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★ Karamel Appreciation Week ★

Day 6 favorite angsty moment

Hey to all those people telling people “ it’s not so bad, just power through the cramps” when they're on their period because it’s not an excuse to miss school/work etc.!

I had bad cramps today, but I tried to “power through it” and went to class anyways, even though my grandmother had to drive me because I couldn’t walk to the bus.

I tried to “power through it” when I started to feel like I was going to throw up in the middle of my lecture, leaving to take a walk outside in the cold to try and clear my head, even though walking made my right side feel as though it was being ripped in two.

I tried to “power through it” when I started getting cold sweat all over my body, taking off my sweater and then putting it back on two seconds later because my body couldn’t decide if it was hot or cold.

 I tried to “power through it” when spots started to appear in my vision, and just kept walking towards the exit.

I tried to “power through it” when I started to dry heave, and started walking faster.

I tried to “power through it” when my ears started ringing and the spots took over my vision and I was so so hot but shivering and my side felt on fire and twisted into knots and stabbed all at once.

I tried to power through it to the point where I collapsed in the middle of my college hallway. A stranger brought me to Outreach Services, where I lay on the floor, vomiting, for an hour until somebody could pick me up and take me home.

The school paramedics told me that I had passed out because I put too much stress on my already taxed body. My body was taxed because of hormonal fluctuations and blood loss aka my period.

Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. In the past when I’ve had cramps like this, I’ve stayed in bed and eaten strawberries and watched MASH all day.

So don’t you DARE tell me that you should “power through the cramps and do it anyways”. Powering through made me pass out. Powering through made me have to be wheeled out of the school in a wheelchair because I couldn’t keep my balance to walk. Powering through made my grandmother with osteoporosis and a tendency to panic have to come pick me up from school and help me up the stairs and almost break her hip when I started to collapse backwards on the front steps. Powering through made my 13 year old brother have to supervise me while I took a bath because I was afraid I would pass out and drown (he was super sweet about it actually; we closed the curtain and he read me Voyage of the Dawn Treader). Powering through made my mother who works to support our family pretty much on her own have to take time off work to come home and make sure I was okay.

In conclusion; If someone feels crappy because of their period cramps, leave them alone. Don’t make them do things anyways, because you might make it worse. And definitely don’t make them feel bad for not wanting to do things because of cramps; that’s the reason I even got out of bed this morning. Be nice to people on their period. Possibly buy them chocolate or painkillers. Nut don’t make them do things when they have cramps, and definitely don’t tell them “it’s nothing, power through” because cramps? Cramps can be one of the worst things you could possibly imagine.

Seriously. Fuck you all.

Everybody else is off graduating college, getting married, and having kids and posting exciting actual life events as their status updates and I’m over here like...
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“i’m not gay,” says yoongi, and they look at each other for a long time. he can feel a droplet of water from his damp hair drizzling down one cheek; he can smell the lakewater absorbed in his skin, taste the warm honey flavour of hoseok’s lips where they’d been dancing against his mouth just moments before. 

“of course you’re not,” says hoseok, before jumping on his bike and pedalling away.

a yoonseok fanfiction based on the 2014 film ‘boys’ | coming soon

last night I went to the first class in a trick dog course and there was a behaviourist there as well and things weren’t terrible but I have since been feeling all of those human things like shame and thinking I’d been doing everything wrong and letting my dog down

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Jennifer “I can’t stop talking about Josh Hutcherson” Lawrence is one of my favorite things

Bonus:

ok i drag greek a lot, we all do, but do you ever just get that romantic feeling while you are struggling through it? Like you are translating a dead language and you don’t know who is speaking but it is like catching whispers behind a curtain, the voices lost and indistinguishable but the words remain, a shadow play of light without heat from stars now dead and light years away, snatches of things in a language no one learns on their mother’s knees anymore, foreign phrases and idioms in strange orders that sound more and more natural the more they appear to you - “Truly, you speak?” “Why indeed?” “I do not understand what you say” “I suppose” “To be one, or two?” Watching these words drop like pebbles and pass through other centuries, other decades, other languages and transcriptions, as blurred as they are illuminated.

