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anon said: Hi! If your request are still open… can I request a jimin bad boy smut where her father’s friend son ( jimin) is living with them for a few years and the tension is just building up. Thank you! I love your writings!💕💕

Summary: Throughout high school you’ve hated Park Jimin. That doesn’t change when he begins living with you… or does it? 

Warnings: language, oral sex (unprotected) 

Word Count: 10.7k+ 

A/N: The gif is mine. 


When you were two years old you’d met Park Jimin. He wasn’t even a year older than you and your father’s best friend’s son. That was beyond confusing for your two year old mind so he was simply referred to as a family friend’s son. You never had a problem with Park Jimin until your freshman year of high school when everything changed. He’d cut off all ties with you and began hanging out with a group of six other boys. He had a different girl hanging onto his arm each week and it was no secret that he and his friends often bet each other to ask girls out just for kicks.

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ART SCHOOL | JONNY ALEXANDER (Detroit, MI)

Inspired by his love of the outdoors, artist and Head Screen Printer Jonny Alexander’s work incorporates Nature, landscapes, and its objects/processes, creating large open landscapes to cross sectional terrestrial islands sometimes floating in space, surrounded by oceans, or inhabiting surreal terrains.  Devoid of humans and human interactions, his visual narratives do, however, reflect his own “existential quandaries” or spotlight the human consequences to the environment as in a 2016 mural he created with the Pangeaseed: SeaWalls Murals in New Zealand.  We’re super excited to chat with Jonny about his art school experiences, his love of the outdoors, as well as his work ethic and tenacious attitude, all in this session of Art School. 

Photographs courtesy of the artist

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Zelda’s Diary

(spoilers ahead) (I decided to note this all down bc I was spending so much time sneaking in and out of the castle to read it again - spoiler, I haven’t stopped sneaking in and out of the castle to read it again)

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anonymous asked:

hello! i love your work! may you please make a joshua scenario where they fight, almost break up, and then make up in the end. thank you so much!

Hi there,  I hope you enjoy this request! Requests are currently open and we are now writing for more blogs other than Seventeen. We now write for Wanna one, BTS, Nu’est and GOT7 so please send in your requests! Everything is welcomed!

Originally posted by wonshu

If there was one word you would describe yourself with then it would be “friendly”.  You love meeting new people and learning about their stories but most importantly you just love socialising. Your boyfriend on the other side… has the opposite personality to you, he is shy and quiet. He doesn’t normally express his feelings unless you try your hardest to dig it out of him.

You love him with all your heart and you couldn’t imagine your life with him missing, but sometimes things get very difficult when he just would’t open up to you.

“I’ll be going out with Tim today” you informed Joshua as he was getting ready to cook. “Where are you guys going?” He looked at you and asked. His expression didn’t look too pleased but you didn’t really pay much attention since you and Tim has been best friends for many years.

“He just recently got a new job and he’s taking me for a date… you know~ just to catch up on things” you shrug your shoulders and slipped on a short black dress. The time you had set to meet up with Tim was getting very close, you hurried to get ready without noticing Joshua’s mood.

You put on your make up, curled your hair and touched up on your look with some red lipstick. “I’ll be home by 10, have a great day today babe! Sorry, I will spend tomorrow with you” leaning in to kiss him briefly, you stepped into your heels and rushed out into Tim’s car which was waiting outside. “Wait- I…” before Joshua finished his sentence, you already disappeared from his sight.

“Where should we go?” You asked Tim with a happy voice. “Um, just to a restaurant and maybe a movie after?” Tim answered but kept his eyes on the mirror which shows the reflection of Joshua standing in front of the house. “Did you tell Josh we were going out?” “Yeah, I told him before I left” “oh okay? But he is still standing by the door?” “Nah, he’s fine probably just sending me off, he’ll go inside soon.” You looked back but couldn’t see Joshua anymore.

“So? How have you been?” Tim was driving but started the conversation, he knew you since uni and its been many years. He can tell straight away when something is wrong… you tried to hide it by being cheerful but you know he won’t let you off unless he finds out what happened.

