it's not it's a maelstrom of feelings

the 4th house, 8th house, and 12th house forces must be elevated to the surface of consciousness or they threaten to be like forces of fate that steer the individual’s life and psyche in confusing, tormenting, and incongruent ways. 
Regardless of planets, everybody has a sign on the 4th house or IC this will be the opposite sign of the midheaven
Everybody has a sign on the 8th house cusp
Everybody has a sign on the 12th house cusp, it will be the sign before the ascendant 

the 4th house is the cancer and moon house. it requires deep personal acknowledgement of the very waters that shape the inner world and the base of our nature. these are inherent needs, the ways we need to be validated, feel safe, and feel belonging. these are our private dreams and intuitions, pivotal memories, and primitive necessities. if you stripped away everything you had been taught about yourself, told to be, told to aspire to, and told how to behave, the 4th house or IC is what would remain. we may grow up and grow old, but these needs never change. and when they remain unmet, they may be responded to with the same rage or sadness or fears that they experienced when they were young. for example say a cancer moon or IC child desperately needs the mother as a matter of its existence, but she had to work very long hours. every time she shut the door, the child feared she would never return because sometimes she didn’t for the night. as an adult, these conditions may replay through personal relationships, where those same feelings of fear and terror emerge whenever their partner walks out the front door. 

when the inner world is unknown, personal values can be too. the person pursues a life that does not reflect their true system and does not feel content at work nor really wants to come home either. this sort of internal reflection may be especially difficult for conditions like saturn in the 4th, moon-saturn aspects, moon in the 10th, or 4th house planets making aspects to saturn because they feel it necessary to suffocate, invalidate, or discipline the inner child because they must be self-sufficient and completely developed to survive. and it’s not so much about these people learning to ‘parent’ or separate this very integral part of their nature, but simply recognising its concerns as part of their own and the things they needed when they were vulnerable and never given. listening to its needs helps to heal the whole spirit. 

the 8th house is a mars, pluto, and scorpio house. imagine it being like walking through a wall of fire into a watery maelstrom of depths unknown. there is only one option with the 8th house, and it’s to wield, accept, honour, and assume the power with fearlessness and will. the 8th house does not accept the victim role, false delusion, or going into hiding. it is surgery that opens up the unconscious to reveal where it is poisoned. embarking on these territories can feel as painful to the mind and spirit as a real surgical incision. it can unveil the unconscious dilemmas that cause us to act out or react in certain ways and blame other people for it. this does not mean taking any responsibility for the cruelty committed to you by other people. it does not mean denying that you have been victimised, hurt, or betrayed. if you weren’t it wouldn’t have been webbed in there to begin with. it’s realising that you lived when you thought you would die inside, and you will be reborn and again. it can be the healing acceptance of events as exposed truthfully beneath pluto that absolves self-blame, self-contempt, and long term feelings of helplessness or weakness. it throws this self-deceit right into a billowing fire, not to be burned to nothing, but to be used as a source of power. the 8th house is where the ego dies, so it may express through our inexplicable fears, our feelings about death, our and self-destructive tendencies. people with focused 8th house planets can feel this to an intense degree. there can be a constant or vague longing for death that is the masked unconscious calling to incinerate a contaminated part of the psyche. the 8th house is where you are a magician, a master of the life and death cycle, where you tame demons, and where you fire twirl with your soul. the 8th house demands to be commanded. mars always wants to win and submission never plays out well. dominate, and be exalted

the 12th house has unfavourable connotations. but the two benefics in jupiter (ruler of pisces) and venus (exalts in pisces) hold prestige over this secret and often misunderstood dwelling. it is not the physical experience of imprisonment or involuntary hospitalisation. but if the individual does not accept and solitarily go into the internal space, then the sense of isolation or loneliness experienced by the individual can feel like imprisonment or exile. the 12th house speaks through dream. it’s the secrets that we keep from ourselves, and the ways we try to self-soothe when nobody else is around. these energies have to be developed or they remain deliriously floating in neptune’s sea. like mars in the 12th must actively learn and teach themselves how to self-assert and demonstrate the ego or a part of the nature remains dormant. because they can be misused as a result, it becomes severe aggression toward themselves so they can suddenly become wrathful at themselves for a simple mistake. 

 planets in the 12th house can symbolise a sense of loss or emptiness. this mostly relates to the condition of the house or planet, like sun in the 12th can experience the literal or figurative loss of the father at a young age, or venus or taurus in the 12th may have been raised in financial hardship. these circumstances typically cause us to withdraw from the world. and they also open up this empty space within that longs to be filled. and the universe can overflow it, if we seek the relationship and reunion with the divine. its forced periods of isolation are love notes from home. the 12th house is where the spiritual sea crosses the shore. but there is one condition, and it’s that you can only go alone. 

-C.

(never) Let Me Go | Nyx Ulric x Reader

RATING: Teen for depictions of violence
PAIRING: Nyx Ulric/Reader
WORDS: 2198
SUMMARY: Nyx always loses the ones he loves, maybe that’s why it’s taken him so long to admit what he’s long ignored.
PROMPT: Could you write a Nyx x Reader where he has a nightmare of her dying and she has to comfort him and it’s just really fluffy?
AO3: http://archiveofourown.org/works/12143586

@native-snowflake Oh god, this took for-freaking-ever cause your girl over here can’t write fluff to save her life. I scrapped 2 different versions of the ending before finally settling on this one. I hope it hits the spot 💕 I hope you don’t mind that I cheated a little bit and rolled your prompt together with a headcanon I have for Wayward Children (who said I love you first).

