it's nice for it to finally be free

Preview for a something that will hopefully be coming up in the next weeks โ๏∀๏ใ 

I’m not yet 100% sure in what direction this will go but I’ll finally try to get more into storytelling (⊃‿⊂)

Rivamika Timeline Part 3 (2015~2017)

A little over two years since I posted Part 2… here it is! The long awaited Rivamika Timeline - Part 3. The Uprising Arc might be long over in the manga, but the Rivamika hype has not faded… far from it.

This post covers chapters 71, 72, 74, 78, 83, 84, 85 & 89 from the Return to Shiganshina arc and chapter 93 of the Truth of Marley arc, as well as the new ANSWERS databook and anime Season 2′s episodes 28, 30 & 33.

[Part 1] - Everything up to the Clash of Titans arc, anime Season 1, INSIDE KOU databook (2009~2013) 

[Part 2] - Uprising Arc (2014~2015) 

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Hey! After the last time, i decided to open commissions once more.


Format Order:

  • Paypal e-mail: (To indentify you)
  • Order: (What kind of draw you want).
  • How many characters in the order: (1-3)
  • Reference: (Can i change a little things or do i have to stay stick at the reference?)
  • Style:
  • Type of Background: (If its too detailed could make an extra change at the final cost)
  • Personality of the character:
  • Extras: (Things you think i should need to the work).

If you have any questions, feel free to ask me in the ask box, i’ll be super happy to solve them for you.

Thanks for your attention, and have super nice day. ♥



a couple of pre-t vs almost 1 year on T comparison pictures, and then some shirtless post-op selfies!

so, i wanted to make a little progress post for pride month, and just. wow! what a year! its almost my T anniversary, and im over two weeks post-op now and healing up nicely. so much has changed for me in this past year…ive slowly learned to start loving myself and the body im in, and now that ive finally had top surgery i feel truly free for the first time in forever. im comfortable and happy with where i am in life right now, and i want to say to all my trans fellows out there who are struggling: life gets better. life goes on. one day its going to be okay. i know how dark and miserable it can be sometimes, i know how much it hurts to cry yourself to sleep over things you cant control, and i know everything can feel hopeless. but please dont give up on yourself! please hang in there!

and please, feel free to message me if you need support or have questions. im here for you, and i love you <3 happy pride month everybody

Writeblr Gothic

- You will see the same post eight times in one day. Keep scrolling. Do not interact, do not spread the curse. It will spread anyway. You keep scrolling, but your dash is only that post. It will only ever be that post. 

- There are several big writeblrs. They have always been there. They will always be there. Others rise and fall like empires but the core remains. You reblog their advice posts despite the creeping fear that you are only feeding the power of ancient abominations too terrifying to name.

- At first, the anons feel like a blessing. Then, a tidal wave in their numbers, clamoring for attention, they feel like a curse. You do not want to know about the third stage. You would not survive the knowledge. Just know there is a reason the ancient writeblrs need vast levels of power.

- You will make one post, more famous than all the rest. At first, it will be your favourite child. So strong, so popular, so many notes! Only later will you realise that it is the cuckoo in you nest, and all your other posts are long dead. You try to kill it, but it is out there now, and it only grows larger. You will never have a more successful child.

- You make a small circle of friends. It is only small. There are only 5, 10, 15, 200 of you. Who is this person? How do they know you? Why do they speak of you with such familiarity? Oh, of course, they are a friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend . That makes perfect sense. You reblog their work. 

- Somebody is looking for beta readers. You vaguely know who they are (possibly a friend-of-a-friend?) and their book sounds amazing. You sign on. That was a mistake. Their book is slightly flawed but brilliant and you spend hours detailing your feedback. You pretend your other life commitments aren’t staring you in the face, feeling abandoned. You finish their book, offer them back their masterpiece in the making. Now it is time to catch up on- oh, look!  Somebody is looking for beta readers.You-

- There is a vagueblog. You recognise exactly what type of writer the OP is vagueblogging about. They have made it abundantly obvious. That exact type of writer enthusiastically reblogs the post; there are two types of response. One misses the point of a vagueblog and tags it #meeeeeeeeeeeeee. The other slams writers for the sin which they, too, commit without realising. Which type are you? You do not want to know. You do not want to find out. You scroll past the post. 

