it shows even the most broken and angry can learn to love

signs as people I know (check moon and sun signs)

aries: passionate about finding new ways to show love and create love with others, willing to put themselves down so others feel better, warm hugs, prefers music without words because they understand the message better without words telling them, will drive you to IHOP at midnight because you forgot to eat dinner, they care about literally fucking everyone, easily accept that change is unavoidable, their exuberant energy can seem very intimidating, outgoing, try to do the right thing, excessive with literally everything (its okay ily), ardent, hate waiting for shit to happen, want the quickest and easiest way out of everything, their passion can be destructive and actually detrimental.

taurus: art is abundant in their ‘safe’ place, trying their best tbh, will put aside time that they need in order to help someone else, dislikes close minded people, sleeping prolly, has music too loud but they will tell you it’s not loud enough, thinks a shit ton about wether or not people like them but will never tell you that, actually very confident people, don’t really care about what people think of them but also cares a shit ton about what people think of them, so fucking loyal and expect nothing in return, can complain a lot actually, loyaloyaloyal, hate it when others see them cry, tries to ignore their problems because ‘they don’t have enough time to deal with them’ (get it together, hoes), need more time for self-reflection. 

gemini: can make anyone easily laugh, knows what’s in and what’s out, veryyyy generous people, pretty smiles, has good music taste because they listen to all types of music, relatable, seems very unattached to reality at times, doesn’t give up something/someone if they really love them, will cook for you willingly, they are ‘too cool’ for drama but typically start drama, will spend their whole night talking to you about future goals they have and the most random shit, life of the party, if you want to instantly laugh hang around a gemini, don’t consider other people in their decisions sometimes, will remove themselves of negative situations because there is nothing they hate more than negative people. 

cancer: hold a very warm and gentle soul, can push people away because they tend to be very possessive but that is how they show love, they need a two year break, tries really hard to be relatable, let’s people walk over them without realizing, they love to pamper themselves to show love to themselves, you feel safe in their home, trusts people really easily, can get very broken and in a bad place if you betray them so please don’t honestly, when they’re angry it can show physically (red face, angry tears, etc), can be very dramatic, try to help others with confidence and self-esteem, will be there for you even if you aren’t there for them, oblivious to shitty people sometimes which results in trust issues. 

leo: can be independent when they are comfortable in the situation, typically want the best for everyone, will defend you when you’re not there, will block you if you annoy them, just want someone to chill with, secretly want a partner but won’t say that out loud, they have beautiful souls, these are the type of people you should go to last minute plans with (concerts, road trips, etc), just wanna have fun and look amazing while doing it, need/deserve love and attention from loved ones, gives you food if you forgot your lunch at home, you can see their emotions in their eyes if you look hard enough, pure beauts with good hearts that will believe the best in everyone, not afraid to be petty, main hoes.

virgo: will try to avoid being honest with you because they don’t want to hurt you, is taken advantage of too often, will bring you a cookie if you’re having a bad day, courteous, organized, the person that always smiles at strangers just because, not really sure what they want out of life, can be very whiny, always want to be doing something to pretend like they have it together, if they are your friend please take advantage of how supportive they are to you, will very randomly give you compliments that can literally save your life because they’re always very thoughtful, amazing listeners, capable of fulfilling their dreams if they believe in themselves too, having boundaries is okay and you deserve to respect them if you want to. 

libra: passionate about making others’ lives better, cuddle bugs, energetic, gives their time to anyone who actually listens to them, thinking outside of the box, probably really pretty, kind souls but a tough exterior, wears sweats to the store because who honestly cares, makes jokes with people on line at checkout, they probably have a tradition to cook breakfast on saturdays, knows how to look good and feel good, once they find their self-worth not a fucking bull-dozer can take it down, please try to fight them on facebook because you will lose, gentle people and will try to make you feel at home (problem: they don’t know how), quiet but their minds are spinning, need to learn to say ‘no’, stop worrying about what others think of you (who gives a shit??), hate silence and being alone, queens.

scorpio: very honest but also very petty without shame, fun and funny, blasts old jams in their car while trying their very best to avoid accidents, hates high school and loves college, just want to find a group that they fit in with, will try their best to make your birthday amazing I swear, open minded to literally everything honestly, critical friend, will tease you about something that happened five years ago, a total nerd about things they really like, very smart and efficient if they are motivated by their passion, unique style in all ways, beautiful minds, they can come across as two-faced but they are very indecisive when it comes to opinions, embraces new experiences, secretive. 

sagittarius: flirty and prolly is dating someone right now, wants everyone to be happy but forgets about making themselves happy, cooks pancakes for you at midnight on a Wednesday night, will almost cry but then remembers a funny video they saw and starts to laugh, hates themselves but shows themselves a lot of love, makes jokes out of their pain, lovable, look intimidating but are actually very welcoming, hides emotions like a pro, very optimistic about literally everything, if they get bored or annoyed they will move on from you, need to believe in themselves, don’t express gratitude but they really should, seemingly perfect(?), can sometimes compare themselves to others in order to make themselves feel better (stop.)

capricorn: “doesn’t study” (yes I’m onto you bitch) for tests but still gets amazing grades, can be very fake but honest with people they are close to, traditional without trying, will be there for you, they are very observant and will remember if you did something that meant a lot to them, honestly needs a hug and affection a lot more than they say, takes long hot showers to make up for the lack in physical affection, lovely people, good people to sit with in the back of the movie theater so that you can talk the whole time, will accidentally spill tea and start drama, trying their best, work well with people who have a good drive for things they are passionate about, doesn’t express emotion unless they can’t hold it in any longer

aquarius: so fucking funny, constantly trying to be a better person in order to make up for the shitty world, watches documentaries about the sex industry, sticks to their morals, thinks a lot about life and the meaning of all of this, thinks (knows) the government is hiding something, will kill you if you hurt an animal, super chill and loves music, passionate, indecisive to the extreme, smokes weed to see if food tastes differently, interesting individuals, don’t open up to others easily simply because they don’t want to, if you mean a lot to them they will try to protect you from the world, is hard on you because they want you to succeed, moves from one passion to the other (you guys are super adaptable if need be), an amazing friend if they choose to put effort into the friendship. 

pisces: very confused about life and that makes them very sad, protect them because they are amazing friends, cries about failing a lot, not judge mental, hates it when people accuse them of something they didn’t do, beautiful people with caring hearts that let in people who shouldn’t be let in, offer you a hug if they see you upset in any way, wants people to like them, trying to find who they are, tend to let people laugh at their pain, shuts down their feelings when they feel attacked, doesn’t purposely hurt anyone, will change themselves in order to be accepted, I notice that these people lose themselves too easily, once they find out who they are they are very stable and more content

The Dos and Don’ts of Beginning a Novel:  An Illustrated Guide

I’ve had a lot of asks lately for how to begin a book (or how not to), so here’s a post on my general rules of thumb for story openers and first chapters!  

Please note, these are incredibly broad generalizations;  if you think an opener is right for you, and your beta readers like it, there’s a good chance it’s A-OK.  When it comes to writing, one size does not fit all.  (Also note that this is for serious writers who are interested in improving their craft and/or professional publication, so kindly refrain from the obligatory handful of comments saying “umm, screw this, write however you want!!”)

So without further ado, let’s jump into it!

Don’t: 

1.  Open with a dream. 

“Just when Mary Sue was sure she’d disappear down the gullet of the monstrous, winged pig, she woke up bathed in sweat in her own bedroom.”

What?  So that entire winged pig confrontation took place in a dream and amounts to nothing?  I feel so cheated! 

Okay, not too many people open their novels with monstrous swine, but you get the idea:  false openings of any kind tend to make the reader feel as though you’ve wasted their time, and don’t usually jump into more meaty action of the story quickly enough.  It makes your opening feel lethargic and can leave your audience yawning.

Speaking of… 

2.  Open with a character waking up.  

This feels familiar to most of us, but unless your character is waking up to a zombie attack or an alien invasion, it’s generally a pretty easy recipe to get your story to drag.

No one picks a book to hear how your character brushes their teeth in the morning or what they’d like to have for dinner.  As a general rule of thumb, we read to explore things we wouldn’t otherwise get to experience.  And cussing out the alarm clock is not one of them.  

Granted, there are exceptions if your writing is exceptionally engaging, but in most cases it just sets a slow pace that will bore you and your reader to death and probably cause you to lose interest in your book within the first ten pages.  

3.  Bombard with exposition.  

Literary characters aren’t DeviantArt OCs.  And the best way to convey a character is not, in my experience, to devote the first ten pages to describing their physical appearance, personality, and backstory.  Develop your characters, and make sure their fully fleshed out – my tips on how to do so here – but you don’t need to dump all that on the reader before they have any reason to care about them.  Let the reader get to know the character gradually, learn about them, and fall in love with them as they would a person:  a little bit at a time.   

This is iffy when world building is involved, but even then it works best when the delivery feels organic and in tune with the book’s overall tone.  Think the opening of the Hobbit or Good Omens.

4.  Take yourself too seriously.

Your opener (and your novel in general) doesn’t need to be intellectually pretentious, nor is intellectual pretense the hallmark of good literature.  Good literature is, generally speaking, engaging, well-written, and enjoyable.  That’s it.  

So don’t concern yourself with creating a poetic masterpiece of an opening line/first chapter.  Just make one that’s – you guessed it – engaging, well-written, and enjoyable. 

5.  Be unintentionally hilarious.

Utilizing humor in your opening line is awesome, but check yourself to make sure your readers aren’t laughing for all the wrong reasons (this is another reason why betas are important.)  

These examples of the worst opening lines in published literature will show you what I mean – and possibly serve as a pleasant confidence booster as well: 

“As the dark and mysterious stranger approached, Angela bit her lip anxiously, hoping with every nerve, cell, and fiber of her being that this would be the one man who would understand – who would take her away from all this – and who would not just squeeze her boob and make a loud honking noise, as all the others had.”

– Ali Kawashima

“She sipped her latte gracefully, unaware of the milk foam droplets building on her mustache, which was not the peachy-fine baby fuzz that Nordic girls might have, but a really dense, dark, hirsute lip-lining row of fur common to southern Mediterranean ladies nearing menopause, and winked at the obviously charmed Spaniard at the next table.”

– Jeanne Villa

“As I gardened, gazing towards the autumnal sky, I longed to run my finger through the trail of mucus left by a single speckled slug – innocuously thrusting past my rhododendrons – and in feeling that warm slime, be swept back to planet Alderon, back into the tentacles of the alien who loved me.”

– Mary E. Patrick

“Before they met, his heart was a frozen block of ice, scarred by the skate blades of broken relationships, then she came along and like a beautiful Zamboni flooded his heart with warmth, scraped away the ugly slushy bits, and dumped them in the empty parking lot of his soul.”

– Howie McClennon

If these can get published, so can you.

Do:

1.  You know that one really interesting scene you’re itching to write?  Start with that.

Momentum is an important thing in storytelling.  If you set a fast, infectious beat, you and your reader will be itching to dance along with it.  

Similarly, slow, drowsy openers tend to lead to slow, drowsy stories that will put you both to sleep.

I see a lot of posts joking about “that awkward moment when you sit down to write but don’t know how to get to that one scene you actually wanted to write about.”  Write that scene!  If it’s at all possible, start off with it.  If not, there are still ways you can build your story around the scenes you actually want to write.

Keep in mind:  if you’re bored, your reader will almost certainly be bored as well.  So write what you want to write.  Write what makes you excited.  Don’t hold off until later, when it “really gets good.”  Odds are, the reader will not wait around that long, and you’re way more likely to become disillusioned with your story and quit.  If a scene is dragging, cut it out.  Burn bridges, find a way around.  Live, dammit. 

2.  Engage the reader.

There are several ways to go about this.  You can use wit and levity, you can present a question, and you can immerse the reader into the world you’ve created.  Just remember to do so with subtlety, and don’t try too hard;  believe me, it shows.  

Here are some of my personal favorite examples of engaging opening lines: 

“In the beginning, the universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." 

– Douglas Adams, the Restaurant at the End of the Universe.

"It was the day my grandmother exploded.”

– Iain Banks, Crow Road.

“A white Pomeranian named Fluffy flew out of the a fifth-floor window in Panna, which was a grand-new building with the painter’s scaffolding still around it. Fluffy screamed.”

– Vikram Chandra, Sacred Games.

See what I’m saying?  They pull you in and do not let go.

3.  Introduce us to a main character (but do it right.)

“Shadow had done three years in prison. He was big enough and looked don’t-fuck-with-me enough that his biggest problem was killing time. So he kept himself in shape, and taught himself coin tricks, and thought a lot about how much he loved his wife.”