“Yeeeeeah… it’s been good I guess?” “Woah, Mrs Hong, what happened? You don’t sound very positive” he teased you. “I guess me and Joshua has just been a little awkward around each other but I have no idea what happened, he came back from his tour and became all weird…” it was so easy, the words and the true feelings hiding inside you just slipped out of your mouth without you realising.

“Have you tried talking to him” Tim suggests. He looked over at you and you raised an eyebrow. “Oh right… almost forgot… he is a busy idol! you will have to get a shovel and start digging if you want to find out about things” “Yeah exactly, so no. As long as he doesn’t say anything and I just go along with it it will all be fine” A fake smile displayed on your face, that was the only thing you could do to stop yourself from breaking down in front him.

The catch up went reasonably fast. The food was delicious and talking to your best friend after so long feels very relaxing. He is just so easy to be around, you don’t have to think about too much before you speak or act. You let out all the bad energy you had. You had to complain to him how hard it gets being an idol’s girlfriend and how hard it is to maintain a relationship. Before you noticed, the time was striking 10 o’clock.“Should probably get you home!” Tim says to you as he shoves you into the car.

Approaching the house you and Joshua shared, you hopped out of the car and Tim followed behind. “Thank you! I had such an amazing night, hope to catch you soon again” you reached out to hug Tim which he accepted by pulling you into his arms.

“Ahem…” You turned your head to see Joshua  standing by the door. “Thanks for bringing her home…” Joshua thanked Tim quietly and grabbed you by your wrist to pull you closer to him. “No worries! Have a good night! Bye” Tim waves goodbye to you and left.

As soon as Tim leaves… Joshua’s face dropped. He let go of your hand and made his way inside the house without greeting you. “Okay then…” you mumbled to yourself as you took of your shoes and walked in.

Joshua was sitting on the couch with the TV playing. You looked around to see the dining table filled with food Joshua has cooked. “Babe? Did you not have dinner?” No answer… “Babe? What happened?” No answer… “Babe?” Still no answer.

You walked over to the living room and you just couldn’t hold it any longer, he was testing your limits, but today you just don’t have the energy to deal with any of that. You snatched the remote out of his hand and turned the TV off. “What is wrong with you?” You question Joshua. “Nothing!” He replied as he tried to walk off. “Don’t lie… I know something is wrong… tell me! You have to tell me otherwise I wouldn’t know, I am not a phycologist” your voice was raising unintentionally but your words were coming out much stronger than you thought.

“Nothing is wrong Y/N, don’t worry about it” he rested his hand on your shoulder to assure you everything is fine. “Okay. I’m done with this bullshit, don’t touch me” you flicked his hands off. “Honestly… I hate myself for saying this but I feel like if I don’t say something I will hate myself even more. You really need to tell me your thoughts! I don’t read minds, you annoy the shit out of me when you give me the silent treatment, ever since your world tour finished… theres like an invisible wall between us and I don’t know what is causing that to happen” tears began to form in your eyes.

Looking up to the ceiling to prevent them from escaping you continued. “I really do love you Josh, it just gets very hard when I have to keep guessing what you are thinking. I know you are mad about something but I don’t know what…” “Y/N-” he tried to interfere. You held up your hand for him to stop, “If you don’t tell me whats wrong, this is the end of us… I can’t handle anymore of this stress, you are not the only one living the hard life…” staring into his eyes you spat out the words.

Joshua’s eyes widen when you mentioned ‘THE END’. “Fine! You asked so I will tell you… I hate Tim! I fucking hate him” Your heart dropped hearing those words and the fact Joshua swore surprised you. “I hate him. There is no other words I would use… I hate seeing other people with you, I hate him for taking away your attention from me and I hate him for being able to spend lots of time with you” His face turned bright red as he spoke.

