it was such a pivotal moment in the series

in defense of the death note anime

dated animation? check. rushed second arc? check. glosses over most of L’s moral ambiguity? definitely. the entirety of episode 25? yikes. 

the death note anime is far from perfect (as is its source material), and I agree 1000% with all the criticisms floating around the internet (halle’s interrupted shower, mikami and light in the final episode, the pseudo-biblical footwashing, near’s character assassination, certain changes to dialogue and flow of the story). but, all things considered, i think they did a pretty fantastic job. so here is an appreciation post for the great things about the death note anime:

  • the music. I’ve seen this anime about 50 times and light’s speech in episode 37 always gives me chills, just because of the choral theme in the background. there are so many fantastic musical moments in the series: kyrie and all its variations in the first episode, misa’s waltz, the shinigami realm themes, light’s melancholy leitmotif (i am sorry), the gentle piano moments, L’s badass theme and its variations, low of solipsism for the energetic name-writing. musically, this anime is a masterpiece. 
  • no filler scenes, at all. even the recap episode is sort of…necessary, in a way, just because it comes after such a pivotal moment in the series and it’s nice to just sit back and recall everything that’s happened so far just to regroup.
  • the voice acting. holy mother of god, every single cast member, japanese and english, was absolutely 100% on point. mamoru miyano is a legend. brad swaile killed it (lol). alessandro juliani is L to me. special shoutout to karl willems for arranging the english cast and bringing all these actors together. i usually avoid dubbed anime, but this is my one exception. the sound mixing was fantastic as well.
  • (also: chris britton as soichiro. his delivery on ‘from one murderer to another, i’ll see you in hell’ has never not profoundly terrified me. what an amazing VA.)
  • the color keys, the backgrounds, the ‘sets’, if you will. death note has some really beautiful, detailed sequences of skies and cityscapes.

on a more general note, just the fact that it exists and it got so many people (myself included) interested in this incredible story is a wonderful thing. it’s certainly not perfect, but i know that many, many people found the anime before finding the manga. here we all are today, making edits and writing meta and just having a good time. whatever the medium, i’m glad it exists. 

anonymous asked:

In a parallel universe if you were left in charge to write a SasuSaku movie about how Sasuke and Sakura's travels and how they got together, how would it go? What type of scenes and sequences would you include? How would the movie began? How would it end? What would be the general plot?

Hmm, I suppose I would make the general plot revolve around how Sasuke would be slowly getting over his demons, would be slowly opening up to Sakura more and more about his past with his family, his relationship with brother, his emotions and feelings during the massacre, and how he’d recount to Sakura the relevant events between himself and Team 7 that occurred within the main manga. These conversations would be the crucial parts of the movie, and would take place at regular intervals. For instance, during anytime they’re able to have some time to themselves, whether it be during a break in one of their missions, while travelling to the next location, or at night during one of the inns they stayed at.

I’d have the movie begin from where Sasuke Shinden ended; with Sasuke choosing to return home to Konoha:

From there, I’d direct a quick summary of his time there and when he left again, up to when Sakura decides to catch up to him. This is because it’d be important to provide the context of how they came to be at that point, but I wouldn’t want to dwell on it because in the grand scheme of things, that’s a relatively unimportant matter.

I’d involve some action here and there, like during the scenes when the two of them are helping out the local residents with some thugs or other things of the sort. However, I’d make the movie be very dialogue heavy, kinda like the Monogatari series, because I’d want the focus to remain on the conversations that Sasuke and Sakura have, in order to really emphasise how Sasuke slowly comes to terms with the world, with himself, and with his feelings for Sakura that had been developing for some time.

One pivotal moment I’d include would be when Sasuke tries to explain what happened in the Land of Iron from his perspective. He’d be hesitant in his elaboration, because he didn’t know Sakura would respond to being reminded of those events. However, Sakura would then recall why she couldn’t bring herself to end his life when given the opportunity; she knew that despite how far he’d fallen, he was still in there somewhere - she’d then tell Sasuke that it was what she was trying to get through to him when she confessed her love for him the 2nd time. Sasuke would remain stubborn about whether he could fully be redeemed, as he’d then bring up his immediate response to her 2nd confession. However, it would be at this point where Sakura would reach her wit’s end. She’d tell Sasuke that there isn’t much more she can do for him, if he himself isn’t willing to accept the fact that he’s not the same person he was. She’d then go to bed, and leave him to ponder on her words.

This conversation wouldn’t be mentioned again until towards the end of the movie, where after they had helped a particularly influential family who coincidentally happened to echo Sakura’s earlier words to Sasuke, he’d admit to her that maybe she was right; maybe he would be able to fully make up for his sins against the world and towards his friends, and perhaps even one day become a ninja who was highly respected in the world. Sakura would feel her heart swell at this, that Sasuke was finally coming to terms with who he was and the fact that it wasn’t too late for him, it was never too late for him.

Following this, Sasuke would want to thank Sakura for never giving up on him, never losing faith in him, because as he’d tell her, if it wasn’t for her and Naruto’s continued faith in him, he’d never have been able to find the faith in himself. So he’d thank her, but he’d feel as though that wasn’t enough. Sasuke would notice that just prior to their travels, he had begun to think of Sakura more and he couldn’t explain why; he just wanted to see her and spend more time with her. So after this realisation, he’d try desperately hard to try and convey this to Sakura, and tell her just how much she meant to him. However, Sasuke isn’t the most articulate person when trying to convey his feelings, especially when they were affectionate, so he’d be really struggling. Thus, for a while, all Sasuke would be able to get out is:

However, Sakura knew what Sasuke was trying to say, so her face lights up in anticipation, as she anxiously waited for Sasuke to finish, as so:

Yet, Sasuke just didn’t know how to finish the sentence; he couldn’t find the right words to accurately portray how he felt, whilst simultaneously trying to not seem as though he didn’t expect anything in return. So Sasuke would be visibly disappointed at his inability to finish his sentence. It is then that Sakura would come forward to plant a soft and brief kiss on his lips, because she was appreciative of what he was trying to do. She knew what he was trying to say, so she’d then say “Thank you, you mean a lot to me as well”.

Sasuke would then say “Yeah…”, and in an attempt to prevent an awkward silence, he’d come up with an excuse to briefly leave. But as he went on his way, he’d be displaying a familiar smirk on his face, happy that she understood his intentions, and excited at the prospect of what the future may bring:

I’d have the movie end with a quick scene of the future, where it shows Sasuke and Sakura together on the hospital rooftop, with Sasuke’s photo with the Kages collocated into the picture:

Just in order to signify that the wish that Sasuke had voiced towards the end of the movie did indeed come true - he become hailed as a village hero, highly revered and respected by everyone, and the master of his best friend’s son, all while having his beloved wife and daughter by his side ^_^


74 years ago today was the start of the largest tank battle in history, and one of the largest military offensives ever conducted. 

This was the start of the Battle of Kursk, or the Battle of the Kursk Salient.  Germany committed over 1,720,000 men, 5000 tanks and assault guns and the USSR threw over 4 million men and 12,000 tanks into what is probably the greatest offensive battle in history. 

This was also the final turning point in WWII, where at long last the Russians seized the initiative and set Germany on an near endless series of fighting retreats back to the heart of the Fatherland.

At the end of the battle,  casualties stood at around 2 million in total, with both sides added in. 

Over the next few days, I’ll be doing some Kursk related posts when I have the time. 

Re: The Future of Poppy

Copy-pasted from the site blog:

The next update will be up on Friday, I’m taking my time finishing it up after being burnt out by a long flight and a lot of consideration regarding future life choices.

A very real issue that must be confronted is my declining motivation regarding working on Poppy as a comic and, in general, doing art as a career. Drawing comics was, frankly, never really my passion. I had never once, before Poppy, drawn more than a page or two of a comic for myself before giving up out of disinterest. I do enjoy storytelling. I enjoy writing. But I don’t actually care for art all that much outside of the character designing process. Over the past few years, Poppy has gone from a fun project I started to push myself to improve, to an obligation that I sort of resent but keep doing because it covers my bills. You know. A job. Except jobs don’t usually entail people on the internet sending you death threats or making up rumors about you because your work ethic’s bad or they don’t like which one of your characters is kissing another. The last time I felt really passionate about working on Poppy was when I was writing the Snow Thanks story last December, because I didn’t have to draw most of it. I’d like to do more of that.

What I’m getting at is that I’m going to continue doing Poppy as a comic for now. I’m most certainly going to see this story to the end, if only for myself. But don’t be too surprised if at some point, I switch to an illustrated writing format, releasing short chapters at a time with art to introduce characters and show pivotal moments. And yeah, I know that’s going to kill a lot of people’s interest in the series. I’ve considered the possibility in the past, and each time, people have essentially told me to “shut up and just keep doing the comic”. But Poppy is time-consuming, and I have other things I want to do. Other stories I want to tell. Other careers I want to go into schooling for. So, I’m gonna finish up this chapter, and then decide where I want to go from there.

There’s two more chapters in Part 1 of Poppy after this one. Long ones. At the current rate, it’ll be 2019 by the time I finish it, and then we’re still only 25% through the story. Writing with illustrations, though, I could wrap this part up by the end of the year. Just something to consider.

handfast (beyond the horizon)

So I was recently asked about writing the “first time” scene from Beyond the Horizon from Emma’s perspective to show what was going through her mind during that pivotal moment in their relationship. So some pirate/princess sexytimes for you all tonight. The title refers to the practice of handfasting - a marriage or betrothal when two people join hands and make a commitment to each other.