- You make a new friend. They seem nice until you realise they are an anti-SJW as they try to mansplain what a comma is. You smile politely at your screen and back out of the conversation. You make a new friend. They seem nice until you realise they are a devout Southern Christian when they try to inform you that abortion is murder and you are a filthy queer sinner. You smile politely at your screen and back out of the conversation. You make a new friend. They seem nice until you realise they are a fourteen year old with a rabid conviction that their rewritten fanfic will be a bestseller by the end of the year. You smile politely at your screen and back out of the conversation. You make a new friend. They seem nice until-


Seth x imprint!reader

Request: “i just discovered your blog and wooow, you’re v good!! can i make a request? Where imprint!reader moves from spain to la push because she loves nature and the views (she wants to be a photographer, too) and one day the pack and her meet because (+) they catch her making photos of them with her bigass camera (lol this is me) because she finds them so pretty and they match so well w/ nature as a background? (Sorry if its too much detail omg) (+)also reader can be seth’s imprint if it isn’t too much! sorry if i seem like a freak lol i just love photography and the nature of la push!! tysm i luv you a lot have a nice day! take care and good luck on school !!”

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mysticalcrusadementality  asked:

Omg XD every time I see you post something about Sans liking Frisk's hips and butt I can't help but smile and laugh. It's actually my own personal head canon that Sans (especially underfell Sans) is an ass man. A concept I do hope to expand on when I finally have enough free time to write fanfiction again. It's Frans, so if you're interested please check it out ^^


(I actually think I’ve read your fan-fictions before, they’re really nice!! Have some super quick art for BNTB) :

finally presenting in ways that are coded as lesbian and more neutral in gender expression after years of forced feminity and overcompensation so that no one would assume i was gay when i was in the closet is so refreshing. even the years after coming out my straight peers made it clear they saw me as “a good lesbian” because of my forced feminity but i feel so free to finally not care about that and to just exist as me and exist as a lesbian.

Fic Rec Time!!

Since it’s the start of Fandom Fic Rec Days…here are a few fabulous stories that deserve a share!
These are in no particular order~

Those Flooded Fields by Euphorion @flightlesscrowkids
Rated:  T (Violence)
Fandom:  Haikyuu!!
Pairing(s):  KageHina, AsaNoya, KiyoYachi, DaiSuga, TsukiYama, KuroKen, BokuAka, IwaOi
Status:  WIP
Summary:   Post-apocalyptic but not particularly dystopian (yet) Artificial Intelligence AU where Kageyama is a voice in Hinata’s head and they’re still not very good at communicating. Title from Neko Case’s Fox Confessor Brings the Flood.
A word from Jubesy:  Oh my goodness.  This world is so interesting and the angst is legit.  What a cool concept!  It’s written well and it’s interesting no matter the character’s POV.

the Sun and the Mole Rat by TCon @secretly-devious
Rated:  M
Fandom:  Kuroko no Basuke
Pairing(s):  AkaFuri, KagaKuro (mentioned)
Status:  Complete
Summary:  Akashi Seijuurou was like the sun; beautiful, radiant and infinitely unreachable. It was an impossibly stupid thing that someone like him could ever be compared to someone like Furihata Kouki, who was so ordinary in everything, nobody would look at him twice should he walk down the crowded streets.  So when Akashi came onto him for a fuck, he didn’t exactly say no. AkaFuri Future-Fic
A word from Jubesy:  I love this.  It was one of the first AkaFuri fics that I ever read.  It’s hot and angsty and (spoiler) has a happy ending!  Definitely worth the read!

The Iunctio-Stones Series by Luxie @flyingassassin
Rated:  E
Fandom:  Free!
Pairing(s):  SouRin, MakoHaru
Status:  Complete
Summary:   “I’ll do it.” Sousuke says, looking the doctor straight in the eyes. “I just have to ask. What’s the down side?”
The doctor smiles again, wider and with a glint in his eyes. “The down side, Yamazaki-san, is that you get to be a Superhero.”
A word from Jubesy:  Sexual tension at its finest.  Danger?  Action?  Adventure?  It’s all there!  Really cool premise and it includes a lot of side characters from Free!, which is always nice.