– Neil Gaiman, American Gods.

This is one of my favorite literary openings of all time, because right off the bat we know almost everything we need to know about Shadow’s character (i.e. that he’s rugged, pragmatic, and loving.)   

Also note that it doesn’t tell us everything about Shadow:  it presents questions that make us want to read more.  How did Shadow get into prison?  When will he get out?  Will he reunite with his wife?  There’s also more details about Shadow slowly sprinkled in throughout the book, about his past, personality, and physical appearance.  This makes him feel more real and rounded as a character, and doesn’t pull the reader out of the story.

Obviously, I’m not saying you should rip off American Gods.  You don’t even need to include a hooker eating a guy with her cooch if you don’t want to.  

But this, and other successful openers, will give you just enough information about the main character to get the story started;  rarely any good comes from infodumping, and allowing your reader to get to know your character gradually will make them feel more real.   

4.  Learn from the greats.

My list of my favorite opening lines (and why I love them) is right here.

5.  Keep moving.  

The toughest part of being a writer is that it’s a rare and glorious occasion when you’re actually satisfied with something you write.  And to add another layer of complication, what you like best probably won’t be what your readers will like best. 

If you refuse to keep moving until you have the perfect first chapter, you will never write anything beyond your first chapter.  

Set a plan, and stick to it:  having a daily/weekly word or page goal can be extremely helpful, especially when you’re starting out.  Plotting is a lifesaver (some of my favorite posts on how to do so here, here, and here.)

Keep writing, keep moving, and rewrite later.  If you stay in one place for too long, you’ll never keep going. 

Best of luck, and happy writing.  <3

A LIST OF SWAN QUEEN FAN FICTION

B/C I KNOW Y’ALL ARE TIRED OF LOOKING FOR SWANQUEEN FANFIC RECS ON TUMBLR SO HERES THE GOOD SHIT.

  • all of these are in english
  • if you have any recommendations or additions, please let me know!
  • some fanfictions that i originally planned to include on this list were deleted by their authors :( 


CLASSICS (favorites)

The Art Of Being Extraordinary - if you haven’t read this already, wyd? The ending will destroy you - be prepared to cry. 

Letters From War - another extremely well known fic among swen. a heart-wrenching and beautifully written AU fic. even if AUs aren’t your thing, seriously, give this one a try.

Emma is a soldier on reserve in Fort Benning. Regina is the Mayor of Storybrooke. Through a pen pal program designed to ease the ache of homesick soldiers, Emma and Regina begin sending letters to one another as their relationship grows from cordial acquaintance to something neither woman would have expected - until the letters stop coming.

A Trail Of Destruction - DEFINITELY a classic imo. this is one of my favorite fanfictions of all time.

A hostage situation in City Hall leaves behind a battered, broken sheriff, and a mayor wracked with guilt. Trigger warnings for violence and gun threats and general angst. Slow-burn swan queen.

Miles To Go - AU; emma and regina meet at a party and the rest is history. this ones pretty long (80 chapters), but so worth the read! angsty & lots of ‘sexy times’ 

Everyone has their own story, this one is theirs and it paints the picture of a love story that spans over two decades, with all the ups and downs and everything else in between. SwanQueen AU
 

Of Love and Loathing - a lot of angry sex in the beginning, which eventually turns into lovey sex. another well known and well written fic - this author is one of my favorites. *reaaallyyy hot smut 

“I have been sleeping with someone,” Regina began tentatively, an acute awareness that once she said the words out loud that the madness behind her highly unorthodox situation became all the more real, “whom I absolutely loathe.” •Emma/Regina•

Meet me Halfway - one of the first swan queen fan fictions i ever read! still a classic to this day. AU

Emma Swan works hard every night as a bartender, struggling to raise her son and save up enough to own her own bar. Regina Mills is an upper class New York photographer who wouldn’t normally spare a second glance at people below her. When their paths cross, their lives adapt to each other, but how much are they willing to change?

Love Undefined - in the process of re-reading this one because of how much i love it. angsty as hell but such a beautiful story.

It’s been eight years since the last time Regina and Emma saw each other, eight years since Emma lost part of her happiness, her family, and everything fell apart. But she hasn’t forgotten those three years in New York, or any of what Regina had brought into her life. A late night phone call to Regina takes Emma back eleven years to when they met, saved each other from loneliness, and Emma started learning what it meant to live. She relives the moments that had changed her life for the better, and even the ones that had hurt.

Teacher’s Pet - KNOWN AS THE ONE TEACHER/STUDENT FANFIC THAT EVERYONE HAS READ. 

Emma Swan is starting her senior year. Her friends tell her about the Creative Writing teacher that she has on her schedule and how no one had passed her class with an A, not even her bookworm friend, Belle. What will she do? And who exactly is this ‘bitchy Evil Queen’ as they claim her to be? SwanQueen. Student/Teacher. M for language and future chapters.

Lost in Translation - i wasn’t sure about this before reading it but i LOVED it. the description pretty much sums it up.

AU. Regina is deaf. Emma is the only one who refuses to give her pity. In response, Regina is thrilled by this new challenge and the stand-offs commence, but over time she finds out there is more to the blonde woman than just a target to throw a stinging quip and pointed glare at.

Send Up a Signal - emma and regina are actresses and their fans ship them with each other. ;)

Emma Swan is catapulted into stardom, the newest lead actress on a sanitized show featuring modern fairytales. Regina Mills is a long-undermined star with a chip on her shoulder and a thousand reasons why she’s invested. Naturally, they loathe each other on sight.Their characters’ fanbases, however, have other ideas.

Reset - SO. GOOD. 95 chapters. if you’re looking for long fanfics, this is for you. 

Following the breaking of the curse everyone in Storybrooke is finding their happy ending, with one exception. Resigning herself to having lost Henry’s love and respect forever, Regina decides there is only one path available to her.

Take Me Home Tonight - AU!! lots of smut :) this is a newer one that i’ve seen around twitter and tumblr and i really enjoyed it! this one’s pretty short (14 chapters)

AU: Nineteen year old Emma Swan is a senior at the exclusive all girls boarding school, Foxhaven Academy. When her friends find out she’s a virgin they send her to the city to find a guy to take her v-card. But Emma is more interested in a sexy older woman she meets in a bar. A SwanQueen story.

The Staircase - non-consensual sex in the first chapter, so please be aware of that; its not for eveyone. this story is very dark but has a happy ending i promise!

Regina could still smell her cologne and feel the cheap pleather pressing into her back. The brunette sucked in a breath. She was still lying on the floor at the staircase’s base and she stared back up at it. Everything was different now. Changed. She felt broken by what had just happened, appalled and enraged, dirty. WARNING: NC17 for non-consensual sex. Dark. (But gets lighter.)

the trouble with emma - very very well known within the swan queen community. i’ll be honest, i never really got into the story but i can acknowledge that it is the most well-written fanfiction i have read to date. the author is truly talented. (the first in a series of fanfics)

Post ep 4x23, Emma becomes the Dark One and learns nothing is quite as it seems or as simple as black versus white. When Regina removes the curse no one in Storybrooke is prepared for the far reaching fallout which leaves none of their lives unaltered or untouched, least of all Regina’s.

SMUT 

shadow haven  - the one smut fic everyone has read.

Emma Swan is a PR agent who is sent on a holiday by her boss. Regina Mills is the owner of a private island named Shadow Haven. There is more to Regina than initially meets the eye. This story dips heavily into the BDSM subculture. Swan Queen romance / BDSM story.

the wicked stepmother - the one kinky fic everyone has read- or attempted to. i couldn’t get through the whole thing but the first few chapters,,, holy hell.

When the Evil Queen catches baby Emma along with Snow White, she decides on a new revenge. In Storybrooke, Snow White will be allowed to raise her daughter… but on her eighteenth birthday, Regina will come for her. Emma might just enjoy that.

in control  - Regina had never been in the habit of relinquishing control, but when it came to Emma Swan, she was starting to find out that giving in had its benefits. - Established Swan Queen - One Shot. Rated M for language and content.

the collar - It will carry strong mature themes as well as a Mistress/Slave relationship but it is also a lot more than that. However, as a warning this story will celebrate the shades of grey of our favourite couple as they find their way to each other and will deal with darker elements of their characters. Emma’s history differs a little from canon but will be covered by the story but there is no Henry and she is an adult in this fiction.

a little taste  - author of A Fine Line and Letters from War. 

Emma has been desperate to know what it’s like to kiss the smirk off of Regina Mills, but when she finally gets the chance, it doesn’t seem to be enough.

tempest - A storm ushers in an expected opportunity for Regina to finally rid herself of Emma Swan. She will posses the sheriff’s heart and then crush it. But what happens when nothing goes as planned? Rated M for language and Swan Queen sexytimes.

come on be nice - Regina has decided that the quickest way to get rid of Emma Swan is to scare off the commitment phobic woman with a come-on. This, as with many of Regina’s plans, does not go as, well, planned. Rated M for Swan Queen sex.

black lace - Emma and Henry find a way around the 'no visiting’ rule involving binoculars and the walkie talkie. Emma’s attention is fully on her son, she truly doesn’t intend to watch Regina at all. At least until the mayor begins undressing in front of her window..

dirty words - Regina is plagued by thoughts of a certain blonde. Deciding she is in need of cathartic release, she writes a quick narrative in hopes of cleansing her system. However, by a happy accident, the story falls into the wrong hands. What will Emma do with this new and intriguing insight into the mayor’s mind?

damn you, miss swan  Emma visits the mayor one night with a bottle of wine to cheer her up. Anger issues and smeared lippy ensues. WARNING: Includes a non-explicit passing reference to rape. This is my first story. A/N Jan 2015: Way back when I wrote this, no one knew anyone’s back stories, so I just made up stuff. Don’t be upset for canon divergence if you read it now. It wasn’t canon then.

mirror tricks The Evil Queen has made her way to Storybrooke, but she only seems to be interested in one thing: Emma. When Regina realises this, her jealousy starts to get the better of her.

my enemy’s enemy After her mother’s death, Regina finds a terrible surprise hidden among the witch’s belongings. Unfortunately, the only one able to cure her from the ailment is Emma…if she agrees. Strong language and mature themes. First stab at SwanQueen :)

ANGST

to remember her happy ending - “She doesn’t even remember her family! How am I going to explain this to her when she hates me!” She was falling apart now. The way the women in the other room had just looked at her, with such disdain. That wasn’t her wife. That was the Mayor, the Evil Queen maybe…but not her wife.

for endings are where we begin Regina Mills is your average working mom - she spends long hours at her bakery, loves her son Henry with all that she is, and can touch dead things and bring them back to life.Emma Swan is an orphan, an ex-convict, and a bail bondsperson residing in Massachusetts. She is also currently dead.This is the story of how they meet.

the loudest silence - New to Chicago Emma, a professional cellist, is shocked to find that a beautiful deaf woman is her new president of the board. As their friendship grows Emma begins to wonder, what does it look like when a world of sound and a world of silence meet somewhere in the middle? SwanQueen AU

broken 16 year Emma Swan is a preachers daughter on a tight leash, what happens when Regina Mills returns to town, dark, mysterious and dangerous? Will her father’s expectations take over or will Emma follow her heart? Is Regina legit or is Emma cute little pawn? Will Emma be able to love Regina for who she is or will her dark past ruin it ALL! SwanQueen G!P Some BDSM

bring her home Cora’s dead. Henry lives with the Charmings. Regina continues spiraling through grief and loss and hatred. Then Emma suddenly falls unconscious and Henry shows up at Regina’s door because he needs her help to bring Emma back. Reluctantly, Regina embarks on a wild swan chase through Emma’s mind, a whirlwind of ‘roads‐less‐traveled’ and ‘what‐ifs’ and ‘might‐have‐beens’, in order to bring her home.

if the blazer fits Emma decides to dress up like Regina for a Halloween party at The Rabbit Hole, a seemingly innocent decision that surprisingly leads to a relationship. The romance is openly feared by some and secretly despised by an unlikely source, who plots to end it.

a fine line Upon Regina’s banishment, the small town of Storybrooke becomes protected once again by an enchantment that prevents anyone from leaving or entering Storybrooke. Emma and Regina find themselves on the edge of the town, wishing for a way to the other side.

a pale imitation Regina is furious with Emma after she brings back Marian, but since she can’t take it out on her, Regina creates a mindless clone of Emma to hit instead. The clone doesn’t stay mindless for long though, developing an obsession with Regina. Written for summer 2014 Swan Queen Big Bang. (TW for sexual assault/rape and graphic depictions of violence)

FLUFF

one fine mess - Regina’s gut twisted with an agonizing pull and, for just a moment, she thought she might need to take up the same position as the woman crouched before her. “You’re pregnant?” she whispered grimly. Emma’s only response was to turn and retch into the toilet again. — Swan Queen, magic!pregnancy

coffee at midnight - (so good) Slow burn AU that starts with two women from different parts of the USA meeting on Twitter. Emma is an insomniac loner who is a Personal Trainer. Regina is a writer with a sleepless baby. Their lack of sleep and love for coffee soon brings them together and after that they find it hard to part. This is a fic where coffee is taking to mythical levels, despite it’s bad effect on people with insomnia and people with babies - showing that sometimes what you need and want isn’t always the thing that is wholesome and harmless. But also that denying yourself it will only lead to misery, something which Regina has to apply to other parts of her life.

all the single ladies With the library in desperate need of renovation, Storybrooke prepares for a fundraising dinner and bachelorette auction. What mischief and romance can be found as a result? SwanQueen with some RedBeauty Rating has been raised to M - now including adult content.


