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About Bughead getting back together tonight
  • Staff: But they're already back together?
  • RAS: Yes.
  • Staff: ... Don't you think it's too early, Roberto?
  • RAS: It's been already a week since last episode.
  • Staff: Okay, but technically it's still the same day. Shouldn't we keep them apart for-
  • RAS: IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND I WANT BUGHEAD TOGETHER!
  • Us: We present you the best show runner, ladies and gentlemen.

‘Claws’ Renewed For Season 2 By TNT

Five episodes in, Claws has become the highest-rated TNT series launched since the cable network’s programming shift last year under the new regime. It also is the youngest skewing TNT drama series. Ranking as cable’s #4 new drama with adults 18-49 for 2017-to-date and #4 cable drama in social engagement, Claws is reaching a multiplatform audience of 6.3 million viewers per episode across TNT’s linear, digital, mobile and on-demand platforms and averaging 1.1 million adults 18-49 in linear Live + 7.

The dramedy also has grown +27% in the demo since the premiere, with its fourth episode hitting Live+same day and Live+3 highs.

The numbers speak for themselves 

Dᴀʏ 7: Fᴀᴠᴏᴜʀɪᴛᴇ Wɪɴɢ Sᴘɪᴋᴇʀ

Bᴏᴋᴜᴛᴏ Kᴏᴜᴛᴀʀᴏᴜ

SO i have been taking up the habbit of talking to myself when i drive and i went into best buy to get a new mouse and could not have sounded more insane to the man there, notable things include

“Hi im looking for- wait is there a different plural form for computer mouses/mice then the one used for animal mice”

after the man said ‘enjoy your purchase’ “you too- wait no shit that’s like, I mean you enjoy work here but- well work isn’t fun but, i did that thing where you say ‘you too’ after a waiter says to enjoy your meal im gonna go”

also i got very spooked by some robot baby toy that was on the other side of the computer stuff and stopped him mid sentence to get spooked i was a w reck

but as i was buying milk and frozen pizzas at walmart i realize i wanted an icecream cake but i know the walmart has shit cakes and i would be a fool to not get one from the dairy queen right down the road ANYWAY i go in and ask if its possible to print same day on the cakes, like totally reassuring its no big deal if you dont, but the woman did regardless, i wanted john cena on my cake and it was a square design on a circular cake, ontop of that she kept reminding me how they never do this with same day ordering and I STARTED TO FEEL BAD CAUSE it was literally an icecream cake for me but she came out with a frosting bag and asked for the kids name so i shit out the name ‘jordan’ and she asked if i wanted anything else onit and i

so yeah all in all today was a little weird also i kept driving past this statue of a horse i kept getting spooked and thought it was a real horse 

Peter Pan Imagine/ Do You Love Me? Pt. 2

“ Is there a part 2 to do you love me? ”

“ Are you going to update “Do you love me?” It’s really good❤️ I don’t want to be pushy and I’m sorry if it seems like it ”

“ Omg!! Part two of “do you love me?” Please??”

“ Part 2 to do you love me!“

“ Do you love me? Part 2 😍 please”

“ Part 2 of do you love me plaseeeee”

“Part 2 plz”

“I must know how this ends”

“Yes yes yesssss part two”

“Please part 2″

“yes pls part 2 woyld be lovely”

“definitely part 2″

“Part 2 please!!!!!!”

“HELL yeah a part two”

“yesss pleaseee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Part 1 here–> http://neverland93.tumblr.com/post/152762344760/peter-pan-imaginedo-you-love-me



“Bloody hell, I know where this kid is.” Hook said

You popped your head up a little curious and playing with your food just in case you weren’t supposed to be hearing.

“Where?!” Regina and Emma yelled at the same time.

“Neverland.” he says

Your fork dropped on the floor and so did your heart, you haven’t seen Peter since you yelled a him, since he sad all those terrible things.

You were terrified, but you had to get your best friend and brother back, and Peter was not going to stop you.

You arrived on the Neverland, you rub your shoe against the soil, trying to calm down your nerves. It seemed impossible.

“You okay kid? “ Swan asked and you jumped

“Oh shit.” you almost yelled “Yeah yeah yeah I’m fine.” you try to look calm but the group looked at you strange.

“Okay…” Hook said with a confused look

“Listen enough of this we need to get back to what’s important and that’s finding Henry!” Regina stated.

“Hook, you know this place better than anyone else, where would he be?” Swan asked Hook

“Well I guess anywhere his lost boys are, he doesn’t go anywhere without them.”

“Lies.” you said in your head, Pan was always one to wonder off into the night, leaving you naked under his sheets with nothing but his scent lingering the room you stay in.

“So do we just go and find wherever there is noise or?” Mary Margret asked

“It’s not that easy ?” Swan asked

“He’s the only one on the bloody island besides the boys and mermaids, it’s that easy.” Hook stated

“Great should we split up?” Regina asked

“No, that’s very dangerous, Pan maybe be a teenage boy but he is smart.” Hook said

You rolled your eyes, yeah sure he is. You had to do everything for him, he couldn’t even cook himself eggs. You were his eyes, his arms, and legs, you were his “sidekick” the lost boys would call you, you missed the boys a lot actually, they were never the mean ones, Pan was.

