it truly just makes me happy

anonymous asked:

I'm going back to university this fall after being away for two years and I'm just so happy to be continuing my education and your blog is truly a wonderful motivator!❤️

ahh this makes me so happy to hear!! Best of luck in all your future studies! 💛💛

anonymous asked:

ALSO YOUSEF "PUPPY" "DORK" ACAR ON HER BIRTHDAY? IM SORRY WHAT WAS THAT? "I STILL LOVE YOU" ? AND THEN VALENTINE'S DAY TOGETHER AGAIN? BUT NOT? AND NOW WHAT IS YOUSEF GOING TO DO? OR NOT DO? SANA AND YOUSEF PLEASE JUST USE WORDS (IN PERSON) AND MAKE THOSE WORDS BE HONEST ONES K THANK YOU.

THIS WAS SO RANDOM I WAS SO LOST BUT THEN IT HIT ME YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT MORE THAN WORDS AND I CRIED MAN THAT WAS SO,,,, I DONT HAVE WORDS I TRULY DONT WHEN HE HUGGED AND WHISPERED THAT MY HEART FELL TO THE FLOOR UGH I HATE THIS THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH JUST LET THEM BE HAPPY TOGETHER

“Disappearing” For a Bit

Hey everyone. In the next few days, weeks, I don’t know, you might not be seeing that much of me. Every few years I go through a period where I cannot get through a single task without thinking about the fact that I’m doing something. I cannot think without thinking about the fact that I’m thinking. It makes life feel blase and droning on and basically is just months of 24/7 existential crises. In these periods, things I like can’t take my mind off of things for more than a few minutes.

This go round is turning out to be pretty rough.It’s manifesting itself in making me “think” all the time about whether I truly love the Librarians, whether any of my fangirl, nerdy stuff is actually making me happy. It’s been causing some major breakdowns and if I’m not careful it could make me lose The Librarians entirely at this point, and thats something I can’t begin to fathom dealing with(part of all the breakdowns this month). So, in order to preserve my love and passion for The Librarians, I need to stay away from it for a while.

I made the Librarians my everything my freshman year of college. Everything and anything I did was related to it. Any song I listened to, TV show I watched, meal I ate, store I visited, I was relating it back to The Librarians. Like I could literally not drink a freaking milkshake without wondering what would happen if one of my Librarians OTPs was sharing a milkshake, and then contemplating writing a fic about said milkshake. And while that was all well and good and great even, and is certainly the one thing that got me through freshman year, I didn’t think about the fact that it couldn’t stay that way forever, that it wouldn’t be healthy to let it be that way forever. So now, that I’m thinking about it 24/7 and not happy doing such, it’s making me feel like I don’t love the show. I need to not write my fics or write it or anything for a little while so that I can adjust into liking and doing other things again. And once that’s done I can return to my Librarians love.

So I might not be on here posting about The Librarians for a while, but that’s only so that I can be once season 4 starts up and there’s tons to be excited about. Because if this pattern continues, I cannot see myself being truly excited and giddy when season 4 rolls around, cant see myself showing it to my future kids and students…and all those things depress me majorly. So I need to get back on track.

So yes. I’m stepping back from The Librarians…in order to love The Librarians again. This is all scary for me, because I’m afraid if I let it go, I will lose it completely. But I’m a woman of faith, and not long ago I asked God for a sign that it would all be okay and that I’d love The Librarians again. Sure enough, he sent multiple, not the least of which was a store I walked past playing Lost Boy

Good news is all this manic unhealthy obsession has made me become WAY ahead in the writing of my Loom fic, so I’ll still be posting the chapters of that every Thursday and Sunday.

I love you guys, thank you for your support in this trying time, and ask you for your thoughts and prayers that I can return to truly loving the show that I have loved more than any other before. I love you my LITs. I’ll see you when I see you, and stay magical, always and forever.

