This song came out when I was 15 and I was like oh my gosh this describes my lifeeee.

Now I’m 21 and I’m like dang fifteen-year-old me, you didn’t even know.

               HOLY MACKEREL ITS BEEN A YEAR W T F !!!

yeah… yeah that’s my very first post….. lame af but guys, guys, it’s been a year since i brought kera && myself into the rp community. it’s been one year, one archived blog, && over 1k followers later, that has brought me to this point. && i’ve got to say, i’ve never been happier in my entire life. it’s going to be sappy, yeah, but i’ can’t help it!! i joined the rp community on a single strand of hope that maybe, just maybe, i could find the sign to help me live again && guys, i found it. every single one of you have brought more happiness into my life because, when i started to write with kera, i had been in the lowest time of my life. i was honest to god the saddest, most lifeless person i’d ever been && i would not have survived to see this day if it all of you hadn’t stuck by me. i don’t know what would’ve happened to me if i hadn’t joined the community && thank god i did. i’ve never loved life as much as i do now. every single one of you are to be thanked for that. so, below, are all some very, very precious people to me && if i’ve missed anyone, just know that i love you more than anything. i really, really do. this isn’t in any particular order, but  i’ll stop with all the heartfelt stuff now. ;;

            && SHE’LL ALWAYS GET THE BEST OF ME !!!

vitess / ariolum: mihasha, you just had to get your own section. that’s how important you are to me. i know i’ve said these things in like a million different ways but i’m telling you right now that if you ever, ever think that i wouldn’t drop everything in a second for you then you need to see a doctor or something. you’ve been my best friend, my sister, && my lifeline for an entire year now && i think that’s mind blowing that, somehow, you’ve managed to dig such a deep hole in my heart for yourself. i’m so thankful that you kept me bolted to this stupid muse && i’m so happy that i met such an amazing person like you. even if you make me run into gates && refused to let me pole dance for you. i love you bunches, mihasha.

                                                 a.k.a squad goals.

retiine, bravadoes, femavyx | viirtutem, deusexitiium, raptxrsquad | yuichirons, hiinami, blacksxar | tataraxx, alxbrn, ofpremonitions | xreveried, stellamilitis, kaonashi-guru | rysntry, gunkept, drakorte | ghoulpatch, for5yen, taciitus


fulllmetal, sensualiteit, adxchi | destructiveglitch, eccentriis, veilled | uxversed, falsequerade, wildliing | patereius, straightspike, catharticmutiny | daijitsu, juzoic, catharsiiis | kiraahachi, hotazu, lxhng | ctherworldly, yukionii, pxranoixc | dxnamis, fiiducia, bxkaku | chaosepsilon, sollertis, rapusodosu | naivne, dixxmeliora, praesidi | trxfalgar, halfliight, ghoulardii | brideofsparda, dexterize, manictwink | diickaru, timescent, miiryoku | bingeu, taskhawi, heendures | swansets, rvnin, ofvitrality | sxlenee, hatsuuharu, ryusxnka | huolin, orroi, spraypaintpunk | beachbxm, chthanic, latetdolorx | sangxfroid, awkwardiiisms, industrialskin | akashouri, eunuchum, violencebred | oprimeval, seidenryuu, voiidstuff | habraded, sofutoburu, introversiion | haercditas, aprxcitas, jotunntraitor | shuied, foravelum, taibxtsu | keelerr, fortitudxinxus, phcbias | octens, boyets, lurkiisms

                                            + BLOGROLL !!!

  • Weightless
  • All Time Low
  • Nothing Personal

Manage me, I’m a mess
Turn a page, I’m a book
Half unread

I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with, just because

I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough

But I’m stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And I’m over, getting older

If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I’m over, getting old

Maybe it’s not my weekend
But it’s gonna be my year
And I’m so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I’ve been going crazy I don’t want to waste another minute here

  • Weightless
  • All Time Low
  • Nothing Personal

because it’s gonna be my year

Song of the Day - September 3, 2011

Title: Weightless
Artist: All Time Low
Album: Nothing Personal

“Maybe it’s not my weekend but it’s gonna be my year
And I’m so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction to everything I fear
‘Cause I’ve been going crazy, I don’t wanna waste another minute here
I make believe that I impress
That every word, by design, turns a head
I wanna feel reckless, wanna live it up just because
I wanna feel weightless 'cause that would be enough” 

June Same Prompt Fic Party!

DawThis month really stretched y’all and it ended up AMAZING. I was so happy to see the ideas you came to the table with, and I loved the themes that emerged among the different fic ideas. 