Tagging those who requested it: @mp938368 @thefriendlytonberry @sailormars109


The nightmares, they always start the same. The smell of wet smoke rounded by the rot of entrails and waste; the taste of copper sharp and acrimonious upon his tongue. It’s all so familiar it no longer makes him gag.

He knows what happens next. 

He can hear the gunfire cut through naked flesh before it happens. 

‘Help!’ 

He doesn’t turn around in panic like he used to. 

He stands still. 

Helpless. 

Powerless. 

Useless. 

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The story of Neverbloom

So… I have just properly sat my ass down to listen to the whole album WHILE reading the lyrics, and i believe i’ve discovered a goddamn masterpiece. I am literally sick at the stomach from how beautiful this is.

Make Them Suffer’s first album, called Neverbloom, tells a story, which i always wanted to uncover. Yeah, so does Old Souls, but it’s a bit different story. What made me curious about Neverbloom was the absolutely breathtaking use of words. It’s like poetry. Like, i could never even possibly think of coming up with these words on my own. Sean Harmanis, who is the lead vocalist of the band, wrote all of these and i just wanna say fucking thank you.

Since writing a goddamn thesis on this album is probably not gonna happen, i can atleast write a tumblr post about the story Neverbloom holds within. 

I should also note that Old Souls is a continuation of Neverbloom (Annie is Morrow) but i wanna focus on the debut album here because that’s what initially left me speechless.

1. Prologue

2. Neverbloom

This is the very first song that offers lyrics, therefore the beginning of the story.

A guy (soon to be referred to as “The Lord of Woe”) is hurting all over. He used to be happy and joyful, but all of that is in the past now. A creature or a being called “Morrow”, has brought ruin to all previous good in his life and he’s now weeping over it. 

It was Morrow who cursed this place.” The place being himself or the inside of his mind, or even the world he lived in.

A single tear from the elms of emptiness falls to stain the cracked earth and the soil breathes one final, desperate, breathe of life. Tiny budding flowers and colours of joy and hope explode from the water-bead. Undying, undimming, before shattering to dust. These woods have no memory of the touch of sun, or the smell of dew, and all I can hear through the deafening silence are the moaning trees.

It was Morrow who cursed this place. Now, cheerless and stagnant, it screams in the night so we hearken the cries from the heart of the wood.

I linger on in doubt, darkness comes early down here. Wishing upon ages, these flowers will someday bloom.

I’d wait here forever just to see these flowers bloom.
They never bloom.

You fucking betrayed us, in these woodlands we wove, dreaming amidst the groves. Morrow, No one could stop us. although, now the orchards no longer grow, So I’ll reclaim the throne of woe. I’m starting to count the stars by myself, and this winter is eating away at my soul.

I’ll always remember the day I was stabbed in the back.
Stabbed in the back.

Just like teardrops, the limbs of the dying trees began to fall, one by one.

Now let me sleep. Let me sleep, In this garden that never blooms.

A single tear from the elms of emptiness falls to stain the cracked earth and the soil breathes one final, desperate, breathe of life. Tiny budding flowers and colours of joy and hope explode from the water-bead. Undying, undimming, before shattering to dust. These woods have no memory of the touch of sun, or the smell of dew, and all I can hear through the deafening silence are the moaning trees.

So here I will wait for the spring, In the garden of tears.
If you listen in the night, you hearken the cries from the heart of the wood.

And so here I will wait, until my last dying days. Wishing upon ages, these flowers will someday bloom.

I’d wait here forever just to see these flowers bloom.
They never bloom.

The forests, the woods, the flowers and the sun - they depict him, specifically his life, or what he had with the girl. We can see it slowly turning to darkness, due to “Morrow betraying him and stabbing him in the back” Not only him, but “them” This clearly indicates a relationship that came to an end, due to “Morrow’s” actions. He’s hurt, but not giving up, and still has hope. He believes everything will be okay (”And so here I will wait, until my last dying days. Wishing upon ages, these flowers will someday bloom.”)  But as he waits, he’s slowly realizing the flowers will never bloom, therefore things will never be like they used to be and they will never be able to be happy like before.

3. Morrow

Next song is fully dedicated to the person who ruined all that he held dear - he’s remembering how it all used to be and what all was lost. He’s blaming the Morrow for the darkness that’s now all around him and he’s wondering if she even has any clue on how much hurt he is. He insists she leaves him be, for all is ruined and lost now and he knows that the happiness is always gonna be just a memory from now on.

You brought me back to these darkened dreams, I must reweave. Just leave me here, at the roof of the world.

All the way up here where the stars never sleep, we could live forever and no one could stop us.

and all those perfect moments, they fell like raindrops.
now follow me to the heart of the wood.

We’re the ones in your dreams, pulling strings in your mind,
and we scheme when you sleep, through the shadows of time.
We exist in your thoughts, the ones no one can find.
We remain in the hearts of the young and the tears from the sky.

You brought me back, to the darkness within.
Buried in the depths of the elms. Locked beneath the earth.

We’ve been here before. Do you remember what I said to you all those years ago;

Some day, you’ll forget me, and all that will be left are the fragments of our shattered dreams and those tiny, perfect moments where time stood still.

We’re the ones in your dreams, pulling strings in your mind, and we scheme when you sleep, through the shadows of time.
We exist in your thoughts, the ones no one can find.
We remain in the hearts of the young and the tears from the sky.

