it was too much for me today

I wore lipstick today! Sometimes I do that to try and make myself appear more together than I feel…it’s a trick I’ve employed forever.

My father is in the hospital with aspiration pneumonia. My mother is not handling things well. It’s a whole thing. I won’t even go into it, but it’s exhausting. I love my mother, but ever since she became involved with the “cowboy church,” she’s become just too over-the-top emphatically religious for me to handle at times. I have no problem with any religion…fanaticism on the other hand…😫

Physical Conditioning class was absolutely brutal today. That took my mind off things for a while. And, tomorrow, we’re all missing boot camp because a bunch of the gym crew is going to The Price is Right Live (and two hours of happy hour before that). I may have mentioned how much I love my gym friends… ❤️ I could definitely use a rest day, too. I rode my bike for an hour and a half before class today and then we did about a zillion lunges. Legs=dead 😭 It did prompt me to do my ten minutes of yoga tonight, though! 👍🏻

Also, the husband is going to leave work early on Friday so he can go to the hockey game with us!! 🙌🏻 I don’t have to hang out with Conner and his friends by myself!! 😉

Spice World: Top 3 scenes.

Spice World turns TWENTY YEARS OLD today!

Yes y’all, we are old. We look good tho. I’m very moisturized today actually. Anyway, I have too much to do today to actually sit down and watch the whole movie, so I just pulled the most important scenes real quick.

Number 3: Baby on a bus.

Not Baby Spice – actual labor. I hope all the parents told their kids where babies come from before this movie, because labor and delivery is kind of the last thing you’d reasonably expect to be in a glorified commercial for the Spice Girls’ first two albums. Yet here we are.

Number 2: These dancers made me like guys.

I….re-wound this scene a lot, not gonna lie. I grew up in the boonies and high speed internet wasn’t even available where I was from until I was in college already. My first experience with gay porn was in boarding school…but by then i was already giving blowjobs in locker rooms anyway.

Number 1: Boot Camp Spice.

Obviously watching Posh in a minidress and sky high heels avoid any and all physical labor is the most important pop culture moment of the 90s. I’ve built a religion around it.

Oh, Honorable Mention:

This gif.

C’mon budget!


I’m tired. I thought too much today. Mainly in how not to just blurt out, “do you even have any fucking idea how fucked up this situation is?” I didn’t but I know I thought it a gazillion times.

I have my work cut out for me. It’ll be fun though dammit

I Did u kno? I draw smol Jihyun sometimes when I am stressed…! Life is kinda really stressing me out a lot rn. Especially work.💦

But I did something kinda scary today! I booked an appointment to see a psychologist, because my anxiety is getting too much to handle. I don’t really care about myself, but people around me get worried.

Mental health is important yo. And it’s ok to talk to a professional if you think you need to.

A Man by Any Other Name

So I saw a prompt and this short drabble popped into my head. Gladio owns a coffee shop and everyday a blonde guy comes in that he really fancies, but he doesn’t know his name. It’s short but hey! I wront something today and I’m going to be proud of myself for it. Enjoy~


“Have a good one!” Gladio called out to a customer leaving his shop. His face was all smooth charm and suave smiles, much to the delight of every woman (and some of the guys) that walked in that coffee shop. Why wouldn’t they though? He was the perfect picture of a man. Tall, tanned skin, muscular but not disgustingly so… The tattoo that ran down both arms seemed to also garner a lot of attention. Each and every customer that interreacted with him always got the same kind words and charmer personality. Still, there was one person… one customer that Gladio was fascinated by. One that always had is complete attention every time he walked in those doors… and he didn’t even know he guy’s name. He wasn’t hard to mistake though. Bright blonde hair, big blue eyes… beautiful smile that sent the big beast of a coffee shop owner’s heart into a flutter. However, every time he came in, he always gave some ridiculous fake name for his order. Gladio always humored him and called him by that name for the duration of his stay, but he was determined today to find out his real name.


Gladio looked up at the clock briefly and smiled. Right on time. He made his way up to the front counter, leaning in on his right elbow with his classic smirk on his face. As per the usual, the blonde laughed, blushing some and scratching the back of his head. “Well good afternoon. Long time no see.”  