((Also if anyone else has been through a period like this with the show or any show and has had it turn out fine and is willing to tell me about it in a private message that would be much appreciated. A big comfort for me in healing processes has always been hearing that others were okay, and knowing that being okay is possible))

Happy Thursday X’O Fam

Before I post the analysis for today, let me just say a few things about it:

For one, my heart is broken; i feel the sadness and sickness and desperation in his words and it makes me want to cry. Abel Tesfaye is truly an extraordinary man. His feels are capable of bending emotion and manipulating thought. I can’t believe I’ve never realized this before.

Belong to the World, on of my FAVORITE songs from Kissland, do you even understand what he was trying to say and who he was talking to?…Its a perspective of the fans in regards to their feelings towards him. He’s pleading to be free of the endless cycle of constantly being overlook and ignored by someone he adores so persistently, and yet he can’t live without them; he needs them; they’re the only thing on the planet that make him truly happy; but to them, he’s just another body, another face, and he’s convinced that he mean nothing to them, but they mean everything to him. sound familiar?

obliviously Abel cares more about his fans than this, but this was a moment in his life where he never thought he would be who he is now. We as his loyal and devoted fans have always kept in mind his transitions and witnessed his growth first hand, when in actuality, from the very beginning, he always understood us…

i am so broken, y’all…i just can’t believe it…

I really want to just take a minute and truly get to know someone, no sex involved. Let’s just go on fun dates and shit. Ya'know…walk around the mall and talk about people. Tell me about your past dreams and your current ones. Tell me what stresses you out, let me learn how to make you happy. #ivewitnessedsexruingoodthings

How is it possible
That a single human being
Could fuck you up so much
And make you feel as if your self worth has diminished
up to the point where you don’t even have confidence
Or believe you can find someone to make you happy

I wonder if you know,
how exactly you have broken me
How I look in the mirror and think,
I am not good enough.
I stare at myself and truly believe
no one will ever love me
at least not as much as I love them,
because I give too much and that is just exhausting.

I get anxiety all the time,
at the thought of you
At the thought of ever loving someone
The way I loved you.
Of getting attached
because I fear they will all become you,
constantly disappointing me.

I don’t have confidence anymore,
I can’t even talk to someone else
because I don’t think anything I say will be good enough
But I am fucking good enough
You just made me feel that I could never be.

I’m afraid of the world because of you,
Of people like you
That act so selfishly and call it,
“Making myself better”
When in reality
You’re a shitty indecisive person
That cannot let go of the one person
Who gave you everything
And you realize a little too late,
they are all you’ve ever wanted.

But guess what,
I’ve know that for a long time.
I’ve known you were all I ever wanted,
the sad part is
You changed.

You are not the person I fell in love with.
And I’m not the person you feel in love with

I am the person you destroyed
but I will also be the person
that will find happiness,
without you.

—  basically word vomit
Evermore is the most gorgeous song that rips your heart out and makes you feel all the FEELS!!

- Josh Groban’s version is absolutely wonderful 

- I literally can’t comprehend how he stole an angels voice and made it even better 

- You can really appreciate the depth and strength of his voice like damn 

- I get Phantom of the Opera vibes and can totally see the song in both 

- Thank you my enchanting siren 

BUT HEAR DAN STEVENS VERSION WITNESS OUR BEAST SING 

- This one literally makes me clench my heart in pain 

- At the end of the song I’m on the verge of tears 

- You can truly feel how much she has affected him and he can never let her go inside his heart 

- But he does because he is selfless as fuck and wants her happiness before anyone’s 

- It just has so much emotion especially the last lyrics like I’m bawling just writing this 

- Forever in love with you my Beauty 

- READ THESE DAMN LYRICS AND LISTEN TO THE SONG SO YOU CAN FEEL YOUR HEART BREAK!  

I was the one who had it all
I was the master of my fate
I never needed anybody in my life
I learned the truth too late


I’ll never shake away the pain
I close my eyes but she’s still there
I let her steal into my melancholy heart
It’s more than I can bear


Now I know she’ll never leave me
Even as she runs away
She will still torment me, calm me, hurt me
Move me, come what may


Wasting in my lonely tower
Waiting by an open door
I’ll fool myself she’ll walk right in
And be with me for evermore


I rage against the trials of love
I curse the fading of the light
Though she’s already flown so far beyond my reach
She’s never out of sight


Now I know she’ll never leave me
Even as she fades from view
She will still inpire me, be a part of
Everything I do


Wasting in my lonely tower
Waiting by an open door
I’ll fool myself she’ll walk right in

And as the long, long nights begin
I’ll think of all that might have been
Waiting here for evermore!