You brought me back. In my dying dreams, is endless sleep.
Just leave me here, at the roof of the world.

4. Elegies

The name of the fourth song is self-explanatory. 

I would have showed you the world as it was in my dreams. I would have dropped everything.
And for those nights when we wept for the moon, I would have died for the spring.
I found myself at the roots of the elms, singing songs to the birds and wishing this day would never end.”


  Here the Lord of Woe expresses his sadness and pain that lies within him towards the Morrow, whom he loved deeply and would do anything for. (”I would have showed you the world as it was in my dreams. I would have dropped everything.”)

He believed they could be happy forever. He says he was hoping that the days of joy would never end - but they did. 

 
“But it did.
These dreams came cascading down in a stream of fond memories and lost hope, and at the end of it all.

At the end of it all is only a teardrop to remember you by.
A keepsake from the birds, an elegy for what we could have shared.

These words will last forever;
I’ll dream our memories away just to make you feel something for me again.
These words will last forever;
I’ll dream our memories away just to make you hurt. Just to make you feel my pain.”

He’s claiming that he will forget her and move on, just to make her realize what she lost. He’s hurt and deeply depressed, but he also wishes for her to suffer for what she has caused.


“There is a warmth from the earth, and the touch of my fingertips are like droplets, making ripples on the surface.

I cherish the moment my heart sank to the floor of the ocean.
We could have been so much more,
We could have laughed, and cried, and dreamed our nights away.
So much more, So much more.”

    He regrets that the relationship came to an end, and he feels like the end was pointless, that they could’ve been even happier than they ever were. However, he hasn’t completely given up. You can see the conflict happening inside of him - he wishes for her to “leave him on the roof of the world” in Morrow, because her presence is causing more pain, given that she isn’t about to come back to him. But at the same time, he “keeps singing songs to the birds until she returns”, which shows that he still hopes he and Morrow will reunite.

“I’ll keep singing songs to the birds until you return, and for every time I
lost myself there is a warmth from the earth, and the touch of my fingertips are like droplets, making ripples on the surface.

At the end of it all is only a teardrop to remember you by.
A keepsake from the birds, an elegy for what we could have shared.

These words will last forever;
I’ll dream our memories away just to make you feel something for me again.
These words will last forever;
I’ll dream our memories away just to make you hurt. Just to make you feel my pain.

5. Maelstrom

The forests, woods, flowers and birds are no longer - instead a maelstrom has formed in their place and it’s swallowing him and everything around him into darkness. This could refer to the depression that came after realizing that Morrow is forever gone and so is the happiness they used to feel once.

Beyond these forgotten shores of baleful unrelenting torture.
The sky has shattered, pouring its tears into oblivion and wishing away its unending paradox, as it crumbles into exile, piece by piece.

plunged into darkness by the undertow of the Maelstrom.
slowly, piece by piece, forever forgotten.

Take me away from here.
I will slip away, watch me disapear.
The Maelstrom consumes me.
An eternity frozen in time.

Pulled beneath the deepest depths
Where I was always meant to be, forever lost.”

He’s weak and doesn’t have much strength to fight against the depression that is engulfing him - he accepts that this is the horrible reality and he’s relatively at peace with what’s to come. The depression is a normal state of mind for him now, he accepts that the forests are no longer and instead there is the Maelstrom.


I’ve found my home
far from the grips of time
with the faces of desertion
wandering the depths of expulsion

With the faces of desertion, far from the grips of time, I have found my home.

I’ve found my home, where no light can reach and the only sounds are those soft whispers that no one else can hear.
Comforting me. I’ll smile my way away to my darkest days.

Beyond these forgotten shores of endless sadness and torturous sorrow.
The sky has shattered, crying into constant uncertainty and wishing away its perpetual torment, as it crumbles into exile, piece by piece.

plunged into darkness by the undertow of the Maelstrom.
forgotten piece by piece, forever and ever.

Take me away from here.
I will slip away, watch me disapear
The Maelstrom consumes me.
An eternity frozen in time.

I’ve found my home, beneath the depths.
I’ve found my home, where I can dream these days away.

It was perfect from the first day, we stood and watched as the ocean opened up and swallowed the sun.
Swallowed the sun. “

      In the last paragraph of the song, the Lord of Woe describes him & Morrow “standing and watching as the ocean opened up and swallowed the sun.” I feel like that’s him describing that both of them just let the end happen without even trying to save anything. But now he found strange comfort in the depths and he believes he will be at peace here.

6. Oceans of Emptiness

In my opinion this song describes the tragic story so well, so don’t skip on this one if you plan to get into Neverbloom properly!

7. The Well

He’s been “down” here for too long. The Maelstrom is now a well to him, a deep bottom with no way out. He has accustomed himself to his surroundings and accepted his new reality. As he’s slowly losing his sanity, he feels like things are talking to him and following him. It gets worse with every night and he wishes to be free of it, but he feels that the well & the darkness is “pulling him down”. 

“The Well. So dark and cold, it beckons me in the night

The whispers, they follow me. Can you hear it? Can you hear it?

Down the abyss I fell, where I found my sinking face and drowned myself.

The Well. With its mouth of tears, It whispers to me in the night. This darkness is far too familiar, it’s pulling me down, it’s pulling me…

Down the well I will wait, I sank for days just to forget my name. I forgot my fucking face, I left at the bottom of the well.”

