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hi. couple months ago after being away from the phandom for a year ive decided to come back because i missed my friends and making dan and phil content. originally i left because i considered the phandom a toxic place and my interest for dan and phil kind of faded. it came back though and i got into them again and also i made some amazing friends that i cherish to death. 

lately though, i can feel my interest in dan and phil fading again. i kind of feel guilty because im almost pretending to feel excited about the things they do, reblogging d&p content feels like a duty and i havent made any d&p content in a while. i was thinking its maybe because im busy with school and work but i still manage to update my kpop sideblog daily and i honestly enjoy it.

thats why i came to the realisation that kpop makes me the happiest and its something im 100% interested in unlike phan. and i think thats what my main blog should be - something i really enjoy. therefore this blog will be a kpop/aesthetic one from now on with the url bfnochu. i didnt want to make a new one because this blog has been with me for so long (3 years) and i cant just leave it. 

i definitely understand and know that many of you will unfollow me and i dont blame you, even if we’re mutuals. but if you dont like kpop and dont want to unfollow me ive decided to make a phan sideblog with the url hcwll. i dont know how active ill be there but i will still try to reblog the amazing content the phandom’s creators make and make gifs there occasionally because i still love dan and phil, just not as much as i love kpop.

i really hope you understand this and trust me, this was a dificult decision but for now i feel like its the best option for me.

i love you all lovers

Coming back on to good ol’ Tumblr.com and being immediately met with drama

anonymous asked:

hi, new to your blog so i don't know if you've done this, but a fic based on the au where michael goes blind after the fire?

Ok so before I post this I wanna say I am so sorry that this is so awful and if you wanna send me something to help me fix it go ahead.

Here it is:

“Dude why the hell is Braille so hard to read?”

Jeremy sighed, “I could just read a book to you if you’d like?”

Michael was pacing the room with a book in his hand, his fingers scanning the pages as he practiced reading Braille.

“No way, I gotta learn to read this myself, you feel? I just don’t get why they couldn’t just make the dots form actual letters…”

“I’m sure there’s a reason- and can you stop pacing? You’re making me nervous.”

Michael rolled his eyes behind his glasses, and made his way towards Jeremy’s voice. He waved his waking stick around, whacking Jeremy in the knee in the process.

“Ow! Dude- careful! I swear you do that on purpose sometimes.”

Michael chuckled, “of course not, not to my best buddy” he plopped down on the couch next to him.

Jeremy sighed, his face was completely drained of joy. All he could think about was the Michael was blind. It happened after the fire, Michale had gotten trapped inside the bathroom that he left him in. Let’s just say the ambulance had to drag him out. He’s got a nasty scar on his face, arm, and a bit of his chest too, but the worst one had to be his lack of vision. At first Jeremy used to catch himself whenever he got upset around Michael, he would always know Jeremy was upset the second his eyebrow twitched. But now Jeremy learned that as long as you keep your tone up, Michael can’t know. It’s cruel to let Michael be ignorant through his damn injury that he caused, but he can’t help it.

“So you’ve got any plans for today?”

Jeremy hummed, “nah…I look like shit.”

“Well as a gay, you look pretty great.”

Jeremy would have blushed, but honestly he just couldn’t. “You can’t even see me dude…”

“Yeah but I remember, how could I forget? I really don’t think you’ll change till maybe thirty.”

Jeremy simply hummed again. It was awkward now, there were so many things they couldn’t do anymore. They couldn’t game, roller skate, go for a drive, watch movies. It really seemed like the only things they could do was…get high.

Michael leaned against Jeremy’s shoulder. “Stop sulking man.”

“I’m not.”

“Hey now…it’s alright. This totally blows man.”

This totally blows.

When Michael had woken up in the ambulance, Jeremy was right there. He’d gotten the call from Jake, who was yelling about a fire and injury but all he heard was “Michael” and “ambulance” at the time. It wasn’t until he was in the hospital that Jenna explained via text what really went down. And god did Jeremy feel bad.

Jeremy had already heard the news, that chances were Michael couldn’t see anymore. He crossed his fingers for some kind of miracle. And then Michael woke up.

“Michael? Buddy? Hey yeah look…open-open your eyes!!”

He gave a strained smile as he stood over Michael. The latter peeled his eyes open as though dry glue were keeping them together. He groaned, “shit…everything hurts what the fuck…”

“Hey Mike! How you feeling?”

