it will haunt our dreams

I have begun to realize that we remember the people that have hurt us in all the wrong ways. We remember them for the restless nights they’ve caused us, the hyperventilated breaths that we took in between our weeps, and the nostalgic dreams that sometimes still haunt us. We don’t remember them for the hours of laughter they caused us, or the way their eyes would smile at you and make your heart leap of your chest, or any loving gesture they ever displayed, and we don’t remember them for the pure elation that they made surge through your veins. But we should. We should remember that they were a part of us, and a part of us that contributed to the manifestation of the intense feeling of deep affection we know as love.
—  pen-to-paper-bm, What you made me realize, NBK
Bill Denbrough Playlist

in order of ‘rip your heart straight out of your chest’ to ‘aw this is so sweet and wholesome’

I… fucking-  I fsoidhs I fucking love Bill. like y'all don’t even know. I had a fucking blast making this. 

I have a soul, so fearless and lost
Longing for your touch the most
Clouds are after you and me
Rain never leaves this city
Burned so many bridges to come here
Lost so many bodies to lose my fear
There are no blood in my veins anymore
Our dreams got haunted, lovely boy
Do you remember the first moment?
Your God was so broken
Painless and pointless images
I loved you with all your damages
Used to live in the land of soulless
Then you came along and I became homeless

- Hira

(  otp name masterlist ☼ )

i know how difficult it can be to come up with an otp name sometimes. and, in result, i have decided to make a masterlist containing over #200 otp tags. they’re all song lyrics from bands/singers like halsey, years & years, the front bottoms, haim, taylor swift, etc., but i’ve rearranged some so that they make more sense. i hope you enjoy and please like or reblog if you find this useful at all !!

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fanfic writers’ appreciation day

okay, so I wasn’t planning on posting anything today, but I have been recieving so many kind words and messages and tags that I felt like I need to give back and have some happy energy on this blog

To you, the reader: I want you to know how much your support has meant to me over the past year. I may be the one writing, but this blog would not be where it is without your constant love and support. Your love has given meaning to my work which are usually just products of day dreams and me trying to express or process how I am feeling in my real life.

If you have chosen to stuck around after I put war-of-hormoan to rest, I am forever grateful for you support in the next chapter of this blog.

These past few months have been some of the hardest, in my personal life and on here. And as this blog has reached an unbelievable milestone, I feel like I have less and less to offer lately. I have hit a wall with my writing and inspiration has been far and few between. 

I’ve been questioning my place in the community but today has me really overwhelmed and humbled and grateful. I want you to know that I hope to come back soon with more content and continuation of the series I know you’re all waiting for patiently.

I love you. Each and every one of you.

thank you.

Originally posted by daewi

but on a more personal note, I want to mention a few people.

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13 Reasons Why!

It took awhile for me to get through 13 Reasons Why, the show was done beautifully, the story was told amazingly and I was moved, I felt so unsettled at times as it hit a lot of close topics to my personal life.

It took me a while to get through all 13 episodes because I would watch the episode and I would get so emotionally and mentally caught in it that I would have to take breaks in between to catch myself or come to terms with the fact that I understand what it’s like to be in that position.

It took me about 6 days to fully make it through the 13 episodes and the last episode was the hardest because I did not expect them to show the actual suicide but it just showed you how real it was, it made you feel what Hannah was feeling and the raw emotions that we got to see of her mom and dad. Clay, Tony, Jessica, Alex, Justin…we saw all there emotions, we saw what they were feeling and we definitely saw what Hannah felt.

I think the second hardest episode for me to get through was the one where Jeff died…for some reason I felt a connection to Jeff’s character and it just broke me when we found out he died.

I honestly believe everyone should watch 13 Reasons Why because it is an eye opener. It shows you what we go through on a daily basis, how we feel, how just the smallest repressions that we have against certain situations should be a sign that we are not okay. We may look it but what you see on the outside is not the whole story.

We build walls around us, we cage our selves in, we guard our selves with steel armor because we don’t want people to see our flaws and faults but the minute we close those doors and we walk away from the outside world, we are haunted.

Haunted by our flaws, haunted by our insecurities, haunted by the pressures of others, haunted by our thoughts, haunted by our dreams, haunted by the TRUTH.

We live in a world where bullying is the norm of the society. You need to dress a certain way, act a certain way, portray a certain lifestyle. All because we want to fit in.

I look around everyday and I see the same thing, a bunch of fake people wanting to make it further in life than the person the supposedly call there best friend.

A best friend does not envy you, they do not look down on you. They are there for you, to be able to congratulate you when you achieve a goal. They are there to comfort you when times get tough but instead we pick the friends that will back stab us in the long run and we will never here from them the minute we part ways at the end of high school.

I believe everyone should watch this show, you will see why when you do.

