Hey Michael, have you ever written a song for Jeremy?
Michael: !!! Actually yeah I have hold on–
Every time I see you, my heart it flutters! And I never ever wanna be with another. It’s only you, it’s always you Until the end~ And every time I’m with you my heart hums out a song You honestly have no idea how long it’s been… This is a love song, let’s be more than friends!
…Um, heheh. I wrote that way before we started dating, it was sorta an unrequited thing. But now? I might have to update the lyrics a little, make it more fitting…
Queer Self-Presentation and Burlesque Auto-Sexuality in Yuri Plisetsky’s “Welcome to the Madness”
PHEW! It’s finally ready for ya!
Thanks to everyone for patiently waiting. I was overwhelmed with the response to my teaser post about this meta. I’m sorry it took so long to finish… I had to write the academic version for class, then rewrite it to be tumblr-appropriate (I’m still not sure that it is, constructive criticism is welcome!)
I’m hoping that this will contribute to the ongoing conversation about underage characters in fandom, and am looking forward to your asks. I’m a little nervous to be tossing my hat into the Otayuri discourse, but I hope I won’t catch too much hate.
I took out footnotes but included the bibliography at the end. If you have any questions about specific references, send me an ask or DM :)
When you are feeling stuck in one place for too long, just remember, this is the beginning of the movie where the protagonist (you) is singing about wanting more in life. Sometimes the song seems to go on for a while, but soon you’ll go on an adventure!
When a good thing goes bad, it’s not the end of the world
It’s just the end of the world that you had with one girl.
Harry knew it was over, if he was being honest with himself he knew it was over the moment he saw her face. It was almost although everything that day had lined up perfectly so he met her, at least that’s what he told himself to lessen the guilt in his heart. Maybe if his studio session had gone better, or maybe if his girlfriend hadn’t have been in a crappy mood, maybe if any of the shitty things that happened that day hadn’t have happened, maybe then he wouldn’t have to sit there breaking the heart of the girl of his dreams who only deserved better. It hurt him to see the tears well in her eyes when he said he was leaving, not as much as it should have though. The sadness, the confusions, and the anger all mixed in one facial expression. Her eyes fluttered as she tried to control the flow of her tears. Harry knew he shouldn’t leave, he knew he had something good but it wasn’t good enough. Every time he tried to convince himself to stay, he saw the other girls face, her dark brown eyes staring at him the exact same way they were that night at the bar.
So cry if you need to, but I can’t stay to watch you
thats the wrong thing to do
“Why,” was the only thing she could get out in between belligerent sobs. Her heart breaking and the world around her crashing, and all she wanted to know was why? Why ruin a good-no a great thing? They’d spent their teenage years together, she had given him everything the least he could give her an explanation. She searched his eyes for something, some sort of sign that this wasn’t really the end, unfortunately she couldn’t find it.
Talk if you need to, but I can’t stay to hear you
that’s the wrong thing to do
Cause you’ll say you love me and I’ll end up lying
and say I love you too
But i need something different
“I need something different, I’m sorry,” he wasn’t lying, but he knew he couldn’t tell her the whole truth. It would ruin her, and the least he could do was shield her from any more pain for as long as possible. He grabbed the back of her neck pulling her in and kissing the top of her head letting them stay there for a moment. Was he doing the right thing? No definitely not. Was that going to stop him from leaving? Also no, and just like that he grabbed his bags and left.