You guys start to walk and you start to feel goosebumps rise up, it’s like you could feel his presence against the trees, the wind, the sounds that would go in and out your ear, oh how you missed it all, you start to wonder how it be if you stayed.

Pan’s Point Of View

I start to feel something, something so familiar but something yet so new. What was it? It was such a sweet and beautiful feeling, but then it became sorrow and pain. This was something I never felt before, it was bizarre.

“Pan, want breakfast?” Felix asked as he knocked on the door.

“I’m coming.” I yelled

I open the door and I see Felix.

I nod my head signaling we can walk together. We do so.

The air was ..different, but in a familiar way.

“Hey Felix you feel, like different?” I ask him

“Uh no I mean I’m hungry, but when am I ? Why do you ask?” he asked

“Nothing Fe, just asking, forget I said anything.” I said.

I walk to the camp grounds and sit at my usual spot, waiting for the lost boys to feed me.

“Here ya go Pan.” an older lost boy gives you a plate.

“What the bloody hell is this bullshit?” I yell, its the same shit every day.

“It’s uhm fruit , and uh salad, without the dressing, and the croutons, and the cheese.”

“Ugh!” I yell again, “This is torture, we haven’t had meat, sweets, and barely any bread in forever, someone better learn how to bloody cook fast or else you all are getting banned from this island.” I yell and get up and sit on a long next to the fire.

All the lost boys stare at you, looking confused and scared.

“Pan you’re acting a little weird, you okay?” Felix asked

“Something is up, there’s something,UGH!” I’m clearly frustrated, nobody feels what I feel, there is something up today, it’s different.

“I’m going for a walk.” I say.

I start to walk to my thinking spot, the first place me and Y/n ever kissed.

I remember clear as daylight, I had asked her what she had to offer me, right on top of this hill, and she looked at me dead in the eyes and said “Me.” that was the day she changed my life.

I remember walking up to her, grabbing her face and rubbing my thumb against her soft cheeks, she looked at me with such joy, such a beautiful face, and I kissed her, never have I felt such an amazing feeling, I had goosebumps rising up and down my spine, the way she tasted, oh my, she tasted like cinnamon spices, and she told me I tasted like vanilla, together it was the most wonderful taste you could ever experience.

I snapped out of my thought as I saw something, no someone, as blond women, I became curious, what was she doing on my island, how stupid of her, I’ll have her in my cages in no time, or maybe she will be my slave and cook for me actual good food, unlike the lost boys crappy disgusting food.

Then , but then I see more of them, it was a group of adults , “Oh great.” I say as I roll my eyes. I hate grown ups, nothing but wanna be know it all who are always up your ass about something.

I walk away, I’ll deal with that bullshit later, right now, I just needed to think.

Regular Point Of View

My feet start to hurt, and I become weak.

“Hey can we like chill for a second? My feet are killing me.” I asked

“No we can’t we need to find Henry!” Regina yelled at me.

“We’ve been walking for 3 hours straight this place is going to at least take 4 days to search everywhere!” I yell back

“She’s actually right.” Hook said agreeing with me

“How would you know?” Mary Margret asked

“Oh.. it was just a wild guess..” you try not to blow your cover

“Look maybe she’s right, we do need nutrition if we are going to keep searching for Henry.” David said

“Okay fine, We can eat and then start to search again.” Regina said.

You guys start to make food, you cooked most of it, you were the chef in the family, and you loved to cook, so you didn’t mind.

You all gathered around the fire that the men made.

Enjoying your lunch you decided to hum, hum a song you would sing every time you cooked, Peter would always love when you sang, but of course he would never tell you.

Speaking of Peter he began to smell something, and it brought a smile to is eyes.

“Real food, but where?”  he got up “Lost boys, follow me.” he smiled

They walk to your campfire, Peter only saw the grown ups,”Okay boys, follow my lead.” he said cocky as ever

“Well , well ,well.” he said

Your head shot up like a deer in headlights, it was Peter, it was him in the flesh, and he hasn’t changed a bit. He was so tall, and still handsome as hell, he looked so bad but he does it so well.

“That smells wonderful I must say, but what are you doing o my island?” he asked in such a cocky way.

“Shut it Pan.” Hook said

“Oh how funny, you’re going to tell me to shut up when it’s my bloody island.” he looked mad

You couldn’t help but stare, you felt terrible but it was just too hard not to, his arms were so muscular, his eyes were almost emerald green, his smile and the way he ran his fingers through his hair, it brought you back to the good days.

“I however will forgive me, as long as you swear to cook for me and my boys for the rest of, oh I don’t know, your lives.” he smiled.

He started to laugh but then he made eye contact with you, your heart skipped a beat.

“What the fuck.” he whispered to himself, his heart sank to stomach, but he snapped out of it and quickly turned back to his cocky self.

“What are YOU doing here?” he walks up to you.

You then get up and stand face to face with Peter Pan himself.

“Where is my brother?” you asked him

He laughs “Who is your brother?” 

“Henry.” you said

“Oh Henry?” he folded his arms

“Yes Henry.” you never lost eye contact with him.

“Henry is YOUR brother?” he smiled almost in a evil way.

