it's unhealthy i know

You know what? Fuck me up.

Give me a Sangwoo that gets so fucking obsessed over Bum that he’s paranoid over Bum being stolen away. Give me a Sangwoo that so forcibly rejects the idea of losing Bum that he gets ultra possessive/protective.

Give me Bum, so happy to finally have Sangwoo’s love, that he will do anything to protect Sangwoo. Give me a Bum that gets jealous over the attention Sangwoo pays his victims that he plays up the terrified captive bit to make the killings sweeter for Sangwoo. Give me a Bum that tricks the cops into believing that someone else hurt him, someone else (uncle, maybe?) broke his legs and tortured him and that Sangwoo saved him/is hiding him from the monster.

As much as I want Bum safe, I need this like burning. Maybe it’s the Hannigram fan in me, but I don’t want them separated… just maybe balance the scales a bit.

  • Me: It's okay to be unsure of your gender/sexuality!!1! It's totally cool to be figuring yourself out!
  • Me @ me: except you bc u need to get ur stuff together and figure out what the heck u are right now immediately
i wish with all my heart

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you can’t breathe. it’s dark and cold and quiet and you can’t breathe, no matter how hard you try to tell yourself to calm down. there’s a lump in your throat and a weight on your chest that doesn’t seem to go away. lying on your side is supposed to work, isn’t it? so why not now?

you curl in on yourself and pull your blankets over your head. your walls have seen too much, heard too much, and know too much about you; you’re embarrassed that you can’t get a grip on yourself even in the privacy of your own room. you choke back a sob and press a clammy palm against your heart. it hurts. it feels like you’re suffocating, like the air is purposely out to strangle you, and you tumble to the floor in an attempt to kick off your sheets.

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And suddenly it all makes sense

  • brain: visit your ex fp's blog.
  • me: why? they hurt me and seeing their stuff will only make me upset and possibly trigger me.
  • brain: no i promise it'll be different this time.
  • me: *checks ex fp's blog*
  • me: *gets triggered*
  • brain: LMAO FUCKING IDIOT I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU FELL FOR IT AGAIN!!

I wish I’d taken a screencap of the post you made and then deleted after I messaged you that just said “Lmfaooo” and was tagged #not #op.

I was going to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume you are still as good a person as I remember you being, but apparently you aren’t. I don’t know what reason you have to be stalking my blog but since you are most pointedly not answering my message, the only conclusion I’m seeing here is that you are being malicious.

Were you hoping to find that I’m not doing well or something? If that’s the case then I’m sorry to let you down, but I’m doing great. This has been my best semester in school so far, I’m about to land my dream job, I have amazing friends, and I have an incredible girlfriend.

I’m really disappointed in you, Sara. I genuinely thought you were better than this.

rey completely and utterly destroys kylo. she kicks him to the ground and brands his face with her lightsaber. her presence is pure rage and fire and passion and she shakes him down to the depths of his soul. she upsets his plans, ruins his game, storms his mind and uncovers his greatest fear and exposes what he really is to himself. her contempt and scorn for him are palpable, burned into his soul forever with her searing passion and the last shot of him in the entire movie is him trying to lift himself up to get a better look at the woman who just destroyed him. this kid, this idiottttttttttttt, this utter moron, who keeps trying to be something he isn’t, who keeps fighting against the light as hard as he possible can gets WRECKED by a pretty little scavenger girl who was supposed to be his prisoner, who came out of nowhere and flattened him, shattering his entire world with her fire and passion and rage. and I’m not supposed to want him, this kid, this MORON, this idiot, this deluded wanna-be darth Vader, this melodramatic baby, this clumsy and inadequate macaroon to fall heart-crushingly in love with her????

she broke his entire world, smashed it to smithereens and left him in its ruins. it just makes sense she’d do the same to his heart. 

anonymous asked:

To me the Lust arc is very big IH scene. Althought, Hollow saved and turned Ichigo into monster, we can deny that his desire to save her and his will to fighting for her gave his inner hollow the opportunity to take over completely. So that's why this arc is called "The Lust Arc". His desire made him commit sin. That's what I think, so can you tell me your opinion in the lust arc. Thank for reading! Btw, I love your posts about Bleach, you truly understand it more than anyone I've met.

Thank you very much it really makes me happy to hear that ! 

For the Lust arc there is 2  theories out there . With one being much more probable than the other . 

Either ichigo , hearing Orihime’s cries , turned into a monster to protect her . 

Either the hollow inside Ichigo was anyway programmed to save Ichigo in case he got hurt real bad and his awakening coincided with Orihime’s cries . 

I think the second theory is the one in the real because of this : 

And this works just as good for Ichihime than the first theory actually  . This post words it perfectly but to sum it up in a few words : 

The hollow woke up , saved ichigo and defeated Ulquiorra . Only instinct was at play here because ichigo’s hollow is pure instinct . 