On as part of my Interlude as Sea series here

Emma pressed the rough linen towel hard to her eyes, willing herself not to cry. It was late, hours had passed since the news had come from the red-haired captain of the other ship.

Kingdom overthrown…the king and queen vanished….Regina

She would not cry.

If she started…she would never stop.

There was a shuffle of movement behind her, the cold planks creaking and flexing under the heavy weight of his boots.


Her shoulders dropped and her lip quivered behind the towel, the hot tears still threatening to fall. She wasn’t a princess, not anymore. Another woman now sat on her mother’s throne, a woman with raven hair and crimson lips just like Snow White’s but with a heart as dark and cold as the ocean and who would set fire to the seas themselves to reach the little ship, slaughtering everyone on board without mercy to reach her. The thought sent a shiver down her spine that was colder than the chill of the night air in the captain’s quarters, a gust of wind had followed Killian in when he opened the hatch and climbed down the ladder from the deck above. It had stirred the hem of her nightdress around her unstockinged calves and the lights had flickered but not gone out, throwing bouncing shadows against the walls. His tall figure was among them, looming much larger than life as he reached up to steady the swaying lanterns with sure hands.

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Sidhe (V)

Author: kpopfanfictrash

Pairing: You / Jimin / Namjoon

Rating: PG-13

Genre: Fantasy, Fey!AU / Royalty!AU

Word Count: 5,869

Description: In the land of Humankind and the Otherworld, the Fey and Humans live side by side. Cursed are the Fey though, unable to use their own magic without a human wishing it so. You were born and raised to end this curse, to take down the system - so what happens when the Human you’re bound to, ends up becoming so much more?

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Director Miles Joris-Peyrafitte’s debut and award-winning feature As You Are is now available on iTunes. One of the youngest directors to be accepted into feature-length competition at Sundance, Joris-Peyrafitte co-wrote, co-scored, acted, and directed a stellar, young cast featuring Owen Campbell, Charlie Heaton, and Amandla Stenberg.

Set in the early 1990s, As You Are unfolds as a series of disparate memories. Prompted by a police investigation, we witness alternating perspectives of pivotal moments in the relationship between three teenage friends: Jack, Mark, and Sarah. Bound by their aversion to the culture around them, Jack and Mark explore the limits of friendship and love until Mark’s judgmental father tears them apart.

Just as Jack and Sarah are adjusting to life without Mark, he gets unexpectedly thrown back into their lives. The two boys struggle to navigate complex emotions that are compounded by the disapproval they feel from all around. Ultimately, tensions rise to a boiling point, and tragedy echoes through their world.

Film still courtesy of As You Are ; Photo credit: © 2016 Sundance Institute | Photo by Calvin Knight.

Just a quick post before I head off to my night class, but the use of mirroring between Hardy & Miller has been pretty strong this season. Characters who are close (and ESPECIALLY characters who are headed for romance) generally pick up on each other’s mannerisms, behaviour and speech patterns - it’s a common device to show growth. In cases where 2 characters are introduced as hating each other, the reason they hate each other is because that person will contain something within their personalities that the other one needs, and it forces them to confront that need or deficiency. For example - a fussy neat freak is paired with a sloppy daredevil. They hate each other at first, until the neat freak learns they need to loosen up, and the daredevil understands they need to take more responsibility for their actions. Once they have achieved equilibrium within themselves and become better by subsuming some of their partner’s personality, the two may live happily and in harmony. In buddy cop movies, that means partnership. In romcoms, it means marriage. 

For Hardy and Miller, they quite obviously make up for the deficiencies in each other’s personalities. At first, Ellie was too kind and trusting - too naive in many ways. Hardy was too - well, hardened. At the end of S1, Ellie had become more hardened - a better detective. Hardy had softened, opened himself up to emotion and friendship, become more like her. In S2, the habit of copying and mirroring each other became more pronounced. 

In BC3, the process has definitely come to a head. Ellie’s no longer innocent. She’s a fucking great detective and she knows full well what it means to feel loss, pain and betrayal. Hardy’s no longer hung up on the past and unable to see the future. He’s still his thin and grouchy self, but he’s also made a home for his daughter, he’s got a best friend, he has a job he loves, and he wants to start dating too. People - human relationships - he’s getting there. 

But back to mirroring. It’s plain as day that these two are more in sync than ever. They’re genuinely at ease with each other, and they work like a well-oiled machine, like they are - dare I say - two halves of a whole. They started out hating each other. They’ve become more like each other. They love each other. And now they’re mirroring each other in profound ways. There were two pivotal moments amongst a number of smaller examples this season that I wanted to draw attention to. These are:

S03E06 - in a sequence that directly mirrors Hardy’s address to the media as the camera flits to different suspects and people’s reactions in S01E01, Ellie addresses the media and the camera gauges suspects’ and people’s reactions. We all remember how Miller became angry with Hardy when he put her on the spot to give a speech to the station in the first series - just look at how far she’s come. From Hardy throwing her in it and her feeling unprepared to take on what’s usually the DI’s prerogative, now Ellie, the hardened, experienced and brilliant detective, is comfortably addressing the media just as he did. “We will catch whoever did this” ended Hardy’s address and “we will do everything we can to capture the person responsible and bring them to justice” ends Ellie’s. A little older and a little wiser, we might say of that sign off.

S03E07 - nothing could be more iconic than Hardy’s speech to those three teenagers. We’ve all been waiting for Hardy to go Full Dad on them, but while Hardy has been happy to yell and throw threats at people in the past, in this sequence it’s definitely Ellie’s energy he’s channeling. It’s made pretty clear by the way he explicitly follows her advice in tearing up the ticket and Ellie happily speaking to him after, but as for mirroring, “I will cut your tiny little cocks off” sounds a hell of a lot like “I will kick you all in the balls” or Ellie getting protective of Tom and being unwilling to jeopardise him for the case, and finally snapping “move away from me now or I will piss in a cup and throw it at you.” 

In moments when they have to step up - Ellie, when she has to be a hardened detective, and Hardy when he has to navigate human relationships - it is each other’s voice and energy that they draw strength from. The things they once hated so much about each other have now become their own great strengths.

Harley Quinn: INFJ [Official Retype]

Originally posted by justalilbitofsass

I know, this may seem bizarre. Many sites type her as ESFP, so this may seem an odd typing. In DC comics and elsewhere she is represented she is an INFJ, however. As you can see even in the film of Suicide Squad I have her typed as INFJ. Many question the intuitive nature and the introversion. Not to mention she seems more impulsive than not which strikes many as dominant Se and by no means dominant Ni. Believe me, I know how this may look. 

If anyone has followed me for a while they know I hate intuitive bias and am not one to type fan favorite characters as INFP or INFJ just because I have some wierd love for those types. Because if you follow me, you should know I don’t favor a single type over another. Each has equal strengths and weaknesses.

Originally posted by yourreactiongifs

So please, don’t respond with “another case of Intuitive bia” or “another INFJ favoritism.” It quite simply isn’t. 

Originally posted by just-purely-insane

Now that that whole business is out of the way, understand a profile is on the way to really dig deep into this amazingly complex character. My retype takes in the entire history of Harley Quinn and her most pivotal moments in DC history. This may lead some to say, “well, in Suicide Squad though, she is ESFP. Or in the tv series she is not INFJ,” etc. To that I will say false, as her representation in the film of Suicide Squad only confirmed my INFJ suspicions for her character.

Originally posted by redandblack22

Her character is complex because as much as she is Harley Quinn, she is also Harleen Quinzel. Both of these people are her at all times. Her relationship with the Joker is problematic and part of this is why it can be hard to see the INFJ character. Many type the by product of Joker’s abuse/relationship of her. My profile will look deep into her functions of who she is before, during, and after her Joker relationship. It will go beyond the surface and at the end, even if you disagree, I hope the merit of the INFJ typing will be seen. The importance of the functional stack, an actual understanding of Ni-Fe-Ti-Se will be looked at, as well as looking at the character as whole and not just at the surface will help create her INFJ profile.

potatoes-tomatoes  asked:

This is a p long Ed edd n eddy ramble, brace yourself lol: I’ve really tried to like eddy as a character throughout the series. But the more episodes I see the more upset I am at how cruel, uncaring, selfish and greedy eddy is. I’ve noticed he hardly cares about ed or edd unless its extreme (and even then, sometimes he won’t do anything) or he is manipulated into caring via compensation. There are few instances where he gives into legitimate guilt, but they’re rarer than they should be.

Don’t Rain on My Ed really nailed at how terrible eddy really is, especially to Double D. The entire episode builds up tension between edd and eddy, and I was really intrigued to see where it was going. Edd makes it clear more than I’ve seen in the series so far as to how eddy disregards consequences or his friends to impulsively indulge in whatever pleases him at the moment.

  Pt3: This continues as eddy abandons ed and edd to clean up their scam, and once again abandoning edd to the kanker sisters. And (to my frustration which I’ll later explain in more detail) edd aids eddy and still stays by him. 
Then the pivotal moment in the episode-the chicken crossing- highlights where eddy’s priorities stand, and it’s utterly heartbreaking. 