“Jeremy?” His eyes lazily scanned the room but focused on nothing. Jeremy knew before his heart could drop, the discoloration in his eyes said it all.

Michael sat up quickly, banging his head into Jeremy’s.

“Michael hey calm-”

“Holy shit I can’t- I can’t see!! Jeremy why can’t I see!? What the fuck it going on?! I can’t– I cant!!” Michael was instantly in a state of panic, his hands clawing at his face in a way that haunted Jeremy’s dreams.

Jeremy grabbed his wrists, “calm down!! Calm down… it’s gonna be ok!”

“Jeremy I can’t fucking see and you think-”

“I know I know I’m sorry, just take a deep breath and I’ll explain everything ok.”

It was hard to ignore the big fat tears that rolled down Michael’s face. He had this look of shock his in eyes, but his expression stayed still and unwavering as he hiccuped for breaths. Jeremy hugged him, promising to help him through this. When Michael calmed down he said one thing only, “this totally blows man.”

Jeremy didn’t even realize he was crying until tears landed in his lap. He looked around, no longer in the painful memory of the hospital. Rather he was on the couch at Michael’s house with said boy leaning up against him. In any other circumstance that’d be a dream. He gave a wet inhale, nearly sobbing into his fist. Shit.

“Jeremy..?”

Jeremy wanted to answer him but he couldn’t, his voice would be a dead giveaway. As though his shaking shoulders weren’t enough.

“Hey Jeremy answer me.”

“M-mich-Michael…” he choked out, voice wavering and cracked.

“Aw dude…come here” he was wrapped in warm sweater covered arms. Jeremy started letting out sobs loudly, shaking in Michael’s arms.

“Talk to me Jere… what’s wrong?”

“How can you- can you be so ok with this?!” Deep down he knew Michael wasn’t. But he never showed it besides for the night he woke up.

“After everything I’ve done to you, you still hang out with me?! Hell you- you trust me?! I ruined- destroyed your life and you just- you trust me to be your damn eyes!?”

“I know.”

Jeremy went from a screaming to emotional statements “You can’t fucking see.”

“I know.”

“You can’t do so many things you love anymore.”

“I know.”

“I ruined your life”

“That’s..this wasn’t your fault ok. You can’t keep blaming yourself for this Jeremy.” He ran his hand through Jeremy’s hair and rubbed his back. Two things that usually calmed him down, but now it did nothing.

Jeremy pulled away from the hug, “how can I not?! I’m the reason you were in that stupid fucking bathroom! I’m the reason you were even at the party! I should have gone back! I should have-”

Michael decided to just let Jeremy go off. Let all the emotions of this week out. Jeremy sobbed and yelled about what an awful person, friend, and thing he was. He yelled about how Michael deserved better, how Michael could have been better off, how he should have listened to Michael. Michael Michael Michael. Neither even remembers how long it took Jeremy to calm down or what did it. He was just hiccuping into Michael’s shirt, his face hidden.

“…if you ask me, I couldn’t have a better player one. You’ve been doing such a good job helping me adjust…”

“But I-”

“You’re my best friend Jeremy. I forgive you. You’ve gotta forgive yourself. I know that won’t be now but…start working on it, ok?”

When Jeremy nodded, Michale planted a kiss to his forehead. Then he guided his hand over his face, feeling every inch of Jeremy. Making out his distressed frown, the bags in his eyes, the tears, all of it. Of course all this upset Michael too, hence why he joked around about it so much. But he’d be ok, he had Jeremy.

“Hey now uh..now we have an excuse to get that dog we’ve always wanted.”

Michael snorted and hugged Jeremy closer, “hell to the yeah we do.”

They’ll be ok.

I updated my theme and header image and
  • Me: *edits blog theme*
  • Me: omg I'm so happy. These new colours are so beautiful. They go so perfectly with my new header image. I'm so happy
  • Me: *gets a heart attack every time I open my blog* WHY IS IT SUDDENLY DIFFERENT oh yea right I remember now I did this it's fine

anonymous asked:

hi I'm new to your blog and I love it I was going back through everything last night and this might be really late to talk about but about the remix thing I imagine you get new followers every day and so the late ones like me won't have seen posts with actual Dan music instead of remixes which is why I think it's okay to recycle songs and that you should especially if you were having a hard time finding remixes and stuff but that's just my thought!

