it took me reading the books to give a shit about the tv series

Thank you so much @myhighlordrhysand for the tag! I love answering questions about myself lmao but trust me I’m not self obsessed

1) What is your favourite book of all time?

ACOMAF. But i’ll give you another one as that’s pretty obvious, the sky is everywhere :)

2) Who is the most famous person you’ve met?

I met Tom from the Wanted the other week, okay met is a stretch, it was more like I stood in the same area as him as he took pictures with people
3) Besides ACOTAR, what are your favourite book series?

ToG, Harry Potter, TWILIGHT, The Lunar Chronicles, Anna and the French Kiss except ive only read the first book so does this even count? Shatter Me, The Selection, Percy Jackson, The Mortal Instruments, shit I nearly left off Six of Crows that like one of my ultimate faves

4) What thing do you really want to see in ACOWAR?

Elain surprising everyone and not being the delicate flower they expect but being a bad ass bitch who will kill you if you harm her or anyone she loves

5) You can invite any 3 people from the present/history/fiction to a dinner party, who do you invite?

I could be smart and invite amazing historical people but I’m not. I’m inviting Edward Cullen um yes of course I am, Rhysand of bloody course, Jesper Fahey, I’m cheating and adding a fourth because that’s just me so Paul Jason Klein

6) Last TV show you watched?

I watched the latest episode of Reign, guys Reign is my fave programme its amazing you should watch it

7) What book are you recommending right now?

the Shatter Me series and Anna and the French Kiss

I’m tagging @moonxpirate @readinglikewildfire @katgirl05 @vukica10

1) What Friends character would you be?

2) Your all time favourite colour?

3) If you could swap places with a character from a book / tv show,  who would it be and why?

4) What’s your favourite flower?

5) Who are your top 3 favourite characters?

6) Continuing that question, you have to kill one of them, who is it?

7) What’s your favourite tv programme of all time?

anonymous asked:

Top 5 Sastiel moments?? xc

Okay, Anon. This was much more of a challenge than I thought it would be. I had a whole list planned out when I started this response and then I kept thinking of more moments and it turns out I’m really super emotional about this ship??? I love all of the quiet, casual moments of interaction we get between them. These are two people who genuinely understand and get each other, in the end.
[See my other top 5 lists here!]

1. “Nothing is worth losing you” - First Born (9.11)
Castiel: “Well, whatever Grace was inside you is gone now. What’s left of Gadreel is in here. We’ll just have to try the spell with what we have.”
Sam: “Damn it.”
Castiel: “Sam, I want Gadreel to pay as much as you do. But nothing is worth losing you.”

Always and forever my top Sastiel moment. This was the episode that took me from casual “This is kind of cute” onlooker to “THIS IS THE MOST ADORABLE THING” shipper. For the first time in way, way too many episodes seasons someone finally told Sam how important he was. It wasn’t someone telling Sam that they needed him or that his life was important to them. It was Castiel telling Sam, to his face, that his existence was worth everything. And, again for the first time in a long time, we see someone - Cas - understand Sam and relate to how he feels. Sam seems to get shunted to the background so often in these more recent seasons, so to see Castiel tell him how important and valued he is just for being gives me a massive case of the warm and fuzzies.
And then we get that adorable scene of Sam and Cas hugging at the end of the episode and I can forget for a little while how much I disliked this season. Also, the bonding over peanut butter and jelly sandwiches.

2. The unabashed flirting in Holy Terror (9.09)
Castiel: “It is so good being together again.  You know, this is my first beer as a human.  I hope it’s okay, me joining you?”
Sam: “Why wouldn’t it be okay?”

These giant fucking nerds and their casual flirting. Cas is so pleased to be acting like a real hunter and Sam just thinks it’s the best damn thing ever and they both keep giving each other these ridiculously dopey smiles and Dean’s just being dragged along for the ride. Plus there’s that whole “Agent.” “Agent.” exchange that’s just so adorable that it makes me weak.
It’s the kind of casual interaction between Cas and Sam that I so long for all the time on this show and it’s the most adorable damn thing ever before the entire episode goes to shit.

3. Boyfriend Road Trip - Inside Man (10.17)
Castiel: “So you will answer our questions, or Sam will, um … What’s the phrase?  Blow your fricking brains out.  It’s called leverage, Metatron.”
Sam: “Learn it, live it, love it.  How do we get rid of the Mark?”

This episode was such a gift. An entire episode focused almost entirely on Sam and Cas road tripping their way through a heavenly crime spree of angelic kidnapping. It’s the stuff AU dreams are made of to be honest. Sure, their ultimate goal is to find a way to help Dean, but. Castiel listens intently to Sam’s research. Cas tries to show off and impress Sam by busting down the door to the psychic’s house. SEANCE HAND HOLDING. Working together to scare the everloving shit out of Metatron because they are intimidating, dorky, adorable, ruthless boyfriends who just happily road trip cross country with each other.

4. Cas choosing Sam over everything in The Song Remains the Same (5.13)
Castiel: “The answer’s still no. Because Sam is my friend.”
Anna: “You’ve changed.”
Castiel: “Maybe too late, but I have. Anna, we’ve been through much together, but you come near Sam Winchester and I’ll kill you.”

Oh, you know, just the moment where Castiel chooses Sam over the entire damn world. Anna offers up an opportunity to prevent the apocalypse and stop Lucifer - and Cas tells her they’ll find another way. Like, Anna - one of Castiel’s friends and superiors - literally proposes a solution where Sam’s death alone could save the entire world, and Cas says no to her. Because Sam is his friend. He chooses to go against Anna and heaven and the entire world for Sam Winchester.
Honestly, what makes this moment so remarkable to me is that it’s the first time I really saw a clear indication of how much Sam meant to Cas. Before, it felt like all of their interactions were through a Dean lens of sorts where everything about them revolved around Dean’s role in their lives and preventing the apocalypse and then we get to this episode and… Gah. Cas chooses Sam’s life over saving the world.

5. Netflix and Cas just casually hanging in Sam’s bed for weeks (11.04)
Sam: “Your job is to relax. Read a book, watch some Netflix.”
Castiel: “What’s a Netflix?”
Sam: “Go to my room, turn on the TV. You’ll figure it out.”

This entire little storyline brings me so much delight. Sam - Sam who has never really felt comfortable in a home his entire life - offers up his room to Cas while he recovers. He just gives Cas permission to go into his room and hang there as long as he wants to. And boy does Cas hang there for a long damn time. Long enough that he gets through a handful of significant series on Netflix. And, no big deal, just casually lays himself down in Sam’s bed to do his TV-watching. However long two episodes is in Supernatural time he hangs in there. I get really emotional to think about Sam letting Cas into this safe space of his and allowing him to stay there. In his bed. On his Netflix account.
What does Cas do when Sam goes to bed? Is there cuddling? Does anyone else totally melt at the idea of Sam having that quiet, reassuring company beside him at night?

Runner ups include… Sam plotting out his ship name with Cas like a student doodling portmanteaus in the margins of their notebooks in 10.05. (Like why is this not a top 6 because I love this moment so much???) Sam praying to Cas after everything in 7.01. Cas going on his own to rescue Sam from The Cage before season 6.