0t4: ’ll give the crew credit, I was honestly unsure as to whether eddy would either rescue edd and risk losing the jaw breakers or leave him. It’s rare for the trope of “will they won’t they x” to actually be convincing, and I believe it tied together the heavier atmosphere of the episode. 

Pt5: Now, It could be argued that eddy at least is concerned for edd’s well being since he takes up a good portion of the final minutes caught between two options, but I think that at this point in the episode, it’s hardly a plausible argument given the evidence for eddy’s behavior. 

6 (I think? I lost count lol) 
So, eddy’s greed wins out, and he makes a break for the jawbreakers (which are rightfully denied to him). 
This episode, I believe, was meant to bring out how eddy is always ready to leave behind his friends or drag them across the mud as he pursues his ambitions, and Im glad that edd more often berates eddy for doing so, but… gah!! I want him to DO something about it rather than just tell him off!

So here’s my question: why the hell does Edd even stay with the eddy? 
Going back to my statement about edd always ready to jump back in and help edd, I really want to know why double d even stays when eddy clearly abandons him. It doesn’t help that the very next episode, eddy straight up says to edd’s concerns, “what’s that?? I think that’s the sound of no one caring!”

Edd is clearly capable of spending his time in a more productive manner and healthier company if he stopped hanging out with eddy. Ed, on the other hand, is a very dear friend to edd, and often stays by edd and shares his sentiment…at least to the best of his abilities given his impaired intellect. Edd is also well aware that the scams eddy likes to pull off are morally wrong, and I become frustrated when double d routinely criticizes eddy’s actions but still goes with him.

. Really, all he does is claim “he’s so stubborn” on jumps in right as the scam backfires to say “I find you so”. n fact, I’ll even go as far as to ask what does Edd even SEE in Eddy? Eddy’s flaws clearly outrank the good, as we see he displays his crueler, greedier nature more often than not. I think also, (besides the love of jawbreakers) they have nothing in common.

Last one!: Polar opposites doesn’t mean a friendship is impossible, but given edd and eddy’s attitudes towards each other most of the time, their clashing personalities strain their relationship rather than compliment each other. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my rant, I know you’re well versed in the show so please correct me if my interpretation is wonky. This has been something I’ve been fighting myself over :p

So this is a pretty common takeaway from the series, and while I rarely feel I’m able to dissuade anyone who feels that way, I’ll give it yet another shot!

Ed, Edd n Eddy has a deceptively consistent continuity. The key timeline it follows is 5 months, beginning when the Eds start being harassed by the Kankers in June and ending with Eddy overpowering the Kankers in October (and then the specials, season 6 and the movie expand the world beyond that timeline, a little less clearly connected to the main series due to the specials being made in a pretty random order). The main story of the series is focused on different types of child abuse, how it creeps up in more ways than kids can notice, the damage it does to developing personalities, and finally the demonization and lack of empathy children receive after the damage has been done.  The Kankers are made the foreground of that abuse, but it is important to take in the background information we get about the Eds’ families and the townspeople, and then to also factor in that each season turns more characters into the Eds’ bullies, until the Eds are completely alone in the world and forced to bicker among themselves.  This eventually leads us to the movie, which doubles down on these themes by literally cutting the Eds off from everyone, taking a long hard look at the ways Eddy fronts to avoid talking about the abuse in his life, and then finally revealing the previously unspoken physical abuse he received from his brother as an infant.

Late season 3-mid season 5 have issues with the show clearly favoring Edd over Eddy. Despite Edd making most of the same mistakes as Eddy in other episodes, the most memorable stories are spent going above and beyond to make Edd’s side perfectly reasonable, while Eddy’s side is insanely unreasonable.  It got frustrating to watch, and the show would also sweep Ed’s bad behavior under the rug in favor of spotlighting Eddy’s, making it hard to understand how Eddy could ever be perceived as moral if even the “nice” characters were low-key jerks. But at the end of season 5, the focus on Eddy’s downhill spiral pays off in two ways: 1. ‘Smile for the Ed’ and other later episodes finally bring it to Ed and Edd’s attention that everyone in the town targets Eddy specifically without provocation, AND 2. ‘A Fistful of Ed’ has Eddy finally reaching the boiling point of his built up rage and he scares away the Kankers, saving his friends. For the episodes leading into the movie, Eddy starts reclaiming his season 1 dignity (back when he was frequently the only Ed shown to have any interest in protecting the other two, and would even be portrayed as the only one with social skills) and Eddy maintains that positive role with his friends as they start turning the tables on their many antagonists, until the movie deems it necessary to show how his season 3-5 behavior was the result of denial over his brotherly abuse.  Late season 5-season 6 makes painstaking efforts to show how Eddy was a good kid at the beginning of the show and still wanted to be that good kid at the end of the show, even though their cruel surroundings had driven him to misbehave.

For me, the history of loving support Eddy showed them prior to his depression arc and the guilt they should feel for treating him with less empathy than each other are reasons enough for Ed and Edd to care about seeing Eddy through.  Not to mention Eddy is openly suicidal.  But as for specifically rationalizing why EDD keeps coming back to the Eds prior to getting the apology he deserves in the movie, I think Edd is smart enough to see the recurring themes of abuse.  Deep down, Edd knows there must be something psychological he isn’t seeing about his friends’ lives, something troubling that explains their behavior.  When Bro exposes the truth at the end of the show, I think Edd’s sudden bravery partially stems from finally having closure in knowing why Eddy needs his help.


“… My God, my favorite scene is when they’re on the train. Nothing is happening here; they’re just traveling and looking out the window, but after all the craziness that’s happened, it’s just the one place you want to be. There’s no dialogue here, there’s no talking whatsoever. They’re just looking out the window, and you can feel what they’re going through. This is the power of a visual medium: not everything has to be spelled out. A scene can just play and you can take whatever you want from it, because you know there’s such talented people behind it.”

-Nostalgia Critic’s Review of Spirited Away

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Feigning The Connection

Prompt: You seem so invincible. But just touch you and you’ll wince. You have secrets and trust no one. You’re the perfect example of betrayal. Because anyone you’ve ever trusted broke you. Thrust into a new world, will you be able to stay alone, or will Bellamy work his way in?



A/N: So here we are! The season finale of season three, and I just wanna say I absolutely loved writing this season. It was so much fun and I can’t thank you all enough for the amazing support you’ve all given me, every chapter! It warms my heart and i’m so glad you all requested to start this series because I feel it’s really helped me branch out, my tumblr blog to get out there more and for my writing to grow :) I can’t wait to get started on season four!

THIS IS IMPORTANT FOR STORYLINE: There is a lot of italics used in this story so I want to explain. When reader is being forced to take the chip, italics means ALIE is speaking but of course reader doesn’t hear or see ALIE, so I put it in italics.

When the battle thing is going on and reader is choking Bellamy all the little stories italics are flashbacks to previous chapters. Except this time they are in Bellamy’s POV which you never read, you only read those exact same scenes in *your* POV. So I wanted it to be like Bellamy is reminiscing on his past with reader so he is thinking back on pivotal moments of their relationship.

Thank you!

I hope you all enjoy this chapter as much as I enjoyed writing it. Send me a little comment in the ask section or leave it below on what you thought of this chapter. It doesn’t have to be long, I appreciate every single comment I receive and telling me just helps inspire me to write it more frequently.

AGAIN, remember if you’d like me to continue this series, just leave a little comment or an ask letting me know. I will NOT continue the series if no one wants me to.

Pairing: Bellamy x Reader

Based off of: The 100 03x15 and 03X16

Warnings: torturing, force and spoilers.

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“Rover’s almost charged. We need to pack up. We’ll be home soon.”

“Then what, run away?” Clarke asked, finally stopping her pacing. Sighing, you placed your hand against the front of the rover, looking over at Clarke. Bellamy came around the side, shaking his head at Clarke. “We’re not running away, Clarke. We need to regroup with the others, find another way to defeat–”

“There is no other way,” Clarke interrupted, raising her voice. “We need to find a night-blood. We need to unlock the flame. It’s the only way to stop ALIE.” Taking a deep breath, you jumped off the front of the rover, knowing Clarke wasn’t going to quit anytime soon. You understood her point of view, but at this moment in time you had no night-blood, you had no other solution, you had nothing.

“What do you expect us to do, Clarke?” Jasper asked incredulously. “Walk into random villages asking for their night-bloods?”

“If that’s what it takes.”

Shaking your head, you turned to Clarke. “No, Clarke. We have no night-blood. We have no other solution other than what Bellamy suggested.” You pressed, snarling your lip in confusion. “That’s not how it works.”

“If ALIE can find us on Luna’s rig, then she can find us anywhere.” Octavia added, “I won’t help you destroy another innocent grounder village.” 

Clarke took a step forward; “if we don’t find another night-blood, there won’t be any grounder villages. Or a home for us to go back to.” Taking a deep breath, you took a step backwards in frustration.

“That’s all the more reason we need to go there and make sure our friends are okay.” Bellamy snapped. When she looked back at you, you only shook your head, making it clear you didn’t agree with her. She did the same with the rest, receiving the same answer. Taking a breath, she put on a facade of calm, nodding before walking past you four.

“She’ll be fine. Just let her cool off.”

Jumping out the back of the rover, you sighed, happy to be back in Arkadia and to see your friends were okay. Stepping out before Clarke, you walked around the rover, finding Raven limping over to you all. “We were getting worried.” She smiled, but as the rest filed out of the rover, her smile fell. “Where’s Luna?”

