its annyoing

I guess I never really had a concept of feminine and masculine ?? As a child I like… Was pretty neutral ? I’d play with ‘girl’ toys and 'boy’ toys but never really care. I personally never was aware of being girly or boyish and never really considered being either ? Never identified with either as well. Puberty then pushed me away from 'being a girl’ I guess ??

And now I still don’t fully understand feminine and masculine and that’s why I struggle to represent as such