it's just been done so many times


Don’t forget Gorillaz fans, Jamie Hewlett exist! He made all you’re favorite band members come to life in the music videos, shorts, ect! He continues drawing them countless times and works day and night to give you new content with the band members! So please appreciate him!!! ❤❤❤

ok i know it’s 2016 but i just have to say that like, if you joined tumblr after 2010 and/or never got involved in the glee fandom you missed out on a core piece of this websites history

like you do not understand the scope, power, influence of the glee fandom. all the “leaders” of current fandoms now are people who were probably big in the glee fandom too. you literally had to be there. it was fucking crazy, it was horrible, the ship wars were endless, the hate was endless, but you know what - i genuinely miss it sometimes because it was the most prolific, engaged, and creative community i have ever seen and been a part of. 

like y’all. the art, the fic, the gifs, the manips, everything. this fandom was in a constant state of creation, and we constantly inspired each other. we gave great feedback. the ideas were endless. i once got 823 notes on a like 1 paragraph “fic” after gay marriage was legalized in ny. it would not be uncommon to post something and have literally 1000 people on your blog at once. for something like that to happen now would be astounding but it barely was back then, just pretty cool.

glee had its problems - many many problems - but it did something nobody else had done before, which is that it really tried to serve every single underserved group, meaning everyone got involved. there was never a time when you couldn’t relate to a character or root for a character or empathize with a character - everyone found someone worth defending or loving. what i’m trying to say is it was the pinnacle of obsession & investment. there has literally not been another fandom like it since. and the most insane thing is that most people who were a part of it ended up so disappointed by it that we have tried to sever all ties.

so i’m gonna come out and say i miss glee! except i don’t miss glee, i miss the community and the camaraderie and the creation. i miss always having something new to read or new gifsets to see or new meta or parallels or whatever. it was amazing and terrible and we had the time of our fucking lives before the show destroyed itself past the point of no return. so anyway. i feel now more than ever that something like the glee fandom will never happen again so consider this a tribute post to y’all who were there. solidarity my friends


I discovered fandom in 2001, and fell down the rabbit hole. I landed hard. My life got busy in 2002 onwards, and I all but vanished from fannish life. I was well and truly out by the summer of 2010, but when a friend nudged me to watch this new show called Sherlock that had just aired, I did. I loved it. 

I loved the relationship between Sherlock and John. I loved what they’d done with Watson! He had depths! He was a man of action, but he was obviously made of coiled, unspoken emotion! So compelling, so many possibilities! The desire to dip into this nascent fandom was rearing its head. This time around, I knew what choice lay before me, and what its consequences were. Open that door, or not?

If it hadn’t been for the fact that I was one year post cancer treatment and facing another surgery to determine if I had a new round of treatment to endure, I think I would have closed that door. Fandom takes up a lot of time and energy. It can be deliriously fun and damagingly distracting at the same time. I had a surgery date. I wanted to be distracted. I opened the door.

I tried not to write anything. I love writing fanfiction, but I never plan to do it. When I write, it’s because I have to. It’s wonderful, but it consumes me completely, and who has times for that? Who choses to be so consumed?I read and read, I had my surgery, I read some more, I got good news regarding my health (yay!), and then, goddammit, I wrote something.

Something small, I thought that would be okay. I thought I could get away with it. Don’t write any novels this time. Just a little thing. Just scratch the itch.

The Progress of Sherlock Holmes is a novel-length story written by someone who was trying very hard to avoid writing a novel-length story. I was in denial about it being a novel-length story for the first half of it, easily. That damn story forced me to do something I’d decided never to do again, and I’m grateful for that.

I wrote it because I felt compelled to, even though it contains a characterization of Sherlock that few if any people wanted to read about. It’s in first person present tense, another decision few if any readers want a writer to make. I apologized for it a lot, but I had to write it. And I loved it. That story reminded me how much I love writing, and how happy writing makes me, and that’s not something I’ll soon forget again.

The voice in that story is so sticky that half the comments left on it are in the same voice. I had to work myself up to write in that voice every time I sat down to work on it, and I was never sure whether I was getting it consistently or not, even right up to the end. But afterwards it took me fully 6 months to stop writing in that damn voice.

Honestly, I have no idea why my difficult, weird, inappropriate on many levels attempt at a story, written after only 3 aired episodes of a show in 2010-11, received its 10,000th kudos today. That’s a variety of madness and kindness that I cannot explain. But I am grateful for it.

Thank you for being here when I needed you. Thank you for finding a place for a story that no one, including me, really wanted. Thank you.

In The Eye Abides The HeArt

FINALLY a great PLL episode. I have so many thoughts and theories about this one! 

Make sure to enable pictures, they are critical to the theories. It gets better the further you read!!! Enjoy!


  • I’ve said it many times, but I would really hate if there was twin reveal. This was the case with Courtney DiLaurentis in the book version, and its been done with Jessica and Mary DiLaurentis. It would be a cop-out to do it again, so i sincerely hope it doesn’t happen; but lets explore all the twin hints in this episode, because there were so many.
  • ARIA- The first time AD FaceTimed Aria, it was just a hooded figure with a black face, but in this episode it was what looked to be Aria’s facial features on Paige’s face. Weird and off-putting
  • SPENCER- Everyone is thinking and writing about this- but the Spencer we see at the airport with Wren was acting very suspicious. She also is not wearing the white jacket or watch she had on in the previous scene, nor is it draped over her chair. There are also girls wearing matching shirts in the background.


  • ALISON- Alison says something VERY interesting when Paige asked her if she loved Emily. Ali says this about Emily, “She looks at you and sees who you really are. Maybe that’s the scariest part-You want to be who she sees.”  The second she says this all I could think was WHAT IF IT IS SO SCARY BECAUSE YOU AREN’T THE REAL ALI BUT HER TWIN?! If this Alison that we have been seeing is in fact -lets call her Courtney- then maybe she is feeling remorseful because Emily has been so in love with Alison for so many years, and Courtney wishes she REALLY was Alison. Courtney has taken over Ali’s life but deep down she knows she isnt the real Alison DiLarentis. The title of this episode was “In The Eye Abides The Heart,” which could also connect to this theory. Emily is in love with Alison, and always has been. The person she is seeing now-looks like Alison, but it is really Courtney. But Emily doesn’t know this and believes its Ali because they are identical. Her EYES see who she believes is Alison, which causes her HEART to love her (even though its Courtney). IN THE EYE ABIDES THE HEART.