“Luna said no,” Octavia explained. Taking a deep breath, you offered Raven a shrug when she looked over at you. 

“Who the hell is this?” Harper asked and you turned to find Roan, the man Clarke and Bellamy had captured walking up behind you. His presence had been unexpected, but you hadn’t said anything as it seemed Clarke had a plan in mind. She also seemed to know him a bit more than any of you did, and despite everything, you did trust her judgement.

“He’s Ice Nation,” Bryan spat.

“King of Ice Nation actually,” Clarke corrected. “And he’s our way into Polis.”

“Let’s go, your highness.” Bellamy instructed, pushing Roan forward slightly. Turning to Bryan and Miller, he ordered them to come along before turning to you. “Y/N, you coming?”

“Yup,” you smiled. You offered Raven a small smile on your way across and she let her hand fall on your shoulder shortly before you continued walking. 

“We’ll take him to lock-up.”

Walking up behind Clarke and Bellamy, you stopped near the door. You didn’t really have much to say to the King of Ice Nation but you weren’t willing to leave him alone, even if Clarke was there, with Bellamy, especially since he was the one who shot him. You also would like to know exactly what the plan was that Clarke had. Kane was in Polis, and you didn’t know if he was okay or not. You needed to find out.

“Sorry about your arm,” Bellamy offered when Clarke and Roan looked at him expectantly. You let a smile slip, shaking your head. 

“Makes us even.” Roan nonchalantly shrugged.

“Like it or not, we need each other,” Clarke informed Roan.

“Cut to the chase, Clarke. You said we both wanted the same thing,” Roan sighed, shifting in impatience. “I want an Ice Nation Commander.”

“And i can give you one.” It made sense. You had no other option for the new Commander and Clarke could use Roan’s help to destroy the chip and ALIE while he got what he wanted. “With this.” Clarke gestured to the chip she’d been carrying this entire time.

“And why would you do that when you know she’s vowed to wipe you out?” Roan asked suspiciously.

“We don’t have a choice,” Clarke cut it short. “This isn’t just our war. The enemy we’re up against is after everyone, including the Ice Nation. The only way to stop her is to get the information off the flame, and the only way to do that is to put it in Ontari’s head.”

“The Ice Nation isn’t afraid,” Roan dismissed.

“You should be,” you cut in, standing up from the wall as Roan’s attention briefly fell on you. “This thing doesn’t care what clan you’re from. It controls people, and it will take over Ice Nation just like it took us over. One person at a time until there is no one left.”

Roan’s eyes narrowed, his eyes falling across the room before they fell back on Clarke.

“It already has Ontari.” Clarke added.

“I’m listening.” Taking a deep breath, you positioned yourself back against the wall. There was nothing more you needed to say.

“We need to disconnect her before she get’s the flame, or we’ll be giving ALIE exactly what she wants. To do that, we have to abduct her from the center of a city filled with thousands of people who’s minds are linked. All of them thinking as one. Whatever one sees, they all see. Whatever one hears, they all hear-”

“I get it,” Roan nodded slowly. He stood as Clarke and Bellamy took a tentative step back, looking at them, he asked; “when do we leave?”

“You don’t have to do this.”

You laughed, turning around to face Bellamy. Shaking your head, you raised an eyebrow; “when have I ever backed down from a fight?”

He shook his head, and you saw the worry flood through his eyes. You hadn’t seen that look in a while and part of you remembered that while this all felt very familiar, it also felt very odd. Pushing back your thoughts, you walked up to him, hesitantly grabbing ahold of his hand. “Besides, you said you needed me by your side, remember?”

Bellamy sighed, “I know-”

“My dad’s in Polis, Bellamy. I won’t sit around knowing he’s in danger or something’s already happened.” Bellamy smiled lightly, nodding. You returned the smile, jumping when Octavia walked through.

“What are we waiting for?”

Pulling your hand away from Bellamy’s grasp, you turned to the rest, steeling yourself for whatever was going to come. “Let’s go,” Bellamy ordered.

Walking up to Monty, you gave him a hug, wishing him luck, just as you did with Jasper and the rest. Stopping before Raven, you paused. You needed to just say it, incase you didn’t make it out of this alive. “I am sorry that I wasn’t there-”

“It’s fine, Y/N.” Raven smiled down at you, and you hesitantly smiled back. Leaning up, you gave her a hug. She squeezed you tight and you relished in it, it might be a while before you see her again. “Good luck,” she whispered to your ear and you nodded, stepping back from the embrace.

Stepping into the rover, you shut the door behind you, smiling at your friends as you pulled away.

“Let’s get ready.”

Nodding to Bellamy’s command, prepping your gun before pressing it against the opened window. Taking a deep breath, you steeled yourself. This was it, this was your one chance and everything was riding on it.

“Are we ever going to be done fighting?” You heard Bryan ask to no doubt Miller. Pausing, you leaned back on your feet, curious as to what they had to say.

“Hell yes,” Miller laughed. “We’re gonna build a house on the lake, and you’re gonna plant corn.” Leaning down onto the heels of your feet, your gaze fell on Octavia as her expression fell. You already knew what she was thinking, it wasn’t hard to tell. Your heart dropped when you looked over at Bellamy.

“Raise chickens,” Bryan laughed. 

Biting your lip, you pushed your gun up again, looking through the view-finder.

“Yeah,” Miller breathed. “And grow old.”

There was silence, and you didn’t dare to stare around you to see what Octavia was feeling or if Bellamy was okay. Instead you focused on looking outside for Clarke and Roan. “Eleven’o’clock,” Bellamy announced and looking you saw Clarke and Roan step into view. “Roan will signal when he sees Ontari. We wait until she’s standing in front of them, and then we launch the gas.”

“They’re gonna be holding their breath, so we gotta move fast.” Bryan explained, tossing the gas to Miller. 

“Anyone who gets in our way, we use nonlethal force,” you stated, looking back at everyone. They nodded in response. “These people are not the enemy. They’re being controlled.”

“The only thing we’re here to kill,” Bellamy spoke, following your order. “Is ALIE. Is that clear?”

A chorus of clears followed, and nodding to Bellamy, you turned back to your gun. “Good.”

You watched Roan and Clarke step forward, reaching the door that Ontari would step through. Roan turned to Clarke, nodding at her as she silently agreed to move forward with the plan. Taking a tentative step forward, Roan raised his hand. “I am Roan, King of Azgeda… and i have what the Commander seeks.” He held up the flame.

With wide eyes you watched as all the people that had been previously kneeling, opened their eyes, standing up before Roan and Clarke. A man stepped towards the two. You don’t know what Roan said to make them all responsive, but you guessed it had something to do with the flame.

“I don’t like what i’m sense, so if she wants it, she can come to me.” Roan informed the man. 

“It’s Jaha.” Bellamy announced and you watched Jaha step up to the two, stopping just before them. Your heart tightened, knowing that this wasn’t exactly how the plan was suppose to go. And something within you told you this wasn’t going to end well. 

“What the hell is he doing here?”

“You see Ontari?” Miller asked.

“No,” you shook your head.

“Hold,” Bellamy ordered Miller and Bryan.

“Hello Clarke,” Jaha greeted, though you couldn’t hear. “Your mother will be so pleased to see you.”

“Who are you?” Roan asked, “where’s Ontari?”

“Not coming out,” your breath quickened. Something wasn’t right. “But you can give the flame to me. I’ll be sure she gets it.” Roan’s hands tightened around the flame and Clarke’s somewhat panicked expression fell over to where you all were.

“Something’s wrong,” Bellamy explained. 

“Your friends in the tunnel can’t help you,” Jaha informed Clarke. Though you couldn’t hear what he was saying, you saw Clarke’s attention snap back over to Jaha and her eyes widen. “Now give me the flame.” The group stepped closer to Roan and Clarke, threateningly.

You winced when Roan suddenly pulled out a knife and pressed Clarke against his chest, the knife now against her throat. “Back up, or she dies.”

You looked away from your gun, turning to Bellamy with wide eyes. Turning to Miller and Bryan, he nodded. “Do it. Do it now.” He rushed. Miller and Bryan went to follow orders before grounders stepped up behind them, pushing them to the ground.

“On your knees, now!” A hand grabbed your shoulder, the other wrapping around your neck as your gun was ripped from your hands. Your were suddenly shoved forward, your chest smacked against the wall as your eyes were able to peer out the window. The grounders behind you kept you pressed against the wall and you could feel a gun press against your back in warning. “You two, against the wall.” Soon enough, both the Blake siblings fell beside you, their bodies pressed against the wall.

With panicked eyes, you looked over at Bellamy. Groaning in pain when you were shoved harder. Something had gone wrong. How had they known about your plan?

“Take this one.” Your heart beat quickened when you realized they were talking about you. You let out a groan, kicking at the man behind you. You weren’t going to let them just take you, especially since you weren’t even sure why they wanted you. Though your struggles were useless as more came through the door, grabbing your arms aggressively. 

“Hey,” you heard Bellamy yell. “Get off of her!”

“Y/N!” MIller called.


With wide, panicked eyes you felt the men and women wrap their arms around your body, pulling you against them as they began dragging you out of the room. Your attention turned to the rest, trying to get back to your friends. You didn’t understand why they were taking just you. You offered nothing and it wasn’t like you knew how to set up the flame. You struggled, kicking your feet out desperately but one of the grounders just back-handed you across the face.