“YES! Now where is he?” you yelled

“Oh Henry isn’t going anywhere now that I know that he s your brother.” he cocked a brow

“You are such an asshole , tell me where he is or else-”

“Or else what ? Huh?! You’re gonna leave again?” he said 

Now everyone is looking at you, and your group starts to ask questions.

“You know him?” Regina asked

“I knew something was up.” Mary Margret said

“Oh Y/n was my “Lost girl.” she was my special princess, sin’t that right?” he started at you in a way you never seen Peter before.

“You think just because you left you can come here and act like you’re all big and bad, pathetic.”  he said

“Give me back my brother and we will leave and you’ll never see my face again.” you said trying to reason with him.

“You’re not getting it are you? I’m keeping you here, forever.” he said

“The hell you are!” you yelled as you run next to your group.

Peter now looked annoyed

“You use to be so good, so obedient.” he shook his head

“I’m not a dog Pan.” you said

“No but you wanna know what you are? You’re fucked.” he said

“Yeah because of you! I’m so fucked up from all the shit you did to me! You  dragged me through hell and I called it love as long as you were holding my hand!” you yelled at him.

“Gosh you try to act so innocent! You wanna know the truth? The real truth?” he said as he backs you up as you try to stand your ground.

“I wanted to fuck you up, I wanted to tear you into pieces, you were so damn pure, and sweet, and nice, and I.” he looked at you up and down. “I just wanted to make your life hell, I never loved you,I don’t understand how you thought I could ever love you. So you know what? I’ll give you Henry.” 

He snapped his fingers and Henry appears, he runs to your family and you jst stand there with tears running down your face.

“Now you have to live with it, bye Y/n. For good this time.” he said as he walked away.

********

You were all packed to leave tomorrow mornig

You ran straight to your tent and you didn’t stop crying that night, how could Peter say that? After all you’ve been through, that was the most gut wrenching, heart breaking, thing you ever heard and that has happen to you in your entire life.

Peter lay in his bed that night, with tears in his eyes for the first time.

I loved her, no more than that , I was in love with her, as soon as I saw her I wanted her in my arms, and not in my bed, for the first time I wanted to hold her, and not fuck her senseless, she looked so dam beautiful, but I just couldn’t let her do that to me,, I couldn’t let her break me down, and let everyone and her know that I loved her, so I pushed her away, which was the most stupidest thing I have ever done in my whole entire life.

You woke up and to hollering , your eyes were super swollen but manged to run outside to see what the ruckess was all about.

You see Peter  with the lost boys and other people who you never saw in your life.

“Who the fuck are you?” Peter asked

“What time is it?” you asked David 

“It’s 12 afternoon.” he said

“What?! We were supposed to leave at 8:00am today what happen?” you asked

“This.” he pointed

“These people are trying to fight Pan and his crew but also not let us through the portal we’re suppose to go through. We have to go through soon portals don’t last forever you know.” Hook said

“Well then, let’s fight.” you puled out his sword and winked

You all began to fight off whoever these people where that were getting in yur way, you were clearly winning because you had your group and Pan’s group, you were fighting side by side next to Peter, and it was so weird.

You weren’t paying attention and and you were about to get stabbed by a sword, Peter saw and started to run to your rescue

“Y/N WATCH OUT!” Peter yelled and he pushed you out the way, you fall to the ground but quickly look up to see there was a sword in Peter’s stomach!

“PETER!” you yell and run to his rescue, the lost boys fight off all the rest of the evil people to make sure everyone is safe, so its just you, Peter, the lost boys, and your family.

You began to cry “Peter why?” you asked

“I had to, I couldn’t see you like this.” he said with his eyes heavy

“He’s bleeding a lot.” Felix said , he signaled the lost boys to go get the care package

“But, but you said you didn’t love me.” you were still crying

“I lied, I love, I’m in love with you Y/n, don’t you get it? I’ve been in love with you since you walk on this damn island.” he said as he tried to move but just fell again.

“Don’t move Peter we’re getting you help.” Felix said

“Only love makes you crazy, but what I said to you yesterday, that was plain stupid Y/n.” he said wincing in pain.

You just si there and cry while holding unto him, “Peter you’re going to make it do you hear me? I won’t let you die.” you yell as you sob

Peer’s eyes became heavy, and he started to breath uneven, you were seeing the signs, he wasn’t holding on unto you like he was, and the lost boys were taking forever.

Everything became a blur until you heard “We got it! We got the stuff!” the lost boys yelled

They came and Felix pulled the sword out of Peter, spilling blood out of him and turning Peter pale.

Sooner than later they get him all stitched up and the bleeding stops, but Peter stops breathing.

“He’s not breathing!” Felix yelled

“What do we do?” a lost boy yelled

“Give him air!” an on other boys said

“How?!” said an other

You push them out the way and start doing CPR.

“1 2 3 “ you start to breath into him and you do this for at least a minute, everyone just stairs at you, hoping you do the trick.

Peter shoots up and gasped for air and your eyes start to water

“He’s alive!” You yell and all the lost boys yell “Hooray!”

He grabs your cheeks on your face and kisses your lips so soft, not rough at all, and it was a different side you seen from Peter.

