it's my day off okay

there’s something about even’s little nod in this scene 

because even knows. he’s not oblivious, he notices the way isak reacts to his presence, to him. he’s been noticing him for weeks, weeks before they first met. he saw the way isak was when he came over to his place the previous week, he saw the look in his eyes, the light in his eyes, he saw the way he smiled and laughed, he noticed the changes in his voice. he probably memorized his facial expressions and the things he said last friday. kept replaying them in his mind every single day, in class, before going to bed, when he was with other people 

earlier in that episode, when he came to give isak his snapback, in a matter of seconds, he understood that isak hadn’t told his friends he had gone to his place, he understood that he didn’t want them to know. because he sees and understands. he remembered the cardamom on the cheese toasties five weeks later, how they were sitting on the floor of his room as they ate them, he remembered isak saying he had a drop of water in his throat, he remembered isak talking about parallel universes. because he pays such close attention to isak and the way he looks and moves and speaks and all the things he says

do you think that even, who saw this boy on the first day of school, who was probably looking forward to seeing him even when it was just at school, in public, in rooms and hallways with other students, would not notice how isak was acting? notice the way he’s been looking at him the moment he showed up at his place for the pregame? the way he starred at him when he kissed sonja and looked at him straight in the eyes? how tensed he was as he told him about sonja and how they’d been together for years? the intonation of his voice as he said his okay’s (been together since we were 15. okay. can’t dump her. okay). do you think that even who’s been desperately trying to spend time alone with this boy he was falling for would not notice the smile that spread all over isak’s face when he realized that even was messing with him, the smile he was trying to stop it, in vain? do you think he would not sense his attraction to him? the vulnerability?

of course even notices. and since he came to see isak in his kitchen, he’s only been kidding, pretending not to be serious. but with that little nod, he grows more serious. with that little nod, it’s like he’s saying i see you, i see it, i’ve seen you for a while. it’s reassuring. it’s okay. it’s understanding. i know, isak. i know. me too

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                                                  • 𝐄𝐗𝐎𝐑𝐂𝐈𝐒𝐓
                                           • 𝐃𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐈𝐒𝐓 • 
                                • 𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐒 •

Mixed up different designs for John came up with this~
[mainly cos of the under cut, I love undercuts and since Matt has one now and CtH John had one…. I just drew him with the hairstyle :’)]
Put together the whole sigil design combining couple different references, lettering is witch lettering and it says things :^) It’s there mainly for aesthetics~
This is mostly drawn just for aesthetics :’D

Iwaoi - Movie night for @oshietooru

Iwaizumi, your crush is showing. And yes, it was Oikawa’s idea to watch a movie and it’s some Alien B-Movie…but well, Iwa-chan’s shoulder is more tempting.
Happy Iwaoi Day

i just did some adult things and im so proud of myself like wow lucas youre an adult now look at how much ur improving u can do important phone calls and take care of ur credit card and u have a job n u have to pay rent !!!! wow what an adult u are !!!!! uvu <3

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@tinkleburgh (in regard to this message in which I was told to drink plenty of water), thanks for the reminder and I decided to take you up on the good advice

(also after that ask I became acutely aware of how chapped my lips were and it was driving me up the goddamn wall)

I just want to say to you folks that I’ve been having a really rough time sorting out what I want since I graduated, after completely losing myself somewhere along the way, and it’s safe to say that starting and running this blog has been single best and most important thing I could’ve done

It’s been an absolutely glittering beacon of terrible science puns and giant nerd-outs and I would not trade it for anything and even if that sounds lame or WHATEVER I’m really proud of this thing and I’ve met and talked to so many incredible people here and you’re all going to be just exponentially more incredible the more you do and if you’re reading this I LOVE YOU and I’m very emotional right now don’t look at me

I tried?