I love you. And I told you to tell me the dark things on your mind, I wanted to know. I wanted you to know that you could trust me with them. I wanted you to trust them with me. I wanted to hold you and make you feel safe.
but you were right, it’s a lot, its too much, too dark. I don’t know what to do. You have so much pain in you and I dont know what to say or how to deal with it and its starting to hurt me too. I thought I could handle it but I can’t. I’m crying myself to sleep because of it. but I dont know how to tell you that because that would make you feel so bad and guilty and you don’t deserve anymore guilt. you don’t deserve any guilt at all.
you’re the best person I’ve ever met, how do I get you to see that? What am I supposed to say? I feel like such a bad person.
I can’t keep feeling like this. I’m so sorry, I thought I could hold your darkness.