it's like i don't even know you anymore!!

anonymous asked:

How do you feel about mediocre artists? I am not a writer, but a dancer, and I feel so lost with my art form. It's like I know I'm not the best, or even in the top-ish. But I love my art form. I don't know where I am going with it anymore, and I feel like I am doing less of it every day. It won't be long before it is completely gone from my life. In this world, I feel like unless you're among the best few of artists, your art doesn't count.

I don’t believe mediocre artists exist. One might judge art based on preference or technique, and in that regard you could lable something as ‘mediocre’. But art is the expression of the soul. And the soul cannot be judged by logic intervention that could deem it exceptional or mediocre with 100% accuracy. It’s not a science. At least, I don’t want it to be. To me, as long as your art is an honest expression of who you are, it’s exceptional. Your art counts. 

inktober 2017 - 18

Ft. this weeks edition of “I am very low on time so how quickly can I draw this character and have it still hopefully be recognizable”

Happy Valentines Day

Requested: valentines day imagine on valentines day?

Masterlist

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“How are you doing today, buddy?” Your roommate asks as she plops down on the couch next to you. She knows that you’re a little down today because it’s Valentines day so you get to see a ton of couples posting pictures together, but you’ll spend most of the day just missing your boyfriend and trying not to be sad about the fact that you won’t be able to spend Valentines Day together.

“I’m alright.” You reply shortly, not wanting to complain because you really don’t have anything to complain about. You’re just lucky to have Shawn, and you’re proud of everything he’s accomplished, so you won’t let yourself be upset that he can’t be here and that you haven’t even heard from him all day.

“I’m sorry,” She says, even though you said you were alright, she knows you’re not exactly. “Have you talked to him today at least?” She questions.

“Nah, he’s sleeping I think?” You respond because he hasn’t replied to anything you’ve sent him yet, but you’re just assuming with the time zones its probably the middle of the night where he is.

“It’ll just be that much better the next time you see him,” She tries to offer support.

“Thanks, really. I’m fine. It’s not a big deal.” 

She smiles sadly at you, and you hate that she pities you even though she’s not doing it intentionally. At least she drops the subject and you get to talk about other things that puts you in a bit of a better mood and gets your mind off the fact that it’s Valentines Day and you haven’t even heard anything from your boyfriend even though it’s nearly three in the afternoon where you are.

You decide to take a shower, something that normally just helps you to get your mind of things that are bothering you. You’ve probably sent Shawn about ten messages and he hasn’t replied to anything. That’s unlike him, but you know he gets busy sometimes and it isn’t his fault. Or he could be sleeping. Either way it sucks that of all days, he chose Valentines day to not reply to your messages.

When you get out of the shower and get dressed you check your phone again, half expecting to have no notifications, but you’re surprised to see that Shawn has finally texted you. Happy Valentines Day babe xx and the next message asks, Did you get the flowers? You feel a little better. At least he sent flowers, but you hadn’t received any flowers.

You’re alive. No, I haven’t? You reply.

Oh comes his immediate response, and then They should be there soon, are you home?

Yeah You click send and are starting to text him asking about his day just to see how he is, but your doorbell rings. You wonder if it is the flowers he sent, and if it is you’re thinking how it is really weird timing since he had just talked about it. You shake off the thought and open the door without even bothering to look through the peephole. You see the flowers first, probably two dozen red roses. There are so many flowers that you can’t even see the person holding them. You’re about to try to thank the guy who delivered them when the person moves the flowers and you actually see his face. You have to stop yourself from screaming, and your hand goes to your shocked mouth. “Shawn?” You say, not believing your eyes.

“Your flowers are here, baby.” He says, a cheeky grin on his face.

You just hug him tightly, despite the flowers being slightly in your way, then you usher him inside. He hands you the vase of flowers and you quickly put them down before finding yourself back in his arms. “Happy Valentines Day, darling.” He says softly into your ear and you can’t stop yourself from thinking how it really is a happy Valentines Day now that he’s here.

You told me to do things
And I did them.
You told me to change,
I changed.
You pointed out my flaws
And I got rid of them.
I did all I could
But the things I did weren’t done properly enough;
And the way I changed wasn’t right;
And the flaws wouldn’t go away fully.