Is that why I am still studying this?

Anyway I love @candycorncartooncat with my whole being. Xe means so much to me you don’t even know. Xe helps me figure out so many things. Knows how to ground me and gives me lots of helpful advice. Loves me wholeheartedly and supports me lots too.

Xe is great and lovely. Wonderful and adorable and I hope I give Sody as much back as they give me

i daydream about being someone who’s prolific and confident and excited about art like it’s something that’s not really achievable 

insecurity robs me of so much and it frustrates the hell out of me but i’mma keep on trying

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#so this is one of those moments that i just keep coming back to #this entire ep is important for them #and this scene is so so meaty #but it’s cat’s reaction here that i can’t let go #and i think it’s because of that long pause and the slow yes #and how /this/ is the piece of evidence that shifts her from flippancy #this is when she shifts from pacing near kara #to walking toward her #from looking around and barely making eye contact #to holding her gaze without blinking #cat lists her reasons in overhearing dirk and kara’s broken arm #and they support her discovery of course but they aren’t exactly damning #she starts off slow with those oddities and they lead up to this as the shifting point #to livewire #because that was an Important moment #a moment that cat hasn’t been able to shake #a moment that has never made sense to her #and you hear it in the way she says ‘fled’ #there’s an implicit disappointment in both the word and her emphasis #because for more than a year kara has been strong and loyal and steadfast as her assistant #and i think for weeks kara’s behavior that night had driven cat crazy #because it didn’t FIT #because kara is not the type to ~flee to safety when things get tough #and so when cat shrugs and tilts her head she agrees but she doesn’t /agree/ #her yes is slow and hesitant because kara’s words are accurate but they’re not true #because while on paper it makes sense #on paper it’s a perfectly acceptable reason for kara leaving her #in actuality it’s irrelevent #because cat asking kara - a girl who does literally everything she asks - to leave her behind? #wouldn’t work #because cat knows kara is the type of person to choose loyalty over obedience #and so when cat starts to put this all together #it finally clicks #that the only reason kara would abandon someone #(would abandon HER) #the only reason she wouldn’t fight beside someone #is so she can fight FOR them

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My personal monochrome challenge. Time elapsed: ~75 minutes. The ‘rules’ were intentionally set to fuck me up and hit on my weak points. Force me into a corner, basically.

Rules:

- No pen pressure sensitivity allowed. Not opacity, size, not shape. As if you are using 2 cent markers.
- 90 minute time limit.
- No color blending. Monochrome. Minimize # of colors (four).
- No eraser tool. No blending options. Color fill and brush tool only.
- Minimize usage of ‘undo.’
- Only 1 layer (except color fill) is allowed.
- Convey something. With your limited experience, skillset, and within the boundary of these rules, convey something.

I tried to go and separate these out into separate bits so Tumblr doesn’t eat the long vertical…? This was… tough. Really tough. But fun and rewarding! And good practice? I think so anyway. Expressing a deteriorating mood and overwhelming misery and defiance…? Little things like where I placed the boxes and so on? I don’t know how apparent that effect is, but eh.

Obviously it’s bad but hey, it’s practice. Actually I’m really really nervous. Awfully nervous. Really just terribly nervous.

anonymous asked:

I'm sorry to see all the shit you're getting, Nadia. I wanted to let you know that the only reason people find the nerve to go on anon and send you those rude AF asks is that they're attention starved shits that feel the need to send messages like that just to get reactions. Don't think that it's anything that reflects personally on you as a person or an artist - I bet those people haven't even bothered to get to know you. They're just finding a wildly popular (rightfully so, since your art is

I hate conflict tbh… And I swear I wasn’t going to address the hate but I got some more rude messages in my inbox, and I just wanted to make some things clear (plus I needed to rant at that time ;o;). But I swear that’ll be it. I’m not gonna pay attention to the rest! 