The depression which he has succumbed to has fully taken away whatever was left of him before - he forgot the joy and happiness that used to fill his heart. He forgot the woods and the flowers with the birds, therefore forgetting himself. He completely forgot who he was before and how it felt before all of this went down.

The Well. So dark and cold, it beckons me in the night. This darkness is far too familiar, it’s pulling me down, I want out, Let me out.
Let me out.

I can’t feel my sinking face, I left it at the bottom of the well.
I smiled when I drowned myself, Down the well I’ll stay.”

He has given up the fight against being pulled down deeper into the darkness, sadness and depression and he has accepted the well as a part of him now. 

8. Weeping Wastelands

As he spent time in the Maelstrom, which later became The Well, he has changed, and so have his surroundings. It is no longer The Well, but the “Weeping Wastelands”, which once used to be the great woods he cherished so much. He adapted to the darkness and used whatever feelings there were left in him to survive. Of course, they were all negative - hate, sadness, torment, suffering and doom. He forgot how it felt to love and what the once held dear, but he didn’t forget what brought him here, into the eternal pain. 


“I am your fucking end. You will tremble at my feet.

Bringer of pain and suffering, hatred sadness and despair. I will unleash upon the world the madness that manifests within me, and all of our hearts.

Do you remember a time before this barren waste of frost, death and decay.
hopelessness and nothingness or was it all just a figment of my imagination?
Now tear by tear we wash away the fondness felt in our hearts. Drowning the lands before this infinite sorrow. Suffocating ourselves to hide the pain.” 

At this point he is not even sure if the world he once knew was real. It might be him just imagining things, because all he knows now is pain.

“Weeping Wastelands, tearing our hearts from flesh, hope is gone. All that’s left is this abomination.

Unleash your hatred upon the world, this sickness, this blight suffocating us into submission ridding us of our will to feel, I would rather die than succumb to this plague, I have nothing but pure disgust for the infected, and the withered souls.”

He claims to unleash his seeping hatred onto everything and everyone around him, but he says he doesn’t feel sorry for the people who now suffer with him - there’s no good in him anymore and he’s mad and blaming everyone and everything.

“Do you remember a time before this barren waste of frost, death and decay.
hopelessness and nothingness or was it all a figment of my imagination? Bringer of pain and suffering, hatred sadness and despair. I will unleash upon the world the madness that manifests within me, and all of our hearts.

Blood soaked snow, rotting flesh, putrid sickness. Where am I? Weeping Wastelands, blood soaked snow, rotting flesh, putrid sickness. Where am I?
Overwhelmed with misery, on my own.

I have no fucking remorse, and I wish for nothing but pain upon those who dealt me this burden

Weeping Wastelands, tearing our hearts from flesh, hope is gone. All that’s left is this abomination.

Hating and struggling with sorrow and mourning of the significance. Drowning in tears.

I am the destroyer of hope, Lord of Woe. I am everything you’ve ever hated before. “ 


    He finally reconciles with the darkness and pain within him and accepts it as his new identity. From now on, he thinks of himself as the “Lord of Woe”. No longer does he feel love and sadness for Morrow, it’s all just hate for what she’s done to him now. The Lord of Woe only hates now.

9. Widower

Now, fully used to his new purpose and reality, he comes back to Morrow and realizing that she never were any good, casts her out and blames her, admitting he doesn’t feel anything but hate, disgust and disappointment for her. 

“Will you remember me
As the one from the trees
When the forests used to sing
Or when I locked myself
In the heart of the wood
And threw away the key
You just kept giving yourself away
A gift to cherish until piece by piece
You laid before the roots of time
Day by day the nights swallow
Sun, and with every night
The more you gave, your sadness came undone


You just kept slipping through the cracks
Of my fingertips
I only hope that you remember me
As the one from the trees
When the forests used to sing
Or when I locked myself
In the heart of the wood
And threw away the key

You’re not desire
You’re just a fucking widow
Weaving webs among the woods
I’m not the answer but if you take my hand
I’ll show you the world of the dead
There you’ll be smiling into the night
I watched you sing for hours on end
You’re a telltale spider, spinning webs and singing songs
Sharing your stories with the moon and the trees
With a world which strung you along
I’ve shut you out
I don’t like your stories anymore
They always end so fucking sad
Fuck
I’ve turned my back
I’ve turned my back
On you for good”


As he realizes she’s not worth the suffering anymore, he finally moves on and gives up on the idea of trying for her. Only now he truly sees that she gave all of their happiness away willingly and was never even good to begin with.


“Just keep smiling into the night
I watched you pass me by
Every night you died
With a smile on your face
In my dreams you wept blood
From your eyes”


However, we can see from this part above, that he hasn’t exactly given up on her entirely. He holds great hatred in his heart for her and she’s in his dreams even now.


“Just keep smiling into the night
My beautiful bride
X 2
I feel for your bleeding crimson eyes
Just so you know
I’ll always remember you
As the telltale spider
When darkness crept into our days
Sharing stories with the world
Until piece by piece you gave your heart away
You’re not desire
You’re just a fucking widow
Weaving webs among the woods
I’m not the answer but if you take my hand I’ll
I’ll show you the world of the dead
I hate sad stories they always end the same
I’ll never forget how the forest wept
When you gave yourself away”

10. Chronicles

The final song on the album, which in my opinion holds one of the strongest feelings within its lyrics, along with The Maelstrom and Neverbloom.

