it was the first thing i thought of when i watched it

anonymous asked:

Can I ask why you like lance ? Just curious !

OOH nice! A fun ask!

Ah, Lance became my favorite after a single watch-through of the first season, but it wasn’t really a single thing that just WHOOP, popped it over, that one’s my favorite now. After I watched the first episode I thought all of the characters were adorable, but Lance didn’t stand out to me. Actually, Pidge was my favorite at first. I like the small ones with glasses, what can I say. Probably because those characters ping all of my TOO SMALL MUST PROTECT instincts.

But Lance just kept being…the cutest. When I took five minutes to think about it, I was like, wait a second. That ridiculous flirty obnoxious teenage boy with the fart jokes and the bad sense of timing… Why is he so cute? He keeps talking about bonding. He wants to knit sweaters for little aliens. He offered to climb a tree to impress a girl. He got so homesick for his MOM’S HUGS that he had to leave a party to go have a PRIVATE CRY. Plus the jumping in front of a bomb, and being smart and tactical during the Balmera fight, and his protectiveness for Pidge, his closeness with Hunk… It just kept accumulating, all these moments that made me fall in love with Lance and start to overlook the more irritating parts of his personality. 

My obsession with this show hit me fast and hit me hard. And Lance was a huge part of it. Plus on analysis, it looked like he had a big family, which is a big button for me. And the hidden insecurity, the kindness, the way he just wants to save the universe and go home… The more I thought about him, the more I loved him. And like a week later I started writing Boom Crash.

anonymous asked:

Have you seen "107 Facts About Danny Phantom"? I have, and three things intrigued me. Firstly, ghosts are NOT the spirits of the deceased. They're "monsters/creatures from another dimension", but they're called "ghosts" because it's easier to say. Secondly, not just anyone can get superpowers from a Ghost Portal. If Sam or Tucker had been caught in the blast instead of Danny, they could have been killed. Thirdly, Vlad was going to be a vampire, but Nickelodeon thought it was too occult-ish.

Yeah, Butch revealed all these things in interviews years before the video. I like watching all these people who never knew this stuff freak out, hee hee. It just gives me “Come on, I’m new here and even I knew this!” warm fuzzies.

As for your first question, I talked to Bookworm (like I often do) about it back when I first found that interview in particular. We usually just talk about worldbuilding stuff and I don’t think she really minds me sharing it. She’s pretty cool that way. Hold tight… Ah!

oORiddleOo said the following:

So apparently Butch said the following in an interview:

So it was decided to make Vlad a “ghost”. And, also, by “ghost” I mean, a guy with special powers like Danny. Remember: in “Danny Phantom” our ghosts are not the disembodied spirits of dead people. Oh no no. They’re “monsters/creatures” from a mysterious dimension. Although we never say that out loud, that’s the slant we take. Get it? We just call them ghosts because it’s easier.

I’m not sure how I feel about this. I mean, it makes sense where Skulker and Spectra are concerned, but how does this connect to Sidney, who has a canon human counterpart? Or the Lunch Lady and Ember. Hmm……..

I think most everyone in the phandom assumes that most if not all of the major ghosts were alive at one point, so it should be totally acceptable for me to go that route if I wanna.

This is where it comes in handy to have an echo* idea, I suppose, when one is a picky perfectionist about sticking to canon… At least this is an obscure fact. I want dead people and I’m gonna have dead people.

Also I found this quote:

“Mom, I’ve got a new show idea! It’s going to shake the entertainment world to its core!” Her response was something like: “That’s nice, Butch. Oh look, there’s a desert tortoise.”

*Note: The echo idea is Bookworm’s headcanon from her DP fanfics.

Bookwormgal said the following:

Yeah, Butch kind of wavered back and forth about whether or not ghosts were actually dead people. The phandom does ignore him to an extent on that topic since it was already established with some of the characters that they used to be alive.

Yes, that’s part of the reason I went with my “echoes” concept since it lets them be both based on previously living people and yet not technically the spirits of dead guys. But most fans of the show just go with “ghosts are dead people” and get on with it.

And yes, that’s an amusing quote.

oORiddleOo said the following:

Gotcha. There are a lot of hints in the show that they ARE dead. It’s a little weird for me to go against a direct quote from the show creator, but I’m technically sticking more to the episodes, and I guess this is what fanfiction is all about. I’ll just have to play with some ideas of my own.

Bookwormgal said the following: 

Yeah, stick with the episodes more than the quotes. I think he said that later to keep the moral guardians from freaking out about all the dead people the innocent children are being exposed to or something…

Huh. I was expecting to get more out of this by copying and pasting it than I would have if I’d simply summed it up. Oh well.

So……. That’s my feelings on the subject. I’m not really sure what you want me to say about your other two comments. Have fun with those!

maggie was kicked out when she was 14 and there were maybe two lines discussing it. meanwhile mon el being jealous of kara got like three entire scenes devoted to it, it was discussed to the point where it felt like i was just watching the same scene over and over again. this show doesnt even try to hide the fact that it will never value wlw relationships or give them the same treatment that its gross abusive het ships get. sanvers have been dating for three months and get a quick kiss. karamel get together for the first time and are given a full on makeout scene on the couch. im so tired of feeling like an afterthought and only being given a handful of scenes that feel rushed and underdeveloped.

supergirl has done amazing things for lgbt representation and i dont want to seem ungrateful, but theres still so much more it needs to improve on

So everyone is talking about how Keith’s dad has an uncanny resemblance to Shiro.  When I first watched the episode, I thought it was a younger version of Shiro in the room until Keith said, “Dad?”  I think there was a hidden meaning behind the fact that they look almost exactly the same.