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Spider-Man Homecoming makes you realize how much Tony Stark truly loves this 15-year-old smart kid who feels happy when he gets a free churro from doing something good. Tony built a suit for Peter that had everything he needed including a parachute, just in case something happened. And you can tell how much Tony loves making suits for this boy. Peter Parker is so loved and I hope he realizes it.

WARNING: YOU ARE ABOUT TO ENTER THE TERRITORY OF AN EMOTIONAL ARMY, WHO SIMPLY WANTS TO APPRECIATE AND CHERISH AN ANGEL KNOWN AS JUNG HOSEOK. You have been warned!

Now, who is Hoseok for me?

Hoseok is my so called ‘THE bias’ of BTS (since all of them are my biases… oops).

Hoseok is my inspiration.

Hoseok is my sunshine.

And somehow he is hated and under appreciated.

Why is that, however?

Perhaps it could be because he is too kind

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It could because he genuinely loves and cares for his members

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And in generally is kind to all. After all, there are those who can’t fathom the idea, that someone might actually be nice and supportive to other people.

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Maybe he gets hate for trying to stay positive. Some people feed on negative energy and thus really wish to bering someone with good vibes down, they want to bring down that precious smile, to destroy it.

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And of course, one of the biggest reasons people hate him is because he is so talented. And as a result he achieved fame along side his members

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And it pains me, oh it pains me so much to see this amazing, beautiful young man get hurt.

It hurts me so much to see people throw insults at him simply because of jealousy, because the feel threatened.

Hoseok deserves the universe.

Remember the video, when on his birthday he saw a video filmed to wish him happy birthday? Remember how emotional he got, how touched and honoured?

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He didn’t waste any time, making sure to thank all the people around him, to hug them, hold their hand, anything to express his gratitude.

******

This is a young man who had the ability to do a full solo song for the groups album and he chose to write a song about his mum, for his mum, thanking her for all she went through. 

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This is the young BOY who said to himself that the only way he can make his mother proud, the only way he can repay her for all her sacrifices is to ‘become successful.’ Even if that meant selling his all.

Selling his body to endless practice

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Selling his private life

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And even selling his own emotions.

What does that mean?

Well, on one hand Jhope is a sunshine, on one hand he is Hobi.

A sunshine with a smile so pure

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A sunshine with a laugh so genuine

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A sunshine who just loves to play around

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Yet on the other hand, he is Jung Hoseok.

Someone with a deadly passion

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Someone with extremely powerful emotions

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Someone rather serious

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Someone who smiles much more calmly

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And honestly, I love that calm side just as much as I love the sunshine side.

Because part of the allure of Hoseok is that he is a very full rounded human being. A very beautiful one inside and out. And so what i hope is that Hoseok actually allows himself to be himself (whatever that truly is). 

Im sure that his members are alway there to support him.

Hoseok’s existence seems to be making everyone happy.

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But its those precious moments when Hoseok is happy for himself, content with his own self that he shines like the amazing star he truly is.

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When he allows his emotions to overtake him

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That my heart just fills with happiness to the brim as I realise that yes, I do love this young man in some sense.

It is then that I smile because he gives me happiness, a reason to be excited, a reason to work hard.

Which is why I wold like to ask more people to pay attention to tis amazing young man.

Looks are subjective, dance is subjective and so is the ‘great’ rap style. Just because he doesnt fit your ideal type does not mean that you have to start creating movements in order to bring him down. If your favourites do not deserve to be destroyed, the neither does Hoseok, or any other innocent soul.

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I hope Hoseok stays happy.

I hope he IS happy.

I hope he gets more opportunities to shine, to create his own work, develop his own self both as an artist and as a human being.

