I know I’m really late to the party on this, but I didn’t want to do this at school, because I had a sneaking suspicion that I would cry (which I did), and that’s probably not a good thing to do at a high school with all of those judgmental teenagers.
I feel like I can relate to at least a little of what you said in your videos. I obviously can’t relate to everything, as I’m no YouTuber, but maybe just a little bit of it is relatable.
For example, when you were talking about that feeling that keeps you going, the feeling of seeing everything that people can do, I felt like I knew what you were talking about. I don’t reflect on it on the same scale as you, but I love seeing things that people can create. I don’t even care what it is or what the message is. I just love seeing people’s creations. That’s what’s giving me the drive to pursue art and animation. I watch animated movies like Zootopia and The Little Prince, and I fall in love all over again with the wonder that those animators brought to my screen. Even if it’s not animation or art, I just love people’s creations. It’s almost that same feeling that you feel, just on a little smaller scale.
Now, I told you that I cried when I watched your videos. I could sum this up to be I’m just an emotional little baby, but, if it’s alright, I’d like to delve into it a little. It’s late at night, so why not, right?
I cried when you said that “You are the most important thing that’s ever happened in my life, whether you know it or not.” You have no idea how much that means to me. I know you doubt that people mean that you have really helped them or even saved their life, but please don’t doubt that you’ve saved my life. You’ve kept me from doing God knows what, and you’ve kept me alive, even though some days the doubt that you feel is flipped over to my side and I doubt that you even care about me, even though you say you do. When you said that the community was the most important thing to happen to you, it felt like you were talking to just me, and it made me feel like you really did care.
I cried even harder when you told us that we saved you. With a community almost seventeen million people strong, there are so many people to talk to. And every single person has their issues. I have my issues, my friends have their issues, someone that I’ve never met that doesn’t even watch your videos has their own issues too. But I don’t think that a lot of us take the time to think about what you’ve been through, that there’s even a possibility that you could ever have or have had issues, be small or large. When you said that we saved you, it really hit home for me. Because I want to return your kindness. I want to show you the love and guidance that you have given me, and now I think that I have, just a little bit.
And after that it was just a cry fest until I watched Part Two.
But when I watched Part Two, there were no tears.
I just had the biggest, dumbest smile on my face. And it wouldn’t go away.
You want to know why?
It’s because you couldn’t stop talking about how grateful you are for everything, and it wasn’t a crying bumbling Mark this time, but a happy bouncing Mark who was so excited to see the response from the first video. It was an absolute joy to see you that happy, because that means to me that YouTube is a two-way street. You help us in our times of need, and when you feel like you’re lost and broken, we help you get back up and on your way.
Mark, you’re headed places. Where? That doesn’t matter. That doesn’t matter because you’re going to go wherever the fuck you want to go, because you put your heart and soul into everything you do, so long as you want to do it. Just look at what you (and the team) did for “A Date With Markiplier”! I mean, you all got that done in such a short time. If you can do that in that amount of time, just think of what else you can do! You can do anything!
And I’ll be rooting for you the whole time, and helping wherever I can.
I know that this got really long, and that I got really ramble-y, but hey, monkey see monkey do, right?
All in all, Mark, I just want you to know that you really truly are a great person. You can do anything. And if you want to talk to fans more, then do it! Make a little time for it each day. If you want to explore new mediums such as films and television, then go for it! Take a chance and say yes to one of those offers.
Shoot for the moon, because even if you don’t make it, you’ll land among the stars.
Thank you Mark. For everything, past, present, and future.