First, we already know this season was very Shiro and Keith (broganes) heavy.  They showed Keith’s background and gave him a more rounded out character.  Shiro was his rock throughout the whole thing, a big brother to him when he needed it.  Keith has always showed that he’s super close to Shiro, which was amped up this season and I think they were building up to episode 8 where everything went down.

Keith had already hinted that Shiro had taught him everything he knew, gave him the best advice, and supported him through a lot even before Voltron.  They set this whole relationship up as a mentor, teacher, older brother and more importantly, parental guardian situation.  

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looking back at these two scenes after friday’s clip hurts

because i remember our general thought process, the questions we were asking ourselves, the why, even? why won’t you be with him? what are you thinking when you’re looking at isak like this? what’s going on? i remember the confusion we had felt ever since he had texted isak telling him he needed space. i remember our need for answers 

but now we know 

we know even loved isak this whole time. loved isak so much. loved isak so much that he thought staying away was the best thing to. loved isak so much he stayed away despite the pain, despite missing him the whole time. loved isak so much he thought he was worth this sacrifice 

we know he didn’t stay away for selfish reasons. we know it’s the complete opposite. and we knew isak was hurting because we’ve been with him this whole time. but now we realize just how much even was hurting, too 

at first i watched these scenes and i didn’t fully understand, and i felt confused. i now watch these scenes and i understand, and it makes my heart feel heavy 

i’m laughing so much because of this lmao, like first jensen sees jared is gonna move right in front of him and he’s like “nope i won’t fall for this, i won’t look”

and he smiles because of the crowd’s reaction but still doesn’t let himself be tempted

and then he’s like “fuck it” and he’s clearly taking advantage of having the best view lol but the best thing about this is the guitarist’s (don’t know his name sorry) reaction, the dude was watching jared and smiling until he catches jensen starting ogling jared and that’s when he can’t help but start laughing out loud, like this dude KNOWS lmaoooo, he knows what’s going on there 

and then jensen heard him laugh so he looks at him and the dude is like “oh my god i can’t believe you guys”

this is jensen’s face while looking at the guy, he is so SMUG lmaooo, he knows the guy knows

oh you thought jensen wouldn’t look at jared’s ass again after this? that’s cute xD

look at his face, he truly appreciates what he’s seeing 

and when jared’s done jensen looks SO pleased like “yeah yeah yeah that was good that was very good” he keeps nodding lmao 

this is priceless, i can’t with these two, i just wonder if jensen thought he was being subtle and everyone was focused on jared or if he just doesn’t give a fuck 

that reminded me of the nerd hq 2013 thing lol

here’s a gif with the dude’s whole reaction

and one with the quick shots of jensen’s face from this angle

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whenever i watch the part when isak first sees even at emma’s party, i always wonder how much the way the viewer sees even is influenced by isak’s subjective perception 

throughout this scene, when we see even, he looks like he’s having the time of his life - in this bit when he’s greeting friends, and later on when we see him kiss sonja. but i have such a hard time believing that he was. because we know the nature of his feelings for isak, and how much he meant to him, and how painful it was for him to let go of him because he thought isak would never want him. this is the day after he broke things off. a day 

ever since isak received even’s text the night before, we haven’t seen him smile, not once. during the pregame with the boys, we didn’t see him smile. throughout that whole scene, he seemed lost in his thoughts, he seemed heartbroken. he couldn’t bring himself to at least fake a smile 

now i’m not saying that isak is simply imagining everything, it’s not that simple. maybe even is smiling a little, polite little smiles when greeting people. i think even is good at making himself seem fine when he is not, keeping up a facade to not let people know that he’s hurt. i don’t think that in reality even is looking as crushed as isak seems, but i also don’t believe he is that cheery

in that clip, even looks beautiful. radiant. unattainable. because that’s how isak perceives him. isak has no idea that even decided to end things because of his comment in the locker room, because even thinks isak wouldn’t want him. isak thinks even is the one who doesn’t want him, isak thinks he’s the one who is not good enough, he thinks even is better off without him, that he’s doing better, feeling better now that he ended things. he thinks even wanted to end things. he thinks even is glad he ended things. so that’s how isak perceives even in this scene, happier without him 

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Anonymous Requested: Jungkook Royal AU
Pairing: Jungkook | Reader
Genre: Fluff/Smut; Royalty AU 
Word Count: 11,013
Author’s Note: I pretty much took a whole day off from life to work on this, since I start school on Monday and wanted to try and get through as much writing as I can before hell starts.

Summary: As royalty, you were forced to be sent off and married to a prince of the neighboring kingdom to strengthen your country. But when you are betrothed earlier than you expected, you seek comfort in a random stranger until you realize that perhaps fate plays a bigger hand in things than you ever thought possible.


For the record, you never asked to be a princess. Not that you think you would ever have had an upper hand in a situation like that in the first place, or that you expected things to be different if you could go back in time to watch your family history unfold. It’s just something that’s short, and simple, and a fleeting thought you ponder about on more than one occasion, which is certainly a lot more times than someone who was actually happy with their lives would think.

