it's our future

Imagine living in a city where there are no monuments, no buildings from before 1970, no proof that you had grandparents or parents, no history at all. Wouldn’t that make you feel like you were just a passing fad, that you could be blown away like leaves?… for any community to feel substantial and able to change without losing themselves, a history is absolutely crucial.
—  Emma Donoghue, talking about LGBT history and LGBT historical fiction

some ear scratches with lil sonny and pete for @smoltinypumpkinchild

So in case y’all are wondering what’s happening in the UK right now;

A few months ago, our Prime Minister (who’s officially going down as The Worst in Modern History,) called for a Snap Election. Now, I want to stress that this bint made a public statement when she took office saying she would not call a Snap Election, but then, it’s pretty obvious she’s very shit at keeping promises.

A hop, skip, and a jump later, and we had last night. Basically, a shit tonne of under 30′s registered to vote and they all voted Labour. Labour is the Conservative anti-christ, lead by a man named Jeremy Corbyn. Corbyn is our Bernie Sanders; he isn’t from a rich family, (heck, he was born round the corner to where I live,) he isn’t owned by any massive newspapers or companies, and to be quite honest, he’s pretty down-to-earth. He’s the under-30′s wizard, basically. He’s our Gandalf.

In the election last night, the conservatives lost 12 seats in parliament, and Labour gained 29. It was a fucking disaster for the Tory majority. (Jargon; Tory and Conservatives are the same people, same party. Tory is just quicker to say aloud.) They no longer have over half the seats in parliament, so they no longer have a majority. This is bomb for the public, because it means that they have strong opposition for the shit they’ve been wanting to do, such as privatising our free healthcare and cutting police numbers to save money, (you all saw the attacks in London, right? Those attacks would have been impossible to enact if the Tories hadn’t slashed the MET by 15,000.)

So it sounded really fucking good at that point. The Labour government could form a minority government if it joined with the SNP, (Scottish National Party,) the Green Party, and the Liberal Democrats. Even with this Justice League together, they wouldn’t hold the majority in parliament, but it would be so much better than them all going their own way.

Until the Prime Minister announced she’d form a coalition government with the DUP.

The DUP, aka the Democratic Unionist Party, are a party based in Northern Ireland who are unbearably like the US Republican party. They’re pretty easy to pin down;

- Anti-LGBTQ+ rights,
- Anti-Women’s rights,
- Pro-capital punishment,
- Littered with scandals regarding the abuse of public funds,
- Pro-Life, (not just by policy, I mean women who get abortions in NI serve jail time,)
- Climate Change deniers.

Without making it too personal, we basically went from a Conservative government, to a Conservative government seasoned with the above. We literally went from bad to worse, despite over 70% of under 30′s signing up to vote for Labour because we had enough.

You can expect to see a load of riots and protests in the UK over the next couple of weeks, I can assure you. But basically, the UK just became a really shitty place to live if you’re a woman, gay, or poor. Especially poor. 

So I got this idea for a one shot earlier today and I decided to write it. I had to get the idea out of my head. Thanks to everyone who helped me with it and gave a second opinion. <3  

vi trenger ikke verden, for meg og deg e verden

20.10.2017

”You got a 4 on your last exam because you were busy looking after me. I don’t understand how you can sit here and tell me that I’m not a burden when that’s all I am. You say that you don’t hate me but you will.”

Isak makes his way up to Even’s bunk bed when the words slip out from his boyfriend’s mouth. He rolls his eyes and takes a deep breath, realizing that they aren’t going to spend their time cuddling but instead having a deep conversation.

”I’m not looking after you. I’m taking care of you and it’s not a burden!” he says, re-using words from a previous conversation on the same topic.

”But you got a 4 because you didn’t have the time to study because you were taking care of me.”

Isak sighs and makes sure to control his voice for what he has to say next. He hates himself for having to say it.

”Ja Even, I got a 4 on my exam because I was taking care of you and not studying.”

He feels Even’s body tense next to him. He notices the way Even’s eyes get watery and he hates himself for having to be this blunt, but he honestly has no idea how else to say it. Isak reaches out to wipe away the first tears that have fallen but Even pushes back, not letting himself to be touched.

Isak swallows hard and watches as Even refuses to keep eye contact with him.