TEACHER+STUDENT / EMPLOYEE+BOSS

teacher’s pet - see above (classics)

take me home tonight - see above (classics)

step into my office, baby  - This is what you get for doing the nice thing, Emma thinks. You do that whole Pay It Forward bullshit - you buy a lady some coffee and you pretend like it isn’t totally motivated by how she looks in a pencil skirt - and she goes and insults your business card and turns out to be your company’s new Executive Director. Real fucking cute.From now on, she is drinking tea.or, the one where they’re in an office.

teaching miss mills  - Swan Queen Teacher AU: Emma is a gym teacher, who moves to Storybrooke Academy after becoming disenchanted with her job back in Boston. Regina Mills is the Head of English who Emma somehow seems to keep having run-ins with, despite the best of intentions. Along the way, Emma adjusts to small-town life, gets her teaching mojo back and grows closer to Regina. NOW COMPLETE

troubled teachers - COMPLETE! SwanQueen AU. Geography teacher Emma Swan starts a new life far from her troubled past and meets history teacher Regina Mills. But all is not as it seems when it comes to the composed, intelligent, and beautiful brunette. Family struggles and difficult relationships lead to a friendship and soon something more blossoms. Rated M for Ch 7, 18, 22, 24, 28, 29, 31, 35 and 38

not a virgin anymore When college student Emma Swan wakes up one morning with no memory of what happened the night before she’s very surprised she finds herself in professor Mills’s bed. 

is that so, miss swan? - College student, Emma Swan, is confronted by her favorite professor and secret heart-throb, Dr. Regina Mills. What happens when Emma is forced to reveal her secrets? We shall see. AU. Slightly OOC at times. No magic. SwanQueen. Rated M for serious language and eventual sexy times between our two favorite ladies.

butterfly effect - in her final year of college, Emma finds she has more to account for than the extra credits she needs in order to graduate. Only… she doesn’t expect it to come in the form of her newest instructor, Professor Regina Mills. Complete. AU Swan Queen

a sophisticated seduction Emma’s a college student, working as an intern at the Dazzle Magazine for a powerful woman she has never had the good fortune of meeting. But everything in her life is about to change when they finally meet. Especially when one falls so deeply in love with the other and the insecurities from a broken marriage comes to light. (Not Based on The Devil Wears Prada)

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down east decisions - Massachusetts State Police Capt. Emma Swan leaves her red-hot career to become the police chief of sleepy Storybrooke, Maine. She’s hoping for a less-complicated, less-dangerous life, a desire that is dashed on both counts. AU. No magic. Crime drama and romance. Swan Queen is endgame.

that drunken night - Emma’s wasted and accidentally calls Regina instead of her mom. And Regina isn’t as loathe to talk to the blonde as she usually pretends. Did things change between them so radically while they were in Neverland? (No copyright infringement intended.)

chasing henry - SQ. Tired of the tricks and lies of both of his mothers, Henry follows the dwarves, Red and Granny when they use Tiny’s magic beans to return themselves to their old land. Emma and Regina both chase after him, and they reluctantly travel together through the Enchanted Forest in order to find him and bring him back home safely.

so does this make us both the other woman? - Set after 3b in a peaceful Storybrooke where Regina is with Robin and Emma’s fallen into a relationship with Hook. Shame about all that subtext that’s rapidly threatening to become text.

Business and Pleasure - Part 16

Summary:  Bucky AU. After a major deal falls through, your father’s business almost falls apart. In a desperate attempt to save his livelihood, he seeks the help of his oldest friend, George Barnes, who happens to be the CEO of one of the most influential businesses in New York. He agrees, but on one condition. You have to marry his son.

Word Count: 1,415

Warnings: Swearing, angst


Originally posted by campercooperpugfi


Once you had retreated to the bathroom, Steve heaved a large sigh, sinking into the cushions of the leather couch, covering his face with his hand and squeezing his eyes shut tight. How the hell did this happen? He had thought things were going well. He thought you and Bucky were finally on the same page. At least that’s how it seemed. You seemed so happy in the previous weeks, and now, it was like you were right back at the beginning.

Steve knew that he said he would call Bucky, but he didn’t know if he would even be able to contain his anger. There was a huge part of him that wanted to fly to wherever Bucky was and beat the living shit out of him. Steve didn’t like bullies, even if they happened to also be his friends. He wouldn’t tolerate this. He wouldn’t let Bucky just abandon you. He couldn’t. And if he couldn’t knock some sense into Bucky, well, then he would figure out where to go from there.

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Power Cut III

Originally posted by sugagifs

Pairing : Yoongi x Reader
Genre : Fluff, slight angst, Hybrid!au
Word count :  3858
Warnings : mentions of sex, nudity

PART 1 | PART 2 | PART 4

Summary : Yoongi is the cat hybrid you once adopted at an adoption center. You took care of him as best as you could months following his adoption but he still has not erased the distance he voluntarily puts between you.


“I’ve already learned to make coffee but, that machine is so strange…? Still, it’s not my fucking fault.”

The sleepy slanted eyes of the cat hybrid darted to yours as you plunged your face in your hands in disbelief. The kitchen clock exactly showed 4:38 AM. The reason you were sighing was the fact you had to wake up at such early hour. The reason you were plunging your sleepy eyes, annoyed into his, was the fact he woke you up. For what? For him fidgeting and messing around with the coffee machine at 4 in the morning.

“Your point? Why would you make coffee at that hour, Yoongi?”

You were less annoyed by the fact coffee was leaking everywhere from the machine as not so reassuring sounds erupted from it than the fact of being woken up for such reason.

“Geez. Where is your sympathy, __? Like I wanted to be nice for once and this is how you thank me?”

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Love Conquers All (On Sherlock Season 4)

I’m currently re-watching Season 4, simply just to indulge myself, and mainly because I personally loved it. I thought I was done expressing everything I have to say about the matter in this post, but there has been an unending sh*t-storm still looming over S4 that has gone beyond what I had expected. Not to mention that things I’ve seen on Twitter earlier regarding the so-called Norbury movement.

I am not dismissing the fact that this season had its flaws, but there’s a significant meaning to it all that some people are dismissing because they’ve been blinded by their own illusions that I would want to highlight. For someone who had cried over and mulled over these episodes more than the past 3 seasons, this season gave my love for existentialism a baseline that tugged at the heart – the very reason why I wanted to talk about it.

Originally posted by esterlocked

Just a brief explanation, existentialism is the belief that life has no meaning in general. To quote Moriarty, “Staying alive… So boring, isn’t it? It’s just… staying.” However, what I like about it is the idea that society or any other factor is not responsible for giving life it’s meaning – it is solely up to the individual to discover it on their own.

With that said, I think this is why this season resonated with me so much, and I find the chaos in some parts of the fandom frustrating, especially to the point that the writers are being attacked for this. So as usual, I have to say something about it. Because instead of writing articles for work, I’m thinking about Sherlock.

Anyway, I’m just gonna go ahead with my point.


The Six Thatchers : Horrors Of The Past

This may be my least favourite among the three, but the message of this episode is clearly simple: we all have horrors that will come and haunt us in the future – and how we face it all comes down to the path we choose. 

We live hundreds, and even thousands of roles throughout our lives. And we all have our past; things that we regret, hate, cringe at, miss, still believe in, etc. But whatever that past might be, what I got from TST is that you can never run from your past as it catches up to you, but it is one facet of your life does not completely define you.

Originally posted by akajustmerry

Death has been played with through the past seasons that it seemed all too mundane to us now, in terms of the context of the show. But S4 is here to correct this notion in Mary’s persona. With Mary saying that Mary Watson was the only life worth living, it showed that we get to choose which part of our lives we live out the most.

Same with John and his ‘cheating’. To be fair, I’m pissed at the fact that this was completely out of character. But when the series culminated, I understood why they have to do it. We saw what we wanted to see in these characters as they were presented to us – John was supposedly honourable, kind, and courageous, but what is this? Who is this new John? 

This is where I head to my next point. 


The Lying Detective : Being Alive And Human

This episode made me cry buckets, to be honest. And it is because this is all about changing what you know about these characters and seeing them all in a different light. 

Here we see a Sherlock not led by the mind but the heart, a John who was weak against temptation, a cheater, someone who looked jealous from having the spotlight all on the detective – it showed that no one is ultimately good and that someone’s facade is not who they entirely are. It shows that everyone has their ups and downs because that’s what humanity is about. It illustrated that everyone was capable of being angry, desperate, conceited, weak, lonely, alone, etc. It highlighted how these characters are broken – especially Sherlock – and how redemption can mean so much more to a person. 

We all have our flaws, our downfalls, our agonies; but who are we really, at our most vulnerable? And who are the people willing to believe in us even if we’ve shown them our true, and sometimes, faded colours?

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“Taking your own life. Interesting expression, taking it from who? Once it’s over, it’s not you who’ll miss it. Your own death is something that happens to everyone else. Your life is not your own, keep your hands off it.”

This is a plea. That shutting down and ending your life is and should never be the answer. This is one of the most beautiful pieces of dialogue I have ever heard, and it’s a very upfront message about warranting a value on your own life. And for people to threaten the writers of the show that they are the ones who caused the lives that are put in the line or the self-harm that will happen due to their distaste for TFP is devastating to me.

And yes, there have been people tweeting Mark and BBC that they are and will be responsible for these lives, which is just unfair.


The Final Problem : On Love And Redemption

I’ve seen people questioning why Benedict said ‘love conquers all’ in one interview before the season aired. There has also been statements that this season will be ‘groundbreaking’, which others failed to see why, leading to the claims that the showrunners are queerbaiting.

Now, every single show, every single actor, not just in Sherlock, but basically everywhere, is being put in the microscope because they need to identify with something, and that they need to represent a cause — which I get! I advocate for this! But, just when the world is being careful about mixing up their characters or when they are inserting a gay character just because now, society is demanding them to, Sherlock had already presented that years before (note that some TV shows only became more open to having gay characters around late 2014, early 2015-ish onwards because people are becoming more vocal about it as inspired by those bold enough to make a first move, e.g. Glee). 

Here, we have an openly gay character (which is still another topic of debate but I stand by it when I say Irene used the term gay loosely), had openly gay actors play brilliant and unstereotypical roles, and for God’s sake, Mark Gatiss is a gay man who is behind this brilliant show, and  that’s the very reason they passed it off as normal. They didn’t do it in a way that we always have to be reminded that the character is gay, that there has to be a sex scene just to prove that they’re gay… it’s just there – again, as one facet of the characters. Sex, as something that has been explicitly expressed in the show, isn’t the only thing that defines a character or their relationships with someone else, and I appreciated that. They had a story to tell – the story of these characters as a whole and not just one side of them. 

And personally, I did see why they made their claims as indicated by my chosen title. When this season ended, Sherlock who claimed to have never been attuned to his emotions, had his eyes open and had embraced that he was also human, flawed, and is capable to love IN ALL FORMS. 

Originally posted by fangirlhani

He learned to value his life because of what happened to Mary, he had admitted that he also succumbs to his impulses with Irene Adler (texting or beyond that, depends on what you want to believe), he fully realised that he would never ever want to hurt and make Molly feel like she’s being used by him because she’s his friend, he was able to extend a more human side of himself to John more than he did before, he finally understood and accepted Mycroft’s intentions and actions which I think mended their relationship significantly (this one hits me to the core so much), and lastly, he discovered that if he was left in the air in isolation, he might have ended up like Eurus, which is why he never wanted to make her feel alone again. 

To me, it is groundbreaking because it left that cliche of someone running off into the sunset in the end and it’s all butterflies and rainbows. They wrapped it up with the characters still broken, but living through it day by day because someone chose to love, accept, and help them heal despite their flaws. 