[Ask me my Top 5 anything!]

anonymous asked:

Can I get how got7 would react to their gf having an intimidating vibe ( like always dressing in ripped jeans and black leather jacket) but she's actually really weird and dorky? Thank you 💜

Sorry for the late reply, I just changed the request a little bit just so I could work with it more, hopefully you still like it! :)

Anything in italics is your personal thought, anything in bold italics is the boys personal thoughts and lastly Y/N means your name :)

JB: You were running late of your date with JB and he was patiently waiting on the couch waiting for you to finish, but you still didn’t have an outfit ready to wear. 

“Y/N are you ready yet?” 

“Almost I just need to finish my makeup, and pick out an outfit.” You shouted behind the closed restroom door.

“I can pick out your outfit!” JB got up and started to make way to your room, he opened your closet to see your clothes broken up into two sections, the left side it was your ripped jeans and black clothing and the right side was all your Disney and band merch tshirts. JB was laughing at all the dorky shirts you had. You heard a knock on the restroom door and once you opened the door there was a JB holding a red Mickey Mouse t-shirt with black pants. “Jagi you would look cute in this.”

You slammed the door in JB’s face, while rolling your eyes at him.

“You’re a cute dork!! Come on y/n. Open the door! STOP BEING MAD AT ME!!” 

Mark: “Mark! Hurry up the movie is about to start!” It was friday night, which means it was you and Mark’s weekly movie night and it was your week to pick the movie.

“I’m coming. I’m coming.” He was holding the blanket and the bowl of popcorn. “What movie are we watching? I forgot to ask.”

You grabbed the bowl of popcorn, before you could answer the opening scene of Star Wars Episode IIII started to play.

“Star Wars? Really? I never thought you would be into this sort of stuff, you’re more into those documentary films..” Mark turned to face you.


“You’re so weird but I love you.” He put his arm around you and brought you close to him and gave you a kiss on the top of your head.

Jackson: It was Wednesday night and typically you do facial masks while you try to catch up on the shows that you missed on Monday and Tuesday due to work. You took off your combat boots, jeans, black long sleeve and switched into your Little Mermaid sweatshirt and yoga pants. You walked to the restroom and after you applied your avocado mask, you heard the front door opening.

“Babe where are you!?!? I’VE MISSED YOU!! COME LOVE ME!!” 

There was your annoying but lovable boyfriend who came home 4 hours early. Shit what do I do!? “I’m in the restroom! I’ll be out in 20!” Panic mood started to panic, so you locked the door.

“Why do you need 20 minutes in the restroom?” Jackson asked while walking closer to the restroom. “Why is the door locked, Jagi open the door!! LOVE ME!!”

“Jackson I’m busy!!” 

“Can I see your face?? Pleaseeeee.” Jackson’s voice was getting to the point where you couldn’t say no to him. You unlocked door and gave him your resting b***h face look. His eyes got really wide “You look really cute and funny like really funny but mainly cute! Stop giving me that intimidating look just love me already!!”

Junior: “Junior don’t you have enough books at home?” You were bored out of your mind, your boyfriend smooth talked you into going to the book store with him. The was the seventh book he picked out and still was deciding if he wanted to get this one or something different.

“Jagiya, I’m looking for the right book. Go look around the store maybe you’ll find something that catches your interest.” 

You groaned and turned away to leave your boyfriend to his books. You walked aimlessly around the store until you something did catch your attention. It was the comic book section. I wonder if they have the comic that I’m missing.. Hmm.. After 5 minutes of searching you found it! You found Batman/Superman #29, the newest one of the series and you were super happy. Just as you were about to start reading you heard your name.

“Y/N why are you in the comic section?” Junior asked while holding 4 books in his arm. “I didn’t know you were into this sort of stuff..”

“What do you mean by that?” That slight comment angered you because all your life everybody would say that too you since you were a girl.

“Its nothing bad, I mean you don’t dress like you would like it and you never brought it up before.” As soon as he finished saying his comment, he instantly regretted it.

“OHHHH I’M SORRY JUNIOR I DIDN’T KNOW I HAD TO WEAR CERTAIN THINGS TO LIKE COMIC BOOKS! IM! SO! SORRY!! And since I never brought it up before let me do that right now. Superman is a million times better then Batman!” Now that you started you weren’t going to stop. You really didn’t care if people were giving you looks

Is she really going to argue about Superman and Batman? I fell in love with a huge dork. He smiled to himself and just looked at you with amazement.

Youngjae: You told your boyfriend that while he was away on tour you would take care of Coco. He was incredibly happy because the person he loves would take care of the dog he loves. After spending 2 weeks with coco you were upset that she would be going back to the boys dorm soon and you didn’t want her to leave. As you came home after a long day at work there was coco waiting by the door for you to come home. You took off your heels and put your leather jacket in the hallway closet and little coco followed right behind you, jumping so you can pick her up. You grabbed her, headed towards the tv and put on your favorite movie Aladdin and had coco sitting on your lap. When the “A Whole New World” scene come on you got up and started singing to coco and while holding her close to your chest you were dancing all over the living room floor. At the same moment you didn’t hear the front door opening.

“Jagi, I’m home early! I’ve missed you and coco so much! I have to tell you what Bambam did-” Youngjae stopped mid-sentence when he saw what you were doing. 


He never thought you would do something like this ever. 

Why is she so weird? But she’s really cute at the same time. I’ve missed her so much.. I picked the right girl.

Bambam: He invited you as his guest to a fashion show and of course he wanted to go matching because he’s just that type of boyfriend that would be into that type of stuff. Everyone would look at the two of you when you entered the room. Your outfits consisted of ripped black skinny jeans, black ankle boots, black long sleeved shirt with thin white stripes while wearing a long wool coat. After the show ended, you went to the after party where you just mostly kept to yourself because you rather have Bambam be the loud one out of the relationship while you just gave people the vibe that you didn’t want to be bothered. He noticed you were being awfully quiet and knew you were probably getting bored plus he noticed the time; it was getting late and you had to get home soon so you can get some rest for work tomorrow.

“Y/n let’s go.” He flashed a smile and lightly grabbed your hand and took you outside. “Want some ice cream?” You nodded your head yes and started to walk towards the nearest store. After you got your ice cream, Bambam wanted to go to the park and sit on the swings. It was nice outside; it was a starry night, with a gentle wind hitting your face.

“Jagi what are you thinking about?” Bambam noticed you were staring at the stars and were barely touching your ice cream.

“Huh? Oh no you would think its weird.” You still were looking at the stars

“Try me.”

“Bambam do you ever wonder if aliens are real? Like what if the government is hiding everything from us? We have all those really random videos, and theres stories plus NASA could be hiding things too!! Its just there’s so many galaxy’s what if they live over there. Also there could be a parallel universe too and what if there’s also–” You were starting to get on a roll but you were interrupted

“Jagi. You’re being really weird and I’m not use to it but keep going. I like this side of you.” *insert gif*

Yugyeom: You were patiently waiting for Yugyeom outside of the movie theatre, he was running late and told you to pick the movie that you wanted to see and he’ll meet you outside.

Maybe I should call him to see where he is.. Your pull out your phone trying to get a hold of your boyfriend and you hear a ring tone behind you. You felt a tap on your shoulder, as you turn around there was your loving boyfriend sweating and tired. 

“Y/n I’m sorry I’m late. Practice was running late but I made it just in time. Right? Has the movie started? Am I too late?” He was starting to babble and you knew if he kept going you would definitely be late for sure. You grabbed his arm and dragged him inside. While you were waiting in line to buy some popcorn. Yugyeom asked another question. “What movie are we watching?”

“Star Wars Episode 7: The Force Awakens!!” 

“Ohh” Yugyeom looked sort of upset.