“I love you Y/n.” he said

“I love you too Peter.” you smiled

Henry and your family went back to StoryBrooke and you stayed in Neverland with Peter and the lost boys, you visit each other once a week.

Peter started to show his emotions and not be scared of him, for every boy, has a soft side, you just have to find it.

Say My Name

//Smut// {also dramatic build up}
word count: 2218

You’re there, across from him. You can see that he wants you, as he bites his lip and slowly moves his hand up your thigh. He gets closer and closer, slipping his hand up your skirt.. your head rolls back and you wake up, sitting in bed.

“Shit, time for school again.” you groan as you wiped the sleep from your eyes.

For the past few days you’ve been going to school flustered from the crazy dreams you’ve been having and it’s all because of him, your classmate crush. You haven’t known him long but from the moment you met him, he’s all you can think about. He ended up transferring to your school a month after classes started, and its been hell- for you at least. He always gives you these looks that just kind of shoots right through you and makes you ache all over.

“Hey, Y/N snap out of it.” said your friend Sky

“don’t tell me you’re thinking of him again…” she said with a serious look on her face.

“SHHHH someone might here you… and no… I was just… thinking. Ya know?” you say hesitantly.

“I swear its the same thing every day. And besides almost everyone knows you like him, Y/N you should probably tell him or just give up” she said as she got up from her seat on the bus

“You and I both know I can’t tell him, my body lights on fire just being around him. And I’m pretty sure he doesn’t like me.” you say as you make your way off the bus with a blush on your face.

“Well you never know unless you take the chance of telling him, who knows maybe he thinks you’re sexy haha” sky shouts as she runs to her first period class.

“Shes crazy” you thought as you go to class

Your first period class was the easiest part of the day because your crush didn’t have that class so it always went by quickly and you could stay focus unless you fell asleep. On your way to second period Sky ran up next to you.

“Hey so guess what.” she said with a huge smile on her face

“Oh god, what is it this time..” you say

“We’re going to a party tonight with Jungkook and Yugyeom.” she said calmly as if she knew you would be ok with it.

“Really, do I have to go?” you questioned.

“Yes Y/N, you have to keep Yugyeom company while I make my move on Jungkook. for me pleeaaassee”  Sky said with puppy dog eyes. “And besides I heard a certain someone might be there.”

“Fine, I’ll go… only for you not him” you say blushing.

Sky and you both walk into class together and see everyone was standing on one side of the room.

“Ok class, everyone is getting new assigned seats since everyone constantly talks during lecture” your reading teacher Ms. Jets says

You start freaking out “shit shIT SHIT!!” you thought.. considering this was one of the classes you had with him ’…

“Sky and Jungkook” Ms. Jet says as she starts to place people together.

Name after name and finally she calls you “Y/N and Ki-”

Wait what did she just say? Your mind starts spinning and you could feel your knees get weak. You walk over towards your seat, which was in the back of the class, he was eyeing you the whole time. When you sat down all you could think of was how good he smelled, you could feel your body heat increase and you suddenly felt flustered.

“Y/N are you ok?” he said with a slight grin on his face

Damn his voice was so fucking deep. “Uh, yeah I’m fine.” you replied  

The whole time in class you felt as if you where being watched by him. He was so close that every time his skin slightly touched you it sent shivers down your spine. Half way throw lecture you look over to him and you couldn’t help but stare for a moment, as he was licking his lips, he sees you staring and smirks. You look away with embarrassment. Suddenly the fire alarm goes off through the school. Ms. Jet leaves the class and everyone follows her but as soon as you went to walk through the door someone grabs a hold of you and slams you agents the wall shutting the door quickly.

“You know you get me flustered every time I see that pretty little face of yours.” a deep voice said

You look up to see that it was him, your crush was standing right in-front of you but before you could say anything his lips crash onto yours, you didn’t fight him because his lips tasted like heaven and they were the softest things you have ever felt. Before you realized it your fingers were tangled there his hair, you could feel his tongue begging for entrance against your top lip so you gave him what he wanted. One of his hands slipped up your shirt and squeezed your right boob so tightly but damn it felt good. The other hand was slowly making its way from your hip to the button of your pants, as he unbutton your pants all you could think was how you hope this wasn’t a dream.. finally his hand slips in your pants and starts to play with your entrance.

At this point “Thank god this class doesn’t have any cameras” was the only thing you could think of.

“Damn babe, your so fucking wet. You must have been thinking about me.” he says playfully

He slips his fingers in and starts thrusting them back and forth. “Fuck you’re so tight around my fingers” he hissed “I wonder how you would feel around my cock” he whispered in your ear.

The alarm stopped and so did he.“ I guess we’ll just have to finish what we started another time baby doll he said faintly.

"What about tonight at the party?” you asked sweetly.

“Damn you might really want it haha. Ok come look for me tonight.” he said

Through out the day he kept teasing you in the other classes you had with him. He would lick his lips while staring at you, he would brush up against you every time he walked by you, and he just did little things to get you more flustered then what you were. By the end of the day you were ready to burst.

“Here try this on, I think you’ll look good in it.” Sky said as you both were getting ready for the party. “We have to hurry because Yugyeom and Jungkook are on the way and you know it doesn’t take long for them to get here” she said.