It is what it is, they keep on saying, because that’s how life is. It can be unbearable and it can most certainly be shit, but in the end, whether you ship Johnlock, Adlock, Sherlolly, Sheriarty, Mollstrade, Mystrade, etc., if we all let love – self-love, romantic love, familial love, platonic love – all kinds of love in our lives, it will help us conquer all, within and beyond this show. 

I saw so many “anti-noorhelm” posts lately that I just have to say something.

I have to remind you of all the good things about William (probably I forget about something, but you got the point)

  1. Yes, he was fuckboy. But he changed. For her. Because he wanted to be with her. At the end of s2 he was completely different person than before.
  2. Remember when Jonas and Chris P get into a fight? And what William said back then? That he would kill somebody who kissed his girlfriend. Because that’s who William is. He don’t want to feel and getting hurt. But when he cares he is loyal and lovely and amazing.
  3. He cares about his friends and this is very very important.
  4. He beat Yakuza guy, when this little shit called Iben per “Slut”
  5. He lost his sister for god sake! He’s family is a mess. He’s brother is psycho.
  6. He prepared blanket and cocoa for Noora
  7. He can play guitar
  8. He offered Noora his bed. He wanted to sleep on a sofa because he knew sleeping with him could be awkward for her
  9. He wanted to make her breakfast
  10. He was with his friends on a spring break but he still thought about Noora
  11. He told her about Jonas and Isabelle
  12. He missed her
  13. He was heartbroken when Noora said she doesn’t like him
  14. This smile when she kissed him? OMG I live for that smile! He was so happy she’s finally his.
  15. This whole scene in bed? They were fucking adorable and so happy and everyone who thinks different must be completely blind!
  16. He tried to protect her from his stupid psycho brother
  17. Noora told him about her family. And he supported her. And it was important.
  18. Okay, he was horny. But he’s a boy! Teenage boy! It’s normal. 
  19. He kept their relationship in secret, because Noora wanted it and he wanted to make her happy even when he thought she should tell Vilde about them.
  20. He challenged Noora. He made her see that there are always two side of the same coin. And that’s good. People need people. People learn from other people.
  21. He doesn’t gave up on her when she pushed him away after “bottle accident”
  22. He didn’t want to spend his russ buss time with friends, knowing that something is wrong with her; She was the most important thing for him
  23. When she had a panic attack he just hug her. He hold her until she calmed herself. He made her feel safe, loved and he just lay with her with his arms around her. 
  24. He didn’t check her facebook when he had an opportunity; he believed her and trusted her
  25. He wrote fucking amazing article for her
  26. He made her get out of bed and go to Eva’s.
  27. He loves her.
  28. He was going to come for her at any time when she was at Eva’s house
  29. He told her about his family; He opened himself for her
  30. He was angry but he still talked to her because he couldn’t leave without saying goodbye
  31. He was an asshole during this conversation because being rude was his shield for so many years. Yet he came back for Noora because he’s changed. He wanted to be a douche bag like he always was but he couldn’t. He’s not the same person. He needs Noora and want to be happy.
  32. He felt guilty for Nikolai’s behavior
  33. He confessed his guilt on police station
  34. He is totally adorable
  35. He doesn’t deserve so much hate

Often I hear opinion that because of William, Noora stopped being herself, independent and strong. Well bullshit! He didn’t changed her. She just showed her other face: very soft and broken. Seriously, she hasn’t had an easy life. Unloving, lonely, probably with eating disorder. And she wasn’t talk about it with anyone. She kept everything inside, pretending that she is okay. She never was. William didn’t changed her. He figured her out.
He showed her she doesn’t always has to be perfect, that she can break down and he’s not going to judge. That it’s okay to trust someone and that he loves her defects as much as everything else. He made her feel comfortable and loving and safe. 

And I can’t believe he could have another girl in London. 

And I hate Thomas that he left and ruined my Noorhelm.

And I am sorry for my English, but it’s not my native language.

I guess that’s all.

Anyone agree? 

too good at goodbyes

request: 73,89,98,99 bc i’m n e e d y asf tha nks
73. “You don’t have to stay.”
89. “You’re the best part of me.”
98. “Hold me back!’
99. “I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!”

Could you write something about brokenheart Shawn like maybe Y/N is so scared to be the girl with a broken heart that she decided to break his heart instead


— word count: 2,061

— warnings: mild swearing

“Get out!” You scream at the top of your lungs.

“No! Tell me why!” He yells back, standing his ground in front of you.

“Just leave!”

“I’m not going anywhere until you tell me why you want me gone all of a sudden!”

You try to push him towards the door, but he barely moves an inch. You collapse against his chest, banging your fists against him.

“Please, just go!” You beg tears, spilling down your face.

“Why do you want me gone so bad, (y/n)? What happened?”

“I just don’t love you anymore.”

Shawn stares at you, not wanting to believe the words that just came out of your mouth.

“Leave. I don’t love you anymore.” You stare at him as silent tears roll down his cheeks.

Shawn grabs his jacket and keys, walking out and slamming the door behind him. You watch as he leaves, collapsing to the floor as soon as the door closes. You didn’t mean any of the things you said. You’re just scared. Scared of being hurt so you hurt him instead. You watched your parents’ marriage fall apart right in front of you and you swore you would never go through what they did.

You spent countless nights listening to your mother’s sobs through her locked bedroom door. You were so young having to watch all of this. Only eight years old. You had to endure their endless fights and sham of a marriage for another ten years before you finally got out of there. As soon as you left they stopped putting on a show and got divorced. You knew you were the only reason they were still together. You also swore that you would never put your children through that. You still stand by that. Maybe that’s why you’re so afraid to love.

You promised yourself that as soon as you thought you might be falling in love with Shawn you would leave. The thing is, you didn’t even realize you were already in love with him. You’re so afraid to love Shawn, so afraid to get hurt, that you just push him away.

You don’t know how long you’re on the floor crying, but it feels like your lungs are on fire. You stand up, your whole body numb. You slowly make your way to the bedroom, collapsing into the bed. You curl up into yourself, wrapping your arms around you, wishing they were Shawn’s. You close your eyes, more tears rolling down your cheeks as you realize Shawn is most likely never coming back.

You hear a knock at the door and refuse to get up, not wanting to see anyone at the moment. When the knocks become more urgent you groan and reluctantly make your way to answer it. As soon as you reach the living room the door swings open to reveal Matt.

“You left the door unlocked.” He says, walking in.

“Yeah, thanks. I realized that when you burst in.” You roll your eyes, starting to walk back to your bedroom, Matt trailing right behind you.

“I assume Shawn sent you to get his things.” You say as you reach up to grab a duffel bag from the top of the closet.

“No, actually.”

You stop and stare at him, sure you heard him wrong.

“What?”

“He didn’t send me to get his things.”

You blink slowly before staring at Matt, your eyebrows drawn together tightly.

When you don’t answer he continues, “Shawn showed up at my front door a little while ago. He had obviously been crying. He told me what happened and I immediately dragged him over here. He’s in the car.”

Your heart lifts slightly when you hear that Shawn is here.

“I’ve known you for quite some time now, (y/n). I know you didn’t mean any of that. You’re still madly in love with Shawn. I think he’s the only one who doesn’t know that. At least he doesn’t think you love him at this moment.” He finishes.

You stare at him, more tears threatening to spill. You didn’t even know you could cry this much.

“I still love him. So much. I’m just scared.”

“I’m not the one you should be telling.” He motions towards the front door.

You walk outside to see Shawn standing outside, his back towards your house. His head lowers when he hears the door open and close.

“See man,” he sniffles, “I told you. Can we go now?”

He turns around and freezes when he sees you.

“Shawn, I’m so sorry.” You say stepping closer to him.

He stuffs his hands in his pockets, looking down and kicking at the pavement below him.

“You don’t have to stay, but will you at least hear me out?” You continue.

He shrugs, “I guess. Go ahead and break my heart a little more if you please.” He mutters.

Your heart breaks even more hearing him say that and you swallow hard before continuing.

“You know my parents are divorced, but you don’t know that I had to deal with the fights for ten years. I had to listen to my mother’s crying through a locked door for hours on end, knowing there was nothing I could do about it. I had to live in the center of their broken marriage for ten years. I was the only reason they didn’t get divorced sooner. I felt like I was the reason they had to go through it for so much longer than they should have.”

Shawn looks at you sympathetically and you shake your head, “Don’t look at me like that.”

He looks to the ground again and you take a deep breath before continuing.

“Shawn, I told you I don’t love you anymore because I’m scared.”

His head snaps up and he looks at you, confusion evident in his expression.

“I didn’t want to get hurt, so I hurt you first.”

Shawn’s expression changed and you swear he looks angry.

“So, you were so scared to get close to me, and let me love you that you decided to break my heart? Do you know how fucked up that is?”

You close your eyes and a few tears roll down your cheeks, “I didn’t want to be the girl with the broken heart. Shawn, I messed up. I know that. It’s all I know. Every relationship I’ve been in, I’ve left before I could get hurt, but they’ve never loved me like you and I’ve never loved them.”

“You can’t just go around breaking up with people because you’re scared to fall in love!”

You take a deep breath and step back from him, his expression immediately softening.

“Sorry.” He mutters.

“No, Shawn…you’re right. I didn’t want to let you close to me even though you mean the most to me. And that’s an awful thing to do to you. You don’t deserve this.” You sigh.

Shawn just looks at you, not sure of what to say.

“Everyone was right. I don’t deserve you. You’re too good for me.” You mutter, ready to give up.

Shawn’s eyebrows pull together, “Who said that?”

“Your fans, the media, even Andrew said it once. We had gotten in a fight and he was mad because I had you distracted so don’t go off on him.” You say quietly.

“I don’t care what they said, it doesn’t mean shit!” He says, clearly angry.

“It does to me!”

“Why!? Why does what they say mean so much to you!?”

“I don’t know!” You shout as tears of frustration continue to blur your vision.

“You shouldn’t even care about what I say. Your opinion is the only one that matters when it comes to how you view yourself.” He says softly.

“Yeah, well my opinion is the same as theirs. You’re too good for me.” Your voice lowers.

Shawn stares at you, hurt that you would say that.

“I am not too good for you.” He shakes his head.

“You are. You know you are. You’re such a good person. All of the time. You’re talented and genuine. I just go around trying to break other people’s hearts before they can break mine. All I ever say is goodbye.”

“Why don’t you try saying hello? Say hello to me. To us. To our relationship.”

“Because I’m way too good at goodbyes.” You say quietly.

“You don’t have to say goodbye again. You haven’t fully said it to me yet.”

“Because you slipped through the cracks.”

“Heaven forbid! Matt, hold me back! I’m getting too close to (Y/n)’s heart!” He says sarcastically.

“Would you stop?” You hit his arm.

“Why should I? You’re the best part of me and you’re scared to admit that you love me.”

“Yeah, I am! I’m sorry I’m not conventional and I don’t fit into your perfect fucking plan, Shawn.”

“But, you do! You fit into it so well because it’s built around you! I know you, (Y/n), you’re a fighter. I’ve learned that through many things. You fight for what you believe in and you fight for what you want. You are one of the most stubborn people at times. What happened to that girl?”

“I guess she’s gone.” You look down.

“Don’t say that.” He says, stepping closer to you.

“How can I not?” You look back at him.

He opens his mouth to speak, but you interrupt him.

“Baby, we don’t stand a chance. It’s-it’s sad…but it’s true.” You say, wiping your eyes.

“We stand every chance.”

“Shawn…”

“Don’t…” He says, his lip trembling as tears begin to roll down his cheeks.

You open your mouth to say something, but he doesn’t let you.

“(Y/n)…stop. I’m not giving up on us this easily.”

“But, I need you to.”

“Boo fucking hoo because I’m not going to.”

“Why do you have to be so stubborn!?”

“Because I love you and I don’t want to lose you!”

“Goddammit, Shawn! Then stop loving me!”

“I can’t just stop loving you! Why are you so scared of me loving you, anyway!?”

“My parents-” You start.

“Stop. You can’t blame this on your parents anymore. That was their relationship. Just because their relationship didn’t work out, doesn’t mean none of yours can!”

You stare at him quietly, tears freely flowing down both of your faces.

“Do you even want this to work out?”

“What? Of course I do.”

“Then act like it.”

“What do you want me to do?” You ask, frustrated.

“Say you love me.”

You stare at him, your mouth open slightly as he looks at you expectantly.

“I…”

You love Shawn. You really do. You don’t know why it’s so hard for you to tell him that.

