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I’ve been thinking about professor!magnus and soldier!alec since yesterday and idk if I want to commit myself to writing something like that when I know nothing about the army but I feel like there could be something very heartbreaking about it. 

Like maybe Alec is about to be deployed and it’s his what… 2nd? 3rd? tour and he’s happy to be unattached, despite what his siblings always say, because he knows how hard it is to be separated from the ones he loves but also to be left behind and he doesn’t want to do that to someone. So he doesn’t date and he doesn’t have a lot of close friends apart from his family and it’s ok, hes doing something important, serving his country and following his family’s footsteps (ofc they’d be a big military family) but then he meets Magnus … Idk where, somewhere random like a bookstore or grocery store or the outdoor market Izzy dragged him to and sparks  f l y. And Alec is confused/overwhelmed and reluctant despite Magnus flirting 110% with him. Maybe they exchange numbers maybe not, maybe they randomly meet again and Magnus is like uh funny twist of fate *flirty grin* and Alec is just…. abort mission holy shit help ???Because even though he’s had flings and hooks up, he’s never had a crush or somebody that made him go w o w  like this and it’s new? But he kinda wants to break his rule and say yes when the hot college professor asks him out and that’s new and kinda scary but he blurts out yes before he can fully think about it or change his mind. Of course, he has a nervous breakdown afterward and Izzy is like pls find your chill but he can’t find his chill cause he’s going away to get shot at in less than 3 months and the timing couldn’t more off and that’s not fair to Magnus to get him involved like that… Because, of course, Alec is the type of person to worry too much before anything even happens. Anyway, so they go on a date maybe a walk at dusk and some ice cream?? Idk why but I’m imagining this is set in a small coastal town? They can walk near the water while talking about everything and nothing?? I’m seeing a make out session on top of a lighthouse? Anyway, when Alec tells Magnus what he does and where he’s going he’s all sorry about that I should have told you straight away when you asked me out but Magnus is all its ok lets just see where this goes, it doesn’t have to be serious since you’re leaving so soon and they agree to have a fling… but feelings happen and it’s inconvenient!!!

I like imagining Alec walking Magnus to his classes when he’s stayed over the night before (Magnus teaches history in this, I feel it). And maybe on mornings he wasn’t at Magnus’ he does a little detour on his morning run to buy him breakfast and he leaves it in his office during the 8am lecture that Magnus hates so that he’ll have something nice after that hardship, a little muffin and a coffee with a cute note on the cup ‘cause Alec is sappy af even though he tries very hard to hide it. And maybe he buys Magnus peonies at some point, just because they’re pretty and Magnus is pretty and he’s never bought flowers for anyone before and he wanted to… And Magnus keeps teasing him flowers are not casual Mister!! because it’s easier to flirt and tease than to acknowledge the fact that Alec is leaving really soon and he might not come back, and Magnus isn’t even important enough to be considered someone he’s leaving behind (or at least that’s how he feels). Magnus tries not to think about it but he’s obsessing over the idea that he doesn’t even know Alec’s family and friends, doesn’t know anyone who would tell him if something happened??? But he doesn’t want to bring it up because it’s supposed to be casual and meaningless, something that ends when the semester ends. So they keep going on dates and Alec cooks for him and Magnus tries to ignore the uneasy feeling growing in his chest as time flies too fast. Until there aren’t any time left and Alec is leaving. So they take a walk just like their first date and they have ice cream and they make love and they definitely don’t talk about it even though they both know that they should and Alec just… leaves. 

And Magnus tries not to have a hard time about it but it’s tough and he’s grateful it’s the end of the semester ‘cause at least he’s busy between marking terrible essays and correcting exams. He goes out with his friends from the history department once they’re all done and he tries to have a fun time, but truth is… he’s worried. He starts watching the news a little too obsessively and his friends don’t like it but he can’t help himself. 

Alec has been gone three weeks when the first letter comes. It takes Magnus by surprise at first because in all the times they’ve been together Alec has always been a man of little words. That’s not to say he was emotionally unavailable or unwilling to discuss things and his feelings, but this is new, the way the words flow easily on the page like it was no hardship at all to put it all down, descriptions of his unit and where he is, a full paragraph about how much he misses Magnus’ cat and nothing about them at all. But Magnus gets it, he sees it for what it is, a peace offering maybe or a stubborn unwillingness to let go, so he writes back. He talks about his students, their successes and their struggles, and his friends, little things that have reminded him of Alec since he’s been gone. Soft stories for a soft boy in a hard place. And they keep going back and forth, sending each other little pieces of their respective lives and it should be enough, it’s more than Magnus expected, but it’s tough and he misses Alec like a limb, misses him in his bed and in his kitchen, misses him when summer classes start and he has no one to hold his hand on his way to work, no callused fingers to wrap around his… But every new letter is a blessing. It says many things but underneath it all, the most important message is I’m still here, I’m alive and I’m thinking about you. 

