it weirds me out or something

Even in high school, I thought maybe there was a chance it [being gay] would go away and I wouldn’t have to tell the world about it. Once I knew for sure I was going to be this way my whole life, it became necessary to have everyone know.

Kate McKinnon

When I read this I felt my heart just jump a little because I recently realized that I am really gay and that’s never going to change.
I’m currently going through this phase where basically all of the things I post online and say out loud have something to do with being gay and I’ve been feeling guilty about it.
I read this and I was like “I’m not weird.”
There is nothing wrong with me being so outwardly gay. It was reassuring to read this and I’m so glad I have Kate to look up to.

king-kelsey  asked:

this might be a weird one but I've been reading sterek for years now and I've fallen into a slump, I've gone through all your tags but nothing is standing out! I just want something long, angsty and fluffy and something that will have me up til 2am wiping my tears away on my sourwolf sweater! maybe you or your followers could help me out??

here’s an update of the 50k+ tag (since the 100k+ tag was just updated)

The Circus at the End of the World by mikkimouse (25/25 | 91,049 | NC17)

Three hundred years ago, the world ended not with a bang or a whimper, but with magic.

Since then, magic has been outlawed, and the world has clawed its way back to some kind of stability, with people and shifters alike divided between living within the walled safety of the Havens, or the small, less protected outposts dotting the frontier.

Derek Hale and his sisters, Laura and Cora, are the proprietors of Hale’s Circus of Magic, Monsters, and Mystical Wonders, known colloquially as the Circus at the End of the World. They and their ragtag pack ride the rails between the outposts and the Havens, performing for those who can pay (and some who can’t). Their circus is a small haven in and of itself, a place of safety for those who have nowhere else to go.

It’s a quiet life…until Stiles Stilinski joins the crew.

The circus has something Stiles needs—a ticket into the Haven of Santa Francesca. His father has been abducted, and Stiles is determined to get him back no matter what he has to do.

But Stiles has another secret, one that puts him and every member of the circus in danger. And if he’s not careful, it could get them all killed.

Ludus Lupus by DarkFairytale (6/? | 86,841 | NC17)

When Scott is bitten by a rogue Were, he can no longer be a house slave to Chris Argent’s family. He is sent away to train with the Gladiators of the famous Lupus Ludus, owned by Kate Argent. Determined not to let his friend suffer alone, Stiles offers to go with him, and serve in the house of Kate Argent.

Not only will Stiles have to contend with his worry for Scott and the cruelty of his new Domina, but things become even more complicated when Stiles finds himself falling for Kate’s prize Gladiator; Derek Hale, the Undefeated Alpha.

Based on Spartacus (TV Series).

These Woods Sigh by blacktofade (1/1 | 80,334 | NC17)

Derek and Stiles never plan to start a family together, it just happens. Or, the one where Derek accidentally wishes for a baby.

There’s Nothing That I Wouldn’t Do (I Found My Way Back To You) by SuperMARVELous (5/5 | 51,051 | R)

Four times Derek and Stiles pass each other by and the one time they find their way back to each other.

Followed by the past by Amatour424 (10/10 | 69,485 | NC17)

”Let’s make it clear: you want to give Derek Hale a good fuck for his birthday present.” said Scott, and after this the whole Hale pack nodded, one after one.“

Derek will be 30, and for his special birthday the pack wants to surprise him by renting a young, experienced, human boy for a night. Scott undertakes the task, because he wants to be a werewolf, and if he is successful, the pack helps him persuade the alpha to bite him. He meets Stiles….

Stiles moved out of the town with his boyfriend years ago, but when his dad was seriously injured, he ran back to him in no time. He is alone, without any money and no friends to help him. After some heavy misunderstandings he find himself in a horrible situation, with an offer he can’t refuse.

