laugh but I’m completely serious.” He smiles at you quickly before turning back to the road.

“Why don’t you play the next song” he suggests. You skip to the next song, this one you remember.

“Our first kiss!” This one is easy and you remember specifically because of how nervous calum was, but nonetheless it was magical. After that he couldn’t get enough of your lips, it seemed like he wanted to be kissing you all the time and you enjoyed every minute of it.
Calum nods.

“How about the next one?” You play the next track. An upbeat song with heavy guitar and drums. You don’t quiet know this one but if sounds really familiar.

“I cannot believe you don’t remember this one,” he smiles and turns the music up a little bit, “this was the time that I snuck you into a bar, and you got so drunk that you got up and danced to this song on the tables. But instead of taking you home I danced with you until they kicked us out.” He laughs, “maybe that’s why you don’t remember”

“You told me about that night” you laugh, he nods and changes the song. The song is slow, with acoustic guitar and a sad tone to it.
“You don’t know this one,” he swallows and looks down before focusing back on the road ahead, “this song was on the radio after we had our first fight. I wanted to add it in here because that was the first and only time I made you cry. and on the ride home, specifically to this song, i realized how badly I fucked up and how I never wanted to see you cry again.” He looks over and eyes lock with yours.

The argument happened a little over a year ago, you can’t even remember why but it was rough. Both of you screaming at each other until he left and didn’t come back until the next day with tears in his eyes. But that made your relationship stronger, and it hasn’t happened again.

The car comes to a stop on top of a hill, you have absolutely no idea where he brought you. 
“Play the last song.” He says and unbuckles his seat belt. You play it and follow him out of the car, leaving the doors open so the music could be heard. It’s a soft but beautiful song that you haven’t heard before.

“I put that mixtape together to show how much I love music, and how I connect music with our relationship. I could play those songs over and over and never get tired of them because of the memories with you. Those songs are the memories with you that I don’t want to erase.”
You admire the beautiful city lights from down below you, the sight absolutely breathtaking. Calums words bringing tears to your eyes. His movement catches your attention away from the city. He kneels in front of you, a black box in hand and beautiful diamond ring.

“I want have more songs like that with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you, Y/N Y/M/N Y/L/N. Will you marry me?” Tears now streaming down your face from happiness as you nod uncontrollably.

“Yes!” You cry, he places the ring on your finger and gives you a tight hug.

“I can’t wait to add to our mixtape.” He says with the biggest smile you’ve ever seen, and presses his lips to yours.

“This is a song I definitely won’t forget”