it's just sorta stupid

i hate them

The answer to the great question of life, the universe and everything, is forty-two.

-Deep Thought, The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy
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Happy 42nd Birthday Misha!
20-08-1974

voice dysphoria is the fucking worst like i gotta talk on the phone, talk to ppl who walk in talk to my coworkers and it just feels Wrong. and i wanna talk to friends and it still feels wrong. even laughing is just like Extra Bad and it’s like an expression of happiness hurts and its sorta comical but fucking stupid and i rlly just fucking hate it and it’s gonna b so long until i can go on T and i hate the whole pre-therapy thing for it bc it’s gonna b up to a cis person to decide if i’m trans enough and i can try to deepen my voice but it’s never deep enough and i can’t project with it