What happens when you fail your first year at Uni?

The short answer: Nothing really. The long answer: A whole lot happens. Its like mourning the death of something you love. Entering university you get this idea that you are going to pursue something that you are so passionate about. And how can you really fail at something you are passionate about? Something that you love, and something that you spend 3 years of high school fighting to get, and something that had always been your dream. 

Now entering medical school I really thought that this was going to be easy, I know that is ridiculous to think, however, as said, something that I loved so much seemed to me as being something really easy to overcome. However it wasn’t. 

I could already from the start sense that this was not going to be as I had imagined. It was a lot more difficult. And it really was a big, big difference from high school. And so failing, was not an enjoyable thing that happened to me. Especially when everyone around you passed. 

So ofcourse the feeling of disappointment started to occur, the feeling of being dumb came alive and the thought that maybe I was not cut out for university started to be a daily question. Yet, I did what I could. I started studying again, this time aware of the mistakes that I did before. Mistakes like, not really focusing correctly, and just being in love with the thought of being in university. Mistakes like skipping chapters because “whatever I will come back to it” - which never happened. 

Now was there any benefit to failing then? Yes, there were many! Here are a few of them: 

  1. Learning more. I know it sounds like such a cliche “I failed, but now I know so much more” but you truly do. Getting to read the material once again, however focusing on your weakness and using your strength to build that up is actually really helpful and it makes you understand the topics so much more. 
  2. You discover your ideal study methods. I did study ALOT before the exam which I failed, however I believe that being new to university I still had not uncovered my ideal study method. Yes I did do well in high school with the study methods that I used, however studying at university and high school is not the same. And that is a very challenging fact to face, but going through the whole process of figuring out how you learn the best way possible is a very long process however it will sculp you and prepare you for the rest of your time at university. 
  3. Prepare yourself for everything. Failing from the beginning already gives you the idea that everything is possible. As someone who had straight A’s like the common medical student, you often find yourself thinking that failure is not possible. So when it becomes a reality, it helps you get prepared for most of the struggles that you will face for the rest of your life. Failure is a very natural part of being a human, and this actually helps you get that. 
  4. Discipline. Last but not least you learn how to set up a schedule and be more focused. It might be the push you needed. It was for me. 

Now last but not least, dont beat yourself down over failure. You will get past it, and you will come out stronger than ever. 

Belive in yourself, and never give up, 



我最喜欢的中文词 my fav chinese words

I’ve come across some great words/idioms recently and i just really want to conglomerate them into a single list and i figured i might as well share my favs with all you guys (warning: some of these are absolutely ridiculous words but i love them)


嗡嗡 wēng wēng buzz, drone, or hum (it’s the sound a bee makes 🐝)

父权制 fùquánzhì patriarchy

小屁孩 xiǎo pì hoi brat, wimpy kid

学霸 xué bà top student (almost every chinese person i know has called me this, mainly because i’ve told them i hate math but i’m good at it and i love to read) 

啪嚓 pā chā this doesn’t have a real definition, but i once saw it in a comic as the sound an umbrella makes when it opens and i love it?

装屄 zhuāng bī to be a pretentious prick (i saw this on some chinese meme and i still don’t fully understand the context of it but i love it just because there’s a word for this)


成千上万 chéng qiān shàng wàn lit. by the thousands and tens of thousands; untold numbers (this was in the little prince)

雾里看花 wù lǐ kàn huā lit. to look at flowers in the fog; blurred vision

鳄鱼眼泪 èyú yǎnlèi lit. crocodile tears 🐊; hypocritical words of sympathy 

过了这村没这店guò le zhè cūn méi zhè diàn past this village, you won’t find this shop; this is your last chance

一命呜呼 yīmìngwūhū to die; to breathe one’s last (this was also in the little prince)

小心翼翼 xiǎoxīnyìyì cautious and solemn; very carefully

哭笑不得 kūxiàobùdé lit. not to know whether to laugh or cry; between laughter and tears; both funny and extremely embarrassing 

大器晚成 dàqìwǎnchéng lit. it takes a long time to make a big pot; great talent matures slowly; Rome wasn’t built in a day

wow let’s talk about kakuzu and hidan

-kakuzu likes money. he likes it very much. hes practically obsessed with it and it’s quite interesting to see because here’s the thing

-kakuzu is fucking immortal he’s 91 (a ridiculous age for a shinobi) and everyone talks about how immortality takes a toll on you/kills everyone you love etc.