“Fear my name, in the dead of the night for I am reborn of flame.
You will feel my wrath, I will destroy all things that lay in my path

It’s raining relentlessly, and the last little flickering flame which I kindled and cared for so dearly is beginning to wither and fade. Now here I tend, in darkness. Scrawling onto tattered pages you once held so close. Sleep has overtaken us, and if it weren’t for these binds, I would float away.”

“The last little flickering flame which i kindled and cared for so dearly is beginning to wither and fade” This is him moving on from Morrow and the end of the relationship that troubled him all the way up until he gave in to the darkness and hate. “Scrawling onto tattered pages you once held so closeis him writing the final parts of the story, which he calls the Chronicles of Woe. The story refers to Morrow and her life, possibly even the relationship she had with the man. This indicates that she used to treasure the relationship too, but not enough to preserve it.

“Fear my name, In the dead of the night.
My burden is bound by tales I wrote, these have been the Chronicles of Woe.
Burn down the forests. No longer are they my home.
Morrow, you cursed them, or so it reads in the Chronicles of Woe.”


Burn down the forests. No longer are they my home.” The very final and last point, at which he no longer cares for what used to be. The forests in which he used to sit, hoping the happy days would never be over. The flowers for which he once prayed to see them bloom once again. The birds to which he sang the songs, waiting for Morrow to come back to him. None of that matters to him anymore. It’s gone. He does not want it, he wants it gone too.

“Morrow, you cursed them, or so it reads in the Chronicles of Woe.” Is him putting all blame onto his ex-girlfriend. According to the Lord of Woe, she cursed the forests - their happiness. “Or so it reads in the Chronicles of Woe” is referring to the book of their story that he calls the Chronicles of Woe.


“Now feel my wrath.
Tear down the skies.
Feel my wrath, my hatred engulfs me, destroying your dreams.
Feel my wrath, I’ll bide my time and burn you alive.
Feel my wrath. My vengeance shall be swift, at my burning hand,
The flames from my fingertips dwindle and cheer, at the torment of man.

Tear down the fucking skies.
Can you feel the surge of hatred from my torment.
I burdened your stories, you left me for dead and cursed the forest.”

“I burdened your stories, you left me for dead and cursed the forest” He endured so much for her, done so much for her. He loved her so much. And she repaid him only with betrayal and the complete ruin of what he once loved.


“My name is forever echoed throughout the wastes, and my malevolence is eating my heart out.
Should you hear it,

Fear my name, in the dead of the night for I am reborn of flame. You will feel my wrath, I will destroy all things that lay in my path

I’ve burdened your stories, your codex of sorrow and lies.
I relinquish this duty, take back what once you kept so safe.

Fear my name, In the dead of the night.
I burden no longer the tales I wrote, take of me these Chronicles of Woe.
Burn down the forests. No longer are they my home.
Morrow, you cursed them, or so it reads in the Chronicles of Woe.

Fear my name, In the dead of the night.
I burden no longer the tales I wrote, take of me these Chronicles of Woe.
Fear my name, In the dead of the night.
I burden no longer the tales I wrote.
These are the Chronicles of Woe.”

So that’s it. The great story of once flourishing love that turned to seething hatred and blame. I absolutely fucking adore it. Mainly because the way all of it is worded is breathtaking and magnificient, but also because the story hits close to heart - i’ve been through all of this. The music is great and feels so eerie it leaves me dizzy everytime i listen to my favorite song from them. We are truly so blessed to be able to listen to this big masterpiece and i hope they will never stop creating such meaningful lyrics and stories. <3

Big thanks to this reddit post that only confirmed my suspicion about the story and helped me put all the pieces together. I highly suggest you read the thread, for there are bits on the Old Souls album too. I’m not sure if i will ever “review” Old Souls like this, but i sure as hell do appreciate that with Neverbloom, the story of Morrow and the Lord of Woe didn’t end.

Of course, if you feel like i wrote something completely off and want to help me fix it, feel free to do so, i will only appreciate it! Don’t want to be spreading bullshit about the best band ever, amirite.

I feel like a giant nerd after writing this, tbh. Hopefully it’s worth it! Thanks for the read ;-;


happynfluffy  asked:

Killian Jones, Worthy

Thank you so much for the prompt! Once again, I’m sorry this is probably not what you were hoping for or expecting, but this is where my brain wanted to go mostly because we already know about Killian’s issues with worthiness during the current story. I wanted to go back to when worthiness meant something else entirely. 

As always, my “15-minute Masterpiece” criteria are: writing for at least 15 minutes, light editing, no beta. Just me and words coming out of my brain. 


No Quarter

“And when they come for us, I want them to know exactly what we are: pirates!”

His uniform shed, his ship renamed, his men free, and one short speech later, Lieutenant Jones is no more.

The Captain is dead, long live the Captain.

Killian promises his men they’ll live by their own rules; he promises they’ll take everything from the corrupt kingdom they can. He means it. Killian also knows that same promise marks them as wanted men. They’ll be hunted, and there will be no rest.

That’s fine by him. Let them come. In droves.

Killian does not want to rest. He cannot dwell on what it means to be alone in this world—without Liam—or it will drown him in a way even the deepest waters would envy. Killian Jones wants nothing more than to strip the kingdom bare and set it ablaze until there is nothing recognizable left. He will make the King wish he’d never sent the Jones brothers to Neverland for that bloody plant. He may have once had a loyal servant in Liam, but in Killian he’ll get the most loyal of enemies.

He and his men will be pirates. The scourge of the seas.

“We’ll give our enemies no quarter.”