  • I think the biggest reveal of this episode was that Archer Dunhill is not the father of Emily’s baby. So who is it???
  • Charlotte- I am STILL holding out hope that CeCe is not the real Charles, but if she is, what if it was her sperm that she had frozen from before her sex change? She had her boyfriend Archer pretend to be a doctor, and had her cousin Alison implanted with Emily’s eggs and her own sperm. Her cousin gives birth to her baby as a surrogate- this would be the only way she could have a baby now because of her surgery. Even if she is dead now- Archer decided to continue with the plan even after her death so she could “live on.” Confusing and crazy but definitely possible in Rosewood.
  • AD- I have been praying that AD is male, so maybe it is AD’s sperm. Why? Maybe AD is impotent, which is common for sociopaths and people who have severe mental illnesses. If AD is a relative of Alison, he is having his sister give birth to his child, using Emily’s eggs (not Alison’s eggs because of incest). It’s also a way to psychologically torture Emily&Ali as well- which he loves doing.
  • Anonymous [Sperm] Donor (which is an AD anagram)- I also think it’s possible that Alison is still the manipulative bitch she has always been and stole Emily’s eggs and had someone implant them in her with a random sperm donor, as a way to bond her and Emily for life and get Paige out of the picture once and for all. 



  • So now we know that Lucas and Charles go WAY BACK. They attended the same camp together for troubled boys where Pastor Ted worked as a counselor since he is Charles’ father.
  • Remember how Alison used to call Lucas “Hermie,” and say that he had both girl and guy parts? Sometimes babies are born with both male and female sex organs. What if Lucas was sent to this camp because he really is a hermaphrodite. (I just want to say as a side note that Marlene has not done a good job of portraying these sensitive subjects before (Charles as transgender and Emily as a lesbian) so I hope if they go this route it is done in a respectful and tasteful way)
  • What if Lucas is Bethany Young??? Maybe that is his female persona. 



  • The A is very pronounced in Lucas’ signature.
  • Lucas and Charles wrote and illustrated a comic book. I LOVED this reveal; it was CRAZY and really cool.
  • Emily & Hanna summarize the comic book: “The hero is this boy who gets picked on by other kids and by his own family. He meets this alien woman in the woods and she becomes his protector. Shes this all powerful shape-shifter that helps get revenge for the boy- by torturing his enemies. And sometimes the boy turns into Arcturus, so he can experience the payback she gets for him.”
  • There is a heavy metal band which goes by Arcturus. In 1997 they released “Master of Disguise” and in 2015 they released a song titled “Game Over”. (PLL.wikia) 
  • Charles used elements of the comic book in the Dollhouse:
  • This obviously proves that Lucas is part of the A Team, and has been since (probably) the very beginning. But I dont think he is or has ever been Head A or AD.



  • In comic books there is always a superhero and an alter ego. 
  • Batman is Bruce Wayne. Spider-Man is Peter Parker. When that character wakes up in the morning, he’s Peter Parker. He has to put on a costume to become Spider-Man. 
  • Superman didn’t become Superman. Superman was born Superman. When Superman wakes up in the morning, he’s Superman. 
  • His alter ego is Clark Kent. His outfit with the big red “S”, that’s the blanket he was wrapped in as a baby when the Kents found him. Those are his clothes. What Kent wears - the glasses, the business suit - that’s the costume Superman wears to blend in with us.
  • Clark Kent is how Superman views us. And what are the characteristics of Clark Kent? He’s weak… he’s unsure of himself… he’s a coward. Clark Kent is Superman’s critique on the whole human race. (kill bill)
  • Look at how similar the boys comic book cover is to Superman’s comic book cover: 

  • They both have a yellow background and red lettering.
  • They both wear a RED CAPE. Which is quite obviously a RED COAT parallel. Maybe this is AD’s homage to his comic book- putting his female A team members in a RED COAT, since his comic book protector wore a RED CAPE.

Now….who wears GLASSES? 

Is TOBY our Clark Kent???? Is Toby AD?!

  • Remember the scene a few episodes back when Spencer visits Toby in the hospital (Remember AD forced her to go. Which makes a lot of sense if Toby is AD) Toby says: “Maybe this town needs to disappear before we can leave”

Maybe that is Toby’s goal. If Toby is AD, maybe he needs to destroy everyone in Rosewood before he can move on with his life.

Then Spencer says, “You should probably try PUTTING ON YOUR GLASSES”

I wrote about this in a previous post but- Spencer says “We beat on, boats against the current.” Which is a quote from The Great Gatsby, and the “all seeing eye” billboard is the most famous imagery and symbolism from that book. 

The title of the episode is “IN THE EYE ABIDES THE HEART.”

When Mona is studying the Board Game, she says that it was LOVINGLY HANDMADE with levers and pulleys. Its NOT a computer, its a construction project. Toby built the Game Board and the Dollhouse. 

I think its seriously possible that Toby is our Clark Kent…sees himself as Superman. He is AD, Lucas & Charles’ avenger.


~* Lotor’s Groovy Castle Ghost Adventure *~

first / DONE!

Wasn’t expecting to actually finish my 13 page project on time, honestly, since I didn’t draw at all last week. Ended up busting these last two out yesterday and part of this morning fairly quick (that’s why you should always have an outline, kids).

Thanks for reading and have a fun and safe Halloween! :D

Santa Tell Me|T.Holland Imagine

Originally posted by butteryplanet

Countdown To Christmas: Day 1
Song(s):Santa Tell Me by Ariana Grande
Summary:Where reader questions if Tom will break her heart like others before him.

‘Don’t make me fall in love again if he won’t be here next year..’

She couldn’t contain the smile that broke through her slightly capped lips. Her hands were curled tightly around her cup as she watched from the window. There he stood in the back yard, cheeks slightly flushed from the cold. Looking up he waved fanatically as he caught site of her, his smile widen as she waved back. She watched as the dog ran full speed in his direction catching him of guard and sending them both tumbling in the cold wet snow. With a soft chuckle and a shake of her head she sighed turning around and taken a sit on his couch.

This was their first Christmas together and she was going insane. Last year things hadn’t been so good around the holidays for her, and neither has the year after that. The twinkling lights of the tree filled the room with a soft warmth as she heard a door opening. Turning to the side she was greeted by a cheerful Harrison with multiple bags in hand. She watched as he danced around the apartment muttering a soft tune she soon figured out to be ‘Santa Tell Me’ by Ariana Grande. The sigh she let out didn’t go unnoticed by Harrison.

“What’s wrong lovely?” He asked as he took a seat besides her. Harrison had grown to love Y/N like his own sister, and seeing her down upset him. He frowned as she shrugged not knowing how to express her words.

“Nothing really..” She finally spoke a she turned to look at him with a soft smile on her lips. “Just thinking a bit is all..” She finished as he rolled his eyes knowing something was truly bothering her.

“Come on love, I know you better than that..”

Cursing she turned to look at him with bigs eyes. He knew right there he had finally gotten somewhere and hoped she would open up. Tom had voiced his concern about her days before, Harrison hadn’t seen much of a change in her behavior but just told his mate she was nervous.Tom couldn’t understand why she would be nervous, she had met everyone in his family before so that surly wasn’t it.