Now, it’s not that you’re ungrateful with the life you’ve been gifted with, you’re well aware of the luck you’ve received, because at the end of the day, it’s the kind of lifestyle that guarantees food upon the table. It promises a roof over your house during the night, during the rain or snow, (more than) comfortable clothing to keep you warm throughout the bitter winter. The gold and motivation and rule your family has over the kingdom is nothing to shy away from.

It just, it provokes a lot of… pressure in your system, in your heart and in your mind.

Most of these things sprout from your father, who is probably just as ruthless as he is caring and hard-working and passionate about the land he is expected to rule over with grace and respect and an equal amount of force to make sure the people of the kingdom didn’t take advantage of him. He’s always been a loving father, albeit expecting the most out of you between your two other siblings. As caring or thoughtful or empathetic has he could be, there were often moments in your life when your best was never good enough for him.

You’ve been taught since birth to follow the orders and rules set up by your father because, as so graciously pointed out by the servants the dusk and clean and care for you on more than one occasion, your father always did what he believed would be best for you. So every piano or violin or guitar lesson he ever made you take, those foreign language lessons, classes on discipline and how to look, think, behave like a princess—those were always for your own future benefit.

“Keep your back straight, shoulders back, smile pretty.”

Always cut small pieces of your meal. Take small sips of your drinks. Always remember to wipe your mouth with a napkin.”

“Don’t speak unless spoken to.”

It’s not that you hate being a princess. You just hate having things being done for you, you hate how decisions and that free-will of choice and responsibility has been ever-so-graciously lifted off your shoulders as if these were things you would never have to burden yourself with. You hate not having a voice, your words drowned by the ones of your father or mother. Your existence has constantly been overshadowed by those greater than you could ever hope to be. You hate the role you have to play into society, how you had to spend your days dealing with other people’s problems. Shouldering a kingdom is no laughing matter, there are rules and regulations and decisions that constantly need to be made to ensure the safety and well-being of everyone who live within the borders. Your mere existence is to live for other people.

It’s exhausting.

But in spite of your feelings, you know that changing fate is practically impossible. So you roll with your father’s wishes, because you understand that this is duty you owe to your kingdom. Perhaps at the end of the day, it will truly never really matter what you desire. From the moment you were birth, your entire life story has already been written by you, the quill of ink belonging to your father and mother and every other person who thought they could know you better than you could ever know yourself.

You let yourself take everything in. You visit the nearby villages and listen to everyone’s problems, their hopes and wishes and promise to become stronger and stronger to help them. You take the lessons set up by your father. You keep your back straight, your eyes forward, your mouth shut. You accept the fancy parties and the wine, the dancing and the violins echoing through your ear, speaking only when you are spoken to. It’s torture, but you have to remind yourself that is it your duty, your obligation and your responsibility.

You even let your father tell you that there will come a day when you will be sent off to a predetermined prince in a neighboring kingdom, be married off into a family you don’t know and perhaps will never truly belong to—all for the benefit of your kingdom. You let him tell you this, and you accept it. You give yourself a few years to mentally prepare yourself, expecting your father at the very least to grant you this one wish.

A raised eyebrow. “But the prince could be ready to meet you any day now.”

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Modern Pagan Ways to Worship

I’ve been thinking a lot about the ways I worship the gods, and watching my other Pagan friends to see how different our styles are. I thought I might list some of the ways I’ve noticed. Feel free to add anything you think is worth mentioning!

Learning about the gods: This is always the first thing I tell people to do when they decide to work with a new god. Read the stories we do have about them, even if there’s only one. What are scholars saying about the story/ies? What can we learn from knowing about the culture of the time? Is there any crossover from other cultures and mythologies?

Prayer: The obvious one, but perhaps not one that all Pagans engage in for fear of feeling ‘too Christian.’ Ceiswir Serith has a great guide, “A Book of Pagan Prayer,” if you want to take a look at new ways to pray. 

Offering food/drink: Whether you’re offering a separate meal to the goddesses or sharing a part of your plate, this is a very old tradition. Some gods prefer you partake of the meal, and others don’t. Whatever is best for you, offering a glass of wine or a portion of your lunch to the gods also makes you more conscious of the food you’re ingesting.

Building/maintaining an altar: Another very common one under the Pagan umbrella. We dedicate a space to a deity or deities, and decorate it as a workspace for spells, a welcome mat for the god(s)/ess(es) we worship.

Donning a deities’ associations: If yours is a sea goddess, it is likely she’ll prefer you wearing shells, pearls, or colors that remind her of her home. By contrast, a fire god might like to see you sporting some carnelian or even lava rock. Wearing their colors, crystals/stones, scents, animal representations, symbols (either overt or covert), etc., is a way to remind yourself of them throughout the day.

Writing: Some Pagans keep journals, a Book of Shadows, and blogs to write to and about the gods. If you’re a verbal learner, this can be a great way to figure out your feelings if you’re working through new concepts, or to tell stories about your deities if they like to hear you talk about them.

Art: Other Pagans like to draw, paint, or otherwise decorate parts of their world with a visual representation of their god(s)/ess(es), their associations, or experiences they’ve had with their deity.