Designation: Miracle Series by umisabaku @umisabaku
Rated:  M
Fandom:  Kuroko no Basuke (includes Haikyuu!! and Big Windup!, as well)
Pairing(s):  KagaKuro, KiKasa, MidoTaka, MuraHimu, AoMomo, KageHina, KuroKen, AkaFuri, AbeMiha, HanaTaji
Status:  WIP
Summary:   It’s been three years since seven human experiments, called “Miracles,” escaped Teiko Industries, alerting the world to the presence of super-powered children. Now they’re finally integrating into society– going to normal high schools, playing basketball, falling in love– and trying to find out if it’s possible to truly escape their past.
A word from Jubesy:  An amazing concept!  Really cool!!  Full of angst and super powers.  The “minor characters” take the lead in this AU and I love that.  Kasamatsu, Kagami, Takao, and Himuro are a really big part.  Every couple is great and interesting.  Check it out!

I Will Follow You Into the Dark by shions_heart @shions-heart
(for  knightswatch)

Rated:  M (Major Character Death)
Fandom:  Haikyuu!!
Pairing(s):  KuroKen, IwaOi, BokuAka, TsukiYama, KageHina, DaiSuga, YakuLev, AsaNoya, KyouHaba
Status:  WIP
Summary:  With terrifying creatures mysteriously appearing in downtown Sendai, consuming every living thing in their sights, the country’s leading scientists hatch a plan to create super soldiers to fight and destroy these monsters.  Kuroo Tetsurou is one of those soldiers.
A word from Jubesy:  This fic is just so good I can’t.  Even with the major character death (which I never, ever read, mind you) it’s so captivating and interesting and well-written that I can cry and keep going.  The concept is really great (think Pacific Rim meets Attack on Titan)  The characters are fabulous, the angst is choice, and the world is so interesting!  I can’t wait to see how it ends (but I also don’t want it to end)

A Warrior’s Heart by donguris @donguris
Rated:  T
Fandom:  Free!
Pairing(s):  SouRin, MakoHaru, SeiGou
Status:  WIP
Summary:   The story of a lost boy and the heir of an empire. And lots of dragons.
A word from Jubesy:  I love this AU!  Dragons, magic, mystery, and more!  All of the characters play a part in this amazing fantasy fic.  It’s so, so good.  It even includes SeiGou, which I love!  SouRin is the main focus, but the MakoHaru parts are beautiful, as well.  An excellent read!

I’m sure I missed some amazing fics that I’ve read, but I didn’t want to bombard everyone with a giant list of every story I’ve ever enjoyed.

Please give these a read if you haven’t already! ♥

Quick overview

Ahh yes, Kitty Sakura, something I doubt anyone saw coming or being as good as she is. We finally have a viable dagger unit to Join Kagero and Olivia, and in some ways she made Felicia more Viable though she might end up being better than Felicia in many ways, mainly just at base she comes with a lot of skills she needs. Magic users beware this is a kitty who scratches back.

Base kit

So the weapon which makes sakura good is the kitty paddle + which is super effective against any mage and when I say any I mean, horse, fliers and armours oh my! And on top of that their respective shields do nothing to protect them. Its a amazing weapon so stick with it. Glacies makes use of her great res though she might prefer iceberg. Warding stance is a new skill just like steady stance but for res. It really helps her in her role as a mage killer. Guard is very situational and is mainly to stop Reinhardts otherwise you won’t miss it. Finally dagger valour is a nice training skill but worthless in arena.

All she needs is assist and it’s pretty free so fill it with what you want, though reciprocal aid is nice to let her tank again.

Suggested set(s)

You didn’t leave a scratch, but I will!

+atk/spd/res -def/hp

Kitty paddle +, Reposistion, iceberg

Slot A = Warding stance, atkres bond

Slot B = Quick riposte, Guard

Slot C = any c skill or ploy skill

Okay so I’ve only got one set for Sakura and that’s mainly because she’s so good as is. She could use poison dagger but she lends herself to a mage killer role much better. Atk/res bond is better for her, but requires she be next to another unit for it to work, so it may not be worth it and warding stance is still solid, Quick riposte lets her double the faster mages and even score some extra Kos while Guard helps against units reliant on specials. She can also make good use of a ploy though those are hard to come by.