The theme was: 


Remember, if you didn’t submit, ask, or fanmail yours to me, I PROBABLY MISSED IT. Even if I commented on it, I probably forgot to add it to the list when I got home. 

jenngracey was our lone artist this month with Senshi Civil War The idea she had for this is INSPIRED and I hope she picks it up again later because I am so so into it this was like a movie poster for me. 


rosepetalrevolution wrote Rise of the Spring Tide Parts one and two, a Crystal Tokyo based Civil War fic with some lovely questions about absolute power and allegiances in the midst of fire. 

current-breeze wrote An Unexpected Assault with so much to love here, Sassy Michiru, angry, hasty MInako, a painful twist of friendship and fate, glorious reason for celebration, and loads of jaunty quips. 

dawnlight6 wrote Mausoleum of Paradise, based off the Vampir myus, but given a lot more careful thought in the tender moments. It’s short but manages to pack in so much emotional resonance in those few words. 

lesbianneptune wrote Sunrise, Sunset which has the audacity to reference one of my favorite musicals and then break my heart. The gift of this one is in the little moments you barely think you’ll notice until they get you write in the chest. 

I wrote A Simple Game part one, two, and three

sittingoverheredreaming wrote This is How a Kingdom Falls part one and two I WISH I COULD SPOIL PART OF THIS FOR YOU BUT I CAN’T but rest assured there’s a part where Mako speaks and I audibly gasped because I didn’t see it coming ahahah. 

badgertrout wrote I’m Trembling Before my Mission I gotta tell you, I hate writing titles and this title has been stuck in my head for literal weeks, it’s that good. The sadness of war and the effect of the cumulative losses on the girls is really beautifully represented here. 


howmanyheartaches did a video An Eye for an Eye  in her classic MIchiru cosplay. It’s short so there’s little I can say without spoiling it, but I LOVE this idea. 

There we are! SO much stuff, and all so great! Remember, the best way to support each other is with commentary! For those of you who are doing multi-part fics and have to finish them up (I am in that category), i suggest having some kind of tag so folks can find it. 


The Indominus Rex’s enclosure was oddly silent when Lydia entered the glass viewing room. Too quiet. The hairs on her arms rose in alarm, a shiver racing down her spine. Derek’s presence just behind her was warm, solid, and steady—but she definitely didn’t find that a comfort.

“So you’ve never seen this thing before?”

“I have seen it before,” she shot back. “When it was in the lab, but I didn’t work on it. Dr. Wu was the only one with clearance.”

Derek rounded her side, approaching the glass. He had changed, into a v-neck and hunting vest, strapped a knife into a holster at the small of his back, and loaded up a gun into her car. Lydia had almost snapped we’re not charging into battle but had reminded herself that she was a professional.

He planted his hands on his hips, eyes glued to the enclosure. She couldn’t help but picture a predator, taking careful stock of its surroundings, ferretting out threats. Ridiculous. Even if Derek Hale acted more animal than human most days—who wears jeans to a job interview?

“What were your observations when it was in the lab?”

“It wasn’t in there very long,” Lydia said. “It was designed to grow exponentially. Within a week of hatching it was moved into this paddock.”

“You mean it’s been in here its whole life? By itself?”

“It had a sister… but…”


“She ate it.” She hadn’t been the one to find the remains, but she’d seen the bloody aftermath, the dinosaur shrieking the next room.

Derek’s head swiveled around and pinned Lydia in place. Only through sheer willpower did she not squirm under his narrowed gaze. “It ate its sister. Most dinosaurs are pack animals—if it ate a pack-mate and now… living by itself, with no outside interaction other than a feeding crane…”

“I’m not the one who needs the report, Mr. Hale,” Lydia snapped. “Write all this down and email it to Mr. Masrani.”

She spun on her heel, hating that he always made her feel like her skin was too tight over her bones. Men were easy for Lydia—she managed them deftly, even if she hadn’t had a decent boyfriend in five years—and she hated that Derek Hale would not be managed. As one of the head scientists under Dr. Wu she should outrank him. He never acted like she did.

“Turn on the thermal scan,” she said to the security guard munching on a sandwich. “Where the hell is it?”

She’d never been to this enclosure before, but she’d heard from Allison that the dinosaur was very interested in what went on beyond its large living space. The first month it had been moved here, she’d learned quickly where her food would be coming from and had tried to bite off a handler’s arm.

There was a spider-web fissure in the glass just in front of Lydia from where the dinosaur had rammed its head.

Dangerous, she had thought and could admit, at least privately, she had never supported genetically designed dinosaurs.

“This—this is…” the security guard stared in wide-eyed horror at his monitors. “It’s not possible—thermal reading’s not picking anything up?”

“That’s not possible!” Lydia snapped. “Is the machine defective?”

“Have those claw marks always been there?” Derek asked quietly from the corner.

a wip