it's only fair to remember the movie who got all the awards this year

So...another post....because....i feel it needs to be said just one more time....with more understanding.

*sighs deeply* why do people assume because i write x reader fics i don’t care about lin? Or any one i would write about, be it rami malek, or dan and phil when i was younger, or norman reedus when i was a big ol whore for the walking dead.

Look, i have made many an angry post, many a post trying to defend what we write about.

Here is the thing. In any fandom, for any human, fictional character, inanimate object anything! There are fans who will be crazy obsessed, hell in the kpop world, fans have sent bloody letters and shit. Those are obsessive people. That being said, that is out of line, that is crazy, and should not be tolerated. Breaking personal boundaries or stalking is not ever okay.

If i wouldn’t like it to happen to me, i wouldn’t do that to another human being.

Us who write x readers, well known blogs, we respect lin and his family, we have set tags for our own needs. So others don’t see our i guess internal fantasies.

Now, because i write fics about real people, it in no way, means i am
A) going to send it to that person
B) stalk said person
C) call them daddy in real life.
People who do that in periscopes or instalive or what have you, are either being funny, to themselves​ or friends they are with, or have mind vomit and that happens. To everyone, word and brain vomit just happen.

We write because its nice to place ourselves into a fake world, note i said Fake, not real, not ever going to be real, world. I do not ever think anything i am saying, or writing, is real, so if i have a head cannon of lin thats
- lin is the type to let you sit in his lap even when you complain that you are too heavy.
Thats just me observing him in interviews or listening to him on a podcast and making an idea of maybe he would be like that.

Head cannons and fics are based on our own ideas of what we think lin or any one we wrote about would be like. They could be true or so far from the truth its insane. But we will never know because we do bot no lin in real life, and never will, just the fact of life. So we all have to make our own, guesses of how we think said person would be like.

If Lin was still on tumblr, which he isn’t, not because shipping, or x reader fanfics. But because people in a whole different section of the fandom, were asking for the bootleg link to hamilton that someone who went, filmed against lins wishes, and people were making gifs and asking for the link, it made him very upset, because like he has said
The video of the OBC is coming, we just have to wait for it. Simple. That is why he is no longer on tumblr. And he’s a goddamn 37 year old man with a family and a 2 and a half year old, an actor filming a movie and so much more, he has twitter and that’s all he has got time for. Meanwhile daveed is so privet with his life he has twitter and insta…and he barley uses those. He is just very focused on clipping and his projects. So yes we write about them.

But we respect them, we keep to our side of the web, and we act respectful to lin by not sharing our stories and ship things with him, we retweet his tweets or make mood boards or other non shippy or x reader things and show those to him. Because he is not a fictional character to us. He is a role model, an idol, a hero, a human with a heart bigger then this world can hold. He is a loving father, husband, and son. He is an award winning genius. Who i have looked up to since i discovered hamilton.

You wanna know why?
Because as the only half POC in my entire family, i saw hispanic/latinx representation on broadway, in a place i loved, i saw a passionate latino man unafraid of who he is. I saw a real human, not a talking dog, or the things people say we are on the news. I saw myself, because since i was young me being half mexican was the joke in my family
“Haha did you run jump or swim here?”
“Shit cheynne get down the police are coming”
“So i guess we have to change your last name, don’t want the patrol to chuck you across the wall”
Me being half mexican, was a joke, and i never realized until i was old enough and i saw how fucked up it was.

Lin made me so proud to see a latino man, a latino in general be praised for breaking the wall, and most of the time no one commented on his race, why? Because it didn’t matter. He wrote a beautiful story, he told a forgotten persons life, he made me cry, and laugh.

Lin will always be my idol, my true role model on how to live, on how to treat people, to show that kindness is the key, to not fight back with harsh words, i have done that i know, i have been rude and snarky, yes. And that was not okay. I am sorry.

To me, i am able and have been for years, i have been able to separate the fantasy lin, in my mind, the ‘Daddy AF, plow me, etc.’ Lin, from the very real in my heart idol and role model, father type figure lin. I can have my own world and write it out for fun, for my own sort of writing things, but always knowing, always, ALWAYS, knowing he is a real human, with emotions and feelings and a family.

But people who call us creepy and gross and weird and obsessive and fucking disgusting. You don’t seem to see we are also humans, real people, with feelings and emotions and take what you say to heart.

A person wrote to me after i made a post and said, because of what people said in such a post as this, that they felt so guilty and had a full blown panic attack, and were going to delete all of there social media because of that. How is that okay, how is that fair, we respect everyone we write about, but people can’t understand words they say or type can be just as hurtful as ours are to you.

Now, we stay away from the main tags, or try to, its tumblr its gonna happen, we write we tag, if it gets a lot of notes, that is not in our control, block us so you don’t see our fics…or scroll past it or select photo or gif. It is so much easier to scroll past us, then to be hateful or hurtful.