-which might not apply to kakuzu that much because kakuzu is a stone cold killer but consider

-he might not have always been that way? like its very tropey to insist that a character was once good but i feel like this is important for kakuzu. i don’t think he was every friendly - his basic personality seems to be slightly withdrawn w/a temper but its quite plausible that he could have once been loyal

-i mean he was sent on an extremely dangerous mission to kill Hashirama, the god of the shinobi, which he took on for the good of his village. thats some loyalty right there

-the problem occurs when he is humiliated after he barely survives the encounter at which point his famous anger problems begin to manifest themselves through wholesale slaughter

-but u aren’t gonna feel angry and betrayed by someone to that massive fucking extent unless you trust/rely on them to at least some level. i mean notice that he kills the elders of his village, not people he knew in the village who might have been looking down on him so this is definitely a Village Issue

-so just saying: kakuzu has been massively betrayed by something which he trusted, he basically has nobody he’s attached to at all, also has lived a really fucking long time, long enough to see a lot of shit change. he possibly even lived through the transition from roving clans to villages. he accepts transience as a fact of life

-but people do naturally crave stability and i think that might be a big part of why kakuzu is really fuckin attached to his money. money doesn’t fuckin change or betray you and shit

-SO enter hidan

-kakuzu tries to kill him, probably a few times, because he gets irritated. i mean he stopped trying to control his temper since he left takigakure because why have self control when ur an s-class missing nin BUT

-im personally convinced that kakuzu gets attached rather quickly to people he spends time fighting with - shinobi partners, for example

-i mean, not a problem when you stab everyone to death before you get to know them

-but lets have hidan. kakuzu can’t fuckin make him go away no matter what he does

-AND the important part here is that hidan isn’t going to leave, isn’t going to die, has a reasonably predictable personality

-which makes hidan a stable factor in kakuzu’s life which, as i mentioned, he kind of gets attached to see: how much he loves money

-and this also makes kakuzu a stable factor for hidan, who, let’s face it, probably doesn’t have family or any kind of shit

-also hidan, like kakuzu, feels betrayed by his village and left in a torrent of bloodshed and anger

-also probably doesn’t have many constants in his life, besides religion/jashin

-and jashin is pretty obviously the most important thing, and that’s possibly because jashin doesn’t really do the betrayal thing - religion is a constant in life

-also jashin more or less takes care of hidan, at least making sure he doesn’t die

-which is to some extent also the same thing kakuzu does - i mean its hard to pick up but kakuzu is always there to put hidan back together/pick up his hitai-ate

-so they probably both rely on each other as unchanging variables in life, especially if they spend an extended amount of time together, finally begin to realize that the other isn’t gonna fuckin go anywhere

-also they probably like each other more than they let on

tl;dr: zombi combi forever

I woke up this morning and for the briefest of moments I forgot.
I forgot how afraid i was for myself and many of my loved ones
I forgot how ashamed i was at my country
I forgot how much pain I felt
And then it all came back
But here i go to school like nothing happened
Like im not about to cry
Like im not terrified for all of our tomorrows

Ive seen people say it wont be bad get over it.
But you dont understand. If you voted for him I won’t ridicule you, its your right. But here i, and many many people, have been reduced to fears for our safety and prosperity over the results of who is now going to rule us for 4 years. Fears not only that I have to live with that disgusting man in one of the highest offices of the free world, but that im surrounded by the people who put him there. And that is not okay.


“I just hope me and my Chauncey are as happy as you and your Jonas were.”


How to tell your friends that you’re injury-proof - a guide by Emiel Regis Rohellec Terzieff-Godefroy

this has been said 1000 times before but it’s worth repeating; leverage could have easily been dark and gritty and angry (and, of course, there are great things about that particular genre of tv) but there is something about making leverage something happy and light and a little ridiculous that is so refreshing. it feels good to watch it. you come out the other end of the episode with a weight off your shoulders. it’s not too complicated and it’s not too dark. sure, there are some fun references to actual sophisticated cons and every character has at least a somewhat traumatic past, but those don’t dominate the show. the best part of the show is watching these five broken people become a happy family. it’s ultimately about bad people with good hearts who love each other and that’s what makes it so good.

anonymous asked:

all these articles trying to make eleanor relevant and i'm here watching an 1hr playlist of the jho mv and smiling so much that my cheeks are hurting because larry is so real and going so strong. it just comes in waves ya know? like one minute you're totally normal and the next you just remember how real larry is and then melt into a puddle of happiness. ughh it hurts so good.