“When I was on tour, all I could think about were the most horrible things he could do to you when I’m absent… I could not concentrate… I was worried” he slowly steps closer backing you into the wall. “He is always so close to you and you never take caution when you are around him! How can I not be worried? I love you way too much to loose you Y/N… I want to punch myself for not trusting you but I don’t want to risk losing you… it will all be too late when it gets to that point”

There was a small gap between you and him. His breathing was fast due to his angry confession. The long pause after his words cooled you both down.  “I’m sorry.. I didn’t mean to take it out on you” Joshua covered his face seconds after he realised what he has done. “Thank you” you replied to him as you take his hands. “Thank you so much babe… I never knew this was what upset you, I’m really sorry too for making you think this way! But you really have nothing to worry about. YOU! JOSHUA HONG is the man I truly love and want to spend the rest of my life with, do not ever question yourself! And I love it when you express your feelings and tell me what you are thinking”

Joshua tucked you tightly in a hug. You could feel his heart beating against your chest, you pulled away to give him a kiss and assure him. He picked you up then crushed his lip against yours. He kissed you eagerly as if he wanted to label you his territory.  And that night… he surely did 😏

Originally posted by randomjoshua17

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Hello! I’m opening commission to help fund my future psychiatric service dog!

  • PM me if you’re interested.
  • You can check the ‘my art’ tag on my blog for examples.
  • In order for me to be payed full price, the actual price of the commission will be $.50 - $1 more than listed. This is so I get the full amount after Paypal pulls out its fees.
  • Sketches are $5 flat. You can have a headshot, med. shot, or a fullbody. your choice!
  • I will also design you a cat oc! Just choose the shot you want and give me an idea of what you want!
  • There aren’t any here, but I will draw your anthro characters as well!
  • Extra characters don’t cost any extra.
  • All pics under $30 can have a white, transparent, or simple bg! It’s up to you!

Thank you so much for taking your time to read this!!

anonymous asked:

Hey! I'm following you for some time now... and honestly? I'm curious. Are you Gay ? Or Bi? Sorry if it makes you uncomfortable love ! I love you're art, and have an amazing day!

ok im not being rude but like ive literally posted abt my preferences multiple times and also i have no idea why people asking me what my sexuality is is making me so uncomfortable lately bc im not usually uncomfortable abt this??

im grayro/ace an also sapphic,,i GUESS bi for girls and nb ppl but i very very very very very highly prefer girls so i say gay as a catch-all for it

basically its hard for me to like ppl at all but when i do its 99% likely to be a girl

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Elesh Norn Sprite!

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(Well after seeing @inalandofmythandtimeofmagic  as patton! (Aka my new faaavourite thing)<3 I heard she required a Logan? Here’s my shitty attempt at @thatsthat24 Logic.) (Yes I tagged him.. why not ‘-’)

Logic’s not sure what to where for this ‘Meeting’. The blue? (He knows its Pattons favorite..) or the Black? (His personal favorite) Jacket or no?. He cant afford to take so long on such minor decisions! He refuses to run late. 

Let’s just hope he looks nice either way…

( Also new hair? it might not be obvious.. its blue now though.. I feel so me??… that sounds weird but wow I’m actually happy. ) 

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Requests: “I have a idea that’s kinda weird and feel free to say no if you don’t wanna do it haha could you possibly do a teen wolf imagine where the reader and stiles are dating and they’re just like hanging/cuddling and its like super fluffy and then the reader says something like “you know what, if you cheated on me with Lydia I’d probably be able to forgive you” and stiles would be all confused and the reader is just like “I mean she’s like the perfect girl, even I’m a little in love with her"” (Credits to gif owners!)

It was just another normal night with Stiles, your boyfriend. Usually nights like these were just cuddling until you fell asleep in each other’s arms, and had to wake up for school the next day. You watched Stiles dress into his sweatpants and an old shirt while you were wearing another set of his sweatpants and an old shirt. You normally stole his clothing when you were over. Which he told you many times he loved.

He was concentrated and moving about the room until his sweatpants were completely pulled up his legs and he lay next to you on his back. His arms were behind his head and his brows were furrowed. Now he was thinking. "What’s going on in that head of yours?” You rested your head on his chest. Your fingertips lightly traced shapes into his chest.

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anonymous asked:

I'm not really sure if this counts as something in the faq, so feel free to ignore it. I've been with my girlfriend for a few months now, and the idea of doing sexual things with her appeals to me. The thing is, it's kinda only in theory. If I'm alone and just thinking about it, it sounds great, but when I'm with her, even just kissing her sometimes weirds me out. I don't know if this could be asexuality, or maybe just a product of my anxiety? do you have any thoughts/advice? thank you.