“Does he love me?” She finally spoke sending Harrison in a state of utter shock. Never in his thoughts would be come to the conclusion that Y/N was starting to doubt her relationship with Tom, but then again the boys had very little mindset to what her past relationships where like. It scared her how invested she was in this relationship.

“Tom?” He asked as she nodded her head placing the mug down on the coffee table as Harrison smiled softly. “He’s crazy about you Y/N, I’ll never forget the day he’d first met you.” He chuckled as a soft smile came onto her face.

‘I’m avodin’ every mistletoe until I know it’s true love that he thinks of’

Her eyes wide slightly as she walked into Tom’s apartment, she had just gotten home for a little walk with Tessa. The whole space seemed to have been decorated from head to toe. Her cheeks were flushed as she walked deeper and deeper inside the room. The fireplace now was decorated with four stockings. Smiling she ran her fingers across the one that held her name with fancy writing. Her heart seemed to have swelled up as she took sight of a picture Harry had taken of her, Tom, and Tessa not long ago. Everything was merry and bright around her and she couldn’t help the urge to hum a soft Christmas tune under her breath as she made her way through the rest of the apartment.

She stopped short in front of Tom’s bedroom door, there hang on a tiny string was a mistletoe. She felt her throat close up as she looked back towards the door to find Tom. He watched as her eyes widen and a deep intake of breathe was taken before she mumbled something in coherent and turned in the other direction as a frown made its way onto Tom’s face.  This was one of the many times she had felt him hanging.

“But on New Year’s Day I woke up and he wasn’t by my side.”

Tom had decided enough was enough. He didn’t want to spend Christmas with this dull cloud hanging around them. He had asked Harrison for help but came up short when the only advice his friend could come up with was to talk to her. So that’s what he had planned to do. Harrison has promised to stay clear of the apartment and went to spend the night with his family and Tom had set up a nice little fire and waited for her.

“Hey..” He couldn’t help the smile that worked its way onto his face. She had taken a liking to one of his hoodies and had been wearing that to bed with a pair of yoga pants.

“Hey darling..” He smiled as she sat besides him, curling up into his warmth as they sat in silence for a while. Tessa was sitting in her favorite chair by the fire, eyes closed and soft breathes coming out of her nose. Tom had been rehearsing his speech before she finally spoke breaking the silence.

“I’m sorry..”

His breathe hitched in his throat as he looked down at her. Her eyes were glossy as she stared out into the burning fire before them. Her bottom lip was taken between her teeth as her cheeks puffed out a sigh she was about to explain something and needed him to listen to her.

“I know I haven’t been the best person to be around lately..” She mumbled as she looked up into his eyes. “It’s just, this is a difficult time of year for me Tommy. I’ve had my heart broken so many times before around Christmas that i can’t help but be standoffish. It’s nothing you’ve done Tom, its just something I need to work on..”  

He looked back at her with a soft smile and wrapped his arms around her tightly as he listen to her talk. She was opening up to him and he needed to just sit there and listen, that was what she wanted. She needed to explain to him that this wasn’t something easy for her to talk about. She needed him to know she cared so deeply for him that he deserved to know her reasoning for her sudden behavior.

‘On the twenty fifth by the fireplace’

Tom smiled brightly as he stood upright looking at the clock. He ran towards his shared bedroom with a giant smile. Biting onto his bottom lip he leaned forward pressing a soft kiss onto her forehead and cheeks. He watched as she twisted and turned before finally waking up. He nodded his head towards the door as she frowned slightly.

“Come with me..”

Taken her left hand, he ran his finger over the newly placed engagement ring and tugged her over to the living room. The fireplace was lit and two glasses of wine sat on the coffee table. Her eyes filled with tears as she looked up at him.

“Merry Christmas baby..”


@maggie-starz @behxndthemask

Carry On Countdown // Day ten {December 2nd} // Youtuber AU

carry on cast + youtube, my personal hc/au (?????)(it’s post canon but also au anna why do u always have to make things complicated idfk)

  • okay so i think it would all start with agatha
  • she would start a youtube channel with one of her friends in california
  • it’s like all aesthetically pleasing beautify + life style blog. 
  • picture make-up/ hair/ nails/ idek videos but also baking videos, house/apartment tours anything hauls. 
  • the kiddo’s over in london would start watching her, first just because it’s nice to see what agatha’s up to in ca, but they get low-key addicted to her channel because her video’s are just so nice and the aesthetic is on point.
  • i feel like baz would get hardcore addicted. like he’d love all her video’s and would literally text her about the nice clothes she showed in her haul and stuff like that. (such bonding)
  • simon would try out recipes from her baking videos and sent agatha pictures of the results and aah it’s just all so cute and nice. 
  • penny enjoys the make-up vids way more than she likes to admit.
  • anyways, baz is so into agatha’s channel and just the entire youtube thing that he’s thinking of starting one of his own
  • agatha finally convinces him to just start one and see how it’ll go. 
  • so he starts one but gets lost quite quickly because he doesn’t know what to make video’s about
  • his first video is a clothing haul and like, he does enjoy doing it, but his heart just isn’t fully in it.
  • so he makes like one meh video every 2 months, not really knowing what he’s doing until he decides that he needs to rearrange some stuff here.
  • baz starts daily vlogging.
  • lbr baz can talk a lot and just is such a snarky person. imagine him filming his day with his witty comments on the things that happen. 
  • penny and simon find it stressful at first because they always need to be sure baz doesn’t accidentally film simon’s wings/tail or penny using magic or something.
  • but like they get used to it and baz is just having a lot of fun. 
  • he notices that, because he’s filming his everyday life, he gets more out of his way to do more new stuff to make the vlogs as entertaining as possible. and it just somehow makes him more excited about just living life if that makes sense. somehow it becomes this whole therapeutic thing for him. 
  • simon and penny appear a lot in his vlogs. baz’ viewers live for sassy conversations and discussions between penny and baz. and penny has no problem with being on camera.
  • for simon it takes some time to get comfortable with speaking in front of a camera. he’s not a talkative person so this whole vlogging thing is just ???¿¿?¿?????¿? to him, but baz’ viewers find simon cute and nice.
  • baz and simon never really said anything about their relationship on baz’ channel and they don’t really act like they’re in a relationship in front of the camera. (they’re just normal them in front of the camara, but no pda stuff) so the viewers don’t really know about their relationship
  • though……after some time the viewers start to suspect things because of the way the boys sometimes look at each other and stuff.
  • sO that’s how the ship SNAZ comes about ((yes, baz’ viewers do choose the cool ship name))
  • once the shipping starts baz’ channel really starts to grow (because lbr that’s how a lot of those things work in the world of fandoms. sorry.)
  • simon and baz start to notice how baz’ viewers are shipping them and like, posting edits and fanfiction of them on the social media and they think it’s great. 
  • simon and baz are very amused by the shippers and start to act a tiny bit more pda on camera. just to make the viewers flip their shit
  • like simon will shortly rest his head on baz’ shoulder or baz brushing smudged chocolate from simon’s chin on camera and giving simon an Intense Look™ that u don’t give to ‘just friends’ ppl
  • the snaz fandom is dying. leGIT DYING 
  • simon and baz are just dying of laughter. 
  • but then the fights start on social media
  • the ‘you should say all this stuff because it’ll make simon and baz uncomfortable and i’ll ruin their friendship’ drama.
  • simon and baz see all this unfold on social media and just face palm.
  • they’re like “should we just tell them that we’re dating?”
  • they don’t want to be forced to be open about their relationship online just because people are fighting about it, but at the same time they never really wanted to hide it either. they didn’t even feel like they were purposefully hiding it.
  • it was just that at first they didn’t do pda stuff in front of a camera because simon didn’t feel fully comfortable whilst being on camera and after that it just kinda became a silent rule that they didn’t do pda stuff on camera.
  • but they never actually cared about if people knew about their relationship or not so…..
  • one day baz just starts his daily vlog whilst still being in bed, barely woken up, and you can see simon next to him in bed in the background. 
  • once that vlog is up everyone DIES
  • but the Not Shippers are just like “nono baz was just sleeping over at simon’s and penny’s it’s totally normal for them to sleep in the same bed”
  • simon and baz: *sigh*
  • second attempt of Exposing™ (not actually on youtube): baz posting a picture on instagram roses with the caption “buying flowers for my special boy @~simons ig~”
  • people die again, but still there are people like “special boy as in Special Good Friend” 
  • simon and baz are ready to cry
  • so is the snaz fandom
  • so. next vlog. there’s baz and simon in the same bed again. there’s baz calling simon “love” and there’s baz just talking to the camera about something that happened (idk, him rambling about a film he just saw with simon?) whilst simon is sitting next to him with his head resting on baz’s shoulder.
  • the entire snaz fandom is crying happy tears and feeling blessed and thanking baz for bringing this level of adorableness into their lives.
  • there are idiots tweeting. “no baz isn’t dating simon u stupid fangirls”
  • and baz being so done just tweets back. “sorry sir/madam but simon snow, cute kid, crazy hair, is in fact my boyfriend who i have been happily dating for some time now. gnight.” 
  • and the whole snaz fandom just explodes. 
  • snaz is real ya’ll 
  • (((also later, when snaz is big™ they’ll bring out sweaters and beanies with the words ‘snazzy’ on it and it’s great)))
  • ((((also also. in an interview: “so, baz, since many big youtubers are brining out a book as well?” baz: “yes. it’s called twilight. it’s out september 6th 2006.” interviewer: ???¿????¿¿?¿??))))