You yelled at me all night,
Pushed me hard into the door,
Slamming my head.
And you didn’t stop until it was too late;
You didn’t stop before I had had enough.
So, I walked out of there,
Turned my back on you.
Didn’t look back,
Not once;
Vowing that I won’t ever do this again,
That this time I’ll stay away.

But now,
I want to come right back to you;
Knocking on your door,
Just like you expect me to.
I can’t stay away from you anymore,
I love you too much
And my heart aches to see your face.
And even though I promised myself,
To stay away
Because I deserved better,
I just can’t.

angsty starters ( + sad qoutes / song lyrics. )
  • "I love you enough to let you go,"
  • "I heard you moved on,"
  • "I didn't come here to hurt you,"
  • "Where did you go?"
  • "I'm sorry we fell in love."
  • "We'll do everything on our own."
  • "I'm so sorry,"
  • "You'll never understand."
  • "Please don't go,"
  • "I still love you,"
  • "I don't love you anymore."
  • "I never loved you,"
  • "I can't do this."
  • "We can't be together!"
  • "Will I ever see you again?"
  • "May we meet again,"
  • "I promise I'll do better,"
  • "I just want to see you, one more time."
  • "I'd give anything to see you one more time."
  • "One last time?"
  • "I don't deserve you,"
  • "You don't deserve me,"
  • "People like us don't get happy endings,"
  • "You still love me?"
  • "I never meant to hurt you,"
  • "I understand..."
  • "If you want to go, it's okay."
  • "I gave up everything for you!"
  • "I really need you to trust me,"
  • "Can you listen to me for once!"
  • "I cheated on you,"
  • "You cheated on me?"
  • "Don't expect me to come crawling back,"
  • "Shame on me, you fooled me twice."
  • "You said I wasn't just like anyone."
  • "Did I even ever cross your mind?"
  • "Can we pretend that we're in love?"
  • "I can't lose you,"
  • "Please go,"
  • "Don't you dare die on me!"
  • "I'm not losing you again!"
  • "I'm incomplete without you,"
  • "I will love you for the rest of my life,"
  • "So this is goodbye?"
  • "Kiss me goodbye."
  • "I loved them and they died."
  • "I was a bet?"
  • "You were nothing but a bet."
  • "Can you hold me?"
  • "I loved and I lost you."
  • "It's okay,"
  • "The worst day of loving someone is when you lose them."
  • "It hurts like hell,"
  • "I'm not coming back."
  • "You're never coming back?"
  • "What do you mean you're dying!"
  • "Come back to me,"
  • "What happened?!"
  • "They're dead!"
  • "Where's my love,"
  • "Don't do this,"
  • "I'll see you again."
  • "There's nothing we can do to bring them back."
  • "I don't want to be alone anymore,"
  • "You promised you'd never leave me."
  • "First love, you remember what that's like?"
  • "If I don't have you I have nothing at all,"
  • "I'm not going to fight you,"
  • "You're my friend."
  • "It's too late to apologize."
  • "You left me!"
  • "You left us!"
  • "You chose them over me,"
  • "I need you,"
  • "I was hoping that you'd stay."
  • "I never lied to you,"
  • "You said you might die so what the hell?"
  • "It's a bad joke,"
  • "We can never be the same again,"
  • "You don't need you,"
  • "You're not alone."
  • "You broke my heart."
  • "It made me think of you."
  • "You're my world."
  • "Do I wanna know?"
  • "So sad to see you go,"
  • "This is it, isn't it."
  • "Now I just sit in silence."
  • "Are you okay?"
  • "Are you hurt?"
  • "I'll go with you."
  • "How bad is it?"
  • "My feelings for you are real, they always have been."
  • "Someday you'll understand."
  • "Because I love you,"
  • "There was just something about them,"
  • "I'm sorry for breaking your heart."
  • "It wasn't an act."
  • "Time doesn't heal everything."
  • "This is your fault!"
  • "Tell me what to do!"
  • "I didn't mean for this to happen."
  • "Everythings a mess."
  • "You ruined my life,"
  • "Do you still love me?"
  • "You gotta get up, we have to go."
  • "It's okay,"
  • "It was nothing,"
  • "I'll do something."
  • "You're safe here,"
  • "Don't forget me."
  • "I ruined this,"
  • "You ruined this."
  • "Quiet is violent."
  • "You promised me!"
  • "Stop lying with those words."
  • "If this is some kind of sick joke, you better tell me!"
  • "You're all I have!"
  • "I'm not ready to say goodbye."
  • "I don't want to go,"
  • "I loved you,"
  • "You don't have to do this,"
  • "I'm afraid it's never going to be okay again."
  • "I'm terrified,"
  • "You're a monster."
  • "You're all I have!"
  • "I'm a monster."
  • "Only fools fall for you,"
  • "Everything comes to an end,"
  • "I thought I loved you."
  • "Now I just sit in silence."
  • "It's unbearable."
  • "You're my first love."
  • "I never wanted to hurt you,"
  • "I was here,"
  • "Help me,"
  • "They won..."
  • "You don't love them."
  • "You're breaking my heart,"
  • "I hate you!"
  • "It's a waste of time,"
  • "You're all I want."
  • "I've always loved you!"
  • "I can pretend anymore."
  • "i didn't have a choice!"
  • "What if it's agony now and it's hell later on?"
  • "Love I will let you go,"
  • "I left behind something great."
  • "I want you back,"
  • "I don't regret any of it, not if it kept you safe."
  • "Get over yourself,"
  • "You'll be the death of me."
  • "Everything just fell apart."
  • "What the hell am I doing here?"
  • "I want you so much but I hate your guts."
  • "I found love where it wasn't supposed to be."
  • "You still like them, don't you?"
  • "What are you doing?!"
  • "I did this to protect you!"
  • "Don't cry,"
  • "I'm not crying,"
  • "I'm dying,"
  • "A-Are you alright?"
  • "I'll come back for you."
  • "I've never felt so alone."
  • "You don't love me! You don't even know me!"
  • "I don't even know who you are anymore."
  • "I don't even know who I am anymore,"
  • "Please let me do this for you."
  • "You're one of the lucky ones."
  • "It's never going to be okay."