“I came in yesterday, you goof.” Came the bubbly response. The cheerful tone always seemed to draw a happy chuckle from the brunette behind the counter, and today was no different. He stood up straight and pulled out a cup.

“Once a day isn’t enough.” He teased, looking around for his marker, but not missing the deep red blush on that pale freckled face. “Same as usual?”

“Y-Yes, please.”

“Name on the order?”

“Batman!” Gladio glanced up, completely serious look on his face.  

“Sorry, new shop rule, gotta have a real name on the order.” He instantly felt a little bad when the smile on the man’s face faltered, but he redeemed it quickly by giving him a slightly out of character soft smile. “I’m just messing with you there, Batman.” The sigh of relief he was met with made him chuckle as he continued. “You are gonna have to give up your real name eventually, though.”


“Well, you come in everyday and give me a different fake name for your order. Not a big deal, but-” He paused a moment to actually write out ‘Batman’ on the cup with some semblance of legibility and grinned. “I think you are awful damn cute, and I’d love to actually know your name… yet here I am. Writing Batman on your cappuccino.” He snickered again when the guy turned several shades of red and walked off to fix his drink. When he came back, he was surprised to find that his mystery guy had barely moved a muscle. “Here you go, Batman. Large Salted Caramel Cappuccino, wet with extra caramel.” The blonde took his drink a little most hastily than usual and started towards the door. “Have a good one.” Suddenly, he stopped, hand on the door, looking down at his feet. Gladio looked concerned, wondering if he had upset the guy. “Something wrong?”



“My name…” He trailed off for a moment as it clicked into the barista’s head. “My name is Prompto.” The brunette couldn’t hide the excited look in his eyes, but he managed to keep the rest of his body relaxed. Prompto gave a sheepish smile and hurried out the door, waving to the larger man behind the counter. Gladio gave a soft chuckle and waved, before heading back to finish his dishes and smiling like an idiot for the rest of the day.

before our spring mv

Wow, SM really had to go down the nostalgic route. Of course I don’t know who decided to make the MV this way… but damn. I wasn’t expecting it. I don’t know what to say… I’m glad I cried earlier today because right now I’m just speechless and don’t know how to describe what I’m feeling. There was a part in the compilation of clips where I had to look away, a clip from one of his last concerts and he’s looking at the crowd.. I know that clip because I saw it a few weeks ago and it still hurts to see it. His expression is just too much for me. I loved the smiling parts, the behind the scenes footage… The last concert related footage always gets to me though. He’s in a different place in that footage. I want to remember his smile and his laughter. I want to hold those moments close to my heart and I’m sure he would want us to do that as well. As I write this I’m getting teary-eyed. I guess… it makes sense there wasn’t a pre-recorded MV for this song. Perhaps Jjong had no plans to make a clip for this song, after all such an emotionally charged song would be hard to represent on camera. Even so, I was still hoping for something else. This felt too much like the tributes we saw during the award shows and although yes they were beautiful… I just… I wanted something else. I guess it’s my own selfishness… to want to see him one more time in a completely new setting. To create just one more new memory of him.

anonymous asked:

Hi,I would like to know if there is any fanfic reylo based on "Your name"? I watched this movie today and my God, gave me so much reylo feels 😍

I’m not sure. I feel like @shwtlee2reylo talked about this not too long ago.

I’ve been having the hardest day and I have been so fucking homesick for Chicago that it’s been really hard not to just buy a last minute plane ticket and go home.

and my dad called me this morning and told me that he might have to cancel him and my stepmom coming out to see me and I’ve been waiting for them to come out for three years and I was so bummed.

but now they told me that they’ll make it happen no matter what.

and I’ve been struggling a lot but I’m trying to keep that negative energy off my blog but today it just all got too much and I can’t stop crying.

the barista in my local coffee shop is not only cute af, she also apparently has the exact same music taste as me and im feeling very gay today. i love girls.