its so ridiculous how they push the ‘she’s good!!’ ‘she is a saint’ ‘LIKE HER! I COMMAND YOU!’ ‘YOU HAVE TO LOVE HER’ ‘YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW HER! LOOK AT HER! SHE’S SO PERFECT! SHE SHOULD BE YOUR GOAL!’ ‘SHE IS A FASHION BLOGGER!’ ‘SHE’S AMAZING!’ and the only effect they get is the contrary, just like it happened with Jam*s Art*ur and the rest of the leeches they tried to attach to Louis. I live for this, the more they try the more they fail and the bigger the love for the only one who deserves it, grows. I bet they are livid they are not getting anything but hate and disgust for her and love and support for Louis, like general public cares about her even less than us. It’s amazing. Keep streaming the song and viewing the video. 

You know what makes me sad? People don’t taking in notice Annabeth’s feeling for Percy, her feelings for his are as strong as his, but we don’t talk enough about it. It’s mostly how Percy loves Annabeth but there are a few times people talk about how much Annabeth loves Percy. And she does, she loves him so much, she is crazy about him. 

People usually focus on what will happen and how crazy Percy would go if Annabeth was the one missing, but guys, Annabeth counted every single minute she couldn’t find Percy. Percy is everything she wanted, he is her something permanent, she has know since the beginning and she knew about his feelings for him and she also knew he would probably die. 

Yes, she had a crush on Luke, but that crush was not even near to what she feels for Percy. He’s her family, he is her home. She started having a crush on him since the summer they met, that’s even longer since Percy started having a crush on her

Annabeth’s feelings for Percy as just as strong as Percy’s feelings for her and they shouldn’t be overlooked.

fanu-chan  asked:

Hi! Today i read your whole comic (beautiful btw, its 6:36 in the morning and i dont regret it) and i love your art style, specialy in the comic, how you can see little by little the smal bits of changes through start to finish, but then i came to look at your tumblr and im like umm? UMHHH?! LIKE OMG WHY DO YOU HAVE SO LITTLE NOTES bc seriusly all of this its really great i love how you balance all the characters so they all have time onscreen :) hope everything's fine to you you right now~☆

Awww thank You so much for the sweet message!!! 8′)  Idk it means a lot to me to hear people actually enjoy what I make here haha

Tbh I often feel like I’m juggling 6 pick up trucks trying to balance this comic out, especially the current chapter because 4 years ago I started it with soooo many subplots it’s a bit ridiculous, but it’s almost over, and all the future chapters are planned to be a lil shorter and more focused so hopefully things will keep getting better!

anonymous asked:

I recently watched the cutscenes for Uncharted 4 and.. I have a huge thing for Rafe and I don't know where this came from or why. All I know is that I just can't with myself right now and I like him alot and I can't stop thinking about it, it's ruining me

Nonnie, I feel this so deeply LMFAO Before I was able to play the game, I was really interested in it and started watching someone play it, but they didn’t update their gameplay fast enough for me so then I just started watching the cutscenes for it  somewhere else and let me tell you A Thing…. how quickly and how hard I fell for Rafe is both astonishing and almost embarrassing bc my loRD did I fall Quick and Hard it was ridiculous. But it’s ok. We are not alone LOL

6 movies I could watch anytime

Got tagged by: @abbygkane

1. Pride and Prejudice. Y’all can say what you want but I am such a sucker for this movie its ridiculous. Maybe its the era, or Keira Knightley and Matthew Macfadyen, idek. I just love it, it’s become almost my comfort movie.

2. Mad Max: Fury Road. I was surprised by how much I loved this movie. It deserved every award it won. 

3. The Lion King. My childhood favorite Disney movie. Nothing has changed. I still cry and I still sing along. My heart belongs to this movie.

4. The Avengers. Clintasha was real and Clintasha was good.

5. Stick It. My girl Missy Peregrym!!! 10/10 babe. I love her. I love this movie.

6. Love Actually. My tentative answer because really, you can put any good romantic comedy/drama in there and I probably could watch it anytime. It’s definitely my go to genre if I need a relaxing night. *Other answers include: Confessions Of A Shopaholic, Miss Congeniality, Legally Blonde, What A Girl Wants, Princess Diaries etc etc.

Not sure who to tag but go for it if you want!

Calum is acting so chill about this album but then you hear invisible and jet black heart and fly away and you just know it means more to him than what he’s letting on and it’s him sharing something with us musically instead of verbally