Hmmm! This is actually an interesting line of thought I hadn’t considered before! What does everyone else think about it? Would you more enjoy being able to click on an actual Dan song once a day instead of a remix you may or may not like? Please let me know! All comments are valid!

wow, okay. i’ve been writing jim since february, when trollhunters was new and standing on its first legs and there wasn’t much of community, and though the fandom at large has grown tremendously, the rp community has stayed small. when i made jim, called and compelled to without knowing why, i never for a minute expected to reach two hundred followers, two hundred people  ( excluding po.rnbots, which i block )  interested, in some small way, in my interpretation of james lake.

you all have been unbelievably kind to me. you never for a moment let me doubt my prose or my portrayal. through my rping, i’ve been dealing with my internalized ableism and insecurity regarding my own identity, pouring much of that into jim, and in return, you have poured nothing but love and support in my direction. you have given me a place to explore these things. surrounded by so many lovely souls, i feel safe to take a hard look at the world, not just as an rper, but as a writer at large and as a person, so thank you tremendously. 

writing jim is a joy every day. i could not be happier here.

if you know me, you know that i love complimenting people, so i want to take a moment to shout out to a few people i’ve spoken with and/or who i admire on the dash, people who have deeply enhanced my experience on here. that said, i want to keep this short, but rest assured if you’re not mentioned here that i adore you and your portrayal, and could tell you so and just how every day of the week.


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Who do I follow?

I had been asked in the past and was again recently ‘who do I follow on tumblr’? and I usual always answer peoples questions in chat individually. But after seeing the wonderful @lisa-i-am (who I follow, as I think she does her blog the way I wish I had, as well as being beautiful) tell her followers who she follows on here, I thought it time I do similar. 

So to start some individuals I follow are

@phitasian   - Cos I just hope I can look half as good as her in the future, doesnt update as much at the moment, but every photo is worth the wait.

@cherryhotwifeofficial - Her blog is so hot, and ive heard her website even hotter. I love her life style, so exciting, I couldnt do anything but want to know more when I first found her blog.

@sexyniggella - A fellow Thai, with the sexiest body and ample boobs, has a sexy snapchat too.

@dollywinksgirl - I dont know how u can be reading this and not following her already.

Other people I follow, though I tend to follow new ones and change older ones often are

@allasianpersuasion - used to follow their previous tumblr account, nice person and hottest pics of Asian girls.

@asiangirlswanted - If you are Asian and new to tumblr, this is a must to follow, always happy to help out and lovely and polite to talk to. And if that isnt enough the posts he post are hot (well cos im there of course :P)

@sexythaiuniversitystudents - If you like uniforms, the Thai university uniforms are often voted the sexiest uniform in the world (probably helps the girls in them are hot too). This blog hasnt featured me yet, but there are plenty of girls there to see already.

Recently started following

@prayforbooty - Have submitted a photo, but perhaps its delayed or wasnt up to their standard, but if anything thats why u should follow this tumblr, the standard of booty is very high, u will love it.

@we-want-nudity - They have a very big following, and it should be no surprise why, hottest photos all day, again id love to be on there, but we can see in time.

These are just an idea of who I follow on tumblr. There are other accounts I follow, and people who message me and talk to me, like and reblog, which I thank you all for. This is not meant as any favoritism, just an honest post about who I follow, and a little reason why.

anonymous asked:

Not tryna put u on the defensive, but u seem to have an issue with interracial couples and mad hate on white-skin folk. Coming from someone of minority who's faced the of ridiculousness of white people too many times, I do feel u but wondering why it's so deep for u? Like soo often the anger and hated is justified but I feel like sometimes it's a bit too far? With so much division unnecessary hate is counterproductive when the hate is centred only around the fact that theyre white n that's it.

I’m going to assume you’re prolly new to my blog. I’ve made it perfectly clear before that I don’t have an issue with interracial couples. I’ve never had an issue with White people solely based on the fact that they are white. Rather I have multiple issues with them for all the privileges and benefits that come with being White. I am going to assume you decided to message me because of my recent Jane The Virgin liveblogging? I still absolutely stand by everything I’ve said. Every interracial couple I’ve seen so far on that show included a White. I hate the fact that White is seen as the Default race and everybody else is just accessories. So yes, it bothers me and if you honestly think that “hate” (because it’s not hate) is counterproductive I highly recommend you educate yourself. Also I have the strongest feeling that you’re a white. If not my bad but yeah. 