Music: Writing a chant, alternative Christmas carol lyrics, or compositions can be a great way to worship! Don’t forget drum circles and jam sessions.

Meditation: One of my personal favorites, guiding yourself (or having them guide you) through a visual meditation to show them more of their world. You can learn a lot about a god this way.

Crafty hobbies: Making jewelery, fetishes, or other gifts for the gods can be a relaxing and informative way to learn about how you see your goddesses compared to how other people do.

Volunteer work: Many goddesses and gods require their followers to flow good energy back into the world, whether that’s by volunteering at a women’s shelter, running a recycling campaign in your neighborhood, or counselling LGBTQ+ youth, this is a rewarding way to prove you can put your money where your mouth is, spiritually speaking.

Academic work: Particularly for knowledge/wisdom deities, this can be a good one for students. Silently dedicating your homework assignments to your gods can boost the quality of the work you turn in–it’s going to someone a little higher than your professor, after all!

Designing sigils and symbols: A lot of people are starting to take up the sigil-making hobby, which is great! Making a unique symbol for your deities lets them know you’re thinking of them, without necessarily letting other people know. Particularly good for people in non-Pagan-friendly households.

Yoon Bum in disguise (?)

By the time I’ll be posting this it’s gonna be an old hat because I already saw people mentioning it, but I wanted to wait for the official release of ch 14 with English translations before I’m sharing my thoughts.

So the story begins with a girl watching a guy and his friends and checking his social media.

At first I thought it’s just a way to confuse the reader before it’s being revealed that the protag, Yoon Bum, is actually a guy. In ch 14 we see several “girls’ items” in Bum’s apartment like nail polish, lipstick and the bra.

Suddenly I was thinking “oh what if he dressed up as a girl to stalk Sangwoo to make it less obvious that he’s following him around?”. Bum was following Sangwoo to his dates because he wanted to know what his (Woo’s) relationship with this girl is. How did Sangwoo never notice anything when he has been stalked for months? Because Bum literally said “But I don’t want him to know”. What if he made sure he won’t find out? It would’ve been quite suspicious if a small, scrawny guy is always around when Sangwoo was going on a date and ogling them when they kiss and such. A girl however wouldn’t be extremely weird, so it could be possible that Bum followed him in disguise. Sangwoo pointed out that Bum’s legs are skinny and pretty like a girl’s, with his physique it would’ve been easy for Bum to trick people into thinking that he’s a girl. (At first I thought that Bum even shaves his legs because when Sangwoo mentioned the hair on his legs, I was like “where???” because I only saw like 3 tiny hair. So I thought Sangwoo is telling him in a mocking way that Bum missed a few hair. But Sangwoo’s legs are hairless too, so I think it’s more of an artistic choice and that hairy legs are only reserved for old, gross men like Bum’s uncle. It’s not very uncommon in manga/anime that the young, appealing characters have smooth skin while the older people are drawn with more bodyhair.)

Ok this might be a huge stretch, but Sangwoo also guesses that the bra that he has found in Bum’s apartment isn’t that of a girlfriend. He goes on and says it’s probably from Bum’s mom, and he sounds a little repulsed (”you’re more perverted than I thought”). It’s quite common for little girls to take their mom’s clothes and shoes to dress up and put on some make-up to “play” being an adult woman. Sangwoo already deprecatingly commented on Bum’s sexuality (”dude lover/homo”), so it’s not unlikely that he would say the same about Bum cross dressing. (Even though he doesn’t really seem to have a problem with it. He just keeps this homophobic mask up to humiliate Bum.) And if the bra is as shabby as Sangwoo said it is, then that means it has been worn very often.

There isn’t much known about his earlier stalkings, but dressing up as a girl would’ve been convenient too if his victim was a girl. We’ve all been to highschool too, and the average school girl can be very superficial and harsh. If a conventional handsome boy like Sangwoo followed a girl during her free time after school, her friends probably would be like “hihi, look this guy is following us around, maybe he has a crush on you”. Meanwhile if Bum, who doesn’t fit the stereotype of a handsome young male, did the same they would rather say stuff like “ugh, look at this creep stalking us”. Ofc they wouldn’t know how right their mocking accusation is. However, if he disguised himself they might just see a girl in him with similar interests. In ch 1 we see a girl yelling at him and asking why he keeps showing up in front of her. Maybe he learned from this experience to hide better next time and started to dress up because he didn’t want to risk to be caught stalking again. [This is very stereotypical thinking and idk if Korean girls act the same. So I’m sorry if I applied western standards here.]

It’s also possible that these items are simply things that Bum picked up from his previous stalking victims either because they lost them, or he was intentionally stealing them, to keep them like trophies. I won’t explain this theory in more detail because @y00nbum​ already made a great post about it and you can read it here.

Both theories aren’t necessarily contradictory. Maybe he made use of his trophies for his disguise later. And even if the disguise theory is proven wrong, it’s still a nice headcanon and I will roll with it.


Alright, sweeties! A bit of a different post from me today! I have been meaning to make this for awhile, since I haven’t seen anyone organize their grimoire the way I do, I thought this could certainly be helpful for someone!