“Bellamy!” You bellowed, trying to reach him. “Let me go, no!”

“Y/N!” Bellamy bellowed and looking back at him through wet eyes, you tried to calm down. But your heart beat was rapidly beating and no matter how hard you struggled, nothing worked. “Where are you taking me?” You asked, but the grounders holding you only ignored you.

You watched Bellamy try to break the grip of the man holding him, only to be shoved harder against the wall. His head smacked against the concrete, and you thought he would’ve stopped. But instead he continued struggling, his eyes falling on you the best they could as you felt fear run through you.

“Let her go! Y/N!”

The last thing you heard before being dragged out of the room was your friends grunting in indignation and Bellamy calling your name.

“You guys missed the part where it’s time to go?”

Looking up from his sister to Murphy, Bellamy shook his head. “We’re not leaving.”

Murphy laughed, shaking his head. “We just saved your lives, why do I think i’m gonna regret that?” 

Taking a step forward, Bellamy walked towards Murphy, worry etching his features. “Clarke’s in trouble-”

“Clarke’s always in trouble.” Murphy interjected.

“Y/N,” Bellamy mumbled, finally catching Murphy’s attention. Pausing Murphy’s smile fell, he hadn’t heard your name or seen you in a long time, just as he hadn’t seen Bellamy. The last time he saw you was before he’d gone off to the City of Light. “Y/N’s in danger. They took her, I don’t know where.”

Miller stepped up, followed by Bryan. “I’m not leaving Y/N behind.”

“None of us are.” Bellamy shook his head, turning back to Murphy. “They took Clarke and the flame to the tower. It’s a safe bet Ontari’s there too. Everything we need to stop ALIE is in the same place. I’m betting Y/N will be there too.” Bellamy swallowed the lump in his throat, all he could in-vision was your fearful face and hear you plea and call his name. He needed to find you.

“If we go up that tower, we won’t be able to fight our way out again.” Octavia warned. 

“If we stop ALIE, we won’t have to.”

Turning to around to Pike, Murphy stared at him questioningly. Sighing, Pike handed Bellamy a hand gun who accepted it without hesitation. Murphy turned back to Bellamy, an unimpressed look on his face. “Up the tower, great.”

“I won’t take the chip.” 

“You will,” Jaha dismissed. You tried to ignore the way your heart beat rapidly increased, tried to ignore the vulnerability you felt with having your wrists restrained. After they dragged you through a few hallways, they’d brought you into a room, tied your wrists up so they were hanging from the ceiling. Your feet were barely able to touch the ground, an increasingly vulnerable position for victims. You could only imagine what was about to happen to you, and none of it you liked.

The minute they’d finished tying your restraints, Jaha had walked in. He’d said nothing but stared at you for a few minutes, watching as you desperately tried to break the ties that kept your wrists up. Nothing worked. No matter how hard you tried. 

Your thoughts flew back to Bellamy and the rest. Were they okay? Had they managed to escape? Was Clarke okay? Your dad? You knew that you’d either die here or take the chip, and you were willing to die yourself if it meant that no one else would suffer and you wouldn’t betray your own people. But something told you that things would go differently. They had something up their sleeve, if Jaha’s confident expression was anything to go by.

“You’ve suffered through a lot, haven’t you, Y/N?”

Biting your lip, you refused to respond to Jaha, knowing he was only trying to trick you. “You’ve also managed to be the cause of a lot of peoples sufferings too.” Clenching your teeth, you glared at Jaha. You’ve never felt such hatred towards him before this point, but you had to remind yourself that he was chipped and clearly wasn’t thinking straight.

“Why not take the chip? Erase the thoughts that plague your mind constantly.” Jaha offered, taking steps towards you. He brought one of his many chips up your eyesight, taunting you with it. Snarling, you shook your head.

“Where’s Clarke?”

“She’s safe,” Jaha shortly answered. 

“She won’t take the chip willingly.”

Suddenly Jaha’s expression changed, and he turned away from you, instead to the doors. “Come in.” Confused, you turned your gaze over to the door, scared to see who would walk through. Your heart leapt through your throat as your father walked through. You wanted to smile at the sight of him, you almost did, but by the way he walked you knew something was wrong. “Dad…?” You called hesitantly.

Kane continued to step through, stopping so he was beside Jaha. He stiffly turned towards you, his expression blank. You felt your heart drop and tears well within your eyes. You knew that expression. He was chipped. 

“Hello, Y/N.” Your father greeted, but there was something different. You said nothing in response, your breath frantic. Turning to Jaha, he nodded and Kane followed whatever order he’d been given, walking toward you. He stopped just in front of you and you swallowed the lump in your throat, your determination falling as your eyes welled up. “Take the chip.” 

“Please,” you whispered, moving your head away from the chip he’d brought to your lips. “Dad, please. This isn’t you.” Kane said nothing, only shoved the chip closer to your lips. Your aggressively moved your head away, taking the chance to bring your knee forward, hitting your father in the stomach. You winced, hating to hurt him, but you had no other choice.

He stumbled back, grunting as he nearly fell but Jaha helped him up.

“I won’t take your damn chip,” you spat.

“We don’t have time for this.”

Getting up, Kane straightened his back. Your eyes widened as his hand moved towards the gun that hung by his hip. 

“Got to plan B.”

“Dad,” you mumbled. “Dad, don’t do this please.” You heard how ALIE got Abby to take the chip, and what they did to Raven. You felt your breath stuck in your throat as Kane pulled out his gun. You weren’t worried about him pointing it at you, ALIE knew what would crack you.

Breathing heavily, you pulled on your wrists, trying to break free. “Dad, listen to me. This isn’t you, this isn’t you.”

“Press it against your throat.”

Your eyes crinkled in fear as your father pressed the gun against his own throat, and his finger fell on the trigger. Your struggles increased, your wrists burning in pain as you pulled harshly on them. “Please,” you bellowed, tears falling. “Please!” Turning to Jaha, you saw him just as stoic before. Shaking your head desperately, you pleaded with him; “don’t make him do this! Don’t-”

“No one but you is making me doing this, Y/N.” Kane interrupted. Tearful eyes fell on your father, as he pressed the the gun harder against his throat. Your head fumbled with coherent thoughts, desperate to stop your father from killing himself. You couldn’t lose him. Not him. Not your father too. “Take the chip, and all of this will end.”

Shaking your head head, you tried to think of a solution. Nothing came to mind, and you knew that if you didn’t do what ALIE wanted, that your father would shoot a bullet through the back of his skull. Part of you remembered why you hadn’t taken the chip when first offered, and that had been before you’d known what it could do. This was now. With every single piece of knowledge of what it’d do to you. Make you fight against your own people, betray your own people.

You couldn’t. You couldn’t take the chip. You’d just gotten them back. You’d just gotten Bellamy back. But you’d just gotten your dad back too… Tears fell down our cheeks with no care who was watching, your panic stricken eyes fell on Kane. “Please don’t kill him! ALIE, don’t kill him!”

“She’ll crack.”

“ALIE’s not killing me.” Kane replied calmly. “You are.” Everything froze as his words sunk in. Your eyes focused on the way his finger begun to press down on the trigger. You couldn’t- you can’t loose him too.

“Stop!” Kane froze, his finger coming off the trigger. “I’ll take the chip! Just don’t- i’ll do it!” Your head fell in shame, “i’ll take the chip…”


“You didn’t see Y/N anywhere?” 

Taking a deep breath, Clarke shook her head apologetically. Bellamy swallowed the lump in his throat, the possibility of what could’ve happened to you flooding through his mind. Part of him knew, it wasn’t hard to figure out. Especially since they had Kane chipped, and if they did anything like they tried to do with Abby and Clarke… “Bellamy,” Clarke offered. “We’ll get her back.”

He nodded, dismissing her pity. 

“We’re all set,” Abby informed. Nodding at her, Bellamy took the steps up so he was standing next to Clarke. “Okay, you ready?”

Nodding hesitantly, Clarke shifted to prepare herself. Turning the valve, Clarke let her head fall against the back of the chair. Bellamy’s eyes watched as Clarke’s blood travelled up the tube, going into Ontari before her own blackened blood began travelling. With watchful eyes, Bellamy watched Ontari’s blood flow into Clarke’s. 

“Try doing that hanging upside down,” Bellamy teased. 

Clarke smiled reluctantly, nodding to herself more than for anyone else. “This will work.”

“And if it doesn’t?” Abby asked. 

“If it doesn’t work, she dies. If she doesn’t try, then she dies with the rest of us.-” Murphy bluntly explained, walking towards Bellamy and Clarke. Murphy stepped up grabbing the flame as Abby, in a panic tried to stop him. “-When the climbers get here. If we’re going to do this, I need the flame.”

“Mom, please.” Clarke pleaded. “He knows what he’s doing. You have to let me go.”

Letting go of his arm, Abby backed off. Grabbing the flame, Murphy turned to Clarke. Walking around Bellamy, he stopped beside Clarke; “lean forward.” He ordered and taking a deep shaky breath, Clarke complied. “You ready?”

“Yeah, do it.”

“Ascende Superious.” Murphy whispered, and the flame reacted. Slowly but surely, he brought it closer to Clarke’s neck before it attached itself, digging it’s way into her skin. Jumping, Clarke snapped her head up, letting out screams of pain and grunts. Suddenly her screams stopped and her eyes fell shut, the back of her head hitting the chair behind her. 

