you see i didnt need you, i wasnt jealous of you if anything i felt bad for you. i love being free and being myself and feeling like my own person. i can love who i want to love, be with who i want to be and still make good decisions. you made me feel like i was dumb and useless that i needed you but without you im better. i kissed another boy yesterday and i didnt think of you, you werent on my mind thats when i realized i was over you for a while. i told you it wasnt love it was lust, at least for me.you still want a friendship with me because i boost your ego, i showered you with love and compliments sometimes when i didnt even believe it i just said it. i could have been your world but i realized you cant be someones world if they dont want you to be. you finally met someone who makes you question wether your parents really know what their talking about. they dont, im not a slut you know it stop lying so much. tell them you fucked me tell them how much i made you weak come on man you couldnt even see straight after id bring you to heaven. you loved calling me baby, you wanted me to be yours but when i left you, i was okay and you were not. maybe this is a sign that all along you were toxic to me but i was beauty for you. you are not a bad person because i saw the side of you no one saw but the side you share with everyone is ugly its horrible, maybe thats why i liked having you to myself sometimes because the you with everyone else is a you i never want to be apart of. jealousy isnt me, its ugly, its sad, its not love. just know if you live with jealousy for the rest of your life you’ll hate yourself even more than you do. you didnt stay to show me self love you read one of my writings and wanted to spit in my face what i already said about you. you needed me you even said it you hate it but you need me, you really fucking do. call me when you’re sad ill still be here but not in the same way because you need to love yourself before others espicially when the others is you, because you never showed me love not fucking once.