thinkin about phobias
im afraid of needles, fuck heroin, but i really like syringes. they feel so creepy too ughhhhhhhnn.. scares me so much i black out mentally stop breathing…. irrational phobia,.
each time i go to the doctor )its like the first time u go snorkeling in the coral reef each time its such a flood of synpase…also im mostly talking about my life getting blood drawn, shots, ANYTHING. tattoos are ok. but even accupuncture would probly make me faint involuntary
honestly i really appreciate blood in general. like ive ALWAYS been morbid.&my 1st fetish since childhood is knives
sometimes i knife myself but only once several seasons pass ,for sacred reasons. im very spiritual.