As aaron burr once said in a marvelous musical.
“Talk less. Smile more”
In this i mean, scroll past, smile more.

Cause guys
“Love is love is love is love” kindness is what the world needs, lin said it himself.

Remember, write what you want. Sing what you want. Dance how you want. Because we only have a grain of sands worth of time to do what we love, so don’t waste it.

“We only have a grain of sands worth of time on this earth….”

Movies and physical disability (updated)

Here are some movies that I’ve seen that adress the issue of physical disability on the plot. Though the list is very short, the idea of posting this is for you to make it longer with your own recommendations.

1. Les intouchables (2011) by Olivier Nakache and Éric Toledano.
French drama about the friendship between Philippe, who is rich and quadriplegic, and his stubborn assistant Driss. This movie is A-MAZING! It’s a must, disabled or not. The film won several awards and both starring actors are super hot, plus, “Philippe” is adorable. I fell in love with him, I wanna marry him and have french kids. (+ Loved the “ear joke” ).

2. Kiss me (2013)by Jeff Probst.
Drama about a girl, Zoe, who is diagnosed with scoliosis at 15 and is forced to wear a back brace. She falls in love with the father of the kids she babysits. It stars Emily Osment, for teenage fans. It’s kindof a teenage drama, but it sums pretty well the pressures on being disabled at that age. (+The plaster scene is gold! It was such a flashback for me that I shed a tear).

3. El bulto (1991)by Gabriel Retes Mello.

Mexican movie about Lauro, a journalist who returns from a coma after twenty years and struggles with recovery and adapting to the whole changes in his family, politics, ideology and culture. He starts a romance with Adela, a friend of the family who used to take care of him. This film is old but still awesome, though idk if you can find it with english subtitles. (+ I adore the scene when Adela shows naked to Lauro to make love to him and he is so overwhelmed that he falls off the wheelchair).

4. The Brooke Ellison Story (2004) by Christopher Reeve (YES! Superman)
It’s the story of this girl who was the first quadriplegic to graduate from Harvard (in science, I think). It has a pinch of inspiration bullshit, but it’s also rough as it’s so true. (+Looking for the data, I found that Brooke Ellison ran for U.S. State Senate in 2006 :O And the prom scene made me cry like a lady).

There’s a Stephen Hawking movie starred by Benedict Cumberbatch, but I can’t recommend it as I haven’t seen it.

Now it’s your turn!

hnppandme suggests:

5. Morgan (2012) by Michael Akers

About a recently paralysed cyclist coming to terms with his disability and finding love. He is also gay but to be honest, it doesn’t make much difference to the plot apart from the fact that the love interest is male. I love that it is not the main plot and just something else added in. Independent movie that won some awards. You can watch it here.

6. Avatar (2009) by James Cameron

(My favourite film ever) “A paraplegic Marine dispatched to the moon Pandora on a unique mission becomes torn between following his orders and protecting the world he feels is his home.” I love it so much because the fact he is in a wheelchair has no impact on the plot; it doesn’t matter its just a thing that happens. It still deals with his reaction to it though.

7. Ondine (2009) by Neil Jordan

“This is an Irish tale of romance and tragedy set on the life of a fisherman by the name of Ciracuse. Here, rescues a woman from the sea. However, she begs him not to expose. So, he keeps her at a secret hideout. The man is stuck between the Ondine and his drunkard wife and their paths intertwine.” I don’t remember that much about it but Cirscuse’s daughter Ondine uses a wheelchair and is waiting for a kidney or liver transplant. (I can’t remember which!) It’s weird but it has a nice ending. It’s also the same again, the fact that she uses a wheelchair has no impact on the plot but the difficulties for her family are dealt with a bit.

8. How to Train Your Dragon (2010) & How to Train Your Dragon 2 (2014)

(These are kids films but I really like them!) Set in the mythical world of burly Vikings and wild dragons, and based on the book by Cressida Cowell, this action comedy tells the story of Hiccup, a Viking teenager who doesn’t exactly fit in with his tribe’s longstanding tradition of heroic dragon slayers. Hiccup’s world is turned upside down when he encounters a dragon that challenges him and his fellow Vikings to see the world from an entirely different point of view. *spoilers for the first film* Right at the end of the first one, Hiccup loses a leg and uses a prosthetic. He continues to use the prosthetic in the second film. I love the first one and hope the second will be just as good! One of the other characters has one hand and the dragon is also disabled (for most of the first film). Hiccup having one leg also has no impact on the plot. (you can see a running theme here!) There’s also a TV series with these but I don’t know if he has one leg in them or not. I’ve got the DVDs to find out! He does in a short film in the series too.