“What’s wrong?”

“I just don’t know much about the storyline.”

“Wait seriously?” You looked looked at him in shocked. “Well luck you, your girlfriend loves Star Wars so here’s a quick summary. This takes place in the far off galaxy and it’s in the middle of a civil war pretty much in the galaxy and the Empire is trying to get rid of all the good guys who are called Jedis. Okay? So what happens next is…..” You went on and on and you kept getting looks because of the vast knowledge you knew about Star Wars. While you were sitting down in your seats you were still going on about how Anakin only did this to protect the love of his life even though she died.

“Jagi. Jagiya, the trailers are about to start maybe you should lower your voice.”

“oh right sorry!” You had the hugest smile on your face and started to stuff your face with popcorn.

She is a huge dork, but she’s my dork. He kept giving you glances and a tender smile, seeing how excited you were for the movie.

Alternate Version - Part Three

Part One, Part Two

Summary: Castiel figures out what happened, and you finally get your memory back.
Words: 1,260
Sam x Reader, Dean x Castiel
Warnings: None

A/N: Last part of the series! Sorry it’s taken so long!

Your name: submit What is this?

The drive back to the bunker was filled with a companionable silence. You were looking out of the window, taking in the scenery for the first time (other than on your TV back at home), occasionally glancing over at Sam and smiling at the calm, content look on his face.

He caught you watching him when he checked the wing mirror.

“What’re you looking at?” he asked, smiling.

You smiled back, “You’re gorgeous. I can’t believe I landed someone like you.”

He laughed and shook his head, looking back at the road ahead, “I’ve been asking myself the same thing for years.”

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mine again

I was in the guest room backstage, getting ready to leave. I had just got done with an interview with Ellen (fucking love this bitch) where she asked me about an upcoming tv series I was gonna be starring in. I’ve been an actress for 2 years now, and it’s been really fun. I’ve met a lot of important people through it.

Like my boyfriend Derek

Now, I’m not a virgin by no means. I lost that when I was 18, but Derek and I, as much as we fool around, we haven’t done it. I’ve been trying to make him wait, because, well I know his reputation. But tomorrow was 5 months for us, and I decided I wanted to finally do it tomorrow.


It was late, around 8:00. After my interview this morning, I went over and hung out with Derek, and we did get pretty close to doing it, but I had to stop him, and he flopped in bed next to me and groaned, but nevertheless still pulled me into him so we could cuddle.

I went home, cause I had to be on set early tomorrow, but Derek was going out with the guys for the night. Celebrating the release of a new mixtape.

It wasn’t even 10 when I was getting drunk texts from Derek. I laughed at how cute and cheesy they were, but then they started getting more…vulgar, so I texted him ‘goodnight, be safe. i’ll see you tomorrow. 5 months baby’


I woke up the next morning and showered, getting ready for the day. I was excited to do this tv series, I read the books it was based off of, and I couldn’t be more excited.

After we finished for the day I went home and got ready for Derek and I’s date tonight. He texted me earlier, telling me how excited he was for tonight, how much he loved me.

Dinner was amazing. It was so beautiful and elegant, and just perfect. Derek got me flowers when he picked me up and was dressed in a nice little long sleeve button up shirt, and black jeans. He looked good.

The ride home I couldn’t help myself. I wanted him tonight. I was ready. I loved him, so why not. I placed my hand in his lap, dangerously close to his ‘little’ friend. He looked at me and smiled, before paying attention to the road again.

I moved my hand and started to palm him through his jeans. I looked at him innocently and batted my lashes. His jaw clenched and his grip on the steering wheel tightened.

“whatchu doing babygirl?”

“nothing.” I said sweetly, undoing the button and zipper, and pulling his member out. 

Pumping it a few times I leaned over the center console and placed a kiss on the head, before taking my tongue and swirling it around, and then finally lowering my mouth around him.

Bobbing my head up and down, pumping what I couldn’t fit in my mouth with my hand.

Derek was moaning above me as I did this thing with my tongue that I know he really loves, and when he twitched in my mouth I knew he was close. Deep throating him, and gagging I felt him start to cum. Sucking him off and swallowing all his release I sat back up.

“my girl got some great talent” he laughed.

I playfully hit his arm and laughed “way to ruin the mood.”

“what was that for anyway?”

“why are you questioning your girlfriend giving you road head?” I laughed. “but, just getting you ready for later.” I smirked. 

He turned and looked at me, and I’m assuming he knew what I meant because his eyes went kinda wide and he sped up. We were back to his place in half the time it shoulda took, and I was laughing as Derek ran out of the car and over to my side, opening my door and practically pulling me out.

Making out against the front door while he tried to unlock it was quite entertaining, cause he would mutter out ‘oh shit’ and ‘fuck’ against my lips. 

I moved my lips to his neck, and in a matter of seconds he finally had the door open, and we were stumbling backwards into the place, before he had walked me to the couch, and we fell backwards on it.


I woke up the next morning, naked and cuddled up with Derek on the couch. I smiled remembering last night, and admittedly kinda hated myself for making him wait this long. Last night was great. I got up, and put on his shirt and headed into the kitchen to make some coffee.

While in the kitchen I heard Derek’s phone go off in the other room. I ignored it, but it went off like 6 times. I was just gonna go turn it on vibrate, I swear. But when I saw the messages I freaked.

from: 555-6969
we need to talk
Derek, don’t ignore me.
I’ll sell out our story.
This is urgent
I’m pregnant, and there’s a chance it’s yours..

the last message was a shock. I’d text them back and tell them they had the wrong number, but clearly they didn’t since they said his name.

I texted back ‘who is this?’

and within seconds got a reply that shattered my heart. 

from: 555-6969
seriously? it’s Miranda, the girl from last night… how could you forget ‘the best you’ve had’

I was pissed. I threw the phone at Derek, hitting him in the face, causing him to wake up.

“what the fuck?” he groaned, opening his eyes a bit and smiling “aye, you look good in my shit.”


“who?” He groaned, sitting up.

“oh, maybe you don’t remember her name but apparently ‘the best you’ve had’ from the other night.” I spit.

“I don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about.”

“check your fucking phone, you’re new baby mama texted you this morning.” I scoffed. He unlocked his phone and read over the messages while I threw on my panties.

“fuck.” he mumbled. “look, it’s no-”

“save it Derek. Honestly. I don’t give a fuck. I’m done. I’m stupid for thinking this would work. Honestly. all of it was a fucking lie. ‘I love you’ my fucking ass.” I was pissed, but I wasn’t crying…yet. I knew I would later. 

I was over by the door and grabbed my purse.

“I was d-”

“DON’T!” I yell, my hand on the door handle, but I turned to look at him. “I DON’T WANT YOUR FUCKING EXCUSES. YOU’RE PATHETIC.” I scream and his face falters a bit and then he turns cold.

“you’re right. I didn’t love you. I was only with you for sex. Once I got it from you I was gonna leave your ass.” he chuckled.

“fuck you.” I spit, slamming the door on my way out. 

I didn’t even care how ridiculous I looked. Walking down the street in a pair of boxers, and  nice button up shirt. 

I pulled out my phone and called the only person I could think of.

hey (y/n), what’s up’
um..hey Nate
I sniffled.
shit what’s up?’
Um…I kinda need a ride.
‘of course. where you at?’
i’m leaving Dereks, I’m right on the corner of his road and the main one.
‘okay, I’ll be there soon’

I hung up before he could say anything else. Now is when I started to cry. How could I have been so dumb. I shoulda known he was just using me. 