“Okay, I’m ready whenever you are.” you say with a big smile on your face.

“Uh, ok.” she said with a confused look “your quite happy, did something happen at school today?”

“What? No nothing really happened haha..” you replied

“Are you sure? Because i didn’t see you outside when the fire alarm went off, oh and i didn’t see your little crush either” she said

You blushed and as you were going to explain, the door bell rung. Thank god it was Jungkook and Yugyeom.

After arriving to the party Sky and Jungkook left you and Yugyeom alone, so you to talked for a while. The conversation was going good and then you two started talking about relationships.

“So are you seeing anyone?” you asked

“Yeah, I have been for a while. and we plan on getting married after high school” Yugyeom replied “She’s actually on her way here. But what about you?” he asked

“Oh that’s awesome, but uh I guess you could say I’m seeing someone in a way.” you said.

After that Yugyeom met up with his girlfriend and they were gone so you decided to go look around. Going up the steps of the huge house you were in, you came to a hallway filled with doors. You wanted to find a quiet room to release some of the tension you had built up earlier in the day. Every room or bathroom you checked so far seemed to have been occupied and you almost gave up, until you came cross what seem to have been an empty room. You went in forgetting to close the door behind you. As you walked over to the edge of the bed you heard the door close,you spun around seeing that it was ‘him’.

“I knew you’d find me, but you made me wait for such a long time so I’m not going easy on you” He said as he walked over towards you. He pushed you on the bed and crawled on top of you, while holding your hands above your head.

“I know that you want me, but don’t worry babygirl I’ve wanted you to.” He said as he reaches down to kiss your neck.

As he leave little kisses and bite all over your neck he begins to unbutton your shorts, after that he starts to trail down your body touching you everywhere and leaving kiss all over. He finally gets down to your shorts, basically ripping them off you He begins to eat you out

“Fuck, you taste so sweet baby.” He hissed

you arched your back as he continued, and you tried to hold back from moaning. As you were restraining yourself he noticed. “Say my name” He said.

you shook your head no so he gripped your thigh and jolted you cross the bed

“I said say my name.” He said an slight anger

“Ah… Ki- Kim Taehyung” you said loud and clear.

“That’s right babygirl don’t stop saying it.” He said giving you a strong look. Then he started to work on you begin, slipping his tongue in and out of your folds, glossing them them his saliva. As he was working on your clit, he stuck to fingers in and started to trust harder then what he did in the classroom, curling them up and hitting your g-spot instantly. He kept doing it, trusting faster and faster, at one point you felt as if you were going to burst all over him but then he stopped.

“Oh you think its going to be that easy to get off?” he smirked “Get on your knees now.”

You hesitated, but he jolted you off the bed and slung you on your knees. When you looked up you were surprised to see the huge bulge in his pants.

“You know what to do right babygirl, or does daddy need to teach you?” he said looking down at you.

You thought “Ok I can play along to his game.” So you scudded up close to him, unbuttoning his pants and pulling his zipper with your mouth, setting his pants around his ankles. You start to gently stroke his cock through his boxers, while looking at him with puppy dog eyes.

“I guess you weren’t going to be as good as i thought.” he stated

That’s when you smirked at him and he was shocked. You pull out his member and took it all in at once leaving him breathless. Bobbing you head up and down you noticed Kim Taehyung rolled his head back and bite his lip in pleasure, but you wanted to hear him, so you decided to change things up, you bring your hands up to his hips and begin to slightly scratch him while curling your tongue up around his dick while you were moving back and forth.

“Ah, Fuck… baby… god damn.” was all that he could spit out as he trust his hips and twitch in your mouth.

Before you could get him to cum, he moved, picking you up off the ground and standing you up. He stripped you of everything except the choker and stockings you had on.

“Your so fucking hot, and its all for me.” he said as he crawled over you once again. “I wanna hear you scream my name for what I’m about to do to you.” he said as he gripped your neck.

He was biting you you hard and gripping your hip with his other hand. You arched your back so high, and in that moment he slammed into you, stretching you nicely. You practically screamed loud enough for the whole party to hear, but nothing was stopping you or him. He was trusting in and out of you and you swore you never felt something so wonderful, and you didn’t want this pleasure to stop. While he was moving back and forth his grip on your neck got tighter and tighter, you swore you were seeing colors. He sped up and you could feel him twitch inside of you.

“Cum for me baby.” he said “And say my name.”

Just a few more trust and you release all over him shouting his name. He release shortly after you. After that he gently placed a cover the to of you and began to cuddle you.

“You know this means your mine now… And I don’t ever wanna hear you stop saying my name.” he said as he pushed his face in your neck.

The End

About my hiatus

Yes, if youve not seen already, this blog is on hiatus meaning I wont be posting as much anymore. I promise you there is reason for that.

During my ‘bad’ moment, I hit a sudden realisation that… Im not getting any younger. Im 23 and ive had so many dreams ive not accomplished. I wrote a letter to my 20 year old self when I was 13 saying I was proud of what id become and id knew that id make it as a performer.

I hadn’t.

If you follow me on twitter you’ll know this already, but if not, I want to act. Ive always loved acting even when I was on a Film course at university, I always preferred being in front of the camera, and I was good at it. I was the first choice for filmmakers in the college until I left.

