So...another post....because....i feel it needs to be said just one more time....with more understanding.
*sighs deeply* why do people assume because i write x reader fics i don’t care about lin? Or any one i would write about, be it rami malek, or dan and phil when i was younger, or norman reedus when i was a big ol whore for the walking dead.
Look, i have made many an angry post, many a post trying to defend what we write about.
Here is the thing. In any fandom, for any human, fictional character, inanimate object anything! There are fans who will be crazy obsessed, hell in the kpop world, fans have sent bloody letters and shit. Those are obsessive people. That being said, that is out of line, that is crazy, and should not be tolerated. Breaking personal boundaries or stalking is not ever okay.
If i wouldn’t like it to happen to me, i wouldn’t do that to another human being.
Us who write x readers, well known blogs, we respect lin and his family, we have set tags for our own needs. So others don’t see our i guess internal fantasies.
Now, because i write fics about real people, it in no way, means i am
A) going to send it to that person
B) stalk said person
C) call them daddy in real life.
People who do that in periscopes or instalive or what have you, are either being funny, to themselves or friends they are with, or have mind vomit and that happens. To everyone, word and brain vomit just happen.
We write because its nice to place ourselves into a fake world, note i said Fake, not real, not ever going to be real, world. I do not ever think anything i am saying, or writing, is real, so if i have a head cannon of lin thats
- lin is the type to let you sit in his lap even when you complain that you are too heavy.
Thats just me observing him in interviews or listening to him on a podcast and making an idea of maybe he would be like that.
Head cannons and fics are based on our own ideas of what we think lin or any one we wrote about would be like. They could be true or so far from the truth its insane. But we will never know because we do bot no lin in real life, and never will, just the fact of life. So we all have to make our own, guesses of how we think said person would be like.
If Lin was still on tumblr, which he isn’t, not because shipping, or x reader fanfics. But because people in a whole different section of the fandom, were asking for the bootleg link to hamilton that someone who went, filmed against lins wishes, and people were making gifs and asking for the link, it made him very upset, because like he has said
The video of the OBC is coming, we just have to wait for it. Simple. That is why he is no longer on tumblr. And he’s a goddamn 37 year old man with a family and a 2 and a half year old, an actor filming a movie and so much more, he has twitter and that’s all he has got time for. Meanwhile daveed is so privet with his life he has twitter and insta…and he barley uses those. He is just very focused on clipping and his projects. So yes we write about them.
But we respect them, we keep to our side of the web, and we act respectful to lin by not sharing our stories and ship things with him, we retweet his tweets or make mood boards or other non shippy or x reader things and show those to him. Because he is not a fictional character to us. He is a role model, an idol, a hero, a human with a heart bigger then this world can hold. He is a loving father, husband, and son. He is an award winning genius. Who i have looked up to since i discovered hamilton.
You wanna know why?
Because as the only half POC in my entire family, i saw hispanic/latinx representation on broadway, in a place i loved, i saw a passionate latino man unafraid of who he is. I saw a real human, not a talking dog, or the things people say we are on the news. I saw myself, because since i was young me being half mexican was the joke in my family
“Haha did you run jump or swim here?”
“Shit cheynne get down the police are coming”
“So i guess we have to change your last name, don’t want the patrol to chuck you across the wall”
Me being half mexican, was a joke, and i never realized until i was old enough and i saw how fucked up it was.
Lin made me so proud to see a latino man, a latino in general be praised for breaking the wall, and most of the time no one commented on his race, why? Because it didn’t matter. He wrote a beautiful story, he told a forgotten persons life, he made me cry, and laugh.
Lin will always be my idol, my true role model on how to live, on how to treat people, to show that kindness is the key, to not fight back with harsh words, i have done that i know, i have been rude and snarky, yes. And that was not okay. I am sorry.
To me, i am able and have been for years, i have been able to separate the fantasy lin, in my mind, the ‘Daddy AF, plow me, etc.’ Lin, from the very real in my heart idol and role model, father type figure lin. I can have my own world and write it out for fun, for my own sort of writing things, but always knowing, always, ALWAYS, knowing he is a real human, with emotions and feelings and a family.
But people who call us creepy and gross and weird and obsessive and fucking disgusting. You don’t seem to see we are also humans, real people, with feelings and emotions and take what you say to heart.
A person wrote to me after i made a post and said, because of what people said in such a post as this, that they felt so guilty and had a full blown panic attack, and were going to delete all of there social media because of that. How is that okay, how is that fair, we respect everyone we write about, but people can’t understand words they say or type can be just as hurtful as ours are to you.
Now, we stay away from the main tags, or try to, its tumblr its gonna happen, we write we tag, if it gets a lot of notes, that is not in our control, block us so you don’t see our fics…or scroll past it or select photo or gif. It is so much easier to scroll past us, then to be hateful or hurtful.
As aaron burr once said in a marvelous musical.
“Talk less. Smile more”
In this i mean, scroll past, smile more.
“Love is love is love is love” kindness is what the world needs, lin said it himself.
Remember, write what you want. Sing what you want. Dance how you want. Because we only have a grain of sands worth of time to do what we love, so don’t waste it.
“We only have a grain of sands worth of time on this earth….”