Okay so maybe it all comes to a halt one day when his phone rings and it’s Alec on the line, after all those weeks, all those months, and he sounds like h e l l  and he’s there on the phone, apologizing to Magnus because his phone bill is gonna be awful but I …. I just… I needed to hear your voice Magnus, I’m sorry. You… you c-can send me the bill if you want, I just… and it takes everything Magnus has for him not to break down and cry right there and then because Alec really doesn’t sound okay and he has no idea what happened and he has no idea what they are but that’s his boy there on the phone who’s hurting and he hasn’t heard his voice in weeks… So Magnus is like Please shut up about my phone bill, I don’t give a fuck about that. How are you? Are you okay? What happened? And Alec is reluctant to talk about it, doesn’t want to give any details, just keeps saying rough day, Magnus, rough day in this small voice and Magnus hates it more than he’s ever hated anything in his life. He doesn’t want to push Alec too hard so he just asks what can I do? and he hates the way his voice shakes, he wishes he could be stronger than this but Alec doesn’t seem to mind, he just sighs like he’s tired deep in his bones, deep in his soul, and says: just talk to me. So Magnus does, he rambles on nervously about what he had for breakfast and what he taught today, his lecture plan for tomorrow, his neighbor’s hatred for his cat and his favorite designer on the new season of Project Runway. He just babbles on, hoping it can help. All he wants to do is help. Alec hums here and there, asks a few questions, especially about Magnus’ work and at some point he runs out of things to say. There’s a beat of silence before he whispers I love you and he knows that won’t help but he can’t keep it inside anymore, he can’t live with this trapped inside of him, fighting to break free. Alec sighs again. I.. I w-wish… You… you shouldn’t say that. Don’t say that, please. It shouldn’t take Magnus by surprise but it does and it hurts. Me not saying it won’t make it untrue Alexander. Alec groans in frustration and Magnus can picture it perfectly, the way he’s probably bent over, head between his knees, one hand harshly buried in his hair. I didn’t want to put you through that. I didn’t want to put anyone through that but especially not you. He’s so noble and he’s so caring and Magnus knew that already but it hits him again, hard, that this is a man who puts others before himself every single time and who will fight tooth and nail anyone who dares try taking care of him. So Magnus does his best to sound as stern as he can:  Well just too bad because I’m here and you’re there and I love you. And you wishing it hadn’t happened won’t change anything and if you like me even the tiniest bit you’ll call me again because I have been worried sick. 

Alec calls every week after that. There’s a new kind of anxiety that comes with waiting for the phone call, waiting for the confirmation that Alec is okay, but Magnus is happy to live with it when it means he can hear Alec’s voice once a week, warm and soft when he asks Magnus what he’s been up to and insists to be put on the phone with the cat. I don’t want him to forget me! 

That boy. 

They don’t talk about what they are again and it takes until Alec is back on American soil, his head buried in Magnus’ neck so no one can see him cry, for him to say I love you back, but it doesn’t matter. He doesn’t need it. For now, Magnus cherishes every time his phone rings and he gets connected to Alec, he cherishes every time he can make him laugh, he cherishes every single plan they start making, every single hint that they can have a future together. 

It’s enough. 

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An important PSA

Bi girls are valid!!!!
Bi guys are valid!!!!
Bi nb folks are valid!!!!
Bi demi-boys are valid!!!!
Bi demi-girls are valid!!!!
Bi agender folks are valid!!!!
Bi bigender folks are valid!!!!
Bi third gender folks are valid!!!!
Bi folks unsure of their gender are valid!!!!
Bi folks are valid!!!!!!!!!!!

People really hate asexuals. I don’t care how many words you hide it behind, so many of y'all hate them. And the worst thing is you all think its ok and justified. In ten years you’ll either be the groups that the main community warns against or you’ll hide your past behavior in goddamn shame. Its embarrassing and sad and the culture fucking disturbing. You are bullies and despicable people.

Hey dogblr its me HuskyHuddle,

Its probs time we had a chat, an important one.

I know you all love your dogs. Whether you cuddle them and take them on walks or cuddle them and take them to agility trials, whether they are reactive or confident, whether they’d like to eat ur neighbors cat or kiss it.

We as a group have a wonderful opportunity for education, through just talking about the things we do and posting pics or actively posting informational posts, training logs, and how-to’s. We can be a wonderful motivation for those who are improving, a resource for those who are learning, and a support for those who are struggling.