You honestly don’t understand how sad it is to stan groups from small labels and see how many blogs end up going on hiatus/giving up completely because they just dont feel like their time and effort is going anywhere. Please know that you are a blessing to the fandom and the group itself and all of your hard work has been acknowledged by many and we love and appreciate you for doing what you do or have done in the past. 💕🌸💕

Survival 101: Earth (Part 1)

Originally posted by sweet-cider

Pairings: Bellamy Blake / Reader (Sawyer)

So I’ve been working on this one for quite a while, its been done many times before, the whole rewrite of the 100 with your own character. I’m not expecting my version to be any better than anyone else’s but i’m hoping people will enjoy it anyhow. 

I’m going to be going along with the episodes and adding in parts and maybe changing it up a bit as well. I’ve given the ‘reader’ a name just because I needed one for the storyline. 

I really hope people like this and depending on how it goes down i’ll keep writing it along with the seasons for as long as people want to read it. 

If anyone would like to be tagged in the next parts please just let me know.

@angelaiswriting @georgiagrl1990 @angryares @selldraug


So overall you were having a pretty crappy day. It had started out normal enough, waking in your tiny, cold cell in the Skybox. Now however, it seemed likely that it would end with your death in a large fiery explosion.

You and the other 99 ark delinquents had been marched from your cells first thing this morning, systematically tranquilized and gradually reawakened in a drop ship hurtling towards earth.

From somewhere you could hear Chancellor Jaha explaining what was happening to you all. You weren’t paying attention though too focused on the bone jarring rattling that you were experiencing. Your entire body was shaking in your seat as the ship rocketed back towards earth.

The whole ship was groaning with the effort of re-entering the atmosphere and not breaking into tiny pieces. Across from you a boy floated, enjoying the final moments of zero-g. He was talking to a blonde girl, a girl you recognised as Clarke Griffin. The chief mechanics daughter. You’d seen her a handful of times since she entered the skybox. Mainly because her solitary cell was right next to your own.

“The parachutes are going to deploy. Get back to your seat or die”

Parachutes, parachutes meant almost certain pain. Yeah there it went, the metal of the exodus ship almost screamed in protest as everyone started shouting and shrieking with fear. Cursing you held tight to the seat belts laced around you. Gravity reasserting itself as you were slammed back into your seat, head feeling like it may explode inwards from the pressure.

The floating space walker had vanished, thrown into the side of the ship. Maybe even dead from the impact.

With another groan and horrific impact crash the ship hit the ground, sliding for what seemed forever before coming to a sudden stop. The machines went quiet and for the first time in your life you couldn’t hear any hums from life support machines or engines.

Clarke had unclipped herself and was bending over the spacewalker checking his pulse as the others unclipped and ran down the stairs to the lower levels. You carefully unclipped yourself as well following the main group of teenagers downstairs. Watching as they argued loudly about whether or not to open the door.

The main instigators being the reappeared Clarke Griffin and a man wearing a guard’s uniform. You didn’t recognise him and he seemed older than the 18 year cut off for delinquents in the skybox.

“If the air’s toxic we’re all dead anyway”

He had a point there. “Bellamy!” a dark haired girl appeared. Finally you smiled, Octavia. So the boy she was hugging must be Bellamy. The brother she couldn’t shut up about. Silently you moved carefully through the mass of people getting closer to the front of the group.

You could hear mutterings about Octavia as you got closer. “That’s the girl from under the floor”

“No one has a brother anymore”

“That’s Octavia Blake the girl they found hidden under the floor”

Octavia’s head spun around and you saw the violence in her eyes. Before she could act on it you’d turned and driven your fist into the nose of the boy speaking. His eyes rolled back in his head and he dropped like a stone. All talk stopped as eyes turned to you as you looked over at Octavia. Her eyes widened in wonder as she took a step forward.


“O!” she grabbed you as the two of you locked your arms around each other holding tight.

“Octavia?” Bellamy snapped “Who is this?”

