I have such a fascination with being alone. I like hiking, running, sleeping, biking, eating, going to the movies, cooking, reading, walking, drinking coffee, going to museums, adventuring, and living by myself. I like being by myself because that is the time I am able to reflect on what I want out of this life of mine and who I want to be. People struggle to understand this. Being alone is such an incredible time to spend with your soul.
"They would not do that to me" Do you even HEAR yourself? You killed their son! You said so yourself, the reason that you are not dead now is because they have something much worse planned for you. What could be worse then actually getting you to trust and love them, just to have them turn around and kill you, eating both your body and soul!? You are a delusional moron if you can't see that's what's going on here. Even down here, its still kill or be killed.