But the goal of the hollow was to protect ichigo , only ichigo . He did not care about Ishida or Orihime ( zangetsu/ hollow mixed said to ichigo “ the things you want to protect and what I want to protect are different things” before ichigo turned into Mugetsu . Meaning Ichigo wants to protect those he cares for but his powers want to protect only ichigo ) . 

So how come ichigo says this while he turns into a hollow ? 

We know the hollow doesn’t care at all about Orihime . So the person thinking this is Ichigo himself and not his hollow . Meaning that while he was dead the only part of humanity remaining in him was his desire to protect Orihime . Fucks me up every time 

Maybe , as you said his desire to protect Orihime helped to trigger his transformation into a hollow but I don’t think that’s it . I think his desire to protect Orihime is what helped to trigger his transformation into a dead boy . 

And that brings me to the most important idea which you brought up in your message. His desire to protect Orihime as a sin . 

The thing is that Ichigo and Orihime are both people with very good intentions and their very good intentions turned their reality into a nightmare during the lust arc . 

Like when he went into Hueco Mundo Ichigo’s only motivation was his desire to protect Orihime . He affronted Dordonni and Ulquiorra and grimmjow and then Ulquiorra again because he wanted to bring Orihime back home  . 

Wanting to protect someone you love is a good thing right ? 

And Orihime , since she met Ichigo her faith in him was unwavering . She would always be there to support him , she would watch him from afar even if it’s killing her not being able to help ( see : Orihime having to physically restrain herself to stay back during ichigo’s fight with Byakuya ) because she believes in him . 

////A lot of people have twisted this faith in him into a bad thing but it isn’t presented by the narrative as such . And it’s making me so angry to see that when the doctor says about Rose “Well, I’ve seen a lot of this universe. I’ve seen fake gods and bad gods and demi-gods and would-be gods. I’ve had the whole pantheon. But if I believe in one thing… just one thing… I believe in her!” It’s seen as so romantic and amazing but when Orihime expresses the exact same feelings through her actions then this is bad for her and her love for ichigo is toxic ( I’ve always been baffled by this fandom tendency to infantilize Orihime ) . ////

So just before the lust arc you have ichigo motivated by his desire to protect Orihime and Orihime believing in Ichigo with all her being . 

They’re both good people with good intentions and good motivations . Then why did it turn so bad ? Why is the Lust arc so tragic ? 

To me it was Kubo’s way to show to Orihime and Ichigo that they were  humans and not characters . 

It feels funny to write that but that’s exactly what happened . In Shonen usually the good intentions of the protagonist is often enough to give them unlimited amount of powers and a guarantee to beat their opponent . 

Not in Bleach . When Ulquiorra invoked his second resurrection we knew ichigo was fucked . We knew that no matter how strong he had gotten he wouldn’t be able to beat Ulquiorra . But he was the hero so surely something would happen to help him beat Ulquiorra . He is the hero he cannot die trying to save his friend . 

And yet he dies . I think that is something that is not often reflected upon . Ichigo was dead . It was over . He wasn’t strong enough . 

He went to such terrible length to protect Orihime that he died . His good , pure desire to protect Orihime got him dead . 

And same for Orihime . 

Her feelings which were pure and true pushed her to cry for the help of a dead boy . ( I’ll fucking fight you if you try to see this in a negative light . Orihime’s depression which premises we are shown in the Vizards arc just went worse and worse during the Hueco Mundo and in the lust arc she just snapped . She was no longer herself when she called for him . She never believed in herself , always thought she was useless and completely disregarded her own life but she believed in Ichigo  . He was her pillar and now he is dead on the ground . She doesn’t know what to do , she sees Ishida’s arm being tore off from his body , she is desperately trying to heal ichigo but she can’t do it so she just turns for ichigo , for his guidance for his help . She doesn’t do it consciously she just snaps and is not herself anymore when she calls for his help ) . God this scene is so powerful , the lust arc is really the peak of Bleach . 

So here it is . Two kids who have the best motivations are confronted with realities . 

They are both 16 here , very young and this moment is what will turn them into adults ( I am convinced that without the lust arc the whole arc about ichigo giving up his powers to defeat aizen would have gone differently ) . 

They are both selfless and both have the flaw to completley disregard themselves and ALWAYS , ALWAYS put other’s people needs and wishes before their own . 

During the lust arc they went to terrible lengths to protect the other . Lengths nobody should ever go . And while doing so they completely disregarded their own lives  . 

Ichigo died for Orihime and Orihime constantly throughout all the Hueco Mundo arc showed a total disregard to her own life and well being . She let herself be beaten by Loly and Menoly ( because she was sure she deserved it because her friends got hurt getting in Hueco Mundo trying to save her ) , she let herself be strangled by Grimmjow because she did not want to heal ichigo to have him be even more hurt by grimmjow 

And during the lust arc she is healing ichigo and protecting ishida with her shield while herself remains completely unprotected ( she already did that during the fight against Nnoitorra shielding Yachiru and healing nell while she remained in the open completely unprotected ) . 