If You Wanna Be My Roomie (Lover) by Stereksale7 (24/24 | 66,694 | NC17)

Realistically, Stiles knew that the local University’s popularity and commonality meant that many members of his graduating high school class would be starting the Fall 2016 semester alongside him, but he never expected his longtime crush to be one of them. Even more so, he never expected said crush to be assigned as his roommate…oh boy. 

someone please tell me how that one person in your life who you told everything to and you loved so much can just do something that’ll hurt you so much and act like it’s okay. you told them things you had never said out loud and it was so easy to be your true self around them because they knew all the weird things you would do and it was just the most amazing feeling to be around them. but now they’ve left and told you that you deserve better but deep down you know that’s not true cause they were the very best and it just gets harder and harder each time you see them knowing that they’re not yours. so someone please tell me how the fuck this happened. please.
In Which Lance is an Idiot, and Keith Totally Doesn't Cry

read it on AO3 at

by KalesMcD4407

He didn’t know how Lance ended up in his arms, but somehow, it happened. Keith was on his knees and had pulled Lance up to rest on him. Something hot and sticky was all over the back of Lance’s head. He must have hit his head too, either while falling or passing out.

“Lance? Can you hear me?” Keith desperately searched for some sign that the other boy would be okay. Also… That was weird. Was he… Crying? No way. No fucking way was he going to cry because of Lance. But if Lance wasn’t the reason he was crying, then what was?


Basically Lance likes to wander the castle, and he gets hurt. Keith goes looking for him and realizes some things. And he TOTALLY doesn’t cry.

Words: 2787, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

read it on AO3 at


Slim, pale fingers move to put her earrings back in,
removed after a desperate attempt to fall asleep
with them in failed. She’s putting her shoes on, 
slipping her leather jacket over narrow shoulders
when she finds herself looking at Luke for a little bit too long. 
Watching him sleepily maneuvering his apartment,
with his bed head and all his tattoos, and 
she feels something inside her she can’t 
quite identify gasp out for attention. Those
are romantic impulses, Margo, maybe you’ve
heard of them. She clears her throat softly and
gently steps toward him. “Uhm, weird question, 
would you maybe… wanna get breakfast with me?”

ellygaming  asked:

So, the scene at the gas station where Dean is all "nice bike" seemed kind of weird and out of place, unless I'm missing something, but it's closely followed by Born to be Wild on the radio, which put me in mind of Easy Rider (even though the bike itself appears to be wrong). Not that I know what to make of it, if that's the case.

And then MARY was the one who turned up the radio. Yeah. And then MARY was the one who left on her own at the end of the episode…

I already answered another message here about this, basically talking about how Dean and Mary’s similarities were paralleled the entire episode. In the end, it wasn’t Dean going off solo (i.e. on the motorcycle) but Mary.

I’m starting a betting pool of how likely it is she’s riding a bike next we see her.

Ok so weird dream last night
And I can’t remember all of it so bear with me here.
Anyway. So. I was on Gibbs NCIS team and me and someone went to check out a crime scene or something and there was a laptop. No wait not a crime scene a suspects house or something. And we got on the laptop to see what he was up to. And we didn’t wear any gloves. So we left and are talking to Gibbs about it am I’m like oh! We forgot to wear gloves! There’s fingerprints all over everything! And he’s just like dang Hannah we gotta go back and clean that up! So we go back and
WHADDA YA KNOW THERES DAVID ROSSI apparently TEACHING A BUNCH OF KIDS SCHOOL TOO and he’s mad because apparently we ruined his classroom. And idk what happened after that but I hugged him and he was fine then.


omfggg that’s sounds amazing

I also had an NCIS dream last night

well, kinda. I bought a kitten at a pet store but then somehow lost it and Vance came up while i was crying and he was like “we’re gonna find your kitten” and i woke up like “what”

one of the weird things about taking antipsychotics is looking back on the past even the recent past when the pills weren’t the right dosage or weren’t quite working yet and noticing the differences. 

a couple of months ago I’d stay awake half the night worrying and crying sure that everyone I knew hated me, feeling watched, being unable to rationalize or calm myself down in situations like that. I had all of these secret lists of people who had wronged me or like, people who weren’t giving me enough attention in my head and I’d like, genuinely stress out about those things but now I’m just like a little surprised that I lived like that? At the time I felt so normal. 