anonymous asked:

have you heard of "repost in current artstyle"? it's when an artist reposts for their current followers to see, but in their current style. You know... i'm disappointed, you seem like the guy who supports the idiot who reposted the image "is my coffee bitter? no, must be you" in the "hello i'm pobular artist, here's my portfolio" i followed you for your skyrim memes that you don't even post anymore, in my opinion, you and your famous paper boyfriend are the people who make tumblr shit

i feel like theres a lot to unpack here but honestly i cant get past your accusation that i have ever in my life made “skyrim memes”

if you only knew

“You were a cute kid.”

Bitty turns, startled out of his silent reverie by Jack, hair freshly damp from the shower. “Oh, hey, darlin’. Didn’t realize you were up yet.”

“Just a little while ago.” Jack wraps himself around Bitty from behind and presses a kiss to his temple. Before long, the Georgia heat will make any prolonged contact near-unbearable, so Bitty closes his eyes and enjoys it while he can.

He opens his eyes and looks back at the photo on the wall of the hallway: Eric Bittle, age 12. A school photo, his smile exposing silver braces, freckles dashed across his cheekbones.

“You’re thinking pretty loud, there, bud,” murmurs Jack into Bitty’s hair. “What about?”

“Oh, nothing in particular,” sighs Bitty, resting his hands on top of Jack’s where they’ve settled around his waist. “Just…I wish that kid could see me now, you know?”

Jack makes some little noise of agreement, or maybe encouragement, so Bitty continues.

“I mean…I didn’t know back then if it would all work out. If I could ever, well, be happy. If I’d ever get out of Georgia. If I could ever really even be myself, or I’d have to…fake it. For always. And, y'know, I just spent so much time being so darned miserable over it all, and it’s not like it changed the outcome either way, my being miserable or not. And I wish…I wish I could tell myself that, that it would get better, cheesy as it sounds, you know, hon?”

Jack squeezes tighter. “I’m glad you’re not so sad anymore, Bits. I wish you didn’t have to go through all that. But I’m glad you’re here with me now.”

“Thanks, love,” says Bitty softly, turning his head to kiss Jack properly. “Glad you’re here, too.”

