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(Technically it’s the 15th since it’s 1:38am)

So there’s one bit near the end of the Genocide Run that hit me pretty hard, personally. And as with most things that hit me very hard emotionally, it was a random almost throwaway line that wasn’t written to be focused on that much. But whether it intentionally held the meaning I took from it or not, it doesn’t change the fact that I DID take meaning from it.

When Flowey is monologuing near the very very end of the game and explaining what he went through, he talks about how he lacks the ability to feel anything for the people around him, and how desperately, frantically, he wishes he did. He talks about how, at first, he tried to help people. He talks about how at first it seemed to help, but every time it was time to let go, to move on, he got scared and couldn’t do it. He’d panic and reset instead. And how then he’d be right back where he started. And he would try helping everyone again.

But it became hollow. Everyone always said the exact same things, and did the exact same things. And nothing changed. And nothing new ever happened.

And eventually, just out of sheer desperation for SOMETHING new, he decided to kill everyone. And how that was at first a relief, but even that grew stale and empty as he did it over and over again. Until he was left with nothing, and there was nothing to care about, either for better or worse, but he couldn’t let go either. So he was trapped in this world where nothing ever changed, and he couldn’t make himself leave.

It’s a sad story, but it’s also a bit of a gut punch because of its implications.

Maybe in time, the person playing the game, the actual human being behind the keyboard, not the pixel character they control, would find themselves in the exact same situation. Eventually, things in a game stop changing. Characters always say the same things, do the same things. And maybe in time, as boredom takes over, the player would also try a genocide game just for SOMETHING new. But eventually even that will become empty and lead to nowhere after you do it enough.

I can’t really say if that’s true or not. I can’t say it’s false either.

But It’s 2 years now. And a lot of us are still here. And more importantly a lot of us still care. Quite deeply in fact.

And maybe we won’t care forever, maybe the same thing will happen, or more likely, we’d be the ones able to let go and move on to other things and let go. Maybe there’s no escaping that.

But it’s been 2 years, and at least for now, we’re still here.

There is also the possibility I’ve considered, that since the insane success of the game was never expected or anticipated at all, that the level of love it caused in gamers was a complete and utter surprise, maybe their ability to never fall into that cycle of apathy and just how long they can keep going, caring as hard as ever, will also be a complete surprise that was never foreseen.

Or even more simply, maybe Flowey just needed to be shown, as with so many things, he was wrong about that too.

Who knows. Honestly I can’t say how things will look in time. It could either way.


But at least by year 2 we were still here.

Because it’s the start of December and I reached 150 follower yesterday ( thank you all so much !! It’s completely unedited though so please don’t kill me.

Happy Holiday time

Here’s some Dele Alli/Eric Dier something



“What the hell are you wearing?” Eric asks, eyes narrowing in disgust.

He’s not sure if he’s actually seeing it right. He never needed glasses before. His eyes were always fine but now he isn’t so sure anymore.

“Is that a christmas sweater?”

It’s hideous and green, with a brown reindeer printed on the front. There’s some red glitter too somewhere on the fabric, looking like santa threw up on it. Maybe he did. Eric wouldn’t be surprised.

“It’s Gucci.” Dele retorts standing up from the couch where he was curled up like a cat, phone in hand. He’s wearing grey sweatpants and some fluffy socks looking so utterly comfortable, that Eric feels mildly overdressed.

“It’s ugly”. Eric says because they both know he’s right. There are no such things as pretty Christmas sweaters. Even Eric knows that with his limited experience in the fashion world. It’s a fact.

“Did you just come over to insult my sweater,” Dele asks, “or did you want anything else. Why are you here?”

Eric blinks for a moment confused to remember why he turned up in Dele’s house in the first place.

“You called me.” he says irritated, not able to look away from Dele’s chest. The reindeer is staring at Eric like he’s some fucking carrot that just wants to be eaten. It’s unsettling and Eric wants Dele to take it off.

“Yeah I did.” Dele says, crossing his arms in front of his chest. “I actually wanted to do something with you but then you insulted my sweater. I’m not sure I’m still in the mood.”