My first art post to my new blog! Headcanon that Sammy Lawrence plays the flute when he feels down. This is a weird idea I had as I was falling asleep a few nights ago. Since Sammy is the Music Director, he most likely plays an instrument, and the flute was what I pictured.

anonymous asked:

I am not a fan of cat but I noticed she put dan is not on fire on the description of her videos and idk if thats something new which I find hilarious tbh

ok real talk time. why do y’all do this? this thing where you talk at me without so much as a hello*. as if we’ve been having a conversation, but i didn’t know it? its disorienting and kind of rude? 

like i don’t want to turn anon off. i know the struggle of tumblr not letting you make asks from a main blog and not wanting your main posted around like that. but you (and other folks) gotta understand that for me every anon is a totally new person (unless you id yourself as an anon i’ve previously talked to) and it feels a little bit like you’re asking me for a performance rather than a conversation? 

i guess maybe i’ve never explicitly said this, but i’m actually a pretty sensitive person when it comes to how you talk to me and its not very hard to rub me the wrong way. and this trend rubs me the wrong way. i try to be welcoming and friendly, because i really like the friends i’ve made in this fandom, the mutuals and the folks i just occasionally check on. but i really don’t like being talked at (and i also don’t like being asked to do educating i didn’t sign up for. you know who you are)

sorry you’re the straw that broke the camels back (plz you don’t have to apologies or whatever, i’m not upset. also lol srry i have no feelings on Cat) but just. gah. lets continue to think of (and talk to) people as people and not as names on your dashboard, yeah?


*obviously, if i’m asking for prompts or meme questions, i don’t need a grand introduction, but these random messages? nah, son.

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NEW SPRING BACKGROUND.:D and I am almost done updating my blog.:) 

Fell free to use it to decorate your blog as well.:) (thats why I left the watermark.:)) 

The only thing I ask is to not post it on instagram, facebook or google +. Recently I found lots of my art cropped and edited there. If you want to share my art just be sure its mainly a link and always sourced. if something demand my art in particular then just come ask me I swear i don’t bite.:)

Update!

Hey guys! So I haven’t updated anyone about my life or whereabouts in awhile, and I thought that I would catch up my older and new followers that I gained while being inactive for like almost a year!

So, to start things off I got married in March to my bf of 6 years! We just went to the court house and signed the paper haha, I never wanted a big wedding or a wedding at all so my dream wedding came true lmao, it was simple, stress free (sort of) We got a ticket on the way there, I got my period and was SOO bloated and felt gross, and I couldn’t walk in the shoes i was wearing because the heel was so damn high, but other then that it was a very fun experience, when we signed all the paperwork and did the whole ring exchange thing we couldn’t stop smiling, we went out to dinner and just had an amazing time. 

After that we started house searching again but couldn’t decide where we wanted to live, and what we really wanted and on top of that my grandparents were in a really bad place financially and medically so we figured that it would be fine to just be with them and help them out with the bills, well…we ended up paying ALL their bills every month and I basically became their free housekeeper/caretaker, as much as I love them and hate to say this but they just got a little bit too comfortable mooching off us and started taking advantage of their benefits, on top of getting really rude when things didn’t go their way… I hate talking negatively about my family but we just had enough. So we started looking for houses, we have been saving for years to put a down payment on a house so we shopped around for a bit, we found some amazing places but everything we liked took about 7-12 months to build also depending on the weather or changes we would want done it can take shorter or longer, we thought about it for awhile and could not imagine staying another 7-12 months paying for another persons house and caring for them 24/7, we also didn’t know if we wanted to stay in PA permanently but didn’t really know what other states to live in, so we started looking at leasing townhouses and rental houses for a short term situation. I could not find a decent place that had no breed restrictions until I remembered about one that we visited about two years ago but was a bit too pricey for us at the time. We called them to ask if they had any townhouse still available and they had one left which was a corner lot, with woods in the back, it was freshly just built so we would be the first people living in it, has a huge kitchen with granite countertops, stainless steel appliances, and a kitchen island! They have a dog park and is pretty close to everything. The next day we went to check it out, signed the lease and in 24 hours we got the keys to it! it was super exciting and in a way it felt like we really just started our adult lives.  The townhouse is a dream, i mean there are a few things I wish were different but I guess I will have my chance to design and change things up when we finally settle down and build a house of our own haha! The townhouse is about 1,900 sq feet and has a full basesent with laundry and outside exit to the woods, a full granite kitchen with a dining area and a back porch that exits elevated to a view of the woods, 3 bedrooms and 2 1/12 bathrooms, a master walk in closet and other things I can’t really think of right now, but we were so happy to be able to get the three bedrooms because the master bedroom is our bedroom and the other two bedrooms became my makeup room/office and my husbands office. One of the bedrooms that we are making office spaces is bigger with bigger windows then the other so he claimed dibs on the bigger one until I came in with my pouty face and pulled the “baaaabeee but i have soooo much stuff, how do you expect me to fit it all in here and this tiny closet space   :(” and he was all like “its plenty of space what are you talking about” and then i was all like “yeah i guess its fine, I can just store some of my stuff in your closet and office” then he was like ok its yours, so long story short I have the perfect space with the perfect lighting with 3 large windows and a larger closet:) 