Disney Lyric Starters
  • [ Classic, modern, golden days, you name it, i got it. Feel free to change pronouns etc. Also this is a looong post]:
  • "Some day, my prince will come."
  • "Some day, we'll meet again."
  • "Some day when spring is here, we'll find our love anew."
  • "And soon you'll find you're dancing to the tune."
  • "There isn't any let up. I hear them calling, calling."
  • "Every time she/he'd find a minute, that's the time that they begin it."
  • "They always keep her/him hopping."
  • "She/He goes around in circles till she/he's very, very dizzy."
  • "They have stars in their eyes."
  • "Side by side with your loved one, you'll find enchantment here."
  • "The night will weave its magic spell when the one you love is near."
  • "This is the night, and the heavens are right."
  • "Look at this stuff, isn't it neat?"
  • "Wouldn't you think my collection's complete?"
  • "How many wonders can one cavern hold?"
  • "I want to be where the people are."
  • "I want to see, want to see 'em dancing."
  • "Flipping your fins, you don't get too far."
  • "What would I pay to spend a day warm on the sand?"
  • "Sick of swimming. Ready to stand."
  • "And I'm ready to know what the people know."
  • "When's it my turn?"
  • "I can see what's happening, and they don't have a clue."
  • "With all this romantic atmosphere, disaster's in the air."
  • "She'd turn away from me."
  • "He's holding back. He's hiding."
  • "Why won't he be the king I know he is, the king I see inside?"
  • "Love is where they are."
  • "If there's a prize for rotten judgement, I guess I've already won that."
  • "No man is worth the aggravation."
  • "Honey, we can see right through you."
  • "It's too cliche. I won't say I'm in love."
  • "I thought my heart had learned its lesson."
  • "You keep on denying who you are and how you're feeling."
  • "Get off my case. I won't say it!"
  • "I steal only what I can't afford."
  • "These guys don't appreciate I'm broke."
  • "I can take a hint, gotta face the facts. You're my only friend."
  • "I'd blame parents except he hasn't got 'em."
  • "Tell you all about it when I got the time!"
  • "I think I'll take a stroll around the block."
  • "Let's not be too hasty."
  • "They're quick, but I'm much faster."
  • "Barely even friends, then somebody bends unexpectedly."
  • "Both a little scared, neither one prepared."
  • "Finding you can change, learning you were wrong."
  • "Certain as the sun rising in the east."
  • "There's something sweet and almost kind."
  • "I wonder why I didn't see it there before."
  • "Who'd have ever thought that this could be?"
  • "True he's no "Prince Charming"..."
  • "Who'd have guessed they'd come together on their own?"
  • "We'll wait and see a few days more."
  • "What I love most about rivers is you can't step in the same river twice."
  • "To be safe, we lose our chance of knowing."
  • "Can I ignore that sound of distant drumming?"
  • "Is all my dreaming at an end?"
  • "For a long time we've been marching off to battle."
  • "Our aching feet aren't easy to ignore."
  • "Think of instead, a girl worth fighting for."
  • "I want her paler than the moon with eyes that shine like stars."
  • "It all depends on what she cooks like."
  • "Bet the local girls thought you were quite the charmer."
  • "Yet the only girl who'd love him is his mother."
  • "Whatever you do, I'll do it, too."
  • "Show me everything, and tell me how."
  • "It all means something, yet nothing to me."
  • "It's all so close, and yet so far."
  • "I wanna know. Can you show me?"
  • "I wanna know about these strangers like me."
  • "Why do I have this growing need to be beside her?"
  • "Come with me now to see my world."
  • "Don't you disrespect me, little man!"
  • "You're in my world now, not your world."
  • "And I got friends on the other side."
  • "Sit down on my table, put your minds at ease."
  • "I can read your future. I can change it around some, too."
  • "You come from two long lines of royalty."