That sounds totally normal in the ace experience. I think a lot of people will empathize with you. I’ve heard sex being described as a ‘bath that’s warm and pleasant when you first step in, but turns lukewarm and meh in a few seconds’. It’s normal to enjoy the idealized concept of sex, but not in reality.

- Fae

and like heres the thing,, i can already tell there are ppl who reblogged that post purely for like. some sort of credit? but dont actually watch/read AO. like they thought they would get brownie points for reblogging smth abt fat charas?? nd its?????? so fucking weird like holy shit ur not a good person for tolerating the existence of a show involving fat characters?? why reblog content for something you’re not even gonna support if all you’re doing is trying to make yourself look like ur interested in stories where fatness is acceptable.

even some of the ppl who /do/ read nd watch AO make me uncomfortable in that regard. like they’ll go on and on w/ fleshed out HCs abt ebumi nd oharano nd sekizan but when theyre prompted to talk abt hirota or shinshi or sano they like. do that weird creepy pretend gushing thing to avoid actually thinking abt the character like “my soft boy i want him to sit on me” and its just. theyre high schoolers??? its entirely possible to acknowledge fat characters without sexualizing them????????

idk its just. i just feel like a lot of ppl try WAY too hard to ~act~ normal around the idea of fatness like chill dude can u just. admit that u have no idea how to acknowledge fat people without attempting to ignore their fatness and simultaneously bringing it up at every possible chance bc as funny as it is to watch u try nd walk on eggshells for absolutely no reason, its getting rly rly old

lil-lycanthropy  asked:

I just want to tell you that you are a really emotional writer. I mean that in the way that you somehow evoke so much emotion from me, both good and bad, with your writing. It's incredible. I have no idea how you do it, but whenever I read your stuff, it's just so surreal at how much it makes me feel everything. I've never really responded this way to writing before, so that's a little weird, I guess. But yeah—the way you convey and evoke emotion is just astounding.

That is such a compliment!!! Thank you so much! I definitely do aim for evocative language so hearing that I’ve hit the mark (at least for you!) is really really amazing. 

And in fairness, I have literally studied how to do it. I have a degree in both English literature and psychology, so human emotion and writing about it are things I’ve actually spent time and energy (and money) learning about and trying to understand. I bring this up not to brag, but to make sure that any younger writers out there who feel like their writing isn’t doing what they want it to quite yet will know it’s something that can be learned. You’re always going to have your naturally gifted writers who can do it without thinking about it ( @parsnipit I’m looking at you), but if you don’t think you’re one of those, don’t give up or stress out about it. Just know it’s like any other skill: it can be acquired with time, patience and practice. 

Whew sorry for the little soapbox! And thank you so much, @lil-lycanthropy, for this awesome comment!!!!!

anonymous asked:

Ey, I love your content to bits like seriously, especially your hypnosis stuff. I was wondering (and I totally understand if you don't want to or it'd be too weird) if you could do hcs w/ either TFA or TFP Optimus and a hypnotized s/o? Again, if it's too odd, you totally don't have to do it

nothing is too weird for me. also since u didnt specify, ill just do sfw headcanons (yes sfw hypnosis is a thing ya SINNERS). if u want nsfw feel free to send in another request!

Optimus Prime (Transformers: Prime)

Honestly, at first, the hypnotizing isn’t intentional. He’s just got… such a /soothing/ voice, and you relax so easily when he talks.

When he learns how you react, and how you relax, he gets… kind of interested? He likes the idea of you being able to relax like that, without any problems.

He starts to do it intentionally, and holds you in his hand/against his chest while he does so.

He’ll never admit he thinks you’re pretty adorable when you’re all spaced out and smiling.