Of course. Fuck this. I tried.” He says walking towards your front door, leaving you standing there as he calls for Matt.

You start to panic as you realize Shawn is actually walking away this time.

“Shawn…”

“What? What could you possibly have to say to me?” He spits.

“I love you. I really do. I’m so madly in love with you and I don’t know why that was so hard for me to say because you’re the only person I ever want to say that to. I’m sorry it took me so long, but please know that I really do love you. Please don’t go.”

“I love you too, (Y/n”. I always have.“

You smile at him.

“But it’s too late. Sometimes people need to hear things like this sooner. Ya know, before they actually begin to believe that you don’t love them.” He continues and your heart sinks.

Shawn walks past you, getting in the car as Matt walks out.

“Take care, (Y/n).”

You nod, staring at Shawn. This was exactly what you were afraid of. You watch as they drive away, your heart shattering even more with each roll of the tires. You walk back inside, closing the door behind you. You sink down and bring your knees to your chest, breaking down.

This house is where you shared so many amazing memories with Shawn. All the early mornings where you woke up and cooked breakfast together. The birthdays you spent together. The drunken nights that ended in sloppy, giggling make-out sessions. This house didn’t feel like home anymore.

It didn’t feel like home anymore because your home just left you standing out front as tears rolled down your cheeks.

Mary, her boys and Destiel

My thoughts around Mary, what she has seen and her coping with her boys and their angel buddy. 

She’s gone from being a mother of 2 babies in a (happily? generally?) cupid-induced loving marriage, still fighting the supernatural on occasion to happily dead in heaven (which she remembers), to now being a (unneeded) mother to 2 grown men - who live with a supernatural being, in an underground bunker owned by her family’s ‘mythical opposition’ the men of letters and living the hunting life she was desperate to keep them away from. Yeah, tough.

- Resurrection : Dean convinces her of who he is by an emotional retelling of her life and how she met John.  Reminding us that when Mary and John first met they didn’t actually immediately like each other, she 'knocked him flat on his ass’. They did fall intensely in love although their relationship and family was marred by the supernatural and they sometimes fought passionately (she doesn’t know it was a Cupid of course)…. Aside - *ahem “couple who were 'forced to be’ v couple who embody free will” parallels*

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- Witnessing Dean and Cas being reunited when Cas believes he has died. Cas throwing himself at Dean, shouting then quietly murmuring his name into his neck. She, understandably, has a questioning look in her eyes. Then, um, ANGEL?!

Originally posted by mellofone

- Seeing Cas work tirelessly to find Sam. Seeing Dean completely trusting Cas to do this and also relying on him emotionally (overhearing their #married phone conversation about Dean not wanting to overwhelm her).

- Knowing that Cas lives in the bunker with them, but noting that he doesn’t sleep, emphasising his 'inhuman’ side.

- Seeing how completely Cas falls apart when Sam and Dean are imprisoned as he tries to find them and attempts to hunt alone (v how effective he was at finding just Sam, working with Dean, when she first met him). She blames him for their loss at first. Then upon seeing how completely he is broken, even counting the hours, she tries to support and help him in as much as she can, in her way. Upon realising how he is NOT coping she goes from her first instinct of blaming him for their loss in her role as their mother to actually consoling him.

Originally posted by angvlicmish

Mary is NOT a monster, she’s really struggling, she misses the people she loves and so buries herself in hunting to bury her emotions. Plus her automatic reaction to strong feelings of love, pain and guilt is to get angry… LIKE DEAN (very relevant for Cas’s death scene).

- Cas putting himself in danger to save her from Billie, he then gives an impassioned, muddled speech about how important you/you all is/are to him/everything… but predominantly throughout this is looking at Dean.
Sure he doesn’t want Mary to die, but this speech - this declaration is not really about them all being so important to everything, it can’t be, she’s not been around long enough and she hasn’t done anything to show Cas that she’s of any real importance. 

She wonders if he even really understands it himself, he looks so muddled and broken. Is it because he’s an angel? Do angels feel like humans? She’s confused and worried, she is already not sure of the new world she’s come back to, and now there’s a supernatural being in her and her boy’s life, it’s intense. And now this?!
She turns to Dean and sees the look of pain in his eyes as he realises how broken Cas is and how he has put himself in harms way for them. 

His jaw is clenched, his body language is closed off, guarded. She understands this is far more complex than she first imagined.

Originally posted by mishacolins

- After such an emotive night she heads out to clear her head, she can’t cope with being around them all, it’s too much. The next time she sees them all it is most definitely jarring. Sam and Dean are all business with her, there’s no sign of anything cosmic or anything in their actions to recall that emotional night. Dean partakes in some over the top posturing with the waitress on Cas’s behalf while calling Cas 'devastatingly handsome’ while Cas seems oblivious, or is that actually a scowl on his face? She’s now even more confused. Does Dean not realise or is this something else entirely? Has she misread Cas? She doesn’t know any other angels so it could be that she’s misunderstood. He is a little awkward and supernatural after all…. but the boys want him around and he obviously cares for them so she should just get them all to get on with the hunt.

- Cas is dying and it’s her fault. He wants the Winchesters to leave him as to save themselves. He tells Sam and Dean that his best moments have been with them which makes her wonder just how old he is and what he has seen. He says the things they’ve shared and done have changed him. She knows this is important but not exactly how, it’s deeply emotional though and it reminds her of how little she actually knows of their time together and her boys that this angel, this supernatural being could have been affected so much by them.
She turns and sees Sam, then Dean’s faces and how they both are pained by Cas’s dying words. Somehow though she can see not just sadness in Dean’s eyes but also regret and self loathing. He blames himself. She knows because it’s what she sees in the mirror. She is reminded again how Dean is so like her.

- Cas looking up at them all, calling them all his family, nodding at her to include her which just makes her feel awful for her part in having led to this, his death and all their pain. She doesn’t really deserve this, to be a part of their family.

- Cas then immediately looking down, not catching anyone’s eye as he says 'I love you’. 

Originally posted by jensen-jay

Cas looking up at Sam as he tells him that he loves them all, meaning him, specifically TOO, then finally the long lingering, revealing look at Dean as he can’t avoid him any longer. She knows now, she understands. 

She looks at Dean and sees so much of herself in him. She wonders if he understands too or if his self-loathing prevents his comprehension that he can be loved like this. She’s not known him very long as an adult but she knows this much about him and that saddens her deeply, it also contributes to her own self-loathing in an ironic twist. And if he does understand Cas’s words, does he reciprocate? Her and Dean, they work with actions, not words and she sees his actions now, how he’s holding back. She understands. But it doesn’t matter now anyway, 

Cas is dying and it’s her fault. She could be the cause of the breaking of her little boy’s heart and he doesn’t even know it. But still in the back of her mind, is this not maybe for the best? How can you love something not…human?

- Sam and Dean fighting for Cas, refusing to leave him, emphasising that he is family, seeing the understanding and love in Cas’s eyes as they do so. Dean had even been arguing with and insulting both the KING OF HELL and RAMIEL as he was so worried for Cas. Mary is terrified of Ramiel, another yellow eyed demon and she has seen this. 

Now, as he is dying, Sam’s consoling words while Dean can’t watch, he looks down like he might even be praying. Or perhaps he just can’t watch Cas’s last moments.

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Originally posted by foodiestiel

- But he lives, no thanks to Mary.

- “Let’s go home”….


No wonder she can’t stay around them, with the confusion over their supernatural 'friend’ plus now the guilt (she’s still in the old hunter mindset of kill anything inhuman, she doesn’t have 12 years worth of Winchester Gospel storyline to teach her the grey areas like our boys have and they’ve only recently learned it fully re: Benny, Amy).

Originally posted by shixpe

And yes she’s made it a hell of a lot worse by now also betraying Sam with the BMOL, when he was the one who really still trusted her.

So yeah, in her struggle to find herself she’s ‘abandoned’ BOTH Sam and Dean and now she’s narratively: 

1. betrayed Sam through her work with the BMOL.

2. betrayed Dean…. by endangering Cas. 

So I think that speaks volumes.

Now for her redemption arc as she’s already admitted to working with the BMoL and is clearly conflicted about nearly losing Cas, let’s get some more wake up calls :)

Reaction to You Crying During an Argument. . .

Anonymous said: hey! if requests are open, would you mind doing bts’ reaction to you crying during an argument? (say its your 1st time arguing and he accidentally yells @ you) like, i always start crying if someone yells at me, even if its not meant to hurt me. TY!

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A/N saaammeee,,,


Kai Eonni ~


Namjoon…

We all know Namjoon is a disaster on two legs – boy can barely walk without disrupting the balance of gravity – but when his emotions get riled up and it involves the girl he loves, he’s a tornado of emotions on legs – with no filter. Usually Namjoon is calm and collected, able to pick and choose his words wisely and logically, but as his girlfriend it’s like you stump his ability to do that. You guys end up saying stupid things you don’t mean and end  up hurting one another. So when his hurtful words take a jab at you, you can’t stop the tears from slipping out. It would take a while for him to put two-and-two together, not realizing it was his words that hurt you. His mind would still be a jumbled mess of accusations and anger. However, when you make your move to leave he’d quickly snap out of his confusion and call you back, your pain and sadness being what brings back his logical side. He’d want to quickly patch things up, not able to leave you alone when he knows he caused your tears. He’d apologize and ask if you two can sit down and talk logically about whatever it was you were fighting about. Within 20 minutes you two would be giggling and lovey-dovey again – just the way he likes it. Anytime you cry would be unsettling to him and he’d want to quickly put a smile on your face.

(just imagine you’re that handsome fellow under Namjoon’s chin for me real quick)

Originally posted by yourpinkpill


Jin…

Even though for the most part Jinnie-poo seems like a mom who spends her Saturdays at the expensive local cafe with her mom group gossiping about their troublesome kids while sipping an espresso imported from Italy, I know there’s a fierce and sensitive side of him that rarely comes out – even on his worst days. BUT when it does, it can be scary. He gets quieter, more snappy and more aggressive (verbally – not physically). The reason you would cry is because you’ve never seen this side of him, and it was so unexpected and out of character that it confused you emotionally. However, when he sees you cry, he’d immediately calm down and want to comfort you. He’d still be a little frustrated about the argument so while he’s going in to comfort you, he’d run a hand through his hair, biting back the words he still wants to say about the argument and instead taking a deep breath to calm him down. He’d pull you in for a hug, allowing you to snuggle your face into his warm chest. He’d mumble apologies and kiss the top of your head, and immediately you’d be able to feel the love he has for you. Later you two, like Namjoon, would talk about the fight and come to an understanding, trading apologies and soft kisses and caresses.

Originally posted by bang-me-bangtan-style


Yoongi…

Alright, so our man Min Yoongi is already quite intense, so the fights would be very intense as well. There would be a lot of harsh words – not a lot of words spoken, but when there were, they would be harsh and straight to the point. When he notices you trying to hold back your tears, he’d get even more pissed, thinking you were being weak, you have just the same amount of blame in this fight as he does, so he believes you don’t have the right to cry. He’d get increasingly defensive and accuse you more, but when you actually start crying he’d suddenly feel horrible. He’d start berating himself for being a horrible boyfriend. He’d hesitate at first, thinking you might not want him to touch you or comfort you. Seeing you so broken and seemingly small because of him, he’d need to step away and take some time to himself. He’d go into another room for a few minutes, but not before muttering a low ‘sorry’. When he comes back to you fifteen minutes later, he’d just quietly pull you into him, not wanting you to look at him directly in the face because he’s secretly ashamed for being so harsh on you when his role in your life is to protect and support you like you’ve done for him. He’d second guess is he’s really worthy of you, but would quickly brush those thoughts aside, focusing on the need at hand, which is to show you and prove to you how much he still loves you despite his harsh words from earlier.

Originally posted by sugagifs


J-Hope…

This would be his worst nightmare, he’d never want to make anyone cry, let alone you; someone he’s promised multiple times to only make you laugh and enjoy life like you deserve. So when he sees you crying, he’s shocked and utterly disgusted with himself. How could he have allowed himself to make you cry like this? He’d want to comfort you immediately, needing you to know that he never meant anything he said and that he loves you to the moon and back. He’d be ashamed and would spend the next few days asking if you forgive him, are you angry with him, and spending all his time with you making up for his rash behavior. You’d need to assure him that you forgive him, and that you have gotten over it. Whenever a fight comes up, he’d make sure to watch his words and do everything he can to prevent the fight from escalating like it did in your last fight, not wanting to see you in tears because of him again.