Setting course for the King’s waterways, the men prepare the new flag. Crimson. The color of the blood he will spill and the blood he will shed making the King pay for all he’s taken. But he won’t let that flag fly until the right moment. There is nothing to be gained by announcing his allegiance to himself so quickly.

The quartermaster finishes divvying up munitions from the hold below amongst the small canon that line the ship’s deck. His crew readies the JewelThe Jolly Roger—for what is coming. Battle. It is only a matter of time.

“Sails!” the bo’sun calls out.

Perhaps no time.

Lifting his spyglass he recognizes the frigate, Valiant.  

Captain Paulson, Killian thinks. He had been a mentor to Liam. Pity. They’ll see each other again soon.

The time it takes for the ships to approach each other slips by in what feels like a breath. Those men out there have no idea what’s coming. Killian tells his men to keep steady.

“Pretend nothing is amiss,” he says evenly, “but stay close to your battle stations.” Killian presents a calm front to his men when inside he is a maelstrom feeding off itself. 

No quarter.

He guides the ship to pass within firing range of its port side, and calls out for his men to raise the flag and fire. He learns that day an enchanted ship never misses its mark. Holes are blown in the hull of the King’s ship and Killian can see it taking on water.

Almost finished.

The Valiant is crippled and in chaos as The Jolly Roger maneuvers swiftly around the listing and smoking ship’s starboard side. Killian’s men are already prepared or a second round before The Valiant can even open its gunports. They fire, sweeping the deck of anything standing.

The Jolly Roger pulls in close and Killian and his men board the ship as the smoke rolls and billows, obscuring their arrival.

Swords clang and guns report as the melee fans out across the deck. Killian slashes his way toward the Captain, already bloodied and looking irritated as he defends the helm. When Killian stands before him, the captain narrows his eyes as he recognizes his foe.  

Jones? What is the meaning of this? Where is Liam?” he asks. His mistake is making his question sound like a command.

Killian takes a deep breath and clenches his jaw before seething out, “Do not say his name. Do not ever say his name. My brother is dead. I am Captain now.”

In his confusion, Captain Paulson, a weathered, wiry man old enough to be his father, let his weapon drop to his side.

“What’s happened, Killian? What are you doing?”

“Sending a message to the King.”

In two quick moves, Killian has the Captain completely disarmed, and his own sword point poised in front of the belly of the man before him. The King’s man.

No quarter.

“This isn’t what your brother would have—”

Killian thrusts his blade into Paulson’s gut and up, bringing all his weight to bear, and pushing it out through Paulson’s back. The Captain sags against him with a gurgle, never finishing his sentence.

“My brother didn’t want to die, either,” Killian says in the man’s ear before sliding his blade back out and letting Paulson fall to the deck. “What’s one more disappointment?”

Cheers go up behind him, and Killian stands, breath heaving and tremors running up his arms and legs.

He wipes his face and sees only blood on his sleeve. The rest of the crew is dispatched save one young boy no older than Killian was when their father abandoned him and Liam. He puts the boy into a rowboat and hands him the envelope with the picture of the dreamshade and a special message for His Majesty.

Pointing to the shore within sight, he tells the obviously frightened lad, “You get this to the King, and then you find yourself a new career. Understood?”

“Aye, Captain…?”

“Jones.”

The boy nods and stuffs the envelope into his jacket.

“Good lad. Get going. Things are about to get hot here.”

From the deck of The Jolly Roger, Killian watches the Valiant burn as the sun sets and he feels nothing. No remorse, no sadness, no fear. Their course is set and there is no turning back.

No quarter.

“Captain Jones” should have carried a hero’s reputation. Now it will carry fear into the hearts of sailors throughout the realms. A pirate worthy of the name.

My Letter of Concern to Disney

Hello!
My name is Victoria Wade and , as you could imagine, i’m a big fan of the Walt Disney Company.
Disney has played a big part in my childhood and currently in my young adult life. I consider Walt Disney to be a Hero and a Role model. I am also a alumnus of the Disney College Program and i visit the parks quite frequently over the year. I have gained so many wonderful and lifelong friends through the fandom that i am in through the website called “Tumblr.” I have gained so many wonderful memories from my visits that i will always cherish and i will always bring my children and granchildren to your parks when that time comes. I can’t express how much i love the cast members who keep Walt’s legacy and the magic alive for every guest that walks into your parks.
First I wish to thank everyone who work there for bringing these wonderful times to me. Also i wish to thank the company for giving me the opportunity to work for your company. It was an amazing experience and i will never forget it. I am grateful for the opportunities it has brought me. My CP experience has actually inspired me to go into Hospitality Management as a career.


However i wanted to address a few issues regarding some business decisions the company has made that i do not necessarily agree with and i was hoping to maybe get a bit of clarification on the matter. I would love to get a better understanding on these things.
I have written many times to the company about my joyous visits but this, unfortunately, will be my first letter of complaint.


I am well aware of how successful the movie “Frozen” was and stil continues to be. I recall being very excited about the movie coming out. I always am when i hear about new and upcoming Disney movies. I am very into social media, Tumblr especially, so i heard quite a bit of the news regarding the movie from there.


