it took me like the whole day

i just cleared out my liked posts all the way from 2013 and let’s just say i’m never doing that again

PLEASE READ THIS

For the past two days, I have spent my entire time glued to my phone helping somebody who was once a stranger to me. Two days ago, a stranger privately messaged me saying that she wanted some help. I’m not going to go into her details, but something traumatic had happened and she hadn’t felt the need to breathe no longer. So, I stopped writing and postponed the fics that needed to be uploaded, and I spoke to her all day and all night. It took two whole days to convince her that her life was worthy and I do not regret a single second of it. I saved a life and it makes me so damn happy.

The point of this whole thing is to remind you that you are NOT alone and that I am ALWAYS here to speak to. Suicide isn’t something I like and it’s a tough subject for me to deal with, but I’ll push through my trauma just to make sure you’re okay.

As most of you know (if you have been following me for the ten months), it has taken me nearly five months to return to daily activities after losing my best friend to suicide in early November last year. It had hurt more than I thought it would when I found out because in early January last year I had lost my only cousin to suicide and my best friend promised me he wouldn’t leave me that way. I had only just returned to daily activities before losing him, too. Now, I’m just a clueless mess on where to start living with my life. Nothing has been the same without the two of them bugging me constantly.

If you think that killing yourself is the only way to end all the pain you feel—let me remind you that it isn’t the only way. If you ever went through with that, all that pain you feel will drift into those who love and care for you and let me tell you know, that pain it is not the best. If you ever contemplate it, please message me. I wouldn’t want to lose another precious soul who belonged on this Earth. You are worthy of every breath you take. You are worthy of your existence. You are loved and you are cared for. You’re a beautiful person and you shouldn’t allow that to become nothing.

Talk to me about anything—anything that is troubling you, anything that is hurting you, anything that is harming your life—just message me and I’ll be there to listen to you. Heck, I’ll freaking facetime you just to make sure you are okay and I’ll stay up all night to make sure that you stay okay. You are strong and you are capable of living. You matter in this world and there is someone out there who is waiting for your existence to be present in their life. That person is me. I love you and I don’t want you to leave this world behind. I want you to stay and be strong and hold your head up and ignore the negativity. I believe that you can make it. I’ll help guide you through hell, even if it means I have to open old wounds just to help you find your light. I’ll crawl through Hell over and over again just to get you all to safety.

So put down that gun, get rid of the rope, throw away those pills, flush down that blade, step away from the edge of the highest building, walk away from that bridge and turn off that stove. Whatever way you are choosing to end your life, get away from it.

Please, I’m begging you. Don’t throw your life away just because there’s bad in it. Keep breathing and keep crawling and you’ll find something good. This is coming from someone who has lost two amazing people to suicide and who has thought about it and suffers from depression herself. You matter to me and to the world.

Keep living. Keep breathing. Stay alive.
There’s good coming your way, just be patient, honeybee. I love you so much.

Remember; message me whenever you want. I am always here to listen and to help you. 💖

suzie-guru  asked:

Oh, Lillie my love...Happiest of Birthdays, my darling, my dear, my delightful glitter fish of angst. I certainly hope the package I sent you will be making it's way to you soon! Girl, you're the brightest beam there ever was to warm this world - your generosity and boundless enthusiasm and sheer *love* is inspiring, and has helped me countless times. You're a star, blazing bright, and you remind that even in darkness there can be galaxies spinning across the sky. I love you dearly, dear <3

Ughhhh Suzie, it took me all day to figure out how to respond to this, and what I could come up with was: I cannot believe how lucky I was to meet you!

You have been a light in my life for what feels like forever, and this birthday really involved me looking back at my time on the site and thinking, ‘oh my goodness, a whole nother year of being so lucky to have these incredible people along with me’. You have been a joy! An amazing, loyal person. And I can say, with complete certainty, that anyone who gets to be your friend should know just how lucky they are.

You are incredible, Suzie, and I cannot wait to spend a whole new year with you!

Originally posted by welcome---to---the---jungle

(also I cannot WAIT to see what comes in the mail! I’m putting together an NYC goodie bag to send your way!)

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Some attempt at drawing Ford also sloppy coloring.

Click for captions because these doodles are unrelated.

Done!! Phew, that’s probably the fastest painting I’ve ever done O.o Good thing is, I got that A in History!

Anyways, based on @beanpots’ awesome day\night AU and @exile-wrath’s fic! I absolutely loved both, and since I wanted to do a night themed History project, well, this happened XD

Acryllic on canvas and some sharpie and white gel pen for details. Only took like 12 straight hours to paint the whole thing .-. Don’t leave projects for the last day, guys. It hurts.

Btw thanks to my awesome bff @96rebo for listening to my midnight senseless babble and helping me pick out colors, even if you did fall asleep on me yesterday 😂😒

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Well, just like I promised 100 years ago, here is Yoosung and MC’s honeymoon in the happiest place on earth~!

DISNEYLAND! °˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖°

In which Yoosung spent the whole day letting the whole park know you are his wife~ ♡

Once again based on @zens-ponytail ’s amazing head canons.