The lust arc is what made them grow up . What made them understand that good intentions often aren’t enough in the real world and no matter how much they want to protect the other , how much they believe in the other sometimes they just won’t be strong enough . 

To Orihime the growth triggered by the lust arc is clear as day . 

Here we have everything . Orihime understands that Ichigo is human and no matter how much she believes in him he will sometimes fail . She also understands that , in order for him to get up she would have to be strong . She does not think she is useless and weak anymore , she does not think her own life is worthless . 

She grew up . She understood that both her and Ichigo were human . She got out of the vicious circle of self loathing . All of that because she saw him died . 

As for ichigo I think the Lust arc , along with learning the truth about his mother and making peace with his powers is what made him understand he had to rely on his friends during battle . He cannot shoulder it all alone . Sometimes he’ll need the help of his friends in order to win . His desire to protect them is strong , he cares for them very much and wish to be able to shoulder the burden on his own . But he cannot . He realizes he needed his friends help in order to win and that is why this : 

( along with him trusting Ishida and then Ganju and Chad to affront their opponents alone ) is one of ichigo’s biggest character development . We all know how over protective he is with Orihime ( certainly because he is in love with her ) but having him bring her voluntarily into the battlefield  is completely at odds with the dynamic they had before where he asked orihime to stay behind while he protected her ( see all the vizards and Hueco mundo arc ) . Here he understand that his desire to protect her should not cloud his judgment and that he would need her shielding / healing abilities against an opponent as strong as Ywach especially because he needed someone to protect him while he awoke his hybrid powers . This , coupled with the realization that Orihime trained so hard to be able to fight alongside him that he discovered during the fullbring arc is what brought up this character development . 


So in summary the lust arc is a story of two selfless kids with such good intentions and such love for the other that pushed them to go to terrible lengths for the other . Lengths no one should ever go to and living this nightmare is in part what shaped them into the wonderful adults they became . 

So sorry this answer is not exactly answering to your ask I talked more about the consequences of the lust arc and its implications than of the lust arc itself . The point you made was good and from a narrative standpoint the transformation of ichigo into full hollow seems to be triggered at least in part by Orihime’s cries so I think you’re right there isn’t nothing there but even if indeed it had nothing to do with orihime the lust arc is still one of the greatest ichihime moment and the one with the heaviest implication of Ichigo–> Orihime which had been later proved by canon . Their relationship was actually unbalanced before the lust arc ( Orihime relying too much on ichigo and Ichigo being too over protective of Orihime ) but this had been changed by the lust arc . It allows them to become more mature , including in the way they act upon the feelings they have for each other . It allows their relationship to evolve to become one of the most healthy in the history of shonen mangas. 

i’m not here to ship healthy fictional relationships, i’m here to watch oedipus gouge his own eyes out

Funny how everything is fine and dandy and you’re doing totally okay and then your brain just

casually reminds you that there’s a high chance no one actually likes you.

whewwww ok i finally worked out some issues i had w a really popular artist who had left his old cope art up publicly, he apologized and will take it down soon, tht makes me feel so much better

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#the writers really could not have been more CLEAR#as to what kind of man emma deserves and will end up with#killian is everything neal never was and of course never will be##so as an emma fan i am forever grateful she has killian#he’s so good for her and TO her#everything she needs#and deserves in her life

anonymous asked:

NO SKY IT IS NOT FINE I HAVE NOT SLEPT IN FOUR DAYS. F O U R D A Y S. THAT IS A LOT. THERE IS NO BLOOD IN MY VEINS. ONLY CAFFEINE. AND I KNOW ITS FUCKN UNHEALTHY I KNOW I HAVE TO SLEEP BUT I HATE SLEEPING. I JUST READ SMUT. IM SORRY FOR WRITING IN ALL CAPS BUT IM REALLY FUCKED UP.

well then sleep, eat, stay healthy, AND read smut

anonymous asked:

your opinion on macsawyer? personally I think its a bit unhealthy but idk about u

y’all know i love the Gay Ships and I kinda like movie verse macsawyer, but in the musical??? Mac intentionally sets Veronica up for date rape, yes you could argue she’s saving her own hide but if she could easily get in her car and lock the door to escape the boys like she does during Blue why didn’t she do that instead of sacrificing Veronica, and why didn’t she let Veronica get in the car as well? And then she made fun of her about the situation the next day. 
Yes she got sad and Veronica comforted her but that scene kind of only makes sense in the movie cause Mac doesn’t literally stab Veronica in the back. Veronica comforting Mac is because she learns to have empathy for others even if they haven’t earned it from her, not because she’s in love with the girl who put her in danger and didn’t even care.

Mac and Veronica weren’t even that close when Chandler was alive? It seemed like it was Mac + Chandler and Duke + Veronica as far as pairs within the clique. Mac and Veronica barely talked one on one.