When the movie first premiered in theaters, I took my little sister to see it with me. We absolutely adored it! We couldn’t stop singing the songs. As soon as Disney Movie Club made it available for preorder we bought it. On Tumblr, the Disney Fandom went mad for it along with the rest of the world. This might have been our undoing though. The hype of the movie eventually seemed to not match the movie itself. Although Frozen was a wonderful movie, I have certainly seen better disney movies. That’s not to say i don’t feel it deserved everything it earned. As a fan i am thrilled at all the awards, achievements and recognition the movie gained. It’s a success for the company. But then there lies the question of when does it grow to be too much?


I remember in March 2014, during a visit to Walt Disney World with friends we waited in line for Anna and Elsa at Norway Pavillion in EPCOT. From park open, we waited 4 hours to meet them. Quite frankly i understand that they have many people to go through and see but our meeting was certainly rushed and not very enjoyable. Once they were moved to Magic Kingdom, rope drop procedures were changed due to the popularity of the girls and to ensure the safety of the guests. I was told that their lines were up to 5 hour long waits. Safe to say they were VERY popular.


Certain business moves were obvious ones to make. “Frozen on Ice” for example was one. A Frozen Broadway Production also was a given considering most of the cast has that musical background. However there a certain ones i disagree with. Personally i feel the company is doing far too much with this movie and not enough for their other products. Granted i understand completely as a entertainment business it is completely obvious for you to capitalize off of this movie. It is very possible to do so while giving your other movies a decent amount of marketing as well. I believe that the company is trying to milk it dry and rather than do that, you should see what made this movie so popular and try to incorporate it into your future productions. Each movie can be more successful than the last this way. Frozen did its job. It was successful and entertaining. But its been over a year now and I have barely seen anything done for Big Hero 6 in regards of the same treatment and i know that it is popular as of right now.


Certain business moves i feel were made that don’t make much sense. Replacing Maelstrom with a Frozen attraction, for example. I fail to see how two girls from the fictional land of “Arendelle” will properly showcase the culture and atmosphere of Norway. I am not positive as to why this move was made but i think World Showcase is supposed to accurately showcase lands from all over the world. When i visit World Showcase, I want to travel to France, Japan, Morocco, Mexico,and the UK. I wish to experience the food and atmosphere of it all. If i wished to experience Arendelle, wouldn’t it have made more sense for a magical, fictional place to be at Magic Kingdom? Granted there is a matter of space and where it would go. I can understand in a way why this decision would made. It would bring more children to EPCOT and World Showcase. I just feel EPCOT itself could use a parkwide refurb.


Another example would be bringing Anna and Elsa into Princess Fairytale Hall and taking Aurora and Snow white out into Main Street. Sorry to say but i did feel a bit offended by that. And i am not sure Mr. Disney would approve or appreciate the treatment of some of the original princesses that way. Many people already find them weak and disrespect them. That move certainly did not make it any better. I understand that the Arendelle sisters are very popular but Aurora and Snow white should not have simply been put onto Main Street. Again there is the matter of where to place them. Has it been considered that you just simply return tink to adventureland and turn that spot into a meet and greet for Anna and Elsa? It seems like a good idea since it’s at the front of the parks and indoors. Simply a suggestion of course.
Frozen Summer Fun seemed a bit of a stretch also but i must admit it was successful and gave many opportunities for people to see the characters. Disney’s Hollywood Studios is my favorite park and i didn’t like the idea of this movie taking over the entire park. Especially when it din’t necessarily fit in with the theme of it. Hollywood studios was dedicated as , “….to hollywood. not a place on a map, but a state of mind that exists wherever people dream and wonder and imagine……a hollywood that never was and always will be.” I assume it did help Hollywood Studios attendance immensely though.


Another instance was my first visit to Disneyland this past November. I had absolutely no complaints minus two. It was everything i pictured it would be and more. I had heard so much about World of Color and was very excited to see it in person. I refused to listen to the music until i heard and saw it in person. I wanted my first experience to be authentic as possible. Unfortunately i was very disapointted to see a colorful water ballet with back to back frozen songs, with an occasional holiday song thrown in, and featuring Olaf. I walked out in the middle of the show. My friends who stayed told me the crowd actually groaned out loud and booed when the song “Let it go” played. One of my most favorite experiences from my Disneyland trip was “Mad T party.” I had the most marvelous time there! The following week i discovered my first Mad T party experience would be my last since it fell victim to Frozen as well. I was told it would return in May 2015 but somehow i doubt it considering any frozen event continues to get extended further.


Next, I find the Castle lighting show and its extension ridiculous. Although Frozen is clearly ssociated with snow and ice, two things to do with winter, it is NOT a christmas movie. This event , along with the other frozen themed events, you can tell were not well thought out and rushed. There is no quality or creativity in any of these ideas. Sorry to say but it seems as if the company is just slapping the movie anywhere they can fit it. It’s amazing that they haven’t tried to find someway to put it into animal kingdom yet. The Castle Lighting could have been done so much differently. Just an idea off the top of my head but the charmings could have thrown a christmas party. Everyone was invited, the princesses, princes and the fab five. Elsa’s gift to Cinderella could have been lighting her castle for her. It’s simple and everyone would be able to see characters they didn’t get to see throughout the day. Also you could see some of the princesses together which hasn’t been done since Merida’s Coronation event. Not everyone wants to see the Frozen characters.


My last example as far as the parks is Disney parks christmas parade. Or should i say the “Frozen Christmas Celebration.” Need i say more about my issue with this. The renaming of the show alone proves my point of how bad the marketing and the hype is. It just seems like disney slapped frozen in the title and just assumed more people would view it. I watch this parade with my sister every year. we, along with many others, were extremely disapointted with what we saw. We barely saw the parade. I saw more of the actual parade in photos from friends who were a part of the taping than on the actual finished product. I see frozen everyday. I did not want to see families and performers singing frozen songs during a christmas parade show. If i wanted to see that i would have simply go onto Youtube.com. I cannot express enough how disapointted i was with that.