I CA N T ITS SO tERRIFYING TO ME, LIKE EVERY TIME I TRY TO I START PANICKING and livvy has explained my behavior to me before BUT IM STILL SO, WORRIED?? I get so SCAREd, it took forever to be ok talking about my characters but gOD FORBID I RECOGNIZE THEM IN INTIMATE RELATIONSHIPS, it takes me forever just to talk to friends about them on discord i jUST WANT to BE FR E E,,
This episode for me really highlighted and then in its dramatic finale brought to an extreme the use of perspective that Rebecca Sugar has often talked about during panels. In her rare appearances, we are almost always looking up at Rose Quartz, or she is leaning down and over our POV - be it Pearl kneeling before her hologram in Rose’s Scabbard
or Greg on a number of occasions during the early days of their relationship (We Need To Talk is a really interesting watch with regards to camera angles and how they change - Greg literally climbs a stack of crates during his attempt at communication and, well, seeing eye to eye)
or Garnet after her fateful fall in The Answer
or, hey, Buddy Buddwick collapsed in the desert in Buddy’s Book
She even has magical floating powers.
It all fits, of course, with the entire running theme of the (unattainable/unmaintainable) pedestal. And even when she is not directly present, and even when it’s not the focus of the shot, her portrait can be seen overlooking the familiar setting of the beach house.
So there’s been a lot of hype about today’s episode and Yuri and Viktor’s relationship and as such there have been a billion posts analyzing different scenes and what they meant development-wise. Specifically, there have been a lot of posts talking about the scene in which Yuri cries at Viktor. While that was an incredibly important scene, people seem to be neglecting the scene right after it, Yuri’s freeskate.
In my opinion this scene is one of the most important scenes to Vikuuri’s progress, because it’s where their relationship finally gets to its first goal. That goal is Viktor and Yuri being on equal ground.
From the beginning it was clear that there was a wall between them in the form of Viktor being put on such a high pedestal by Yuri, making him effectively unreachable. People this far apart from each other can never have a close relationship, so in all the previous episodes, the main emotional progress made was a way to knock Viktor down from his pedestal while raising Yuri up so that one day, they could finally meet eye to eye as equals as only then could their relationship bloom.
In the scene of Yuri’s freeskate, you can hear Yuri’s inner thoughts during it. (I could actually make a whole other post about his own singular character development in this scene but I’ll just stick the Vikuuri development for now.)
”Viktor’s expression when I started to cry was priceless.”
Yuri thinks about how clueless Viktor was when he was crying. This thought is sort of playful, showing that Yuri is fine now, and is thinking back on the scene beforehand. After this comes what is in my opinion, the most important line in the scene:
“Viktor’s too inexperienced as a coach.”
Yuri criticizes Viktor.
“He should be prepared for this much.”
Yuri seriously criticizes his idol, one of the most renown skaters in the world, and now, his coach. He points out a major flaw of someone he only ever thought of as perfect and untouchable.
And THAT is what finally breaks down the wall between them. THAT is what finally sets them on the same level. Yuri allows himself to see Viktors flaws, to see Viktor helpless, clueless, unsure, doubtful, floundering, all of these things Yuri has only seen in himself so far. Suddenly, when Yuri was crying, he was the one who had to guide Viktor through something, he was the more experienced one, he was the leader of the situation. Through these little thoughts, Yuri allows himself to see Viktor as a human, just like him. And now they’ve reach a codependency, an equivalent exchange as skater and coach and as partners.
This is such an important scene because it’s what allows the following kiss to happen. Yuri and Viktor are on equal ground now, they can finally see each other in the same light as themselves, and their relationship is going to prosper now because of it.
Victor and Yuuri are the kind of couple who’d plan to propose to each other on the exact same day and Yuuri pulls Victor to the side with a “Victor, there’s something I wanna ask you–” as he’s taking out the little velvet box and Victor just goes “oh no”. And Yuuri gets all insecure because does he not want to, is this rejection, is it too soon? And he gets all small and toys with the box in his hands, stumbling over his words to make it better because imsorryitsokaywedonthavetoifyourenotcomfortable but Victor stops him, grabbing him by the shoulders like “no, no, I mean—"and he takes out a ring from his coat pocket "I was going to slip this into your drink tonight at dinner” and then they both start crying and they’re touching foreheads as they put the rings on each other and I’m dying in the back because I love them