it's always darkest before dawn

anonymous asked:

Okay I'm totally going to need you to convince me how this is going to be okay because right now I actually feel pretty sick. I don't see how they have enough time once they leave the framework for Fitz to deal with this trauma. Fitz has killed a woman now, even if he wasn't aware he was doing it. And if he tortures Daisy, I just don't think I can watch that. To come out and have their happy engagement would be wrong and rushed. When do they get to heal? Where is the payoff???

Hi Anon!  And anyone else who needs this…

Its Going to be Okay!

This story isn’t supposed to be happy or fun, we are in a reality built by a crazy, evil book influenced, programmed by the questionable Dr. Radcliffe, and obsessed with becoming a real girl AIDA here.  She has twisted each and every single character.  Fitz and May more than anyone else. 

I’m just going to run down my major points here.  I hope it helps.  Again I am not ashamed to say that I am still enjoying this arc.  Its uncomfortable and frustrating as all get out.  But it has me rooting SO HARD for Fitzsimmons right now.  For the entire team right now. 

Fitz partly a distraction:

We all know that something the writers do is the fake out.   They have us looking at and focused on one thing so we literally don’t see the truck that is coming at us from left field.   Season 2 for example.  When Real Shield made their move it looked like they were our big bad of the season, that would be the arc.  When in fact it was Jaiying and the Inhumans that were the bigger threat.  So right now they have the fandom so wrapped up in Fitz….that we are ‘missing’ that thing over in left field about to hit us.  A betrayal is coming guys and its going to hurt.

Fitz has been brainwashed:

This is not our Fitz.  Period.  Iain said at Wondercon that they were two different people.  Two different characters.  Radcliffe said when talking to him, he talked about our Fitz as a different person, because he was.   We saw over and over throughout the episode AIDA manipulate him.  I see things like taking his hand, asking for him to protect her, of vocalizing they are trying to take him from her as the triggers.  You know how we know he’s been brainwashed…how down right TERRIFIED AIDA was of Radcliffe talking to him.  That Jemma was taken out of the picture even before she could be a factor in his life.  That AIDA boasted that she had manipulated this world and those in it to meet her needs and wants.  Yes, she fixed a regret but each regret built on her fantasy.

With Fitz this goes well beyond fixing a regret.  I still believe that initially making him the son his father wanted was just step one in AIDA’s process.  AIDA took him as her own. 

Everyone is Dark:

We’re not done yet here guys.  We have more oh please no moment coming with everyone coming.   And yes, Fitz is one of the most drastically different and one they are making sure to highlight but I am uncomfortable with everyone.

  • Coulson:  Yes he’s breaking thanks to Tahiti but he still let Hydra take off with one of his own students.  The big reason I think we have Coulson back is he is getting that “you did make a difference/Shield needs you arc here”.   Mace is not the leader that Shield needs…he wasn’t in the real world and he won’t be here. 
  • Mace:  I am really worried about this version of Mace.   While he is doing the right thing I’m afraid he’s going to do some things in that quest that aren’t good.  Not to mention that he is a massive threat to the lives of May and Fitz.  He will kill either one of them given a chance.  He almost reminds me of Jaiying a little here with the “One of us” comment from the promo especially makes me thing of this.
  • Mack:  He will do ANYTHING to protect his daughter (and low key worried how he found the Resistance so easily here guys).  He sold out Daisy.  But what was very interesting was his view on Inhumans.  When we first met Mack he was ‘against’ them for lack of a better word.  It was work with Daisy, Coulson, and Shield that helped him change his mind and become one of their greatest protectors.
  • May:  Has been twisted as much as Fitz has.  She has been in there the longest.  Gone through the most ‘reboots’ of the Framework.  It was her team that beat up Daisy.  It was her that manipulated Mack using Hope. She is number 3 in Hydra and is a huge threat to her own team as well as a target.
  • Ward:  So leery of Ward.  I really fear Jemma will be who he betrays again.  And its also interesting he could have gotten a shot on Madame Hydra there…#1….instead aimed for Fitz Hydras #2.  Just saying guys…our master manipulators might be at work again here.  For him if it comes down to giving up Jemma to save Skye…he’s going to give up Jemma to save Skye.  Just as Mack gave up Daisy to save Hope.

They are their own worst enemies: 

AIDA is likely the worst villain they have gone up against, a horrid culmination of everyone they have faced before.  She isn’t dumb she built this world for HER.  She is using loopholes to her advantage.  Otherwise I firmly feel that everyone but Fitz would already be dead.  So since she had to keep them alive she manipulated (even bragged to Radcliffe that she’d done it) those regrets for her gain.

She also has been in everyone’s heads.  She’s been around the team before. She knows they are the biggest threat to her when they are working together as a team.   So she either split them up or turned them on each other. 

She has also made them each others dragons.  It is clear now AIDA is in Madame Hydra.  She knows right where Mace and the Playground is but allows the Resistance to continue because it feeds into the manipulation.  Especially with Fitz, its another thing he has to protect her from.