First, let’s talk about the book itself! I don’t use a blank book or a notebook. I wanted a graph paper notebook this size, but just couldn’t find one! So, after watching this video, I was SO inspired, I could just MAKE the whole thing! So, we went out and bought a used book, a pack of graph paper and a glue stick. This was SO freeing because I make pages before I put them in, I write in pencil, then I go over it in fine Sharpie pen, erase pencil marks, and then glue the page in when I’m finished. That way, I don’t have this fear of “messing it up” (even though I think messing up things is part of the fun sometimes!).

So if you like to be organized, I might be stressing you out. I understand. Organization is something I love and need in my life. I’ve seen so many folks using binders for their grimoires, but it wasn’t my style. I wanted it to all be sort of chronological, but also organized??? My answer to this– COLOR CODING. Ever section (energy, astrology, spells, candles/incense, etc) has a different color that I make on the side facing outwards, along with the category written on the side. This way, if I’m looking for something in particular, I can flip through and find it, no problem!

Secondly, I use ENVELOPES. Alright, I love astrology. Astrology is something I want to have a lot about in my book, but also I don’t want to take it up my entire book with this. So envelopes were my answer for this! I water-colored each envelope in a color suit that felt fitting to each of the elements, and drew on the constellation, glued those bad boys in, and BAM, I have WAY more room to add things about signs because I can just stick ‘em in their designated envelopes. 

In addition, I like using/decorating with things from the internet, magazines, etc. This is YOUR book, your documentation of learning, your personal reference. Don’t be afraid to go off the ‘traditional’ leather bound, calligraphy written, beautiful grimoires if that isn’t your style! It doesn’t make it ANY less witchy or magical to use highlighters, friends! Don’t be afraid, no one can tell you what is right or wrong when it comes to YOUR grimoire!

Also, I would LOVE to see your grimoires, so tag me in your photos!! 


Very quick thoughts about my fave, my ride or die, my beautiful daughter Allura after my early morning first pass of S2.

  • I like that Allura gets to be angry. She doesn’t have to be the perfectly supportive person. She has some motherly tendencies but she’s not just a “mom”. She gets to be complex; poised, fierce, compassionate, commanding and at the same time angry, suspicious, filled with grief and self-doubt.
  • They give us some time to see her as a normal person. Her excitement over sparkly things and how freely she laughs was a real treat.
  • Her team realizes the extent to which she pushes herself and makes an effort to care for her. Shiro tells her to get some much needed rest, Coran holds her when she looks exhausted, everyone is concerned on the toll it takes for her to open wormholes. When shit hits the fan in 2x12 everyone is worried sick about her.
  • The culmination of her tensions with her Galra allies is through an apology she makes of her own volition. No one preaches to her, no one pulls her aside to tell her to change her ways. She reflects and makes her own decisions about it and finds the best course of action is to apologize sincerely.
  • No one tells her that her feelings are unjustified. Though others will point out that there are good Galrans out there, they don’t invalidate that her people were systematically eradicated by the Galra Empire and that she is still coping with the ramifications of those horrible actions.
  • She gets to do things besides pilot the Castle. She gets to be diplomatic with the Balmerans, and she gets to show off just how much combat training she has (I’m theorizing she was a frequent sparring partner of the gladiator) when she goes toe to toe with Haggar.

autumnholicpau  asked:

Ok but at the ep 10 when we see the pics and videod of the party, which mobile are those from? I thought it was Viktor's bc he was the narrator of that exact episode but them i thought it could be his or chris's one. I mean, the picture of the background when he's swiching between apps to show us something is a picture of Viktor and Chris. Anyway, i still think it was Viktor's so is he who's watching the pics and sees twice those he has dancing with Yuuri

Hi there! Sorry for replying a little bit late, I had a busy morning. Also sorry in advance if I make any grammar mistake since english isn’t my first language. Okay now I’ll answer to your question.

I actually never paid much attention to it, but I just rewatched that glorious sequence of pictures and I think we see them from three different phones: Viktor’s, Chris’ and Yuri’s.

First they show us a lockscreen with a picture of Makkachin as the background, so obviously that phone’s of Viktor.

We also see that he has only 5 pictures of drunk Yuuri and a folder full of Makkachin’s pictures (jfc there are more than 1k pics there, I love this man)

So that’s definitely Viktor’s phone, no doubts there.

But then we see another screen that has a different background, and this time it’s of Chris and Viktor in the last GPF.

It’s true that it can be confusing at first because you may think this phone is Viktor’s, but if you look at the photo Chris is more focused and, as we just saw, Viktor had another background on his phone.
(Also I didn’t show the apps from Viktor’s phone but they are in different order than in this phone screen and even their battery charge are different, the amount of details on this show amaze me). Okay, so that is surely Chris’ phone.

And then we see another phone screen. This one also has another background and different battery charge, but you can also see that some apps are written in russian, meaning that this must be Yuri’s phone since it can’t be Viktor’s.


And here we can also see that the phone is in russian and  oh  my  god  I just realised that Yuri has ALL (33!) of the picture’s of that night, especially the ones of Yuuri doing pole dancing and the ones where his two dads are dancing together and flirting with each other I CAN’T BELIEVE THIS

The only thing that’s missing here is Phichit, if he had been there we would have had so many more pictures *prays for Yuuri to get drunk again this year*

BBC Sherlock, Gaslighting, & How Much I Love You (Yes *You*)

You’d think that I’d be all over TFP tinhatting.  I’ve been entranced by the “you can’t trust what you’re seeing” imagery in BBC Sherlock since I started watching it.  I even wrote a post, shortly before TFP, about how we as the fans are like John looking up at BBC Sherlock on the roof at Bart’s, watching him as he lies to us, trying to have faith.