My next issue is with the merchandise. I will say during my last Walt Disney World visit i was not impressed by the amount of stores in the park dedicated strictly to Frozen. Meanwhile I can only find 1 piece of merchandise for Tiana and that’s just a doll. I won’t bother looking for Mulan or Pocahontas because that’s pretty much nonexistent to find at the parks. I find it unecessary to have 2-4 Frozen Merchandise shops in each Theme park. I personally walked into two at Hollywood Studios and three in Magic Kingdom.


I can’t help but feel the company may be cheating the fans out of quality merchandise. I have seen, of course i can’t help but see it, tons of frozen merchandise, but sad to say it is cheaply made and not anything people really want. yes everyone is clamoring for anna and elsa dolls, dresses, tiaras, pins and olaf plushes. But i’ve seen WAY too many cheaply made olaf plushes. One instance in particular i saw a small olaf plush that was clearly not well made and had the audacity to be $6.79!
I think that you should look more into what the public actually wants as for as far as merchadise for the movie. I know on tumblr people have been dying to have merchandise for prince Hans. Instead you give them collectors edition Frozen cereal. Rather than giving them what they desire you give them Frozen maracas. This leaves the impression that you 1)do not care what they want and 2) just assume that you can slap Frozen onto anything and that will sell. Quite frankly i see that as insulting the public’s intelligence. If you insist on producing so much Frozen merchandise, can it at least be good quality and something the public desires. And perhaps not so much of it. I am seeing everywhere stores trying to get rid of all their Frozen merchandise with buy 1, get 1 sales because they have too much of it that isn’t selling. Meanwhile i go to Disneyland looking for a Baymax plush and have to be told you are sold out everywhere and on your online store until later in the winter season.That’s unacceptable.


Big Hero 6 is your most recent moneymaker yet you did not treat it the same as Frozen. Frozen continues to gain more and more unecessary experiences and merchandise in the parks after over a year of being out. Big Hero 6 has been out for two months and you barely have any merchandise for it. I can’t find it anywhere in stores. Many Disney store cast members have told me the Big Hero 6 merchandise is tucked away in a corner of a store and not visible to the public while frozen merchandise is front and center in your stores. Big Hero 6 is your current seller. Why is it not at the front of your stores? Why is your year old success in the place where your current should be? Also the sudden removal of Hiro and Baymax from Disneyland and soon Walt Disney World have people on Tumblr outraged. People are really upset by this because they have not been meet and greet characters for long at all. I have a friend who was very saddened to hear that she would not be able to meet them this week during her visit to Disneyland. She, and along with others, were very excited to meet them at Disneyland as parts of their trips. We are all confused as to why this is being done and why the company is treating the movie this way. The movie is very popular and we love it. It seems like no other movie really matters except Frozen.


Speaking of which my final point as far as the merchandise is the princesses. I will use them as an example. I am sure you are aware you have a diverse audience in age and in race. I find it unfair the treatment of merchandising in regards to each individual princess. I recently looked into the amount of merchandise each Disney Princess has alone to prove my point. As of 12/27/14 each princess had the following :
Ariel: 74 items
Aurora: 72 items
Belle: 58 items
Cinderella : 74 items
Jasmine : 11 items (merchandise with just her alone and not with aladdin)
Merida: 18 items
Mulan: 6 items
Pocahontas: 8 items
Rapunzel: 59 items
Snow white: 73 items
Tiana: 15 items


What i have noticed is the lack of merchandise for the non-white princesses compared to white princesses. I have had friends who have been desperately looking for merchandise for Mulan, Pocahontas and Tiana and can only find the dolls, if they can even find that. It is very blatant through merchandise alone how the treatment of the non- white princesses are and it’s upsetting.


I didn’t even bring up the amount of Frozen merchandise it is because i have noticed they are not included with the other princesses at all so i assumed you have intentionally kept it that way since Frozen alone makes enough money. But of course when i checked your online store there was about 113 items for the movie. Only 63 items for Big Hero 6.
I speak for people between the ages of 15-25 who wants these things. I have heard many times people say “disney makes movies for kids not for adults!” Walt himself has said , “ I do not make films primarily for children, i make them for the child in all of us, whether we be six, or sixty.”


I genuinely feel that Walt Disney was all about progression and moving forward. I do not see the company doing this. I see a company so set on making money off of this one movie that they are failing to move forward and progress. I am sure everyone is grateful and appreciative of all the Frozen events and Merchandise you have given us. But it may be time to just let go of the reins of the Frozen train for a bit and put a little more effort into your other movies.


Trust me no one is letting go of Frozen (if you will excuse the pun) so it will not hurt to divert your attention a bit. The people would like more of Big Hero 6 and more of their non -white princesses to be seen and noticed. I have seen so many people beginning to lose faith in the company because of these moves done with Frozen and it breaks me heart. I love this company so much and i just want to see it succeed. I aspire to work for this company again one day.


I hope by expressing my views and the opinions of a few that it may help sway you into changing a few things.

note: i am pretty sure there are grammar and spelling errors but i will fix those later.

This is for those who asked for me to post my letter when it was done. you don’t have to agree with ANYTHING in this letter since these are strictly from my point of view.