It was Clarke who answered him, staring at you like she’d seen a ghost. “That’s Sawyer Kane. Councillor Marcus Kane’s niece”

“Hello to you too Griffin” you glanced at Bellamy and the uniform he was wearing once more. “You never mentioned the almighty Bellamy was one of my uncle’s underlings O”

“He wasn’t anymore…”

“Enough” Bellamy snapped pulling Octavia away from you, he grasped the lever and ignoring Clarke’s shouts pulled it down. The dropship ramp groaned and slowly swung open. Earth lay there in front of you. You were home.


Predictably the delinquents had gone crazy when allowed off the ship. Racing around, screaming and laughing. Pulling things from the earth and generally living up to the role of renegade teenagers. You however had climbed to the top of the dropship, enjoying the freedom of being able to move your limbs and muscles once more. All you could see from the top was more forest, laying out in front of you like a never ending green carpet.

Below you Clarke was arguing with Wells Jaha about how to find food for the whole camp.

“And how are you two going to carry food for all 100 of us?”

“4” the space walker, Finn, announced grabbing two gangly boys who unfortunately happened to be walking by him at that moment. “Can we go now?”

“Not yet” Clarke looked up catching your eyes “Sawyer?”


Clarke sighed “Don’t make me beg Sawyer. Please”

You stared levelly at her for a moment longer before nodding “Fine 5” you jumped from your perch landing easily on your feet in front of Wells.

“Wait if Sawyers going so am I” Octavia announced linking arms with you “Make it 6”

“Hey, O! What the hell are you doing?”

She shrugged off Bellamy pulling you along behind her “going for a walk”

Bellamy glared hard at your back as you passed by him. He disliked you already, not something you could do anything about right now.

“Earth, Sawyer. This is so fucking cool”

“Yeah, awesome” you looked carefully around the woods. You had no idea where you were, what was out here and what the world had left in it. So until you all did, the best thing to do was be cautious. Very cautious.


You were walking easily over the forest floor, taking point in this group of teenagers. Behind you the others stumbled along tripping over tree roots and multiple other debris. You were close enough that you could hear when the conversation inevitably turned to what you’d all done to end up being thrown in the skybox in the first place.

“I got to know what you two did to get busted” Finn was asking the other two boys. Monty and Jasper just shrugged smiling at each other.

“Sumac is not the only herb in the garden, if you know what I mean”

“Someone forgot to replace what we took”

“Someone has apologised like a thousand times” Monty hissed at Jasper the two of them then continuing to bicker between themselves like an old married couple. Jasper was the one whose stare eventually fell on you curiously.

“So what did the ninja princess up there do? What can Kane’s niece have possibly done to get kicked down here with us criminals?”

You stopped walking at the question. It was always going to have been asked eventually, you’d thought you might have had more time but even so you turned to stare evenly at the group of teenagers behind you. It was Clarke who answered the question. She seemed to have a habit of answering questions not meant for her.

“She killed someone. Murdered her mother”

“What?!” Monty squeaked out now looking terrified.

You simply smiled at them all, turning to keep walking. Octavia running to catch up with you despite Jasper trying to grab her. “Sawyer tell them the truth” she urged.

“Why?” you kept moving helping Octavia over a broken tree. “I did kill her”

“You know that’s not true”

“O listen to me” you looked straight at her. “It’s as much of the truth as any of them need to know” you framed her face with your hands smiling at her “it’s cute that you want to protect me but trust me, I don’t need it”

It was Finn who approached the two of you later on, eyes flicking between the two girls.

“Kane teach you anything about these?” he held out a simple knife.

“Where’d you get that space walker?” he chose not to answer as you took the knife off of him. “Sure you want to risk giving the sharp and pointy weapon to a killer?”

Octavia smacked your arm “Don’t be an ass Sawyer. He’s helping”

Finn continued to stare at you evenly “I don’t think you’re going to hurt us if that’s what you’re implying”

You spun the knife round a few times, easily letting it rotate around your fingers “Not right now I’m not”

Laughing at the confused look on his face you continued onwards. The group straggling out into a vague line as you eventually hit a massive lake. Clarke coming up to you.

“This shouldn’t be here”

“Yet it is”

Clarke glared at you “Sawyer. If you can’t help…”

“Watch it Blondie. I’m here aren’t I? Didn’t even get angry when you announced to the group that I’m a murderer. So choose your words very carefully Griffin before I start to become actually unhelpful”

“You did kill her” she muttered stubbornly.

“And If I can kill my own mother, just think about what I could do to girls with too loose tongues”

You smiled nastily as Clarke’s eyes widened in sudden panic. Before you could say anything else though Jasper whispered from behind you “I fucking love earth”

You turned just in time to see a half clothed Octavia jump into the water, surfacing with a smile as she dripped water over her skin, clothes sticking to her body.

“O, get out” you snapped coming closer to the shore line.

“Come on Sawyer, live a little” she splashed water over at you making you jump away again.

“Yeah come on ninja girl, take your damn clothes off and get in” Jasper was rushing forward when suddenly he froze, voice changing to terrified. “Fuck! Octavia get out of the water”


You’d seen it now as well and it was big, swimming straight for Octavia. “Octavia NOW” you were halfway to the edge when with a scream Octavia had been pulled under the water.

“Octavia” without thinking you started pulling clothes off. “Distract it” you ordered Clarke. “Get its attention away from O”

Clarke ran with Finn to start throwing anything they could find into the water. While you waded into a river that had a killer snake in it.

Shit it was cold, you had the knife in your hand that Finn had given you only moments before. Who knew that would be coming in handy so soon afterwards.


Her head surfaced for a moment and you changed direction as with a shriek the thing seemed to let go of her, Clarke was throwing who knew what into the water and you could see its outline chasing towards the splashing further up the river.

You had a limited amount of time to get Octavia out of the water. Grabbing her shaking arm you pulled her into your body where she clung. Teeth chattering.

“Come on O, move it” you commanded starting back out of the pool of water.

“SAWYER IT’S COMING BACK!” Finn screamed running for the two of you.  

Pushing Octavia as fast as you were able you got her to the shore line and stumbling into Finn’s arms. Dropping down on the stone yourself as the blurry outline of the sea snake vanished once more, denied its meal.

You were breathing hard as Finn having passed Octavia to an incredibly thankful Jasper leant over you.

“You ok?”


He smiled offering you his hand, clasping his wrist you allowed him to pull you up to your feet. Handing you your still dry clothes. “That was an incredibly brave thing to do for someone you met this morning”

“Who said I met Octavia this morning?” you pulled you shirt back on, shivering from the cold of the water. “And not brave… stupid”

“The girl under the floor… she’s been in the skybox for 2 years. How do you know her?”

“Don’t call her that” you snapped instantly. Eyes clashing with Finn’s. “She has a name”

Finn held his hands up in peace. “How did you meet Octavia?”

You looked carefully at Finn. He seemed genuinely curious and not just trying to get information for bartering purposes.