I was really wary to draw and post anything ota//yuri knowing how awful some people are once they dub something as “”””problematic””””, but you guys gave me so much support, it’s honestly overwhelming (in a good way, ofc :’D ). And the love and support outnumbers the hate easily, and it’s easy to just keep drawing because of that, SO THANK YOU <33 

And thank you so so much for taking the time to write all this ;^; I mentioned before but I had a pretty bad week and it helps to know that there are supportive people like you out there <333 

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My Mother

After Naoto left the Tatsumi’s, Kanji decides to ask his mother about her opinion towards Naoto. Within those years he distance himself from her, he finally had the courage to tell her how he really feels.

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Inspired by this famous song ~

anonymous asked:

would u ever get a gf

i….Think so like while i think mostly a queerplatonic partner would be rly nice i do think abt like Dating a lot and even tho i feel like i lack those romantic feelings hence being aro i also haven’t…been in a relationship before so maybe like it would be different than i think? idk not that ppl can’t be sure of themselves even without experience but i’m just thinking

Awakenings:my original story

I don’t normally, or at all, talk or post about my personal, original story that I’ve had in the works for a while now. A long while.
I believe that the last time I did, I posted a long time ago how I’m working on an original story, and was looking for beta readers.
At the time I had only about six chapters fully written out, but up until a couple months ago, I had up to 19 chappies fully written out and the 20th chappie was half way done. That was not including bits and pieces from spin-offs I had plans on writing and WIPs from the future from the book, and even a bit of sequel since I felt the first was coming to an end.
A year and a half, and I was almost finished with my first draft of my original story, which I was very proud of because that had never happened before. I had finished a few fanfics, but this was my expansive, and from own imagination. All the work building the world, and everything else(most of which will never make it into the series but that’s another story). All the blood(figuratively speaking) sweating, tears, hours of research, and everything else that went into it was finally paying off.
Back in January, my computer updated and fucked it all up. I’m still trying to edit out the things it caused. I can post pictures later if anyone’s interested to see the expanse of how much it fucked up.
All that work felt thrown to hell, and I was ready to give up on the whole project, but decided against it. Before I had written anything, there were previous drafts I had written, and all the work…
This was a five year passion project, and I knew I couldn’t give it up because five years! I refused to give in to my depression and disappointment, and decided to fix what had been messed up.
Wanna know what I found?
That it messing up was a blessing in disguise. I found so many errors story structure wise and even character wise, and things I found I could further polish and make better, and other things as well.
I found I could take it a different direction, and while I’m still editing out the fuck ups my computer caused on that draft(because there’s information and other things I still need), and I am proud to say that I have a first chappie of the new draft finally written out along with the proluge from the previous draft that I feel is near perfect and doesn’t need revising(with a few tweakings thanks to the new direction) and I think I’m comfortable enough to post a little something of a teaser for it once it’s more polished if anyone is interested in reading it.
Let me know if you’re interested that way when I do put it up as a teaser I can tag all those with interest ^~^
Quiet frankly, I’m super excited about this project of mine. It’s my baby of sorts.
Anyways, let me know if you’re interested so I can tag you when it’s put up! You can put it in an ask, private message me, or whatever you do.
Also as a note: I’m not looking for beta anything until it’s finished, and with my writing ways that won’t be for a while. Just a fair warning.
Thanks!
Peace out!

|| Ah haha hello everyone, I am sorry to announce too that I am taking a small break from here because ya know how it is, if the Mika is not there I kind of feel like there’s something huge missing here so imma just follow Nia to kick her butt and take care of stuff. I will save all of the replies and threads, I am sorry to those I didn’t get to reply to, but the muse is kinda down if that makes sense. I always check this blog anyways because it’s hella important to me and for those who wanna still talk to me, you can contact me through IM or ask for my Skype (only mutals sorry!)

Have a great time, stay always safe and see ya soon properly again!!