yknow when you skate really fast and suddenly stop?? yeah thats what im getting at, and before i experienced snow this hockey player did this and it was a magical experience to have ice shavings thrown to ur face
this is something i got last night, but wanted to give it a proper response. im gonna preface this with a disclaimer that i dont speak for every single trans person, and that this is based mostly on my own experiences with dysphoria.
i think its important to recognize that while dysphoria isnt a requirement for being trans it’s still something that affects a lot of us. and that its not something we dont have control over. and that even though having people around me that support my identity has been very good for me being able to feel even just a little comfortable with myself (seriously, ily all), it doesn’t completely get rid of that physical feeling of intense discomfort that comes with having this body. i know its okay for women to have broad shoulders. i know its okay for women to be flat chested. i know its okay for a woman to have a penis. none of these things make me see anybody as any less of a woman. but that doesn’t mean that i dont feel like these are things that i shouldn’t have. like they’re not really a part of me.
people who think of dysphoria as just an issue of not looking like your gender fundamentally misunderstand it, despite the fact that i genuinely do think that they mean the best. dysphoria is more than that. to me, its this feeling that the body i inhabit isn’t my own. its as if my brain was taken out of my body and plopped into a man’s. and so the only way i see to change it is to fix my body.
This book is set in a fictional small town here in Illinois, one that’s really similar to mine. My MC, Daisy, is the daughter of an alcoholic and an ex-addict herself, who suffers from chronic pain after a car accident and lives in a trailer with her mom and her little sister.
She’s carrying a torch for her BFF’s older brother, who plays baseball for the Cubs (natch), and after a family tragedy, he has to stay at home for awhile and Shit Happens.
I meant for it to be a fluffy romance but nah it’s a study on race, class, and gender in small town rural America.