Originally posted by hobiga


Jimin…

Jimin would try really hard not to yell at you. He hates having any negative interaction with you, and so the fact that you guys are having an argument in the first place would really affect him. Adding onto his disappointment in himself for allowing himself to yell at you, you crying would just upset him even more. He’d be in shock at first, running a hand through his hair multiple times, trying to situate himself and grasp the situation. He’d need to step back and assess the situation to figure out what he should do next. He’d eventually calm himself down, trying to slow down his heartbeat, then he’d place a gentle hand on your cheek, speaking in a low and gentle tone to calm you down. He’s a fantastic listener, and so he’d be using those skills to figure out what you need to calm down and relax again. He’d then take this as a learning experience and try to prevent future arguments where you end up crying.

Originally posted by kpopidolaegyooo


Taehyung…

It would take a lot to get him to yell at you. He has great control over his emotions especially when they come to you. The last thing he’d want is to yell at you, but when you continue to push his limits and restraint, he bursts. It would take him a while to actually process that you’re crying, due to the fact that he is now releasing all his tension and held back emotions. He’s so blinded by the strong surge of emotions that you crying isn’t processed as quickly as the other members. However, when he finally realizes that you are indeed crying, he wouldn’t connect the dots that you are crying because of him. He’d ask you multiple times what’s wrong, he would guess it’s something he did, but he wouldn’t know what it was that he had done. His yelling? His choice of words? The argument in general? You would need to explain it to him. Once he knows the reason he’s all apologies, hugs and kisses. In the future he wouldn’t allow himself to lose control like that and would never allow himself to be pushed over the edge like that in front of you, hating the idea of you crying because of him. Why allow it to happen again, when he knows he can prevent it.

Originally posted by mvssmedia


Jungkook…

He’d be easy to annoy, however, like Taehyung, he’d work incredibly hard to keep his anger from you. Believing that as the man of the relationship it’s his job to protect you from all things negative. However, he’s still young, and so because of this, even though he would try his hardest to keep his anger from you, he’d still slip up sometimes. This would be one of those rare moments where he slips up and shouts at you. When in response you cry, he’d immediately stop everything he’s doing and watch you for a few seconds with wide eyes. More shocked that it was his doing that caused you to cry – this being the last thing he would ever want. He’d want to distance himself from you, both ashamed and disappointed in himself for causing you to cry. After almost a half hour, he’d return with gifts to try and apologize to you, hoping they would be a good replacement for the words he’s too shy to speak at the moment. However, this would be something he thinks about often and would let himself live down until he’s able to properly apologize to you with words instead of gifts. cause he’s a sweetie like that

Originally posted by nnochu


deneebenton: You’ve heard a lot of voices, we thought it was time that you heard from us 💕 social media won’t be able to help me express how profound this experience has been in my life, I’d probably have to write a book. All I know is that this work of art is to be revered, and these warriors that I share the stage with and the back stage with are the most ferociously AUTHENTIC, skilled artists that I’ve ever had the honor to work with. We’ve given our hips, our knees, our stomach lining, our love, our gifts and so much more, and it was worth it. It’s only the beginning beautiful people, hold your heads up HIGH. Nearly A year on Broadway with our unique, strange, beautifully human, ORIGINAL piece is something to be oh so proud of, especially in a world where capitalism tends to choke the authenticity out of everything. We came, and we THRIVED. Come catch our beautiful comet one last time before it goes on to bless another galaxy. #wearethegreatcomet#Natashailoveyougirl

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Jon and Theon scenes lead to Sansa!

Originally posted by sonoundiocreaturaottusa

Jon and Theon scenes together are probably the most significant scenes in all of season 7. The reason being is that for both scenes it clearly shows where Jon’s heart lies. The first scene with Jon and Theon I don’t need to explain. It’s clear that Jon is grateful for what Theon did for Sansa. I want to focus on the scene above.

I don’t think people understand the magnitude of Jon forgiving Theon. Can we explore forgiveness for a second? One of the biggest struggles of humanity is learning how to truly forgive. For years people hold grudges, relationships are broken, and rifts are created because of the lack of ability to do this one act. Most people can’t forgive others over the most minute of circumstances.( For instance Ned and Catelyn and Jon being the victim of her bitterness/unforgiveness) Forgiveness is not an easy process in the slightest.

Now let’s look at Jon in this scene. Jon wholeheartedly forgives Theon. A man who betrayed his entire family, held his home captive, murdered those who were like family to him and sought out to murder his two little brothers. Even if Theon saved Sansa, Jon is well within his rights to be angry(which he was in his first scene with him) and even seek out justice for his family. But he doesn’t. Instead Jon not only forgave Theon but he showed compassion towards him.

Why?

Well because love motivates him. Love for Sansa and what she’s brought into his life. When people have love in their lives it’s difficult for them to hold onto anger/bitterness or wrongs done against them. Why be bitter when even though things might not be perfect, you’re at the most content point in your life that you have been in years?! Consuming love will always over power any anger or bitterness a person may have. Not only will it over power it but it will also bring peace and stability.

Jon’s love for Sansa is deep and consuming. Sansa was Jon’s game changer in everything. She came in at the most desperate time in his life. She gave him purpose and something to live for. In every sense Sansa is a vital part of Jon’s rebirth/transformation from a boy to the man/king he is now. She is without a doubt the woman behind the man! I assume that Sansa and Jon have been together at least a year maybe going on to two years now. The time spent building on their relationship and growing in their bond has probably been the most precious/healing time for both of them.

I need you to understand that only a radical type of love can motivate this level of forgiveness. A forgiveness full of grace and mercy that happened maybe over the span of a couple months. No matter how goodhearted Jon is, if Theon did not save Sansa Jon would more than likely have killed him. I mean Jon said so himself!

The point I’m trying to make is that love changes you and makes you do things you wouldn’t normally do. Jon forgiving Theon is the epitome of this. Again I’m not sure if the type of love Jon feels for Sansa is romantic. Im leaning more towards a deep, unexplainable love that goes beyond a brother/sister affection. What I can say is that Jon’s love for Sansa not only motivates him to forgive but it liberates him. It gives him the freedom to not be weighed down by unforgiveness but to let go. It also establishes that because of what Theon did for Sansa and what Sansa brought into Jon’s life, he is in a place where he can freely forgive Theon and even/affirm him, regardless of what Theon has done in the past.

That is beautiful my friends!! That is a man who is marked by something greater than hate or unforgiveness, that is a man that is marked by LOVE!

Episode 99 reaction

Like everyone else, I have lots of feelings.

I will most certainly go in order for this.

First off, Pike is fucking amazing.

Skipping ahead a little, I loved that Tary got full control over the house. It lets him legally decide what to do and it legitimizes his control. Now his father can’t really say no since Tary is the one officially letting his family stay in the house.

Sleepover part 2. Joke all you want about Vax and Keyleth being weird with animal forms, I personally think it’s cute and harmless and they do what they wanna do behind closed doors leave them be. Also Pike got to be apart of the pillow fort this time. I’m going to draw all the things.

The next morning’s conversation. Holy moly I knew that it would be bad, but Matt’s face, that silent rage that grew as Tary talked. That was scary and I’d hate to get on Matt’s bad side that was scary. Tary also coming out with everything he has learned and wanting to right the wrongs his Family did? I…like man I love how much he has developed.
And then going through what everyone has taught him? I can kinda see how Vax can be like a father but Grog kinda stumps me…but everyone else was dead on and then….Percy…like we all knew but to hear him confirm it was…that was excellent.

I was very happy to see Howart finally come around. I’m glad there was a concession on his part. There was nothing he could do and he needed to accept it. The deed was done and he probably got the best he could have given the circumstances.

Moving on, I was really sad to hear Tary say he wanted to stay, but I also perked up at that, because that would either mean another new character from Sam, or it meant…Scanlan.

That whole deception thing threw me through a loop. I thought it was him with an illusion coming down the stairs, but Matt was playing him, so I didn’t suspect…until he finally mentioned the origins of his name. Then I knew.

Man…As soon as Vex knew, he…that little move to Modify her memory? No. You’ve been using that spell on the regular. You’ve been wiping minds and changing people’s thoughts to get what you want and it’s become second nature. And now you use it in the people who trust you the most. Who accepted you despite all your faults. Your family…the girl who looked to you like a father. Glad you didn’t succeed. But the intent was there and Vex was hurt by that. You are in for something when that girl snaps, and trust me, it’s gonna hurt worse than most.

So everyone comes out and there is now a realization from Grog and Pike. And silence. You could feel that energy, it was palpable though the screen. Grog then seeing Lionel with Scanlan? That. Is. Fucking. Terrible. You can argue that Vox Machina replaced Scanlan with Tary, but that is so not true and they’ve made it abundantly clear what Tary is to them and how unlike Scanlan he actually is.

So Grog now feels betrayed. After he stuck up for Scanlan, this is how he is treated? Like he could be replaced with another Barbarian who is also a Bard? Grog helped bring you back, he respected your privacy for a while. He wanted to give you space. But now it looks like you’ve replaced him with a better version

So now we can get into everyone’s reactions. Tary, who is indifferent, focuses more on how accepting Vox Machina are of Lionel than they were of him.

Vax was…well Vax had forgiven Scanlan long ago and was elated. He knew they’d meet again and wanted to know what was going on. He wanted to catch up.

Keyleth recognized the tension and was probably the most outwardly angry, but it was still pretty subdued and she was probably a little bit in shock.

Percy trying desperately to maintain the high ground. Like Grog, and probably the rest of VM, he felt betrayed but was having a hard time trying to figure out why he wasn’t more angry. He was even trying to sort out his thoughts and seek advice from his significant other. The comment about Sybil was amazing and a great gut punch. His gradual coming to terms will probably lead him to forgive a lot sooner but the way he left that tavern speaks volume for how he will treat Scanlan in the future.

Moving on to the silent crowd…Pike and Grog. Scanlan knew that they’d be difficult to crack so he didn’t address them first. He saw their silence and accepted it for a while. But Grog’s seething rage as Lionel sat down to drink with him? That was so palpable, I was leaning closer to the screen the whole time. Then, as soon as that Awkward fight came to a head with some strange moves from Lionel, It shook Grog enough to take him out of his rage and send him away. CAT! C-A-T! That was everything. That broke my heart.

Pike dragged Scanlan. She dragged him so hard and I applaud Ashley, that girl can do no wrong. Scanlan was right about a few things when he left, but Pike deserved none of that. She hadn’t done anything to have Scanlan inflict those hurtful words on her. She called all of his bullshit and took him down. Good on her. Nothing is forgiven, but at least they understand one another and can work from a common ground of understanding.

And lastly…the other amazing Liar in the group. Vex, so clearly acting as if she forgave him, fooling her brother, fooling her significant other…but she is so broken. She has to be. Scanlan insulted her personally. He has been on her mind for so long and as soon as he shows up he wants her to forget? To cover up his ruse? Oh man that was the final nail in the coffin for me. She was acting through the whole ordeal that she was trying to forgive, and it may turn out that she does.
But…I can’t see that happening. He came back and the first thing he does is try to modify her memory. A family member. Someone she thought he trusted. Someone she looked to for advice sometimes. Someone who she loves. He tried to break all of that with a single spell.
I’m…to me that is the worst betrayal. He never apologized for that. He assumed Vex was fine, with her open attitude and jubilant words, welcoming him back. But I see a Vex haunted by that moment, a Vex reliving the words he said when he left. I see a Vex hiding it until something snaps and she goes beserk on him. I don’t see the forgiveness lasting. I see a broken girl desperate to try and hold things together.
I
Can’t
Wait.

Now, as for the rest of the stuff that happened, we now have the beginning of the final arc. With no message from the Raven Queen, Vax has begun to see the fates beginning to align. Scanlan is back and Vecna’s ritual has now been successful in another temple. Who knows what has happened in that two week span.

We also have Vex and Percy with a little secret. Pregnancy? Marriage? I wonder what those two are keeping from everyone else, and why Vex has chosen to keep it from her brother.

Lionel was perfect, I applaud tonight’s guest and found his performance immensely entertaining.

Sam was freaking phenomenal. He hit all the right story points and played all of his cards as best he could. He performed at 110% and evoked so many emotions. Thank you man, and you and Matt are terrible people who toy with our minds.

Sigh
Ok I’m done.

Unexpected (Part 6)

You and Yoongi finally talk to each other about that night that caused everything to fall apart.