“Solitary. I met O in solitary. Ironic really, but even the Ark couldn’t keep us alone 24 hours a day. She had the cell next to mine. I looked after her… I look after her”

“Sawyer?” Octavia appeared stepping into your body wrapping her arms around your waist and letting her head lay on your shoulder. You let one hand rest on the back of her head maintaining eye contact with Finn who was watching the pair of you carefully.

“You’re no killer” he mouthed silently before turning back to the others. Unfortunately he had no idea just how wrong he was, just how much of a killer you actually were. None of them did even Octavia.


“We’ve talked about this all night, someone just needs to hurry up and go first” you snatched the vine off of Finn who had been hesitating for what seemed like forever.

“No, wait…” it was Jasper and you looked at him impatiently. He reached out a hand unsteadily “let me?”

“Fine, go” you handed it over and watched as he took your place at the front.

Finn whispered something to him slapping him on the shoulder once. Jasper nodded and changing his grip once more screamed out “See you on the other side bitches” and took off, the vine held and in what seemed no time he was stood on the other side of the river, jumping about and waving his hands in the air.

You joined the others in celebrating, arm punching the sky as you smiled and threw an arm around Octavia’s shoulders as you waved at Jasper.

“Let’s go Princess your up” Finn shoved the rope at Clarke, who was on the edge of the cliff when something flew past your heads.

You all watched, unable to do anything as a wooden spear lodged itself in Jaspers chest, right under his sternum, he was thrown backwards with the force of the blow, choking on the blood pooling in his mouth. Octavia screamed in your ear as your grip on her tightened.

“JASPER!” Clarke was pulling at the hold Finn had on her as he pushed her to the floor.

“It came from behind us” you whispered to Finn putting Octavia behind you as you glanced back into the forest. “We’re not alone here”

12x23: Destiel and s13 set up

So… pretty much everyone is dead or removed into a different dimension other than Sam and Dean…

I’m not going to go into the whole alternate universes discussion as so many good points have already been made. For me its just a plot point to take Lucifer and Mary away at the same time as Cas, to lead to the s13 starting point of winning Mary and Cas back and eventually having Lucifer back on the board too, when Jack has done his ‘bad things’ and has been pointed towards the ‘righteous path’ by a certain couple of someones…

To keep it brief because I’m just very late to the board and I can see there has been so much meta and speculation already, here are my thoughts:


- Cas is dead. 

Originally posted by yourfavoritedirector

Yeah, this is exactly what I expected  *happy dance*

As you will all know if you have read my ‘break up theory’ meta which is just taking standard romantic story line structure and seeing where they fit, which they PERFECTLY fit into by the way, since season 4 til now now, at this ‘break up’ point which is where for example Ursula looks like she’s about to win Eric away from Ariel or the Beast has to let Belle go back to her father… it’s the last 20 minutes of the movie, basically. 

I had said that 12x19 was going to be an argument and chosen separation, which it was, 12x20-22 was going to focus on Dean’s inner self and self acceptance, which it did, and 12x23 was going to have a forced separation, which it did. What could be better than Cas’s death at this point?! Seriously? For Dean, who has JUST figured out that he doesn’t want to hide behind his facade anymore, to have to now deal with losing Cas RIGHT AT THIS POINT. I nearly want to say ‘you can’t write this shit!’ but…clearly you can, thank you Dabb & Season 13 writers!

I’d even speculated about the fact that Mary would also be taken away at the same time (in order to downplay the Pining!Dean of course), but I hadn’t factored in that they would be taken away in separate ways, which is an interesting way to do it, but essentially still boils down to the same thing character-reaction wise.

There were only 2 things that I didn’t like in the way that this was done:

1. We didn’t get a hugely emotional reaction from Dean after the initial shock, but man, the initial shock stuff was GREAT (the screaming, the parallel with Sam/Jess when he’s pulled away, then the parallel with Cain/Colette when he falls to his knees…) BUT now we know that they filmed what happens next already? Jensen hinted that Dean cries? Also that we will see more reaction about this death in 13x01.

2. That Cas’s death felt like it was very much geared towards being a tool for Dean’s man pain, without telling us one way or another if Cas was being manipulated by Jack, whether Cas was right or wrong in his choices. Not treating this death as something relevant to CAS but only to DEAN. That really annoyed me as a big time Cas fan (but still mainly a Dean girl). BUT again, we have been told at Jibcon that the important thing is how this death AFFECTS / TRANSFORMS Cas so this is again going to be relevant to season 13. 

So I’m totally forgiving them for not putting it in 12x23 if we are going to get it in the next episode and they told us at Jibcon so hellatus isn’t so hellish :)

Basically, it’s all on track for endgame Destiel, *yay*.

- Sam & Jack. Well…

Originally posted by randommagpie

I still do believe until proven otherwise that Jack still has a CHOICE to make about which way he takes his life and what he does.

I’ve said before that this season and now I’m even more convinced that season 12 was so Dean focused (and Cas) that season 13 should be very Sam focused, which it now looks like it definitely will be. I was thinking endgame Mol!Sam anyway but to have that kind of pushed forwards in 22 was… well honestly I found it slightly jarring in it’s speed, but hey. Now with Mol!Sam on track and Jack too, with Sam being the one to find him… yeah, season 13 is going to be VERY Sam focused.

The Nephilim story is a huge part of tieing up Sam’s self-forgiveness arc that centres around being Lucifer’s vessel, the bad choices he made to start with with Ruby, the demon blood, even then in s11 going back to the cage, but also the good choices he has made… the link between him and Jack is going to be key to his endgame arc.

I fully expect and hope to see Jack make some very bad decisions to start with but be led to being good in the long run by the boys, the Righteous Man and the Boy who rejected Lucifers plan for him, and probably eventually the Fallen Angel in love with Humanity, the direct mirror to his blood father … 

For me this is where I see the story going in the long run. 

I may be wrong but honestly I don’t see how it can be any other way, given the narrative over the last 12 years for the core characters: the overriding theme of free will, of choices and heart (love), of family being chosen, not just blood, all this creating who you choose to be as a person. If Jack ends up evil, fine, but it will have to be his CHOICE to be evil, and honestly, I don’t see that this is where they are going with this.

Cas is also linked to Jack in whatever way it is with the yellow grace, the fact that Jack chose Cas and Cas seems to have chosen Jack, whether it be against his will or not is yet to be seen and can only be speculated about, even though I have my own mind made up about this until proven otherwise…

But ALSO their stories are so similar - literally both stuck between Heaven and Earth.

Jack will be key to both SAM and CAS’s arcs next season, which makes total sense after s12 was all about Dean and deconstructing Performing!Dean, it was absolutely beautifully done.

- Other aspects: 

Crowley is Dead, but for me he went out in a really good way and tbh I would be a bit upset at this point if they brought him back after that excellent Death.

The important thing is how this relates to Dean - who just the episode before has basically let down the walls to Performing!Dean, the ‘dark side’ that is sometimes associated with Crowley. 

