Why I love Sakamaki Ayato so much.
Today is my favorite Sakamaki’s birthday, Ayato!!! He was the first Sakamaki introduced to us in the anime, and I’m still deeply in love with him and all of his character traits. I just love everything about him, from his vibrant Vibora eyes to his seiyuu, Midorikawa Hikaru.
STORY TIME ABOUT WHY I LOVE AYATO:
I think the reason why I love Ayato so much is because I can somewhat relate to him. I was the firstborn in my family too, and I was always pushed to be the smartest in school and the perfect daughter for my family. So I completely understand how difficult it is to be the best when you’re in a competition against your own family members (in Ayato’s case, his half-brothers and in my case, my cousins) and the unwanted pressure that entails with the ridiculous journey of trying to be perfect so that people will recognize you for being so great. My parents weren’t like Karlheinz and Cordelia, but I won’t deny the fact that I sometimes cried myself to sleep when I didn’t do well in school or when I got yelled at by my dad for not understanding an algebraic math problem. Of course, as time went by, I came to hate studying like Young!Ayato too, and I wanted to do other things like dance because for once, I didn’t have to think. But my parents persisted and pushed me to be the best in both, and this unfortunately gave me an egotistic superiority complex as well as an inferiority complex as I grew up and went on to high school. It was BAD, guys. I did not take “no” as an answer and I had an awful habit of dismissing people easily. I would do the complete opposite just to show them that I was great enough to do it because how dare they try to deny me, much like how Ayato questions people when they deny him.
When I saw Ayato wondering if he was good enough to be the Vampire King in the recently released Lost Eden game, I cried tears of anguish for him. I felt the same pain and sorrow and uneasiness that Ayato showed because there were times where I doubted myself and my abilities in my career path and choices. Even now, I sometimes struggle with the idea of me wanting to become a corporate lawyer when things don’t work my way or when I see that I’m competing against other college kids in the U.S. So we both share an insecurity of getting the repetitive feeling of “not being good enough” for the things that we want or are supposed to be. We both want to give up and just let go of our issues, but I think we are both stubborn enough to want to stay in the game too. I haven’t read the entire translation for Ayato’s LE route, but I hope he finds some closure and peace for himself. I think we both mentally and emotionally need a break from all the crap we have to deal with in life sometimes.
Nevertheless, I wish Ayato an EXTREMELY happy birthday today because he deserves all the happiness in the world. I hope he will learn from his past trials, and I hope he will grow and become a great Vampire King respected by the rest of the clans in the demon world. I hope he makes his family proud because he’s always been told that he needs to be the best and I want him to feel like he genuinely is one of the best out there. He’s always been my favorite character because of his complexities, so I hope we both can encourage each other to truly achieve the best, feel like we’re the best, and reach the status of being the best. I love him so much, and I want to thank Rejet, Satoi-sensei, and Midorikawa Hikaru for bringing this character to life in the Diabolik Lovers series.