“In the mood for what?”

“For baking.” Dele says and Eric thinks he must have misheard.

“For baking.” He repeats and Dele nods. “You’re a disaster in the kitchen.” Eric says because he’s seen the pancake video on Dele’s  instagram. Eric has seen a lot of things he tries to forget. The memories of his cooking adventures are  burned  into his brain just as much as the poor fish was burned into Dele’s pan. Unfortunately he can’t throw away his brain.

“That’s why I invited you. To help me.”

It makes sense, Eric guesses. He isn’t a great cook by any means but he knows how to turn on the oven.

“What did you even want to bake?” He asks, because he’s curious now.

“Christmas cookies.” It’s not the answer Eric wanted to hear but should have expected. He was greeted in a christmas sweater after all.

“Who are you and what happened to the real Dele. Who replaced him with Santa Claus.”

“I didn’t know you had such an aversion against christmas.” Dele says, fingers rubbing on his chin thoughtfully.

“I’m not having an aversion against christmas.” Eric says furrowing his eyebrows. He doesn’t hate christmas. It’s just not his favorite time of the year.

“You insulted my sweater, you made fun of me wanting to bake christmas cookies. I really feel the love here.”

Love.

Maybe that was the problem. Christmas was about love and family. Eric loves spending time with his family, he likes the trees and the lights.

He just doesn’t like everything surrounding the holidays. The pressure, the attention around it, the focussing on love. Not when everything seemed so fabricated. He wasn’t a fan of it.

He sighs resigned before looking at his friend.  

“Fine let’s make some cookies.” He tries to smile bright, teeth showing. It doesn’t seem to come of convincing because Dele just rolls his eyes as an answer.

“Great.” He says, lightly touching Eric’s arm, while walking past him into the direction of the kitchen. Eric hates how such a little touch makes his heart beat just a tiny bit faster.

“Are you coming or what?” Dele yells from somewhere far and Eric breaks out of his thoughts. He sighs before following Dele into the kitchen. 

Let the baking begin.

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Apparently a trailer got leaked and Magnus and Alec argue? I realize people want to see them happy all the time, but relationships aren’t always happy. There are always ups and downs, but communicating and working through the bumps in the road is what makes a relationship real.

The situation being what it is, with Downworlders and Shadowhunters alike dying and the supposed Downworlder registry, we knew going into 2B that there was the potential for a lot of angst especially since these two are in leadership positions. If you expected everything to immediately and constantly be rainbows and sunshine after 2x10, you were kidding yourself because that would absolutely not be realistic.

Malec has the foundation of love, communication, and working through their problems. They might not handle each difficult situation perfectly at first - because, newsflash, they’re (part) human and not perfect - but they get there eventually. 2A showed their relationship more from Alec’s perspective and he was allowed to show frustration, yell, and walk away when he needed to. They’ve said that 2B is more focused on Magnus’ side. Can we give him the same room to grow that Alec got in 2A, particularly because we don’t even know what’s going on yet?

You’ve seen a portion of one scene among (potentially) multiple scenes in an episode in a set of ten episodes. You have no idea the context or reasoning behind what is happening. You absolutely do not know enough to make any judgements. I know jumping down the throats of the writers, directors, and producers has become a famous past time, but let me spell it out for you: WE. DON’T. KNOW. ANYTHING. YET.

If they handle something poorly and it comes across as problematic - like in 2x07 - then you can react. But not before the episode, with all of the information that it provides, even airs! Please take a breath and calm down until then.

“Self-care is drinking two pots of coffee combined with four cups of espresso chai tea at 9 PM and getting into a knife fight with your own thoughts.”

We will get to see wonwoo on stage again and performing very nice for the first time in less than 17 hrs. im sweating.

anonymous asked:

ur route would be probably like 700 hourglasses or so and why are u awake at this hour go back to sleep here its just 5:40 pm ur too early on tumblr i give u a giant teddy bear if u go to sleep

707 hourglasses to unlock Four, confirmed *dabs*

But shhh its okay i was asleep, things posted due to my Handy Dandy Queue™ ^^