“Faith is a funny thing,” I wrote in that post.  “It’s not inherently good or bad.  To lose faith when it ought to be kept is a tragedy, but so is to keep faith when it ought to be cast aside.”

Like a lot of people, I’ve been flipping back and forth between two readings of TFP.  The first reading says, “BBC Sherlock is actually terrible.  All the things I thought I saw - the imagery, the clues, the characterization, the mirroring, the references - I must have just made up.  TFP is real, it has to be.”  The second reading says, “BBC Sherlock has gotten really, really meta.  TFP is fake, and they’re violating all sorts of norms about how television works in order to surprise everyone and make a point.  TFP is fake, it has to be.” 

These readings are in conflict, not just with each other but with me.  Believing either requires me to question my own reality.  If I accept that TFP is real I have to question my ability to read and understand stories.  If I accept that TFP is fake I have to question all sorts of norms about how the world works and how tv gets made.  

Neither feels tenable.  And I feel like, well:

(Image by @livingthegifs)

I doubt I’m alone in this.  And the idea that anyone else in fandom feels like this, especially the younger fans, the other queer folks, the people who already deal with mental health issues – it breaks my heart.

So I want to be absolutely clear here:

Your perceptions of reality are not flawed.  You are not wrong to be deeply upset by TFP.  And you are not alone.

There are, more or less, three theories about TFP:

1)  We made up everything.  We took coincidences and concocted a false narrative in our heads.  Our predictions were wrong because our perception of the evidence was wrong.

2)  TFP is fake.  We’ve been right all along, and the creators are preparing a giant rug-pull, hopefully without realizing how much distress they’ve caused. Our predictions will be proved right because our perception of the evidence was right.

3)  TFP is real, and all the ‘evidence’ we thought we had was planted either to fuck with us or because the creators changed the story they were telling.  Our predictions were wrong, but our perception of the evidence was largely correct.

I am going to go ahead and eliminate #1 as impossible.  We did not make up everything.  We did not make up the ‘question reality’ imagery used over and over again in the show.  We did not make up the references to queer icons, including to Oscar Wilde and Freddie Mercury in TFP itself.  Much of the stuff we’ve pointed out in our metas may be coincidence but not all of it, and not all of it together.  

One of the other two options must then be the truth.  I can’t say which it is - obviously I’d prefer #2, but #3 is still possible.  But both imply two things:

* The creators are fucking with our sense of reality.

* Our sense of reality is just fine.

And this is what angers me so deeply.  Because gaslighting is awful.  It’s a textbook sign of abuse.  It’s something that multiple BBC Sherlock villains engage in – Culverton Smith most notably, but also Frankland in THoB and Moriarty in TRF.  And yes, yes, the writers are villains, the mystery writer is the criminal, but that’s symbolism, okay?  It doesn’t excuse gaslighting just like it wouldn’t excuse Moffat or Gatiss if they went out and actually murdered someone.  It’s still a shitty thing to do.  

And it’s a shitty thing to do at this particular moment in history, when we are all struggling so hard to figure out how to trust each other, how to build a shared and reliable reality.  I mean, f I want to be gaslit, I’ll go read my President-elect’s twitter.

Look, it’s good to question the stories you’re told.  Very good.  And it’s good to question the stories you tell yourself, occasionally, to keep an open mind and admit when you’re wrong.  But this type of questioning comes from a place of strength.  You question the stories you’re told because they violate your values or your knowledge.  You question yourself when something about what you’re doing or thinking feels out of line with who you are.  It’s hard to do that when you’re wracked with self-doubt and in pain.  

I love every last person in this fandom and I want you all to feel whole and strong.  I want that for your own sake, because you deserve it, but also, selfishly, because I need you.  I need you to help me fix all that’s wrong with this world - to help me fight Trump and the rise of fascism, to help me protect and nourish the next generation of LGBTQ folks, to help me build a better and kinder world.

So be good to yourself.  Throw yourself into analysis if that makes you happy, take a break if you want to, reach out to friends and family, do whatever it is you need to do to remind yourself that you’re okay.  And, if you can, help others to do that.  Share your love and your strength.  Don’t try to push your opinions about reality onto anyone else – we’ve had enough of that already.  Treat each other with gentleness.  Treat yourself with gentleness.

(Gif from @livingthegifs again)


Gilmore Girls revival thoughts

What I loved:

    This needs to be shouted from the rooftops. I was so hoping this song would be featured in Luke and Lorelai’s wedding and when I heard the first note I started bawling like a baby and finally stopped crying about 3h later. The whole wedding really was perfect. I could hear my heart beating in my years, so happy (and sobbing) I was.

  2. Everything Richard.
    The funeral, the flashbacks, the portraits. It was such a great homage to Ed and to Grandpa Gilmore, I bawled my eyes out through the entire thing and I don’t think there’ll ever come a time when I watch Emily/Rory kiss his portrait and I won’t start crying. I get chocked up just thinking about it. It was beautiful. Just beautiful. So well done.