I realise now that I want to persue that dream, I want to make more of myself and by god have I been working so hard to make that happen. Acting classes, auditions, applying for jobs, modelling, I even got an audition to be in a BBC comic relief show!! (cant go to that sadly bc its the same day as my nieces birthday)

But nevertheless, I’m more determined than ever to make this happen and open more doors for myself.

Please know, this hiatus is NOT negative. Im not wanting to leave you guys, I’m not done with the fanbase. On the contrary, you guys are the one who gave me that kick up the ass I needed to make this happen, and I cannot thank you enough for that.

Also thank you to Mark. You’ve given me this confidence to talk, to befriend, to network and to be creative. Without you, me wouldnt be me. If things go well, you’ll see me one day on the big screen.

I love you guys, THAT will never change. Again, please know that this hiatus is only for a positive reason. Im making things happen.

To the older generations of the US

There is something you must realize going forward. The young people are very young. What does this mean? Well, it means that young people can’t remember, or weren’t alive for, many tragic events.
An example, 9/11. We are now entering a time where many school children were not even born before September eleventh, 2001. In fact, anyone born on the twelfth or later was not alive for the event. These children are now fifteen/sixteen and younger. Young adults before them may have been alive, but were so young that there is no recollection.
Why am I bringing this up?

It is not their tragedy.

You have to understand that they don’t have the same fear or distrust, they don’t have the guilt or anger, the post-9/11 patriotism. No one can hold that against them.
The problem is that schools still try to use it as a tactic to, not learn, but cause fear and unconditional love for the country.
We can’t deny it either, as it is always discussed on the anniversary of the event, whereas other events are discussed at they come up in the timeline of he curriculum. Pearl Harbor is rarely discussed on its anniversary, same with D-Day, and so on.
Until another tragedy strikes, the children will learn about a day that means nothing to them, feel no empathy, no fear, and the older generations will look at them with disgust at how calloused the young people are toward something that changed the nature of the country.
Don’t blame the children. Accept that it is not their tragedy. Understand that it will never mean anything to them.

anonymous asked:

Since I can't really celebrate my birthday (it's the same day as sanjis) can I tag on to the triplets? Pretty please?

Sure! Party with us!~
Happy Birthday to you, btw~

What if MC didn’t take care of herself while V was hospitalized? pt. 4

Everyone is so nice ;3; thank you all again for following this story and anticipating every new chapter that I post! I’m really having fun writing this story and I honestly don’t even have the ending pictured yet. But it’s going to start getting into the good stuff now! 

For this part, I’m alluding to the infamous day 7 phone call because it’s actually really important for a lot of what will happen in the future to MC. Honestly, I was waiting to write this part because it shows MC reaction to hearing V get tortured by Saeran only in this particular story, neither Saeran nor V knew that she had listened in to. I would expect MC to be traumatized after hearing that. I mean it’s a legit reaction to it, soooo enjoy ^^

Pt. 1 // Pt. 2 // Pt. 3 // Pt.4 // Pt.5 // Pt. 6

Part: 4/?

Length: 2776 words

Pairing: VxMC

Warnings: none

Sorry for any grammatical mistakes ^^;;


Four days earlier…

Her room began to feel closer to a prison than a luxurious suite as the doors only opened and closed when Ray entered the room, but sadly he never visited her that day. He left occasional messages that appeared to be caring and displaying concern but MC could not shake off the sense that everything was only a conjured facade. At the edge of her bed, she only waited for any messages to appear. From anyone really. Anticipating a chat room gave her assurance that she was not being forgotten either, but she really would have liked to have the ability to create a chat room herself. Unfortunately, that was a setting that Ray had not set up in her messenger.

Where was Jihyun?

Ever since they met in that control room (at least that was what it appeared to be), he never once appeared, and MC could not help but conclude that this place was far from what Ray explained it to be. Not a single incoming call came from Jihyun, and he rarely entered the chat rooms either. Isolated from the world, MC was left alone to her thoughts that felt more like repeated simulations of the worst possible outcomes.

Something happened to Jihyun. He said he would get me out of here as soon as possible. He said to not be afraid and to keep a level mind but where is he?

Aware that the signal in this whole building was extremely limited, attempting to make a phone call would not hurt anyone, would it? MC’s hope was slowly declining. She was desperate for human contact. For escape. Why did she even let herself be brought to this kind of place?

As though she were a marionette, it felt like someone else was dialing her phone for her. Searching for Jihyun’s number, she barely hesitated to dial it, even though at the back of her mind she was concerned if this would blow his cover as it seemed he was not supposed to be here.

Two buzzes later, Jihyun actually answered his phone—unknowingly actually—but MC did not know what to say. She was so anxious to hear his voice but not in the way that came through to her ears in that moment.

“Haaa….haaa.”

Agony. Torment. That was what she heard.

“Haaa—ugh!”

“Ji-Jihyun?”

MC could only imagine what was happening to Jihyun. All she could picture was him being beaten. Abused. But her palms began to sweat, and a knot formed in her stomach as she heard who was there screaming at Jihyun. That person sounded disturbed and ruined. But all too familiar.