Anyone else struggling with their place in the world at the moment? I feel like i don’t belong anywhere and that i’m just floating around with absolutely no purpose or direction. Its a weird feeling. I mean, i usually feel disconnected and disassociated from everything anyway, its just alot more pronounced atm. I feel like there has to be something more for me, but i have no idea what or how to get there or make it happen.

anonymous asked:

Gerard Lacroix and Ameliee

                     SHIPPING MEME || ACCEPTING

send me a pairing and I’ll tell you who:

falls asleep on the couch: gerard. he is Tired™

makes friends with the neighbors: probably both of them. amélie’s a little more introverted i think but if they have good neighbors then she’d also befriend them

is the adventurous eater: i feel like gerard is always coming up with weird new ideas or getting excited about trying some crazy thing. amélie goes along with it as long as its not too ridiculous. she’s a bit of a food snob

hogs the covers at night: amélie. she doesn’t mean to, but she just gets all wrapped up in them. gerard thinks its cute

forgets to do the dishes: gerard for sure. amélie scolds him and he gets overly dramatic about how much he loves her and how she’s the light of his life and he’s so sorry. then she makes him do the dishes

tries to surprise their partner more often: gerard. he just really really loves her and loves seeing that glimmer in her eye when he surprises her with something she likes

leaves dirty laundry on the floor: hm neither. gerard would be more prone to tho

stays up til 2 AM reading: both of them

sings in the shower: gerard does it loudly, amélie does it softly

takes the selfies: both of them. they’re either perfect with both of them looking absolutely unfairly flawless or they’re silly and gerard looks absolutely ridiculous. amélie’s always still so beautiful in those but either has a fake stern look or she’s laughing

plans date night: gerard. he likes spoiling amélie and having everything taken care of so she can just enjoy herself

anonymous asked:

oH I JUST REALIZED SOMETHING ABOUT THE SPHYNX BULLSHIT so yeah her liking weird riddles but also cold hard facts doesnt add up right?? im not saying that its okay rick did that bs because it is weird BUT i have an idea that makes actual sense???? like annabeth and pretty much Every Demigod Ever have adhd and because of that it mightve been weird for annabeth to meet The Sphynx and it not have all the riddles and stuff because like, its different from what she expected??? you feel me????

it does make sense if you think (which i do and i think is pretty hard to discount, it’s practically explicit canon and her whole characterization hinges on it) that annabeth hates change. she does not like things to deviate from history, or how she was told they would be. the sphinx’s riddle is consistent with this.

i think she gets deep and withdrawn about rapidly changing events, which she can’t predict or control. stuff like the chinese handcuffs…are less of a character inconsistency and more just rick needing a way to give her the idea.

anonymous asked:

i’m rlly curious about your real name actually? (even if you don’t wanna go by it i’m just curious )

👀 (update: now that i’ve revealed it i kind of want to delete this post)

anonymous asked:

i noticed that you reblog sixpenceee sometimes, which i was a little surprised by since she was originally controversial for her nazi apologism. now she's controversial because she recently made a profiteering scheme offering to give unqualified advice to mentally ill followers for $30 (she's since apologized but only reblogs posts that come to her defense which makes her appear pretty insincere). isnt rebloggin someone like this a bit hypocritical? im assumin you just dont know about her though

Anon, 

I have not heard these things before, don’t know the person being referred to though I’m guessing they were an OP on something I reblogged(?) bc  I like many of us do not research the provenance of a lot of the posts I reblog and I’m always a little … perplexed as to how to take these types of vaguely accusatory but also unsourced anon messages. On the one hand If I’m spreading a bad message or promoting a harmful person … yes I want to know, (like holy shit, nazi apologism). 

But there’s got to be a better dynamic for this type of interaction, because the setup is incredibly asymmetrical and ripe for bullying, even if (and I don’t know if it is) the information is accurate. So I’m really ambivalent about these types of messages, especially when they’re anonymous.

Because right now, I have in my inbox an anonymous callout of a person I literally don’t follow and must have reblogged without looking at who the op in a long chain of reblogs was (I have no idea what post this is referring to), who it appears has had a series of scandals, some of which were apologized for (but not enough or apparently sincerely enough for tptb), none of which accusations are sourced, and … idk what I’m supposed to do or feel about that. In the absence of facts, all I have is social pressure. 

The dynamics of the anon callout are … this weird diffuse asymmetrical accusatory stew. Effectively, I know that someone, unknown to me (bc anon) has made accusations about another person, also unknown to me (bc I don’t follow them and don’t know anything about them), using no sources/evidence, but because a post/posts of theirs has (presumably) been reblogged by me (idk which though I can remember seeing their name in the past, so it seems likely) I can either be tangentially associated with their alleged crimes or perform public contrition while promising never to ‘sin’ again, all on the basis of basically anonymous rumor. 

