it's too early in the day for these emotions

Mars in the 4th House - Sleep tight, battle scarlet 

People born with Mars in the 4th house have an excitable inner world. There is much inner chaos, infusing with dream, naivety, aggression, and confusion. The individual may contemplate the feeling she was abandoned on this earth, alone and unprepared. Day to day life can feel like surviving with Mars in the 4th. The individual may be reactive, emotionally charged, and dysregulated. There may be quiet and withdrawn behaviour in the workplace or around friends, but once the individual is at home amongst family the fireworks begin. Home is an energizing place. The individual may finish work and return home to re-arrange the whole house, tend to the garden, and fanatically complete domestic tasks. She may consciously or unconsciously generate conflict in the household to test the boundaries and the capacity of their love. Living much internally, the individual may hesitate and participate through imagination rather than experience. There may also be trouble with nightmares, that of being chased or violent events.

Although the individual takes pride in self sufficiency, there is a profound sensitivity present with Mars in the 4th. The emotional activity can be extremely difficult to neutralize and manage. Confrontation can be especially hurtful, not only for the things that were said to the individual, but for the guilt of said things in a moment of rage. And the individual can experience these fits of rage that can be so powerful there can be a dissociation or amnesia. There is a vulnerability with Mars in the 4th. An inner child that is often lost, puzzled about its needs, and somewhat fragmented. There may have been conflict and intimidating aggression by one or both of the parents, or the child may have been forced into independence too early, and this only exaggerated the abandonment complex. The father may have been the emotional nourishment and the sentimental influence. But life can be very exciting with Mars in the 4th. There is an ability to contemplate the daily miracle, to be inspired by new experience, and to feel like every day is fresh and sparkling. This brings a sort of radiance and sunshine to the individual’s expression. She can regenerate people who are depleted. It’s like you can feel the heat of the star she burst from.

There is a solitary nature about Mars in the 4th house. The individual appreciates being in the safety and comfort of home, and tends to provoke her own anxieties about stability and rejection. Desires are intense, and the protective instinct in Mars in the 4th can become supernatural. Swords are raised for those who dare threaten family. The individual may confront significant challenge soaking into her femininity, this part of her may have been forced into silence during childhood. There is a river of scarlet intuition flowing here. Messages from the spirit may be cataclysmic, sudden, and perceptive. Inside, the individual is being guided to what she really wants, the pure necessity beneath the emotional chaos, fear, and memories. The personality and breadth of consciousness is built from the substance of experience. Voyages through the inner and outer world generate spellbinding enchantment, a lullaby for the child inside. The destruction of the world and the softness is so apparent with Mars in the 4th, and she crosses between combat and hypnosis, fighting for a palace she hasn’t built yet. 

-C.

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anonymous asked:

you're a huge inspiration to me and i hope one day i can meet you in person and im sorry its 4am and im emotional. keep up the good work. im glad you exist.

That’s so kind, I hope to meet you too!
Don’t worry, I get emotional early in the morning too, I cried over this movie trailer about a dog.

DAY 3121

Jalsa, Mumbai               Oct 15/16,  2016                Sat/Sun  2:53 am








In a day of mourning and prayer meetings for two friends, there is the unrealistic award ceremony for glamour and a Timeless Icon recipient for me ! Unrealistic because the irony of life is too demanding for mere mortals such as us. A prayer meeting in the early hours of the morning for a dear dear friend, one that epitomised the essence of friendship, and happiness and immense glamour and style .. and another the relative of a dear costar .. both in remembrance and dedicated presence of warmth for the one that has passed away .. and then at night, the same night, to be honoured for glamour .. seemed odd, especially at this age .. the switch that dictates our lives .. form one emotion to another .. from one feeling to another .. is not just remarkable in its events in a day .. but one that justifies that superior power which we address as different deities !

Those that go through the pain of loss ;  those that celebrate the accolade of presence .. are fortunate to be at both circumstances, but not entirely involved.

The pain of loss cannot possibly be compared to the gain in recognition the same day .. but it happens and it happened .. God in his graciousness has given us the leeway to the path of glory and in reincarnation a better living or finally diminish us to that which we never ever want in our circumstance ..


I must be to bed now .. with a mixed feeling of despair in one and wondered awe of the recognition in another .. 

Praise be to them that can contend amicably thus .. all do not .. I am one ..


Amitabh Bachchan

The signs waiting for summer vacation
  • Aries: Counts down when the end of school is more than 3 months away
  • Taurus: Waits until the month school ends and then talks about it in every single conversation they have
  • Gemini: Forgets when the last day of school is
  • Cancer: Gets over emotional about not seeing everyone for a while once school is done
  • Leo: Can't wait for the last week when all they do in class is nothing
  • Virgo: Just wants school to be over as soon as it started
  • Libra: Organizing plans early to do during summer with their friends
  • Scorpio: Thinks the year went by too quick
  • Sagittarius: Doesn't realize its so close until they look at their calendar
  • Capricorn: Thinks the year went by so ssslllooowww
  • Aquarius: Can't wait to stop having to wake up at 6 o'clock in the morning
  • Pisces: Excited about not dealing with gossip for a while