“No, no, no.” Abby rushed, moving her fingers to feel for a pulse. 

“Is she okay?”

“Her hearts racing,” Abby informed. “Get that thing out of her head-” Murphy stayed put, “I said, get that thing out of her head!” Sighing reluctantly, Murphy moved to comply with Abby’s orders before Clarke’s head moved up, and her eyes opened. “No. I’m fine. Not yet.” 

Abby moved forward, grabbing Clarke by her cheeks. “Are you in any pain?” 

“No. I’m okay. I know how to stop ALIE… I have to take the chip.”


“I have to go into the City of Light,” Clarke explained. “And find the kill switch.”

Murphy pursed his lips together, nodding. “Yes. That sounds like a great idea.” He mumbled, walking off.

“Clarke,” Abby called, leaning down to Clarke’s eyesight. “Listen to me. ALIE wants the flame. If you take the chip, you’re giving it to her. The second someone sees you, ALIE is gonna know that you’re there. She’ll kill you. If you’re mind dies, you die.”

Narrowing her eyes, Clarke looked back at her mom with determination. “The flame will protect me.” She nodded, “I don’t know how I know… I just- know.” Bellamy took off down the steps, walking towards one of the chips. Picking it up, he examined it before turning back to Clarke. 

“I believe you.” He declared.

Abby still seemed concerned as she dismissed Bellamy’s sentence, turning back to her daughter. “Do you even know what you’re looking for?” Abby objected.

“I’ll know when I find it.”


“Bellamy come on!” Shaking his head, Bellamy continued making his way out of the room. Once he reached past the door, he let go of Pike who limped over to get something to hold onto. Turning towards the door, Bellamy caught sight of you. You smiled at the sight of him, cracking your neck as you climbed over the ledge.

Bellamy shut the door, ignoring the sinking feeling in his stomach. You’d been chipped.

“I told you, you need to get yourself under control if we’re gonna survive this.” Pike told Octavia, helping Bellamy drop the piece of furniture in front of the door as a barrier. Bellamy leaned down, with the help of the other two and lifted another piece of furniture up on top of the other. Grunting as they did so. Panting, they all leaned against their barrier.

Bellamy noticed Octavia’s frustration, and turning to her with wide eyes he called out; “O, O, listen to me. I know how you feel. I let my need for revenge put me on the wrong side. I don’t want that for you.” Bellamy advised, confiding in his sister which he hadn’t been able to do in forever.

Suddenly the door that they were holding pushed forward, meaning that the chipped army were pushing back. Grunting, Bellamy repositioned himself so he was in a stronger position. 

“You keep it closed,” Octavia ordered Bellamy. “I’ll get more for the barricade.”

Shifting closer to the middle of the barrier, Bellamy let his head fall against the the wood behind him. His suspicion was right. They had forced you to take the chip, and he couldn’t even began to think how. It was his fault. If he hadn’t allowed you to come or tried harder… If Clarke’s plan didn’t work… he would die here today, and it could be by your hand.

“You called Y/N’s name.” Pike suddenly spoke, catching Bellamy’s attention. 

Bellamy grunted, trying to think of what to say. “Yeah- Yeah, she took the chip.”

Pike nodded, leaning down to tie something over his wounded thigh. “Wasn’t the wrong side,” he grunted, pushing back on the barricade. “If the grounder army was still there when Lexa died, they would’ve attacked and you know it.”

“I wanted to see things like you,” Bellamy confessed. “I needed that, to believe that they were bad and we were good… I don’t know what I believe anymore. I just know I have to live with what i’ve done.”

Bellamy felt his heart stop. He knew it was inevitable. You would walk through that door just like the rest, just like Kane and every other person who’d been chipped. Part of him just wished, willed that it wouldn’t happen. But no, in the midst of a full out war in the throne room, you stepped through the door, a smile on your face.

Bellamy felt time slow down. And he watched you, every movement you made, as your eyes turned to him and an even sicker smile grew on your face. It felt like his heart was plummeting down. The inevitable was coming and he watched you take a step towards his direction.

Grunting, Bellamy bent over as a grounder punched him in the stomach. Straightening back up, he punched the grounder in the face, making him stumble back. But nothing happened, because they felt no pain and the grounder who attacked him came back full force. Out of the corner of his eye, Bellamy watched you step closer, your hands held out at your side in preparation. Kicking at the grounder before him, he turned to you, shaking his head. “Y/N,” he called. You didn’t respond. “This isn’t you, I don’t- can’t.”

You only smiled, reaching your fist back to punch him. Bellamy did his best to dodge it, grabbing your wrist. You broke off his grip, the grounder from before coming back and smacking Bellamy in the side. Grunting in pain, Bellamy stumbled back, weakly looking back up. You only continued to step towards him, your foot coming out the kick him. Taking this chance, he grabbed your ankle, pulling you forward to shove you back.

The grounder came around, punching at Bellamy ruthlessly as he did his best to retaliate. It was impossible. It was two against one, and Bellamy couldn’t even hit one of them. Because every time he reached out to hit you, he imagined your face, smiling at him. He remembered every memory the two of you shared and what you’d been through together. Even when your fist came and hit him in the face again, and your other hand punched him in the gut, he wouldn’t hit you.

Wiping at his bloodied face, Bellamy staggered. “Y/N-” You only punched him across the face again, blood flying from his nose and his head snapped in the other direction. You didn’t stop and continued to hit him, riddling him with punches. Taking your chance you shot your foot out, kicking at his feet. Bellamy grunted as the back of his head smacked against the ground, his vision blurring. Before he had anytime to think, you straddled his waist, your hands coming out to wrap themselves around his throat.

There was no way to describe it, the expression you gave Bellamy. It wasn’t you. Bellamy kept thinking. This wasn’t you. Because if this was, you would be helping him fight off the many grounders and such, not fighting him.

Gagging, Bellamy desperately tried to breathe. His hands coming out around your body to pathetically try to shove him off of you, of course it didn’t work. He desperately tried to help himself without actually hurting you. Because he couldn’t hurt you. Not you

You smiled. Twisted and sickly. Bellamy stared up into your E/C eyes, your hair falling around your face as your hands tightened their grip around his throat.

It was then that Bellamy realized, maybe you weren’t so bad.

“Didn’t even know you could smile and mean it.” 

“It’s only for reserved people.” Bellamy smirked, finding your reaction more than amusing. You gasped, helping him set down the log and hold a hand against your mouth, feigning a gasp. “I’m hurt.” You acted offended, laughing with him when he rolled his eyes. Bellamy felt at ease, relieved that he actually managed to have a decent conversation with you. And you were funner than he’d originally thought. Even in the midst of everything, Bellamy felt himself genuinely relax.

“Well, maybe one day you’ll be on that list sweetheart.” He teased, before turning. He knew that you’d say more, expected and only found himself correct when you uttered: “what does one girl need to do to get on Bellamy Blake’s list?” Your laugh was something he’d never quite heard. Turning around just so he could see your face again, he smirked.

“Continue, and you just may see.”

Bellamy had never seen you so vulnerable.

“Y/N look at me.”

With worry, Bellamy watched your defeated eyes meet his. “I don’t know what happened between you and your mom, but one thing I know for sure is, you’re not a murderer.” There was something in your gaze, something he’d never seen in anyone else. You almost seemed distressed but calm at the same time. Bellamy could see deep down in your eyes that you weren’t all you seemed to be. And he felt hope flutter through him at the thought that maybe you two weren’t so different. “I trust you, Y/N.”

He wasn’t sure how you’d react, but the three words he’d been dying to hear you say, instantly made him feel better; “I trust you.”

Bellamy knew his life was filled with guilt, but he never knew that you being upset with him would make him so visibly shaken.

“What the hell is your problem!” It broke his heart to hear you, hear you sound so angry at him. “I trusted you for God-sakes! Did you know?” Part Bellamy remembered that every action, every word you said could be heard by everyone around. But it was clear to him you didn’t care.“Did you know that taking that radio would kill all those people?”

Angry and insulted, Bellamy grabbed ahold your shoulders, violently shaking you. “No! How the hell was I suppose to know? Y/N, I didn’t force you, you did it on your own. Stop blaming me!” He screamed at your face, but in his mind he hated himself. Hated himself for yelling at you for his mistakes. Bellamy had done this, he was the one lashing out and you were frustrated beyond belief. Bellamy hated himself because you were the one person who could change him and he was shoving you away.

“I’m not blaming you.” You whispered, “but this? Bellamy you can’t just kill and destroy anything that becomes a threat to you! Listen, I don’t want the Ark down here and I definitely don’t want the grounders to murder us, but this is not the way!” 

Bellamy’s face fell, looking away from your gaze. “I have too…”

Bellamy’s eyes fell on the gun in your hand as you tried not to shake. 

“You don’t have to do this.” He clarified.

“I’m not gonna leave our friends, you, to die.” You stressed, and Bellamy watched with pride as determination flooded your gaze. You were more than met the eye. “I’ve got this. I’ll-I’ll be fine.”

When he saw you, his heart froze.

“Y/N!” Bellamy yelled over the screams, “go!” His hand shot out behind him, to the drop-ship, desperate for you to listen.

“I’m not leaving you!” Your words sunk in, realization flooding him that you both may die today. “Please, just go! I can’t loose you too.” Bellamy, grabbing ahold of the ground and trying to hold him back. Give you a chance to leave.