It wasn’t long before Nate was pulling up.

“fuck, what the hell happened to you?” he asked as I got in the car. I wiped at my eyes and sniffled.

“nothing. I’m fine.”

“that’s clearly bullshit.”

“it’s nothing Nate. I just…I need a place to stay for a bit.”

“you can stay at mine-”


“if you tell me what the fuck happened.”

“I’ll find somewhere else to stay.” 

“fuck don’t do that.” He looked at me as we pulled up to his place. “you’re clearly not in your clothes, so obviously something happened with D-fuck, did you?”

I didn’t say anything. I just looked down and played with my hands as tears started to come out again.

“what happened? I mean, I know he’s shit in bed compared to me, but it couldn’t have been that bad.” Nate laughed, trying to lighten the mood, which did make me smile a bit.

“h-he-he cheated.” I cried.

“what the fuck?” he asked, looking at me.


“he cheated?”

“yeah. the other night”

“well I mean, I’m sure you guys can get through that. I do remember him that night. He was drunk as fuck and he kept smoking. He probably doesn’t even remember.”

“that doesn’t matter. He…He was using me. He said once we..ya know, he was gonna leave me.”

“I’m sorry (y/n)” Nate spoke as we just sat in his car and stared at his garage door. We just sat in silence for a bit until Nate finally got out and came over and opened my door and we headed into his place.


“Nate, get off me” I laughed, as Nate straddled my lap as I was sitting on the couch. The guys, being Jack and Jack and Nash and Sammy were over and we were all hanging out. 

I’ve been living with Nate for a month now. It’s honestly really helped me cope with the whole Derek thing.

Nate was super sweet and like a big brother. Yeah, at a party, we fooled around, but we woke up the next morning, and started busting out laughing. We didn’t go all the way, he just ate me out cause he was ‘tired of me being so sad’ so he thought he’d make me feel better. We were drunk, what did you expect.

So ever since then we’ve just gotten really close. Practically inseparable. We were close before, but now we were even closer friends.

Nate just looked at me and rolled his eyes before he started to tickle me. He knew I was a little ticklish, but he also found out about the one spot on my body that was more ticklish than the rest. No one knew about that spot besides him. He found it when we were drunk.

I started laughing, squirming underneath him.

“just kiss already.” Sammy laughed, causing Nate to stop and look behind him, and I saw Johnson had his phone out, no doubt recording it…he was lowkey a snapchat addict.

Nate turned back to me his hands still tickling me. I knew how to get out of this though. I reached up and grabbed caressed his face with one hand, and started to lean in. Nate stopped moving his hands on my sides and I felt him relax, and just as our lips were about to meet, I pushed him off me onto the ground.

I got up and walked to the kitchen, calling out to the guys to see if they wanted to order a pizza or something, to which they all yelled back ‘yes’ so I called and placed the order.

While I waited, and the guys smoked and played fifa, I made myself a drink. Sure it was only like 12, but it’s 5 o’clock somewhere right?

About a half hour later the door goes off so I go to answer it, passing the boys who were either high or to busy with fifa, to the door. Pulling it open, digging around for money I look up to pay the guy and I freeze.

“hey (y/n)”

“since when do you deliver pizzas?” I asked, folding my arms over my chest.

“I don’t. I was on my way over here and bumped into the delivery guy, so I gave him a hundred dollars to give me the pizza so I could do it instead. He just left.”

“okay, well here’s $25 for it. That’s all I have.” I speak, holding out money.

“I didn’t come here for your money.” 

“then why did you come here Derek?”

“look, can we talk?” he asked. “please?” he begged as he saw me roll my eyes, but I agreed to anyway, taking the pizza inside to the boys before coming back outside to talk to Derek, who was sitting on the steps, so I sat down next to him, not too close though.

He was silent for a minute, and I started getting annoyed. I mean, I could be inside eating pizza right now instead of sitting out on the stoop with him.

“well are you gonna talk?” I asked, looking at him sideways.

“yeah, I was just thinking of how to go about this.”

“about what?” I asked, and he just stared ahead at the road.

“Derek” I speak, the tone of my voice annoyed.

“do you remember how we first met?”

“yeah.” I let out a little laugh. “you were so pissed that I was in Nate’s video for we can do because you thought me and him were together.”

“yeah. I mean, you seen the video right? you looked so damn hot, and I got so pissed because I knew Nate wouldn’t do you right. Don’t get me wrong, he’s my man and all, but, I know his tendencies.”

“Derek. you do realize t-”

“yeah, I do. But Trust me when I say this babygirl. I don’t even remember it.”

“probably shouldn’t have got so fucked up.”

“I know. And it’s all on me. It is. I shoulda been more careful. I met up with her. Marissa or whatever the fuck her name was.”

“Miranda” I whisper out.

“you remember her name?” he asked.

“it’s kinda hard to forget it…I seem to remember bad things pretty easily.”

“babygirl, I’m so sorry. I met up with her, I’m not the father. She’s two months pregnant, and it was only a month ago that..ya know.” he trailed off.


“well, I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry for doing that. I wanna try us again, if you want to.” he looked at me, reaching and placing a hand on my bare thigh, causing me to look at him. We were a lot closer now than we were when we sat down.

“Derek” I sighed.

“please baby.”

“If it would have just been the cheating, I could get over that. I mean, you were trashed, Nate showed me videos. And I saw the videos of her coming onto you. You could barely stand.”

“then please, can we try us again?”

“What you said that morning. I still think about it all the time. I cried for 3 days Derek.”

“shit baby, you know I didn’t mean it. I was just mad, and you know me, when I get mad I can’t control what comes out of my mouth.”

“it’s just hard to believe this will be different.”

“please (y/n). This past month has been hell without you. Not a day went by when I didn’t think about you. I woke up every morning to an empty bed, remembering you weren’t there. And at night, before I fell asleep, I always thought ‘maybe she’ll come home tonight’ and when I woke up the next morning to an empty bed, it killed me. I miss you so much. Please. I’ll do anything.”

“you said you didn’t love me.” I whisper out, barely audible.

I turned to look at him, tears brimming my eyes, about to fall out and his face was soft. He looked hurt.

He just grabbed my face and smashed his lips onto mine. It took me .2 seconds to respond. I grabbed a fistful of his shirt in my hands and pulled him closer to me.

I still loved him. I felt all the sparks you hear about in those cheesy romance movies. I was drawn to him, no matter what I did, or where life took me. It was him.

“I love you so fucking much (y/n). It scares me. I was an idiot. I’m an idiot. I let the best thing in my life slip right out of my hands. I’m so sorry for anything I said that morning, I’m sorry for the night before. I regret it so much. I’d give up rapping to be with you. I’d give up everything to be with you. The house, the car, the fame, the money, anything. I love you so damn much. I lied that morning, cause it was easier to tell myself I didn’t love you than to have the love of my life walk out on me cause I’m an idiot who only thinks with his dick.” he let out a little chuckle, trying to lighten the mood.

I was silent. I had tears falling down my face, getting caught by Derek’s thumbs still resting on my cheeks as he held my face to look at him.

“please, say something.” he whispered out.

“I-I still love you.” I muttered out, and he broke out into a smile, pressing his lips to mine.

“so you’re mine again?” he asked, against my lips.