But.. friends… followers… bloggers… we have a big problem. While we have a great deal of influence, we are using it in the wrong way. We pick the wrong situations to freak out over (training methods, dog food, adopting or breeders etc) and ignore the significant issues, ones that threaten the welfare of the animals we say we care so much about. Its dangerous and hypocritical to do this. We allow dangerous and irresponsible behaviors to not only go ignored, but be largely supported. When something showing lack of good judgment happens, I see a flood of posts in support, offers to donate money, anons saying everyone who has said something opposing the situation is judgmental and a hater. 

My dudes. You do not have REAL friends if your friends can not say to you, YOU FUCKED UP. Friends are not unconditionally supportive of all the things you do no matter what. If no one around you can be honest with you, there’s a problem. You aren’t perfect and if you can’t handle hearing about it, there’s another issue.

I am asking you, esp blogs with many followers, with lots of influence, to really think about some of the things you are supporting, the donate links you reblog, the neglect and irresponsibility YOU are enabling by being unconditionally supportive. 

And its not something I have seen once or twice. Its something I see a lot. Its something that has the potential to do great harm to this community and the wider pet ownership world. 

Call it what it is. If it doesn’t make u the nice blog who cares, because when the situation gets shittier, because it will, you did the right thing in the first place. What are you saying to literally every dog owner when you scream about not feeding beneful but support people who put their dogs in shitty af situations and then don’t take responsibility for it? 

At the very least don’t reblog in support, don’t donate to negligent owners, don’t cover vet costs, don’t reblog their gofundme links, don’t publicly pat them on the back and say “its ok we all make mistakes :)”. Because its not a mistake, it is a CHOICE, its one pet owners make daily, to either care for their animals or not. I’m not saying people can’t change, but what is the incentive to if everyone condones their shitty actions?

You reward shitty behavior, thats all ur gonna see. A concept we apply with our dogs, so lets apply it to people as well. 

u get what u reward. Reward something worth repeating.

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GIME ME THE OT3 (you know which one lol). Some domestic headcanons? like, being adults and living together, those are cute af

  • Chandler is the official maid of the house, because Tegan and Violet never clean. Violet bought him a maid costume too and Tegan/Violet couldn’t stop cracking up. Chandler wore it just to spite them.
  • Whenever Tegan’s laptop runs out of battery, he steals Violet’s computer. She threatens to break up with him every time. They never do.
  • Chandler teaches Violet and Tegan some ballet. Tegan cannot. Violet can, and Chandler grins when he catches her practicing.
  • Whenever Violet is having a hard time with her depression, the boys drag her into watching a movie with them and cuddling. pure.
  • Because Violet never sleeps, she wakes the other two up when Tegan finally crashes, and Chandler…sleeps like a normal person. She likes to tickle them awake, or kiss them and bring them breakfast. It’s sickeningly cute, and Violet knows it. She can’t help it though.
  • There’s a “Savage” jar that literally….is just full of Violet’s pocket change. The boys think it’s genius, and Violet thinks its stupid. However, Violet wins bets and dares and sellling information for cash so much that she has more money than the boys anyways.
  • WHEN VIOLET IS PISSED SHE…SHE JUST. SHE DOESN’T BREAK THINGS. YOU KNOW WHAT SHE DOES. She looks straight into the boy’s eyes, takes their stuff, and goes outside and starts throwing things into the neighbor’s yard. The boys are forced to go embarrass themselves by asking if they can go get their stuff…in their neighbors backyards….get rekt boys…Violet is still a badass
  • Violet still likes stealing clothing. She takes Tegan’s headphones all the time. She wears Chandler’s jackets. The boys are ok with her wearing Chandler’s jackets, all the time. 
  • Chandler’s pda is so….amazing. It embarrasses Tegan so much sometimes, they both do. Violet will smirk and simply take what she can get. Like, Chandler can be bashful about it sometimes, small cute kisses or hand holding. Violet will actually start making out with Chandler in front of Tegan and everyone starts screaming. Chandler isn’t complaining tho.
  • Tegan takes care of all their technology needs. “THE WIFI IS OUT AGAIN FIX IT NERD” “i got it babe”
  • Nicknames! Affectionate Nicknames! Random gifts to each other for no reason but they love each other! Supporting each other! Surprise dates and fluff!
  • When Violet and Tegan are being anti-social, they do it together, in the same room, just enjoying having a human near-by. Chandler is okay with it, but he tries so hard to get them out of the house.

Sorry, I didn’t have much inspiration, don’t hate me! I WANT TO WRITE 20 DOZEN THINGS OF THIS IT’S SHIT BUT IT’S SOME CUTE SHIT LOOK AT THIS FUCKING FLUFF IM GONNA CRY

Anyways, love you, thanks for the ask!