  • "I'm a royal myself on my mother's side."
  • "Your lifestyle's high, but your funds are low."
  • "Mom and dad cut you off, huh, playboy?"
  • "You've been pushed around all your life."
  • "Won't you shake the poor sinner's hand?"
  • "I hope you're satisfied, but if you ain't, don't blame me!"
  • "All that time never even knowing just how blind I've been."
  • "At last I see the light, and it's like the fog has lifted."
  • "If she/he's here, it's crystal clear I'm where I'm meant to go."
  • "All at once everything is different now that I see you."
  • "Come on, let's go and play!"
  • "I never see you anymore."
  • "We used to be best buddies, and now we're not."
  • "I've started talking to the pictures on the walls."
  • "It gets a little lonely, all these empty rooms."
  • "People are asking where you've been."
  • "They say "Have courage," and I'm trying to."
  • "We only have each other."
  • "It's just you and me. What are we gonna do?"
  • "Okay, can I just say something crazy?"
  • "I love crazy."
  • "I've been searching my whole life to find my own place."
  • "I've never met someone who thinks so much like me."
  • "Say goodbye to the pain of the past."
  • "We don't have to feel it anymore."
  • "Can I say something even crazier?"
  • "I've been staring at the edge of the water for as long as I can remember."
  • "Every road leads back to the place I know where I cannot go."
  • "It calls me, and no one knows how far it goes."
  • "I can lead with pride. I can make us strong."
  • "I'll be satisfied if I play along."
  • "What is wrong with me?"
  • "But no one knows how deep it goes."
  • "If the wind on my sail on the sea stays behind me, one day I'll know how far I'll go."
  • "Now I know I can be happy as a clam because I'm beautiful, baby."
  • "Scrub the deck and make it look shiny."
  • "I just love free food."
  • "Ouch! What a terrible performance!"
  • "You don't swing it like you used to, man."
  • "Send your armies, but they'll never be enough."
  • "You try to be tough, but your armor's just not hard enough."
When You're Twitter Famous
  • Famous Gal: *phone constantly getting notifications*
  • Friend: Whoa, who's firing up your inbox?
  • Famous Gal: Hmm?
  • Friend: Your phone is going off like crazy.
  • Famous Gal: Oh, those are just my twitter notifications. I don't even notice them anymore.
  • Friend: I didn't know you were on twitter.
  • Famous Gal: Yeah, I know. I have a bit of a presence there, but nothing big.
  • Friend: How many followers do you have?
  • Famous Gal: Uhm I think it was something like 45,839.
  • Friend: Wow, holy shit. I only have like 40. You're famous.
  • Famous Gal: Eh, I'm not really famous. *checks phone* Oh, that's actually 47,328 now. I guess that post I made is making some minor rounds. *sparkle eyes*
  • Friend: ...So how do you even get that many followers?
  • Famous Gal: You just have to post the right things. Like, look at this.
  • Friend: Whoa, that post has so many notes!
  • Famous Gal: Yeah because it's so weird. You have to find weird things and screenshot them, like one time I found this dude who had a fetish for women sharpening butcher knives but he was also an open fascist so I screenshotted the shit out of him. People tore him to shreds and I got so many followers! Oh, and then once I found this Britney Spears twitter bot that only tweets "help me", but it got deactivated. Oh, then someone tried to roleplay with me as Twilight Sparkle in my DMs.
  • Friend: You're verified too! You're totally famous! Stop bullshitting!
  • Famous Gal: Of course I'm verified. I work in broadcasting, you doof.
  • Friend: Don't you just switch out advertisement tapes at the cable company?
  • Famous Gal: Listen, the fine details really don't matter. All I'm saying is it's not that big of a deal. Yes, I'm twitter verified and have tons of followers and fans and am also in a group chat with Eric Andre, Rebecca Sugar, Anthony Fantano, the guy who wrote Homestuck, everyone from Chapo Trap House, some irritating Vice journalist that people just sort of tolerate, and that Omocat chick, but that's all incredibly normal.