Since i moved into the new place, I am so much less stressed then I was before, I will be launching my lashes back up and the blog I promised a year ago. At the moment I am currently looking for ideas and projects to blog about, I have a few really great things that I think people my age would really be interested in, but I really just want to make it a general lifestyle blog that includes everything I enjoy doing and making. I just want to apologize for being MIA for so long, I feel like I should describe how I felt and why I didn’t really want to be online or on any social media for that time.. well to start things off I it all begin when I started feeling worn out and having random anxiety attacks out of nowhere, i’m generally an anxious person but this time it was soo much worse, randomly throughout the day and out of no where I had panic attacks where it felt like I was going to die. As dramatic as it sounds, it was no joke the first time it happened I got so freaked out that I was so close to calling an ambulance (and I hate hate hate doctors/hospitals/medical stuff so if i say call an ambulance i really think I’m going to die) it felt like my body was just shutting down on me and it was a feeling I have never felt before, later on my hair started falling out in large clumps I had pretty thick hair before and its not thin or anything now but when i would brush it or be in the shower my hair would fall out in CHUNKS it freaked me out and I cried because I’ve been growing out hair for years and I thought that it would all be gone soon, of course I was being dramatic but my hair does feel less full and had a lot of breakage:/ but oh well, I also stopped sleeping at night and up until recently I have just been slowly going into a normal-ish sleeping pattern. Before I could stay up for about 48 hours to 60 hours with about 30 minute naps without feeling the least bit sleepy and a full nights rest was about 3 hours I would fall asleep at 12 and wake up at 3 overnight and just be up all day, like I felt tired but I could not for the love of me fall into a deep sleep for about a 3 months anytime I was asleep for more then 30 minutes I was just in a lucid state of sleep or I would either have a horrifying nightmares or just jerk out of sleep. The last sign of stress for me was when I lost my period, it was so weird to me because it NEVER happened! I thought I was pregnant for a good few weeks but then realized it was just due to stress and anxiety. That was kind of the last straw for my husband, he basically was just like I can’t keep seeing you like this and you should be placed in a better environment because its really starting to effect your health blah blah so thats why we like found the place and moved in right away, he has been nothing but an amazing and caring parter to me for the past 6 years, he really goes above and beyond everyday to make sure I have a smile on my face. He even bought me a new macbook because i was angry that the iMac we got was going into his office and just so I can actually start working on my blog which I have talked about for the past year and a dyson vacuum because he saw me look at extra long at everytime we went into any store that carried it (idk I just have a thing for high end cleaning supplies) he’s even cool with me decorating the new place as modern girly glam as I want, can a girl want anything more??? lol.

Well sorry for this being so long!! I just wanted to update anyone who was wondering what I have been up to and my life. I hope you guys will love the new blog! I have been hunting for cool furniture pieces to upcycle on craigslist and whipping up interesting diy beauty projects! Love you guys who have supported me and hydrangea beauty from day one!<3 you are all the best

anonymous asked:

Hi hi! I'm new to your blog and I just wanted to say that's it's amazingggg :)) May I request a gif scenario where you (his girlfriend) and him are on the couch just chilling and listening to music while eating pocky and all of a sudden you take one of the sticks from their mouth ^~^

(I’m guessing you mean a gif react)

Jungkook: *is stunned* “Did you just take my Pocky?” 