Though please make sure she only goes up against mages. She’ll be weak against most other units.

Growing Love -10- Suga

Originally posted by jiminiminii

Growing Love -Suga-

A/N; The last one everyone, hope you enjoy it and thank you so much for reading it!💜

Parts: Masterlist |01| |02| 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 |

Pairing: Suga x Reader

Genre: Fluff, Romance,

Word count; 4.092

Synopsis: Marrying someone you didn’t know was something you never thought you’d do but as you didn’t want to defy your parents you decided to do it and when you met Min Yoongi you felt you made the right decision as you both agreed that love needed to grow.

The next day was crazy as the comeback had started. You could tell that Yoongi was being nervous about all of this and it was sort of fun to see him like this. He woke you up with breakfast but dropped it when his phone went off. The second he realized what he had done, his face turned red “Shit, Sorry.”

“I’m just happy it wasn’t coffee or tea because that would’ve sucked. You were wiping the cereals from your lap and as the milk ran down your face, you couldn’t help laugh at this situation. “Now I really have to take shower.” Yoongi smiled and threw the blanket aside and lifted you from the bed. LEt’s take a shower then. He put you down on a stool and undressed you, his fingers lingered whenever he touched your bare skin, the thing was, you weren’t allowed to actually go under a shower so he had to wash you with a cloth. You know there were still bruises but there was nothing you could do about it. He was washing you carefully, just so that he didn’t hurt you, which was really sweet and when he was down washing your body, he started on your hair which was really nice as he massaged your skull. This almost made you fall asleep again. “Don’t fall asleep.” you nodded whilst trying to keep your eyes open, this was not an easy thing but you did it and when he was finally done he made sure your hair was dry before he walked into the bedroom, to get your clothes.

He had picked one of his sweats and his puma sweater, which suited you well and you also loved that it smelled like him. “Alright I’m going to take a quick shower.” you nodded and rolled yourself out of the bathroom and waited for him, it didn’t take a long time and before you knew it you arrived at Mnet, where they were going to film their comeback, you knew it was going to be a long day but as long as you were together it was fine and with all that free time on your hands you could finally finish your book.

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anonymous asked:

Kathy! I've been so behind with the fandom and everything that's going on because of school and now I'm finally free to indulge (just in time for a jjpro comeback who would've thought) and since I've been away can I ask if you have any recent fic recs? It's too much to backtrack absolutely everything and I trust your taste in fics~ especially markjin fics. ^^

:) hi love! I hope you have a nice break!!! ^^ I’m glad you get to enjoy some relaxing time! It’s been a long time since the last time I recommended fics, so I hope I don’t forget any XD

Mr. Shy & I by SonicBoom
Jinyoung is in JJ Project with Jaebum and notices a handsome fanboy (Mark). Jinyoung sees Mark buying a bunch of Jaebum merch and tries to convert him to being Jinyoung biased ^^ Such a cute fic! SonicBoom never disappoints!

flowers speak louder than words by boyknees
This is a “Hanahaki disease” story (where Jinyoung throws up flowers due to unrequited love). I’ve read a couple other Hanahaki disease stories before, but this is by FAR my favorite one!! It’s written so well and their characterizations are on point and it’s a really touching, kinda fluffy, and more unique approach to the “hanahaki disease” story :) i loved it! But I recommended this fic to my friend Cma before and she didn’t know what the “hanahaki disease” thing was about, and she was kind of shocked Jinyoung was throwing up flowers…so just be ready for that!