I’m sure I’m doing something now that will be so weird to me in the future but at least I can see progress. 

anonymous asked:

what if after being stuck in ice and then melted out Xanxus starts having fibro symptoms? it takes him forever to actually accept that they're A Thing because he's a stubborn asshole though

this is when i admit that i had considered xanxus with fibro as a reason for the massage chair throne and as the fibro(-ish) friend that the varia have. except xanxus is weird and angry all the time so the only way they know something helps xanxus is when he yells at them to order a hundred more of that thing and to have ordered it fucking yesterday. takes no pity, asks not for help, fucks off / tells everyone to fuck off when he’s he doesn’t want to deal with them and doesn’t care what they think. will sleep anywhere. i think it works.

it’s probably not actually fibro though, in this case, just… lowkey constant aching and stuff? do his scars hurt, actually? for some reason i thought they did hurt whenever they showed up. which is terrible.

because if his aches get worse when he’s angry and he’s always angry, ye-gads. maybe chill a bit, xanxus, it’ll be good for your health.

oh, wait.

anonymous asked:

i want to tell u something that has been bothering me a lot since pure love ,idk who'll listen to me so i hope u listen. i.. find it weird when ks act with a girl, it seems out of place. i'm not an immature and delulu but ks def gives diff "vibe"

Hello there, yes you can talk to me, I will listen.

I don’t see a problem with you feeling weird about ksoo x girl. I mean, its not like you dont support ksoo its just a personal feeling you have. So dont let it trouble you way too much

To some extent its true for me too, maybe because I am heavily kaisoo biased 😂 but I understand what ‘vibe’ you are referring to, I feel it too hahahhaa

at the end of the day ksoo is a damn good and skillful actor, hes passionate about it, hes getting $ (although pushed too hard by sm) so its still great


It tickled her whenever he rubbed her chin. She didn’t know why she was ticklish on her chin. She felt like she was weird for having a ticklish chin. Sure, her sides and other places tickled her, but nothing was quite like her chin. It was a little embarrassing in moments like this whenever something serious was happening. “Sorry, wasn’t laughing because of this, you just tickled me.” Calliope tried not to feel bad about what he said, but it made her a little sad. It also gave her hope too that seemed to way out the sadness because of him saying he’d runaway with her and not do it the legal way and him wanting to be with her too. “Okay, good, I’m glad you know that.” She rested her hands behind his neck. “Nothing bad will happen now that you know,” she said looking up into his eyes before she kissed him deeply. 

i used to be so hardcore into pokemon fandom that it feels bizarre to not be obsessive abt it anymore… a new game’s coming out & all this great stuff is being revealed & generations is finally animating some of my favorite game content & yet i’m just sitting here like “oh that’s cool :)” instead of flipping out about it like i would’ve ~5 yrs ago. the feeling of “past me would be fuckin losing it rn” is such a weird thing to experience when you still really like something (just not nearly as much as you used to)

Why am I so weird and awkward about stupid shit like fucking make out with a dude if you want to why can’t I be happy with other people something always comes up and I hate it and I know this is just my depression talking but this shit feels like truth and like it IS truth and I just hate me and this winter is going to be bad.

Chapter 22

“Doctor,this isn’t Rio.” Amy huffs as she looks outside. 

I poke my had out of the T.A.R.D.I.S. to see we have landed in a graveyard. The Doctor steps out and immediately begins inspecting the ground. 

“Ground feels strange. Just me. Wait. That’s weird.” he says. 

“Doctor, i think amy may be a bit mad that this isn’t Rio.” I say to him.

“Blue grass. Patches of it all around the graveyard. So, Earth, 2020-ish, ten years in your future, wrong continent for Rio, I’ll admit, but it’s not a massive overshoot.” the Doctor smiles.

“Oh no, at least we’re still on the right planet.” I roll my eyes.

I turn to to stand next to Amy and see her looking at something in the distance. I squint and see two figures standing waving over at us.

“Please tell me you’re seeing this too?” I whisper to Amy.

“Doctor, is that us?” Amy asks the Doctor. 

I watch the Doctor pull binoculars out of his coat, ( why he had them, I don’t know) and look over at the two strangers.

“It is, it is Amy and Rory.” the Doctor replies. 

“No, we’re here. How can we be up there?” Rory asks confused.

“Ten years in your future. Come to relive past glories, I’d imagine. Humans, you’re so nostalgic.” the Doctor scoffs.

“Let’s go say hi.” Amy suggests. 

“Er, no, best not. Really best not. These things get complicated very quickly, and oh look.” the Doctor suddenly points at something. 

I turn to see a large mining machine. 

“Big mining thing. Oh, I love a big mining thing. See, way better than Rio. Rio doesn’t have a big mining thing. Let’s go and have a look. Come on, you three, let’s see what they’re doing.” 