“I… I was thinking of forgiving you, Jihyun, but why do you keep betraying me? WHY?!”

Ray. It was him. It was all an act.

“Saeran—ugh. Stop…ahh—”

It was too much for MC. Because of Jihyun’s agonizing cries for help and for the suffering to end, she was horrified and traumatized. Unconsciously, MC was beginning to shake and tremble out of anxiety upon the realization that she had been so easily trusting of a disturbed man. Ray, or now Saeran, was sick and MC knew that no matter what mask he wore, this was who he truly was. Her heart was racing out of her chest as she believed she would be next and just like Jihyun, that she would be at the mercy of a sick man. However, her body only grew colder as she heard the last of his coughs before Ray commented, “Oh he’s gone quiet again. It’s okay. He’s breathing.”

“Jihyun… no. Stay strong, please!”

MC cried quietly into her phone. He was her only ray of hope to get out of this building. She needed him to be okay. She did not want to be alone there with Ray knowing that this was not the Ray she knew. This was Saeran and he would no longer be known as his masked counterpart.

A trembling mess, MC stopped the phone call before someone found out she was listening, and soon came to realize that she was holding her breath the entire time. A wave of endangerment collapsed on her as she suddenly was analyzing ways to leave this place. It would prove to be difficult as she did not know her way around the halls, much less find a way down to the first floor and it did not help that she came here blindfolded. Rationalizing flew out of her mind as she went to the window maybe thinking there was possibility to flee through it.

The windows were sealed. There were no latches to open them.

The world was spinning around her and it seemed that her feet were no longer on the group. Desperation proved to be her worst enemy as she could not think at all; it was a trance that she had never experienced in her life. But next thing she knew, she found herself in a corner as though it could protect her somehow, wiping her hands against her skirt roughly and repeatedly, making them red, and begin to show signs of friction burns.

The only thing that broke her out of her trance was Saeran who had been surprised to see in the corner, and stopped her from harming her hands. He was completely unaware of why she was like this but it only pained him to see her like this. It reminded him of when he was a child alone in his room, begging for Saeyoung to come back.

“Don’t worry MC. You’re not alone. I’m back.”

But he was oblivious, unknowing that he was the cause of her fear even though she continued to push herself further into the wall, panic setting in.

“Allow me to take you to the garden. Maybe it’ll clear your mind.”

Nothing could ever restore her stability after having listened in to Saeran’s true colors. All that was in her mind was guilt for bringing Jihyun into this situation but it did not matter because the only thing you wanted was to cry out, hoping that he would hear her. However, in Saeran’s presence, those words would remain locked away.

Jihyun, please get me out of here!

×

Jumin was all but focused on taking down decorations from the venue along with the other RFA members as guests complained as they entered, noting that they was not greeting them rather they were apologizing for not notifying them about the last minute cancelation. One by one they entered, and one by one they left the location, disillusioned. The most possible side effect of this was that the RFA lost their credibility with those who MC managed to invite, but that was a discussion for later. However, what was worse was that the party was sure to make the headlines for its same day cancellation.

The members took turns greeting and apologizing but none of them could deny that it was such a shame that they were unable to hold the party. Jumin especially was upset with the sudden change like Jihyun was when he found out. It was supposed to be MC’s first RFA party and well to them all, it was like an initiation for her. Zen, Jaehee, and Yoosung would have gotten the chance to meet her too but they knew MC was busy watching over Jihyun. Jumin actually had not told any of them of what had happened the night before. Like always, he was amazing at compartmentalizing everything and as much as a priority his friend and MC were, the party was the current task at hand. Her situation would be discussed later.

Against his expectations, the members found at sooner about MC when Jumin had snapped at a guest who was particularly rude, catching the attention of everyone in the venue.

“Excuse me but how many times must I say that two of our members are currently hospitalized! It was all of a sudden and we are simply being considerate of our friends who worked hard to put this party together, especially our newest member who managed to stick to her task with grace despite the pressure put on her; not just that, but the pressure of being inexperienced! So I suggest if you have a sense of compassion and sensitivity, please leave peacefully.”

It was so rare of Jumin to actually let his emotions have the best of him but in that moment, he had to. The amount of disrespect in regards to MC and Jihyun was disgusting to him. Feeling slightly warm after becoming so exasperated, he removed his suit jacket, placing it on an empty table, then pulling up his sleeves. Jumin was always aware of maintaining a professional appearance, but since there was no party occurring, it was not all that necessary.

“What do you mean two members are hospitalized? Did something happen to MC?” At the mention that it was not just Jihyun was not in good health, Zen had removed himself from his task and had to ask Jumin. It was definitely something he was not anticipating but it also made sense to him as to why the party would be canceled like so. In other years, some of the members had not been able to make it to previous parties so what had made this any different?

“She fainted last night because she wasn’t looking out for her body yesterday or well even before that. Jihyun called me earlier and said she woke but she’s still really weak and couldn’t stay awake for long,” Jumin sighed as he leaned against a wall. He was hoping to tell them later but by the looks of it, the members would want to see MC rather than finish up here but he could not deny that he wanted to see her equally as much. “It turns out that she’s anemic and she didn’t know about it either.”