I still, to this day, don’t understand how Simon could be so oblivious about his feelings for Baz. Are you actually telling me that it took Baz going against all of Smokey Bear’s rules on forest fires to make Simon realize he wanted to kiss the dolt when he has been thinking things like this throughout the whole goddamn book

‘I’m just lying in my bed, thinking about Baz.’

‘I know I should be happy about Baz being gone–but it seems so… wrong’

’If he weren’t a vampire, Baz’d be bloody perfect.’

‘Smarter than I am. Better looking.’

*literally there’s hardly a paragraph that goes by where Baz’s name isn’t mentioned at least like 6 times I mean come on*

the people at the pub i go to are so nice, dude.

i ordered fries and the waitress said “just fries tonight?” (they know me because I go in like twice a week) and i said “yeah i cant afford the whole meal” and she took the order and then gave me fries AND two burgers AND she payed for it

it’s not only emotionally gratifying to be polite to those who deal with shitty customers all day, it can also pay out every so often.

Encounter.. Cross meets the Wild..?

 I had a vision and I absolutely had to animate this. 

Welp took me a whole day for… 11 seconds. Yup. Animation is hard people. But it was all worth it! Aaaand I didn’t even use flash.. all done in clip studio paint~ Even though there’s no v-cam, I can work my way without one :’D But the fact the gif ruined the blizzard effect.. oh well..XD

Anywho, I hope ya enjoy the rough and raw meat seconds of this short animation <3  

Also what the text says if you can’t read it:   Wild: You seem lost… 

Art, Wild!sans /c/ @metalphoenixx 

Cross!Sans /c/ @jakei95 @underversesans

This Magic Moment

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Addy and I never liked the pressure of having one person in the relationship making all the plans for date night. So we split Valentine’s Day down the middle.

I took her to a symphonic exploration on the history of magic as it interacts with classical nomaj instruments. She took me to an arcade that serves wine and hotwings.

I think we’ve officially mastered this whole “relationship” thing.

you should know she is prone

pairing: daveed diggs x reader 

request: @wellillbedamneddiggs: either an angsty Daveed x Reader with lots of pining (but a happy ending!) or something super kinky? Like size kink/blowjobs/face fucking/facials?

summary: reader is an ensemble replacement in hamilton who befriends daveed while also trying to suppress her overwhelming sexual attraction to him

warnings: NSFW! alcohol, swearing, clippng lyrics, semi-public sex (?), dirty talk, face-fucking, size kink, and a whole lotta smut. get ready. 

word count: 3,501

a/n: title from clippng “body and blood.”don’t expect new fics every day, but this prompt took me and wouldn’t let go until I finished it. drunk diggs is really fun to write. if you have requests/comments/other concerns or anything, shoot me a message! part two is here

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We spoke to each other every day after we broke up. It was like we were fighting to bring ourselves up over the cliff we already fell down. Our hands had callus from climbing back up, we were weathered by all the days that rain poured on us and all the days the sun burned our skin. Somehow we managed to hold ourselves onto the edge. We were so close. A few weeks later he fell down. It was at the point, holding onto the edge took on a whole new meaning for me.
—  takemetoyuma 

Okay so I saw them from far away and I ran to them cause I was so excited and I asked for a photo and they started to put their arms around the small of their backs and I was like “please omg don’t do that I’m gay” lol and they laughed and I took the photo and looked down to post it and looked up to thank them and they were going for tHE KISS AND I WAS LIKE WAIT NOT YET MY SNAP ISNT READY! And they laughed and then I took the photo and cried and ran away and they laughed the whole time and the Bucky tipped his at to me and long story short I’m gay and they’re my otp (said bagginshield) and it’s my dream couple cosplay one day 😭😭😭  !

@theroaringgirlcosplay as Steve

@sgt-bucky-bear as Bucky

Hop on back in pretty girl 🙌🏼
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Have y'all ever been in that season of life where all the blood flowing through ya feels warm? It took a whole bunch of good work and excavation but that’s what life feels like for me these days and it’s amazing! Here’s to 2017 y'all

main tlc ships- beginnings and ends

KAIDER

CINDER: 

“What did you think was going to happen?” Pearl waved the gloves at Cinder, the empty fingers wagging helplessly. “Did you think the prince might actually like you?”

STARS ABOVE:

“Cinder,” Kai said, “will you marry me?”

WOLFET

SCARLET:

“The street fighter?” Scarlet squeezed her eyes shut as a headache started to throb against her forehead. “Really, Ém?”

STARS ABOVE: 

“You are the one. You have always been, and you always will be, the only one.”

CRESSWELL

CRESS:

“Captain,” she murmured. “I think I’m in love with you.” 

An eyebrow shot up. She counted six beats of his heart before, suddenly, he laughed. “Don’t tell me it took you two whole days to realize that. I must be loosing my touch.”

WINTER:

“And it’s different with you. This is the first time I’ve been scared. Scared you’d change your mind. Scared I’ll screw up. Aces, Cress, I’m terrified of you.”

JACINTER

WINTER (BEGINNING) 

“But when I’m on duty, that’s all I can be. Your guard. Not your friend. Levana already knows I’m too close to you, that I care about you more than I should and I’m not going to give her anything else to hold over me. Or you. I’m not going to another pawn in her game. Got it?”

WINTER (END)

“I love you, Princess.”