  • Friend: Well, is this normal too? *snatches famous gal's phone and tosses it somewhere far*
  • Famous Gal: What the fuck! Why did you do it.
  • Friend: I'm sorry, it's normal. Reflexes, y'know.
  • Famous Gal: You're acting like a bitch.
  • Friend: God, it's no big deal. It's just a phone, why don't you ask the commies on Chapo Trap House to redistribute a new one for you?
  • Famous Gal: That doesn't even make sense.
  • Friend: Neither does 47k followers for a nerd who works at a cable company. *storms off*
  • Famous Gal: I can't believe her! She threw my phone somewhere into that cavernous looking system of shady alleyways. I can't picture myself actually exploring such a place just for a phone.
  • Scarfed Individual: *abruptly steps into view* No need to do so.
  • Famous Gal: Eep!
  • Scarfed Individual: Sorry for startling you. I've procured your phone. *presents phone*
  • Famous Gal: *takes phone back* Thank you.
  • Scarfed Individual: No need to thank me, I'm a fan.
  • Famous Gal: What? Really?
  • Scarfed Individual: Yes, I've been a fan of your tweets for quite a while and was pleasantly surprised when I noticed the phone that had hit my head belonged to you. I knew you were in the area. I never thought I'd get to meet you face to face, however.
  • Famous Gal: Hahaha... I don't remember ever posting anything about the area where I live.
  • Scarfed Individual: I know, that made it more difficult for me to relocate my town of residence to your own. It was even more difficult finding EXACTLY WHERE YOU LIVED. Good thing I found your phone, right. *wink* I guess all is in order now. I'll see you tonight. *abruptly walks out of view*
  • *that night*
  • Friend: *sleeping soundly*
  • *loud banging at front door*
  • Friend: Ah fuck. *grouchily gets up and answers the front door* I don't deal anymore, ask Mark. He lives across the street.
  • Famous Gal: *rushes into apartment* Help me!
  • Friend: Don't just run into my fucking house!
  • Famous Gal: I'm being stalked!
  • Friend: Unsurprising.
  • Famous Gal: This is your fault!
  • Friend: I think it's your fault for having thousands of followers on a public website.
  • Famous Gal: When you tossed my phone, some nutso fan of mine found it and now he knows where I lives.
  • Friend: Ah, sounds bad, sorry.
  • Famous Gal: That's all you have to say!?
  • Friend: I can't help the fact that you're being stalked, but alright. I was a bit of a grouch today, so I'll let you spend the night.
  • Famous Gal: *hugs friend* Thank you. You're a terrible friend, but in this moment I'd consider you barely tolerable.
  • Friend: Thanks, even though every single world you say to me further stretches the already strung out patience I have for you.
  • Famous Gal: Whatever, I'm just going to take these sheets and assume I'm allowed to sleep on your couch without actually asking permission because I honestly don't want to speak with you any longer and am slowly regretting my decision to spend the night here with you.
  • Friend: I feel the same. I'm too tired so I'll go over how much I've come to dislike you throughout the course of this single afternoon and nighttime conversation.
  • Famous Gal: Uh, yeah. Goodnight, I guess.
  • Friend: Whatever...
  • Famous Gal: *lies on the couch and wraps self in sheets* God, I'm even more tired than I thought but these sheets are so cold. *dozes off*
  • Scarfed Individual: *abruptly appears from behind couch* You can borrow my scarf, here you go. *wraps around sleeping famous gal like a bow*
  • Famous Gal: *in her sleep* Mmm your arms are so warm.
  • Individual: Indeed they are, my dear. I wish I could smooch you, my dear. Goodnight, my dear.
  • Famous Gal: *yawns* Night.
  • Individual: *his glowing eyes illuminate sleeping famous gal*
  • Famous Gal: Please turn off the lights.
  • Individual: Oh, sorry about that. *click*