Amy catches up with the Dcotor and I  to tell us Rory had to go put something in the T.A.R.D.I.S. 

We continue walking until we come across a locked gate.

“Restricted access. No unauthorised personnel. Hmm.” the Doctor reads from a sign on the gate. 

He pulls out his screwdriver and the lock breaks open. 

“That is breaking and entering.” Amy scolds.

“What did I break? Sonicking and entering. Totally different.” the Doctor replies.

“Yeah sure, totally different.” I whisper to Amy and we both snicker.

As we enter the building that has the mining drill, the Doctor begins to become more puzzled.

“What about now? Can you feel it now?” the Doctor asks us.

“I have no idea what you’re on about” Amy frowns.

“The ground doesn’t feel like it should.” he tells us.

“ It’s ten years in the future. Maybe how this ground feels is how it always feels.” I suggest.

“Good thought (Y/N) , but no, it doesn’t. “ the Doctor answers.

we find ourselves walking into a store room and two people look up at us shock written all over the faces.

“Hello.” the Doctor says friendly.

“What are you doing here?” I ask the two strangers.

“None of your business.” the older man glares at me.

“Where are you getting these readings from?” the Doctor ask as he walks up the their computer screen.

“Under the soil.” the woman answers.

“Why’s there a big patch of earth in the middle of your floor?” I ask her.

“Don’t know, it just appeared here overnight.” she replies.

“Good. Right. You all need to get out of here very fast.” the Doctor says becoming very alert. 

“Why?” I frown.

“ Look at the screens. Look at your readings. It’s moving.” the Doctor replies.

“The ground, the soil, the earth, moving. But how? Why?” the Doctor says outlaid, I think mostly for himself.

“An earthquake?” Amy guesses.

“Doubt it, because it’s only happening under this room.” I say.

As the ground continues to shake violently, a small area begins to split in half. 

I hold on the Doctor,s arm trying to keep my balance. 

“It knows we’re here. It’s attacking. The ground’s attacking us.” the Doctor shouts.

I notice a hole opening up dangerously close to where Amy is standing. I run over trying to pull her closer. 

But a hole swallows one of my feet. I try to get out but it feels as if something has wrapped itself around my ankle. 

“Amy! (Y/N)!” the Doctor yells. 

“Doctor, something has hold of my legs!” Amy cries out panicked.

“Doctor, what is it, and why is it doing this?”  I ask.

“ Try and stay calm. If you struggle, it’ll make things worse.” the Doctor tells Amy and I. 

By this point, Amy has been pulled down farther than me and the Doctor is desperately trying to pull her up. 

“Doctor, it’s pulling me down. Something’s pulling me.” I yell as I feel the force tug at my ankle. He looks over at with wide eyes. 

Then I’m sucked under….

People literally have no reason to hate pokemon go

“Pale awkward kids are outside” cry me a fuckin river some of them may have depression or social anxiety and wouldn’t be able to get out or exercise otherwise

“No one looks where they’re going” do not sit there and tell me people don’t do that to begin with you all fussed about the same thing when texting got popular

“The stops are inappropriate and disrespectful” ok yeah but the GPS  is random and the app just came out so that will be fixed obviously; plus people are visiting historical sites they otherwise wouldn’t visit probably and learn something

“Teenagers-20-somethings are everywhere and it makes me uncomfortable” your 5 year old screaming in the middle of the park makes me uncomfortable bye bitch

“It’s weird and immature” life is weird and immature go fuck yourself 


“Gee, Mister. You must know Wedge Antilles really well. What’s your name?” “Luke Skywalker, at your service!” — Star Wars: X-Wing Rogue Squadron Special

There’s a ‘vampire’ hedgehog that’s killing it on Instagram. Sir Hodge Huffington the Cricket Slayer, aka 'Huff’, loves getting his picture taken, but it’s probably because he always gets wax worms out of it. 

Before Huff was adopted by student Carolyn Parker, his previous owner treated him badly.

“A lot of people in Utah struggle with seasonal depression-including myself.“

“I started the account because I wanted to share something that made me happy with other people.”

“Huff comes off as being grumpy and “huffy” but is really lovable and cuddly on the inside.”

“I think that’s why there is such a large fan base for hedgehogs…because a lot of people can relate.”

HufftheHedgehog Instagram

h/t Bored Panda