Then Crowley (who represents this dark side of Dean), dies after SAYING HE IS JUST DONE WITH IT ALL and kills HIMSELF.


Rowena’s death not so much but then again, she was always a villain until recently and, like Crowley, I understand that people like them both, but when you look at the awful things that they have done, to be honest, I’m not so hot on a redemption arc for them. Dying in a good way is what I would have wanted for both of them and Rowena’s death pisses me off as we were robbed of that (if she isn’t going to somehow come back).

AUs don’t excite me and IDGAF unless they give us some good plot points and character arcs that tie in. 

Lucifer & Mary. Will be back for plot reasons, honestly, I hope they keep well out of season 13 until it is time for Jack to help out and if they are literally in 2 episodes I will be happiest but I doubt that, they will drag them and the stupid AU out for much more than its worth but eh, ok, fine. Shrugs and sticks to caring about the character driven storylines that will take place around this.

Overall, this wasn’t the character - driven finale I was hoping for, there was way too much faffing around in the AU, which I really don’t find interesting, way too much Lucifer BUT the themes are carrying forwards into season 13 as I had hoped they would, Cas’s death seems to be going to serve exactly the purpose for both his arc and Destiel that I would hope and this episode coupled with 22 makes me even more confident in my endgame wishlist.

Tink’s Endgame Positive Wishlist :

Originally posted by dustydreamsanddirtyscars

- Mol! Sam (and Eileen, Chuck I’m still bitter about that though, I really hoped her death would turn out to be a misdirection). Pretty much CHECK.

- Hunter / Mol collaboration with Sam and Dean as leaders. Pretty much CHECK.

- End of the brodependency, Dean acknowledging he was Sam’s parent and letting him go. CHECK.

- End of Performing!Dean. Pretty much CHECK.

- Destiel. Pretty much CHECK.

- Human!Cas and self worth and belonging for his arc. TBA probably next season, what happened this season makes no sense if not to lead to this.

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Originally posted by ethan-support-group

Request: Can I request a sappy Ethan fic? Like he’s helplessly in love with the reader but she lives in Maine. So he makes a special trip to Maine to see her and finds out that she is in the hospital because of a hit and run crash. Over all it’s just really sappy with confessions and tears?

Summary: Ethan plans a special trip to visit Fem!Reader back in Maine, but things get a little scary when she gets hIT BY A CAR.

A/N: I’m the worst human being ever I went like a full week without posting am sorry but I did finally get wifi back up in my house. I’m out of town right now for my cousin’s wedding and it’s currently 2:15am but I finally finished a fic. Don’t hate me! Not my best, but hope you enjoy it anyway!

Wordcount: 1427, much longer than it needed to be oh well

Requests are closed my friends, v sorry but don’t send any requests in :( just makes me feel worse about my lack of posting rip

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Dating David Dobrik Would Include.

In a world where Liza doesn’t exist, because they’re goals. 

- You literally being the light of his life. ALWAYS.

- Meeting so many great people through him

- staying up late doing stupid things like “just dance”

- always wondering if he did something just for the vlog.

- him always wanting to do stupid bits with you that none of his friends would agree to.

- awkward pda that EVERYONE of his friends hates.

- you rarely coming to his apartment because its nothing close to quiet.

- basically being his best friend. 

- cuddling on the couch, when the opportunity is there

- blowing up on social media because of his vlogs.

- secretly loving the hate comments.

Sorry this was bad, first attempt and I’m tired :/ sorry I haven’t been posting…. I’ve done this so many times, and by this I mean saying I’m gonna upload and then not.. it’s just that I have Lacrosse practice after school from 3-5 and then I have homework and blagh, but I’ll try to post more… try.

- Hayley out.

People: this food CAUSES CANCER

Scientists: Saying that something causes cancer is always a bit of a misleading statement because what actually causes cancer is the mutation of specific genes that cause cell growth and replication to become uncontrolled. Carcinogens are just things that increase the likelihood of your genes mutating.

People: in order to stay healthy we must live like people used to in the olden days when nothing was processed. NOW WE WILL BE CANCER FREE.

Scientists: Okay, you’re definitely not listening. Just because people weren’t aware of cancer then doesn’t mean it didn’t exist. People just “fell ill” of who knows what and died. Could’ve been pneumonia, could’ve been cancer. Who knows. You know they used radium in the 1920s to paint watches that would glow in the dark? And the radium glowed because it was RADIOACTIVE. And people just wore those on their wrists. Not to mention the girls who painted the watches grew MASSIVE TUMORS in their jaws because they licked the paintbrushes to keep them formed properly.

People: we will live like CAVEMEN and only eat RAW FOOD. NATURE is our FRIEND.

Scientists: OH MY GOD WHY. Okay do you know what else causes cancer? THE SUN. The freaking sun up in the sky. Smoke. From fires. Viruses. Oh and in a weird twisted way, OXYGEN. We need it to live but at the same time it oxidizes everything, which in many cases is BAD for you. So yeah. Nature is not your friend. Nature is an indifferent thoughtless machine wielding machetes and shotguns. Anything that it misses GETS TO LIVE.

A piece of mind - Reaction too askers

So its been a while since i did one of these, but i think its about time too adress a few things that have been done here and since i took a few samples and listened too a few opinions i think i will just share my mind, and let you guys rip me apart.

The subject of the day, my dear friends will be, as always my Undetale OC - The Knight.

Oh boy, this will be a good one.

So ! Let us get on the railroad and move on.

The Knight was created many months ago as my persona, and my wish too make an Undertale AU lead me too wish too create something original. Whenever i looked around me i have seen such amazing and great OC´s and creations of other artists. All kind of versions of Frisk, Sans (mostly Sans), Papyrus, Undyne (thank the Emperor and @superyoumna for Othertale) and other characters.

Many of these characters are from the original game and as such have a deep bond with you as the player, watcher and artist. I quess my inability too find such a bond with the game itself made me unable too create my own good version of these characters. And i quess this desperation lead me too my maybe one of the few original things i ever did since i began doing art for real. It was my persona.

The winged helmet of a Knight. And well…ideas began too explode, but more then the ideas i started with questions arent the character.

This is the first design of the Knight.

The Knight was intendet too be a creation of something that would have a part of knighthood inside of him, but also would be somehow connected too the universe. Here we go with the silly attempt too give him Sanse´s jacket. He came out of nowhere, had no connections too the world around him outside of that jacket.

The helmet was inspired by the Royal Guards, for in the beggining i actually intendted to do an OC Royal guard. Why ? Cause im never good with loved characters. I always like too dig for the support ones. Those that have not too much attention. Maybe its just a cowards way of how too trying too make something interesting, but well, never said i was a genius.

The Knight slowly got a form and then what was important was too make the small details. What race is he ? How old is he ? What is he ? What is his purpoese in life ? Can he be in different AU´s ? Is he himself an AU ? 