“I’ve always been yours.” I replied before meeting his lips again.

anonymous asked:

i hope you don't mind me asking but do you have any recs for like genuinely good vampire series? or anything vampire related

uhhh this is a difficult question to answer because I don’t know your vampire #biases like vampire stories go from horror n gore to like soapy ya and I, being a connoisseur and a scholar, will consume pretty much the entire spectrum of vampire related media lmao. But I will do my best.

(oh, and also - i’ve taken under assumption when you say vampires you mean series where they’re like actual characters and not just zombie fill in villains ie. the 30 days of night series and i am legend. but you should watch both of those things anyway cause they’re pretty good.)


  • let the right one in - the original, not the remake though the remake is passable in a david fincher’s girl with the dragon tattoo kind of way. The original is weird and spine chilling and atmospheric and haunting and you should absolutely check it out.
  • a girl walks home alone at night - The summary for this movie is: ‘ Residents of a worn-down Iranian city encounter a skateboarding vampire who preys on men who disrespect women.’. WATCH IT
  • from dusk to dawn - the series, the movie is alright (just youtube selma hayek’s dance scene honestly) but the series is sooooo good, it’s actually one of my favourite currently airing series in general. 
  • being human - the uk series, though the american one is also very watchable. really really good and explores a lot of the morality and consequences of being a supernatural creature/vampire especially. also aidan turner is so much hotter when he’s playing quasi evil dudes


  • look everyone hates this movie but i loved byzantium. gemma arterton as a misandrist vicious vampire mother furiously trying to protect herself and her fragile waif daughter saoirse ronan and garotting people in the process? Blood fountains? that dude who’s playing darcy in pride and prejudice and zombies as an enforcer of the vampire dude mafia come to kill gemma arterton but is actually totally in love with her and can’t look at her without melting into a puddle of goo? SIGN ME UP! THAT’S SOME GOOD SHIT
  • look you’re probably not going to believe me but the originals is actually REALLY, REALLY GOOD. like, if you absolutely hate soapy/cw esque shows it’s clearly not going to be for you, but i live for the trash and this is my favourite trash. you don’t have to watch the vampire diaries to understand it (though watching a few eps with the originals probs wouldn’t hurt) and like, it is such a bounty of the creme de la creme of vampire fiction tropes. weird victorian esque no touchey sexual tension, sophisticated lookin suit wearin definitely sociopathic tribal minded loyal to the end murderers, it’s set in new orleans, everyone’s good looking, honestly give it a go you will not be disappointed 
  • hellsing. hellsing is this anime/manga series i used to LIVE FOR when i was like, 13 lmao. it’s pretty bloody/lots of gore and there’s like undead nazis? and stuff but the core story is about alucard (it’s dracula……….. BACKWARDS) this super powerful vampire who is enslaved to the hellsing (as in abraham van) corporation which is led by this super cold super efficent lady called integra and alucard is absolutely batshit crazy in love with her and she basically treats him like this savage animal that’s under her control lmao it’s so great also there’s warrior catholic priests
  • true blood, the first two seasons of this show were LEGIT. this was my shit in high school. don’t even say ‘godric/eric roof scene’ to me unless you want me to start crying blood and pleading in swedish. however, it goes to complete shit after season two and you’re going to be invested and feel like you have to keep watching for your faves. don’t do it. don’t doooo itttt
  • buffy and angel, though i was always more of a buffy girl. honestly on rewatch i don’t love this series as much, but it was absolutely formative for me as a yung supernatural lovin’ kid. THE SEASON TWO ENDING REMAINS THE MOST FUCKED UP GREAT SHIT
  • vampire academy. lmao i read this series when i was in high school in the midst of the post twilight vampire boom phase and that probably definitely influenced my opinion here, but it’s probably my favourite ya vampire series.
  • underworld. i’m pretty sure this is where the fucking werewolves vs vampires thing came about? which like, thanks for NOTHING kate beckinsale, but other than that these movies are good trashy 00′s goth n leather suits fun. 
  • the vampire chronicles series by anne rice, it’s actually this whole book saga that incorporates like three different series and witches and there’s like 25 books or whatever but i used to love them a lot as teen. the movies are good too - interview with the vampire obviously a classic, and queen of the damned is a 00′s hot mess but worth it for AALIYAH AS AKASHA AFOREMENTIONED QUEEN OF THE DAMNED
  • hotel transylvania? HOTEL TRANSYLVANIA
  • moonlight. this was a funny little show that only lasted a season (rip) with the dude from hawaii 5-0 as a moody vampire and sophia myles as the object of his maudlin affections with bonus logan from veronica mars as an i don’t give a fuck rich dick vampire and shannon sossaman as the protagonist’s evil femme fatale ex/vampire sire. it was legit. 
  • the carmilla youtube series
  • when i was reallly young i watched this anime called karin? and it was about this girl born into a vampire family but she was like, the world’s shittiest vampire and instead of craving blood she like produced too much blood and would get these massive nosebleeds and she was in love with this completely normal useless dude and kept on trying to hide the fact her family were these creepy ass vampires from him lmao. it was dope 
  • the blade series


  • vampire diaries. don’t do it. also they only wrote in diaries for like half a season #falseadvertising
  • anita blake vampire hunter. nooooooooooooo
  • this fucking weird ya series called like evernight? the only good thing about it was that the vampire reveal was a fakeout and you thought the dude was the vampire but it was actually the girl. more flipped trope vampire girl/human love interest stories @ world
  • house of night. house of nooooooo
  • honestly like 80% of the entire post twilight vampire boom. it takes some serious diggin to find gold in that hot mess


  • the 1992 dracula movie, solid aesthetics but like is it brilliant? not very. 6/10
  • the dracula tv series with jonathan rhys meyers, it only lasted a season and he was creepy weird but the reincarnated lovers trope is always great and lucy was absolutely butt crazy in love with mina, and it ruled. 6/10
  • the dracula untold movie. charles dance was a vampire living in a cave and apparently he was also meant to be caligula???????? ??????????? 5/10 for luke evans and his cute wife and also again, reincarnated lovers trope
  • van helsing, i love this stupid movie but it is a stuuuupid movie. 5/10 for the ball scene and kate beckinsale’s dope 00′s corset/curls combo
  • the league of extraordinary gentleman - HAHAHAHA I LOVE THIS MOVIE SO MUCH. SOOOOOO MUCH PLEASE WATCH IT, IT’S SO BADGOOD. 8/10 BECAUSE MY BAROMETER IS TOTALLY SKEWED also the graphic novels it’s based on are actually brilliant and deserving of a true 8/10
  • the outkast song ‘dracula’s wedding’, 9/10
  • the count from sesame st, 10/10 please watch this
  • aforementioned hellsing, 7/10
  • dracula 2000, this movie sucked and it was PERSONALLY offensive to me because dracula was JUDAS ISCARIOT. 3/10
  • all the b movie old school draculas, collective 7/10
  • bram stoker’s actual book dracula, the reason this entire post exists, 7/10 i took off three points for bram playing like he didn’t totally rip the shit out of like fifteen different vampire myths from eastern europe
What Did I Miss? (Part 1/?) (Steve Rogers x reader)

Omg can you do an imagine where Steve gets out of the ice and the reader works for them or something and he ends up finding out she’s his granddaughter?

You could hear you phone ringing from the solitude of your shower, but it was the first few minutes that you had been given since returning from your last mission, and you would be damned if you were going to be interrupted now.  

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As requested . . .

As requested by @larriefreedom here are all my points from today’s argument in relation to what makes Shadowhunters good without the negative bits inbetween!

What, in our opinion, makes the show good?

*Cracks fingers* Well, to name a few….