anonymous asked:

hi, I'm sorry if I am bothering you but I really need advice. I have a friend who I don't wanna hang out with anymore because I don't think it's healthy friendship. She can either make me feel like the luckiest person or the worst human being on earth. i've tried breaking up our friendship but she manages to make me stay and make it seem like it's my fault. how do i manage to get out of the situation without feeling like it's my fault?

Hi cutie !! No need to be sorry, you aren’t being a bother at all. Know that what you’re going through right now is not easy, and it can definitely be a very emotional process even after that person is out of your life. It’s important to be patient with yourself.

Sometimes, it’s can be helpful to openly talk about your honest feelings with the person (consider writing a letter instead), but realistically some people won’t make an effort to change. If they don’t respect your boundaries now, it’s unlikely that they will later. It’s never your responsibility to remain in their life. If you choose to speak to them in person, I recommend doing it in a public place.

If you’re ready to cut them off for good, here’s what you should remember:

• Feeling guilty is actually totally normal. You’re a human being who doesn’t want to hurt another person- but putting your own health and happiness first is absolutely essential. We do crave and need friendships, but not all of them.

• Missing them is another normal part of moving on. Know that you can still miss all the amazing things and memories about the person while letting go of the bad things.

• Don’t feel like you owe anyone an explanation. If you want to explain, that’s more than okay. Just remember to be honest because your feelings are not up for debate. If you prefer, you can tell them simply that you drifted apart, or that you don’t want them in your life anymore.

• Block and delete them anywhere and everywhere on social media. Delete your past messages, photographs, etc. This step is usually the hardest for me personally. Remember, you don’t have to be sentimental.

• The likelihood is that the person will try to find out why you’re ignoring them. They may try manipulative tactics to get you to talk to them. You still don’t have to engage.

• Just because you aren’t talking to someone anyone, does not mean you can’t wish them love and luck.

• Make an effort to reconnect with others and make new friends who make you feel good, but most importantly take the time to concentrate on yourself.

Some other posts that may be helpful to you:

how can I focus on recovery when everyone is bringing me down
how to tell if someone is actually a toxic person

Cutting a toxic person from your life is an act of self care. You are not a bad person for putting yourself first, darling. 💖🌷

anonymous asked:

Hi!! Could you please give us your two cents about how this 2CT is gonna go down with regards to Lizzy? Bc before when I thought there was only one Ciel I was 100% on board the ship. Now that it's confirmed there are two... I just, I mean, I know Lizzy is going to be with O!Ciel, but like R!Ciel is just so freaking alluring, like??? She's always been in love with the R!, but she never knew she was giving that love to O! And asdfdjslsjc I just I don't know what to think anymore!!

Hi anon! Thank you so much for your question, I have so much to say I don’t even know where to begin haha :D 

This is going to get pretty long, but basically I feel that we may see:

- o!Ciel having to acknowledge once and for all that he treasures Lizzy, and that everything he’s done for her has been because of his own feelings and not because of playing the part of the dutiful fiancé.


- Lizzy making a conscious, informed choice and choosing to remain by o!Ciel’s side. Thus showing o!Ciel that if he just trusts, if he just gives people a chance—people can love him for whom he is, rather than just compare him to his brother and find him paling in comparison.  


R!Ciel will just be a catalyst and an agent during all of this, because he’s there to force their hands and make them face each other and their pasts. What remains to be seen is if he’ll actually care for Lizzy the way he used to in the past, or if she’ll just be a chess-piece for him. Whatever it is he does, he is surely going to be pretty manipulative and sly lol 

Since this arc has already brought to the table that o!Ciel is frightened of being happy, I think this is when he’ll have to take out his claws, be selfish—in an entirely different way—put his foot down and say: no. These people care about me, and I want them in my life even if I’m going to make them suffer. You can’t have them.  

At the same time, it should also be the arc where o!Ciel comes to appreciate himself more. Not his identity as head of the Phantomhive house or as a stand-in for his stronger, more capable brother. But as whom he actually is, because he has people who love him dearly and care for him and will be ready to remind him of how much he’s worth in their eyes and why.

I think that’s going to be one of the keys from here on out, because otherwise Yana wouldn’t have brought it up in the first place. However, that’s all assuming Yana will give us a break and let o!Ciel reach a nice development threshold before pulling the rug underneath his feet again for whatever it is she has planned next lol It all depends on how dark she wants the manga to be and on how close (or far) we’re to the end. 

Now for all the otp ramblings! lol 

I have made a couple of posts about Lizzy and 2CT HEREHERE, HERE and HERE and those are probably more organized than this one is going to be. But since I can’t seem to shut up about this, here we go!

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Still, she must warn you that she will not suffer undeserved success. Good luck is a sham. The wheel of fortune is a Ponzi scheme. True success requires sacrifice. 

𝘳𝘦𝘲𝘶𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘣𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘰𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘶𝘴

Why don't you wanna be a girl anymore?