I hope he stays healthy because unhealthy Hoseok is broken Hoseok and nobody wants that. No, not because people would stop stanning, but because we do not want him to be in pain.

But if he is, I hope he does not feel like he is a Burden to BTS or ARMYs.

Because he isn’t.

Angel Hobi down mean perfect Hobi for me. It means a relatable Hobi, someone who is human, kind, emotional, loving. Angel Hobi means that by being himself, Hobi gives us one more reason to smile and go through our day.

And it would pain me if he doesn’t know what he means to me, to us.

We ARMYs support, love and cherish Hoseok to the fullest and i pray to all entities that he knows that.

Because his smile is one that must never fall.

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Because his smile is one that deserves to forever stay genuine.

Lets spread the love for this amazing young man!

Thank you for reading!

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some suggestions ✨

- wake up super early, make a warm drink, and drink it while u r watching the sun rise.
- take a super long bath with music, a bath bomb, candles, magazines, etc!!
- have a movie/tv day with ur fav snacks & treats!!
- go for a long walk and pick some flowers to dry, press, or give to some1 u love!!
- spend some time with animals!! if u have a pet, play with it, pet it, love it!! or, go to an animal shelter and play with all the animals there!!
- host a lil fundraiser for a cause u care about! it doesn’t have to be much, maybe just sell some treats and donate the money to a charity u want 2 support!!
- make some positive journal lists!! some suggestions: small things I love about myself, things that make me happy, kind things to do, etc!
- head to a local farmers’ market and buy urself some potted flowers or herbs! remember to water and care for them!!
- go for a rly long walk!! call it an adventure & explore ur hometown!
- write a letter to a loved one!! u can include little gifts like teabags, tiny candies, polaroids, etc!
- clean a desk or table, light an aromatic candle, and take some time to really think. what’s on ur mind truly, hiding just beneath ur consciousness? can u fix some of ur problems? what’s makin u happy rn?
- mix some natural scented extract w water in an old spray bottle! u can spray it around ur room or whatever! mint 4 balance, Lavender 4 relaxation, vanilla bc it smells sweet, etc!!
- make a playlist on ur phone, or burn it onto a cd! make it soothing & relaxing! u can give some copies 2 ur family members or pals!!
- put on some lipstick, stick out ur tongue in the mirror, take some cute selfies (if ur comfortable!) u r a beautiful work of art and u look just the way ur supposed to!
- don’t 4get to get a good nights sleep, drink lotsa water, and love urself!
- remember it’s okay to have lazy days. it’s ok to relax. it’s ok to pamper urself. you are still moving and growing and learning, u r a tiny little plant with so much to give and to receive and you are always worth it.

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“I just want you guys to know something: you guys inspire me. You send me art that you make, poems that you’ve written, just stuff that’s so inspiring to me. That’s all I wanted to do, to create. You guys are creating so much. You younger people, I want you to know, the more you create, the better you’re going to get and the more driven you’ll become. And you’re going to change the world. Just understand that.”

- Brendon Urie [Happy Birthday Brendon! 4.12.87]

anonymous asked:

(1) Hi Viria, I hope you are well :) I am sorry to bother you with this, but it's really important for me, and I wanted to share it with you. It'll be long and kinda sad at first, but it gets better, trust me. I'm a 23 y/o latina art student. When I was a baby, my mom left my dad and remarried, and my little sister was born when I was 10. She is the light of my life and I love her to no end. Our mom, however, had had and undiagnosed and untreated mental illness for years, and one day

(2) during a severe crisis she hurt us really bad. I was 12. She was taken away to a psychiatric hospital and Child Services prohibited her from ever getting near us again. Since then, I have been taking care of my little sister and practically raised her while my stepdad worked 2-3 shifts to afford our education and payment for my mom’s hospital, living and meds. He was always working and I took full responsibility for my sis. As you can imagine, even though I loved her with my life, 