The show is diverse. Honest to god it is one of the most diverse shows I have ever seen on telly, giving actors from all minorities opportunities to express their talent on-screen. They made sure they didn’t white wash Magnus and searched for Asian actors only and gave people like Alberto and Emeraude who actually deserve the ability to show the world how amazing they are despite their nationality is just fantastic.

But you’ve been going on and on about the source material so let’s examine that, shall we?

The main plot points of the show are the same from the source material. I.E: Find the Mortal Cup before Valentine; Save Clary’s mother. No matter what you think, as long as these points are followed and the main outcome is the same then the events that bring them to each plot development is subjective. And Shadowhunters has taken that opportunity and it used it to actually IMPROVE on some of the flaws from the book, and make them better.

1. The Parabatai Bond: Cassandra Clare bigged up the Parabatai Bond as something incredibly important, that if one half died or got injured the other would feel it. So, of course, whoever marks themself in a bond with someone else would be incredibly close with them. Yet, in the TMI series, Alec and Jace’s bond fluctuates between extremely important to “eh, it’s incidental”. Yet, in the show, we get things like the tracking; how the bond makes their abilities stronger. Or how they can fight as one in battle, seen in Pandemonium when they kill the demons together. It is given the importance it deserves!

2. Isabelle: Isabelle is given so much depth in the show. It would have been so easy to make her just another pretty face but the writers took the time to make her smart; loving; caring; sassy; and beautiful. Her relationship with Meliorn is mentioned and expanded upon, unlike in other adaptations of the books. I mean, in episode eight, she is THE BEST FORENSIC PATHOLOGIST IN NEW YORK. What else could you ask for?!

3. Clary and Alec: Clary and Alec’s behaviour towards each other is so much more realistic in the show than it ever was in the books. Clary doesn’t out Alec for the sake of spite or hurting him, nor does Alec force her against a wall or hurt her for saying it out loud. Throughout the episodes their relationship has been growing from hatred to dealing with one another to actually becoming friends. Something Cassandra Clare didn’t bother to show herself. She just had Alec express some remorse in Born to Endless Night, which not everyone will be aware of due to the fact that it is an eBook. The fact that he ever reacted violently to her in the first place was so impossibly OCC I was baffled that the author herself even wrote it. The show worked on this flaw and fixed it, creating another fabulous brotp for the franchise!

4. Isabelle and Alec: Isabelle and Alex are actually acting like brother and sister in the show! They’re teasing each other; worrying about each other; supporting each other; like any brother and sister would. Not just that, we actually get to SEE their interactions, not just have it going on behind the scenes where we don’t know what really happens between the two, simply glimmers of their behaviour around each other, which brings me on to point five…

5. Malec: The fact that I have to say that Malec getting actual screen time is a miracle is rather sad since we should have got it in the books. Anyone who complains that Magnus and Alex aren’t getting enough screen time certainly must have read different books than I did. Malec is getting more development in eight episodes than we got in six books. We actually get to see Magnus and Alec speak to each other; watch them interact and see their interest in one another blossom. Unlike in the books where it just goes on secretly with a few short stories to expand upon it later.

6. Alec is NOT a gay token character: What? Alec has more to him that just being an instrument in a gay ship? What?! Anarchy! On a serious note though, Alec is given more development in the series than just being that gay character who’s repressed and closeted and has no other plot to him. In the show Alec cares so much about his family that he is willing to give to his own freedom up to ensure that they keep the Institute and their family name retains its honour. He makes sure that it isn’t Izzy who is giving up her freedom. He doesn’t see himself as important enough to be worth falling for: hence why he doesn’t see Magnus’ advances. He’s too oblivious, too busy thinking that he isn’t worthy enough of someone else’s interest that all the flirting goes right over his head. He’s too caught up in making sure that he does his duty for his family, to do the only thing he thinks he’s good for: being the guardian to those he loves.

7. Maryse, Robert and Max: We’re actually seeing more of the Lightwood family and seeing how they treat their children and how they all work as a family unit. We’ll grow to care about them and learn more about them as the show progresses, and know more about their history and how important they believe it is for their kids to uphold the Lightwood name.

8. Infernal Devices references: I personally am not a fan of the Infernal Devices, however the fact that there are references to it in Shadowhunters shows that the writers and producers have actually taken the time to read Cassie’s other books and incorporate that into the tv show. References such as Tessa; The Spiral Labyrinth; Henry Branwell and the invention of the portal with Magnus; all of this shows to the audience how much the producers and writers cares about the show.

9. The small details: Isabelle’s necklace is the major example of this. They didn’t just give her a necklace that detects demons, they actually gave the necklace it’s back story with Magnus and Camille and the message written on the back. They take care with EVERY piece they take from the books and gives it the attention it deserves.

10. The actors: This is mainly a matter of opinion whether you believe the actors can embody their characters, however, you can’t deny that they all aren’t giving their all. Each and everyone of them are giving 100% each time they are on screen. Sure, in the beginning the acting was dodgy but with each episode it has been improving.

11. The circle: We get to see the back story of the circle, and they actually bothered to hire younger actors to portray Jocelyn, Luke and Valentine. We see what happened when they were younger and how the circle came around, and how it threatens the future now. Magnus even alludes to the uprising, something mentioned in the books that didn’t have to be touched upon but was.

12. Dynamics between Shadowhunters and Downworlders: We mainly see this in episode six when Magnus is telling Clary about her mother’s history, he describes how Valentine treated the Downworld and believed everyone within it was scum, and I have no doubt that we won’t see more the Shadowhunters in modern time behaving like Magnus is nothing but a tool to them, especially when Alec starts dating him. There’s a subliminal message of the Downworld being the minorities and the Shadowhunters being the privileged and that I think that’s just amazing.

13. Sebastian: We’re already getting Sebastian’s foreshadowing I mean come on!

14. MAGNUS IS BISEXUAL: They actually took the time to emphasise that Magnus is bisexual and the line ‘freewheeling bisexual’ will come in eventually, especially when we learn more about his past. He says ‘man or woman’ to Alec and it is said by Hodge that he gave the demon necklace to Camille Belcourt as a gift.

15. Alec and Jace: Jace actually treats Alec in the show the way he did in the books. He treats him like a convenience, someone who will come when he calls and not question it. Yet when someone outs him about this he would immediately go on the defensive, threatening anyone who dares to question their bond. We will see him realise how much he has been using Alec when Alec stops taking it and actually feel remorse for it.

16. Important messages: Accept who you are. Be who you want to be. Don’t let the fear of rejection stop you from fighting for what you believe in (and don’t you dare try to relate that to you stupid petition argument because in cancelling the show you’re doing more oppressing than anyone else). Girls can be badass. Girls can be scientists. Girls can be whatever the hell they want to be. It doesn’t matter what minority you are, you can still follow your dreams.

17. Strong female characters: Shadowhunters is giving us a wealth of strong female characters for younger viewers to look up to and aspire to be like. Isabelle is badass but also enjoys looking good and dressing well, oh and she’s a scientist! Clary is strong and badass, a bit misguided but who comes at every situation with everything she has. Lydia is a working woman who doesn’t take shit from anyone. Sure, we don’t know her true motives yet but so far she’s been great. May that change as her motives are revealed? Could do. But we don’t know yet.