“I’m not leaving you.” 

Bellamy had been so worried.


Bellamy felt you press yourself against him, your warm embrace surrounding him. “I am just glad you’re alive.” You whispered so low that only Bellamy could hear. “I didn’t se-see- I thought you were dead.”

Deciding to lighten the mood, Bellamy grinned. “You know i’m not that easy to get rid of, Y/N.” He found himself mesmerized by such a simple act, you brushing your hair behind your ear.

“Yeah, I guess I do.”

Bellamy hadn’t seen you so broken since that night at the depot.

“I-I tried…” You whimpered, it breaking Bellamy’s hear..

He nodded, “I know.” Bellamy wasted no time in wrapping his arms around you, holding you in your time of need. He only squeezed tighter when you sobbed.

Bellamy should’ve known, you always were too stubborn.

“To me it isn’t worth the risk.” 

“Y/N-” Bellamy started once again but you held your hands up, effectively stopping him.. “I’m not gonna stop you, you wouldn’t even listen to me. But I told you, if you’re going in there so am I.” You said, raising your head and Bellamy noticed how you tried to hide the pain you felt. This wasn’t right. It was already risky with him just going in, and it didn’t settle right within him if you went.

“Y/N, it’s too dangerous. It’ll be quicker if I go by myself.”

“True, you might move quicker, but who’s gonna watch your back when you get in trouble?” You asked, smirking up at him. “I’m going with you, and that’s final.”

Something told him he’d regret this later. “Fine.”

It had taken every bit of Bellamy’s will-power to not have gone after you sooner. 

“I’m sorry it took so long.”

“Thank you.” You whispered. Relief flooded through Bellamy. He had you. He had you in his arms and you were safe. Looking down, Bellamy noticed how your eyes fell shut and you fell into a slumber. You were safe. Bellamy felt like he could breathe again.

“I got you.” He whispered, pressing a kiss against the top of your head.

Bellamy never knew he needed to hear something so bad until he heard you finally forgive him.

“I was so angry at you,” you whimpered, sniffling. Bellamy’s felt his entire being flood with guilt, watching through wet eyes as you struggled with your own emotions. “Everything you’d done, everything you said.” What you said did nothing to calm his nerves, but he knew you needed him to hear it. And for you, he stayed and listened.

“I-I don’t want to feel that way anymore.”

Bellamy took a deep breath, wiping at his tears. “I need you, Y/N. I need you by my side.”

“This isn’t you…” Bellamy gasped.

Suddenly, something within you snapped. Everything came flooding through you and it was like you could see through your own eyes again. What you saw was not what you expected. Letting go of Bellamy’s neck, you stumbled back, eyes wide. Bellamy took a deep breath in, slowly sitting up as you stared at him. 

Holding your hands out before you, you watched as they shook violently. You- You’d just been choking Bellamy? You couldn’t- you would never. And then it all came flooding back. The chip. ALIE.

“Bellamy…?” You mumbled out, your voice barely above a whisper. His eyes widened, worry flooding through them as tears welled in your eyes. What had you done? What… how? Falling back, you moved to crawl away, too ashamed to even be near Bellamy. You’d tried to kill him. You-

“Hey, hey, hey.” You heard him call, grabbing ahold of you before you could get away. Shaking your head, you stared at his reddened face, his bloodied face, all because of you. You were going to murder him. Choke the life out of the man you’d fallen in love with. It didn’t matter if you’d been being controlled, it had been your hands. “It’s okay.” You heard him whisper and then his arms wound around you, pulling you against him. It felt wrong but you fell against him, your eyes crinkling as tears fell.

“I’m sorry. I’m so sorry, Bellamy.” You repeated, desperate for him to hear. He held you close, running his fingers through your hair as you cried. What had you done? “They were going to kill him… I couldn’t- I didn’t have a choice.”

“It’s okay.” Bellamy whispered, pulling back from the hug, he grabbed ahold of your cheeks. Bellamy searched around, trying to get you to focus on him. Once his eyes found yours, he nodded at you. “You’re not a murder.” You nodded, tears running down your face as you looked completely vulnerable in that moment.

Leaning back to hug him, your eyes found your father, sobbing. Though, soon enough Abby came around and you knew he was fine. Part of you felt relieved that he had someone to support him and you could allow yourself to heal without having to worry about him. 

Staring up at Bellamy, you pushed yourself closer to him. You relished in the warmth. Relished in the way he was able to forgive you despite nearly choking him to death. You don’t know what would happen now, but you were relieved to be back in his arms.

A sudden groan caught your attention. Pulling back from the hug, you looked over to Octavia only to find her sword in Pike’s stomach. Your eyes widened, unsure of what to say as you looked over at Bellamy. Octavia pushed the sword forward, then aggressively pulled it out. Pike fell to the ground, his body thumping loudly as no one uttered a word. Taking a deep breath, Octavia walked over to the door, leaving the room.

Bellamy turned to you, shock filling his system as he gazed down at you. Nodding, you smiled, trying to give him some reassurance; “i’m okay. I’m okay.” You both got up, Bellamy helping you as you shakily stood. Following behind him, you made your way over to Clarke. She smiled at the sight of you and you offered a small, unsure smiled yourself.

“ALIE’s gone,” she nodded.

“Yeah,” you mumbled.

“I figured.” Bellamy agreed.

Though your furrowed your brows in confusion when no smile or look of relief passed over Clarke’s face. Looking over at Bellamy, you saw him look just as confused as you. “Clarke, you’re not acting like someone who just saved the world.”

She shook her head, smiling lightly; “because we didn’t. Not yet.”

Part 23?


[Favorite Scenes]

Glenn Close is a powerhouse. This one long take showcased Glenn’s talent to its fullest. This may just be one of the greatest acting moments ever to be filmed and was so pivotal and important that it made the entire series for me. If you weren’t in love with her before, you are now.
Damages 05x10 “But You Don’t Do That Anymore”

Dragonlance is a pivotal moment in the history of TSR and marked it the company’s first foray into creating a multimedia property. I’ll be looking at the novels, art and the first source book this week (I’d dive into the modules, but I don’t have the whole set yet – if you’ve got dupes, lemme know and maybe we can trade something).

Dragonlance was conceived as a series of module (which eventually became DL1-14, sort of) that detailed one large tale of an epic war between the forces of good and evil. A marked shift from tournament style modules, Dragonlance was to have pre-generated characters and an intricate plot. The story was the point, not the loot or the levels or the hacking and slashing.

A series of companion novels were part of the plan, though the design team didn’t appreciate the hired author. Two members of the design team – Tracy Hickman and Margaret Weis – eventually supplanted him, penning Dragons of Autumn Twilight in 1984. The novel coincides roughly with the first two modules, though some events differ. What no one could have predicted at the time was that Dragons of Autumn Twilight was to become the cornerstone of a massively successful publishing phenomenon.

Autumn Twilight starts with sort of the D&D equivalent of The Big Chill – a bunch of friends reuniting in a tavern (no one is dead, though…yet). Events spiral out of control almost immediately, with a war starting and a group of religious folks looking to pave the way for the return of the old gods. It ends with a dungeon crawl, a slave uprising and a black dragon. Good stuff.

Dragonlance was a huge reading phase for me. I devoured nearly all the books from the late 80s and early 90s, culminating with the Verminaard novel. They struck me as urgent and dark and violent and more than a little sad – there was tragedy in the air from the very first chapters. I suspect they would seem thin to me now, a melodramatic by-the-numbers novelized D&D sessions. But maybe not? Probably not worth the risk of ruining all those fond memories.

Dragons of Winter Night tomorrow.

@THR: ‘Awards Chatter’ Podcast — Alexander Skarsgard ('Big Little Lies’) 

The 40-year-old Swede, currently in serious contention for his first Emmy nom, reflects on attaining and then fleeing from child stardom, his breakthrough in 'Generation Kill’ and 'True Blood’ and his intense scenes of sex and violence with Nicole Kidman in HBO’s provocative limited series.

“I don’t know if this is a pivotal moment in my career,” says Alexander Skarsgard, the dashing 40-year-old Swedish actor who has garnered new measures of respect this spring for his haunting work as an abusive husband in the provocative HBO limited series Big Little Lies, as we sit down at the offices of The Hollywood Reporter to record an episode of THR’s 'Awards Chatter’ podcast. “It’s always the same, isn’t it? You’re always looking for the next one and just trying to find something you’re excited about. That could be a $200 million [2016’s The Legend of] Tarzanmovie or it could be a $1 million [2015’s The] Diary of a Teenage Girl movie.”


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Gotham Season 3 Finale Moment Was The Best Of David Mazouz’s Life

The Batman prequel series on FOX took a major stride toward finally showing Bruce Wayne becoming the Caped Crusader.

But Gotham still has a lot of ground to cover, and Batman doesn’t just Begin overnight, you know. And still the finale of GothamSeason 3 showed young Bruce take his first step on the path toward brutal vigilantism when he stopped a crime while in disguise.

Series star David Mazouz spoke with about that scene and what it means moving toward the forthcoming fourth season of Gotham. Check out the video above!

“That was one of the best moments of my life. It was amazing,” Mazouz said. “When John Stephens, our executive producer, told me about that moment we were shooting, I think, episode 10 of Season 3 and I was like, oh my god. I was just in shock and I couldn’t really process it. What I was thinking the next week or so was, ‘please don’t change it, please don’t change it, please don’t change it.’ And they didn’t — they made it even better than what he told me was going to happen. I was just so excited.”