  3. The Lorelai & Emily’s storyline.
    It was simply perfect. Lauren and Kelly knocked it out of the park. The fight in the kitchen is going down in history. I particularly loved how Emily treats Lorelai before they start fighting in the living room, like she’s 6yo again.
    “Lorelai, not a single word.”
    “Don’t follow.”
    Just so freaking perfect. I loved it and it was so in character for both of them. It was perfect. And don’t get me started on the phone call in Fall because I’m too dehydrated to start crying again.

  4. Lauren breaking character.
    She did it in a number of scenes. Once with Sookie, twice with Rory, once in the scene with Richard’s smaller portrait. If Lauren Graham can’t keep it together how do you expect me to do that? Also, give the woman ALL THE FREAKING EMMYS NOW. It’s long overdue anyway. You owe her, Academys.

  5. Jess’ growth.
    He’s the only character who’s really shown some growth when he appears on screen, everyone else seems to be stuck in their life, like they can’t move forward, but Jess has got his shit together and even stirs Rory in the right direction, I was so proud of him.

  6. Every single Jess/Luke scene.
    Each and everyone of them. Milo and Scott are buddies in real life and you can totally see that on screen, they’re hilarious and a joy to watch.

  7. Paris. In all her glory.
    She’s still our old Paris and I couldn’t be more thankful for that. Liza got back into character so easily and she was absolutely brilliant. I laughed my socks off at her antics. The whole bathroom scene and the stairs conversation. Just hilarious. Loved it. Missed her.

  8. The Life and death brigade.
    Oh my God, that whole sequence was so cinematic, the director of photography and Amy nailed it there. Simply nailed it. I was in awe watching it. Really made me happy to see them all together again. I cried when Rory said goodbye to them. Yes, I cried even then. Leave me alone.

  9. “Still best friends”.
    Of course I cried through the whole thing like the little bitch that I am and I regret nothing. Seeing Lauren and Melissa unable to keep back tears…I was a mess. Beautiful. Well done. Thank you.

  10. Michel out of the closet.
    Need I say more?

  11. Emily and the help.
    I laughed so hard at that. Cannot actually believe Emily kept a maid for a whole entire year and even welcomed her family with open arms in her house. I’m so proud of you, grandma Gilmore.

  12. Cornstarch.
    Again, sobbed. I feel like ASP treated only Dean with some respect in this revival. He’s happy, got his own family and Rory was actually nice to him and the whole “you taught me what feeling safe is like” speech had me sobbing. Only people who had a great first love can relate to this, I guess. I’m glad they gave them that scene. They both deserved it.

  13. Luke and Paul Anka.
    Cried my eyes out. Loved it. Gimme a spin-off.

  14. Kirk’s second movie.
    That’s all.

  15. The swearing!
    Lorelai saying “Holy shit!” and Emily saying “Bullshit!” 3 TIMES IN THE SAME SCENE. Amen.

  16. The music!!!
    Wow. It was everything I could have asked for and more. Sam Phillips, Grant-Lee Phillips, Dolly Parton, Nancy Sinatra, the Carpenters. PERFECTION.

What I didn’t love (Oh boy, sit down and grab a drink):

  1. Rory.
    Just Rory in general. And not because she was 32 and rootless, living a vagabond life. I actually liked that she didn’t have her shit together and didn’t know in which direction to go. In this day and age it is very realistic and I’m glad Rory is not the perfect 16yo we first met in the show. But the the whole Logan affair that ultimately resulted in an illegitimate child was just not for me. I hated it. Not necessarily the pregnancy, just how we got there. Am I supposed to believe Rory Gilmore, my Rory Gilmore, would be fine being the other woman like that? There were never actual signs that she was in love with Logan or Logan with her, it felt more like they were comfortable being with each other and it was simply fun. They didn’t want for their thing to be anything more than it actually was. “What happens in Vegas stays in Vegas”. Logan made it clear he wouldn’t have left his fiancée for her, so she was settling for second best there. And hell no. Just no. It was a disservice to the character of Rory, really.
    And don’t even get me started on how she treated that poor Paul guy. What happened to you Rory?

  2. ASP (almost) total dismissal of S7.
    Hadn’t it been for the mention of Chris and Lorelai’s wedding, none of what happened in it was taken into consideration. None of it. Good or bad. And I get ASP didn’t want to acknowledge it, but it was a year worth of storylines completely ignored and I think it did more damages than good, ultimately.

  3. Logan.
    He’d grown up so much in S7 and now he’s back to the little snobby cheating careless kid we met in S5. He asked Rory to marry him, am I supposed to believe he’s totally cool now with having her as nothing more than his mistress? The guy was in love with the girl, if I were a sophies shipper I’d be livid right now.

  4. Jess’ conclusion or lack thereof.
    If you want me to believe Jess, who’s literally the only character who’s got his shit together in this revival, is still pining for Rory after more than a decade, then I’m gonna need some follow through, some more intel at the very least.
    Otherwise, just keep it to yourself ASP. Please and thank you.

  5. Scott and Lauren’s chemistry.
    That’s the thing that probably hurt the most, aside from Rory.
    WHERE HAS THAT CHEMISTRY GONE? If we don’t count every scene in Fall and a couple more here and there, they’ve completely lost their sparkle and it made my heart ache. Some scenes were unbearable to watch because you could definitely tell something was missing there. Some scenes were great and it felt like no time had passed at all, but some others were painful to watch. Just painful.

