it was a miserable semester

An Ode to the End of the Semester

Sung to “One Day More” from Les Miserables

One Class more- another hour, another mockery, this never ending road to misery, waiting for the bell to chime, Professors choose to waste your timeOne Class More

I did not start until today! How will I finish this assignment? Tomorrow feels like worlds away! How will I live through this confinement?

One more class all on your own. One more class, you cannot bear it! What a life you might have known, with some extra time to spaaaaaaaare!

One more class before I’m home!

Shall I start this paper now?

In the basement of this building!

Shall I scroll through Tumblr ‘gain?

I should be taking better notes!

One more gif, One more post!

The exam is set next week!

I’M REAL BORED NOW! I FELL ASLEEP!

ONE CLASS MORE!

ONE MORE CLASS FOR GRADUATION, WE WILL ADD IT TO THE LIST. WE’LL PREPARE FOR NEXT SEMESTER, BUT ‘TIL THEN, CLASS IS DISMISSED!

WATCH ‘EM WORK ALL NIGHT, PRINT IT BEFORE CLASS, ANOTHER PAPER DONE SO YOU CAN KISS MY ASS. DID IT IN AN HOUR, ALMOST HAD A FIT, TEACHERS GRADE SO MUCH THEY CAN’T TELL IT’S SHIT!

ONE CLASS ‘TIL YOU HAVE YOUR FREEDOM!

THROW YOUR TEXTBOOKS ON THE GROUND!

EVERY STUDENT WILL BE FREE!

NOT RIGHT NOW, EVENTUALLY!

THERE’S A WORLD YOU COULD BE SEEING

THERE’S A WORLD BEYOND THIS BOOK!

DO YOU HEAR THE STUDENTS SCREAM?

THE TIME IS NEAR, TEACHERS, SCREW YOOOOUUUUU!

ONE CLASS MORE!

-round repeat intensifies-

TOMORROW WE’LL RELIVE IT ALL ON CAMPUS ONCE AGAIN!

OH MY GOSH, FINALS SUCK!

ONE CLASS MOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRRRRE!!!!!!!!

Clearly, Guess and I have too much pent up stress over the end of the term. Good luck, everyone. Vive la France!

Something I love love love is the sense of community within the Muslim Ummah. The consistent sense of love that these girls give and the care and the keeping others on track and taking care of them. I love that Islam emphasizes community so much. Sometimes I catch glimpses of the brothers community via the reminders they give one another and the messages and it seems equally comfortable and warm, albeit in a slightly different way.

I just love this Ummah a lot and I love Allah a lot.

I'm scared of the future

I thought I was making progress with my self-discovery but I still have a long way to go.  I still don’t really know what I’m passionate about, if anything at all.  I spent a semester miserable, switched schools and majors, and did all this stuff. I thought I’d be happy afterwards but I’m still not.  I don’t even know if I like this major or if I’ll like any job I’ll find with it.  

People tell me, oh you can take a year off or you don’t need to go to college but like what the fuck am I going to do if I don’t go to college? That’s not even an option in my family and even if I did, what would I even do?  I’ve heard people taking a semester off to discovery what they like but I’ve never heard of any of them finding what they’re looking for.  I can’t imagine how taking a year off will help me.  But it’s so frustrating because I don’t want to be jobless but I also don’t want to be miserable for the rest of my life.  Maybe if I was smarter or at least more motivated, I could do whatever but I don’t see a lot of opportunities for myself.  People also tell me that it doesn’t matter what you major in, as long as you like it because a lot of people find jobs that aren’t related to what they majored in but I don’t know what I like. What if I don’t like anything? What am I supposed to do?

I have an aunt who majored in psychology and she is working in business for a good company but like, she’s really smart, did really well in school, and has good connections. She’s doing so well. Like, shes gonna get married soon and she loves her job and lives a really comfortable life.  I hope I end up as lucky and happy as her but I don’t know if that is even possible for me. 

Good

Only a little over two months of this miserable semester left. :D (I had it so easy the first 3 semesters of college, GOOD LORD!)

Class of 2019!

This happened like two days ago but I did not have the time to write on Tumblr so here I am now.. 

But anyways, I have officially committed to Emory University!

Before turning in my $475 deposit to the school, my mom and I stood outside the post office for a good thirty minutes. Both my mom and I knew there would be no turning back (unless I miserably fail my second semester senior year HAHA) if I turn this envelope in. 

My mother, who merely a month ago was willing to send me out of state, became hesitant.
"If we turn this in, you are really leaving huh.." She muttered, tightly holding onto the yellow envelope.  

She, who never even considered schools below UCSD, held onto my UCSB acceptance letter and claimed that she would send me there just so that I stay in California. 

It was so crazy to see that in the end, my mom did not care about school prestige or rankings, but cared more about the distance between me and my family. 

The 2,000 miles between Los Angeles and Atlanta seem unreal to both my parents and I understand that even though I am exhilirated, they feel extremely reluctant and bittersweet right now. 

I hope that in the end, the 2,000 miles,months away from my family and friends,sleepless nights, unfamiliar city, cold weather, and the loans of a private school will be worth it all. 

College

I’m at a point where I don’t think I want to be in school anymore for a multitude of reasons. One I don’t think its right for me, I’ve been miserable since my first semester here(I’m on my 6th now) and its all ive been pushed to do, go to college, get a degree, and get a decent job. It doesn’t matter how I feel as long as that’s the out come. Everyone thinks I can do it except for me and I feel like a failure and disappointed and regardless of what I do I’ll be a let down to someone.

i need to move out next semester because being around my dad is making me miserable but i just constantly feel like its not actually going to happen especially since im not even going to get my stuff from the schools im applying to back until the middle of summer

I’ve been sick for two weeks now. My dry cough has progressed to what seems like a “barking” cough. If I don’t get better by Wednesday, I’ll make an appointment to visit the doctor. Knowing them, they’ll just tell me I have the common cold anyways. Ugh, I’m miserable. 


That on top of “this being my worst semester ever” is a real kick in the pants.

anonymous asked:

Hey so you are obviously really stressed about college (understatement of the year I know) is there anyway you could take a semester off to think things thru and calm yourself down instead of just dropping out or going until you graduate but being miserable? Just trying to help a friend of mine took a semester off and realized college wasn't for him so maybe it could help you?

yeah i was thinking about that 

idk

its like i dont really know what id do in the meantime and if i took a break thatd just mean itd take me longer to finish school so im kind of conflicted

From now until May 23 I will hate myself except for the following dates:

March 15-20 
April 21st
April 24th
April 28th
May 8th

Wow. This semester is miserable

This semester has been miserable, the school work itself is easy; but day-in day-out its the same boring routine. Add in the fact that I don’t really have many friends (if any at all) here yet, it can really be shit.

It could be worse though, I have college to keep me going, lots of people would want that. So there’s that. 

I’m so tired and I’m not enjoying school as much this semester. Im not nearly as miserable as I was at UCF but I’m taking more classes than I have in awhile and I don’t feel like I’m on top of anything.

reveriesofawriter replied to your post “reveriesofawriter replied to your post “.”graduation goggles. where…”

maybe because you went through last semester mostly sober? I’m not trying to influence your decision, just you were so miserable there last semester… but if you don’t hate it anymore that’s good

no dude i totally know where youre coming from and totally understand and appreciate it. and i’m 100% aware of the lovely effect of alcohol haha. we’ll see.