And just in case you were wondering or maybe doubting that the series would properly followup this pivotal moment — DON’T. Mazouz was more than excited about the future of the series going into Season 4.

“Another thing I was worried about was we were going to get to Season 4 and the writers were going to go, ‘you know, I think we took it a little too far too fast. Let’s backtrack.’ And the exact opposite happened. The trajectory is just continuing in that direction. I would say, I would know it’s accelerating in that direction. It’s not going to stop.”

But how will the series follow from that scene? Is Bruce going to start tinkering with gadgets now, or maybe learn the best bones to break without killing a criminal?

Nope, the young Wayne heir is going to start separating his two lives.

“Bruce really is taking on this vigilante persona and all the things that go along with that,” Mazouz said. “Whether it be creating another persona, a public persona, that’s also definitely going to be a major part of Bruce’s journey this year. His relationship as this other person. Batman is coming. Absolutely.”

But with great power comes great responsibility, and Mazouz knows there are lofty expectations that come with the cape and cowl. He even admitted that he’s had some difficulty with one important aspect of playing the Dark Knight.

“The tough part was finding a good Batman voice.”

Maybe we’ll get to hear it when Gotham Season 4 premieres later this fall.


Here they all are! Decided to nix the last one and just go with six, because I really wasn’t feeling it. Here is the artist statement, if anyone is curious. 

Hauntingly Depicted

This body of work is a series of moments; pivotal snapshots of an individual’s existence where the world stayed the same, yet everything changed.

All people experience life-altering instances that burn themselves into our psyche permanently. Often, they are moments where we ask ourselves difficult questions, such as ‘What have I done?’ or ‘Was it all a lie?

Other times, we find ourselves coming to profound conclusions in the midst of an otherwise simple interaction, having sudden epiphanies like ‘I really am talented’ or ‘I’ve wasted so much time.

These moments, both the painful and the beautiful, are the ones which shape us. This series of drawings is meant to embody such memories and to visually represent these soul-shattering, indescribable realizations.

And though I know it is unlikely, these drawings are technically for sale… So if any of you are interested in one, I’d be happy to sell it to one of my party people for way less than I am to the general public. Just shoot me a message if you’re considering it (the fifth one, ‘Before the Pyre’, is already on hold. So not that one, ha).  

anonymous asked:

I have been a Touken shipper before the first series ends, and my greatest regret is that I just found your blog a few days ago, I love your insights on the chapters . <3 I find it amusing how Ishida barely voices Kaneki's inner feelings and thoughts, that way each time he does it we get a huge impact on the story and the situation he is in. How do you think the Touken conversation is going to end or what is it about? Touka seems not backing off this time. Especially after her talk with Amon.

Aww, thanks anon, that’s really kind of you to say! Dw you haven’t missed much, this blog’s only existed for four weeks :p

Yep, especially since his torture we don’t really get to see what’s going through Kaneki’s mind until a major event changes his outlook and hair colour. We get our character insights through the perception of others - Banjou, Hinami, Touka, Mutsuki, Eto, Chie and now Takizawa - which are later confirmed or denied when we get a look inside Kaneki’s usually-pretty-trippy headspace. It adds to the sense of mystery surrounding him; we are put in the same shoes as the friends he shuts himself off from, gradually finding more and more about him before we reach the truth - at which point everything suddenly changes. Kaneki’s head is a real rollercoaster journey and it’s one of the greatest pleasures of the series. We get to see Kuroneki and Haise’s internal monologues more often than Black Reaper and both Shironekis as they are probably the most open of Kaneki’s personas (not that that’s saying much), but even then there are feelings which we don’t get to see outside of those pivotal moments because they’re always repressing them - Kuroneki never mentions his mother’s abuse because he straight-up blocked it from his memory, like Haise did with his entire past life.

As for the Touken talk, I’ve mostly covered that in this post, but the latest chapter makes me think that Touka’s going to try to get to the bottom of the ‘secret motivation’ Takizawa mentioned as well in a mirror of the previous manga’s Chapter 120, and I’m confident she’ll get him to pivot on what’s probably (knowing Kaneki) an unhealthy goal, just like how she managed to convince him to go back to Anteiku. Anteiku Raid Arc 2.0 will inevitably disrupt the insight she’ll give him, but I strongly believe that this time he will be able to come back to his senses before it’s too late.

|| Countdown for @keithsbirthday || Day 1 - Favourite Keith Moment in the Series (so far) ||

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Keith is well known in the Voltron Universe as a calm, reserved Paladin of Voltron. [Once a Paladin, Always a Paladin]

What first drawn me to him was his far-off and aloof personality. Such mysterious characters have always been the ones which I tend to recognize as personas who have a tremendous amount of potential in terms of character development. Keith was no different.

[I wouldn’t go into the direct details of what I do love about Keith’s personality in correspondence to my favourite moments of him, since that overlaps with much of the themes of the various Keith Birthday Countdowns that I am participating in].

So, skipping to the actual theme of the day - What is my Favourite Keith Moment in the series so far?

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That would be among the moments where we, as the audience, finally get to see Keith’s origin story and background - where did he come from?, what is it that impacted him so much to make him the person that he is today?, etc. Such instances are important and worth discovering once you get so attached to your favourite character, just like I did.

These moments are prevalent in Season 2 and Season 4. Particularly when they include encounters with the Blade of Marmora, who have played a pivotal role in terms of drastically influencing Keith’s journey of self-discovery.

This skips down to the answer to the question asked; my favourite scene is that of Season 2, Episode 8: The Blade of Marmora.

Galrans are known to be a stubborn people with a “fight to the death” kind of combat style. Zarkon notably stated that Keith fights “like a Galra soldier”, true to his, then unknown, heritage. However, the Blade of Marmora refuse to be characterized by such attributes and thus, rebel against it. Their desire to combat their nature is perhaps a little extreme, to the point that they have become too cautious.

Hence, fearing that their secrecy has been violated and due to their over-cautious nature and Keith’s stubbornness, it is decided that the then Red Paladin was to face the Trials of Marmora.

Initially, the Trial appears to be one which tests the extent of your physical strength as Keith steadily fights more and more people to seemingly no end. Yet, the true challenge wasn’t physically based, but, as Kolivan noted, “knowing when to stop.”

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The trial wasn’t about fighting one’s opponents; it was concerned with fighting one’s own nature.

Keith’s innate Galra nature didn’t permit him to submit and he persistedly went through those doors, even though he wasn’t meant to. Therefore, even after he became utterly and completely physically exhausted, he’s confronted with what’s most important to him: his relationship with Shiro, the truth of his heritage and the lives of innocents.

The question was then raised essentially of how much is he willing to sacrifice in his attempts to learn his truth. Apparently, not exactly everything as it was revealed that he had not much of a care about his heritage after all; not when it was laid to rest on a balancing scale along with the lives of innocents.

The awakening of the Blade is the climax of my favourite moment. He does not awaken his Blade solely due to his persistence and endless determination; but, instead, it is due to the realization that his heritage is not his identity.

This encounter would kickstart a fresh chapter of Keith’s life as he struggles to personally adapt to this revelation of his Galran heritage while also aiding his friends in defending the universe.

These were perhaps some of the most important moments of Keith’s life and have drastically effected his decisions and lifestyle afterwards.

And, this is why this is my Favourite (Current) Keith Moment.

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'Dear White People' Renewed for Season 2 at Netflix

Netflix is going back to class.

The streaming giant has renewed Dear White People for a second season. Production on a new crop of 10 episodes will begin later this year for a return in 2018.

Series creator and showrunner Justin Simien made the announcement Friday at the Essence Festival.

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Starring Logan Browning, Brandon P. Bell, Antoinette Robertson, DeRon Horton, John Patrick Amedori, Ashley Blaine Featherson and Marque Richardson, the Lionsgate Television comedy is based on Simien’s 2014 crowdfunded movie. Yvette Lee Bowser will return as showrunner alongside exec producers Stephanie Allain and Julia Lebedev.

Like the film, the Netflix comedy follows a diverse group of students of color as they navigate a predominantly white Ivy League college where racial tensions are often swept under the rug. The series is a send-up of “post-racial” America that also weaves a universal story about forging one’s own unique path.

Read more: Inside 'Dear White People’s’ Pivotal and Emotional Fifth Episode

The renewal comes after Simien expressed optimism at exploring the aftermath of the events of the season one finale, which featured a rising protest after a security guard pulled a gun on an unarmed black student at a house party. “There are a lot of things that we planted in this first season that you may not even notice at first glance that culminate in that moment that I’m really excited to explore, and I’m not going to talk about until I actually get to do it,” he told THR after the show’s April 28 launch. He also hoped to additionally explore the inner lives of the students at the center of the series.

Read more: 'Dear White People’ Creator Breaks Down Final Scene, Potential Season 2

While Netflix, like other streamers, does not release viewership data, Dear White People has garnered impressive reviews - it has a perfect 100 percent score on Rotten Tomatoes and 85 on MetaCritic. THR critic Michael Rechtshaffen declared that the series was “every bit as sharply witty - and more focused - than the 2014 feature.”

Dear White People joins a roster of originals at Netflix including Orange Is the New Black - also from Lionsgate TV - as well as half-hours Love, Flaked, The Ranch, One Day at a Time and more.