”But Even, me getting a 4 and not studying isn’t your fault. I chose to take care of you, not because you’re burden but because I love you. It was my decision to make and it was my fault for getting behind on my studies.”

Even still isn’t looking at him but Isak can see his expression change to confusion. So Isak decides to keep pouring his heart out. In hopes that Even will understand what he’s trying to say. That Even will finally understand that he’s helped make Isak be the best version of himself; a version that Isak is proud of being.

”Even, let me tell you something and I want you to listen carefully because I’m exhausted of having to repeat myself. I was falling behind on schoolwork because I decided to skip school and be there for you. But you want to know what happened next? I realized that what I was doing wasn’t good for me. I realized that I had to take care of myself too. And you know what I did then? I called your parents and I asked for help. I realized that I couldn’t do this alone and that I wasn’t alone, and that you and I have people in our lives that are willing to help out. So I called your parents and I asked for help and that’s something that I wouldn’t have done a year ago. I did this because I know now that no matter how much I love you, I also need to put myself first. And I know, I know that this isn’t something that would have happened in one of those movies you love so much. But this is real life and I think that I deserve some credit for how I handled things. Because yes, I got a 4 but I also decided to do better and I’m sure that I’ll get a 6 on the next exam and the ones after that.

You keep telling me how I’ll end up hating you and how you keep hurting me but it’s such bullshit. I could never hate you Even, and I hope that you could never hate me either. As for you hurting me, the only time you hurt me is when we keep having conversations like this one. Because I have no idea what more I can do to show you how much I love you and how much I want to be with you. I don’t know what I need to do make you see that. The only time you hurt me is when you have so little trust and faith in me; in us.“

He doesn’t realize that he’s crying until he feels Even’s touch. He doesn’t realize that he’s shaking until Even’s arms are around him as he pulls him closer and leaves soft kisses against Isak’s cheek. He lets himself be loved by Even, every breath leaving such relief; relief and hope that maybe Even has finally understood.

When they part, Even looks at him and he’s smiling and it’s making Isak’s heart melt. ”Hi.” The words coming from Even’s lips are soft and it’s almost like they’ve met for the first time; like it’s the first time they are seeing each other.

”Hi,” he says back, returning the smile.

”Do you have any idea of how proud I am of you? How much I love you? Thank you for calling my parents. You were wrong about one thing though.”

”I was?”

”This is better than anything that would ever happen in one my favorite movies.”

27.12.2017

”I don’t need you to baby me. I’m fine.”

”I’m not trying to baby you, although I do love calling you that, but how is falling asleep during class fine?”

”I didn’t fall asleep, Sana is being overdramatic. I just dozed off for a little while because the class was boring.”

There’s something in Even’s eyes, in the way that he’s looking at him, that makes Isak know that Even isn’t buying anything of what he’s telling him. They’ve been having the same conversation for hours now and they’ve been going in circles, never finding a common ground. Mostly because Even isn’t giving in and just letting it go, and because Isak is doing the same.

”Why are you lying to me? Since when have we become the kind of couple who lies to each other?”

”Even, please just let it go. It’s not a big deal.”

”You don’t think that I’ve noticed that you’ve been having trouble sleeping? We sleep in the same bed. I feel you move and toss and turn. But I haven’t said anything because I’ve been waiting for you to tell me about it, but you never did. I’m not asking you to talk to me about it if you don’t want to, but you have to talk to someone about it. You haven’t been sleeping since your mom-” Isak stops Even before he can say more.

”I don’t need to talk about it. I just need…school has just been a lot, okay? And the stuff with my mom, and I just. Please Even, let this go. I can’t do this right now, so if you love me you’ll let it go.”

Isak isn’t sure when Even managed to get his arms around him but they are hugging now. Even’s fingers are making soothing circles on his back, and it’s a silent promise that he’s letting it go. It’s a silent promise that he’s there and that he’s going to wait until Isak is ready to talk about everything. Isak knows that there’s a lot to say but he doesn’t want to start because he feels that if he starts then he won’t be able to stop and it would just make things worse.

He doesn’t want to admit that maybe he needs someone to talk to. He doesn’t want to say the words out loud, that maybe he’s not doing okay. That his mom’s latest episode broke something in him. That all he sees when he closes his eyes is her face and all he can hear are her words. Her words that are slowly eating him up inside. Even doesn’t know about them because he hasn’t told him, because Even wasn’t there when it happened. Isak knows that Even knows that something happened but he can’t know what.