Warning: smut, angst, dirty talking, grinding, intercourse

Parts: 1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8 (final)  8.5 (bonus)

Your arm was going numb from where Yoongi had fallen asleep on it, but you didn’t want to move for fear that you would wake him and the dream would end.  You had spent the earlier part of the day nursing a hangover and a broken heart – remnants from the night at the club.  You spent most of your waking hours thinking about how Yoongi had followed you into that alley and how he had tried to take you away from that Mingyu guy.  Weeks of not hearing a single word from him and the first time you see Yoongi, he acts like a jealous lover.  You weren’t sure how to feel about that.  You had tried to tamp down any hopes that this meant Yoongi still had feelings for you.  You had learned the hard way that he was not forthcoming with his emotions and it was best to not try to read too much into his actions.  Still, you had lingering hopes…

Later that night, when you heard a drunken Yoongi at your door, screaming obscenities at you from the hallway, your heart started to swell.  You had dreamed of a day when he would come crawling to you and begging you to take him back, but having Yoongi banging his fist against your door while cursing your name seemed like an acceptable alternative.  Even hatred is a sign of passion, you thought, and much better than being ignored.

Your roommate, Hyejin, had tried to stop you from opening the door to him.  She argued that you deserved better than a man who ignores you for weeks and then shows up drunk and yelling insults at you.  She said that the only reason Yoongi was here was because his pride was hurt when he lost the fight outside the nightclub.  You knew she was probably right, but you couldn’t help but wonder if maybe there was more to it.  At the very least, you wanted an opportunity to hear what Yoongi had to say.

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Mystic Yandere Shit [RFA]

Can you see that little hint in the name of the thing? It’s intented.

It may contain a bit of NSFW (not much though since I didn’t focus on… that aspect) and a bit more of angst, so be warned.

˙·٠•●♥ Zen ♥●•٠·˙

  • He always used to be a bit unfair about other people. You’ve seen him countless times talking to some women, most likely fangirls or actresses. He’d find your jealousy at those times incredibly cute and respect it, as you’re the only one he truly loves. Though, when it came to you talking with other men… He won’t take it easy, most likely threatening the guy to leave you alone in an over-protective manner you could eventually get used to. That’s what he wants after all - to protect you from all those beasts.
  • He doesn’t want you to leave his side. He will take you for rehaersals, sometimes seeming to not pay you too much attention as he’s, obviously, busy with his work. But he will keep his eye on you. Every time he hears you speak, he will focus on listening what you’re saying, even if he’s obviously not the one you’re talking to. Every person you’re talking to will be remembered by him and, you can be sure, he won’t be pleased if you actually talk to them more than absolutely necessary. He will always remind you to look at him and him only, no matter what he’s doing.
  • He’s extremely possessive, both in public and in private. Absolutely not ashamed of distinctly kissing you on a street or wrapping arms around you and glaring at everyone like a starving wolf “protecting” his prey. That’s what he’s became after all - an testy beast, whose only purpose is to claim you as his. If he feels like this, he will bite you, mark you in any way possible. It doesn’t matter if you’re in public, he will drag you to a blind alley to take you against a wall.
  • A yandere Zen is a violent sadist. He doesn’t mind you being hurt or scarred because of him, he’d obviously rather avoid scandals, but there will always be some excuses as to why your wrist is twisted or why there’s a bruise on your neck. His sadistic attempts are mostly sexual though, even during an argument he wouldn’t use force unless necessary. He will never hit you and your face may be only a bit bruised around your lips. He has a huge thing for bites, but not only gentle, romantical ones - he loves the vampire-like bites on your neck that make you vulnerable and too in-pain to even move. Every thing he does is to make you submit.
  • If you ever try or even sign that you want to leave, at first he will kind of laugh it off. But when he sees you’re stubborn, he will get quiet and cold, looking kind of depressed, he will sometimes snap at you to leave if you hate him so much. It’s not easy to leave him when he’s like this since he just looks too vulnerable… but if you actually try to, in an instant you’ll be either pinned down or tied to your bed, as the beast is awoken and ready to show you who you belong to.
  • The relationship with Zen evolves into him being somewhat kind and patient and you becoming indifferent towards what he does. The moment when you realize there’s no way out, he will soothe and comfort you, because he’ll notice that you finally gave up. He will just calmly convience you to submit to him. From now on, he will be gentle towards you and much more confident (and maybe even trustful?) toward you and your actions. This is the moment when you’re broken though and your will to fight has already vanished.

˙·٠•●♥ Yoosung ♥●•٠·˙

  • It all started innocently. He used to always ask you where you’re going, call you to make sure you’re all sound and safe. The questions and calls happened more and more often and at some point you could notice that you can’t move a single finger without his knowledge.
  • You know what “guilt tripping” means? Yoosung is the best at it. Are you trying to go somewhere on your own? “Don’t you want to spend time with me, MC?” Are you talking with some other guys? “You don’t love me anymore, MC?” He won’t tell you straight away to stay. But the saddness in his voice will make you stay anyway: you’ll always feel as if you’ve hurt him and you’re the only one to be blamed.
  • He’s highly manipulative in a relationship. He’s not the one to hurt you straight away, seeming rather submissive so that no one can actually tell anything against him. It’s more about emotional sabotage, he’ll wrap yourself around his finger and that’s the case - you won’t even know how quickly you’ve gotten into the spider’s web.
  • As every yandere, Yoosung is - obviously - jealous. He’s not the one to take you roughly on a street. In public places, he’ll always insist on you holding his hand, giving a clear hint that you’re already taken and no one should even try to talk to you. If that happens, he’ll at first look a bit insecure, but if he feels that it’s slipping out of his hands, he’ll start to complain about going home or things like this. He may just tell the guy in face that he should mind his own business and leave you alone. He won’t snap in public, but he’ll become very unpleasant.
  • As I said, he’s sub-like. When at home, he’ll fulfill all your wishes, making sure you’re always comfy and have not much to do, probably doing most of the chores. This way, he’ll feel free to say that he’s the best person you could be with. There’s no one that could be a better boyfriend, a better friend. He’s the only one you need, no excuses here.
  • If you’re trying to argue with him, he may get pretty angry. He’ll start with trying to guilt trip you and - if it somehow doesn’t work - he will eventually snap. He won’t be rough with you, but if he gets too mad, he will hit you - once and hard, so that you fall to the floor. He will obviously patch you up if needed, but only when he makes sure you’ve learned your lesson.

˙·٠•●♥ Jumin ♥●•٠·˙

  • He doesn’t have to be jealous. It’s more than obvious that you have no possibility to meet any other men anyway. A relationship with yandere!Jumin is quite obvious: he won’t let you out of his mansion. It’s actually like in his route: he will invite you to his place… and never let out. He’s going to keep conviencing you that you shouldn’t leave “right now”, but the “right now” thing will be carried on by weeks, until you realize that you’re not going to be let out anytime.
  • Jumin will most likely forget about Elizabeth 3rd. You’ll become his treasure no. 1. You can see a lot of respect and admiration in his words and composure, he will praise you and say how much he loves you. He will always want to be stay by your side like a guard angel.
  • It’s most likely that he will separate himself from the outside world. Depending on the degree of “addiction”, he may or he may not work at home. If Jaehee keeps pushing him, he can occassionally appear in the company, but most of his duties will fall onto her.
  • There’s that intriguing thing about Jumin that he tends to create his own reality. And so, it won’t be only “pretending” that you’re a cat: he’s ready to actually believe it. He will treat you like one and I don’t mean only having you wear a collar (with GPS, of course, it’s less likely to be taken off than anything else since he’s the one to keep the key). He will give you food in a silver bowl, making you crawl on the floor to get to it and eat without using your hands. He’s a perfect trainer, at some point making you actually believe that you’re a cat. It’s a strong psychological game of making you fall into his world and play along with his rules.
  • Jumin will probably treat you as if you’re unable to make choices on your own. As mentioned, any attempts to leave would result in him explaining that you can’t leave yet. The same would happen if you tried to reject his training. It’s incredibly difficult to make him lose control, but if he realizes that you’re not going to obey him, he will become awfully cold and lock you in a room/cage/dungeon (I bet he has one), not letting you out nor visiting for hours or even days, making you starve there until he’s ready to forgive you. And you better apologize properly.
  • He’s not a rough type. Even as a yandere, he can be subtle and gentle towards you. He will build the bond by giving you pleasure and either will he overhelm your senses with it or restrain you from it, expecting you to beg for it. His torture is a refined one. And to have a complete control over you is his major purpose.

˙·٠•●♥ Jaehee ♥●•٠·˙

  • She may not look like the one to be overly jaelous, but you can always see her glare at the boys that sometimes stare at you. At first she was only insecure about them, but at some point she started to feel kind of angry. She wasn’t a yandere to begin with - the nature will she develop in the relationship, and so she will slowly push the thing further, until she will actually kiss you roughly on a street to prove who you belong to.
  • Jaehee is aware of how attractive you are and that you can be found pretty by others. She’s almost scared that you’d leave her for a man (no matter if you’re actually gay or not) and she’ll always need to be ensured that you won’t. It’s a bit similar to Yoosung’s way, but not exactly. The emotional attachment will be a result of your good will and attempts to make her feel better. So she’ll wrap yourself around her finger, however it’ll be a result of your concern, that she will always use to bring you back to her.
  • The relationship won’t look unhealthy at first. She may build a strong bond between you two, but for a long time it will be really friendly and nice one. The things will change at some point, as she will start to actually control you. Unlike Yoosung, who started with controlling to make you attached, she will make you attached and then start controlling. 
  • She’s a busy person and so, she won’t spend as much time with you as she’d want. She’ll always want you to wait for her till she comes back from work, controlling your schedule to make sure you always do what’s planned. You won’t be even aware as to how much attention she gives to your plans. You’ll notice though, that every time you do something else than you should, she’ll instantly find you and patiently explain that you cannot ignore the schedule like this. She won’t let you explain yourself nor argue about this - she’ll treat you like a child who isn’t aware of what they should do and so they need to be taught.
  • Jaehee is surpsisingly dominant when it comes to your relationship. In a healthy one, she may be sub as well, but we’re talking about yandere thing and that’s the case: she will treat you as if you’re not mature enough to make choices on your own. And so, she’ll always make sure she’s the only one you can submit to, no way around.
  • She’s surprisingly patient, like a parent. She will calmly explain, if you’re doing something wrong. And if you at some point get angry, she will coldly keep stating what she thinks. She won’t use force on you though and so escaping her physically may be very easy… at least it would be, if she didn’t manage to convience you that you’re not ready to live on your own and she’s the only one that can take care of you so well.

˙·٠•●♥ Seven ♥●•٠·˙

  • You couldn’t even see it coming. Saeyoung, at first, is a stalker type of boyfriend. So as soon as you two start dating, he will observe your every single move. He will hack into all your devices and CCTVs in your neighbourhood, set cameras in all your rooms (bathroom too lol) and watch you 24/7.
  • He’s very good at hiding his actions. For a long time you won’t even notice how closely you’re observed. If you happen to not appear on his feed, he will call you straight away and cheerfully ask what are you up to. If he notices you may be in danger, he will come straight away, like a knight in a shining armour. He will be your guardian angel. And you won’t even realize when it turned into an abuse.
  • Saeyoung will become paranoid. At some point, camera feed won’t be enough and he will insist on having you around as often as possible, to the moment when he’ll make you stay at his place 24/7. He - being the Saeyoung we know - will seem to not pay you much attention when you two are together. He will see everything though. He will keep pushing you away, not caring much about what you do and not wanting to participate in it anyway. But he won’t let you out, you’re gonna be stuck with him and under his eye, even though he’s going to leave you even bore yourself to death.
  • Everything is for your safety. It’s obvious you can’t leave no matter what. If you try, he will either yell at you or just close the door so that you can’t leave even if you try to. He can lock you in his room or handcuff you to something so that he’s sure you won’t escape from him. He wants to be in charge and so, he will expect you to do whatever he tells you to, even if he won’t order you around too often. But if he tells you to eat, he expects you to eat. If he wants you to go to sleep, you have no choice but to comply. Because if you keep being stubborn, he may eventually snap. If he’s mad, he will yell at you, saying a lot of awful things. And if it goes too far, he’s also ready to hurt you physically: either hit you, push you roughly onto a wall, slap you… Apologizing him right away is the only way to make him calm down, because his wrath never lasts too long.
  • As the time passes, he’s going to be more paranoid and nervous. He will take over your life with force, expecting you to fulfill every single of his weird expectations. It may be to the point of him not letting you eat what you want and giving you what he wants you to eat. He’s the type of a person to destroy himself from inside, at some point his mental health eventually gives up. He’ll become unstable and distracted, snapping every time something goes not as planned.
  • His psyche at some point won’t be able to afford it, it’s just too much for him. He doesn’t understand what’s wrong with him, but he will carry on lying that he’s doing the best he can and that you’re happy. There are two possibilities as to how it may end: either he will become completely apathetic, devoid of feelings and eventually so depressed that all his actions will be only “mechanical”, he will actually stop caring about everything around. The other option is that he will become unstable to the point of deciding to take your lives as it’s too dangerous for you to carry on living. So he will kill you and then - himself.