A big thank you to everyone who supported me today throughout that ridiculous argument, it means so much to me! <3

wisdomgracious  asked:

can i ask what where those rumors of Shadowhunters?? Or what happened in general??

duuuuuuuuuude you missed some drama. this is a long post.

about 2 months ago, Fangirlish (a fansite/blog) posted a bunch of rumors in an article. they listed out rumors like Simon having a girlfriend, the characters would be older, the shadowhunters are a government agency, the series would be set in L.A or San Francisco, the title would be Shadowhunters, it would be sexier and darker. She posted all of this in an “open letter” to the writer of the series. After the fans lost their shit because of the post, she responded and said this about the backlash she was getting for attacking the writer in her open letter “(the show runner) wrote the pilot. So, after speaking to several people about the series, I made the decision to write him. And it definitely was not to attack him.” This is important. Remember this for later. And she had this to say “And after having read the script – which I have I can tell you this – the rumors are true. The pilot script is a hot mess.” This is also important for later. She read a script that had Natalie (Simon’s girlfriend) “it’s like they looked at the book, pulled some names and what everyone was, then burned the book. Ironically the person written the best in the pilot is Simon’s new girlfriend, Natalie. She’s the only one who seems to have a concrete story – so I wonder if she’s like this secret new Shadowhunter. I mean I can’t for the life of me understand why Clary is barely in it or why Jace kills a girl in the club versus a guy (yet another rumor that she tossed into her second post), but these are the changes that are being made.” Then she said this “I know that what I read is the pilot and that’s a first draft. There is the opportunity for change… Cause I don’t want Natalie. I want Clary. I want Jace to not be a creeper and put runes on parts of her body he doesn’t need to be touching while she is knocked the hell out (and even another rumor she put in). When this second post went up, everyone freaked out because they were like “SHE READ THE SCRIPT SO IT’S ALL TRUUUUUUUUUE!!1!” Then she said “Not to say I told you so, but I told you so. Cassie Clare confirmed that the title of the upcoming television show based on The Mortal Instrument book series. It is entitled Shadowhunters.” This confirmation is on Cassie’s twitter, and people thought that since this one rumor was true, it was all true. Which makes no sense because in many other countries, the books are called “Shadowhunters,” so I’m not sure why calling the TV series what other countries call the books means that all the rumors are facts. Then an ad went up on Craigslist LA, Fangirlish posted about it and got the word out. This ad was a casting call. This ad was NOT from Constantin, but from a casting agency called Pilot Season Breakdowns, who, with a google search, comes up with nothing but Craigslist ads, which shows that it’s not a legit Hollywood business. This is also shown by the fact that they post a way for you to get access to the “script” by going somewhere online after paying a fee to a fishy website. For a major TV series in LA, this is not how young actors are going to find scripts. This is how agents may be able to find peeks at legit scripts, but not the full thing because of legal reasons. But what still gets me is “Pilot Season Breakdowns” because the only website you can find for it is in the Craigslist ad and this is what it looks like:

Random people (definitely not headshots) and creepy illustration. Yup. This is who I trust to inform me about the scripts of supernatural teen shows. Then they start talking about characters in the ad, and Jace is just “After his father is killed,
Jace makes it his life mission to seek revenge on the man who is responsible”… laughable. Revenge story? Really? But the fans, and Fangirlish still couldn’t understand what a legit source was. So they took this information and rolled with it, so when the ad said that it was ordered straight to series by ABC Family, the fans took that for fact. And while the aging up and ABC Family rumors seem to be true, just because the casting call said “ABC Family, characters are ages 18-21″ doesn’t mean that everything in the script floating around was true. Then Fangirlish continued to go off about it and made fans get riled up. 

AND THEN FANGIRLISH KEPT GOING. Remember: the fans have started to take Fangirlish’s word as being fact and the #1 news source for the series (not really Fangirlish’s fault, but had they not screwed up in the first place, they wouldn’t be in this position). “Today, we’ve found out more news about the rewritten script” and blah blah blah. What bothered me here was that there was no mention of it being a rumor, it was called NEWS. This is what made the rest of the sane part of the fandom go even more batshit. This is the post from Spoilertv (Fangirlish’s “news” source)

THEIR SOURCE. This source has read the “new script” and had THIS to tell Spoilertv. The Natalie/Yeti thing, the creep moment, Demonic Killer, this was all worrying to fans because they heard this as NEWS. So basically as of a couple of days ago, everyone had pretty much thrown in the towel. But then Cassandra Clare, who has nothing to do with the series, though she can be talked to about it every now and again, went to LA to figure out what the hell was happening with the show. Long story short: the scripts are all fake. All of it is bullshit. Things that are true: the characters are about 18 (which should surprise no one because they were 18 in the movie), the title is Shadowhunters, and it will probably air on ABC Family (which also isn’t really news because there was a limited number of channels that would likely pick the series up). Natalie? Bullshit. Creep moment? Bullshit. All of this is just a bunch of lies. A fake/eeeeeearly draft of the script got leaked, Fangirlish got ahold of it, spewed all this crap into the fandom, more fake shit got leaked and even more crap got spewed. THE SCRIPT FOR THE PILOT ISN’T EVEN FINISHED YET!!! What is really fucked up is that Cassie, the writers, Constantin, they were all attacked by fans because of RUMORS. For fans, whatever, I mean we find out it’s false and we move on. But there are people out there doing their jobs and they have to get angry messages from fans about some things that aren’t even true. It made us seem like a bunch of crazy ass 13 year olds. I haven’t seen a fandom act so embarrassingly since The Vampire Diaries fandom. Yes. The TMI fandom stooped THAT LOW. It was a frustrating time for me to be in the fandom because I felt like I was the only person who had a damn brain. *rubs temples*

Don’t take fansites and fishy businesses as being reliable. Don’t be an asshole to people about rumors. Check sources. Don’t take other fans as being the best source of information. Yes, Constantin was quiet during the drafting process because there wasn’t any news. Don’t say “well Constantin hasn’t said anything so I’m going to run with these rumors”. They’re out there working their butts off to get us another franchise because they wanted to show how much they appreciated us standing by them through the film tanking and how much we supported the series. Yes they messed up the movie, but you guys have to give them a shot if you want a good series. 

We Witnessed Television History

How many people can say that? … Well, probably a lot, I mean, the point of television history is that people were watching when it happened … 

I’m trying my best.

Better intro, go!: Fusions represent relationships. The new, transformative energy that’s created when two people come together– whether that’s platonic, romantic, or anywhere in between. 

And just like that, Rebecca Sugar & the Crewniverse took a basic, everyday concept and turned it into a functional storytelling device. 

If that wasn’t cool enough, Steven Universe is utterly breathtaking in its finest moments and heartfelt in its calmest, so using this show as a medium to explore a variety of relationships is a match made in some kind of heaven. 

If you’ve been watching, you’ve seen it all in action, and you already know how captivating the relationships on the show can be. Still, I don’t think you can overstate how remarkable this children’s series is for exactly that reason. 

Made of Love

Ruby and Sapphire are perfection made visible, I love them so much. Audiences all over love them so much– their existence, and the fact that they form Garnet was one of the show’s first truly transcendent Oh, shit! moments.

All because that damn crew at Cartoon Network got us to love, empathize with, and root for a lesbian couple without even knowing it. And when they revealed that this who they were, this is who Garnet is, it was in the form of a kickass rap anthem/fight sequence. A celebration of pride, naturally, (read: seemlessly) worked into the story.

This, my friends, is not “shoving sexuality into the faces of children” (although I’m still not sure what that looks like). It’s brilliant storytelling. From there on, every step in Ruby and Sapphire’s collective story has been about exploring the same beats kids have seen other couples in their lives or T.V. hit.