9. X-Men Franchise

Superhero films. Professor Charles Xavier is in a wheelchair. I’m not sure how many of the films and they’re not in a chronological order. I’ve never seen them so I can’t comment on what the portrayal/whatever was like.

10. Hawking (2004) by Philip Martin

I have seen this and can recommend it. It’s Benedict Cumberbatch’s first leading role and he did very well considering how hard this would have been to play. It’s about Stephen Hawking around the time he got diagnosed with motor neurone disease. It has the decline which it really important as I never see gradual declines anywhere in films. You can tell it’s a bit dramatised compared to what actually happened to him but if you read Stephen Hawking’s accounts of the time, some parts make it directly into the film. It was a TV movie but can be found online and on youtube because on Benedict. It’s also now available to buy on DVD on amazon.

11. Forrest Gump (1994) by Robert Zemeckis

“This Academy Award winner for Best Picture stars Tom Hanks as the good hearted, but painfully slow Forrest Gump, a man who manages to somehow be involved with almost every major event in history during the last half of the 20th Century. Spanning the course of his life, the story follows him as he grows from a weak child to a war hero to a shrimp boat captain, all the while pining for the love of his childhood friend Jenny, played by Robin Wright.” *Spoilers* Lieutenant Dan loses his legs in Vietnam and that is dealt with a fair bit. He is in the film a fair bit and in my essays on the film I classed him as a main character. You might also consider Forrest as being mentally disabled. This really is a fantastic film and if you haven’t seen it go and watch it now!

12. The Elephant Man (1980) by David Lynch

"A Victorian surgeon rescues a heavily disfigured man who is mistreated while scraping a living as a side-show freak. Behind his monstrous facade, there is revealed a person of intelligence and sensitivity.” (Not seen the whole thing myself so can’t comment but I think it’s supposed to be pretty good. It’s also interesting for how people with disabilities were treated in Victorian times.

13. My Left Foot (1989) by Jim Sheridan

“Christy Brown, born with cerebral palsy, learns to paint and write with his only controllable limb - his left foot.” Interesting for comparing then and now etc. Also how a family with very limited income dealt with it.

14. Quid Pro Quo (2008) by Carlos Brooks

“A semi-paralyzed radio reporter is sent out to investigate a story that leads him into an odd subculture and on a journey of disturbing self-realization” All I can say is that it’s quite interesting but very weird. The ending is especially weird.

15. The Fault in Our Stars (2014) by Josh Boone

For the Book: “Despite the tumor-shrinking medical miracle that has bought her a few years, Hazel has never been anything but terminal, her final chapter inscribed upon diagnosis. But when a gorgeous plot twist named Augustus Waters suddenly appears at Cancer Kid Support Group, Hazel’s story is about to be completely rewritten.” I love the book of this and hope the film will be just as good. Augustus Waters has one leg and there are other characters with varying physical disabilities. The issue of physical disability is dealt with really well in the book and especially a bit at an airport which I think is fantastic (I really hope it’s in the film). I can definitely recommend the book and I hope I’ll be able to recommend the film.

That’s all I can think of at the moment. I’m sure I know more though. There’s a new Julia Roberts one where she’s in a wheelchair but I have no idea what it’s about or what it’s called. My Sister’s Keeper maybe counts but it’s more dying and morals than disability but the book is much better.


THE PJ’S (1999)

an American stop-motion animated television series, created by Eddie Murphy, Larry Wilmore, and Steve Tompkins. It portrayed life in an urban public housing project, modeled after the Cabrini–Green Housing Projects in Chicago. The series starred Eddie Murphy, and was produced by Imagine Entertainment by Ron Howard and Brian Grazer, The Murphy Company and Will Vinton Studios in association with Touchstone Television.


Ahh, the PJ’s, what can I say about it that millions of other haven’t said before me. It managed to carve out a successful viewership for itself on prime time television as an adult focused animated comedy despite stiff competition from The Simpsons and South Park.

I feel a bit of shame in saying that I didn’t really watch it. I didn’t watch much of The Simpsons either but that’s a story for another day. I’d catch bits and pieces of the PJ’s here or there  and be enchanted by the stop-motion animation but I never sat down and watched it until it was shown for a brief time on Adult Swim year later.

I enjoyed it quite a bunch. I mostly had the show on as background noise while I was putting off sleeping but I still felt entranced by the animation just like when I was a kid. I also got quite a kick out of the many antics of the residents of the Hilton-Jacobs Projects, particularly all of the zany, hyper-exaggerated personalities. The quality of writing was pretty high, I didn’t understand a lot of the jokes since they made references that kind of flew over my head but the fact that they had so much energy in their lines is what really made me laugh.