Jimin: “Why did you only take the Pocky? Don’t you want to taste my lips too?”

Taehyung: What just happened? Did she just take my Pocky? 

Hoseok: “Hey that’s mine~” *whines*

Namjoon: *nonchalantly* “You can take my Pocky but I expect payment in the form of kisses.”

Yoongi: “Why do you have your own if you just want to take mine?”

Seokjin: “…I’ll get back at you for this. Don’t you worry~” 

- Devi (✿´‿`)

Rant time for the hetalia fandom yeeey

Okay so here we go Jesus take the wheel.

Hi! Hello! Whats up? Hope youre having a good day! Today im gonna talk about something that has been going around for some time and that is.
The hetalia fandom is dying.

Wow wow there hold youre harambes!
A lot of talk has been made on his topic but i kinda wanna talk about it too?

“The problem is the hetalia fandom is toxic !”

I hear you say, its true . Some people have the habbit of being very unhappy and rude when their notps are mentioned for example. Like you see a usuk blog and youre like “hell yeah!” and then you see like idk a frus blog and youre like “but Alfred and Arthur were meant to be! ”
In your headcannon sure. But other people dont see it like that, just because I preffer ukus doesn’t mean ill go on a usuk blog and be like “fuck no Arties not a bottom! ”
But in all honesty hetalia is not the only fandom with this issue! What makes it seem worse is that there are so many characters! So many possible ships!
And then the already bad thing gets 10 times worse.
So if its not that then what is it?
The hate thats being thrown at ask bloggers and imagine blogs, rp blogs ect.?
Every fandom has the same issue as well, its kind of unavoidable

Now my personal opinion is that its the ask blogs and its fans. (also imagine blogs and such but mostly ask blogs )

You see there were blogs like @ask-hitman-jones , @ask-aph-fruk , @ask-p2-germany , @ask-2p-england , @ask-devil-america that have thousands of followers! Well deserved of course! These people have absolutely INCREDIBLE art skills! They’ve improved so much and most of them existed for years now! Unfortunately not all of then are active, some update every few months, some every year and some just… Deactivate. Which is sad i understand! You want your well drawn , well thought out favorite character to answer your ask or you want to see that certain artist art more.
I completely understand !
But trust me you wont make them come back by spamming them with messeges like “please come back! ” . Some of these blogs are dead. End of story! You can look back at the posts and enjoy them but you also need to learn that its over. The person has either lost intrest in hetalia, found a better fandom, decided to generally ditch drawing or they were having personal issues.
Now heres where the problem is in my opinion
People dont move on.
They would rather spam people like @ask-slytherin-alfred with “UPDATE MORE/ COME BACK PLEASE / DADDY GIVE ME THE CUMMIES” instead of going to new found blogs like @ask-cupcakes-tea-andsodapop or @ask-aph-bulgariq both amazing ask blogs with really beautiful art! Its not fair! Youre not giving these blogs a chance! Those artists dont get any feedback and decide to just delete the blog blaming themselves for not getting any asks! Thats stupid! This should not happened! The hetalia fandom isn’t dying but people are instead choosing to spam the blogs who already get hundreds of asks a month anyway! Why?! Does the blog not contain you otp? Is the art not good enough for you? Is it because its about a different country that isn’t just the same bunch from allies and axis? Why is it so difficult to go to a blog and leave them a question? By doing that youll make their day! I understand that these blogs where there since the begging but still! Please try and understand the small artists that bearly even get 3 notes. Please it only takes a minute to send someone an ask and make their day. Dont let this fandom die please Stay creative with your aus and characters! That is all! Please reblog this with your opinion on the subject! I wanna know your thoughts on the matter! (sorryforanygrammererrors)

“You know what? I don’t necessarily want to shed my Ygritte character. I absolutely love her; I really, really, really did love her. She holds a special place in my heart. I think that’s an obstacle that any actor who’s fortunate enough to work comes across; it’s really making sure that you play characters that vary, and that you’re able to show your range, and do something that’s not predictable.” (Rose Leslie photographed by Sophia Evans for The Guardian)