Another plot bunny…

So now my cat’s giving me plot bunnies. He’s a hairy weirdo who likes getting into things he shouldn’t because he’s too curious. His newest game is sitting on the side of the tub when the shower curtain is closed and “invisibly” batting at anyone on the other side. So today I told him “oh no! I’m haunted by paw-paws!”

Then I realized “haunted by paw-paws” totally sounds like the title of a story I should write. Adair’s cat is so much like mine (which is kind of spooky because I started writing the cat before mine was even born- did I call mine into being? They even look alike!) and since I talk about her so much she’s basically a main character, that means…. plot bunny! I should write a short story where Adair’s cat is getting into mischief and making the dorks wonder why all this weird stuff is happening. I wonder if I could tell it from the cat’s POV?

I have no idea if I’d write this because I have so many short story ideas, but I guess I’ll add it to my list of potential ideas. At some point I’ll get back to writing, ya know, the books that are supposed to be this series lol

kimtaeyeonnie  asked:

I decided to finally read You Never Walk Alone today and can I just say w h y, I cried and then you go killing all these people dnnrkdnwkdksn Not complaining though, your writing is amazing and I find myself re-reading all your other stories too, even if they make me want to throw myself into a wall from all the plot twists

omg you’re so kind! i cannot put into words what messages like this mean to me, thank you so so so much!!! i hope you like the finale coming this weekend!! x

anonymous asked:

so i didn't cut the other day, which makes me a lil proud of myself. but im having another really bad day today so idk if that will last. i just feel like im at the point where i dont care enough to live but i care too much to die. does that make sense? -yellow + black anon

yeah baby it makes sense. just take some time to relax and care for yourself okay? take naps and relax, or do something you enjoy doing. i’m always here to talk if you need it💞

I am grateful for 2 things today!
1) To all of you for following me! I reached over 100 followers and I’m pretty excited because I haven’t had this blog for too long and I love the Outlander fandom so much so it feels pretty nice some of you like me enough back to follow!
2) Myself! I bought myself this mug just after Christmas because #TreatYoself and I love it even more than I thought I would!

had two great classes today. i especially love my sex and gender class. so interesting and i love how everyone else is passionate about the information too! then my next class went well too! only having classes two days a week is still weird, but i’ll get used to it. it’s what i’ll have to do next year.

i’m trying to not be hard on myself in regards to other people being more eloquent with what they say in discussions. there is just so much going on in my head that it can be hard for me to say what i mean without stumbling over my words and whatever. but i am participating, which is the important thing!!!!!

also i hope it’s just today that i felt a little weird about knowing that my therapist’s friend is in my class. it got better as we got into the class discussion but still, it’s weird!!!!


Here, have a couple more - Todoroki and Bakugou might as well have my favorite friendship outside of the squad tbh

being multilingual like...

What people think it’s like:

  • *speaks multiple languages fluently on command*
  • *is very sophisticated*

What it’s actually like:

  • constantly speaking to people in the wrong language
  • managing to squeeze 3 or 4 languages into one sentence without noticing
  • gradually forgetting your first and second language, while not speaking anything fluently anymore. not even your first language is safe
  • Grammar? What grammar? Which grammar??!!
  • being permanently confused
  • can’t even order bread at a Danish bakery after 2 years of language training
  • cry and curse yourself for moving somewhere where they don’t speak English or your first language. but mostly cry. and weep

iilesgemeauxii-deactivated20170  asked:

I really liked your awkward Hanzo comics~ Could you make one where McCree compliments his hair (particularly the white little hair-wings part thing) and the next day someone (Genji? Symm?) finds him with a little smile trying extra hard to make them perfect? (not in a snooty/prideful way. more of a "i hope they look good today maybe he'll talk to me again" way) I am not sure if I'm allowed to make requests/suggestions so i hope this does not come off as pushy~ '3' Welp, 25 letters left so this -

im super glad you liked it omg thank yOU!!! i am 1000% down for requests & suggestions hehe there u go!!!


Even tho I still can’t manage holding my tablet’s pen, my mechanical pencil is slim and light enough to let me draw! Which is why I spent the last few days sketching traditionally - maybe this blog has been inactive long enough to allow me to post shitty pics of shitty pencil doodles too haha