I discussed in my meta last night that AIDA seems to be trying to make it so the team won’t ‘want’ to save Fitz (more lies, more manipulation).   Here he’s The Doctor, Mace won’t bat and eye if he can kill him  Isn’t going to give Jemma the resources she needs to get him alive.  AIDA has painted Jemma as the villain.  Leaving Jemma pretty much alone now in trying to save him (oh look another parallel).  She has Coulson for now but I’m betting he will be pulled away too soon by saving Daisy or getting to May.

She took Fitz as her own:

A lot of what AIDA has done was to build this world how she wanted.  To get who and what she wanted, and she wanted Fitz.  Someone who would love and protect her.  Made her happy.  Her interaction with Radcliffe very telling.  We said that Fitz treating her like a person would come back…and boy has it ever.  She also wanted someone that loved and protected her like Fitz did with Jemma…so she took Jemma’s place.  May too, she’s ‘rewarded’ May with a high position because I believe May respected her, liked her, called her brave.

But in taking Fitz in so many ways we really do have an epic love story set up here.   Jemma is going to have to fight to get him back.  I feel like part of that whole spectacle on the island with Agnes was for show.  That AIDA knew Jemma was there  set up that whole thing with Agnes so Fitz would see it.  Try to shake Jemma, make her think that he was too far gone,.  It also took away the little support Jemma had found.  Leaving her alone in trying to save him.  AIDA is scared as heck of Jemma and her saving him.

AIDA also doesn’t have him fully yet.   Fitz says he would cross the universe for her but he HAS done it for Jemma.

Fitz is in there:

In the horror of feels that was last night we saw Fitz peeking through more than once.  And every single time we saw it it was because Jemma was in the mix either in person or in a picture.  And only with Jemma, May, Daisy, and Radcliffe had no effect (though Radcliffe planted seeds, very important seeds). 

Originally posted by stydiaislove

Aside for Coulson who is aided by Tahiti we haven’t seen anyone else ‘break through” at all. 

  • May:  Came into contact with Fitz, Daisy, and Mack…nothing. 
  • Mace:  Came into contact with Jemma, Mack, and Coulson…nothing.
  • Mack:  Came into contact with Daisy, May, Mace, and Coulson…nothing.

Engagement is Endgame:

When we look back at interviews from Loeb, Jed, and Mo they have been hinting at this arc all season.  And they have been setting up an engagement for Fitzsimmons all season too. 

“This young man as you have never seen him before” that was what Leob said at SDCC and also where we first heard the ‘reward’ talk.  And we have seen them pay off everything so far. And coupled with the timing of Jed’s quote in EW, engagement coming up in 15, hints all season, and getting their middle names.  I think once they are out they aren’t going to risk it again.

“It could happen.  If they ever get back together, that’s something that could happen in their future.”

And I’m sorry to say this but this is TV, A drama at that, we have to jump through all sorts of hoops to get this kind of pay off.  That is part of why we are now tearing our hair out and crying until Jemma gets him back.  And when she does the pay off will be worth it.  Look at what we got after Hogface.

The Fallout:

AOS has never ‘dealt’ with trauma and recovery very well.  Even Daisy’s recovery a victim of the Ghost Rider Arc.  It is often done over hiatus or “off camera.  Now we have a situation where its the whole cast that will have things to deal with.  So yes, we will miss seeing it but because we don’t see it doesn’t mean it won’t happen. 

We can also have the healing ‘begin’ in the Framework, especially for Fitz as he helps get everyone out or plays a part in stopping AIDA once as for all. 

Sorry that was a lot but I hope it helps.  Just remember its always Darkest before the Dawn and our Sunrise is coming guys.

Originally posted by mrsdecaestecker

“I always know when it’s raining these days. You know how some people feel it in their sinuses, or their knees or ankles? Well, I feel it in my shell. Kinda this weird dull throbbing sensation.

Honestly, it makes nights like these so much more lonely. I really miss rainy patrols with my brothers…”

Turning Point

Peer pressure is just prophecy we are doomed to live out
I won’t waste my time on intimidation, I don’t care if I’m cast out

High school kids just like the year before
Not struggling in academics but setting new standards of who can drink more
It’s not their fault, that’s what they’ve been taught
But the biggest war will be against themselves and it’s one that’s never fought and won 

It’s always darkest before the dawn


LET IT GO; "You, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection”   [LISTEN]

human - christina perri / i’m only human and I crash and I break down
let it go - disney /let it go, let it go and i’ll rise like the break of dawn
brave - sara bareilles / maybe one of these days you can let the light in, i want to see you be brave
be still - the killers / when they knock you down don’t break character, you’ve got so much heart
roar - katy perry / i went from zero, to my own hero.
breakaway - kelly clarkson / i’ll spread my wings and i’ll learn how to fly i’ll do what it takes til’ i touch the sky
who says - selena gomez/ who says, who says you’re not perfect?
beautiful -christina aguilera / you are beautiful no matter what they say. Words can’t bring you down.
born this way - lady gaga / don’t hide yourself in regret, just love yourself and you’re set
perfect - pink / please don’t you ever, ever feel like you’re less than fucking perfect
i am not a robot - marina and the diamonds/ you are not a robot, you’re lovable, so lovable but you’re just troubled
shake it out - florence and the machine / and it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back so shake him off, its always darkest before the dawn