I feel so electrified by flydeparture
jackbum set up markjin on a blind date because markjin have been mutually pining over each other~ ^^ cute fic with smut~

love struck by with_beauty
Jinyoung hits Mark with his bicycle, but it’s okay because Jinyoung is good looking :D another super cute fic with smut~

blonde (series) by JJ17
this is series of University!AU drabbles that are related :) they’re short, but really nice reads ^^ fratboy!Mark

Hennessy Got Nothin’ On You by DirtyMartini
Stripper!Jinyoung is very emotionally damaged, but Mark falls in love with him anyway ;; there’s a lot of angst but also a lot of sweet moments! This is such a well-written and interesting fic!! I love this author! I feel like I recommended this fic already, but I can’t find it in my lists :o

Understand Me by hmd220
This is actually a 2jae fic, but there’s a lot of really great markjin in there too! Basically, Jaebum gets scared and angry at the fact that Youngjae loves him. Mark comforts Youngjae as a bff, but this causes some misunderstandings. Mark loves Jinyoung, but is scared to tell him. There’s a lot of angst, but it’s really interesting and well-written! And I think there will be a happy ending ^^

University AU by flydeparture
markjin are roommates that hate each other…kinda… :) I love uni!au fics :D 

Artificial Heart by niazkilam
Jinyoung is one of Mark’s android creations. Jinyoung wants to be human to love Mark. This fic is super interesting :)

Blindsided by WernickesArea
Jinyoung meets a blind boy named Mark :) there’s only 2 chapters so far and hasn’t been updated in a while, but this is one of my fave authors

The Book Club by jagseun
Mark needs to pass literature class by joining a book club. Jinyoung takes advantage of that ;) smut~

Kiss Me by R_chimchim
Mark meets Jinyoung at a bar~ short, mostly fluff ^^

Loves Quiet Place by niazkilam
Jinyoung is stressed out and kind of bitter about life. Mark (a deaf artist) changes his mind :) this is a cute fic, especially since there’s cute little illustrations to go along with the fic ^^

Running From Falling Flowers by baexil
Mark asks Jinyoung to run away with him and he agrees… ;; this is a sad fic but written really well!

Match? by markjinnology
Jinyoung goes to a speed dating thing and meets Mark :) this is short and cute~ I’m a sucker for these blind date / speed date / matchmaking stories XD

seizing the unemployment by myungung
Coffee shop AU :) Jinyoung has a crush on barista!Mark ^^ this is so cute~ and I am also a sucker for coffee shop AUs XD

grocery mart boy by stilljunhui
Jinyoung likes grocery-worker!Mark ^^ another short, cute fic~

Cliche by jagseun
domestic bathtub fluff :D who doesn’t love domestic au fluff?

worst date by xinnuh
markjin reminiscing about all their bad dates with each other ^^ so cute~

Sugar burns by jinyoungstuan
Jinyoung and Mark were childhood friends that drifted apart (but it seems they’re about to be thrown together again~ ^^) there’s only one chapter of this fic so far, but it looks promising! I can’t wait to read more!

I Never Noticed by houseofmemories
canonverse (so markjin are in got7 ^^) fic where markjin realize they like each other :D

my own little bookworm by scum83
cute fluffy fic ^^ Mark comes home and distracts Jinyoung from reading

Letters on Napkins by stilljunhui
Barista!Jinyoung likes Mark ^^ more fluff, coffee shop au~

[05/01/17] First guilt free lie in of 2017🙌🏼 woke up a while ago but stayed in bed on my phone it feels so nice to finally relax ☺ these are just some notes on Stalin but I’m going to be working on revamping a few blogging things and getting on top of it for 2017 today❗ really excited with where I can take boystudy and super happy with how far its come, I’m very close to 3k on my blog now too ✨thanks for sticking around💕taken from my studygram:

Time Away and Time Together (Part 2 of 5)

A drabble series.

Misha x Reader

Warnings: oral (male receiving), masturbation, porn gif below the cut
Word Count: 459

Feedback is greatly appreciated!

Part One

The alarm would buzz loudly at five o’clock in the morning when Misha needed to leave. He didn’t actually need to leave until seven, but you needed time to first get up and make coffee, and then make breakfast while he got that last hour of sleep.

