it's breaking my heart!

Lost People in 2020

Lost my job

today, to no-one.

It took mine,

hers, ours and

now we’re the

displaced people.

With sympathetic 

eyes, lies,

they gave us

our last envelops;

barely a dust or

coffee stain -

so little thought

they put through

before they made us

lost. I, for one, 

am young but

hopeless but there

is she, with a child,

and my heart breaks.

When did 

humanity lose its

feelings 

to things, machines

that churn and churn.

Here we flow, as a river

of young and old,

through the cold

streets of the city;

none so sure of making 

through this year

without shaming ourselves,

at a shelter. 

What we’ve gained, is

a loss of humanism,

where we lose a sense

of who we are 

as people, as contributing

members of the society.

We become the unwanted

ones, the leeches upon

society when all we 

wanted, was honest living.

Who is responsible

for our lost of identity,

of our lowering into

the abyss,

but the people we’ve

cast our hopes on.

I have a son. His name is Mieczyslaw Stilinski, but we call him Stiles. I remember. When Stiles was a little kid, he couldn’t say his first name. Not sure why, pretty much rolls off the tongue, but the closest he could get was Mischief. His mother called him that until…I remember when Stiles first got his Jeep, it belonged to his mother and she wanted him to have it. The first time he took a spin behind the wheel he went straight into a ditch. I gave him his first roll of duct tape that day. He was always getting into trouble, but he always had a good heart. Always. We’re here tonight because my goofball son decided to drag Scott, his greatest friend in the world, into the woods to see a dead body.
—  Sheriff Noah Stilinski.
I will never get over this

(x) The subtlety and realness of this scene. That instinctual urge to protect. THAT’S JOHN. WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY JOHN

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10-Heart Pop-Art Eligibles

So here it is, all in one place. Thank you all, it’s been fun!

If you’d like, check out the previous 10-Heart Pop-Art posts or some of my other personal work.

yoonbum isn’t crying out of fear in this frame like we have seen him do before. He just sits on the ground after rejection. This frame breaks me, because i relate. 

This type of crying is reflecting years of loneliness, being and outcast, depression, mental illness, little to no self love. Bum crying here, is after rejection, of being treated like he is unworthy, and for people to not care. He is blatantly pushed to the ground like he is some underserving creep. This kind of crying i have experienced a lot in my life. Of course bum is in a worse situation so his crying is probably more stress filled.

But in this frame i see myself a lot: The lonely outkast kid, who so desperately wants to be part of something with someone, so much that people being kind once can make love appear in their head out of the blue. The child who is rejected again and again, constantly and forever reaffirmed that he is not welcome, that he is gross and disgusting and wrong. His tiredness, his stress, his hopelessness. He is in this frame sensing that there might not be another alternative outcome; nobody wants to save the loner with poor social skills.

It’s no explosive crying, but it’s the rawest most heartfelt of them. There he sits, rejected again. I see myself in that and it breaks my fucking heart to at any point acknowledge these feelings myself. 

What an amazing artist koogi is, to convey this exact emotion of hopelessness and real raw sadness. 

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                                                                                      I could only love in my dreams.

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Have you ever found yourself wanting a metric ton of DAI music? Have you ever thought to yourself, aw man, DAI’s soundtrack was 15 hours shorter than I wanted it to be? If that sounds like you, then this is a link for you.

I’ve ripped all the music from this game - that is, all the ambient snippets of music that you hear while running around in the world, and all the music that happens in cutscenes - and it turns out there’s 16 hours (1.6 gigs) of it.

(- here’s the download link -)

So if you’ve found yourself wishing you had the heaps of music that never made it to the official soundtrack, you can now roll around in hours of it. 

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“Sleep well, my friend
There will be another moment we’ll meet again
Just let it go
Sleep well, goodnight
You’re something to remember
I wish that you were here by my side”

- Everything’s an illusion / Mayday Parade

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HUMANS S02 E04 CLIP: odi + sophie.