{florence + the machine lyric starters}
  • "I told her not to fuss and relax."
  • "I took a knife and cut out her eye."
  • "A kick in the teeth is good for some."
  • "If you could only see the beast you've made of me."
  • "I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free."
  • "Was that the wrong pill to take?"
  • "If only I could see your face..."
  • "I'm not calling you a liar!"
  • "When you kiss me, I am happy enough to die."
  • "Leave all your love and your longing behind, you can't carry it with you if you want to survive."
  • "I hoped that they would clear my mind."
  • "We are all too young to die!"
  • "I pray to god this breath will last."
  • "I was in the darkness, so darkness I became."
  • "I'm gonna drink myself to death."
  • "Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state."
  • "No more dreaming like a girl so in love."
  • "Lord, I just don't care."
  • "I did cartwheels in your honour."
  • "It's always darkest before the dawn."
  • "I've been a fool and I've been blind.
  • "I can never leave the past behind."
  • "I am done with my graceless heart."
  • "I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't."
  • "The world’s a beast of a burden."
  • "It's the only way I can escape."
  • "I'm not giving up, I'm just giving in."
  • "All alone, even when I was a child."
  • "I've been losing sleep."
  • "You are the silence in between what I thought and what I said."
  • "No light, no light in your bright blue eyes."
  • "I don't want your money."
  • "I've come to burn your kingdom down."
  • "I'll be dead before the day is done."
  • "I would give it all if only for a moment."
  • "I don't care whether I live or die."
  • "I don't want no future."
  • "Don't touch the sleeping pills, they mess with my head."
  • "And with one kiss, you inspired a fire of devotion."
  • "What kind of man loves like this?"
  • "What are we gonna do?"
  • "If you could just forgive yourself..."
  • "Cause I'm gonna be free and I'm gonna be fine."
  • "Is it too late to come on home?"
  • "It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do to try and keep from calling you."
  • "there's a hole where your heart lies."
  • "I'm leaving."
  • "I never thought I'd be a killer."

I don’t think I’ve been this angry since I was in second grade and a boy in my class caught a little baby horny toad and threatened to kill it in front of me because he thought it was funny to make me upset. Because I was small, and mostly friendless and read Harry Potter books at recess and saved parts of my lunch to feed to the ants on the playground. Because I was odd and easily angered used a lot of big words while all he had to do was find my weaknesses and push on them with a big stupid grin on his face. Because he was a bully, and I was an easy target. 
I remember staring up at him shaking with angry tears in my eyes while he taunted me, holding the little living creature out of my reach and feeling so small and powerless and indignant outraged and just unable to understand why. Why are people like this? 

That is how Donald Trump’s entire campaign has made me feel. That is why last night when he won I sat in my bedroom crying and clenching my fists, and woke up this morning crying still. He ran a campaign on nothing but lies and bullying and making others feel small and inferior and he won
I feel nine years old. Only back then all it took was kneeing that boy in the groin as hard as I could and when he dropped the horny toad, taking it and running as fast as I could to the end of the play ground to release it to safety under the chainlink fence.
The opportunity has not yet presented itself for me to knee Donald Trump in the groin. Though I feel very strongly that if it did, I would. 

The point is, Donald Trump is nothing more or less than a bully. He is unqualified, uneducated, and lacking most of all in the one area that a president should be strongest in: giving a shit about other people.
This morning I was laying on my floor devoid of motivation and full to bursting with disgust and confusion over that fact of how many people there are in the country around me whose perspective I could not possibly understand. I don’t think everyone who voted for Trump is evil or cruel. I have to believe that. But I sure as hell can’t understand they’re point of view, and that frightens me. 

The only thing that gives me hope, a small bit of reassurance that we have not completely lost all progress, is this: we as a country, though still full of flaws and broken pieces, have been moving towards acceptance and awareness and equality and inclusiveness with an increasing velocity these past few years. It may be that this election, this seemingly inexplicable and hatred-driven election, is just that last shattered cry of the broken pieces of bigoted ideals and antiquated oppression that are being left behind. A last hoorah for the bullies who never learned how to feel big without making others feel small.
As Florence Welch so poetically put it, “its always darkest before the dawn.”

hello!! if you are worried about there being a “permanent divide,” remember that there’s always two of them!! it’s the sherlock and john show!! the end of tab with the two of them sat in their armchairs and it just feels right. that’s how it’s gonna end only they’ll be together!! sherlock holmes and john watson are a unit and moftiss know this and love their relationship. all they’re gonna do is put that relationship under immense stress so that their feelings will come out. love conquers all