What is it about this show that made it an award winning hit with audiences and critics? I wish I could answer that question but I just don’t know. Is it the fact that Eddie Murphy was attached to it? Is it because it had a similar sort of style of humor to The Simpsons but wrapped up in a totally different package?

Let’s maybe get an idea from some folks who might know better. Today we’re joined by both Ash and Pix so let’s turn the platform over to them.

Ladies first so Ash, what do you have to say about the PJ’s?

Growing up not only as a young black girl living in the projects but also growing up on Wallace and Gromit , Gumby , and of course a big fan of Eddie Murphy , The PJs truly spoke to me .

Despite running 3 seasons , having an ensemble voice cast , and collecting prestigious accolades ( Emmys and one Annie Award ) this series still falls under the radar unfortunately . But it’s the year 2015 and the nostalgia bandwagon is still running high right ? so I am more than happy to add my two cents and hopefully introduce others to this series .

In this age of tumblr , the discussion of representation is discussed more than ever if you ask me so this a good time to discuss this series’ entertainment value and what it stood for.

Eddie Murphy was one of the masterminds behind this series , in addition to that he also lended his voice work along with prominent black talents such as Loretta Devine , Janet Duboise , and Jenifer Lewis . It gets much better knowing that brilliant George Clinton blessed our ears with his sounds.

Our show’s main character Thurgood Stubbs was rather obnoxious for the most part but nonetheless entertaining , had this character just arrived in the year 2015 he would have been picked apart by people who didn’t consume the product . It’s very fortunate that this series was released when it was because it didn’t really sugar coat what it was like to live in the projects and I can tell you first hand that if you had this upbringing there was most likely a Thurgood in the neighborhood as well as the nosey elderly lady ( Mrs. Avery ) who often got under people’s skin.

Some people may not like to see these things displayed in the media because they feel that stereotypes are being perpetuated. But due to the time of it’s release and the lack of social justice hovering , it allowed people to say “ Hey this show speaks to me ” and while it may not have been embraced like the Simpsons was , as I mentioned earlier it lasted 3 seasons and collected a few Emmys as well as an Annie Award which speaks volumes .

For anyone interested in this series you are in luck since the show is now airing on MTV2 which again says something about it’s worth .

While it may not appeal to the suburban prudes and the hive mind , this show represents people in other corners of the country who can laugh and say “ We have one of those in my neighborhood ” I just hope that those individuals can be open with their satisfaction with the series .

And Pix, how about you, whaddya got for us?

You know I remember really wanting to like The PJ’s when it first came out.
There were a lot of elements within it that should have made it an instant winner in my book.

It’s animation style was claymation, which besides MTV’s Celebrity Deathmatch, was never utilized in the states, especially for television. It a major network show that stared a black cast, which was also nearly unheard of in the late 90’s. And it partially came from the brain of Eddie Murphy, who despite his “Party All The Time” shenanigans and many career missteps, is a comedian/actor who arguably will be mentioned in the same breath as Richard Pryor when it comes to the most influential black comedians.

On paper, it’s was a bold show. Heck, even now a show like the PJ’s would still seem kind of ahead of the curve.

Yet despite all these elements, I was never really a huge fan of this show.

It’s not bad.

In fact, it’s fair to say that FOX has had much worse when it comes to an animated show starring black characters (side eyes to the lazy Cleveland Show). But there are a few inner and outside elements related to the show that made it hard for me to really love it.

On the inside, most of the humor or jokes were actually kind of hit or miss. Cheap even, coming off at times as something I would have found during the opening days of UPN.

Yeah, anyone else, remember “Homeboys In Outer Space?”



That’s not to say that you can’t do stellar urban comedy. In fact, FOX showed that you could years prior thanks to legendary sketch show In Living Color. And the PJ’s at the time could shine as well to me, but never to the point that you would expect from something related to Eddie Murphy, Larry Willmore, and Matt Groening.

But maybe the real problem is that The PJS never had enough time to fully become as great as it promised to me. A lot of animated shows have rough starts before becoming fan favorites. I mean there’s no way you could look me in the eyes, and tell me that the first couple of seasons of The Simpsons, although charming, were a bit rough compared to the onslaught of comedic gems it delivered later before withering. And maybe that’s the case with this show. It did only last three seasons. Maybe season four would have been the one to fully convert me.

We’ll never know.

Pretty differing viewpoints but insightful none-the-less. Thanks guys



3 seasons worked out pretty good for this show in my opinion. It was kind of losing steam, by the end of season 3. There’s also the fact that there was rumors  persisting the show of Eddie Murphy leaving due to disputes with Fox executives or he was just b-flat busy with a movie meant that the series was losing one of its main draws. So it’s probably a good thing that it was cut before it started to overstay its welcome.

All and all, this was certainly an enjoyable watch and an example that black animation can survive on prime time t.v.