”You know what we should do?” Even asks, taking Isak’s hand in his and guiding him to their bed. Isak only shakes his head and follows Even’s lead. ”I think that we should play a game; Isak and Even minute by minute. Sound chill?”

Even’s words bring out a smile of Isak. God, he’s so lucky to be loved by Even. Being with Even is the easiest thing in the world. So he answers: ”Sounds chill. What are we going to do in this minute?”

”In this minute we are going to kiss.”

And that’s what they do. They play this game until Even decides that in the next minute they’ll go on a date, which makes Isak raise his eyebrow and mouth ’a date?’ Even just nods with the biggest smile. ”Ja, a nap date. We’ll close our eyes for a minute and just relax or talk if we want to, and then we’ll open our eyes.”

Isak has no idea how Even thinks that this is going to work but after repeating the nap date for 5 minutes Isak finds himself fast asleep in Even’s arms. His head resting on Even’s chest and falling asleep to the sound of Even’s heartbeats. He still sees his mom’s face and he still hears her words, but the words are mixed with another voice, another voice that somehow replaced the voice of his mom. There’s another voice in the background now; another voice in his dreams, and the voice is like a melody to him. The voice is singing:

”Vi trenger ikke verden, for meg og deg e verden. Vi trenger ikke verden, for meg og deg e verden.”  

Isak thinks that maybe he was crying in his sleep but the voice never stopped singing to him.

14.01.2018

”I think that maybe I should go and see someone…someone to talk to.”

It’s on a rainy Sunday evening when Isak brings it up. They’re both sporting afterglows after spending all day in bed, only leaving it to go to the bathroom or getting something to eat. He wasn’t planning on bringing the subject up but it left his mouth before his brain got time to overthink it.

”Okay. Are you sure about this?”

”Yeah or no. Or I don’t know. I’ve been thinking about it a lot, and I’ve been talking to the school nurse about it - I’ve told you about - and she thinks that it’s better if I talk to someone and it’s not like I can’t talk to you but I just…I think it would be easier to talk to a stranger.”

He’s rambling now and he’s not really sure why he is, or maybe he knows the reason behind it but he doesn’t want to say it out loud. In a perfect scenario he would tell Even everything and it’s not Even’s fault that he can’t get himself to spill it out. It’s Isak not being ready to spill out all his anger to Even. He’s not ready to share the anger he feels about his father and his mom, especially not his mom. Isak knows that Even isn’t his mom and there’s no comparison between them, but he doesn’t want to put Even through him talking about how much his mom is hurting him and how much his mom’s illness is eating him alive. He just can’t.

”Hey, it’s okay. I think it’s great that you want to talk to someone.”

”Yeah?”

”Yes. I know that I complain about it but it’s been helping me because it’s nice to just talk to a stranger about your feelings, you know? Someone who can be objective and you don’t have to sugarcoat things with.”

”So you’re saying that you talk shit about me with your therapist?” He teases. There’s not a single serious tone in his words.

”I talk about you the most but mostly about how amazing you are and how much I love you.”

”Hmm…but it’s okay if you do talk shit about me. If you talk about how I always forget to buy milk and tea. And how I made your favorite white shirt turn pink. Or how I make tea using tap water and how -”

He’s stopped by Even’s lips against his own. The conversations they’ve been having is forgotten for some minutes before they get back to it.

”And it’s okay if you talk shit about me. If you talk about how I suck at doing the laundry and how I always manage to lose my keys. And how I keep forgetting to buy groceries after my shift at KB and sometimes I’m just too lazy to do it.”

”God we are such a mess of a couple, aren’t we?”

”Nah, I don’t think so. You do? I think that we are pretty amazing. You forget about the milk and the tea and I forget about doing the groceries altogether, so we do a round to the supermarket every second Saturday. And I help you sort of the laundry before you do it, and you help look for my keys and we help each other cleaning the apartment.”

”You’re right. We are doing this couple thing better than most couples.”

”We are but it’s not a competition baby.”

”Right but if it was we’d win. We are the masters of being in a relationship.”

Masters of being in a relationship. Oh gosh, I love you so much.”

”Mmm lucky me, and lucky you because I love you too.”

”Lucky me.”

