I hope I’m loving you right. I know I’m reckless and hard to love because I’m a disaster, but I don’t want to do anything that will ruin your heart. All my life, people are always there to tell me that I’m wrong, that I’m always messing things up. And I grew up believing their words, thinking that every single thing that falls apart around me is my fault no matter how careful I always try to be. I don’t want to end up destroying what we have. I just want to love you with all the love I have in me, but look at me. I told you that I will never do anything to hurt you, and yet that promise breaks more and more each day with every apology that comes from me. Look at me, always hurting you. I’m sorry, my love. I’m sorry for what I’m doing to you. How many times have you heard the words “I’m sorry” from me? It’s always present whenever we’re talking. But you always tell me that you will love me no matter what, and for that you’ve won me over. My love, I have never loved like this before. But it’s hard when you’re always seeing me at my worst even if I want to be at my best for you, because I love you so much. Maybe I should love myself first, but that is impossible because I will never learn how to do that. I don’t know. Maybe it’s best if I should just apologize for everything in advance.