Sometimes when I tell people I identify as trans they ask questions like “why don’t you wanna be a girl anymore” or say things like “oh I understand I hate periods too” and even sometimes they say “sometimes I don’t like my boobs either, they get in the way”. I never knew how to reply to these questions and comments, I understand that when people are trying to understand someone they try very hard to relate. Its a huge factor in learning, if you can make connections between something you already know and something new you are succefully learning. I just recently realized why I never knew how to respond, and while I knew people were just trying to relate and understand it always made me feel worse and frustrated, like someone saying the sky is green when you’ve told them hundreds of times that it is blue. The reason this is so frustrating is because I don’t want to not be a girl anymore, because I’ve never been a girl. I’m not going to go through this transition to become a boy, I’m going to go through the transition process because I am a boy who unfortunately grew breasts and has a vagina. And that’s why its so frustrating when people talk about my transition as if it is me changing who I am as a person, and its not like that at all. I have never been a girl, I’ve just had to be presented as one because of my body. I don’t want to be a boy, I am a boy and I want everyone, including myself, to see me that way. I don’t have the answers to why my mind, energy, and soul don’t match my body, it probably has something to do with genetics, all I know is I’m not simply inconvenienced by periods, boobs, and estrogen I am psychologically damaged by them. And if any cis gendered male randomly started having periods everyone would tell him to immediately seek medical attention. I understand that this this is a confusing topic for cis people because they simply cannot relate, there is nothing in them that is similar to my situation, this isn’t something you can learn, it’s just something to accept. I love being a boy, but I hate the body I have to do it in, so I will do whatever I need to do to be able to love myself in all aspects including physically. I am and have always been a boy.

pll characters reacting to their fetus selves
  • alison: okay i know being a bitch is sort of your thing and all and that makes you cool but like would you rather be dead (or fake dead) or cool? actually CHILL GIRL
  • aria: maybe don't with the pink streaks? it's not as cute as you think it is girl, either go all out or not at all
  • caleb: lol what a nerd, who even wears beanies anymore, also you're going to fall in love with this one girl so remember NOT TO SLEEP WITH HER BEST FRIEND thx bro
  • charlotte: *can't react because is dead*
  • emily: you're super mega ultra gay, just embrace it girl
  • ezra: just...wait until aria is legal, okay? okay. actually, just forget girls, cake is much less complicated and more cake = less heartbreak
  • hanna: girl you fab don't let anyone else tell you otherwise...but like don't steal those sunglasses, love yoself (and yo mom, the things that woman will do for you o m g)
  • jason: lol we've changed quite a bit haven't we
  • lucas: you will become very very rich. but you still can't get girls. your life is sad
  • mona: don't play dumb. you're a badass. also toffee tango is a great lipstick color on you you should wear it more often queen
  • paige: you're gay and that's okay but plz get a new haircut, anything that makes you look less aggressive
  • spencer: you need to take a chill pill no more like a thousand chill pills well actually no don't do that we have a problem with pills
  • toby: what a smol bean, stay gold ponyboy. also your life sucks, but it will suck significantly more if you don't date spencer hastings. you're welcome.
  • wren: you handsome devil you, you don't know how much you're going to fuck up, good luck mate

I know we’re not as active as we used to be and some of us only lurk but every time I see someone say the fandom is dead, it makes me very sad. I want to wave my hand and point to all the dedicated people who post regularly or less regularly to share their fanfics or their manips or their fanart and scream very loud that we’re not invisible and that we’re in fact still there if anyone bothered to check. Maybe it’s not the fandom who died, maybe it’s your interest in it.

It might be slow, it might be few and there might be some disagreements sometimes but the hayffie fandom is still kicking, thank you very much.

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Viktuuri Cheating
  • Viktor: Yuuri we need to have a serious talk.
  • Yuuri: Oh no here it comes...
  • Viktor: It's just that...
  • Yuuri: *tearing up* You don't love me anymore
  • Viktor: Well...I cheated...
  • Yuuri: And he wants me to leave...
  • Viktor:
  • Yuuri:
  • Yuuri: Wait you did what?!
  • Viktor: I didn't mean to! It's just I'm so competitive and I love family game night and I NEEDED To win Monopoly!
  • Yuuri: Viktor Nikiforov you selfish, two timing ass~
  • Yuuri: Wait at Monopoly?
  • Viktor: *nods terrified*
  • Yuuri: Oh...well I cheated at Clue so we're even
Can I just

I just wanted to randomly talk about three things that made my day and got me all soft and ughhh. Feelings.

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