“Then what the hell are we doing here? Just send out an email or something to the people who haven’t come here yet. Seven can do that right?” Zen was dead set on seeing MC as he grabbed his things and was about to leave through the door.

“Jihyun and MC shouldn’t have to be alone right now,” Saeyoung also agreed. He knew he should have stayed longer with MC instead of trying to catch the hacker.

×

Jihyun had not been physically this close to another woman in a long time and his heart was racing as this was something he actually missed. Yet it was different from those times that he held Rika so close in his arms in contrast to how he held MC. She seemed so fragile as she laid on her side, snuggled up against Jihyun. Since she fell asleep once again, her hand had never let go of Jihyun’s. It was the opposite that occurred every once in awhile. Sometimes her grip would become tight as though it were a reflex and other times it would be a light and delicate grasp, but it was certainly a sign of improvement. Previously she stayed alarmingly still and unmoving as though she were completely lifeless.

The warmth he felt from MC being in his arms melted his heart over and over while in the back of his mind he was worried that she would end up ruined. It would be all his fault, again, and he absolutely could not let you end up like Rika. Suffocated by him. He convinced himself that this was only for now, this closeness in proximity to MC. Once he saw that she was fine, Jihyun would keep a distance from her.

MC’s stomach suddenly began to growl and as it resonated, she curled into herself as though it would help her cope with the pain of hunger. Again her grip on Jihyun’s hand grew tighter and he realized it was really causing her some agony. He could only think of how long it had been since she ate anything. What if she had barely eaten anything while at Mint Eye? What did Saeran do to her all this time? Jihyun could not bare to imagine what it was like for her in an unknown place.

Listening to the incessant rumbling of her stomach and her involuntary groaning, Jihyun reached for his phone and dialed Jumin’s number. He asked Jumin if he was coming here or not at some point today, and much to his surprise, his friend was already on his way to hospital but still quite a distance away. Jihyun assumed that there must have been many places along the way that sell food, so he asked for a favor and that was for Jumin to buy some seaweed soup for MC. Recalling the terrible food they served him earlier, he would not even consider letting her put that into her stomach. She deserved something much healthier, and delicious after all she had done. And well, soup should be easy on her stomach, considering that it had been empty all this time.

In the meantime while his friend and the rest of the RFA members arrived, all Jihyun could do to soothe her pain was to whisper words of strength and reassurance, wishing for the fragile girl to hear. He was no doctor but he knew that she had to eat whenever she woke up which he was hoping would be soon. But when she started to shiver in his arms, he began to worry for her. As much as he tried to decipher what was happening to her, this was beyond his limit of comprehension. Whether it had to do with her anemia, or something else, Jihyun could not endeavour to find the answer.

If only he knew that MC was fighting off a nightmare in that moment. A nightmare where Saeran had taken over Ray; one where she was left at his disposal to do whatever he would have liked to. It was an undoubtedly disgusting dream. Jihyun would never fathom how deeply scarred she became after that phone call she made to him. A call that he never knew she made and one he did not know he answered.

Fear of what could have happened to her had she stayed any longer in that prison, ran deep into her unconsciousness and no one could possibly know about it except MC up until now.

In the hour it took for the RFA members to arrive, nurses did another check up on MC and Jihyun, and as he had inferred, her health was improving substantially, and that was a sure relief to him. Her shivering had stopped as well in the time being and she was slowly but surely coming back into consciousness. As their friends finally entered the room, Saeyoung and Zen entered making a ruckus before Jaehee hushed the two. However, that was enough to snap MC fully awake as her body gave a sudden jerk. Her breath hitched for a moment and then she coughed slightly. For a few moments she was wheezing while catching her breath but it soon stabled out.

Jumin came in holding a bag of food, just as Jihyun had asked, and he placed it on a nearby table, aware that MC was going to wait a bit before eating. After all, her body still felt numb after not being conscious for about fifteen hours and she would need some adjusting time. After her sudden shock by the Zen and Saeyoung’s inconsiderate commotion, MC found herself still disoriented. Her vision was still coming into focus as she saw a red haired blob come into view.

It was Saeyoung but without his glasses for once. Since the few moments he had been with MC, it was now that he realized how petite her body was, especially compared to Jihyun’s tall frame. But no one in the room could deny that she appeared so fragile and delicate as though anyone’s touch other than Jihyun’s could break her. Softly, Saeyoung placed his hand on MC’s shoulder, feeling a tinge of pity for her given the situation she had gone through. Honestly, he only wanted to make it up to her and cheer her up after so many days of exhausting occurrences.

“MC, I’m so sorry for everything. Just get better soon,” Saeyoung said, his voice much more quiet than when he came into the room.

MC’s vision finally began to clear as she was able to make out Saeyoung’s face, but he was not the person she saw.

Soon, her heart raced and her eyes went wide because the person she saw was Saeran instead.


To be continued…

Pt. 1 // Pt. 2 // Pt. 3 // Pt.4 // Pt.5 // Pt. 6

The photographer saw this wildebeest calf shortly after it was born in the Kgalagadi Transfrontier Park, South Africa. Little did he know that he would witness its death later that same day; the small herd of wildebeest walked right past a pride of lions and the calf was caught by a lioness and then taken by this male lion. By  Johan Kloppers