  • Arguing– even the most loving couple has flaws
  • A classic, Disney-esque love story (and even well hidden metaphor to a couple’s first time, without once being inappropriate)
  • Flirting, having fun together

The Answer is even being made into a children’s book, so parents can read their kids to sleep with the story of how these two LGBT+ characters fell in love. My god, people!

All this, without once using the words. The other day I realized … the words lesbian, bisexual, gay, asexual– really any word on the spectrum– haven’t been used once in Steven Universe. Not one time.

Because it never needed verbal acknowledgement. 

They’ve normalized it, right from the start– which is exactly what we need right now. This community, which my best friend is a part of (s/o to my ace/aro bud), seems so much more accepted than they used to be, sure, but the fight right now isn’t just for acceptance from a majority. It’s for normalization so they don’t have to ask.

The people behind this show have taken a relationship that was not too long ago foreign to children’s television, and made it unquestionably beautiful, and unquestionably normal.

Made of Longing

My gosh, I’m not going to finish this post without sobbing from the sheer beauty, am I? 

One of the best assets Steven Universe has on its side is Steven himself (duh, you’re saying, but hold on). He might very well be the youngest character in Beach City, and his coming-of-age story often involves seeing the adults in his life in new lights.

That’s not only true to life, the brilliant fuckers turned it into the structure of the show. Information is gleaned slowly through small looks into who his caretakers really are, so the pacing overall is slower, relaxed, and allows for all kinds of stories that still contribute to the whole.

And then there’s Pearl.

Pearl’s identity issues, being “just a Pearl,” and what her love means now that Rose Quartz is gone forever has lead to some of the show’s most emotionally charged moments.

Tragedy has often been dealt with by the likes of Disney, Pixar, and Dreamworks, so while it’s integrated beautifully into their world, its usually from a kids perspective, and usually limited by the run-time (except Up, but the first ten minutes of Up break a lot of rules).

In almost all of the scenes dealing with Pearl’s love and grief for Rose, Steven’s watching or hearing about it. He’s not the one we’re empathizing with, that’s still Pearl, but we’re learning about her along with him.

Tragedy can be felt by adults, and sometimes it even falls on those around them to take care of them. It’s a powerful, beautiful lesson.

These are also all complicated feelings, so this happens over multiple episodes across multiple seasons, giving Pearl, and the audience, time to breathe before the next emotional breakdown.

Speaking of complicated:

Made of Something Else

This is what I was talking about when I say we watched television history. I couldn’t believe it, I sure as hell knew the fandom wouldn’t.

Not having watched every cartoon in existence (yet), I can’t tell you for sure, but this might well be the first abusive relationship depicted in a kids show. It’s monumental, partially because it does it without going out of its way to have an after-school special. 

The fandom’s gone already gone into who the victim(s) is(are) several times over– it’s complicated to be sure. Who’s to blame, who’s not. Water Witch did some great analysis over here, but I think for our purposes, it’s best to realize it is complicated. There are a lot of ways to look at it, and the bottom line is an unhealthy relationship like this is a relationship– and it’s portrayed as such.

They didn’t even need the full eleven minutes– all of this goes down in one amazingly executed scene. It shows the most well-known, telltale signs of an abusive relationship– wanting to return, begging, claims that it’ll be different, and that “you’ve changed me” – there’s even a point where Steven gets hit for trying to interfere.

The context is all there. It’s 100% clear. Having Lapis not come away clean, even though she’s someone Steven loves, even though she’s someone we love, is absolutely necessary. Hell, the real stakes of the scene come from the fact that she just told Steven she misses Jasper.

And I’m talking about it in detail, but watching it play out– I mean, the tone of that scene is so perfect. There wasn’t an overly dark self-awareness like “oh wow, we’re really talking about it”– it plays just as serious and scary as it needs to be without going overboard (ha) in either direction. It treats an abusive relationship like the danger it is, but makes it so accessible for kids to understand and recognize. It teaches them what an unhealthy relationship looks like, or maybe even confirms it.

So, I don’t know if it’s been done before. I couldn’t tell you. But, I can tell you this. Never before have any of these topics been talked about with such intelligence, such care, and such honest to god love. Someday, when I have kids, I think you can guess what will be mandatory viewing in my house.

Well, okay, Avatar: the Last Airbender and this.

Shadowhunters: Yet another informative post because I like to be helpful

Long post warning!!

I keep seeing a lot of people who are new to the Shadowhunters show fandom/are interested in the show and don’t know where to start the Shadowhunter Chronicles (or anything about how to navigate this complicated fandom) so I’m making an information post so that you can understand everything better.

  • Shadowhunters is based on “The Mortal Instruments”, a six book YA series about human-angel hybrids who protect humans from demons and sometimes other monsters like werewolves, vampires, warlocks, and faeries. The TV show comes on Tuesdays at 9/8c on Freeform (the ugly new name for ABC Family).
  • There was a movie, The Mortal Instruments: City of Bones, which was really bad (hence it being rebooted for tv with a new team of actors, writers, and directors), and you could watch the movie but you’d be spoiled on the first 3 books of “The Mortal Instruments” as well as at least the first season of Shadowhunters, so I wouldn’t recommend you watch it.
  • The Shadowhunter Chronicles books are… kinda complicated. I have a detailed list explaining the books and their reading order (this post is a year old so if it says something is coming soon, it may have already happened)

For all you shippers out there: 

Clary and Jace are Clace, Simon and Clary are Climon, Simon and Isabelle are Sizzy, Simon and Jace are Jimon, Alec and Jace are Jalec, Alec and Magnus are Malec, and Clary and Isabelle are Clizzy. There are more ships with characters who aren’t in the show yet but they’re less popular and I don’t wanna overwhelm you. Also, this fandom is really into multishipping and we don’t have ship wars, which is kinda weird for tumblr fandoms. I guess it’s because we know who ends up together in the books and in the show (the show follows the basic plot and ships of the books).

Extra little tidbits: 

  • You may see people talk about characters named Sebastian or Maia or the Seelie Queen but you’re not missing anything in the show, those characters just come in later in the story.
  • Most fans of the show and their followers have read the books and don’t tag their book spoilers so be cautious about that.
  • We’ve got a lot of fandom memes that you’re probably not going to understand because no one wants to take the time to explain them, so just go with it and act like you know what’s going on. Just know the cast of the show is weird af and we keep turning them into memes.
  • Watch both of the Werewolf games. You’ll understand about 40% of the fandom jokes if you do.
  • Do NOT go into the Shadowhunters tag. It’s still filled with people complaining about the show (they’re the minority, most fans love the tv series) but it’s really annoying. If you want to see fan art, look at the tags tmiedit and shadowhuntersedit. If you just wanna see some funny posts, obviously you can follow me because I’m hilarious, or you can ask other Shadowhunters fans for blog recommendations. 
  • Most fans of the show are not American so they have to wait until Wednesdays for new episodes to air, which gives them the chance to get spoiled so if you’re going to post spoilers, please do the nice thing and tag them.
  • There’s a lot of drama in this fandom, over really dumb shit, and unless it’s something you actually take offense to, just stay out of it. It took a while for me to learn this lesson but take it from me, no good is gonna come out of chewing people out for basic things.
  • There are some really neat people in this fandom, some who are funny, some who are talented, and most of us are nice, friendly people. So don’t be afraid to talk to Shadowhunters blogs and make some friends here!