 (3) the situation was very stressful and exhausting for me. By the time I was 15, I looked every bit a teen mom. One particularly hard night when my little sis had been crying about mom, I couldn’t sleep. So I turned to something that calmed me: the Harry Potter books. I read them online, and somehow ended up searching for HP fanart. That was the night I stumbled upon your DA account. And boy, did I love it! I know back in 2011 your skills weren’t what they are now,

(4) but I was blown away, and what’s more, I felt inspired to draw. I had never tried to make any art before; it wasn’t “my thing”. But that night, you inspired me. As time went by I kept drawing and closely followed your improvements. Your art was so relaxing, calming, and inspiring, that it really helped me during hard times. You kinda dragged me into all the cool fandoms, series and animes, and I found life to be far more bearable with so many awesome things to love and think about.

(5) Your DA and Tumblr were some sort of safe sapce for me. It always cheered me up and gave me joy, peace, inspiration. When the time came, I choose to study Art at college. It turned out you did too, and you kept up all the good stuff in your blogs. Weirdly enough, I kept feeling a sense of pride whenever you improved and got better. I was so strange that you were so so far away and didn’t even know I existed but you helped me so much.

(6) I got accepted at my country’s top University to study Fine Arts; I moved cities and took my sister with me; she grew into a wonderful, sensible, peaceful child, and her presence motivated me to be the best version of myself, while your art motivated me to keep expanding my academic/artistic abilities. Life was hard but good at college, and I had incredible opportunities. I am graduating this spring with an advanced studies specialization, and was recently hired to work at

(7) of a movie. It’s like living a dream. And tonight, just a couple hours ago, the most incredible thing happened. After dinner, my little sis came to me, phone in hand, and said “Hey Ana, you won’t believe what I found. There’s this girl who makes amazing art of all the fandoms you’re in. Her drawings are gorgeous and she has so many!”. She showed me your tumblr. I wanted to laugh and cry. She was amazed when she saw your old drawings and your current ones; speechless.

(8) She fell in love, and you know what? Immediatly after, she went to draw. She’s been doing so the past hours. I know this was offensively long, but Viria, I needed to thank you for what you did. Your art has always been SO much more than just digital drawings of fictional characters. It’s been the source of peace, safety and joy that so many of us crave. You have wonderfully impacted and influenced many people across the world with everything you make.

(9) I am so glad you exist and do what you do; you gave me the hobby that grew into my passion, thaught me so much, inspired me beyond belief and most of all, you helped make life more bearable. And now, you have made the same for my sister. Viria, the world wouldn’t be the same without you. You are truly a magnificent light among us, and for your existence and passion I’ll be forever grateful. Thank you, and may you always live the beautiful, happy, awesome life you deserve. Thank you.


I’m not even kidding I was sitting here peacefully chewing sandwich and by the end of these messages the sandwich was too salty so was my cappuccino I swear you got me to tears and now i’m just like

I’m a shaking emotional leaf but thank you so much for writing me! It means so much and i’m so touched and i just wish you and your sister all the best of luck, though it seems like you don’t really need it. Thank you, and I hope life goes wonderfully for you and your family! 

I could have made you so happy if you’d given me the chance. There is nothing I would not have done for you. I completely adored you… I don’t think you ever truly understood how much.
I don’t think you ever realized how much of an impact you had on me… how I lit up like a Christmas tree whenever you were around or how I laughed more and had more energy… I was almost a completely different person with you than I was with everyone else, but I was still me - just a happier me…
And I miss that person I used to be… I miss her every day – but I miss YOU more…. More than you could ever imagine. I just wish I could have been the one to make you happy for the rest of your life… the one to love you and take care of you…. I wanted SO MUCH to be that person in your life… but there wasn’t a place for me. I could see that I was only ever in the way and being your friend was far too painful… But please know that wherever you are, I’m thinking of you and loving you from a distance – just as I always have… Because I will always be the woman who loves you – even if you don’t love me back… And that is why I am wishing only good things for you and hoping you have a long and happy life… even if it isn’t with me.
To walk around inside a library and see all the books and take one out, at random, and read at the back of it… and just to be there in those rooms with all the books and all their stories…that’s heaven for me and makes me truly happy! It’s so soothing…
—  something I wrote years ago and it’s still very true, now more than ever with my work and everything, @the-librarian-geek