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Truth (Care For Series)

Originally posted by middleearth2asgard

Originally posted by thealpha

Pair: Thorin Oakenshield x Healer!Reader (a pretty short one too lol)

Genre: Arguing, Angst (lots in this one so fair warning), Fluff (eventually)

Warning: Lots of blood (descriptive)

Inspired by prompts from imaginexhobbit + Don’t die on me– Please

A/N: Thorin has gone and done it done it again, and this time, too far. Will Y/N continue to be apart of the company, or will she go back to the girl she was before … In fact, who really was or is she?


I cried into my hands, trying to hold back my sobs to seemed to escape me nonetheless, hiccuping every once in while. I had finally reached my quarters, leaning against the wall I had collapsed against. 

Thorin’s words had pierced me like a knife, wedged between my ribs and twisted. How could he be so cruel! 

I had always believed that deep down, like Fili had always said, that he had kindness in him, having to give up your life for your people you did. But he didn’t. He was cold, brutal and pitiless.

‘Y/N?’ I ignored the calling of my name, only looking up when two dwarfish feet came into my vision to find Balin standing over me. 

His eyes were filled with worry and sadness at the sight of my expression. ‘Come on my dear, up you get,’ He said gently, yet firmly as he pulled me to my feet, careful and cautious as he did. 

Once I was up, he sighed, wiping the stray tears beneath my eyes with a small smile, ‘Lets get you cleaned up now.’

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Hannibal or Hannigram

Well.. Unfortunately this amusing journey has come to an end. Yesterday I watched Hannibal’s last episode and I am still hooked on it.

I’m not a quiet media consumer, I literally devour everything I like (lol), the faster the better. However I wish I was more disciplined and patient this time around, since Hannibal is such a deep and complex work you can’t just binge watch it. If you’re too hasty you’ll end up missing some key points, affecting the whole experience. Every single line the main characters share is full of double meanings, layers on layers of lies and half truths that force you to constantly question your level of understanding.

The light is rarefied, usually diffuse rather than direct, the colors are cool-toned, never loud, with the exception of some intense flashes of red and orange. This contributes to create a deliberately somnolent, dreamlike atmosphere that accompanies the spectator through a meticulous, yet poetic inspection of the human unconscious.

The main subject of analysis is Will Graham, a man so skilled in understanding others the he usually loses himself. His “pure emphaty” is both a gift and a burden, something that makes him probably the most innocent being on hearth, a compassionate and merciful human mirror incapable of really condemn anyone, because he’s too prone to wear other skins, even if they belong to serial killers.

On the other hand we have Hannibal Lecter, an extremely conscious and self aware man that uses his strong personality as a defense and attack tool. He secludes his real self into a fake human suit, impervious to any intrusion. This perfect camufflage that acts like a solid shield allows him to undermine  other people without being affected. Hannibal is basically the crafty puppet master always in control, while Will needs to be “contaminated” by humanity in order to better comprehend it. Apart from this fundamental difference, however, Will and Hannibal are tremendously similar. Both intelligent and condemned by an overly lucid vision of reality, they “feel things” deeply and can read the minds of other people as printed books. Many common traits attract these two men in a way that seems almost fatal.

Hannibal is soon interested in Will, although initially it is a simple professional curiosity: Will’s mind and his peculiar functioning are a frequent topic of conversation in psychiatric circles. Doctors and psychologists wonder whether Will is a genius or a psychopath. Hannibal’s approach is completely different. He doesn’t seek a demarcation line between madness and sanity, he doesn’t believe in psychotherapy either, or at least, he refuses the concept of a treatment that makes people more willing to be subjected to social conventions and morality. Hannibal is definitely a master manipulator, but I don’t think he has ever wanted to “shape” his patients. He aims for their darkest fantasies and fuels them, trying to bring them to light. His therapy is like wearing a pair of corrective lenses: you put them on and you see things you originally didn’t notice because you couldn’t focus well. Things that had ALWAYS been there, in your deepest core, denied and soffocated by fear and shame. Hannibal’s velvety voice is never imperative, it drives without force, it creates a sort of psychological malleability that allows you to find your true self, no matter how ugly it is, and leads to catharsis, unlimited freedom and inevitable destruction.

Without any moral qualms everything becomes possible and God himself turns from Judge to loving ally.