  6. The whole Luke and Lorelai pre-fall story line.
    No bueno. So they’ve spent 9 years together with zero progress in their relationship and dealing with the same communication issues they’ve always dealt with? You’re telling me that after a whopping 11 years in total of relationship these two still make the same mistakes over and over? Well, THAT is disappointing.
    Didn’t they learn anything from the past? At all?
    Everything Emily says to Lorelai about Luke was SPOT ON, as much as it pains me to admit it. And you can definitely tell Luke would do anything to make her happy, he even says so himself at the end, but when will Lorelai do something for him?
    The whole baby talk/surrogacy thing drove me up the wall. So he wanted a child, never brought it up, she wanted him to have a child - their child,  never brought it up either. Now they’re 50 and childless. Great. Just fucking great.
    I mean…ASP should have given them that kid. They just should have opened the revival with a 8yo Gilmore-Danes kid running around and if Amy didn’t want them to have one, then fine, I can respect that, just spare me the whole “ooops, too little too late” thing because it broke my heart into a thousand pieces. I’m a nice person, I didn’t deserve that.

  7. The way Rory mourned Richard’s death.
    Did she mourn at all? Okay, except for the scene when she goes into Richard’s office and that one scene when she kisses the portrait, she seemed a bit unfazed by the passing of her beloved grandfather. Rory loved him to pieces and he loved her just as much and, maybe it was Alexis’ fault and not the Amy’s writing, but it just felt like Emily and Lorelai were having so much more of a hard time adjusting to life without Richard than Rory was. Made me really sad.


  9. Christopher’s existence.
    I did appreciate the fact that Amy officially patented him as an asshole though. That was nice. “It was supposed to happen that way,” oh give me a break! You weren’t there to raise Rory because you didn’t want to be there, not because it was supposed to happen. You were a joke of a father by your own choice. Shut up.

  10. April.
    As much as I was dreading seeing her, I knew we had to see her at some point, so I prepared myself. One would have thought the girl would have had more screen time and at least showed up for her father’s wedding. But I laughed my ass off at that scene at the dinner table, so she was good for something at least.

  11. The cameos (especially Peter Krause’s).
    Too many of them, didn’t really need them. Also, the whole Lorelai/ranger talk made me cringe, I get that they’re together in real life, but Lorelai was full on flirting with him and it was so inappropriate and as a java junkie shipper made me vomit a little in my mouth. Could have done without.

  12. Amy Sherman - Palladino’s stubbornness.
    Last but not least, I think what bothered me the most was exactly this. Don’t get me wrong: her show her rules.
    I learned that lesson the hard way in Partings already. If she wants to piss fans off she will and she wont even think about it twice. I respect that kind of integrity and I wouldn’t want her to refrain from exploring this world she created the way she wants to, just because she’s scared of making fans unhappy. You can’t please everybody, some people will always be unsatisfied and that’s okay. That’s life, no harm no foul.
    What I really don’t get is why she had to ignore completely season 7 and also make it feel like no time has passed at all in Stars Hollow. Let’s take Richard’s death aside for a moment, what the hell has happened in those 9 years for our girls? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Many characters are in a stalemate. Lorelai didn’t get married to Luke, didn’t have any more children, didn’t do much at or with the Dragonfly, she’s exactly where we left her. Rory is jobless, homeless, still trying to figure out what to do with her life, 9 years later. Luke is the same old same old, which is in character but also…what the hell? Did time stop there? Hadn’t it been for Ed’s death - may he rest in peace - Amy would have had 0 ideas for a revival. What would have moved the plot ahead? I’m not sure she had this grand vision of how the show was supposed to end, after all.
    Also, I’m glad she stuck to her own ending and to the infamous “last 4 words” - again, I appreciate the artistic integrity - but it was a bit out of place here, in this context at least. So, correct me if I’m wrong, Rory is Lorelai 2.0? I spent 16 years watching this show, only to see the daughter make the same exact mistakes her mother did? And can we call a child “a mistake” even when the mother is a Yale graduate world traveler 32 year old? I don’t think so.
    It didn’t come full circle, not in the way it was intended to when Amy first thought of the last 4 words.
    Also, side note, those 4 words? Predictable as fuck. Just saying.

All in all, I loved going back to Stars Hollow. It was like coming back home after a long time. It comforted me, it made me laugh and it made me cry far too much, but I wouldn’t have had it any other way. Stars Hollow is home and always will be.

Was A Year In The Life perfect? No.
Was it everything I wanted it to be and more? Probably not.

But that is not what this show is about or was ever about.

If there is anything Amy Sherman-Palladino and this show have taught me is that life is not perfect, that I am allowed to make mistakes and screw up from time to time, that things don’t always go the way we planned and that’s okay.

So no the show didn’t live up to my unrealistic expectations, but then again neither does life. We take the good and deal with the bad the best we can.
So I’ll take the good, because there was SO much of it, it really outnumbered the stuff I didn’t love anyway. I enjoyed every single minute of those 6 hours and that’s what matters the most.

I never thought I’d get the chance to go back to Stars Hollow again. Ever. This was a gift, a blessing truly, and I am forever grateful to each and every person that has made this possible.

And now, let the third rewatch begin…

I smell snow… ❄