You were the last thing I expected, and it took the space of a second to fall.
Still, that distance between seeing you and falling in love with you, though a simple blip in time, carries its own meaning. A vast gulf between past and present, between going through the motions and blazing, screaming life.
It took me the whole night to realize it, but the truth is, I was in love with you the moment I spotted you on that park bench, singing the song that resonated in a heart that must not have been as broken as I thought, if I could notice you.
The Christmas lights formed a runway around us, a halo of lights that caught in your eyes, that made us glow even more than we already were.
I was foolish for not seeing it sooner.
And I guess this is the ultimate goodbye letter, tossed into the wind of cyberspace, a million clicked links away from where you’ll ever see it.
This is a message shouted into the wind, and maybe it will be carried to you one day, when winter comes again and the town turns to magic and you hear that whisper of remembrance threaten to cloud all of you with nostalgia.
Maybe you’ll feel this. Like a song you half-remember, or an old friend you don’t quite recognize.
Maybe your memory will allow you to see it in my eyes.
I loved you then.
I love you still.
And I guess time tore us apart, I guess Christmas can’t last forever or it’s not special, I guess we’ll both move on with our lives, and be happy, and never see each other again.
But just in case.
Just for old times’ sake.
I hope you see this.
I hope one day this trail of lights leads you back to me.
— ‘”Trail of Lights”