On a metaphorical bed of twisted personalities, the troubled relationship between Will and Hannibal develops harshly. It can be considered the true and only protagonist of the story. A LOVEstory in all respects, filled with courtship, burning passion, fear and desire for the other, tenderness, betrayal, redemption… Death.

Honestly I was pretty surprised by how much this mad love between Hannibal and Will seemed “right” to me. There is nothing canonically healthy in their relationship, yet they both find their own safe place in the other. At the end of the day, shouldn’t love be just like that? Ideally, love should allow us to acknowledge our most intimate nature, through the expression of desires that we would never reveal to anyone else. Love should make us feel safe and confident thanks to the reassuring awareness of being perfectly understood and accepted for what we are, no filters, no shame. In reality, however, we keep some barriers to protect ourselves and our loved ones. Boundaries makes life apparently easier, creating a comfort zone where we can recognize our intact individuality and protect it from contamination and excessive exposure. Humanity is just as coward as that… But wouldn’t it be nice to leave everything behind, every defense, every fiction, every useless embellishment? Wouldn’t it be nice to competely surrender to the other (desire becomes surrender and surrender becomes power)? Will’s answer to this question is yes, but only after a very rough path.

The first season is characterized by a strong relational asymmetry. Will is completely succube, he is sick and vulnerable, so he is eventually imprisoned for crimes committed by Hannibal. With the second season reality begins to be completely blurred. We are kept in anxious waiting, trying to find out if Will has truly become a killer without remorse, but in reality the most radical transformation is Hannibal’s. Such a huge metamorphosis projects itself subtly under our eyes and we’re too focused on other things to effectively catch it. 

Hannibal lets himself being fooled by Will’s farce, he dangerously lowers his defenses and, as it happens to any “common” human being, he falls in love. He falls in love so deeply he begins to project a future with Will, far away from everything and everyone, the two of them caught in an everlasting artistic battle against this vulgar world. Actually the romantic family portrait in Hannibal’s fantasies involves two fathers (murderous husbands as Freddie Lounds would say) and a daughter to protect and educate. Abigail represents communion, affection and heredity. All of this comes to a cruel end when Hannibal discovers Will’s true intentions. Well, technically Will himself tells Hannibal to run away, but this is not nearly enough to what Hannibal wished for. He was laying bare in front of Will and Will ignored his feelings, or at least he violated his trust.

The third season leads us to a full closure. After a short period of separation Will and Hannibal meet again. They try to get rid of the yoke that binds them through different and useless attempts to kill each other. At some point the end up  escaping death together and Will, full of doubts and consumed by a deep discomfort, allows Hannibal to flee. He asks Hannibal never to look for him again and assures that he would do the same. This is Hannibal’s equivalent to a terrible defeat, another painful rejection that drives him to a drastic decision: he lets himself being captured so that Will will always know where to find him.

The yoke is still there, around their throats, more lush but equally heavy.

Will tries his best to lead a normal life, he marries a nice woman and even takes the role of the perfect foster parent, but after three years of relative tranquility, the great red dragon makes its appearance and the fragile veil of stability is torn from its sharp claws. The great red dragon is a formidable catalyst: it symbolizes passion and raw nature, eroticism, primordial impulses that  express themselves freely, away from the inquisitive eye of the Christian God.

Francis Dolarhyde physically drags Will to a point of no return, he forces Will to decide who should be saved and Will chooses: the last fig leaf rushes to the ground leaving him completely naked and finally free. Will kills the great red dragon that was an almost perfect work of personality construction and by doing so, he acquires enough power to finally abandon the “idea of ​​duty”, the preconceived dimension of right and wrong. He embraces both Hannibal and himself at the same time, he forgives and fully understans the indomabile force of his feelings for Hannibal: by loving him he truly loves himself.

“It’s beautiful”: Will whispers full of emotion, soaked in blood, dark like the night, clinging to freedom and new awareness. He finds his peace after a terrible journey, he finds it in Hannibal and in the stormy waters of the Atlantic Ocean.

I don’t think it’s possible to write a more poetic death for this two fatal lovers… Hannibal finally reaches Will with the power of his endless, loving stare and Will accepts it as an anchor of salvation that drags him into a place of absolute spontaneity and security, the true paradise on earth.