It’s been 6 years and it still baffles me that OUAT had every opportunity to do something truly amazing and make the birth mom fall in love with the adoptive mom and let them be a happy family and raise their son together, but instead they just decided to go with the most boring hetero romance story that’s been told a million times before and is neither modern nor original. 

anonymous asked:

I love how you always see the best in people. Like with some other youtube and internet icons you can tell that some of them are not exactly 100% genuine but with you you're always like a ray of sunshine. Just how you are with your friends and how interactive you are with your fans. You're so kind and warm and I just wish there were more people like that in the world.

Well, I mean, you all truly do help me to see the good parts of me! It’s incredibly symbiotic, what we got going on here haha, and I never want to take that for granted. I don’t wanna speak for all people in social media, but I’m sure many are quite busy or maybe going through personal things that, to other people on the other side of the screen, may make them seem distant, but is truly not what they’re intending. I just try to put myself in other people’s shoes as much as I can. I fail at that too sometimes! Haha I guess I just mean, if you look up to someone online for reasons and they seem unresponsive, maybe not give up on em too soon if you don’t know why that is. They’re only humans! Haha but I’m glad I am willing and able to talk with you all, because you make me very happy! So thank you for your kind words. <3

If Makorra had been endgame, what would have happened? Some straight people would be pleased. They’d be able to move on to making fanart and headcanons about the characters’ future together. But Korrasami did happen, and it was literally lifechanging for bisexual and lesbian young ladies worldwide. I can pinpoint seeing those two strong, cool, loved women ending up happy together as the turning point, the #1 influence in my life that helped me to accept my sexuality in a time when I only hated myself for being gay.

So the way I see it, the only reasons someone would truly wish that Korrasami hadn’t happened are ignorance and selfishness, or just flat-out homophobia. And when we use the word “homophobia” in this context, it’s not just over something so trivial as shipping; we’re talking about something bigger here. Because for us, for my community, that ending wasn’t just fiction. It changed our world.

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aaaaaaaaaaaAAAA THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE!! ・:*(〃∇〃人)*:・
I want to thank you guys for staying with me, for your support, and for leaving such sweet comments on my art (yes, I always read the tags). It really means a lot to me! (〃ω〃)
So as a thank you, I want to make an art raffle for you ( /)w(\ ) ♥

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hello everybody! i’m back here with one of my awful guides about how to survive university. i’m back because i struggled a lot last semester (aka my first academic semester, yay) but i guess i’ve finally found my balance!

What was hard to get is that the fact that i’m very busy with academic life doesn’t allow me to let myself rot. You heard that: you gotta take care of yourself, buddy. It was hard to learn, at least to me, because i get totally absorbed by work and everything but i’m trying to think about myself as well. Here’s what i wish i knew when i first move out:

  • eat yummy food: i spend four months dying to go back home just to eat something which wasn’t almost uncooked meat or terrible veggie burgers but this semester i’ve somehow decided i wanna treat myself. I trying to cook myself food (a+ food) and sometimes i make extra food so that i can freeze it and eat it whenever i don’t feel like cooking. I’ve discovered nice recipes just browsing the internet! (unfortunately, i’m italian and i can’t link you my cook blog references but i’d be happy to translate it for you so just text me if you wanna know more!)
  • body lotions: fucking use it! they make you skins softer and scented and i swear they make me feel like i’m truly taking care of myself!
  • clean your room: sometimes you are just overwhelmed by work and everything but you’ve gotta remember that a nice and tidy environment is truly helpful! (i can’t tell you more because i’m still working on it lmao)
  • allow yourself to relax: sometimes i feel guilty when i’m not studying so i force myself to keep my eyes on books but sometimes i feel like it’s  counter-prodictive.  The more you study the more tired you are and it’s tolerable when exams are on because you know you’re gonna relax as they’re over but how about when they’re still far? Just chill: you’ll be refreshed and stronger for your exams!