You are not my first, but I hope to fucking god you are my last.
—  every heartbreak I felt led up to you (k.h)
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because i believe
as we go through time
that all of the best things
haven’t happened yet

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Harvey Dent on Gotham Tonight (TDK Special Features)

for @about-faces!

Imagine Woozi constantly kissing your cheeks because he finds them so kissable.

yeah…. Raremons face says it all! (panel 3) Also sums up my general approach to life! XD

yep! this handsome chap is the bad guy of this little drabble! and now poor wizardmons in a bit of trouble. but why is raremon there and what is he after?

And why was wizardmons attack so weak? The answer is actually in the anime;)

Guys…

In case the internet DOES go down, i just want to let you all know that it has been an absolute honor and sheer privilege to have gotten to know and befriend so many of you wonderful, beautiful, and talented people, even though Ive only been on Tumblr for a few months.

All of you have made my time here truly memorable and all of the kindess and support you’ve shown me shall always hold a special place in my mind and in my heart.

Lest we go down with this ship, let us all go down together…

To all my friends here, you don’t know just how much you’ve made smile and feel such profound happiness, love, and comfort each time I log on.

All your words shall forever echo in my mind; all your actions shall never fade away in memory.

The tears of joy, the incessant and unholy shrieking of happiness you’ve all elicited from me, the sobbing and emotional overloads Ive experienced, all those moments I hold dear to me will be kept in a gallery in my consciousness for me to always go back to and remember those times, as well as the people who made me feel so.

I…

I love you guys so much… I can’t begin to imagine losing this little world that I’ve come to know so fondly and built up with you guys.

Please… Keep fighting for what’s right… No matter how big or how small your act of help is, your efforts could help tip the scales in our favor.

I love you guys! You’ve become like another family to me. A Tumblr family! I don’t want to lose you guys… Not now, not ever.

Thank you for everything you’ve all given me the chance to experience!

Thank you for the happiness and love you’ve constantly blessed me with…

Thank you for letting me know what it’s like to become friends with people across the globe with such diverse and beautiful culture…

Thank you for helping me grow and mature as an artist and as a person…

Thank you…

naehja  asked:

Ok Real!Ciel has killed Agni and it's horrible to do done that. But people seems forget that O!Ciel has killed a whole house where were a lot of children, has manipuled people, has lied to Snake and to everyone, has forced a little girl to heal his own butler....well R!Ciel has killed Agni yeah but I think that, then, the two brothers are both messed up.

Mmmm, it’s indeed hard to tell who’s worse at this point! I think a lot of readers have more compassion for our Ciel because we have been reading the story from his POV for 10 years now and we know his motives as to why he did those atrocious things like burning Kelvin’s manor along with all the children inside etc, whereas in real Ciel’s case, we don’t know much about him yet in general, and we don’t know at all why he killed Agni and attacked Soma (who btw happened to be everyone’s low-key faves! (ノД`)・゜・。). RC is mysterious and seems very antagonistic, so I guess that’s why many people think real Ciel is more evil and our Ciel is “better” than him, which *is* true in a way (Undertaker said our Ciel is “different” from his predecessors when he saved Harcourt from bizarre dolls in ch84), but *not* entirely true! I mean, for example, if we just compare the number of people our Ciel and real Ciel killed/tried to kill directly/indirectly so far, we’d get real Ciel = 2 (Agni, Soma) and our Ciel = at least 20 (the children in Kelvin’s manor, the woman who died of blood loss, all the German soldiers in the GW arc, etc). So personally, I agree with you that neither of them is truly “better” than the other one, imo both of them are screwed-up kids and did terrible things x(

I know I shouldn’t be salty about this but damn boi. I am … 

So the FFXV Royal Edition got announced. Like, wow - so much content, much hype. But … I’m sooooo salty about the fact that we bought the base game back then for nearly 70 Euros - SEVENTY (!!!) PLUS the season pass for 25 Euros which are nearly 100 Euros we spent on that game and now you get EVERYTHING for only 50 dollars (which won’t be 50 Euros ofc but STILL cheaper) like …. ??? And we still have to pay an additional 20 or even 25 Euros to get the content of the Royal Edition … or let me call it Season Pass II although we had already purchased the first season pass …

I know this game has been out for a bit longer than a year but damn, I feel so pulled over the barrel I just can’t right now. 


Edit: I’m so glad that I’m not alone with this opinion :,) Thanks for the comments everyone!