I have no idea if I’m expressing the weirdness of this or its anxiety-provoking dynamic right. I feel as if there’s a sort of expected script, a performance of social shame and conformity that I’m now supposed to go through, but the entire dynamic is based around me accepting the authority of unsourced anonymous asymmetrical proclamation (rumor) ‘-this person you don’t follow but reblogged is a baddie, trust me and the chain of other people you don’t know who are saying they’re a baddie, because we’re willing to believe just this one time that maaaaaybe you’re not a “hypocrite” (about…something?) but if you don’t give in to the demands we’ll know who you reaaaaaaaally are.’ 

I mean, I know the script is that I’m supposed to say ‘oh wow I didn’t know and I’ll never reblog that terrible bad person again, thanks for letting me know,’ and part of me is thinking damn I *didn’t* know that (and to be honest, I actually still don’t, bc no evidence, but I believe you’re acting in good faith as you understand the situation) and I don’t want to promote bad things, but I also loathe this dynamic because callout culture is basically about leveraging social fear in order to compel behavior–from the safety of anonymity. 

So I don’t know whether or not any of this is true but I effectively must act as if it is, while meanwhile an anonymous person trundles off with no responsibility or accountability. It’s … a very gross dynamic. 

So on the one hand, I don’t want to be spreading nasty shit (and am now googling this user), and there definitely are times I’d want to be told that a source or OP is not one to be associated with but on the other, I want to really strongly suggest that if we want to make this site a kinder place, we consider the dynamics we contribute to it, and the power dynamics and environment they encourage?

Anonymity in these types of situations is a power play and an attempt to evade social responsibility while demanding it from others. 

anonymous asked:

Not-a-creep guy again. I've tried asking her to tutor me, but I get nervous and go blank every time I try. She's amazing, not magazine-pretty or thin but she is to gorgeous to me and she's whip smart too. I feel undeserving, yet I don't want to leave HS without at least letting her know how I fee. I was thinking about leaving my confession inside a book she picks out often (20 love poems and a song of despair by Neruda, could she be more perfect?) I feel it's too weird but otherwise I've no idea

mmm okay I’m gonna be real “not magazine-pretty or thin but she is to gorgeous to me” is pretty offensive. Everyone is gorgeous and perfect in their own awesome and unique ways, even without your approval, bud. Focus on improving your mindset towards women and then you can have actual conversations with people you have feelings for, instead of just watching them from afar, bcause everyone deserves to be able to read without being watched man

Differences between Ni and Si

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I thought this was a great area of controversy so i thought I’d try and help as an Ni user myself ( INFJ) with an ISFJ friend so I have a deeper understanding of both I guess.

The main difference is that we look at events differently.

The ISFJ is very confident about their physical environment with a more integral role for their past experiences, unable to react or think about new events or experiences without a basic understanding derived from a another past experience (either their own or others) as they believe all the world is just fixated on what happened and they know how that works (Si), so they build on the past experience while changing to the best route according to how much they believe would make them close to other people and it might affect their personal status (Fe) .

I on the other hand might not react at all to the new experience and just watch while trying to understand to understand how it is. I have a bit of a weird imagination so i would imagine what would happen next and derive the meaning behind it not only cause I believe that every situation is seemingly just new for me, but it is because i believe the world expresses itself through meaningful messages through people and the people are fixated on one idea and express it differently through different situations (Ni ), so I can relate to people’s feelings very accurately sometimes and my ego seems to feed greatly on compliments people give me although I believe it is trivial and unimportant but its a paradox cause i cannot prevent myself from being happy about it sometimes (Fe).

The next major difference is our reaction to being really stressed (the inferior function grip). The ISFJ would live inside their mind with tons of dark thoughts, how it could all go bad and how their life would be ruined afterwards (inferior Ne) while I would just start doing plain idiotic stuff. I’d maybe get into fights, or be addicted to doing physical stuff for a couple of days (inferior Se).

I guess those were the most prominent differences other than our social tendencies. All in all, Ni is more about the meaning and how it will all play out but Si is about relating to stuff and understanding it according to a major past-present experience .