Poetry possesses the strength to save us from the darkness, to form beauty out of the nightmares haunting our dreams, to create the artifice of pure love in a world obsessed with pain and hurt. Perhaps poetry has the power to redeem us after all.
—  Art as a reflection of the world we wish to see that, perhaps, cannot exist in reality //Rhapsodyinblue45
Word Prompts // Dream
  1. “You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” 
  2. “Explore. Dream. Discover.”
  3. “It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live.”
  4. “You may say I’m a dreamer, but I’m not the only one. I hope someday you’ll join us. And the world will live as one.”
  5. “It’s the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting.”
  6. “Yes: I am a dreamer. For a dreamer is one who can only find his way by moonlight, and his punishment is that he sees the dawn before the rest of the world.”
  7. “You are, and always have been, my dream.
  8. “There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.”
  9. “May your coming year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness.”
  10. “All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.
  11. “You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life.”
  12. “Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams.”
  13. “Who’s to say that dreams and nightmares aren’t as real as the here and now?”
  14. “Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night.”
  15. “I felt I was dreaming and thinking and feeling with you.”
  16. “Laughter is timeless. Imagination has no age. And dreams are forever.”
  17. “The nicest thing for me is sleep, then at least I can dream.
  18. “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.
  19. “I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dreams, we can be together all the time.”
  20. “A single dream is more powerful than a thousand realities.”
  21. “As long as I can still dream, I will dream of you.”
  22. “I dream my painting and I paint my dream.
  23. “I dream. Sometimes I think that’s the only right thing to do.”
  24. “There are so many fragile things, after all. People break so easily, and so do dreams and hearts.”
  25. “The best fantasy is written in the language of dreams.
  26. “No book can be appreciated until it has been slept with and dreamed over.”
  27. Dreams do come true, if only we wish hard enough.”
  28. “I love you, not just for now, but for always, and I dream of the day that you’ll take me in your arms again.”
  29. “If I am really a part of your dream, you’ll come back one day.”
  30. “I used to dream about escaping my ordinary life, but my life was never ordinary.”
  31. “We dream to give ourselves hope. To stop dreaming - well, that’s like saying you can never change your fate.”
  32. “All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”
  33. “We dream in our waking moments, and walk in our sleep.”
  34. “You’re something between a dream and a miracle.”
  35. “I find out a lot about myself by sleeping. Dreams, they are who I am when I’m too tired to be me.”
  36. “Hope is a waking dream.
  37. “ Tread softly because you tread on my dreams.
  38. “You cannot kill a breeze, a wind, a fragrance; you cannot kill a dream or an ambition.”
  39. “We live as we dream–alone….”
  40. “Am I alive and a reality, or am I but a dream?” 
  41. “Sometimes the dreams that come true are the dreams you never even knew you had.”
  42. “The moment you put a deadline on your dream, it becomes a goal.”
  43. “Happiness consists in realizing it is all a great strange dream
  44. Dream as if you will live forever; Live as if you will die today.”
  45. “Stupid dreams. Even the good ones are bad, because they remind you how poorly reality measures up.”
  46. “The world was a terrible place, cruel, pitiless, dark as a bad dream. Not a good place to live.”
  47. “I want to keep my dreams, even bad ones, because without them, I might have nothing all night long.”
  48. “Do you want me to sing to you? I’ll sing all night if it will keep the bad dreams away.”
  49. “ I—I had a bad dream. I needed to talk to someone.”
  50. “You have pain? I will ease it. Bad dreams? I will chase them asunder. Regrets? I will go back and undo them.”
  51. “This was a dream. A very bad, bad dream, brought on by liver poisoning from too many gin and tonics.”
  52. “Bad dreams are ghosts of our fears and worries, haunting us while we sleep.”
Ghosts In the Mirror

The past envelopes our memories
Tainted by the laughter,
Joyous moments of lovelorn letters
Written in pages,
Tear stained by saddened

The spirits remind us of lives past
As harkened, darkness comes
Through music heard in
Smoke filled bars
Whether lost in a note of a bent string
An off key singer
Or a beer chased by a shot.

The ghost’s past fill the streets
Of the town we grew up in
Every corner, an old meaning,
Snapped in our memory and heart
Where we ran to our best friend
After getting out of school
We were all the rulers
The dreamers and lovers
Our hearts were broken
Bodies laying close
We would be together
We promised while fading away.

The phantoms blow past
As sands flow away
Creatures of habit
Forgetting our names
Even as phone calls
Ring from the grave
Our backs are turned
From whence we came
Do you remember
Promises made
Blood oaths taken
Innocence lost
Love has gained

The ghosts of our youth
Lives we once lived
Here for us now
Haunting our dreams
Slowly getting older
One day will come
Where WE are the ghosts
Of those days long gone.

H. Murcia 5:19PM 5/6/2017

Nightmares & Longing & Baz Having Emotions

AN: 5th year Baz angst(ish) because 5th year Baz is just my favorite. 

Sleep doesn’t come easily these days.

I don’t know whether it stems from the vampire thing or the I-almost-killed-Simon-Snow guilt, but true sleep has become elusive. I spend my nights tossing and turning, and when I do fall asleep, the nightmares come.

(Either the nightmares or the dreams about Snow, which are… well… you know what, I’m not even going to talk about those. That’s my business.)

But tonight I’m so worn out from football practice, and so tired of Aunt Fiona’s whole “We’ll get him next time, don’t you worry!” attitude, I collapse into bed and feel like maybe, just maybe, I’ll escape the nightmares just this once.

(I don’t want to get him next time.) (I don’t want to kill Simon Snow. Ever.) (But it’s not my choice to make.)

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The 20 Best-Directed TV Comedy Shows of the 21st Century, Ranked
We rank the outstanding direction that has led to some of television’s most distinctive comedies.
By Liz Shannon Miller, Zack Sharf

Originally posted by mrhankey

Notable Directors: Fred Savage, Bryan Gordon, David Wain, Ken Marino

One of the best TV ensembles in recent memory was guided to comedic brilliance by its directors, who crafted some of the most insane, out there scenarios around the lives of disaffected caterers. “Party Down” captured so well the way in which our dreams can haunt us, maybe even ruin our lives, and the way in which these directors found the poignancy in that internal struggle makes this show so painfully relatable. With each long lingering look on Adam Scott’s face, “Party Down” broke our hearts.