im hoping and praying that another rabbit in the future isnt out of question… my living situation is kind of weird, i live in another family’s home on the weekends and in the summer and live at school during the week so their mom took care of mishka during the weekdays while i was at school. its definitely a burden especially since nano is aggressive and they ended up being split apart for a long time which made the room set up uncomfortable because a large section was cut off for mishka by a big clunky wire fence. its totally inconvenient and a hassle but i feel like my life is too empty without a rabbit dependent on me.
of course i dont mean right away i am no where near emotionally ready for another pet in this state but i definitely dont mean like, in years, hopefully much sooner than that.
i originally got mishka with the intention of having her as a quiet, affectionate comforter for me. and she totally was… i have too many problems ive never been able to needle through with connecting with others and very poor coping mechanisms and honestly there was a lot of calmity that came from having mishka that i have never had before her. and i definitely notice deeper boughts of sadness the more time i spent away from her with like school and stuff. not like i had separation anxiety but that i am dead serious when i say i have no coping skills and mishka was like a godsent to me. i have a v intense disorder im leaving obscure on purpose but it makes relationships really difficult for me no matter how many skills i make to work around it it dominates my life and my feelings and i think that silent companion is the perfect medicine.
as well as too much love and dedication to rabbits, i just dont feel whole without a rabbit to bond with and give my love to. i have a lot of hope atm that i will get to be friends with another rabbit in a few months down the line but i feel like im really not considering how much of a hassle it is for my environment and i dont know what ill do if it so happens that i cant get another…. ugh idk. i think i seriously just need animal affection to survive and i feel most aligned and touched by rabbits (as well as never having gotten attached to a pet before) i think it has a lot to do with the set up of a rabbit like, they are large and playful and have very readable emotions like dogs and cats while having the heavy care dependency of a small pet and idk i think i am most suited to that kind of intimacy w a tight bond + a lot of care. so in other words: all other animals feel out of the question. rabbits are my patron soul embedded animal i feel so tightly related 2.
but ugh on comes that care and room space thing, its all a burden and i already felt horrendously guilty w mishky but really and truly i feel like mishka gave to me so much that i havent been able to receive otherwise i think my mental health will be most valuable in comparison to that as well as we are used to two bunny care anyway but i guess it feels hard to explain without seeming freakish idk.
sorry for long jumbled ramble about how im sick and want another bunny but ugh i feel so worried and antsy and unsure abouthow ill take it if it turns out i cant be graced by a rabbit until i manage to move out which could be years down the line 9_____666