All of these questions crossed my mind again, and again until they railed themselves in my brain and slowly i began too give the Knight a personality, a backstory, i tried too make him real.

I quess the greatest development the Knight got, was on the RP Discord Server Omega Timeline, where i was able too trully flash out his mindsets, hobbies, moral standarts, emotions, and just really express him in the world of different OC´s . And too my shock, he really began too take his anchor and holding his ground.

Clothes got different, his magical power shifted a bit, he developed both mentally and physically. And too my surprise, people began too…well not like that.

The most often question i got was, “Hey Deusn, got a question. Why do you never go for a Frisk OC ? Or why not going with a Sans ? I am sure you would be really good at RPing that. After all you have always a connection too a character.”


I already was able too discover soo many beautifull characters and AU´s that showed me how immensely an wonderfull an AU can be. Just too give out a few ones. (I am very sorry for pining you guys, but i have too be honest about my senpai´s and those whose art  i love and follow, you guys are awesome !)

- @blinddetermination
- @oraclesaturn2
- @diesel-1997
- @xxmileikaivanaxx
- @keru-the-green and @amachi-blaze
- @xxtc-96xx

And for a few known AU´s like Flowerfell (absolutely love it),Othertale (Undyne as a main character ! SIGN ME IN !!!) Faithtale (love it all), Underfell, Underswap…crap cant remmember more. But if you know what i am talking about i am sure you are much more knowledgable about those AU´s then i am.

Anyways back too the Knight. At this point, thanks too the love of my life @xxmileikaivanaxx i got the chance too make a comic where the Knight will be. I can give him his own thing, shine a bit on his backstory and his personality.

Also a personal, big THANK YOU too @eclipticart for the cool RP´s i was able too do with her, for it also helps me a lot too experiment and work on the OC. Which is really cool !


For those of you, who do not think that the Knight AINT a OC for UNDERTALE for he doesnt come from the milking cow of the main storyline, i am very sorry. But i can assure you that i would not dare too create a OC without giving him a good backstory, explain it properly and for gods sake, no matter what you guys say will make me give up on the guy.

I love my knight. 

I love you all. Even those mean peeps. I love you especially, you help me rethink my decisions. And mostly make sure i did the right thing. xD

Thank you all for reading. Please go check out the precious artists that i linked (and who are probably going too kill me right after i post this) and give them your sweet support and love. They deserve it.

Praise the sun ! Deusn

champagne supernova

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robert wasn’t the type of person who got overwhelmed. he’d spent his whole life just powering through the things that felt overwhelming, good and bad - chin up and shoulders back, as jack had always said.

or, aaron and robert share a quiet moment alone at their second wedding. 

Robert wasn’t the type of person who got overwhelmed. He’d spent his whole life just powering through the things that felt overwhelming, good and bad - chin up and shoulders back, as Jack had always said. That’s how the Sugden’s got through life, never letting anyone or anything get them down, stop them from getting what they wanted.

For better or for worse, his dad had instilled a fierce sort of pride in Robert, in all three of them, and it was something he was never going to be able to shake off, not completely, maybe not at all.

And that pride was exactly why Robert was sitting in a children’s playground, his wedding reception going on without him in the pub, chatter and music pouring out of every open door and window of the Woolpack.

His wedding.

Robert glanced down at the familiar ring on his finger, a new weight added to the metal now, an official marriage license and a legal wedding making him Aaron’s husband officially, on paper now.

He didn’t deserve it, Robert knew that much. He’d done nothing to ever deserve Aaron’s love, had done nothing to deserve the forgiveness Aaron had given him, one too many times now.

The forgiveness that had allowed them to build a life together, properly this time around, no cheating, no secret pregnancies, nothing. It was just the two of them in it this time, eight months of marriage counselling ending with them standing in city hall, applying for a marriage license.

To do it for real this time, Aaron had quipped, a bright smile on his face, and a confidence to the way he held himself that Robert hadn’t realised he’d missed, until it was back. A break up, a make up, a whole lot of therapy, and a few new hobbies, and happy hadn’t felt like such an impossibility anymore.

Thats how Aaron had put it. He’d thought happiness was impossible, once, Aaron plagued by all the things he’d had to suffer in his life, all the ways the universe had done him wrong.

But he was good now, a smile on his face and a snarky smirk in place whenever he decided to drive Robert up the wall, friendly banter and happy teasing taking the place of the fighting, the breaking point they’d spent months on the edge of before they’d had to admit they weren’t going anywhere (anywhere happy, at least.)

And yet somehow, here they were now, married, and happy, an easy sort of routine to their lives together that Robert knew he didn’t deserve.

He hadn’t deserved to get to go on that third first date, with Aaron, hadn’t deserved the smile and the ‘third times a charm, Robert’, hadn’t deserved any of it, but Aaron had always been the better man, the better of the two of them.

Better half took a whole new meaning, when it came to Aaron and Robert.


Robert looked up at the familiar shout, Aaron stalking across the grass toward him, suit jacket and tie long since discarded, shirt sleeves rolled up slightly, his husband clearly feeling the affects of the overly warm pub, and the free flowing alcohol.

Aaron looked gorgeous. More gorgeous than Robert had words for, and he prided himself on never being lost for words, but he had been, had been gobsmacked that afternoon at the registry office as he’d watched Aaron walk up the aisle, Chas holding tightly to his arm, fingers digging into the expensive blue material.

(Tailor made suits, for their second wedding, because it was the second and last.)

“You’re not allowed to abandon me, not when mum’s trying to make me dance,” Aaron said, waggling a bottle of champagne at Robert, one he’d clearly swiped on his way out of the pub.

Robert couldn’t help but crack a smile. Chas hadn’t been the biggest support, when they’d decided to give their relationship another go - not that Robert could blame her for her reluctance to get on board - but they’d found their way in the end.

He and Chas had common ground, after all - Aaron, and Aaron being happy, and so when Aaron’s smile had become a permanent fixture on his face, she’d done her nosey mum routine, and asked when they’d make it legal.

“I just needed a minute,” Robert admitted quietly, knowing Aaron was staring, waiting for an answer. It had all felt a bit overwhelming, as he’d stood at the bar with Zak and Sam, having a pint with the two Dingles, Aaron being cornered by Belle and Charity, the two women determined to make him dance.

It had been overwhelming because it had felt right, felt like home, felt like the blissful forever after they’d been denied at their first wedding. Robert had been in the midst of a group of Dingles, people who’d been out for his blood once upon a time, and he’d felt at home.

It had sort of been the straw that broke the camels back, if Robert was honest, the emotion of the day flooding his every sense at once, and he’d just needed air. if anyone but Aaron had come looking, he’d have said he needed to be alone, too - but well, this was Aaron.

He’d never say no to a quiet moment with Aaron.

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