It went a bit more angsty than planned. 

JERMY FARTZ (S2E4) MASTERPOST: NO BREAKING INTO PARTS, WE SCROLL LIKE MEN

I laugh at that name every time, and I’m not even sorry.

So I haven’t touched the 2 latest episodes because I’m lazy, but this was so much fun that I had to devote some time screaming to it! So get ready kids, because there is screaming (and spoilers) below the cut.

Though first: someone who’s never seen Camp Camp tell me what’s going on in this picture:

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haute-couture-and-other-things  asked:

Hey love! I adore Dany and certainly want to see her sit on the iron throne (or just find a house with a red door and have a beautiful family with Jon, I'm kinda conflicted haha) but I am kinda worried. I was wondering, how are you interpreting all these sings that Dany is turning into a mad queen? Like Varys and Tyrion talking about it, people constantly making remarks about her cruelty, crucifying people, burning people alive etc. I really don't want to see her become a villain:(

I don’t think Dany is turning into the Mad Queen. I don’t think the show will have two Mad Queens and the Mad Queen role is clearly being filled by Cersei who has now:

1.Blown up the Westerosi equivalent of the Vatican thereby assassinating the former queen and murdering several innocent people.

2. Directly contributed to the suicide of her son and then blamed him for that suicide calling him a traitor.

3. Poisoned a young girl and then left her chained to a wall to force her mother to watch.

4. Ordered her “Frankenstein’s Monster” bodyguard to rape a nun who she just nearly waterboarded with wine. 

I understand why Cersei has lost her sanity. I like Cersei and think she is an incredibly interesting villain with a complexity that we don’t see often on TV. I am not here to criticize Cersei.

But Cersei is demonstrably the Mad Queen character. She even used the wildfire–the weapon that was the undoing of the Mad King when he threatened to use it on his people. 

Meanwhile, the only people making remarks about Dany’s cruelty are Cersei (who is clearly lying to get people on her side. She called Sansa a murdering whore. Do we believe that? No. So why do we believe her claims about Dany?) and the antis in the fandom who don’t like her character.

Crucifying the masters was a mistake. It was vengeful. But it wasn’t the same as murdering good and innocent people without provocation. She was younger and still learning how to rule. She walked into a society that CRUCIFIED YOUNG INNOCENT CHILDREN to deliver a message. So her crucifixion of those men was a message right back. It was an over-correction but there was logic to it and it wasn’t “mad.”

Here are the people Dany has burned: 

Mirri Maz Duur who murdered Dany’s unborn child and deliberately turned Drogo into a catatonic vegetable.

The warlocks in the HOTU who were going to keep her and her dragons prisoner forever.

Kraznys and his men who would have unsullied murder newborn babies and who was a slaver. He traded human life as property and sanctioned murder. He had it coming.

Other slave masters after there was a mass killing of innocents in her city that she knew was planned by masters. 

Sons of the Harpy who were indiscriminately murdering people at the time. 

The khals who threatened to imprison and rape her, and who were at the time imprisoning the women unfortunate enough to be former khaleesis in a broken and backward patriarchal society. The same khals who sanctioned a culture like that she saw under Drogo that allowed the raping and pillaging of innocents. Dany has made it clear in her discussion with Yara last season that she won’t tolerate that kind of world anymore. That’s righteous, not mad. 

The last people she burned were the slavers who were literally bombing her city with fireballs.

None of these actions strike me as mad. 

On to Tyrion and Varys. The discussion in episode 2 with Varys did seem strange and I wasn’t a huge fan of it but to be clear she said she would burn Varys if he betrayed her, and she also made it clear that she doesn’t consider betrayal to be a minor deviation from blind loyalty. In fact, she encouraged him NOT to be blindly loyal to her and to tell her when she messes up. So if he refuses to do that and be a true ally and he betrays her, why would it be mad to kill him? All leaders in Westeros, even Jon Snow, kill traitors. It’s known as the penalty of treason. The only difference is that Dany uses her dragons. 

We know that in episode 5 she will burn the Tarlys, who are traitors. People are freaking out about this because apparently in addition to that, Tyrion and Varys will discuss it afterward and worry about Dany’s choices. This is ridiculous to me.

In episode 2 they promised to tell her to her face if they were worried about the way she was ruling. And already they are the ones who aren’t holding their word. But the fandom’s first instinct is to criticize Dany?

The Tarly scene hasn’t even happened yet so I am hesitant to comment on it to much, but whatever. I’ll go for it. From what we know, The Tarlys are double traitors. They were bannermen to Olenna Tyrell and they betrayed her by turning to Cersei. They lose the battle and Dany gives them the option to swear fealty to her instead or die as traitors. They refuse, and she kills them. 

I know that we think death by fire is barbaric, and I’m sure it is awful. But this has always been what Dany has done. I don’t know why only now people are questioning this and criticizing it so much. Additionally, her killing them by fire scares the other prisoners so much that they all immediately swear fealty. We can safely assume that if they had refused, they would have been executed as traitors along with the Tarlys, and death is death. Dying by the axe or noose later is not better than being afraid of Dany’s dragons and making the better choice. So her dragons serve a valuable function in this instance. 

And we have reason to believe that even when she is most angry, Dany will still see reason. As she has pointed out, she could have gone to King’s Landing by now and taken it from Cersei. Then Cersei wouldn’t be someone Euron wants and she wouldn’t have his fleet. She wouldn’t have been able to destroy Dany’s allies. Dany is losing because she’s being merciful and the opposite of mad. She has had the option to take the more violent route and time and again she refuses to do it. Even Jon during their first meeting said he can tell she is too good a person to kill innocents.

Next episode she will be so angry about all of her allies being destroyed under Tyrion’s strategy that she will propose flying to King’s Landing again, but Jon will talk her out of it and she will fly to intercept the Lannister troops leaving Highgarden instead which is where the Tarly incident will occur. 

So basically with all of this evidence it’s safe to say that Dany isn’t going mad. Not by a long shot. 

Dean: Honesty and Happiness

@bluestar86 and I somehow keep cross-referencing ourselves (see this post about honesty and being set free), here’s my view on the honesty portion of season 13′s theme for Dean.

Due to Cas’ death, Mary’s apparent death and the awfulness of it all, Dean is broken. He is broken to the point of not caring anymore about a facade, he is broken and resigned to the point of telling the truth, the whole truth, not just snippets, but it ALL to Sherriff Barker…

And we have this speech. Not only is Cas the consistent number 1 reason for Dean’s grief, anger and eventual hopelessness in this episode but in this speech about honesty we see Dean visibly upset at this, the mention of Angels.

Need we say more about what the key is to this whole theme for him this season.

Of course this is just episode 1 but we hope that this continues as it should throughout his grief, that we see more of the real Dean underneath and more honesty overall. Some of it will be kind of awful to watch I’m sure but in the most part it should work a little like this with the sheriff here, where thanks to being honest they can move forwards and they have the most likely good outcome. 

He should be rewarded for telling the truth.

This is huge development for Dean if so.

In 13x01 we also see why Dean has held back the truth and the terrible outcome of it both through Jack’s exposition as his mirror (having to grow up so fast as a callback to Dean’s childhood that led to Performing!Dean and his sense of self-loathing and not being good enough) and Miriam saying that it’s Dean’s fault that Cas is dead. 

This is a burden he has long held with expositions along the way like Hester in season 7 (when he first laid a hand on you he was LOST!) and 12x12′s death scene where Cas himself inadvertently blames Dean for his demise (because he doesn’t see it this way but Dean does) and we see Dean angry at himself for it. The thing is, only two people can convince Dean that he is not bad for Cas, that he deserves him and happiness, that Cas would choose him every time. That is Cas and Dean himself. They are the ones who through honesty can fix this. Others show them their fears and expose for us why they are holding back. 

ONLY THEY CAN FIX IT AND ONLY BY BEING HONEST AND FEELING THAT THEY EACH DESERVE HAPPINESS AND EACH OTHER.

They each individually have to get to this point. Either separately then together or together to help each other get there, it depends how they want to tell the story. But this is where they need to end up.

So Dean now blames Jack for Cas’ death. He says he brainwashed him, it’s Jack’s fault and first he wants to end him but now he is resigned to the fact that he can’t kill him so he just wants to stop him from killing anyone else, regardless of the danger to himself, and TELLINGLY to Sam too. He doesn’t try to tell Sam to leave, to protect himself. This is EXTREMELY interesting in terms of Dean’s character growth from Sam’s parent to his equal.

So Dean did blame himself for Cas’ demise in the past and now has shifted this to Jack. Perhaps he still does in part blame himself or perhaps Jack will textually prove that he is not to blame for Cas’ death and revert that blame to Dean. Perhaps Dean won’t blame himself for too long but will just see that his holding back stopped Cas from having potential happiness and for himself. 

Either way it seems Dean will learn that honestly IS the best policy. It seems likely.

For so long Dean has been holding back his love from Cas because he thought he didn’t deserve it and due to his own hang ups. Hang ups that have been blown away at just the right time to help him move forwards with this, but gosh darnit, such bad coincidental timing, Cas died immediately. Shoot.

He has now lost him. Things are at the worst they could be. Dean is at the lowest point. Doing this, holding back, did not solve anything. He may as well have let himself have what he wanted. He may as well have been HONEST. Either this death would have happened anyway but he could have had a short period of happiness or who knows, it could have prevented this awful outcome.

So emotional honesty and GIVING Cas his love rather than holding back could be the literal solution to the opposite of this awful situation he is in.

If this is the outcome of holding back… 

… what could be the outcome of giving him his love, accepting it in return, letting himself and Cas be happy and together?

Hopefully we should see Dean being honest in many different situations this season, about himself (I’m very hopeful for the winding down of Performing!Dean leading to Dean Emancipation Winchester), maybe even exterior things, who knows, but whatever it is they should lead to a good outcome. 

Wouldn’t it be amazing if Dean admitted to loving Finding Nemo to a kid and that helped them bond and led to defeating the monster under his bed. 

This will be telling for how the story is moving forwards.

Going through all this could really show Dean that giving his love and accepting Cas’ in return is how they can be stronger and happier and alive as the opposite sure led to this devastating separation, death and misery.

I am just glad we know that Cas is coming back. Seeing this from Dean’s POV at this point is the most heartbreaking thing I’ve ever seen.

Dean sweetie, tell him the truth. It will set you both free and you will be rewarded for your honesty I assure you.

x x

HOW TO WRITE A KICK ASS PARA SAMPLE THAT STANDS OUT


It has been a while since I’ve done a guide. This guide is going to be less about how to write something specific and more about roleplaying and writing. I’ve been roleplaying since about 2009 and I’ve been writing since about 2008. I joined Tumblr for roleplaying in 2010 and started as an admin in 2014. Now that I’ve been an admin, I have a better since of what other admins look for in a para sample. For those who haven’t done a lot of roleplaying or haven’t done a lot of roleplaying that requires an application, hopefully this will help you out. 

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I’ve only just realized how well Dramione could have worked as a couple (or almost couple), so I jotted down how I feel their relationship could have gone, from meeting until the end of the war. Maybe I’ll do beyond that later. I’m not a writer- it’s probably obvious and for that I’m sorry. 

Year one: Hermione and Draco meet in Ollivander’s. She’s adorable and nervous and excited when her wand sends sparks. She asks a lot of questions and he answers them all. He doesn’t know she’s muggleborn until the very end of their first conversation and then he wonders to himself if this is one of the “filthy Mudbloods” his father warned him about.

Draco takes an immediate dislike to Harry after being rejected in their first conversation. He secretly gets upset when Hermione is sorted into Gryffindor. For the rest of the year they don’t speak, but he sneaks looks at her and catches her eye from time to time. Sometimes she even gives him a smile.

Year two: Draco’s father spends the summer “educating” him about the purity of magical blood. Draco doesn’t really stop to consider if any of it could be true, but his father has a tendency to anger quickly and Draco craves his father’s pride, so he doesn’t question it. At a Quidditch practice, Hermione gives Draco a smile from the stands and he’s so surprised and happy that he beams back. But his Quidditch mates see him, so he spends his year overcompensating by throwing Hermione to the wolves. It breaks his heart a little every time. When she’s found petrified, he doesn’t sleep for a while. He can hardly eat. He catches her eye after she’s back, but she barely offers him a glance in return, and he knows he deserves it.

 

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